When Stars Come Out

Chapter One

Anora and the Dead Girl

I lean forward in my seat and stare at my reflection in the car mirror, assessing my work. I took my time putting makeup on this morning, choosing a brown shadow and black liner that make my eyes look more yellow than green. My dark hair cascades over my shoulders. By the end of the day, it will be mostly straight, too heavy to sustain the curls it took an hour to fix. I practice a smile, checking to see if any lipstick transferred to my teeth but also testing to see if I can manage to make it look real. This is my chance at a new beginning, and as long as I’m careful, the past won’t bleed into the future.

I glance at Mom. Even now, she keeps her gaze forward, hands tight on the steering wheel, navigating the rented Ford Focus around another bend in this hopeless road. I can’t help feeling guilty. I’m the reason she has to start over too.

You’ll make so many friends, a voice rumbles in my head. If he were still here, it’s the kind of encouragement my poppa would give. I smile at the thought and straighten in my seat, clasping the round coin at my neck—my poppa’s coin.

Another bend and Mom turns down a white concrete drive, flanked by a set of redbrick pillars. A black plate with gold letters identifies this as Nacoma Knight Academy—my new high school in Oklahoma. Everything about it online seemed vague. Mom said it was an alternative school, but I don’t know what that means—is it for delinquents? Even with my background, I knew the main reason Mom chose this place was because they employ highly trained counselors, and that’s what she felt I needed more than anything.

Suddenly my skin grows hot, as if the sun has moved inches from my face, and I know something’s not right.

Oh no.

My stomach feels like it’s full of wasps as I focus on the building ahead of me. Balconies outside the third and fourth floors are enclosed with black bars, making each one resemble a cage. A girl hangs by her neck at the center of the building, four stories up. I follow the rope with my eyes, finding it tied to one of several stone spindles jutting from the top of the roof.

My fingers dig into the leather seat, and there’s a familiar prick in my palm as hysteria crawls up my windpipe, into the back of my throat. I swallow the scream, glancing at Mom, realizing the momentum of the car hasn’t slowed.

She can’t see the dead girl.

Of course she can’t. My mouth tastes bitter at the thought—that’s why we’re in this mess. Mom can’t see the dead, and from the one conversation we’ve had about it, she also believes anyone who claims to see the dead is a liar. Or maybe mentally ill, as if she’s one to judge that.

A bead of sweat trickles down my face, tickling my neck, and I release my breath. I can do this, I remind myself. The dead are everywhere, and I took precautions as I was getting ready this morning. My perfume has a hint of rosemary, the evil eye dangles off a zipper on my backpack, and there’s a bag of turmeric powder in my blazer pocket. Small things, but they should keep the souls at a distance. Souls, not ghosts—I don’t like that word. It implies transparency. The dead I deal with look as human as the day they died: solid, fleshy, and like the nearly decapitated girl hanging by her neck over the doors, they wear their deaths.

This is just a reminder of the rules I set for myself before starting at this new school—and the reason I need them.

Rule number one: Ignore the dead.

But as we approach, I can’t take my eyes off her. How hard must she have fallen? She’d been a student at Nacoma Knight Academy. Her uniform is similar to mine, except instead of a blazer, she wears a knitted sweater—longer, with two pockets on the front—and a skirt that falls midcalf. The longer skirt is a giveaway that she’s been here a while. While I don’t think she’s one to cause me trouble, her presence is a vortex, sucking my energy. It makes me jittery, like I’ve had too much caffeine. This whole place feels off.

Mom brings the car to a jerky halt. I stick my hands out to stop myself from colliding with the dashboard, only to realize the bell has rung. Students dressed like me race to buildings across campus. Several move in and out of the doors beneath the dead girl’s feet.

I don’t move to exit the car. Once I’m outside, I’ll have to worry about screwing up again. I’m the new girl, and people will want to look at me, talk to me. I’ll have to make sure they’re actually alive. Sure, I want friends, but I also want to become transparent, blend in so well with the crowd I’m hardly noticed. I want to be normal. If I can’t manage that, I’m not sure what is next for me: Another school?

Probably not. Mom is done moving.

Any more signs that you’re seeing things, she threatened on the drive to Oklahoma, and I’ll put you in a psych hospital.

She’s already been researching facilities in our new state—I found them saved as bookmarks on our computer. Unfortunately, I knew they weren’t for her. Bringing up seeing the dead was the biggest mistake I’d ever made. Mom has enough to deal with just making it through her own episodes, even if she won’t admit she has them.

Mom must have noticed how pale I looked after her threat, because she’d reached over, patted my leg, and said softly, Therapy helped your poppa.

If that were true, he wouldn’t be dead, I think, rubbing the face of my poppa’s coin.

Anora, stop grinding your teeth!

I jerk, startled by Mom’s sudden command. It’s the first time she’s met my gaze since we got in the car this morning—the first thing she said other than put on your seat belt. I don’t know if she’s angry because of us having to move or if she’s nervous for me. Sometimes it’s hard to tell.

I let go of the coin, its heavy weight settles against my chest, and I relax my jaw, unaware I’ve been clenching it. Mom sighs, which seems to soften the flicker in her eyes. She reaches to brush a few strands of hair out of my face.

Honey, I know this all happened so fast, but this…this will be good for you…for both of us.

She smiles, so I smile back, only to make her feel better. It is damage control, something I put myself in charge of since we left.

Would you like me to walk you to the door?

Mom isn’t smiling now, and she taps the steering wheel with her fingers. I’m probably making her late for her interview.

I lift my backpack from the floor, stifling my impulse to take another deep breath. I need to say something reassuring. Something like, That’s all right, Mom. I’ll be fine. Don’t worry. I love you.

Instead, I say, No, Mom. That’s the last thing I need on my first day.

Fine. She answers in that clipped, short-tempered tone she’s been using with me for the last two months. I’ll pick you up after three.

I get out of the car, close the door, and she drives off.

Then it’s just me, the school, and the dead girl.

Well, crap.

A sign to the left of the sidewalk identifies this building as Emerson Hall. I turn in a circle. Now that I’m outside the car, I feel like I’ve been transported to another dimension. All traces of the outside world—the street we drove up and the black fence and gate—are lost amid acres of land and trees. Even the wind is different here—quieter, like it’s trapped under a glass dome, exiling street noise.

I drag my gaze back to the dead girl hanging at the center of the building like some sacrificial god. Even now, this spirit is draining my energy, making me dizzy, and the longer she hangs there, the worse it’ll get. If I want to get through this day—and every one after that—I’m going to have to ignore her.

Easier said than done.

I give Poppa’s coin one last squeeze, slip it under my shirt, and march into Emerson Hall, avoiding the girl swinging over my head. Right now, I have to find my new normal, and part of that is pretending I am normal.

Inside, several students stand in line at a counter, waiting to speak to one of three women behind a glass panel. I hang back at the entrance for a moment, surveying my surroundings, mostly waiting to see if there’s an energy suck—an indication that there are dead nearby. When I’m sure everyone in the lobby is alive, I choose a line and wait. A couple of students turn to stare, but I avert my eyes, looking at anything else—the plastic plant in the corner, wooden chairs pushed against a dirty white wall, black-and-white photos of buildings and long-dead people.

A television behind the glass runs breaking news, the screen splashed with photos of a deadly plane crash, deliberately taken down by its copilot. Officials make guesses as to the motive, and the only thing I can think is that there are now one hundred and fifty more people bound here on earth, dead. My stomach clenches tight. Mom doesn’t like when I watch the news. She thinks I take it all too personally.

What she really means is she thinks I become obsessed, and I guess she’s kind of right. There are certain stories I invest in, and I’ll follow every piece of news released on the subject.

This one is no different.

I watch the segment as images of each person who’d been on the plane cycle by. I get lost in their faces until it’s past time for my first class, and no one else is left in the lobby but me. This is not a good start to being normal.

A woman with blond hair and a pink blazer smiles at me.

Can I help you? Her voice sounds robotic, filtered through the round metal intercom.

I’m new. I don’t have my schedule—

Oh! You must be Anora Silby! She retrieves a folder from her desk and hands it to me via a small opening at the bottom of the glass barrier. Why is there a glass barrier? Does alternative school mean violent? Is she expecting someone to accost her? Inside you’ll find your schedule and your student handbook.

I open the folder and stare at the materials. My schedule sits on top. I have already zoned in on my first hour: trigonometry…a.k.a. hell.

I am terrible at math.

Be sure you’re aware of curfew.

Oh, I won’t be living on campus. We have a place in town.

Curfew is countywide, she advises. No one’s to be outside after midnight.

Why?

It takes the lady a moment to realize I’ve asked her a question. She blinks.

It’s always been like that. Since the twenties.

What happened in the twenties?

Well, you know, after the murders.

I blink. Did this woman just tell me, a student, that there had been murders in this county? What the hell kind of place is this? No, actually…I don’t know. I wave my folder around to remind her I’m the new girl.

It’s nothing to be worried about, the lady assures me, apparently realizing this isn’t the sort of gossip to share with a teenager. There haven’t been any murders since then. The curfew’s just in place as…a precaution. It’s best if it’s obeyed.

She says it like a warning, like she thinks I’m one to break the rules. I can understand curfew for campus, but if nothing has happened since the twenties, why is it countywide?

Would you like a guide to help you find your classes? Her voice brightens, and her smile intensifies. It looks fake, and I get the sense I’m not welcome anymore.

Uh, sure.

It should be included in the folder, but the only things in there are my schedule and a book of rules I have no interest in reading. It’s like they’ve never had a new student before. I’ll need a map of this place in case I get lost trying to avoid the dead. The lady disappears from view, and I take a closer look at the pictures on the wall. I’m partly hopeful I’ll see a picture of the girl outside in one of the photos, but I don’t find her. The images are mostly of buildings on campus in their prime. Gold plates beneath the frames indicate the year they were built. My favorite is Rosewater—that sounds calming.

I run my fingers over the cold metal, tracing the name.

You must be Anora Silby. The voice is energetic and warm, but it startles me. I tear my hand away from the plate as if I’ve been caught stealing and yelp, twisting to find a boy standing beside me. He has striking blue eyes, white-blond hair, and sharp features. My gaze drops to his lips, which are initially pulled into a smile until I face him, then he falters.

Sorry. I didn’t mean to startle you.

I study him for a moment—lively eyes, faint color in his cheeks, and…warmth. He’s definitely alive. I guess I stare too long, because he clears his throat and says, Can I help you find your classes?

Oh…um…the lady was getting me a map.

A smile stretches across his face again, brightening his expression. I’m your map. He extends his hand to me, keeping the other in his pocket. Shy.

I stare at his hand, confused—did he just call me shy?

Excuse me?

He chuckles under his breath. It’s my name—Shy Savior.

Oh. My cheeks flame, and I want to hide. I fumble as I cradle my folder in my arm and reach for his hand. Anora Silby…er…I guess you knew that.

Yeah, he breathes and then quickly adds, But that’s okay. You have a nice name.

He doesn’t move his gaze from mine as he shakes my hand firmly, and it is a little unnerving, especially since the pigment of his eyes is so concentrated.

Um, are you going to let go of my hand?

Sorry. He drops my hand and snakes his behind his neck. It’s just…have we met?

I laugh. No. I think I would remember you.

Shy smiles and turns the faintest shade of pink. You just feel so familiar.

I hope I’m familiar in a good way.

God. I’d have to say that, wouldn’t I? What am I doing?

I’m breaking my second rule: Absolutely no boys.

Yes. He narrows those gorgeous eyes, and my resolve weakens. Yes, only in a good way.

I inhale and hug myself, feeling self-conscious. I have no idea what’s going on here.

Mr. Savior, I think it’s about time Miss Silby made it to class, the lady in the pink blazer advises from the counter.

Shy turns and smiles at her. Yes. Sorry, Mrs. Cole. He looks at me, clearing his throat. So what’s your first class?

I’m glad the distraction gives me a reason to look away from him, because my gaping is a whole new level of awkward. I open my folder to look at my schedule. I’d seen it a few minutes ago, but now I can’t remember anything.

Um, Mr. Val, trig…in Walcourt?

Shy laughs.

What? I lean away to get a good look at his face, but he just shakes his head, eyes focused on my schedule.

Nothing. What’s your locker number?

Forty-four.

Shy directs me out of the lobby, down a hallway flanked with a large trophy case and a couple of bulletin boards covered with flyers for homecoming.

The lockers, dorms, and cafeteria are all located here in Emerson, he explains. It’s a little inconvenient, but you just have to make sure you have everything you need for your first four classes before lunch. He pauses and nods to my locker, then the one next to it. That one’s mine.

I smile at him, and it feels like I’m falling into a trap. Fate must be messing with me. I guess I’ll see more of you, then?

Yeah. He grins, showing his teeth, and runs a hand through his hair. I like the way his eyes crinkle at the sides when he smiles, all things I shouldn’t notice about him, considering my rules. Yeah, you will.

The sunlight blinds me as we exit Emerson, and I blink several times to adjust my vision before turning to watch the girl overhead. She sways ever so slightly, propelled by nothing but the memory of the day of her death. Shy has stopped too, and he watches me, following my gaze to the bars.

It was to keep people—

From jumping, I finish quickly. I know.

He doesn’t smile back, and he studies me. The intensity of his eyes makes me feel like he can see every layer of me.

Why don’t they take them down? I ask.

He shrugs. Aesthetics, history, a precaution. The windows in the dorms don’t open either.

History?

This place used to be an asylum before it was a school. Back in the twenties. There’s a lot of history here, and most of it is kind of shady.

Oh, that isn’t good.

I look back up at the bars and then around. So far so good. I haven’t encountered any other dead, but that doesn’t mean they aren’t here.

Do you live on campus? I can’t help but wonder why this boy would need to be in an alternative school.

He shakes his head. No, thank God.

That bad, huh?

He sort of laughs, but it sounds more like a snicker. I already spend more time here than I like. I’m local. Ah, so he probably didn’t do anything to be sent here.

As we cross campus, I conduct another sweep of the grounds and notice a thin layer of decay has settled upon the landscape in the form of weathered brick, buckled sidewalks, and rusted pipe rails. These are flaws in its beauty—cracks the past has slipped through. The dead are a part of that past, and the same as always, I feel a fierce desire to fix it. The urge tugs at my heart, twines with my veins, and bursts from my palm. The sharpness is startling, and I squeeze my fingers into a fist, knowing no good can come of it, no matter my intentions.

Worse, I’ll mess it up like I have before.

It’s like fixing a china doll after her face has shattered—you might find a rosy cheek and an eye, but nothing prepares you for the chips in the already-broken pieces or the glue that never stops oozing from those cracks.

Are you a senior this year? Shy asks. His voice startles me, and though the question grounds me, I want to tell him he doesn’t have to keep up conversation just to be polite. Still, I answer.

No, a junior.

Good. At least you don’t have to start your last year of school in a new place. Where are you from?

Chicago.

Why did you move here?

The question makes my stomach churn.

Things…got complicated. A weak response, but an answer that’s true. I’m relieved when Shy nods and doesn’t ask me to elaborate. What about you? I ask quickly. Have you always lived here?

My whole life.

Surprising. Somehow, I can’t see this being the only place he’s ever lived. His smile seems sad too, and I wonder if he feels trapped like I feel trapped.

We approach Walcourt, which is shaped like a rectangle with large square columns running the length of a cement overhang, and ugly white rails zigzag to the doors. Inside, the place smells like must and mold. The white floor looks yellow under fluorescent lights.

We walk midway down the hall, and Shy’s eyes capture mine before he nods to a door on my right.

That’s Mr. Val’s class. Just to warn you…he’s a bit of a prick.

So that’s why he laughed earlier. Great. Shy steps back and then twists toward the door. He knocks and doesn’t wait for a response. I hear a deep, stern voice.

Mr. Savior. What can I do for you?

I apologize, Mr. Val. I’m showing a new student around campus.

Shy opens the door a little more, and now Mr. Val is visible. He has a thick, brown mustache and brown hair, and he wears a brown suit. He stands behind his desk, a piece of chalk in his hand, mid-lesson. I meet his gaze last and find him staring at me, eyes as black as a night without stars. I can already feel his disappointment in me, like he’s set the earth on my shoulders and watched it roll off into space.

The only thing that makes me feel any better is that he looks at Shy the same way.

This is Anora Silby.

Ah. He places his chalk in the metal holder, dusts off his hands, and reaches for a clipboard on his desk. Yes, Miss Silby. Come in.

Shy takes up half the doorway, but I brush past him. Heat rushes to my face, and I can’t figure out if it is from being on display in front of twenty students or from the slightest bit of physical contact with Shy.

You’re excused, Mr. Savior. I’m sure if Miss Silby needs your services, she will find you.

The class snickers. I glance at Shy as he mouths the word prick before closing the door. I nod, a grin growing on my face.

Miss Silby. My smile quickly fades, and I snap my head toward Mr. Val, who clears his throat. The students behind me laugh again, clearly amused by my awkwardness. It’s a good thing Mr. Savior isn’t in this class. It already seems he is proving too much of a distraction.

Mr. Val hands me something that looks more like a work manual than a syllabus and a massive trigonometry book, then directs me to one of the only seats left in the classroom—front and center. As I take it, I notice a girl with long, dark hair staring at me. Our eyes meet, but her cool expression doesn’t change. The only reason I’m okay with it is because she’s actually alive.

I pull out my notebook and try to catch up on what I missed in Mr. Val’s instruction and look through the syllabus. As if I need any more confirmation that my time at Nacoma Knight will be trying, I find that we have quizzes every day.

Sighing, I glance up to find the dead girl from Emerson Hall outside the window peering in. She apparently moves all around campus. I have seen the dead move before, but it still startles me. Her head dangles to the side, partially decapitated. Blood covers the collar of her sweater, drips from her nose and the corners of her eyes. My whole body suddenly feels prickly, like I’ve been wrapped in a blanket of spiders, their tiny legs skittering across my skin.

As if she senses my gaze, her sideways eyes snap to mine, and her colorless lips pull away from her teeth in a crooked, black-blood smile, and I know that she’s come to search for me.

I look away and focus on my desk, but the dead girl’s gaze heats my skin like the sun.

Please let her lose interest in me.

If she doesn’t, I have a one-way ticket to the psych ward.

Chapter Two

Anora and the Gold Coin

After trig, I stop outside the classroom to look at my schedule. To be truthful, I’m stalling. The dead girl moved away from the window shortly after I spotted her, but that doesn’t mean she isn’t waiting for me, and if I’m going to have an encounter with the dead, I don’t want witnesses.

As I cradle my new book and syllabus, I bump into the edge of a locker, and my stuff tumbles to the ground. I lean over to pick everything up and turn to find three girls from Mr. Val’s class observing me. The one in the middle was staring at me earlier, and while I don’t read open hostility from them, I can tell they’re curious about me, bordering on suspicious.

But maybe I’m wrong.

How did you end up at Nacoma? the middle one asks.

Nope. Always trust your gut. They’re suspicious.

My mom moved here for work, I mumble, gathering my stuff and clutching it tightly in my arms.

Huh, she says, and it’s clear she doesn’t believe me. I wait for an accusation or a bitchy comment, but she doesn’t say anything else.

She stares a moment longer before she and her two friends turn and walk away. Another girl who’d been lingering in the hallway approaches. She has eyes the color of ice, more white than blue, and her lips are a pretty, pink pout. Her creamy skin is speckled with a collection of moles that look more like thoughtfully placed beauty marks. She reminds me of a ballerina, all lithe and long-limbed, made to look even smaller by the huge cardigan draped over her shoulders, billowing around her body.

Ignore them, she says. Jasmine and Michelle just repeat everything Natalie says, and Natalie thinks she’s queen of the castle and is always in everyone’s business because her father is headmaster.

Damn. I’d have to draw that kind of attention on my first day, wouldn’t I?

Well, I guess her dad being headmaster does sort of make her queen of the castle.

Don’t let her fool you. She’s not as powerful as she thinks. I’m Lennon. The girl holds out her hand for me to take.

Anora. I shake her hand. I’m just glad she hasn’t called me the new girl yet.

I know. You’re from Chicago. You moved into the old Foley house on Forrest. I stiffen, and Lennon must notice because she explains, You’re the only thing people were talking about on Roundtable today.

What?

Roundtable. It’s like an anonymous Twitter feed but exclusive to Nacoma students. We don’t really have much to do out here other than gossip and talk shit about one another.

You have an anonymous app for gossip? I ask, and holy crap, is this not something I need at the moment.

"Yeah. Normally, I wouldn’t introduce a newbie to it so soon, but everyone is super curious because there was precious little they could dig up about you. Of course, that leaves a lot of room for speculation, you know."

Oh, well, I don’t want that. Best to get everything out in the open. I’m actually a hundred years old, and I bathe in the blood of virgins to stay youthful.

Lennon stares at me for a moment, and my face reddens. Maybe I went too far with that joke. Then a smile breaks out across her face, and she pretends to write on the books cradled in her arm.

Virgins…got it. If I see any, I’ll let you know.

We both laugh, and I’m feeling a little more relaxed. Lennon inclines her head to get a look at my schedule.

What’s your next class?

It’s biology in Kline—a building that is closer to Emerson than Walcourt, which means another trek across campus.

As it turns out, that’s Lennon’s next class too. We also have World History and English III together. Lennon chats beside me as we head to Kline. The path we take is free of the dead, and I can concentrate on what she’s saying.

I hear Shy Savior got to show you around this morning. You know he’s a senior and the quarterback of our football team? Total cliché. He’ll probably be homecoming king this year. Natalie is weirdly protective of him, so that’s probably why she’s cagey about you.

That turns my stomach sour, not that I should care, but I do not need to be in the middle of drama.

I’ve been here for a full—I look at my phone—two hours. I’m not interested in Shy.

Hmm. We’ll see.

I sigh. I hate high school. But I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that I’d asked for exactly this—the normalcy of high school, even if it comes with petty drama.

Lennon sits next to me in the classes we have together and points to the people I should know.

That’s Maia Ledford. Her father walked out a couple months ago. She hasn’t spoken since. That’s Caroline Miller. She’s first in the class and plans to go to Oxford when she graduates, but she’s really intense. I think she had a breakdown trying to keep her grades up, which is why she came here. I’m convinced she’ll kill anyone who threatens her GPA. And that… She points to a boy sitting against the wall. His hair is dark, coming to rest on his shoulders, and his lips are curved in a classic smirk. He doesn’t look interested in anything going on around him. That’s Thane Treadway. He’s super rich and a troublemaker.

He looks pissed.

She leans toward me, her chin resting on her hand. He’s just bored.

I glance at the boy again and find him looking at me. His face remains blank, like I’m the color beige or Mr. Val’s math homework. As quick as he glances in my direction, he looks away, and I might have taken it for disinterest if I didn’t recognize the expression. It’s one I’ve been wearing the last four months. It’s grief.

Thane has just become ten times more interesting.

Speaking of homecoming, you have to go to the dance!

I refocus my attention on Lennon, whose eyes have brightened at the topic. I shake my head. I don’t really like dancing.

She shrugs. It’s not really about the dancing—it’s about the dresses.

I try imagining Lennon’s lithe frame, swallowed by that huge cardigan, wearing a snug-fitting gown and can’t.

Besides, it might be a requirement for you. Rumor is the football team’s considering making you their princess.

Their what?

Princess…for queen’s ransom, she says. Every homecoming, they nominate one girl. It’s a tradition.

I have so many questions.

What’s queen’s ransom?

"It’s like…capture the