A Thousand Steps into Night
By Traci Chee
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Longlisted for the National Book Award
From bestselling and award-winning author Traci Chee comes a Japanese-inspired fantasy perfect for fans of Studio Ghibli. When a girl who’s never longed for adventure is hit with a curse that begins to transform her into a demon, she embarks on a quest to reverse the curse and return to her normal life, but along the way is forced to confront her true power within.
In the realm of Awara, where gods, monsters, and humans exist side by side, Miuko is an ordinary girl resigned to a safe, if uneventful, existence as an innkeeper’s daughter.
But when Miuko is cursed and begins to transform into a demon with a deadly touch, she embarks on a quest to reverse the curse and return to her normal life. Aided by a thieving magpie spirit and continuously thwarted by a demon prince, Miuko must outfox tricksters, escape demon hunters, and negotiate with feral gods if she wants to make it home again.
With her transformation comes power and freedom she never even dreamed of, and she’ll have to decide if saving her soul is worth trying to cram herself back into an ordinary life that no longer fits her… and perhaps never did.
Traci Chee
Traci Chee is the New York Times bestselling author of The Reader Trilogy; National Book Award finalist and Printz honoree, We Are Not Free; and the YA standalone fantasies Kindling and National Book Award longlist title, A Thousand Steps into Night. An all-around word geek, she loves book arts and art books, poetry and paper crafts, though she also dabbles at egg painting, gardening, and hosting game nights for family and friends. She lives in California with her fast dog.
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A Thousand Steps into Night - Traci Chee
Dedication
For the awkward, the different, the brave
Contents
Cover
Title Page
Dedication
Part I
1. The Abandoned Village of Nihaoi
2. The Verge Hour
3. Doro Yagra
4. The Lugubrious Priest
5. A Good Nap
6. Abandoning the Village of Nihaoi
7. Unsavory Types
8. Two Sides of a Coin
9. Bird Boy
10. On the Importance of Tradition
11. A Daunting Prospect
12. The Demon Doctor
13. Beyond Human Imagining
14. Carnage and Respect
15. A Seed, Taking Root
16. The Ochiirokai
17. Crane Daughter
18. A Confluence of Ghosts
19. A Series of Very Poor First Impressions
20. The Graves
21. The Word of a Girl
22. In the Forests Above Koewa
23. Malevolence Demon
24. The Tower
25. Last Son of the Ogawa
26. The Cost of Vengeance
27. Escape From the Keep
28. Guardian Spirit
29. God’s Teeth
30. The House of December
31. A Decision
32. The Twelfth Day
33. Shaoha
Part II
1. A Demon, A Human, A Teapot
2. The Kiss
3. Good Intentions
4. The Burning of the Inn
5. Hope and Despair
6. Feral Spirits
7. Demon at the Gates
8. That Dreaded Dawn
9. A Twist of Fate
10. The Favor
11. Baiganasu
12. Sleigh Ride
13. The Kuludrava Palace
14. Wrath of the Forest
15. Oh, Gods
16. The Desperate Lover
17. A Distant Star
18. God with a Thousand Eyes
19. A Vision of Shao-Kanai
20. The Crone
21. The Moon Door
22. Lost Souls
23. The Razing of Awara
24. Many Reunions, Not All of Them Merry
25. Strange Company
26. Sacrifices
27. If the World Survives
28. By Means of a Trick
29. A Woman of Awara
30. Mortal and Divine
31. The Unconventional World of Nihaoi
Acknowledgments
About the Author
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Copyright
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Part I
1
The Abandoned Village of Nihaoi
LONG AGO, in the noble realm of Awara, where all creation, from the tallest peaks to the lowliest beetles, had forms both humble and divine, there lived an unremarkable girl named Otori Miuko. The daughter of the innkeeper at the only remaining guesthouse in the village of Nihaoi,¹ Miuko was average by every conceivable standard—beauty, intelligence, the circumference of her hips—except for one.
She was uncommonly loud.
Once, when she was two years old, her mother was wrestling her into one of the inn’s cedar tubs when Miuko, who had no plans for a bath that day, screamed so violently that the foundations shook, the bells rang in the nearby temple, and a respectable chunk of the dilapidated bridge spanning the river a full quarter-mile away let out a horrified groan and slid, fainting, into the water.
This was mere coincidence. Miuko had not, in fact, been the cause of an earthquake (at least not in this instance), but several of the priests, upon hearing of her peculiar vocal faculties, rushed to exorcise her all the same. No matter what spells they chanted or incense they burned, however, they were ultimately disappointed to discover that she was not, in fact, possessed. Instead of a demon, what her parents had on their hands was merely a loud child. Worse, a loud girl.
Among other things, girls of the serving class—and indeed, girls of all stations in Awara—were expected to be soft-spoken, well-mannered, comely, charming, obedient, graceful, pliable, modest, helpful, helpless, and in every respect weaker and more feebleminded than men. Unfortunately for Miuko, she had very few of these qualities, and as a result, by the time she was seventeen she had discovered that she was not only able to frighten off a man with the power of her voice alone, but she also had regrettable inclinations toward spilling tea upon her guests, kicking accidental holes in the rice paper screens, and speaking her mind, whether or not she was invited to do so.
Her father, Rohiro, had the good grace never to say it—and by the time it mattered, her mother had long ago deserted them both—but Miuko knew it was her duty as an only daughter to attract a husband, bear a son, and secure her father’s legacy by passing on the family inn to future generations. Over the years, she’d learned to hide her opinions behind her smile and her expressions behind her sleeves, but despite her best efforts, she was ill-suited to being a girl of the serving class. She was simply too visible, and frankly, that made her unappealing, both as a servant and as a woman.
With few prospects, then, Miuko devoted her days to the upkeep of her father’s inn. Like the rest of Nihaoi, the guesthouse was failing. The roof was in need of thatching. The straw mats were in need of mending. She and Rohiro repaired what they could, and if they couldn’t repair it, they went without it. All in all, it was a quiet life, and Miuko was not (or so she told herself) unsatisfied.
Everything changed, however, the day she dropped the last teacup.
It was a late August afternoon, and nothing out of the ordinary was afoot. In the village temple, the priests sat cross-legged and meditated, to varying degrees of success, upon the order of the cosmos. In the teahouse, the proprietor weighed dried jasmine against brass units shaped like emperor butterflies. At the inn, a teacup slipped from Miuko’s fingers as she was putting it away and was dashed to pieces upon the floor.
Miuko sighed. Over the years, she’d damaged every single cup in the set. There were the ones she’d dropped, the ones she’d cracked as she cleaned them, the ones she’d cantered across the courtyard stones, pretending they were ponies (but that was ten years ago). Being ceramic, the teacups were nervous by nature, but Miuko’s clumsiness had so increased their anxiety that it seemed all she had to do was look at them, and they’d shatter.
Given that the only remaining cups were either chipped or seamed with glue, Rohiro determined that it was finally time to replace them. Ordinarily, he would have walked the mile to the potter’s himself; but, as he was currently nursing a broken foot, it was decided that he would remain at the inn to serve the only guest they’d had all week—a misanthropic silkworm farmer with one arm—while Miuko was dispatched to retrieve the teacups.
Taking an umbrella, she stepped eagerly out of the guesthouse. As a girl, she was supposed to be accompanied in public by a male relative at all times, but due to her mother’s absence and the deteriorating state of the inn, her father was admittedly lax on this custom, so Miuko had in the past been allowed to collect tea from the teahouse or eggs from one of the remaining farmers. Such errands, however, had always been confined to the village, and the prospect of venturing as far away as the kiln, well beyond Nihaoi’s borders, filled her with a giddiness she could not quite suppress.
Rohiro, a handsome, broad-shouldered man, watched Miuko from the doorway. Her mother used to say that Otori Rohiro was more beautiful than a man from a failing village had any right to be, and she’d often say it while threading her fingers through his thick black hair, or counting the laugh wrinkles at the corners of his eyes.
Not that Miuko remembered it very clearly.
The potter won’t like it,
Rohiro muttered worriedly.
In Miuko’s opinion, her father’s habitual muttering somewhat mitigated the effect of his good looks, for she thought it made him seem older than his forty-three years. He’d lost half his hearing as a child while swimming in the Ozotso River, when an eager geriigi² sucked it from his skull like a yolk from an egg, giving him a poor sense of how loudly or softly he was speaking.
Won’t like what?
Miuko asked. The fact that we won’t be able to pay him until the silkworm farmer checks out, or the fact that I’m a girl without a man to escort her?
Both!
She shrugged. He’ll just have to cope.
You sound like your mother.
Her father’s smile turned languid, the way it always did when he was thinking of his wife (beautiful, by all accounts, but completely unable to be brought to heel). You’re getting to be more like her every day.
In spite of herself, Miuko grimaced. Gods forbid!
He frowned, though his eyes were too soft for it. Instead of looking angry, as other fathers might, his frown only made him appear sad—or at best, quietly disappointed, which everyone knew was infinitely worse.
You could turn into worse things than your mother, you know,
he said.
Certainly.
The words flew from her mouth before she could stop them. I could turn into a demon.
Her father stilled, his face etched with sadness.
Inwardly, Miuko cursed her recalcitrant tongue. Sometimes, contrary to the conclusions of the priests, she was certain she was possessed, for no other girls she knew spouted off with every comment that popped into their heads. I’m sorry, Father.
She bowed deeply; for, loud and willful as she was, she had no desire to cause her father pain. Please forgive me.
With a sigh, he leaned over, kissing the crown of her head, the same way he’d done since she was a baby. You’re my only daughter. All is already forgiven.
She glanced up at him wryly. And if you had another daughter, would you be quicker to hold a grudge?
Chuckling, he nudged her toward the Old Road. Off with you now! And be quick. No one is safe at the verge hour.
She traipsed into the front garden, nearly clipping the camellia bushes with the tip of her umbrella. Dusk is more than an hour away!
she said.
Best not to chance it,
he replied. My great uncle’s cousin once knew a warrior who got caught out at sunset and came home with his head on backwards.
What?
Miuko laughed.
Rohiro shook his head. It was terrible. First his wife left him, then he broke both his legs trying to chase after her. Finally, he tried to cut his own throat, only he couldn’t get the angle right . . .
It occurred to Miuko that the wife’s departure should have told the husband quite clearly that she did not want to be pursued, but Miuko knew her father well enough to know that he’d just tell her she was missing the point.
The point, of course, was this: it was safest to be within human borders at dawn and dusk, when the veil between Ada and Ana—the worlds of the mortal and the spirit—was thinnest. Miuko’s mother had always been particularly wary of the verge hours, for it was during these times that demons attacked travelers for their unctuous, buttery livers, ghouls appeared in mirrors to steal human faces, and ghosts slipped from doorways to wring the necks of unsuspecting passersby underneath.
So superstitious had Miuko’s mother been that she would refuse to cross a threshold during sunrise or sunset. She’d kept spirit dolls upon the rafters, written blessings for the spiders weaving in the bathtubs, left crushed eggshells for the tachanagri³ living in the guesthouse walls.
Then again, she’d also stolen a horse and ridden off into the gloaming one evening while she was supposed to be fetching water for the dinner kettle, leaving Miuko, age nine, and her father at the table, watching their rice grow cold.
Since her mother had chosen braving the twilight hour over spending another second with her family, Miuko suspected, with some bitterness, that perhaps her mother hadn’t been so superstitious after all.
I’ll be back before sunset,
Miuko assured her father.
With all the teacups intact?
No promises!
Bowing again, she left the front garden and set off through the village with a bounce in her step. She passed vacant shops and crumbling homes, noting the doors coming out of their tracks and the mice scurrying through clefts in the foundations like violet luck sprites. To anyone else, the appearance of the village might have been cause for alarm, but to Miuko, who had only ever known such deterioration, it was beautiful in its ordinariness.
The sigh of floorboards sinking into the ground.
The slow creep of vines pulling down a wall.
Through the center of the village, Miuko trotted down the beaten gravel path known as the Old Road, which had in years past served as the primary route into Udaiwa, the capital of Awara. In ancient times, Nihaoi, only a half-day’s journey from the city, had catered to travelers of every stripe: noblemen and their vassals, lecherous monks, beggars, circus troupes that boasted choleric fortune tellers and dancing raccoon spirits, and, on at least four occasions, unmarried women.
Nearly three hundred years ago, in the aftermath of the Five Swords Era, the then-yotokai,⁴ Awara’s highest-ranking military officer—second only to the emperor himself in authority, and, for all intents and purposes, the actual ruling sovereign—had ordered the construction of the Great Highways to unify the realm. In the centuries since, traffic on the Old Road had dwindled, and Nihaoi had entered a sustained period of decline: taverns closed; stables, cobblers, and merchants forced out of business; farmers leaving their fields to fallow and rot; government emissaries, who had once been wealthy and complacent in their fine pavilions, all removed to other, more promising posts.
Since then, nothing in Nihaoi had gone untouched by decay: not the smattering of shops, or the temple, home to four lugubrious priests, not even the spirit gate, which marked the edge of the village. Generations of insects had left tunnels along the pillars, forming twisting labyrinths beneath the flaking vermillion paint. Lichens clung to the joists. The engravings, meant to be repainted each year with sacred indigo ink to renew their protective magic, had faded to a faint and ineffective hue.
Though she tried not to, Miuko could not help but think of her mother as she approached the gate. It had made quite the scandal for the tiny village, even sparking rumors that Otori Rohiro’s wife was in fact a tskegaira⁵—a spirit wife—who took human form to lure mortals into marriage. Although she did not believe in such things, per se, Miuko could not help but think that there had indeed been something odd and wild about her mother, something that now rushed through Miuko’s veins like a brisk stream or a southern wind.
Despite herself, then, she could not help but wonder how her mother had looked astride that stolen horse, its mane and tail the same flowing dark as a river at night. Had her mother glanced back even once, her oval face pale as the moon, before charging off into the wild blue countryside like a warrior from some ancient tale or a queen of shadow and starlight?
How melodramatic! Annoyed at herself, Miuko kicked at a stone, sending it clattering into a nearby boulder with a clack! that echoed through the ruined village.
It didn’t matter how her mother had looked, if she’d hesitated or not, for the end result was the same—she’d left. Miuko and her father had been abandoned, just like the rest of Nihaoi.
The borders had already been tightened once since Miuko’s mother had left, as businesses failed and families departed in search of more prosperous circumstances, but the potter had steadfastly refused to relocate, for both he and his wife claimed that the spirit of their dead son still haunted the kiln. Perhaps the boy broke the occasional vase or ceremonial urn, but on the whole, he remained a chatty, good-natured child, and none of them were prepared to sacrifice their happy family for something as frivolous as safety.
In general, this situation was of little inconvenience, for in daylight a mile on the Old Road, which hadn’t the traffic to attract unsavory types such as highwaymen and ravening monsters, was hardly dangerous. In fact, Miuko rather enjoyed the opportunity to stretch her legs, and with about an hour left before dusk, she had no reason for concern.
Leaving the gate behind her, Miuko walked cheerily along the Old Road as it wound through the abandoned fields. During the Five Swords Era, these plains had been the site of a great battle, when the powerful Ogawa Clan had ridden upon Udaiwa—stronghold of their enemies, the Omaizi—and were massacred on the fields. When she was a child, Miuko had longed to dig among the furrows with the boys her age, unearthing rusted arrowpoints and scraps of lamellar armor, but propriety had forbidden it; and, after hearing a number of harrowing tales about warrior ghosts rising from the earth, she’d decided that perhaps it was better if she played inside instead.
Swinging her umbrella, Miuko picked her way across the dilapidated bridge that spanned the Ozotso River, an emerald serpent that hissed and glittered along its steep banks as it meandered toward the capital. Once, the bridge had been broad enough for two carriages to comfortably pass, but the earthquake that had accompanied Miuko’s infamous tantrum had put an end to that. Now, with its half-rotten beams and a gaping hole on the downriver side, the bridge was scarcely wide enough for a single horse.
As she crossed, a lone magpie winged across the sky, clutching a golden medallion in its beak.
It was an ill omen, which Miuko did not see.
Then, among the weeds in the overgrown ditches, an insect chirped eleven times and stopped.
A portent of misfortune, which Miuko did not hear.
Finally, a chill wind gusted over the empty fields, shuffling the dead leaves in Miuko’s path to spell out a message of doom.
Perhaps if she had paid more attention to her mother’s stories, Miuko would have known that, in advance of some terrible calamity, the world would often be filled with warnings and opportunities to change one’s fate. But she did not like stories and, since her mother’s abrupt departure, had gone out of her way to avoid them, so she did not see the signs; or, if she did, she told herself they meant nothing. She was a straightforward girl with her head squarely on her shoulders, too sensible to be concerned with anything more than the look of the clouds, which appeared as if they were breaking up anyway.
If she had been paying more attention, perhaps she could have saved herself a great deal of trouble by promptly turning back the way she had come, although (unbeknownst to her) doing so would have had an equal chance of bringing about a cataclysm so swift and absolute that not even the abandoned village of Nihaoi would be spared.
Either way, she continued walking.
2
The Verge Hour
HAVING RETRIEVED THE TEACUPS from the potter, who thrice commented on how improper it was for a girl to be running errands, Miuko was on her way back to the village center, trying to avoid jostling the cloth-lined box of teacups tucked under her arm.
Out here near the old border, the village had entirely surrendered to ruin: collapsed roofs, saplings sprouting through floorboards, birds flitting through great gaps in the walls. As Miuko passed, mist began to rise from the nearby fields, floating eerily over the ditches. Somewhere in one of the abandoned farmhouses, a cat screamed.
At least, Miuko hoped it was a cat. According to legend, the thick fog of the river plains was said to be filled with the ghosts of slain Ogawa soldiers, who climbed from the earth with the mists, heavy with bloodlust. Naiana,¹ the villagers called the mist spirit vapor.
Under her arm, the teacups clinked nervously.
Giving the box a comforting pat, Miuko picked up her pace. She may not have paid much heed to her mother’s ghost stories, but she was not fool enough to linger where there might be vengeful spirits about.
She was passing the old mayoral mansion, with its collapsed gate and its ruined gardens, when she spied three children, wiggling and hopping on the road ahead.
There was a squawk, followed by a round of cheers. The children had surrounded a bird—an azure-winged magpie with an ebony head, gray body, and blue-tipped wings and tail. He limped along, dragging his right wing while one of the children circled him, prodding him with a stick. Flopping out of the way, he landed on his side and scrabbled up again as a second child struck him with a rock. The third was just rearing back to pounce when Miuko’s voice rent the air.
"Stop! Leave him alone!"
The children halted mid-step, gazes fixed on her, feral as little foxes.
One grinned at her with crooked teeth. Make us, lady!
Yeah, lady!
said another with narrow eyes.
Forgetting for the moment that she was not a warrior, but a servant girl who had never brawled with other children—and that she did not, strictly speaking, know how to fight—Miuko charged forward, swinging her umbrella in what she hoped was a menacing fashion.
The children scattered, shouting, Lady! Lady! Lady!
The one with crooked teeth hit her across the thighs with a stick. She tried to kick him, but tripped. She cursed her ineptitude, and then cursed her ankle, which twisted underneath her.
While Miuko regained her footing, one of the children turned around and lowered his pants, exposing his pale bottom, which she promptly smacked with her umbrella.
The paper tore. The bamboo ribs snapped.
The bottom turned red with hurt.
Shrieking, the boy leapt away, rubbing his backside.
The other two laughed and shoved him, and after a moment tussling among themselves, apparently forgetting Miuko altogether, they scampered off into the mist, leaving her alone with an injured ankle, a broken umbrella, and some very shaken ceramicware.
Collecting herself, Miuko looked around for the magpie, but all she could see now was the crumbling gate of the mayoral mansion and the black branches of a cloven pine peeking over the rooftops like a fork of lightning. The fog drew nearer, closing in about her like a noose.
Standing, Miuko tested her ankle. It wasn’t broken, but she’d have to hobble back to the village with twilight nipping at her heels. Quickly, she checked the teacups, touching them one by one with her forefinger: fine . . . fine . . . fine . . . shattered.
The jagged ceramic shards clinked against one another as she sifted through the box. Half the set was damaged, and the others were clearly rattled. Inwardly cursing her own clumsiness, Miuko tucked the pieces back into their places, smoothing out the cloth lining like a tiny shroud before closing the box again.
Could she do nothing right?
The cups were silent.
With a sigh, Miuko began limping back to Nihaoi with her broken umbrella and the cold fragments of the broken teacups sliding this way and that among their brethren.
The fog thickened. Darkness crept over the Old Road. Above, a slim crescent moon, no thicker than the needle of a silver fir, appeared in the mists. Nervously, she wondered if she were still headed toward the village, or if she had been turned around somehow, on some tortuous path spun by trickster spirits. Through the fog, she could have sworn she saw a shape, both massive and ethereal, fluttering overhead.
Had the sun fallen? Had she been caught out in the verge hour?
She stumbled through the fog, breaths coming faster with every step. It seemed like hours since her encounter with the rabid children, an age since she’d left the inn.
So when she saw the balusters of the dilapidated bridge emerge out of the mist, she nearly gasped with relief. Limping, she started forward, but before she could reach the bridge, a flood of cold struck her, frigid as winter.
The world spun. The box of teacups tumbled from her hands with a crash. The broken umbrella tipped into the road like a felled tree.
Reeling, Miuko peered into the fog, which swirled across her vision in dizzy spirals, shifting and parting, revealing trees, ruins, and a lone figure some twenty feet down the Old Road.
A woman.
No, not a woman.
She was dressed in the robes of a priest, but her skin was a vivid and enigmatic blue, like the most sacred of indigo inks, and her eyes were as white as snow, flicking over the road as if searching—no, hungering—for something.
Or someone.
Miuko staggered backward, startled. Spirits could be good or evil, tricksters or guides, but this one did not seem to be there to help her. Not with that ravenous look in her eyes. Yagra,
² Miuko whispered.
Demon. An evil spirit.
Seeing Miuko on the road, the creature stumbled forward, arms swaying at her sides. With a hair-raising shriek, she darted forward.
Miuko tried to run, but she was too slow, or the spirit was too fast. She was twenty feet away. She was close enough to touch. She was standing before Miuko, hair cascading over her shoulders like long strands of black kelp. Her hands were tangling in Miuko’s robes, drawing Miuko so close, she could feel the demon’s icy breath on her cheek.
Miuko knew she should struggle. If she’d been braver, or more adventurous, like her mother, she would have.
But she was not her mother, and she was not brave.
The creature was speaking now, whispering, the words like smoke upon the chill air. Frozen, Miuko watched the demon’s lips parting, heard the voice that was both a woman’s voice and not a woman’s voice at all, both human and not-of-this-earth: It must be so.
Then the spirit leaned forward, and before Miuko could stop her, pressed their mouths together in a perfect, round kiss.
3
Doro Yagra
MIUKO’S FIRST THOUGHT was that she was having the first kiss of her life, and she was having it with a demon.
The people in Awara had a word for that. Yazai.¹ More intense than mere bad luck, yazai was the result of all one’s evil thoughts and deeds compounded and turned back on oneself a hundredfold. Yazai was the reason the warrior in Rohiro’s story had had his head twisted backwards, and the reason his wife left him, and the reason he could not die honorably by his own hand. Yazai, or so it was said, was the reason Nihaoi was crumbling and returning slowly to the earth—the result of some long-ago transgression by one of the villagers against a powerful spirit.
Yazai had to be the reason this was happening to Miuko, though she had no idea what she’d done to deserve it. Being a mere girl of the serving class, she had scarcely considered things like divine retribution before, but given the circumstances, she was certainly starting to consider them now.
Which brought her to her second thought, or perhaps it was her third (at this point she couldn’t be bothered to keep count), which was that the kiss didn’t feel at all like she’d thought it would. True, she hadn’t given much thought to being kissed by a demon, but what she felt from the yagra was not passion, nor even desire, romantic or otherwise. Instead, what Miuko felt was the curious sensation of being split open: a tree hewn by the axe, a geode halved by the hammer. It was as if the kiss was cleaving her in twain, and inside the cavity of her chest, something was changing. A seed, taking root. Rot, spreading slowly, altering the flesh of a corpse.
Except she was not dead. Or at least, she hoped not.
Abruptly, the spirit thrust her back. Stumbling, Miuko caught a brief glimpse of the sickle moon, glowing faintly in the fog.
She lurched toward the bridge, her only thought of reaching the spirit gate at the border of the village. If the gate’s failing magic still held, the demon could no longer pursue her. Inside human borders, she would be safe.
But she felt no chill breath on the nape of her neck, no hooked fingers clawing at her wrists. Perhaps the demon had let her go. Perhaps she had escaped.
Miuko squinted in the gray air, though she knew that if she couldn’t even see the massive hole in the bridge, somewhere off to the side, she could hardly expect to see a demon moving quicker than her eyes could follow.
She wobbled on, clinging to the railing.
Then: the drumming of hooves.
It came from behind her—the steady rhythm of iron shoes on