Her Last Fear (A Rachel Gift FBI Suspense Thriller—Book 4)
By Blake Pierce
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FBI Special Agent Rachel Gift is among the FBI’s most brilliant agents at hunting down serial killers. She plans on doing this forever—until she discovers she has months left to live. Determined to go down fighting, and to keep her diagnosis a secret, Rachel faces her own mortality while trying to save other’s lives. But how long can she go until she collapses under the weight of it all?
“A MASTERPIECE OF THRILLER AND MYSTERY. Blake Pierce did a magnificent job developing characters with a psychological side so well described that we feel inside their minds, follow their fears and cheer for their success. Full of twists, this book will keep you awake until the turn of the last page.”
--Books and Movie Reviews, Roberto Mattos (re Once Gone)
HER LAST FEAR (A Rachel Gift FBI Suspense Thriller) is book #4 in a long-anticipated new series by #1 bestseller and USA Today bestselling author Blake Pierce, whose bestseller Once Gone (a free download) has received over 1,000 five star reviews.
FBI Agent Rachel Gift, 33, unparalleled for her ability to enter the minds of serial killers, is a rising star in the Behavioral Crimes Unit—until a routine doctor visit reveals she has but a few months left to live.
Not wishing to burden others with her pain, Rachel decides, agonizing as it is, not to tell anyone—not even her boss, her partner, her husband, or her seven-year-old daughter. She wants to go down fighting, and to take as many serial killers with her as she can.
When she learns of a string of bizarre murders in New Mexico, Rachel quickly realizes this is no ordinary killer. In a race against time, Rachel must quickly figure out who is luring these victims out to the desert—and why.
Meanwhile, her own clock is running out. Can she solve this macabre puzzle and stop the murderer once and for all?
A riveting and chilling crime thriller featuring a brilliant and flailing FBI agent, the RACHEL GIFT series is an unputdownable mystery, packed with suspense, twists and shocking secrets, propelled by a page-turning pace that will keep you bleary-eyed late into the night.
Books #5 and #6 in the series—HER LAST CHOICE and HER LAST BREATH—are now also available!
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Her Last Fear (A Rachel Gift FBI Suspense Thriller—Book 4) - Blake Pierce
H E R L A S T
F E A R
(A Rachel Gift Mystery—Book Four)
B L A K E P I E R C E
Blake Pierce
Blake Pierce is the USA Today bestselling author of the RILEY PAGE mystery series, which includes seventeen books. Blake Pierce is also the author of the MACKENZIE WHITE mystery series, comprising fourteen books; of the AVERY BLACK mystery series, comprising six books; of the KERI LOCKE mystery series, comprising five books; of the MAKING OF RILEY PAIGE mystery series, comprising six books; of the KATE WISE mystery series, comprising seven books; of the CHLOE FINE psychological suspense mystery, comprising six books; of the JESSE HUNT psychological suspense thriller series, comprising twenty four books; of the AU PAIR psychological suspense thriller series, comprising three books; of the ZOE PRIME mystery series, comprising six books; of the ADELE SHARP mystery series, comprising fifteen books, of the EUROPEAN VOYAGE cozy mystery series, comprising four books; of the new LAURA FROST FBI suspense thriller, comprising nine books (and counting); of the new ELLA DARK FBI suspense thriller, comprising eleven books (and counting); of the A YEAR IN EUROPE cozy mystery series, comprising nine books, of the AVA GOLD mystery series, comprising six books (and counting); of the RACHEL GIFT mystery series, comprising six books (and counting); of the VALERIE LAW mystery series, comprising six books (and counting); and of the PAIGE KING mystery series, comprising six books (and counting).
An avid reader and lifelong fan of the mystery and thriller genres, Blake loves to hear from you, so please feel free to visit www.blakepierceauthor.com to learn more and stay in touch.
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BOOKS BY BLAKE PIERCE
PAIGE KING MYSTERY SERIES
THE GIRL HE PINED (Book #1)
THE GIRL HE CHOSE (Book #2)
THE GIRL HE TOOK (Book #3)
THE GIRL HE WISHED (Book #4)
THE GIRL HE CROWNED (Book #5)
THE GIRL HE WATCHED (Book #6)
VALERIE LAW MYSTERY SERIES
NO MERCY (Book #1)
NO PITY (Book #2)
NO FEAR (Book #3)
NO SLEEP (Book #4)
NO QUARTER (Book #5)
NO CHANCE (Book #6)
RACHEL GIFT MYSTERY SERIES
HER LAST WISH (Book #1)
HER LAST CHANCE (Book #2)
HER LAST HOPE (Book #3)
HER LAST FEAR (Book #4)
HER LAST CHOICE (Book #5)
HER LAST BREATH (Book #6)
AVA GOLD MYSTERY SERIES
CITY OF PREY (Book #1)
CITY OF FEAR (Book #2)
CITY OF BONES (Book #3)
CITY OF GHOSTS (Book #4)
CITY OF DEATH (Book #5)
CITY OF VICE (Book #6)
A YEAR IN EUROPE
A MURDER IN PARIS (Book #1)
DEATH IN FLORENCE (Book #2)
VENGEANCE IN VIENNA (Book #3)
A FATALITY IN SPAIN (Book #4)
ELLA DARK FBI SUSPENSE THRILLER
GIRL, ALONE (Book #1)
GIRL, TAKEN (Book #2)
GIRL, HUNTED (Book #3)
GIRL, SILENCED (Book #4)
GIRL, VANISHED (Book 5)
GIRL ERASED (Book #6)
GIRL, FORSAKEN (Book #7)
GIRL, TRAPPED (Book #8)
GIRL, EXPENDABLE (Book #9)
GIRL, ESCAPED (Book #10)
GIRL, HIS (Book #11)
LAURA FROST FBI SUSPENSE THRILLER
ALREADY GONE (Book #1)
ALREADY SEEN (Book #2)
ALREADY TRAPPED (Book #3)
ALREADY MISSING (Book #4)
ALREADY DEAD (Book #5)
ALREADY TAKEN (Book #6)
ALREADY CHOSEN (Book #7)
ALREADY LOST (Book #8)
ALREADY HIS (Book #9)
EUROPEAN VOYAGE COZY MYSTERY SERIES
MURDER (AND BAKLAVA) (Book #1)
DEATH (AND APPLE STRUDEL) (Book #2)
CRIME (AND LAGER) (Book #3)
MISFORTUNE (AND GOUDA) (Book #4)
CALAMITY (AND A DANISH) (Book #5)
MAYHEM (AND HERRING) (Book #6)
ADELE SHARP MYSTERY SERIES
LEFT TO DIE (Book #1)
LEFT TO RUN (Book #2)
LEFT TO HIDE (Book #3)
LEFT TO KILL (Book #4)
LEFT TO MURDER (Book #5)
LEFT TO ENVY (Book #6)
LEFT TO LAPSE (Book #7)
LEFT TO VANISH (Book #8)
LEFT TO HUNT (Book #9)
LEFT TO FEAR (Book #10)
LEFT TO PREY (Book #11)
LEFT TO LURE (Book #12)
LEFT TO CRAVE (Book #13)
LEFT TO LOATHE (Book #14)
LEFT TO HARM (Book #15)
THE AU PAIR SERIES
ALMOST GONE (Book#1)
ALMOST LOST (Book #2)
ALMOST DEAD (Book #3)
ZOE PRIME MYSTERY SERIES
FACE OF DEATH (Book#1)
FACE OF MURDER (Book #2)
FACE OF FEAR (Book #3)
FACE OF MADNESS (Book #4)
FACE OF FURY (Book #5)
FACE OF DARKNESS (Book #6)
A JESSIE HUNT PSYCHOLOGICAL SUSPENSE SERIES
THE PERFECT WIFE (Book #1)
THE PERFECT BLOCK (Book #2)
THE PERFECT HOUSE (Book #3)
THE PERFECT SMILE (Book #4)
THE PERFECT LIE (Book #5)
THE PERFECT LOOK (Book #6)
THE PERFECT AFFAIR (Book #7)
THE PERFECT ALIBI (Book #8)
THE PERFECT NEIGHBOR (Book #9)
THE PERFECT DISGUISE (Book #10)
THE PERFECT SECRET (Book #11)
THE PERFECT FAÇADE (Book #12)
THE PERFECT IMPRESSION (Book #13)
THE PERFECT DECEIT (Book #14)
THE PERFECT MISTRESS (Book #15)
THE PERFECT IMAGE (Book #16)
THE PERFECT VEIL (Book #17)
THE PERFECT INDISCRETION (Book #18)
THE PERFECT RUMOR (Book #19)
THE PERFECT COUPLE (Book #20)
THE PERFECT MURDER (Book #21)
THE PERFECT HUSBAND (Book #22)
THE PERFECT SCANDAL (Book #23)
THE PERFECT MASK (Book #24)
CHLOE FINE PSYCHOLOGICAL SUSPENSE SERIES
NEXT DOOR (Book #1)
A NEIGHBOR’S LIE (Book #2)
CUL DE SAC (Book #3)
SILENT NEIGHBOR (Book #4)
HOMECOMING (Book #5)
TINTED WINDOWS (Book #6)
KATE WISE MYSTERY SERIES
IF SHE KNEW (Book #1)
IF SHE SAW (Book #2)
IF SHE RAN (Book #3)
IF SHE HID (Book #4)
IF SHE FLED (Book #5)
IF SHE FEARED (Book #6)
IF SHE HEARD (Book #7)
THE MAKING OF RILEY PAIGE SERIES
WATCHING (Book #1)
WAITING (Book #2)
LURING (Book #3)
TAKING (Book #4)
STALKING (Book #5)
KILLING (Book #6)
RILEY PAIGE MYSTERY SERIES
ONCE GONE (Book #1)
ONCE TAKEN (Book #2)
ONCE CRAVED (Book #3)
ONCE LURED (Book #4)
ONCE HUNTED (Book #5)
ONCE PINED (Book #6)
ONCE FORSAKEN (Book #7)
ONCE COLD (Book #8)
ONCE STALKED (Book #9)
ONCE LOST (Book #10)
ONCE BURIED (Book #11)
ONCE BOUND (Book #12)
ONCE TRAPPED (Book #13)
ONCE DORMANT (Book #14)
ONCE SHUNNED (Book #15)
ONCE MISSED (Book #16)
ONCE CHOSEN (Book #17)
MACKENZIE WHITE MYSTERY SERIES
BEFORE HE KILLS (Book #1)
BEFORE HE SEES (Book #2)
BEFORE HE COVETS (Book #3)
BEFORE HE TAKES (Book #4)
BEFORE HE NEEDS (Book #5)
BEFORE HE FEELS (Book #6)
BEFORE HE SINS (Book #7)
BEFORE HE HUNTS (Book #8)
BEFORE HE PREYS (Book #9)
BEFORE HE LONGS (Book #10)
BEFORE HE LAPSES (Book #11)
BEFORE HE ENVIES (Book #12)
BEFORE HE STALKS (Book #13)
BEFORE HE HARMS (Book #14)
AVERY BLACK MYSTERY SERIES
CAUSE TO KILL (Book #1)
CAUSE TO RUN (Book #2)
CAUSE TO HIDE (Book #3)
CAUSE TO FEAR (Book #4)
CAUSE TO SAVE (Book #5)
CAUSE TO DREAD (Book #6)
KERI LOCKE MYSTERY SERIES
A TRACE OF DEATH (Book #1)
A TRACE OF MURDER (Book #2)
A TRACE OF VICE (Book #3)
A TRACE OF CRIME (Book #4)
A TRACE OF HOPE (Book #5)
CONTENTS
CHAPTER ONE
CHAPTER TWO
CHAPTER THREE
CHAPTER FOUR
CHAPTER FIVE
CHAPTER SIX
CHAPTER SEVEN
CHAPTER EIGHT
CHAPTER NINE
CHAPTER TEN
CHAPTER ELEVEN
CHAPTER TWELVE
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
CHAPTER NINETEEN
CHAPTER TWENTY
CHAPTER TWENTY ONE
CHAPTER TWENTY TWO
CHAPTER TWENTY THREE
CHAPTER TWENTY FOUR
CHAPTER TWENTY FIVE
CHAPTER TWENTY SIX
CHAPTER TWENTY SEVEN
CHAPTER TWENTY EIGHT
CHAPTER TWENTY NINE
CHAPTER THIRTY
CHAPTER THIRTY ONE
CHAPTER THIRTY TWO
CHAPTER ONE
Theresa had no idea what she’d been thinking. When Derek had asked if she wanted to go for a hike, she should have known he had something extreme in mind. Eager to please, she’d agreed to it. She was in good shape but hated the dry New Mexico heat. It was a beautiful state, and she was glad she’d moved out here; but Jesus, the heat could be unbearable at times.
Derek was hiking just ahead of her as they made their way through one of the many trails along the Chihuahuan Desert. They were headed to something called Little Squaretop, a feature along this trail that was supposed to provide an amazing view of the desert. But the hike was six and a half miles long through this God forsaken desert. For people that were accustomed to hiking, it was supposed to take about five hours. And Theresa wasn’t sure there was any view on the planet that was worth that sort of torture.
Then again, she thought Derek might be taking her to such a view for a very specific reason. They’d been dating for almost two years now, and at twenty-seven years of age, she wasn’t exactly getting any younger.
As they trudged along with open desert and craggy rock formations to both sides, Derek looked back to her. How you doing back there?
Just great.
He smiled at her, readjusting the small backpack he was wearing on his muscular, tan shoulders. She took a few quick steps to catch up to him. They’d both broken a slight sweat and the pressing heat was not going to let up anytime soon.
We’re about halfway there, right?
she said.
Maybe a bit more than that.
He frowned apologetically as he looked at the trail just ahead of them. Sorry, babe. I really didn’t think it would be this hot. There’s usually a really nice breeze that cuts through here.
It’s okay. You just keep in mind that if I pass out from heat stroke, you’re going to have to walk back carrying my limp body.
He reached out and took her hand. I don’t quite think it’ll come to that.
At the risk of sounding like a wuss, I think I would like to sit down sometime soon. Maybe for just like five minutes or so. Is that okay?
Of course.
She could tell that he felt bad about her being uncomfortable. But really, what else had he expected? She supposed he found it cute that she was struggling so much. At least I’m getting a tan, she thought. And this walk is going to count for every single bit of my cardio this week.
They continued up the trail as it made a slight yet continual rise. Theresa looked to her right and saw that there was already a very nice view starting to present itself. The desert, she supposed, was very much like the Appalachian Mountains near where she’d grown up. Catch either of them at a certain angle or a certain light and they could be breathtaking.
Think you can make it over there?
Derek asked, pointing ahead and to the right. There was a little raised section of rock protruding from the desert ground. It was only about three hundred feet further ahead, but it was off to the right and slightly off the beaten trail. It looked back out the way they came, and she thought it might provide just a small taste of the view that was to come once they finally reached the summit of Little Squaretop.
Yeah, I think I can manage that,
she said, putting some dramatic flair into just how tired she was.
She regretted the slight mockery when the ground seemed to suddenly change direction, heading in a harsh arc upwards. She really had to dig her ankles in, her knees groaning with the effort. It flattened back out gradually just before Derek led them off into harder dirt and some very sad-looking scrub brush.
They settled down on the rock he’d pointed out. Theresa tried to hide the instant relief to her ankles and knees. She stretched her legs out, relishing the feel of it.
I do appreciate you doing this with me,
Derek said, kissing her on the cheek.
The way he looked at her as he pulled away made her pretty certain that the hike was going to end with Derek on a knee, looking up to her with a ring in his hand. She smiled her best casual smile and shrugged. I’m a big girl,
she said. This isn’t so bad.
So do you think I could talk you into camping soon?
No,
she said. That’s where I draw the line. Why am I going to waltz out into the desert and pretend to be homeless for a night? It makes no sense. It makes…
She stopped here as she looked beyond Derek. She was looking to the desert floor roughly seventy feet below them. More specifically, she was looking at a rock very similar to the one she and Derek were sitting on. It was just barely in her line of view; if she’d been sitting back another six inches on the rock, she may not have seen it at all.
What?
Derek asked. What is it?
She opened her mouth to vocalize what she was seeing but her eyes didn’t seem to fully understand what it was trying to process.
Blood. Lots of blood. A bare, slender leg. A hand and the lower portion of an arm, the rest of the arm blocked off by her angle and the rocky terrain between her and the grisly sight.
And buzzards, too. My God, buzzards, picking at that bare leg, huddled around and—
Theresa?
A body,
she said, pointing to what she was seeing. The word felt like a curse coming out.
Derek turned and saw it, too. My God,
he gasped.
They both stood slowly and walked closer to the edge of their little rock outcropping. From there, the angle and obstructions were gone. Theresa now had no problems seeing the full sight. The body was far enough away so that they were spared some of the gore, but close enough for Theresa to fill in the blanks. Blood everywhere. A woman, naked, most of her left side butchered and bloody. Her blonde hair spread out around the rock like an exploded star. A cavernous hole where her heart was—or should be.
The buzzards, feeding.
Somehow, Theresa knew the woman’s eyes were open, looking right up at them.
The scream started to rise up out of Theresa’s throat before she knew it was there. But when it came rushing up her throat and out into the air, it felt justified. Her scream tore out across the open desert, sending the buzzards skyward, their beaks slick and red from the meal down below.
CHAPTER TWO
Rachel had only been to a single doctor after getting her initial diagnosis. But that visit had been more than enough for her to get a read on how doctors presented themselves when they were about to dole out bad news. From what she could tell, there was a notable effort to make sure the brow wasn’t creased at all and that the corners of their mouths remained stationary and straight—not drooping to create a frown and certainly not ticked upwards to indicate any sort of happiness.
She saw that now as Dr. Emerson pulled his little rolling stool over to where Rachel sat in a very basic, cushioned chair. Visible effort to keep the mouth and brow featureless, an air of seriousness following across the room like a little cartoon rain cloud.
Rachel had come in last week for a series of tests—all rather simple and non-invasive. She’d come at Jack’s suggestion, trying out the specialist he’d suggested. And now here she was, back in the same office but the room had a different feel now. The nurses and assistants were a thing of the past. Now it was just Rachel and Dr. Emerson. This was, she supposed, the endgame.
Emerson seemed to know it, too. He looked her in the eyes with the compassion of a skilled and well-practiced doctor. Mrs. Gift, I wish I had better news, but all of the tests and scans just don’t offer us any good news.
Rachel wasn’t sure how she felt about the sense of indifference that came over her. She had come in last week without expecting much of anything. She’d been expecting this answer. But still, shouldn’t she be disappointed? Maybe even just a little?
She shrugged and tried to offer a resigned smile.
The tumor, as I’m sure you know, is in a place that simply won’t allow us to operate. I even considered maybe suggesting a specialist in Canada, out of Quebec, that is brilliant with the removal of risky tumors. But I don’t know that he’d even offer much hope. Now, I can contact him if you like. I’m sure he’d at least—
No, that’s okay.
She’d seen the doubt in his eyes before he’d even finished the comment. I knew what to expect when I came. I knew it was a longshot.
Emerson nodded, his graying black hair falling slightly over his still-unmoving brow. I think maybe it’s a good thing you came in. There’s nothing at all wrong with having a bit of hope.
She found the comment vaguely funny. Hope. She wondered if he’d be talking about hope if he knew some of the other details of her life—about a husband that walked out on her shortly after her diagnosis, a grandmother that was also dying of cancer, and a serial killer that had connections on the outside and was able to torment her family.
Hope. Yeah, there wasn’t much of that to go around these days.
I do need to say one more thing,
Emerson said. He shifted a bit and pulled a pamphlet out of the folder he had sitting on his lap. From what Rachel could tell, the pamphlet was the only thing the folder contained. Speaking of hope…there’s this.
He handed the pamphlet to her, and she saw that it was really nothing more than a postcard style piece of marketing. It was simple and minimal, with quite a bit of fine print on the back.
What’s this?
This is an experimental treatment that could potentially shrink the tumor. And as it shrinks, its shape also changes. There’s some chemotherapy involved, but not in the traditional sense. It’s based on a very new and, therefore, experimental use of CAR T-cell therapy. For people beyond a certain age, it’s too risky to even recommend, but with you…well, with your age and aside from the tumor itself, you’re in pretty amazing physical condition. I think you’d make a suitable candidate for a trial.
What is it, exactly? And explain it like I’m ten years old, please.
Emerson grinned and took a moment to think of how to do this. So, we’d use your white blood cells as a tumor-marker of sorts. By labeling them as tumor-specific, those white blood cells viciously attack the tumor. It’s sort of like giving your body ballistic missiles to start blasting the tumor with. That, with some minor and very closely-regulated chemo could give you a chance.
Could?
"Yes. Your tumor is so far along that even if the approach goes perfectly, the