Please Join Us: A Novel
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A “propulsive thriller about secret organizations, hidden agendas, and the lengths one woman will go to reclaim her life” (Laura Dave, author of Reese’s Book Club Pick The Last Thing He Told Me) from USA TODAY bestselling author Catherine McKenzie.
At thirty-nine, Nicole Mueller’s life is on the rocks. Her once brilliant law career is falling apart. She and her husband, Dan, are soon to be forced out of the apartment they love. After a warning from her firm’s senior partners, she receives an invitation from an exclusive women’s networking group, Panthera Leo. Membership is anonymous, but every member is a successful professional. It sounds like the perfect solution to help Nicole revive her career. So, despite Dan’s concerns that the group might be a cult, Nicole signs up for their retreat in Colorado.
Once there, she meets the other women who will make up her Pride. A CEO, an actress, a finance whiz, a congresswoman: Nicole can’t believe her luck. The founders of Panthera Leo are equally as impressive. They explain the group’s core philosophy: they’re a girl’s club in a boy’s club world.
Nicole is all in. And when she gets home, she soon sees dividends. Her new network quickly provides her with clients that help her relaunch her career, and a great new apartment too. The favors she has to provide in return seem benign. But then she’s called to the congresswoman’s apartment late at night where she’s pressed into helping her cover up a crime. And suddenly, Dan’s concerns that something more sinister is at play seem all too relevant. Can Nicole extricate herself from the group before it’s too late? Or will joining Panthera Leo be the biggest mistake of her life?
Catherine McKenzie
Catherine McKenzie was born and raised in Montreal, where she now practises law. Her bestselling novels include Spin, Arranged, Forgotten, Hidden, Smoke, The Good Liar and I'll Never Tell, which was an instant bestseller. Visit Catherine online at www.catherinemckenzie.com, on Facebook at www.facebook.com/catherinemckenzieauthor, and on Twitter or Instagram at @catherinemckenzieauthor.
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Interesting, fast paced plot with well drawn characters and some unexpected twists and turns.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Nicole has just received a bad review at work and it looks like she is going to have to step up her game or lose it all. So, when she is recruited by an exclusive networking group all about helping women succeed, she jumps at it. Her husband, Dan, calls it a cult. Nicole does not see it that way. She soon reaps the benefits of being a member. But, then she is called in to cover up a murder and this exclusive group just became a twisted group about something completely different.I have followed this author since her very first book. Her first book was called Spin. I won a signed copy back in 2009 and I have been hooked ever since. Now, she has changed her genre. Her first several novels were chick lit. She changed over to thrillers and she has not looked back.This novel started a bit slow but it is just setting up a smart manipulation game. And I will be honest, I was not a big fan of the main character, Nicole, in the beginning. I thought “you are a hotshot lawyer! Why are you doing this!” And I still don’t quite understand why she fell in with this group but my favorite part of this book is when Nicole figures out what is going on and she is taking no prisoners.I love a smart read and this one is one of the bests! The plot is intricate and don’t skim a word because you will miss a key point of evidence!Need a story with manipulation as it’s main goal…THIS IS IT! Grab your copy today.I received this novel from the publisher for an honest opinion!
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I typically really enjoy Catherine McKenzie's books, but this book about a cult group and the Me Too Movement fell a bit short for me. When Nicole Mueller is not awarded the partnership level at her law firm, she is discouraged. She doesn't understand - she had the billable hours, she has done the extra work. So, now she is at a crossroads. Surprisingly, she receives an invitation from Panthera Leo, a group of women that she believes will bring in more business for her. She goes to their retreat, and meets several prominent women. But, what she doesn't know is that she is a pawn in their plan to exact revenge on men they believe wronged them. The positive things - the book read quickly, the plot was well planned.The negative - I just didn't believe it, and I wanted a more psychological feel to it.
- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5I just couldn't get into this one as much as the author's previous book. It spent too much time trying to convince me that Nicole was super intelligent, which she definitely wasn't, and not nearly enough time actually telling a story. I didn't feel quite enough suspense.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Put this on you TBR List. The Old Boys Club has nothing on the club. This Women’s Club is ruthless, cunning, relentless. Watch your back and be very, very aware. What a mystery! Nicole’s job has taken an unexpected down turn. Ironically, on the same day she’s given a ‘shape up’ warning, she receives an invitation to join an exclusive woman’s networking club. Perfect timing or coincidence? From the invitation to the team building retreat to a promise too good to be true. And you know what you’ve always been told about that! Big business at its best or worst…you decide. Original, detailed, interesting. Storyline flowed easily, characters were well defined. Many twists and turns. Did not see many of the twists coming. Just shows how even the smartest among us can be duped. Story will keep you on your toes, author didn’t give many clues up on this one…or if she did, they were very subtle. Really need to pay attention when reading! Loved the character development of Nicole, and the relationship between her and her husband, and her and her in-laws. Thanks to Ms McKenzie and Atria Books for this ARC. Opinion is mine alone
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Please Join Us - Catherine McKenzie
A propulsive thriller about secret organizations, hidden agendas, and the lengths one woman will go to reclaim her life.
—Laura Dave, New York Times bestselling author of The Last Thing He Told Me
Please Join Us
A Novel
Catherine McKenzie
Internationally Bestselling Author of Six Weeks to Live
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Please Join Us, by Catherine McKenzie, AtriaFor the women in my Pride.
You know who you are.
The door to Athena’s apartment is open.
I’m both relieved and petrified by this. Relieved because I’d been worrying on the frantic ride over about how I was going to get in without involving third parties—her doorman, the police. And petrified because it means that Athena’s SOS message was real, that something actually is wrong, and she isn’t simply being dramatic.
I stand in front of the open door with my heart beating like a bass drum. Athena’s is one of two apartments on this floor; the other door is firmly shut. I can’t yell—that might result in more third-party involvement, although I’m already on the security footage in the elevator and the lobby. I’d glanced up at the camera downstairs, and then away. The doorman knows me. I catalog all of this and conclude the obvious: there’s no covering over the fact that I’ve been here, no matter what I find inside.
The seconds are ticking away in time to my heart, and Athena needs help. But still I linger. I don’t want to know what’s through this open door. I don’t want my life to change in the way I know it will if I cross the threshold. If Athena requires an ambulance, she would’ve called 911. So it’s bad, what I’m going to find, but final.
My phone buzzes. I’d put on dark yoga pants and a hoodie when I got Athena’s message, dressing for a crime I didn’t know I was about to commit. My phone is in the pouch across my belly, its soft purr a tickle. I don’t have to read it to guess who it is, nudging me through the door.
Karma.
I’ve been thinking about that word a lot lately.
My phone buzzes again and I enter, closing the door behind me gently. Even though there’s no denying I’ve been here, I slip on the pair of surgical gloves I’d grabbed on the way out, moving quietly so I didn’t wake my husband, Dan. I did anyway, and I murmured something about work, the lie slipping easily through my teeth. He turned over and went back to sleep, sadly used to the vagaries of my job.
My heart’s been getting a workout tonight.
Athena’s apartment is shrouded in soft light from a table lamp in the living room. I’ve always loved her home, the product of two classic sixes being knocked together to form something that feels both traditional New York and entirely original—a house inside a building, complete with a full rooftop garden. The downstairs is made up of a large living room, dining room, and a massive kitchen/great room that’s bathed in sunlight during the day and stares at Central Park.
I walk quickly through the rooms, careful not to touch anything despite the gloves, hoping I’ll find Athena downstairs, but with each empty room it grows more unlikely.
I search for anything out of place, my mind logging as I go.
—There’s a man’s coat laid over the end of the couch, folded neatly.
—There are two wineglasses on the counter in the kitchen, stained a deep red.
—The sliding glass doors to the balcony are locked tight.
I walk back to the staircase that leads upstairs, a modern combination of metal, glass, and wood, doing my best to keep quiet. I want to call out, to shout her name, to do one of those frantic, loud searches like you see on film, but I don’t. I’ve been instructed to tell no one what I’m doing. Noise is the enemy. Silence and deliberation are required. It takes effort, though. I don’t want to move toward whatever’s waiting for me up these grand stairs. I want to bolt in the opposite direction, out into the night and the city, and then…
I steady myself against the wall, my hands sweating inside the gloves. There’s a painting at the top of the stairs that I love: a body of water, maybe a pool, that perfect blue of the sea in Antigua. The lines are blurred, so it’s hard to tell, but it’s beautiful.
Blurred lines. That should be our anthem.
I reach the top of the stairs. Up until now, the whole house has been as still as a tomb, only the gentle hush of the central air letting me know that the apartment’s alive, even if no one else is. But now my ears are picking something up—a plinking sound, water dripping, its landing muffled.
The bathroom. There are two of them, but instinct drives me to the guest bath to the left of me, the one right outside Athena’s bedroom. I used it not that long ago, when we had a late night and I ended up sleeping over, calling Dan with my excuses, my lies, like I did tonight.
Work, work. I always blame work. It’s the reason I’ve done all of this, the origin of this moment. Whatever this is. I only need to push open the bathroom door to find out.
My heart is thrumming again. I get another text. Again, I don’t need to read it. Open the door, it will command, and for the first time I wonder—am I on camera?
I push that thought aside. The possibility of cameras leads to a cascade of thoughts that I don’t have time for right now.
I open it. My eyes flit over the room, the collection of data my brain’s focus.
—Athena, naked, hunched in the corner of the generous bathtub.
—The water slowly dripping from the rain head shower.
—The diluted streak of blood still circling the drain.
Athena,
I say, my voice steadier than it has a right to be. Are you all right?
Her dark-brown eyes are blank, her beautiful, famous face unmarred. She follows my gaze to the other end of the tub, watching the water drip into the basin, each drop thinning out the red to pink.
It’s not mine,
she says in a hoarse whisper. It’s Jack’s.
PART I
CHAPTER 1
It’s Not Us, It’s You
Then—June
I blame the points committee.
For those of you who don’t live under the tyranny of yearly evaluations of your productivity and ability to bring in clients being plugged into a mysterious formula that spits out the number of points
(i.e., money) that you’ll receive each year, perhaps it seems silly to care. But when you’ve worked sixty-hour weeks since you were twenty-six—scratch that, your whole adult life—and you’ve made it, but you still haven’t made it far enough, it’s humiliating. Being a partner isn’t good enough. Being in every best of
lawyer publication doesn’t cut it. Putting yourself out there in a million ways that make you uncomfortable doesn’t mean shit. If you didn’t bring in the clients and/or the billable hours, your points are cut. Doesn’t matter that you helped build the place. Those years of two-thousand-plus billable hours and no time to yourself—well, thanks, I guess, but what does that have to do with today?
Nothing.
Your points are being cut, you’re taking a step down, you’re now in the loser tier, and if you don’t course-correct, you’re going to reverse lap the new partners in the most pathetic race ever.
Not that they said that exactly, but the sad turn of my mentor Thomas’s mouth when he walked into my office and shut the door to deliver the news said it all.
Without some radical intervention, my days were numbered.
When Thomas left without giving me any advice on what to do other than to say that we’d just have to wait and see
if my profile turned into files, I sat at my desk and stared at my computer screen as if it might deliver answers. What had gone wrong? Sure, the last year had been less busy, but that was because one of my main clients had gone bankrupt. It wasn’t my fault—I wasn’t their financial adviser. They were the kind of client you didn’t replace in ten seconds, or in ten months. But that hadn’t been taken into account.
I’d done everything I was asked to do and more, and it hadn’t been enough.
What was I supposed to do now?
I needed to get out of my head, so I called Dan.
Should I be putting pink champagne on ice?
he asked as a greeting, the answer assumed, his anticipation of our celebration palpable.
I felt the sudden need to cry. Dan had sung those words, like he often did, with the confidence of certainty. In thirty-nine years, Nicole Mueller had never failed, so I had to be calling with good news.
I turned my back to the glass door of my office so no one could see when the tears fell.
Um, no, decidedly not.
Wait, what?
I could imagine Dan sitting in his own office in Jersey City. He was in-house counsel at a bank, changing paths five years ago when he didn’t make partner. I’d supported his choice. We didn’t both need to be working this hard, particularly if his firm wasn’t going to recognize his worth. The bank paid well and let Dan have his weekends. It was an easy decision.
They put me in the Samuel tier,
I said, naming a partner who was one point away from being kicked out.
The loser tier? No, you’re shitting me.
I wish I was.
I stared hard at my computer screen, blinking back tears. It was open to Facebook, a place I went when I needed to distract myself for a minute or ten with pictures of cute puppies and smart-alecky kids.
Why?
My hours were down.
But AlCorp. went bankrupt.
I know.
That wasn’t your fault.
I said that.
They didn’t give you any warning?
I thought back to the meeting I’d had with the points committee in May. Everything was positive. In January, I’d been named as one of the top 40 lawyers under 40 and had been featured in a prominent lawyers’ magazine. I’d made a bunch of other lists too; the clients loved me, my hours were down, but they were sure that was a blip. I was a model for others to follow, they’d implied—maybe even said—as Thomas nodded along like a proud parent. I’d left the meeting confident.
Getting their decision today felt like being in front of a judge who’s made up her mind but doesn’t tell you what she’s going to do, so you have no way of convincing her otherwise. No, there was no warning. Thomas seemed so… guilty.
Dan growled. Fuck Thomas.
Yeah.
Seriously, Nic. You should leave.
I stared at my hands. My nails were chipped and ragged. Was I not polished enough? Was that why? I’ve never been big on personal grooming. That sounds bad. I’m a clean person, I dress well, and my shoulder-length chestnut hair is well-kept, but the extra primping that a lot of professional women seem to find the time to do? I’ve never had the patience for it.
And go where?
Lots of firms would be happy to take you.
I turned away from Facebook, facing my windowsill. It was cluttered with the plaques they encouraged you to buy when you made all those lists. Best Lawyers, Chambers, Who’s Who. I was in all of them. Future star. Litigation star. Consistently recommended. I was supposed to make full equity partner this year—that was the plan. Instead, I was moving away from that goal. Not now. I should’ve taken Fosters up on their offer last year.
What’s changed?
Me. In the eyes of the legal world.
You don’t have to tell them about the points.
I smiled sadly at my own reflection. My dark-blue eyes were tired, and my hair was pulled back too tightly from my face, making me seem severe. I looked like a loser, despite Dan’s optimism. It was one of the things I loved most about him—how naïve he still was, his Ohio earnestness firmly in place despite more than fifteen years in this city. It was why he didn’t make partner. His firm didn’t think he had a killer’s instinct, and they were right.
They probably already know.
How?
Because people don’t sit on this kind of information.
My email pinged, dragging my eyes back to my screen. Goddamn it.
What?
I just got an email from Albert and Prince.
The recruiters?
The recruiters for mid-level law firms, yes.
It’s a coincidence,
Dan said, but he didn’t sound like he meant it. Dan might be naïve, but he’s not stupid.
It’s been five minutes since I got the news, and they already think I’m vulnerable enough to move my practice to a firm I didn’t even interview at.
Maybe they’d respect you more there? Big fish in a small pond and all that.
Maybe.
So?
I wouldn’t be able to respect myself.
I hadn’t meant to say that out loud, but it was true. I don’t know when I turned into a law firm snob, but I was. It wasn’t that those mid-level firms didn’t do good work; they did. Lots of smart people I’d gone to law school with had ended up at that level. But it wasn’t where you chose to be. It was where you washed ashore. Until now, I’d only had choices, not inevitabilities. But Dan had been at one of those firms, and he hadn’t even made partner—
God I was awful, even in my own head.
Sorry, I know how that sounds.
It’s okay,
Dan said lightly.
I forgot sometimes, because his ego was so firmly in check, that he still had one. Bad enough that his wife was the star in the family. I didn’t need to rub it in.
No, it’s not. How about this. Why don’t you put that champagne on ice after all and I’ll leave early, and we’ll order from Kam Fung?
I thought you had to work.
I did, but fuck it. Fuck them.
That’s my girl.
I smiled. I’ll see you at six, okay?
You betcha. Keep your chin up.
I always do.
We hung up and I kept staring out the window. Midtown lay below—all that buzzing ambition, the striving, the aggressiveness. I’d loved it from the first time I’d visited for interviews in my second year of law school. I was top of my class at Yale, and even though I had zero contacts in the legal world, everyone wanted me. Taking me to dinners I couldn’t afford and providing me with hard-to-get theater tickets. What was not to love?
My computer pinged again. A Facebook notification. I’d tried a thousand times to turn the stupid things off, but I’d never managed it. I didn’t ask the IT department to do it, because those guys were spies who were only too happy to report infractions to the managing partner.
Guess who’s having a baby! my high school friend Tammy had written.
Oh God, another one? Ever since I turned thirty-nine, I noticed a peculiar phenomenon among my high school girlfriends who’d remained child-free until then—they were all getting pregnant for the first time. The Last-Minute Babies, I called them. Getting one in before they were forty. Dan and I had decided not to have kids, but it wasn’t something you advertised, not unless you wanted to get interrogated about why, and told how babies were so wonderful and enriching and who was going to take care of us when we were old? And then everyone just assumed it was because you were too focused on your career.
As if that were a bad thing.
Dan never had to answer these questions.
If men ever wondered why women were angry all the time, they could start there.
Congratulations! I wrote, then turned back to my inbox. Fifty new emails had accumulated in the hour I’d lost to the points committee bomb dropping. I scanned through them quickly. Three recruiters had already reached out, and several of my partners had written short Sorry! or That’s crazy! emails. No other content. No mention of points. Plausible deniability that they were criticizing management. Billings took a 75 percent drop on points day. Usually that pissed me off, which showed my lack of empathy. I probably had some apologies of my own to dole out. I certainly didn’t care about billing today. Instead, I decided to clean up my emails then leave, even though it was the middle of the afternoon.
I spent an hour deleting and triaging emails so I could exit without a black cloud of guilt. When my inbox was finally under control, I stood and raised my hands above my head.
An email arrived. Please join us, read the subject line.
God, another drinks thing. I was already losing one to two nights a week going to networking events. But if I was going to turn this situation around, I couldn’t turn invitations down.
I opened it and sat back down as I read.
Dear Nicole,
Have you ever wondered why your career hasn’t progressed as far as it should?
Why others have continued to climb the corporate ladder while you’ve been stuck in place?
We’ve been there.
Despite years of hard work and all the talent in the world, our careers were stalled too.
Why?
Because the boys’ club still exists. No one wants to talk about it, but it’s true.
So we decided to do something about it, and that’s how Panthera Leo was born. Women helping women succeed the way men have for centuries. Over the past twenty years we’ve become a network of CEOs, managing partners, executives, and money managers—every successful woman you know is probably one of us.
And that’s why we’re writing to you. You’ve been recommended to us, and we’d be delighted if you’d become a member. All it takes is a few minutes of your time to complete our application, which can be found at www.pantheraleo.com.
A few minutes, and everything you always wanted could be yours.
Our next experience is happening soon. Please join us.
Best,
Karma & Michelle
CHAPTER 2
I Have a Bad Feeling About This
Then—June
"You’re not seriously thinking of going, are you?" Dan asked three hours later. We were sitting at our dining room table with the remnants of takeout and champagne. We were lucky to have a place that contained a dining room, although we almost never ate there. We lived in a pre-war building on the Upper West Side in a large three-bedroom apartment that had been in Dan’s family for generations. Back when it was built, a maid occupied the small cell near the bathroom, and families sat down for dinner every night.
Is it so crazy?
Um, yes.
Why?
Dan reached his chopsticks into the container of sesame noodles. We always got a double order, because it was the one dish we both couldn’t stop ourselves from eating until it was done. We’d discovered that on our first date twelve years ago when a friend had set us up. It might’ve been the reason we went on a second one, not that either of us would admit it. What kind of origin story is that? We both love sesame noodles. Is that enough to build a life on?
Because it’s probably a cult,
Dan said, the accusation serious; but he was laughing.
It’s not a cult.
How do you know?
He sucked up a large mouthful of noodles, something I usually found adorable but that was getting on my nerves that night. Dan was often like a big puppy—with light-brown curly hair that was always too long, big brown eyes that didn’t shield his emotions, and wide shoulders from his days on the swim team. He was loving and sometimes made a mess all over the place because he got too excited.
I checked it out.
How?
I shoved a salt-and-pepper shrimp into my mouth. I used my lawyer skills.
Ha. I’m going to need details.
I read their website.
It was slick and professional, with an application form and two experiences
to choose from, one taking place at the beginning of July at a dude ranch in Colorado and another in November. It even had a page of endorsements from women like Sally J., executive. My career took off once I harnessed the power of Panthera Leo! Its Frequently Asked Questions page expanded on the information contained in the invitation: it was a referral network, and membership was by invitation only. There were no annual dues, but the experiences were pricey and yearly attendance was encouraged.
And?
Standard networking stuff.
Dan pulled the noodle container closer. Oh, well then, I guess it’s fine.
What’s the worst that could happen?
Dan took a moment to consider, then ticked off a list on his fingers, a smile dancing in his eyes. Brainwashing, branding, sex trafficking.
I laughed. Dan, come on. This is about business.
Wasn’t NXIVM called Executive Success Programs when it started?
Dan and I had been mesmerized by The Vow, and he’d done a deep dive on NXIVM after we’d watched it, reading several books by ex-members and listening to endless podcasts.
I think you kind of want it to be a cult so you can put all that knowledge to good use.
It’s possible. But I do worry about you.
You think I’m going to end up in a three-way with their leader?
Maybe.
It’s run by two women.
Dan cocked his head to the side. Well, it could still happen. Just don’t give them any money.
Don’t worry. Our down payment is safe.
We’d been saving toward a down payment to buy the apartment when Dan’s aunt Penny died. But it had taken us both years to pay off our student loans—two Ivy League degrees each had produced a scary mountain of debt—so we weren’t as close to that goal as we wanted.
A shadow crossed Dan’s face. Speaking of which… Aunt Penny isn’t doing so well. She’s in the hospital again.
My stomach dropped. Aunty Penny had been diagnosed with terminal cancer in March, but she was a fighter and had been responding well to treatment. Why didn’t you say anything?
I didn’t want to ruin dinner.
Dan… You know I love her as much as you do.
I know.
What happened?
Unclear. They found her unconscious in her room at the old folks’ home.
I’m so sorry.
Aunt Penny was my favorite member of Dan’s family, and not only because of the incredible real estate she let us live in for a reasonable rent. Dan’s mother was an uptight WASP, and while I’d grown up around the middle-class version of Louise, I never felt as if I was good enough for her Daniel,
even though the family business, Rawleigh Pharmaceuticals, had suffered a massive economic setback right as Dan was graduating from high school. Overnight, they’d gone from wealthy to the bank taking over. But that hadn’t changed Louise’s outlook on life. She was as exclusionary as many of my classmates at Yale, dismissing me because I came from a small town they’d never heard of and hadn’t attended private school. Add in that I’d failed to produce any grandchildren and, well… you get the drift.
We should go see Penny,
I said.
Don’t worry; she said she spoke to her lawyer.
Hey!
I reached across the table and punched him in the arm. That is not what I meant at all. I’m worried about her. This is the third time she’s been in the hospital this year.
I know, but…
Yes?
You also love this apartment.
So do you!
You’re right, I do.
There was a lot to love. High ceilings, crown moldings, wide hallways. We had a large bedroom and our own personal offices. The property was wrapped up in a family trust that was set up so the ownership couldn’t be transferred while she was alive, but Penny had always told us that she wanted us to purchase it when she died, and when she was diagnosed as terminal in March, she’d told us she’d given directions to her lawyer to do what was necessary.
The General Tso chicken had congealed into a sticky mess on my plate. We should go see her.
We will. Over the weekend.
We don’t have anything to worry about, do we?
No, I don’t think so. So long as we can qualify for the mortgage.
I think we can handle it.
It was more of a hope than a certainty, because Dan’s family was the type who’d exact a purchase price that hit the market value to a T. But I was generally a hopeful person. The points committee notwithstanding, nothing had gone seriously wrong in my life.
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