Our Voice of Fire: A Memoir of a Warrior Rising
By Brandi Morin
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Winner, 2024 Writers' Union of Canada Freedom to Read Award
Winner, 2023 Wilfrid Eggleston Award for Nonfiction
Finalist, 2023 Rakuten Kobo Emerging Writer Prize
A wildfire of a debut memoir by internationally recognized French/Cree/Iroquois journalist Brandi Morin set to transform the narrative around Indigenous Peoples.
Brandi Morin is known for her clear-eyed and empathetic reporting on Indigenous oppression in North America. She is also a survivor of the Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women and Girls crisis and uses her experience to tell the stories of those who did not survive the rampant violence. From her time as a foster kid and runaway who fell victim to predatory men and an oppressive system to her career as an internationally acclaimed journalist, Our Voice of Fire chronicles Morin’s journey to overcome enormous adversity and find her purpose, and her power, through journalism. This compelling, honest book is full of self-compassion and the purifying fire of a pursuit for justice.
Editor's Note
Powerhouse of a memoir…
Morin is a French, Cree, Iroquois, and Canadian journalist who uses her platform to share Indigenous stories, particularly those of violence against native women. A survivor of violence herself, Morin shares her painful journey from a child in the foster system to becoming an award-winning storyteller. This powerhouse of a memoir, which is ultimately a call for recognition and justice, shines a light on the Indigenous experience.
Brandi Morin
BRANDI MORIN is an award-winning Cree/Iroquois/French multimedia journalist from Treaty 6 territory in Alberta. Among her many awards over a decade of reporting on Indigenous oppression in North America, she won two National Native American Journalism awards in 2022 for her work in Al Jazeera English. She also received a top prize in the Feature Reporting category of the Edward Murrow awards. Brandi’s debut memoir, Our Voice of Fire: A Memoir of a Warrior Rising, was an instant national bestseller.
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Our Voice of Fire - Brandi Morin
Copyright © 2022 Brandi Morin
Published in Canada in 2022 and the
USA
in 2022 by House of Anansi Press Inc.
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Library and Archives Canada Cataloguing in Publication
Title: Our voice of fire : a memoir of a warrior rising / Brandi Morin.
Names: Morin, Brandi, author.
Identifiers: Canadiana (print) 2022020487X | Canadiana (ebook) 20220207127 | ISBN 9781487010577 (softcover) | ISBN 9781487010584 (EPUB)
Subjects: LCSH: Morin, Brandi. | LCSH: Women journalists—Canada—Biography. | LCSH: Journalists—Canada—Biography. | CSH: First Nations women—Canada—Biography. | CSH: First Nations—Canada—Biography. | CSH: First Nations women—Canada—Social conditions. | CSH: First Nations—Canada—Social conditions. | LCGFT: Autobiographies.
Classification: LCC E99.C88 M67 2022 | DDC 305.48/897323071092—dc23
Cover design: Alysia Shewchuk
Cover artwork: Sharifah Marsden, Her Solo
Text design and typesetting: Lucia Kim
House of Anansi Press respectfully acknowledges that the land on which we operate is the Traditional Territory of many Nations, including the Anishinabeg, the Wendat, and the Haudenosaunee. It is also the Treaty Lands of the Mississaugas of the Credit.
Logos: Canada Council for the Arts, Ontario Arts Council, and Canadian GovernmentWe acknowledge for their financial support of our publishing program the Canada Council for the Arts, the Ontario Arts Council, and the Government of Canada.
To my Creator, Yeshua, for never leaving or forsaking me; to my parents for giving me life and love; to my children, Faith, Luke, Dani, Elaysia, and Judah in heaven — I adore you all; to my beloved Kohkum in heaven; and to all
MMIWG
, to their families and loved ones, and to the survivors.
I am Brandi Morin.
I’m a proud Cree/Iroquois/Frenchwoman from the lands of my ancestors in Treaty 6 Territories of the Michel First Nation.
But I did not always know this.
For many years I was disconnected from my heritage, my history, and my birthright.
For many years my power was hidden in smoke and shadow, my voice lost to the darkness.
Prologue
– Tina –
I stood in the
driveway of my friend’s place and shifted impatiently from foot to foot, blowing on my hands for warmth. Springtime in Winnipeg doesn’t exactly qualify as balmy, and that chilly morning in 2019 was no exception. I checked my phone for the hundredth time. Where were they? I’d barely slept last night, tossing and turning on the mattress on the floor in my friend’s spare room. Morning seemed to take forever to arrive as it always does when you’re anticipating something.
Finally, a white car pulled up and I jumped in the back seat. Two men sat in the front and my heart instantly jumped into my throat, as it did every time I had to ride in a stranger’s car. I swallowed the fear and said a prayer. This is a job, we are a team, and everything will work out, I told myself.
Besides, I wasn’t a helpless child anymore. I was thirty-eight years old and working on a story with the New York Times! Here was arguably the most important media outlet in the world looking to give attention to our people. In all my years as a journalist our stories had barely made the headlines in Canada. This was a huge breakthrough. Finally, our voices will be heard, and maybe the world will start to care about the injustices happening here, I thought to myself. I took a deep breath.
The man in the passenger seat turned around. He was about ten years older than me with short, nicely groomed facial stubble and tousled dark hair. He might have been able to pass for a shorter version of Clark Kent.
Brandi,
he said, his hand extended. So nice to finally meet you. I’m Dan and this is Aaron Vincent, our photographer.
He motioned towards the driver with his other hand. Heart racing, I pushed myself forward and shook his hand.
I knew who he was of course. Dan Bilefsky, Oxford University graduate and renowned journalist, who’d spent his early career travelling the world as a correspondent for the Wall Street Journal and the Financial Times before returning home to Montreal to work as Canadian correspondent exclusively for the
NYT
.
This is my first time in Winnipeg, actually.
His voice had an unfamiliar lilt to it.
Okay, I’m curious. Where is your accent from?
I asked.
He chuckled. Yeah, I get that a lot. You see, I’ve lived all over the world and speak a few languages, so French is the dominant accent, but there’s a mix of London English, and an influence from my time spent in Brussels.
Pretty neat,
I said with a gulp. Like he wasn’t intimidating enough. But, I reminded myself, I am the one who reached out to him and he is the one who said yes.
A few months before,
I had emailed him on a whim to ask him whether the
NYT
was interested in commissioning Indigenous stories. If so, I was the person they were looking for. To my surprise, Dan answered and said they were hungry for Indigenous content. (Yes, he used the word hungry!)
Then, a couple of weeks ago, Dan emailed me. "I finally have an Indigenous story to do
ASAP
and I would love to work with you on it," he wrote. My pulse skipped.
omg
, Brandi, just keep your cool.
He continued, The story is this: the government, as you probably know, will soon be coming out with its long overdue report on disappeared and murdered Indigenous women and girls. I would like to write a story ahead of the report that would ideally focus on one very compelling survival narrative and talk to families of people who lost their daughters.
I was familiar with the issue. It was something I’d been writing about for years as an Indigenous reporter. The vanishing and murder of our women has been ongoing since 1492, but governments and police agencies only began reluctantly documenting this crisis over the last few decades. And their motivation to respond has been practically non-existent. This, despite the fact that all across North America, Indigenous women and girls are disproportionately targeted by violence. A few years ago, the cries for justice from the families and survivors started to be heard in the mainstream. This had compelled the National Inquiry into Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women and Girls (
MMIWG
). The report Dan was referring to was the long overdue finding from the commissioners, scheduled for release in June 2019.
I had no idea if the report’s recommendations would make any difference whatsoever, but here was the
NYT
wanting to cover it! Too often in this business, especially as an Indigenous person, we need to fight for our stories to reach the mainstream. It’s a continual push to convince editors that our stories are worthy of the spotlight. And when the rare story does hit the global circuit, there’s a long history of non-Indigenous reporters getting it wrong — resulting in a legacy of mistrust between the media and Indigenous communities. I was determined to do everything in my power to make sure the media got this story right. I emailed Dan back and asked how I could help.
He asked me to be his fixer.
To be honest, I didn’t even know what that was. He said he wanted to connect with some of the families and wondered if I knew anyone who would be a good subject to feature. The word subject didn’t sit well with me. We — they — are people and these are incredibly painful stories to recall. But yes, I had several ideas of who to approach so I answered yes and then googled the term fixer.
My heart sank as I read that a fixer is someone who helps journalists in a foreign nation navigate the culture and countryside. I was a reporter. I wanted to help write this story, not just provide an in
with Indigenous families. So I pushed back, and to my delight, Dan said that it might be possible for me to co-write the piece and get my name in the
NYT
as a contributor. Well, all I needed was a foot in the door in order to kick it down.
We decided to focus the story on the murder of Tina Fontaine, a fifteen-year-old First Nations girl whose tiny body had been wrapped in a duvet, weighed down with stones, and dumped in the Red River in Winnipeg, in the summer of 2014.
I’d watched the newsreels of a tow truck lifting her body covered by a tarp from the river. Those images had played over and over in my head for weeks. My guts churned for this child who was taken so easily and so callously. Fifty-three-year-old Raymond Cormier was arrested and charged with second-degree murder in her killing but was acquitted in 2018. Her murder is still unsolved.
Something about Tina’s young, beautiful, innocent-looking face splattered across headlines shook the nation. Perhaps it was the fact that she looked like any other girl — other than her brown skin. Perhaps it was the way her body was disposed of like trash. Whatever it was about this child’s murder, people finally saw our women and girls as human beings — not just another dead Indian, a runaway, or a hopeless drunk on a bender.
Tina’s murder woke people up to the crisis. Her short, tragic life helped shift public opinion to support a national inquiry — something that Indigenous communities had been demanding for years. So Tina’s story was the right one to revisit in connection to the report’s final findings all these years later, but I knew there was always a cost to the family when reopening these wounds.
I called Thelma Favel, Tina’s great-auntie and the person who had raised her, to request an in-person interview. She informed me that she was taking a break from the media. She’d given countless interviews over the years and had endured the prodding for the sake of Tina, but each time it was draining and excruciatingly painful for her. And so often, the way Tina’s story was retold broke her heart. But as we spoke, I felt her soften. I knew my voice was comforting to her — the nuances are familiar in Indian Country even if our nations and cultures are deeply varied. I also sensed she understood that I actually cared and I wasn’t just some robotic reporter looking to come in, take a piece of her life, and push an insensitive story out. She decided that she wanted to do it, to give Tina a voice from the grave.
Her words choked me up and I shuddered at the sudden vision I had of the thousands of women and girls whose souls are roaming the lands of this nation, voiceless, yet calling for justice.
I thought about all of this and more from the back seat of the car as we drove two hours north to Thelma’s house just outside of Sagkeeng First Nation. It was a chilly, windy day. The ground was brown with barren leftovers from a cold northern winter. Thelma’s home looked like a typical small, one-storey rez house with chipped paint on the bottom half of the siding. The yard was tidy and quiet, the winter-brittle grass was long on one side of the house and surrounded a worn trampoline that seemed to release the echoes of children reaching toward the sky.
Tina once played there.
I prayed under my breath as I led the way up the wooden porch steps and knocked on the front door. The sharp wind stirred my hair and the hem of my long black cotton dress that peeked from underneath my coat.
Hello?
a small voice answered from within. Thelma pulled open the door and my heart sank when I saw her. She was hunched and grey. Not just her hair, but her whole countenance seemed to seep a deep grey sorrow.
"Tansi (hello, how are you?). Thelma, it’s good to meet you." I stepped inside and embraced her. I felt her energy flow into mine and mine back to her. A small flicker of hope sparked in her tired eyes.
Dan and Aaron stepped inside at my prompting. Hello, Thelma, I’m sorry to meet you under such circumstances, but thank you for having us to your home,
said Dan, greeting her with a two-handed handshake.
She invited us into her small living room and we all fell into the big, comfy, beige couches. As Dan began his interview, I took in my surroundings while keeping one ear on the conversation. Almost every square inch of the room’s walls were filled with framed photos of family members. Many of them were of Tina at various stages of her life — from a little girl of five or six to one of her when she was ten, then one taken not long before she died. I was sitting in the space where she once laughed, played, got into trouble, cried, and hugged her auntie Thelma, whom she called Mom.
I overheard Thema telling Dan that they used to watch crime documentaries