Please Don't Say You're Sorry: An Empowering Perspective on Marriage, Separation, and Divorce from a Marriage-Loving Divorce Attorney
By Nicole Sodoma and Joscelyn Duffy
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When marriage-loving divorce attorney Nicole Sodoma ended her thirteen-year marriage, she found herself seated in a symphony of sympathies and quickly began to question why people say “congratulations” when we marry and “I’m sorry” when we divorce.
There’s no denying that divorce sucks. You've invested years in a relationship. Then it what feels like the blink of an eye, everything has changed and you are faced with more resolution options than New Year's Eve. The journey can be wholly overwhelming, but it doesn’t have to be the worst thing that’s ever happened to you. Choice will be your ally.
As the child of a blended family of divorced parents, a now "unmarried" woman, and a veteran family law attorney, Nicole Sodoma knows divorce. In Please Don't Say You're Sorry, she serves up both humorous and decidedly unfunny realities of marriage and divorce alongside empowering insights for finding your way through either. From hard truths about the unintended consequences of ending a marriage to relatable tales from divorces past, Nicole's communication style will help you feel deeply understood as you try to render those seemingly impossible decisions.
Whether you are looking for advice on how to better your marriage, are considering separation, or find yourself knee-deep in divorce, this book has something for you. Today is the first day of the rest of your life, and now you’ve got a badass no-holds-barred divorce attorney by your side.
Nicole Sodoma
When Managing Principal & Founder Nicole Sodoma opened the doors to Sodoma Law in 2008, it was with the intention of building a different kind of law firm. Infusing her fresh perspective into everything she does, she focused on creating a culture of a “firm family” that showed commitment to clients, the team, and the community. This concept soon became known as “The Sodoma Way,” spurring the growth of the firm to a team of more than fifty across multiple states, and a client roster that includes professional athletes and neighbors alike. Sodoma is a graduate of Cumberland School of Law at Samford University, Family Law Litigator, Certified Parenting Coordinator, and Certified Collaborative Law Attorney. She is equally a mother to three boys, a friend to many, and a trusted advisor to thousands. Over the past twenty-five years, she has been recognized for her steadfast commitment to her clients, her entrepreneurship, her vision, and her community involvement. Quickly rising as a national authority on divorce and family law, her insights have been featured in The Today Show, The Wall Street Journal, Business Insider, The Washington Post, USA Today, Women’s Health Magazine, Parents Magazine and Care.com.
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5With great wit, fabulous banter and knowledgeable advice this ex-wife and divorce attorney tells it like it is. No matter what stage of the process you’re in here for chapter in this book just for you. I’d love to help personal she made the books seem as if you were visiting and having a cup of coffee with a good friend. This wasn’t an academic read nor a dry advice book but a personal book from someone who’s been there. There’s also a little advice for those who want to stay in the current relationship. I highly recommend this book please forgive any mistakes as I am blind and dictate my review but all opinions are definitely my own I thoroughly enjoyed this book!
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Please Don't Say You're Sorry - Nicole Sodoma
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It Takes Two to Say I Do
and One to Say I Don’t
I DIDN’T KNOW I was going to get divorced. Sometimes women just spontaneously combust.
It all began when I rang in my thirtieth year. I celebrated that milestone birthday by setting a rule for myself as a single professional woman. I decided I would accept any dates I was asked to go on during the two weeks that followed to see what might happen. One of those dates was with the man now known as my former husband. He was thirty-six at the time, ambitious, and—dare I say—charming. Our first real date took place in his 1960s white convertible Chevrolet Impala. Dressed in a crisp shirt and sporting a pair of Converse tennis shoes, he took me to a small neighboring town with an old-fashioned drive-in theater. We sat there on the car’s cozy red leather seats watching the big screen and eating Thai food. I didn’t kiss him on the first date (which I surmised sparked his interest), and I asked a lot of questions about him, which meant he got to talk the whole time.
Two months later, he asked (in an email) if I wanted to move across the country to Seattle, Washington, where a new job awaited him. My narrative created around the move was that it would be good for us
; it would allow us to grow together. Despite being nervous and a bit numb, the fantastical idea of marriage and commitment singlehandedly led me to leave behind my network of friends and family in Charlotte, North Carolina, and head west. Was I crazy? I hadn’t even introduced my knight to my friends before galloping away on his white horse!
The truth about the not-so-beneficial nature of leaving everything I knew behind was somehow lost in the whirlwind. The story I told myself made friends with my lingering fear that romance might not triumph over what experience had taught me about relationships. My parents’ divorce had made a huge impact on my childhood, scarring me with abandonment issues. Yet when faced with the prospect of this new adventure of the heart, I seemed to forget all about that. What I should have been doing was revisiting those fears and pumping the brakes. Instead, I propelled us forward like a sports car in high gear, making checklists, sourcing relocation companies, and securing new housing. Then came the decision to get married.
From the moment my former husband (herein known as Mr. Former, or M.F. for short) proposed to me, there were signs I ignored. And I mean actual signs. We were overlooking a waterfall when he popped the question, and if the steep, rocky descent before us wasn’t enough of a hint about what was to come, I had also walked directly over a yellow post on the path leading there that read CAUTION.
I was thirty-one years old and forty minutes late to our wedding when we tied the knot in Anguilla. Ironically, the letter Mr. Former gave me on our big day said that he had waited a lifetime to find me. So what harm was there in waiting another forty minutes? While I believed in forever, it occurred to me that I had never lived anywhere longer than five years. I was scared to death of committing to anything long term. I showed up to the nuptials in tears, terrified of the unknown, having talked myself into getting married. It is the right time. This is the right person, I think. My mother had even told me it was the right decision for me. What ultimately got me walking down the sandy aisle was the (il)logical thought that, as a divorce attorney and the child of very divorced parents, I understood divorce, so maybe I didn’t have to think about my marriage as being forever.
On my special day, I was center stage at the beautiful beach wedding of my dreams. The difference between my fantasy and reality was that absolutely no friends or family were there to share in it. Mr. Former and I agreed
it would be just us. Of course, one of his best friends couldn’t make the reception we were planning to host back home, so he rolled up on the shores of Anguilla and crashed our guestless wedding. As we welcomed our wedding crasher into our fairy tale, I had never felt more alone at an occasion that was supposed to be one of the happiest of my life. As M.F. toasted what I imagined was a glass of expensive liquor with one of his best friends, I sat alone on the bed of my hotel room trying to call home for the much-needed affirmation that everything was going to be okay. Just hours into my marriage, I had already started to question whether I had made the right decision.
We lasted all of fifteen months in Seattle before moving back to Charlotte, and as we edged further away from the honeymoon phase of our relationship, the unpleasant parts began to creep in. Those parts—the ones that are not meant for fairy tales—got shoved way down below the surface, scarring my soul a little more. My panic attacks became increasingly difficult to hide. M.F. called them meltdowns.
However, as it turned out, he was having physical symptoms, too, in the form of chest pains. We should have known then that these were a sign of trouble. The truth is, I should have known then.
LIFE CHANGED US DIFFERENTLY.
I think our marriage worked for thirteen years because, much like our first date, I liked to ask questions and to try to make (keep) him happy. The little rational voice in my head knew that marriage should feel like a warm blanket—stable and comforting. In its embrace we should feel heard, understood, and close while also feeling free, untamed, and unrestricted. That wasn’t always the case for us. As we went through life together, we lost jobs and started new ones; lost babies and had babies; lost businesses, sold businesses, and even started businesses. We bought promising houses and we also mourned the loss of family members. Along the way, these giant life events were uniquely received by us. They changed us differently. Although at times it felt like we were really strong—us against the world—our goals and values diverged, taking two vastly different roads. Naturally, I tried to convince myself that this wasn’t happening.
I married a man who was career driven and who brimmed with confidence. He was someone I believed could take care of me in all ways. For so long in our marriage, he told me that he would die for me, and he truly meant that he would, so long as I loved him the way he wanted to be loved and I accepted the way he loved me. I thought he cared deeply enough to do what I needed—what we needed—but that’s not how everything played out. It always felt like things had to be his way and on his time.
Being a litigation attorney meant that I was in the middle of conflict all day, making decisions for everyone else. By the time I got home, I was exhausted and no longer had it in me to fight for what I wanted. With each passing year, I began to forget what it was that I desired or needed. Rarely did I question things or push back because I often felt as though I didn’t have the opportunity or energy to do so. Whenever it became decision time, I felt like I had only a small peephole of a window in which to act, and those actions were frequently driven by the force of ultimatums I was never ready for. Communication was sticky. Eventually, I shut down. That’s when everything blew up.
IN THE INTERVENING YEARS, I EVOLVED.
No longer codependent and relationship focused, I wanted answers, and I wanted out. I also wanted a moment to speak! And so I found someone to talk to—a therapist (or two). Before our separation, M.F. said that if I ever wanted to go to couple’s therapy, it would be the end of our marriage. To him, therapy came just before divorce. I disagreed and went to therapy alone.
Following some insights I had while in the cozy chair at the therapist’s office, I took myself on two getaways. The trips were intended as a reprieve from the madness of my marriage. I wanted a week without crying or having intrusive thoughts such as, If I just hit that tree with my car.… Things had admittedly gotten so bad that I considered causing just enough self-harm to land me in the hospital, surrounded by people who might listen. I longed for someone to take care of me and love me in the way I wanted and needed, maybe just for a week or ten days.
After my second getaway, I came back with the intention of throwing Mr. Former the best fiftieth birthday party ever. I invited his closest friends from all over the country and celebrated in style at a local country club. The next morning a handful of us were to leave for a surprise voyage around the British Virgin Islands aboard a fifty-five-foot private catamaran. When it came time for the big reveal, I pulled up a picture of the boat on my computer screen. The blue sky, bright sun, and sailboat never looked more enticing than on that winter night. M.F. glanced at the image, paused, then told me unequivocally that he didn’t want to go because he didn’t like the other couples I had invited.
For the first time I chose for me and not for us. I went alone and sailed on a catamaran that was ironically named No Regrets. Going alone was the bravest thing I had done in our marriage. To fight with Mr. Former over that topic, or any other topic, was the equivalent of poking an angry bear. My attempted rejuvenation through two getaways had failed and the trauma started resurfacing. It didn’t look as if there would be an end to the craziness. I didn’t know how to communicate effectively with Mr. Former. All I really wanted was for him to take care of himself and find happiness. I went sailing, he finally agreed to counseling, and in time we ended up divorced.
Two to Tango, One to Trot
In my law practice, I had seen divorce many, many times over. But to unexpectedly experience it myself was a whole different ballgame. There’s no denying that divorce sucks. You’ve invested years in a relationship. You’ve entered into life, business, and—in many cases—parenthood with your partner. Then one day you wake up… or they wake up. The hard truth of the dissolution of a marriage is that, while it takes two to say I do,
it takes only one to say I don’t.
It can be incredibly frustrating to think that one person has the right to end a marriage that two people are in, whether they cheated on you or you were doing the cheating, or whether you are being left or are the one doing the leaving. On that fateful day when one person says I don’t,
the other person is almost always left feeling blindsided. My ex-husband still hates me for what I believe to be forcing a choice on him that he didn’t want. (And to this day, he seems to find great joy in reminding me of how I alone destroyed him and our three boys.) I left the marriage feeling attacked, hurt, bruised, frustrated, and scared. The giant finger of blame became permanently pointed at me. Although I wasn’t angry, I was exhausted.
Divorce is sometimes seen as the easy way out—a get-out-of-jail-free card. But it is most definitely not free (or even cheap). It costs both parties a lot, and the milling of forest trees to cover the legal paperwork costs the earth too. Trust me, divorce is not a hall pass. While it can feel like freedom to some, it can feel like death to others. Either way, it inevitably comes rushing upstream carrying a containership of grief and guilt. It’s like a bad dream, even when you didn’t realize you were asleep.
YOU CONTROL YOU AND ONLY YOU.
If you haven’t considered the unintended consequences divorce will have on you, your spouse, your kids, your friends, and your community, then buckle up. It will indeed have an impact. But remember throughout the ordeal that you control you and only you, not everyone else who will become involved.
You should also note that if you choose to divorce, the experience can and will change you, but it doesn’t have to define you. You get to choose which decision is best for you and how your story plays out from there.
As a divorce attorney for more than two decades, I have seen and heard it all. Almost nothing surprises me. Because of my unique perspective, family and friends often ask me to share what I’ve learned… or to simply answer