No Wake Zone
By Amanda Lamb
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When the police call the death an accidental drowning, Maddie is not convinced. Everyone in the small town seems to know something about what happened, and they all seem scared. Maddie is determined to unravel the complicated web of secrets.
Wherever she turns, she seems to find unearth a new, uncomfortable truth. This even seeps into her personal life when new evidence comes to light about her mother's murder. Maddie's father has spent decades in prison for the crime, and she grows increasingly suspicious that he might be innocent. Maddie must continue to confront the ghosts of her past as she seeks justice for two men: one in a watery grave and one behind bars.
Fans of Megan Miranda and Kimberly McCreight will be captivated by Maddie's unrelenting search for the truth.
Amanda Lamb
Amanda Lamb is a professional television journalist with 23 years of experience. She covers the crime beat for an award-winning CBS affiliate in the southeast. Amanda is also the author of six books, a wife, and the mother of two little girls. She received her undergraduate degree from Duke University and her master's degree in journalism from Northwestern University.
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No Wake Zone - Amanda Lamb
Praise for Amanda Lamb
Amanda Lamb has crafted a compelling story… Maddie is definitely not dead last but out front, unearthing clues to the unfolding mystery. Keep digging, Maddie. Keep writing, Amanda!
–Scott Mason, author and Emmy-award-winning journalist
Amanda has a gift of taking the reader on a journey of intrigue, laughter, and insight into what can be the wonderful and troubling world of journalism. She opens the mind with a laser beam shot of reality and we are better for it.
–David Crabtree, award-winning television anchor and journalist.
I love the way Amanda Lamb plunges into a powerful plot and takes readers for a riveting ride! The writing is crisp and clean. The story is compelling. There's an authenticity in Amanda's prose thanks, in part, to the author's background as a top-notch television journalist covering crime stories. What an awesome debut as a novelist!
–Bill Leslie, former news anchor for NBC affiliate WRAL-TV
Amanda Lamb weaves together an intriguing mystery with a behind-the-scenes look at TV news. With 25 years of crime reporting, Lamb spins an authentic, compelling story about a reporter who finds herself in the midst of solving a murder. Readers will love the colorful characters & personal insights that make this mystery a must-read.
–Sharon O'Donnell, author and award-winning columnist
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Copyright © 2022, by Amanda Lamb
No Wake Zone: A Maddie Arnette Novel
Amanda Lamb
www.alambauthor.com
Published 2022, by Light Messages
www.lightmessages.com
Durham, NC 27713 USA
SAN: 920-9298
Paperback ISBN: 978-1-61153-425-2
Ebook ISBN: 978-1-61153-426-9
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This is a work of fiction. All characters, organizations, and events portrayed in this novel are either products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously.
Dedication
To my husband, Grif,
for sharing his love of the sea and boating with me,
and for being my safe harbor in every storm.
Prologue
There was something about the way my paddle broke through the water like it was slicing through a layer of glass. I could see my reflection on the smooth surface as the sun rose in the distance casting a reddish, orange glow on the horizon. All around me plump amber jellyfish swirled and bobbed, their long white amorphous tentacles trailing behind them down into the murkiness just below the surface.
Paddling on the Intracoastal Waterway was calm and safe. Docks jutted out within reach in front of the massive waterfront homes. This was comforting in case I ran into trouble and needed to get out of the storms that often came up quickly in this part of North Carolina. Even in the early morning, recreational boaters heading out to sea for a day of fishing traveled slowly in the well-posted No Wake Zone.
After the boats passed and their motors were just a distant whir, the only sound was my paddle pulling back the water with a tiny woosh and then brushing against my board with a shallow scraping sound. Boats tied up at the docks along the waterway rose and fell as I passed, straining against their lines, greeting me with their subtle groans.
I looked up as I saw my favorite gray pelican perched in a nest atop a channel marker, looking down at me like she was smiling. I didn’t know for sure if she was the same bird that I saw every morning or even if she was, in fact a she, but I made up stories about her and her travels along the coast. She nodded as I passed, bidding me good morning. Sometimes, I pretended she was my mother, Patty, long dead, reincarnated as this magnificent bird to watch over me. In that vein, I often spoke to her—giving her an update on my current life situation.
Top of the morning, Mom. Vacation is going great. Yes, I’m still doing a little work, a little writing, but getting away from the fray has been good for me.
The fray was an incredible understatement. I had ended up with a gun to my head while investigating my last murder case. Because of this, my boss had encouraged me to take a little break, which I agreed to do. I assumed that if my mother had the tenacity to come back as a bird, she already knew all this. I didn’t need to explain it to her.
To my left, the tide was low, and the marshes with their black oyster beds were uncovered, looking naked and unkempt with masses of green grass sprouting from the dark, mucky mounds. One step into their lushness would end in a severe cut to the foot as pieces of sharp shells littered the black sand.
Occasionally, I would see a blue heron in the marsh, standing at attention, looking royal, perched on a sandbar. At the slight sound of my oar breaking through the water, the heron would take off, its massive blue wings just skimming the surface as it ascended into the sky in a powerful display of nature’s untouchable and unpredictable beauty.
All felt right in the world when I was on my paddleboard. I had left the troubles of the previous months behind me. I was healing both physically and emotionally. I was feeling strong again. While my kids were not with me, they were safe and having fun at summer camp—a new experience for all of us, this independence that felt at once decadent and long overdue.
It was the beginning of a new season in my life—an intrepid news reporter who had traded crime for stories that made people smile, a widow and a single mother determined to be strong for my family. I certainly didn’t have everything I wanted and needed, but stability was coming into focus; it was within my grasp. I just had to paddle a little harder.
When my paddle caught on something in the water, I thought it might be a tangle of seagrass. I had seen huge piles of the stuff floating like barges down the waterway over the years. I also knew that while seagrass might snag my paddle, it wouldn’t feel like I was hitting something solid. This was different; this was not seagrass.
Slowly, I pulled my oar backward to turn the board around so I could retreat and look at what I had hit. I knew it could be a dolphin or a shark, so I quickly scanned the surface of the water for a fin. A shark fin moves back and forth; a dolphin’s fin goes up and down. I had learned this early on when I began paddleboarding. If you were lucky enough to see a dolphin, you followed it and watched its graceful dance arcing out of the water into the air and then down again. If you saw a shark, you quickly got yourself to the dock.
It also wasn’t uncommon to see the occasional stingray lounging in shallow water near the marsh, tipping one small part of its pointed body upwards, breaking the surface like a fin. Sometimes they even jumped sideways out of the water and careened majestically through the air with a trail of water cascading behind them.
Today, I saw no fins in the water. As I cautiously approached the spot where I had felt the thud, I saw something. I saw red and white flashes of material fluttering just beneath the surface. As I got closer, I realized it was clothing—red shorts and a white shirt, probably something someone had dropped off a boat by accident. Four strokes, and I landed right next to it.
I looked down into the water and realized it was not a pile of discarded clothing after all. It was a discarded person. The body of what appeared to be a young man on his back floated just beneath the surface, arms and legs flailed out like a starfish, his dark eyes wide open, staring back at me, begging me to help him. I had clearly arrived too late for help. His face was slack, sallow, and marred only by a single brown mole on his right cheek.
Suddenly, I heard a loud scream slice through the air and bounce off the sides of the houses along the seawall reverberating back across the water to me. I looked around to see where it might be coming from. Then, I realized it was coming from me.
1
First Call
Apparently he was missing. They had been looking for him for several days. He jumped off a party boat to go for a swim, probably drunk, and his friends couldn’t find him,
I told my best friend Louise over the phone, the words tumbling out of my mouth like I was running out of time. I was sitting in the front seat of a patrol car wrapped in a blanket waiting for an officer to come and take my statement. My husband, Adam, had always been my first call when I was in crisis. After he died due to complications from a malignant brain tumor in 2016, I discovered I had no one to call. Eventually, Louise became my first call—she never left my side even when I tried to push her away as hard as I could.
Honey, I can’t imagine finding a dead body in the water. What did he look like? Was he real bloated, was he blue?
Louise asked without shame.
Louise,
I said with a combination of real and mock horror. I didn’t examine him. He was just a man, a young man, floating in the water with his eyes open. It was so creepy.
I bet,
Louise said in a voice that begged me to tell her more gory details.
Even though I’ve seen so many autopsy photos and crime scene photos, it’s not the same as seeing a dead person up close.
I can’t imagine, honey, and after everything you’ve been through, that crazy person chasing you through the woods with a gun, you deserve a break.
I was supposed to be on a break. Back in the spring, while I was investigating a murder case in my hometown of Oak City, I had gotten in too deep. Now, I was supposed to be on a well-deserved sabbatical at the beach working on a true-crime podcast that I had always wanted to write.
My boss at Channel 8 News, Dex, while surly and stoic, had uncharacteristically embraced me in the hospital after the attack, albeit awkwardly, and told me to take as much time as I needed to fully recover. I got my doctor to sign off on three months of Family Medical Leave. I immediately started searching for an Airbnb I could rent for the summer along the coast and chose a small apartment overlooking the Intracoastal Waterway in the quaint town of Cape Mayson.
My 12-year-old twins Miranda and Blake had begged me to let them go camping in Maine for the summer, which solidified my plan for a peaceful, relaxing getaway until now.
I’m coming,
Louise said.
What?
I replied in a daze as I watched the officers rope off an area at the water’s edge with yellow crime scene tape. The sun was high in the sky now, blazing down on the surface, causing it to shimmer. The kaleidoscope effect felt all wrong given that this was now a crime scene, a dead man’s watery grave. A small crowd was starting to form just outside the tape—mostly people out for a morning run or a bike ride who had stopped to see what was going on.
I’m coming to Cape Mayson. You shouldn’t be alone right now. Plus, the boys are driving me nutty. I feel like I live in the car, taking them from one sports camp to another. I can’t get any work done. It’s time for Scott to handle their complicated schedules for a few days and maybe get a little understanding of what I have to juggle every single day of my life.
Louise juggled roles as a successful event planner and the mother of three very active boys—Aaron, Alex, and Avery. Her husband, Scott, worked as an attorney; he was smart and kind but not always clued into the fact that Louise’s business was a career, not just a hobby.
Ok, well, you don’t have to. But you know I would love to see you. I don’t want to take you away from your work.
Girl, I can work anywhere there’s internet and cell service. I assume your cute little condo has all those modern-day amenities?
Yes, of course. Where do you think I’m living on the moon?
Pretty sure even astronauts have Netflix,
Louise quipped.
Mrs. Arnette, we’re ready for you now,
a man’s voice bellowed from behind me.
The officer who interviewed me was young despite his husky voice. I sloughed the blanket, which now seemed silly as the temperature had quickly risen into the mid-seventies. I stood up and leaned against the patrol car and told him everything I remembered about finding the body.
"I hit something with my paddle, snagged something. I assumed it was just debris floating in the water, a tangle of seagrass, an old board, or tire, something like that. I really didn’t know. But then I looked down and saw him."
My words drifted off to a place where I couldn’t find them. I realized I was staring down at my bare feet now, and the officer was staring at me.
Mrs. Arnette, if you would rather do this later, you could come down to the station in a few hours after you’ve had a little break, a chance to process all of this,
the young officer said, putting a hand on my shoulder. While he was just a rookie, he had the makings of a good policeman with his compassionate demeanor. I pulled myself out of the dark hole and looked up at him again.
No, that’s okay. There’s not much more. I turned around to see what I had hit, and I saw clothing fluttering near the surface of the water. And then I saw him. His eyes were open. It was like he was looking at me. It was pretty shocking. Do you know how old he was? He looked young.
No, Ma’am. Not off-hand. I’m just a patrol officer. I know we had our investigators looking into a missing person’s report that might be connected. It could be him. We won’t know for sure until we get a positive I.D. A young woman, a friend of the missing man, has offered to come to the coroner’s office at the request of his family to see if it is him. Hopefully, we’ll know something soon.
You mean the guy missing from the party boat; the one presumed drowned?
How did you know about that?
The young officer said with more angst than I had expected.
I’ve been sitting here for two hours listening to the officers who set up the perimeter around the scene. I’m a journalist, a television reporter in Oak City, so naturally, I’m curious. It was kind of hard not to hear what they were talking about.
The young officer bristled a little when I said journalist,
as if a chill had just passed through his body on this balmy summer morning. But then he seemed to snap out of it and returned to his professional demeanor.
Understood. Well, again, nothing is for sure until we confirm the man’s identity and cause of death.
Of course. I know how it works. I used to be a crime reporter. Gave it up for feature reporting after my husband died. I cover animal stories, actually, but I do miss the streets a little. Used to be in the middle of the fire; now I can’t even see the smoke.
The officer closed his notebook, a sign that he was done with me and had no interest in hearing about my tragic life. He gave me his card and told me to give him a call if I remembered anything else. Part of me wanted to say that he might want my card, that he might want to stay in touch with me because, as a good investigator, he should be following up with the witness.
My gut told me to let it go. I’d had enough trauma in my life with my recent assault, Adam’s death, and my dysfunctional childhood. I was here on this island to heal, not to open old wounds by inserting myself into a death investigation. But I had never found a dead body before. I couldn’t stop thinking about the man’s eyes—or were they the eyes of a boy? It was hard to tell. Man or boy, his eyes bore right through me. They were begging me for help. I knew in my heart that they were not something I could walk away from any time soon.
2
Ripple
I let the hot water practically scald me as I stood directly beneath the showerhead, trying to wash death off my body. As a television reporter, I had been to many crime scenes that left me feeling dirty, but there was something about staring death in the face that made me feel hopelessly unclean.
After about twenty minutes, the water started to run cold. The apartment’s small water heater was no match for my penchant for long hot showers. I pushed the linen shower curtain aside and reached for a fluffy white towel on the vanity. I was impressed with all the small touches this Airbnb included, like comfortable towels. They would be getting five stars at the end of my stay.
The apartment was perfect for one person. It was a small, tidy two-bedroom unit in a high rise right on the Intracoastal Waterway. The simple decorations gave the feeling of being in a large hotel suite rather than in someone’s home. Everything was white and a soothing tone of light blue—beachy without being tacky. Over the mantle in the den hung a brooding painting of the ocean with dark skies and an angry sea. I found myself staring at it and wishing I could jump into the scene and walk along the edge of the churning surf.
When I sat in one of the large wooden lounge chairs on the patio with its comfy padding and throw pillows all around me, it almost felt like I was on a ship sitting right on top of the water. The edge of the sixth-floor balcony seemed to spill into the waterway like an infinity pool. It was an illusion, of course, but one that kept me on the balcony from morning until nighttime, tapping away on my computer—a steaming cup of coffee by my side in the morning and a cold glass of wine in the evening.
I was working on a podcast about three brothers, gangsters, who stole farm equipment in Pennsylvania in the mid-seventies and then laundered the money through bowling alleys, hair salons, and bars. They would back up trucks to the farms in the middle of the night and drive the tractors right onto the flatbeds like they were mere Tonka Toys and then drive off with them.
Like most illegal activity, things eventually began to go south when the brothers couldn’t decide who was in charge and how things should be run. When one of them introduced drugs into the mix, things got violent. People started getting murdered. That’s when the story turned from folklore into something much darker; that’s when I got interested.
I was working as a freelancer and writing the podcast for a true-crime network that had a show called Bad Blood about family members engaged in criminal enterprises together. The show had reached out to me after my near brush with death had garnered me my fifteen minutes of national fame. I didn’t really care why they tapped me for the project; I was excited about it.
I had done most of the interviews on my laptop with headphones and an external microphone; now, I was simply listening to the recordings, researching, and writing the show’s first episodes. Once I finished the scripts, I would send them to my producer, Kai, and he would finesse them until they were ready for me to voice. I had already rented space at an audio booth in Cape Mayson so that I could record my narrative and complete the entire project without ever leaving my little slice of paradise.
But right now, I wasn’t thinking about the Jones brothers or their life of crime; I was thinking about those eyes, the eyes of the man staring back at me from just beneath the surface of the water. I kept replaying the moment over and over in my mind. One minute everything was calm, peaceful, and serene; the next minute, it was like being in a horror movie. Cue the screaming woman.
I decided I would call Kojak to calm my nerves. Kojak was a detective who handled homicide cases in Oak City. He was a tough-talking, irreverent old-school cop who gave me great under-the-radar information about the cases I was covering. But more importantly, over the years that I had known him, he had become like the father I never had since my real father, Roger, had been in prison most of my life. Kojak felt like the closest thing to a dad that I could imagine; he supported me, advised me, worried about me, scolded me, praised me, and generally had my back in every situation.
"So, kid must have been one hell of a morning for you. I swear, you just know how to find trouble, don’t you? Just rolled on in with the tide and right up to your feet, literally."
Nice, making fun of the dead guy.
Just trying to lighten the mood, trying to make you crack a smile. I can hear it in your voice. I’m making a dent.
Kojak always knew how to cheer me up. He listened to me when I needed to rant about my tragic childhood and my convicted felon father. He understood exactly how my mother’s murder had affected me, and he also knew never to bring it up, that it was my pain to share when I was ready. It was nobody else’s business.
Spoke to one of my buddies in Cape Mayson. Says the guy drowned, was on some sort of a charter, a party boat. Some girl’s birthday party. Guess he had too much to drink and maybe some recreational drugs, who knows. Just slipped under, and apparently no one could get there in time to help him.
Yes, pretty much what I overheard from the officers at the scene. It’s just so weird that no one jumped in to save him.
"They were probably wasted."
Still, it’s really sad. Got a name from your buddy?
"Nope, didn’t get into all that. Said the boat belonged to a local hotel magnate who owns a string of fancy boutique hotels. Luxury cruising yacht, forty-eight feet. Sweet ride. But he rents it out mostly as an investment. Has a captain who runs it, takes care of it, and lives on it, I think. Didn’t give me anybody’s name, but he did tell me the name of the boat."
And?
"Full name is ‘Ripple in Still Water’; most people just know it as ‘Ripple.’"
That’s intriguing. Where do I know that phrase from?
It’s a line from a Grateful Dead song. Guy must have been a Dead Head. He’s the right age for that flower power hippie-dippy stuff, in his sixties.
Got it.
"It’s part of the chorus; the next lines are: When there is no pebble tossed, nor wind to blow."
Suddenly, I pictured the man going overboard, his body sinking swiftly in the water, like a rock, leaving an almost imperceptible ripple across the surface beneath the moonlight, a ripple no one even noticed.
When I hung up with Kojak, I started searching for the name of the boat, trying to glean any information I could. Right away, several media reports from the local newspaper and television stations popped up with headlines like:
Man Drowns After Falling Off Party Boat.
The articles identified the owner of the charter boat as Mark Maron. Apparently, he had little to do with the day-to-day operations of it. Maron went back and forth between his luxury homes in Oak City and Cape Mayson. He had his own large fishing boat that he used for himself, his family, and friends, not to mention assorted small recreational motorboats. He let his captain, Perry Spotz, rent out Ripple to groups for parties, and Spotz managed the events. According to the news reports, this particular get-together had been a thirtieth birthday party for a local woman named Stella Avery and about twenty of her friends.
I immediately looked up Stella Avery on social media. There was a smiling photo of an attractive young woman wearing blue scrubs and a stethoscope around her neck. She had a round face framed by shoulder-length brown wavy hair, a wide, genuine smile, and