The Bletchley Women
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A stunning new historical novel perfect for fans of Kate Quinn and Dinah Jeffries!
From debutante to farmer’s daughter all roads lead to Bletchley…
In a different world, Evie Milton would have accepted her fate, married an aristocrat, and become the doyenne of one of England’s finest estates, just like her mother.
In a different world, Rose Wiley would have married her fiancé, David, established a modest homestead, and brought up a brood of babies, just like her mother.
But this isn’t a different world and these women are not their mothers. Rose dreams of a life filled with more than family and duty to her husband – a life of purpose – and Evie dreams of a life far away from her rarefied existence. Now, as they perform vital work at Bletchley Park decoding intercepted Luftwaffe messages, their role in turning the tide of war in the Allies favour shows Evie and Rose they don’t have to settle for the life once laid out before them.
Patricia Adrian
Patricia Adrian always wanted to write books, ever since she penned (literally, with a pen) her dozen-page long ‘novel’ in fifth grade. Her interests also include history (especially women in history), skulking around social media for much longer than she should, and reading, particularly when she’s on a tight deadline and should be writing instead.
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The Bletchley Women - Patricia Adrian
Prologue
Rose
July 1940
If someone had asked me yesterday how I’d feel about riding in the back of an Army lorry, blindfolded, towards an unknown destination, the last thing I would’ve said would have been ‘cold’. And rather annoyed that my carefully concocted plan had been blown to pieces. Even worse, nobody had bothered to tell me where we’re heading. They seem to conceal the destination from me on purpose.
If someone had asked me yesterday, I’d have recited the entire range of human emotions tied to the combination of a blindfold and a trip in a military vehicle during a desperate and annihilating war: gut-wrenching, nauseating fear; worry for the future or if, indeed, there is even going to be a tomorrow; paralysing anxiety about what I have said and to whom in the past week or about that incident four days ago when I forgot to pull the blackout curtains at my bedroom window – and what if it has been interpreted as an attempt to send signals to the Nazis. The ARP wardens in my town can be very particular.
As I sit here on the hard metal bench, the feeling that sends my teeth clattering is the cold. I wish my aunt had warned me to put on a pair of stockings, at least, but who would have thought? Heavens, it’s the middle of summer and I had left the jacket of my utility suit in the small leather suitcase at my feet. I keep nudging it with the tips of my toes, to make sure it’s still here.
I’m tempted, I’ll give you that. Tempted to open my luggage and ransack through it until I find that jacket. It wouldn’t be hard, I don’t think. I’d just have to feel for the three large buttons, for the padded shoulders. That is, if it weren’t for this gale flapping the covers of the lorry. How would I know if the wind picks up my knickers or my brassieres? I’ve burnt though almost all of my coupons for the year, and a pair of knickers would cost me two.
‘Is someone there?’ It’s a woman’s voice, trembling. With cold? Fear?
I’m about to reply, I’m here, when a man says, ‘No talking.’
My aunt didn’t warn me about any of this.
The plan was to be closer to David. Closer to London. A job in London, if I’m not mistaken, was what my aunt promised at Christmas when she rambled on about the Ministry of Food. What does the Ministry of Food have to do with a bunch of girls, bundled up in a lorry, going nowhere? Well, we must be going somewhere, though we’re probably sliding further and further away from London. From David. Anger bubbles up in my stomach.
‘Where are we going?’ I ask, shuddering.
‘Shut up. We’re almost there.’
The lorry takes on a smooth ascent, and in the distance a train whistles. And then, just like that, it stops with a jolt. The same man, I think, helps me get down from the back, as I weave through two sets of legs, presumably from two young ladies like me. There’s the sound of a door slamming, and a man calling, ‘Oi, what did you tie their eyes for?’ he says, and fingers are moving at the back of my head, releasing my blindfold.
‘Orders,’ says the man who rode with us in the back – an Army officer, from what I can tell. ‘It’s secret, isn’t it?’
But I’m not looking at him anymore. I’m absorbed by the view: barbed wire crowning a sort of concrete wall, its course interrupted by two metal railing gates, in front of which our lorry is parked. There’s a hut next to the gates, and two guards flanking them. Behind it, a few hundred feet from us, is the most unusual building I ever saw: it’s red brick laced with white marble, with towers and house façades in different styles blended together.
In the corner near me, the tower is plump, has six sides, and it’s topped by a roof shaped like a bell. Its ground floor melts into a conservatory, jutting out on one side, all white marble arches. Then there’s a façade that makes me think of the houses in Amsterdam I’ve seen on postcards. Its top is crenellated, but with a round closed balcony at the first floor – blacked out, of course.
Next to it, the mansion changes its appearance again with a length of bay windows extending on the ground and first floor, all lined in gorgeous white marble, that continues to the side in a triple arch, like a covered terrace. The house seems to say ‘Tudor mansion’ and ‘Tuscan villa’ at the same time – the most extraordinary combination I ever laid my eyes on.
‘Where are we?’ I ask the Army officer, while he pushes me towards the guards’ hut. I brush by the other two girls I came with, not registering their faces. ‘Where are we?’
‘More inside,’ he barks, hurrying me along. ‘You talk a lot, miss.’
‘Welcome to Bletchley Park,’ says one of the guards, a man about my father’s age with a drooping moustache.
Bletchley Park? Hmm.
I am still none the wiser.
I may have no clue about where I am, but I certainly know what brought me here.
It was Aunt Mavis, of course. Last Christmas.
Aunt Mavis doesn’t have a family of her own, so my parents always invite her to stay at our house for the winter holidays. One of them invites her full-heartedly (my father) and one of them with mock apprehension and worry about Mavis converting her daughter to a sort of feminist mindset (that would be my mother). And almost every year for Christmas, my aunt refuses them, claiming ‘different arrangements’, only for us to wake up on Christmas morning with the buzz and hum of her Austin 7, settling into a spot right in front of our farmhouse.
Of course, this happened last year, too. I woke up to the sight of her elegant car, with its square cabin for driver and passengers, like a carriage box, the long snout ending in a triangular grille, the two headlights that resembled a funny pair of spectacles. My aunt was so elegant, too, with her tailored coat and buttoned leather ankle boots and silk stockings. I’m twenty years younger and she made me feel old and dusty in my flowery dresses.
By the time I descended from my bedroom and into the dark corridor, my aunt hadn’t finished fussing with her suitcase – which always contained a box of beautifully wrapped chocolate pralines from Selfridge’s – and my mother was tying up the laced-trimmed apron she always wore when we had guests, rolling her eyes, and murmuring something about ‘modern arrangements’. For years I hadn’t known why there was so much fuss about the arrangements, not until the winter holidays of 1934, when certain discussions made my mother’s mouth much looser around all the sharp edges. The famed ‘arrangements’ had, in fact, to do with the birds and the bees, and, in my aunt’s case, often involved a set of broken promises and a man with a family he had to be with for Christmas.
These are the sorts of arrangements that are much frowned upon in the small town in Norfolk where I come from. The mothers would have none of that. But my father and Aunt Mavis’s own mother was long gone by then so there was no one to tell my aunt off.
And nor was there anyone to tell her that even if a set of people invite one for Christmas dinner, some opinions remain uninvited.
The dinner felt like a bad omen from beginning to end. My mother was piling up my aunt’s plate with mashed potatoes, green beans, and her famous gravy, right on top of the roasted leg of lamb that was the crown jewel of the dinner she prepared to impress. ‘You don’t get that in London, do you, with all the rationing?’ my mother asked.
‘One learns to get by,’ said Aunt Mavis.
‘Sure, if you work for the Foreign Office,’ said my father with a smile. By that point, I was barely seeing my father smile.
Not since that day in September, when Prime Minister Chamberlain announced that we were at war with Germany. Since then, he had forgotten how to smile, how to laugh, and how to do many, many things around the house and the farm. My father seemed to have lost himself in his own murky stare, a swamp of memories from the Great War that gushed out from where they’d stayed hidden for so many years.
‘Yes, of course,’ said my mother. ‘Other rules apply for government officials than for the rest of us.’
Aunt Mavis raised her hallmark thin, arched eyebrows. Aunt Mavis wasn’t a beautiful woman – her features were too sharp. But there was something in the way she carried herself that must have made men stop in their tracks. Married men, apparently, more often than not. ‘It is certainly not like that. I only referred to the fact that one comes to know people from all walks of life. This happens when a woman works in a position like mine.’
By the way my mother narrowed her eyes, I could tell where this conversation was heading, like a train at full speed.
‘Rose could also learn to network in the same way, of course, if she were in a similar position,’ continued my aunt, directing her stare at me.
I busied myself with my plate, dragging a chunk of meat through the gravy. The entire conversation was uncannily similar to the one we’d had five years before. Except that, since then, I had changed sides. I was on my mother’s side now.
‘And are there any positions for a girl like Rose?’ asked my father too quickly, in a way that made me suspect this entire conversation was choreographed.
This was all the confirmation I needed – it was my fate they would go on about. And like five years ago, I’d be no more than a spectator. I wasn’t expected to have an opinion about what was best to do with my own life. I could just as well have been watching a cricket match – that’s the sort of influence I’d have on the final result.
‘Well, since you ask, Albert, there are,’ said my aunt. ‘I’ve heard about so many positions with the Ministry of Food, for instance.’ I still stared at the plate, feeling the drill of Aunt Mavis’s eyes. ‘Clerical work. There’s so much to be done now, with all the food rationing.’
‘In London?’ asked my mother.
‘Yes, in London, mostly,’ replied my aunt. ‘But I could make some enquiries.’
‘Did you hear that, Rose?’ said my father, with so much hope in his voice that it broke my heart. Because I knew that if he asked me, I would break his.
Five years ago, the conversation had revolved around whether I should go to grammar school or not. My father had been losing to my mother’s arguments of: ‘She doesn’t need so much learning to make a good wife’, or ‘Too much school does something to girls’ heads; look at your sister,’ (that would be Aunt Mavis). No amount of ‘times are changing’ or ‘four more years of school won’t do any harm. You don’t want to marry her off at fourteen, do you?’ could persuade my mother that too much school wasn’t the shortest path to a life of spinsterhood.
So, back then, my father had brought out his most powerful weapon, which was Aunt Mavis. She was the one who managed to pierce through my mother’s armour, and off I went to four more years of school. Which I didn’t mind at the time: it was certainly an exciting prospect at that point and I did, even then, prefer reading to actual farmwork. And, as always, there was a lot of farmwork at home. But, of course, that was before David. So, last year my views about continuing my education and self-improvement and so on were quite different from what they had been four years previously.
‘Yes, Father,’ was all I managed to say.
‘Did you hear that Rose is engaged?’ said my mother, at which point I risked a glare at her pursed lips.
‘Yes, I have,’ said Aunt Mavis. ‘I’ve even brought a bottle of champagne to celebrate.’
‘Posh,’ I said, trying to smile.
‘You can meet David tomorrow, when we go to the Fosters’s house for Boxing Day lunch,’ said my mother. ‘You know, it will be just us, the extended family.’
‘Isn’t she a bit too young to marry? She’s only nineteen.’ Determination faded into concern on my aunt’s face and I couldn’t resent her, even if she planned to take me away from my darling David. If she’d known how it would break my heart to a million pieces if I had to part with him, she’d never have insisted. Butterflies started waltzing in my stomach at the thought of the dance we were going to together that evening.
‘Why wouldn’t she marry if she’s found a good man?’ said my mother. That was what had saved her from a bleak life spent in service, all those years ago. A good man at the right time, when men were in such high demand after the Great War. A man with a farm she could call her own.
‘But they don’t need to hurry, do they, Betty?’ said my father. ‘The lease on the flat doesn’t expire for another year.’
‘David and Rose will take over his father’s shop in town once they’re married,’ my mother explained. ‘But they don’t have a place to live because the rooms above the shop are rented to a RAF officer’s wife and their two children. He’s stationed somewhere in Africa.’
‘Cairo,’ I said in unison with my father. What I didn’t say was that we could have stayed with our parents, in theory. David was having none of that. And nor would I. Imagine the two of us, frolicking in a bedroom next to my parents. Or us having to live with his mother. Not that I have anything against his mother – but every minute of every day?
‘The officer is coming back at the end of next year, and then David and Rose can move in,’ continued my mother.
‘I wouldn’t plan anything beyond tomorrow,’ said Aunt Mavis. ‘We are at war.’
‘It isn’t much of a war,’ said my mother.
And it was true. After Germany had invaded Poland, nothing had happened. Only waiting and rationing and more waiting and trench-digging. Not even an errant German aeroplane came to bother us. So we all carried on waiting.
‘Not for the Polish,’ said Aunt Mavis. ‘And I wouldn’t count on this quiet lasting. The war has just begun.’ She then turned to me. ‘It will be like the last war. The war will bring women out of their homes and into men’s jobs.’
‘Why would Rose want a man’s job?’ asked my mother, and, indeed, I couldn’t help agreeing with her.
My father, also reduced to a quiet onlooker, began stuffing his pipe in a way that made me think he wanted to murder that tobacco, not smoke it.
‘Rose could do so much more,’ said my aunt. ‘She’s such a clever girl. There are so many opportunities for young women out there.’
‘She could go to university,’ said my father.
‘Yes, she could,’ said my aunt, nodding.
My mother pursed her lips. ‘Why on earth would Rose need a university degree to run a shop?’
‘But maybe Rose wants to do more than that,’ said my aunt, flicking an imaginary dust mote off her silk shirt. And then it struck me. My aunt had her elegant car and her elegant clothes and her perfectly applied lipstick because there was nothing else in her life she could spend her money on.
She had her pristine red nails, and her lovely ankle boots, and no one else in her London flat for Christmas. I thought, she isn’t trying to persuade me that she lives the perfect life. She’s trying to persuade herself of that. And I didn’t want her life. I wanted David.
As if she could hear what I was thinking in the remotest corner of my mind, she turned her green eyes towards me. Icy-green, like my father’s. ‘Rose, really, is this what you want?’
I got to my feet, the question surprising me like a slap. My parents rarely bothered to ask me what I wanted – my mother poked me towards marriage, while my father sulked or brooded.
And all the while, I kept my steady course, doing my best to jump from moment to moment when I could be alone with David. But all of a sudden, my own eyes, something between the dreamy green of my father’s and the earthly brown of my mother’s, were open wide. I took in the dim interior of the parlour and the windows that my mother had painted black to spare money for the blackout curtains; we barely used this room – only for occasions like this. I took in the heavy table that my father had inherited from his father, the deep scratches within the wood hidden under a white tablecloth, starched to crispness. I took in the dusty fabric of the very chairs we sat on, the heavy-set glass-doored cabinet in a corner of the room, with its porcelain figurines; among them reigned a Royal Doulton of a shepherdess that my parents received at their wedding. That was where I was heading: to the cabinet to pick up the finest glasses that my mother owned.
I fingered the etchings on the glass which was as wide as half my palm at the bottom and which opened upwards even more, like a fan. I grabbed two glasses at a time by the thin legs that supported their entire weight, wondering whether they were suitable to drink champagne from or not. Whether they were elegant enough.
‘Rose?’ asked my aunt as I placed the first glass in front of her. ‘Did you hear me?’
And for a moment it all lay in front of me, clear like the crystal glasses. My entire life with David. Our home, our parlour, our shop. ‘Oh, yes,’ I told my aunt, ‘I’m precisely where I want to be.’
And I was. Back then, I was. Now, I have no idea where I am, and where or what we are all heading towards.
Part One
The Girls
June 1940
One month earlier
Chapter One
Rose
As the Germans roll into France, my aunt’s warnings ring louder and louder in my ears. But that’s the last thing I want to hear. I much prefer David’s voice. We meet at the toolshed, and I sink into his arms. He undoes my colourful headband, releasing a tangle of dark-blonde curls onto my back. These days, I don’t think much about going to the hairdresser’s. All I can focus on is the feel of David’s warm hands, insinuating themselves between my shirt and my skin, caressing my back. His palms are callused and roughened, and I want to keep kissing them for all that they’d become while he helped us. Instead, I close my eyes and he leans his head onto mine.
‘I’ll have to go, you know,’ David says in a thick voice.
‘Where to?’
‘The RAF, I think.’
I jolt back, catching his hand between my collar and my neck. He releases it without looking at me.
‘What are you talking about?’ I say, though I know very well the answer to my own question.
My aunt told me all about the war, and how we won’t be able to escape it. I hadn’t been inclined to believe her. For a while, nothing happened – just waiting. For me and for David, and really it was more about waiting for the rooms above the shop to be free than for anything else. The war lost itself in the tall grasses of daily worries, and of farmwork.
There was so much to be done that I couldn’t help but miss the grammar school and its quiet ways: classes followed by some reading in the evening, compared to the never-ending work at the farmhouse. No matter how hard I tried, the list of things to do never seemed to end. My arms remembered why I had been so eager to leave for school four years before, while the history books that I received as a prize at the end of my third year lay forgotten in a corner of my bedroom.
There were sheep to be milked, and the chicken pen needed mucking and fixing. I went about the job with a hammer I found in the toolshed and some old wooden planks, kept from when my father had redone the stables. There was no more of that, as he found it more and more difficult to rise from his bed. He barely did so when spring blossomed and there was work to do in the fields. We spoke about hiring a farmhand, but then David offered to help us.
His soft hands bled and hardened into farmer’s ones, while I taught myself to drive the tractor. We could only dream of getting away from it all in a few months’ time, with nothing else to worry about except the shop.
And then events started hurtling towards us, channelled through the speakers of the wireless set. German tanks rolled through half of Europe in the blink of an eye, striking closer and closer to home. Norway, Belgium, the Netherlands.
We entrenched ourselves on our little island, and I started perusing my history books again, as if trying to find reassurance in wars past that we couldn’t possibly lose this one. The calls for digging for victory became louder and louder and there was talk of commissions roaming through the country’s fields, looking to fine lazy farmers. So, when the RAF built a hangar partly on our outlying fields, relief coursed through my veins like molten chocolate, of which I hardly saw the likes any longer.
The RAF, so close to my home now. I can’t say that I’m surprised by David’s decision. But I can’t find the words to agree with him, either.
David has a lot of words for me, it seems, though. ‘It’s better if I sign up for myself, Rose. I can pick the service I want to be in. It’s no good to stay around and wait to be called up by the Army. I don’t want to be in the Army. So I thought—’
‘This is nonsense. You don’t know if you’re going to be called up. Why serve yourself up on a silver platter?’ I ask, knowing already it’s as good as battling the wind. I can’t stop David from going any more than I can stop the war. My aunt was right. We shouldn’t have trusted the quiet. It couldn’t possibly have lasted. The war is here, bending our lives. I want to ask, what about me? What about our dreams? What about the life we were meant to start? Together.
‘Rose,’ he says, ‘don’t be unreasonable. Do you think I want to go?’ A strand of his dark hair falls onto his forehead, making him look heartbreakingly boyish. The smell of oil from the tractor becomes so pungent that I begin feeling nauseous.
‘No, I suppose not,’ I say, my heart in my throat. ‘It doesn’t suit me, does it?’ I gulp. ‘I suppose the RAF is a choice as good as any. My father says pilots were much safer during the Great War than the soldiers.’
My father told me a great lot of things that I’m not keen to hear. He gave me detailed and horrifying descriptions of life in the trenches, gangrene, dozens of soldiers caught in barbed wire while the aeroplanes were diving and dropping bombs. He must have seen my terrified face, because he returned from that faraway place, where all of these memories were coming from, and rushed to add that all he meant to say was that the RAF was probably safer than the Army.
There are no answers for this in my history books, considering the speed with which warfare is changing. The world has never seen the likes of it.
David catches me in his arms, squeezing me tight, leaning his chin in the place between my neck and my shoulder. ‘Yes,’ he says. ‘Yes. You must be right. You know so many things.’
The next day, while David registers for the RAF, I take a shovel and a spade to our flower garden. Yellow marigolds, rosebushes with red silken buds bleeding into bloom, daisies, lavender, foxgloves, shy pink peonies, tart mauve geraniums. A dance of shapes and colours. Lovely and useless in a time of war. What did the wireless say? Digging for victory. I stab the earth right underneath the peonies with the tip of the spade, driving the tool entirely into the mud, then put my entire weight into it. The peonies come out, root and stem. I roll them onto the side. The velvety pink, the soft opening of the blossom stained with earth. I pick it up and toss it to the side, into the empty wheelbarrow. I think, this is a time when beauty will go wasted. Who knows what else will go wasted, lying dead on its side long before its time should have come.
I grip the handle of the spade, biting again into the earth, pressing on and on, ruining flower after flower after flower. I catch my mother’s shadow moving behind the kitchen window, but not once does she come outside. She’s so proud of her flower garden. She used to put out a chair in the midst of the fragrant bushes on summer evenings to do some knitting and mending outside.
I think, this will be the least of the sacrifices we’ll have to make.
I turn towards the daisies, my back to the kitchen.
By evening, my arms ache so much that I can’t lift the spade anymore, and the garden has been reduced to gaping gashes where the flowers once were. The plants lie in a heap, corpses covered in mud and bleeding dust.
Chapter Two
Evie
My bloody father is as much of a bloody dictator as bloody Hitler. No, this isn’t friendly banter or the kind of benign exaggeration so popular amongst boys around my age, like my brother, Will. Papa is a sadistic, cold-blooded tyrant. What kind of man sends his driver to fetch his daughter from her secretarial school in London while she’s in the middle of her class, claiming a family emergency, and rushing her home to Kent only for her to find an empty house?
Well, relatively empty: the smattering of servants that stayed with us are going about their business in distant corners of their manor. If I didn’t know better, I’d say that they’re purposely staying out of my way, but with our footmen gone into military service and two of our maids deserting us at the beginning of the year – not yet replaced – and as much work as ever, who knows? My mother, by the way, isn’t at home either; she’s attending another of her WVS committees. She has had trouble enough replacing the nanny, so don’t get me started on staff these days.
I’m not like my family, you see. I don’t understand why I need to have an army of servants around me, catering for my needs. This is why I went off to the secretarial school, even though Mother pretended she fainted when she heard what I wanted to do. But I was about to go mad if I spent the war presiding over housewives who didn’t need to be told what to do for the evacuated children.
Oh. The children. My head might explode if I have to wait for Papa to come back from fox-hunting (I kid you not) and tell me about this family emergency. I could always ask the children – my little brothers – about what’s happening, about what sort of tragedy has befallen us. I certainly hope this isn’t about Will. Even if the scoundrel refuses to write to any of us, to a single member of this family, I can’t stop worrying about him. He joined the Royal Navy last year, you see. A few weeks before he sent me that baffling letter where he announced that he never wants to have anything to do with me ever again.
I still don’t understand what I have to do with Papa throwing Will’s lover into the street – the children’s former nanny, the now-infamous Elinor, about whom we never speak. I’ve done nothing wrong.
That’s Will for you, always keeping his cards close to his chest. If I remember correctly, none of his mates from Oxford wanted to play poker with him anymore. Which isn’t necessarily to say that he’s a cheater, only that he’s so good at bluffing, but who knows? Will has always done the strangest things for the strangest reasons.
Once he went to Oxford, he started being on friendly terms with the servants. I caught him more than once chatting in the library with the nanny (ha ha) and one of the maids – I’m not so sure which one anymore – and often when his Oxford set was visiting. My father said they were all communists (Will’s friends, I mean). In hindsight, after it was revealed that Elinor was his