Ten Years Gone: Adam Lapid Mysteries, #1
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On the dusty streets of post-war Tel Aviv, a crafty killer roams free…
Israel, 1949 - Private detective Adam Lapid knows how it feels to lose everything. His whole family died in Auschwitz. He barely survived. Now he spends his nights haunted by nightmares and his days solving cases the police won't handle.
Hired to find a missing boy, Adam thinks the case is hopeless. But he can't turn down a mother searching for her only child.
What Adam doesn't realize is that this case will soon put him in mortal danger. For at the root of the mystery lies a double murder that has stayed unsolved for ten long years.
Adam must untangle a web of lies and betrayal to get to the truth. And he'd better watch his back because some of the suspects are willing to kill to keep their dark secrets buried.
Ten Years Gone (Adam Lapid Mysteries book 1) - 344 pages.
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Ten Years Gone - Jonathan Dunsky
1
The nightmare tore me out of sleep before dawn.
I opened my eyes, but all I could see were fragments of the dream. Barbed-wire fences and watchtowers. Thick smoke shooting out of tall chimneys, blackening the Polish sky. Uniformed men with evil faces and cruel laughs. Guard dogs straining at their leashes, foaming at the mouth. A huddled mass of frightened, disoriented humanity on the train platform.
With me among them.
What brought me out of the nightmare and into the present was the heat.
July in Tel Aviv was murder, with blazing temperatures and stifling humidity. Nighttime brought only minor relief. It was a favorite topic to grumble about among Tel Avivians.
As hot as it was outside, my room was even hotter. And stuffier. Which was to be expected, I supposed, since I slept with all my windows closed.
I was probably the only person in Tel Aviv to do so.
Or maybe I wasn't. After all, I wasn't the only person with nightmares. Maybe other people were also worried their screams would wake up the neighbors.
Faint echoes of my scream still reverberated in the dark room. My jaw hurt, a sure indication I'd been clenching my teeth during my sleep. I blinked twice, consciously slowing my breathing, until all I could hear was the deep silence of the enclosed room, and all I could see was the darkness around me.
Groaning, I rolled to a sitting position, lowering my feet to the cool floor tiles. Working my jaw from side to side, I stood, stepped over to the window, and pulled it open.
Night air flowed inside, chilling the sweat on my skin. I looked three stories down to Hamaccabi Street below. No people were about. No cars were moving. Somewhere a night bird hooted. Across the street, a baby howled for its mother. The number tattooed on my left forearm itched, and I absently scratched it. I tapped a cigarette out of the half-empty pack on my nightstand, struck a match against the sill, and lit up.
By the time I crushed out the stub of my cigarette, dawn was beginning to paint the sky gray. The nightmare was gone, but it had left its mark. The memories were there, just below consciousness, trying to dig through like burrowing beasts and infest my mind. I had to work hard to keep them away, where they couldn't hurt me.
And I was tired. Dead tired.
Too many fractured nights. Too many nightmares.
I glanced at my bed, at the sheet I had dampened with the sweat of my night terror, at the thin blanket I had twisted around me. I needed sleep badly, but I feared the nightmare would return. There was only one way to keep it at bay, but it wasn't possible tonight.
And I needed my sleep.
With a sigh, I closed the window, got into bed, and pulled the thin blanket over me.
I shut my eyes and waited for the nightmare to reappear.
Adam Lapid?
I looked up from my chessboard at the woman who had said my name.
She was a small woman. Five foot two and thinner than she had any business being. Lackluster blond hair pulled back from a high forehead. A faded yellow dress that had been made with a fuller woman in mind. She held her bag in front of her pelvis, worrying the handle with both hands. I recalled that my mother used to hold her bag like that sometimes.
It was half past four and I was seated at my regular table in Greta's Café. Greta's was a homey café located near the center of Allenby Street, on the block between Brenner and Balfour Streets. Bar and kitchen on the left. A dozen small round tables scattered about the rest of the square space. Above, a lazy ceiling fan rattled with each slow revolution, but did little to dispel the heat. Some of Greta's other customers groused about the rattling, but I hardly noticed it anymore. I frequented Greta's nearly every day. It was more than a place to eat and drink. It was a second home to me.
Yes,
I said and gestured to the chair on the other side of my table. The thin woman lowered herself onto it, setting her bag in her lap. And you are?
My name is Henrietta Ackerland,
she said in the tentative Hebrew common to those speaking a new language. She had a pronounced German accent, and for a moment I was about to suggest we conduct our conversation in that misbegotten language. The impulse died fast. Her accent was grating enough as it was.
Want some coffee?
I asked. Greta makes the best coffee in Tel Aviv.
Henrietta began shaking her head, but changed her mind when I told her I was buying. Greta had been watching us from her post behind the bar. I raised two fingers in her direction.
While we waited for the coffee, I examined Henrietta Ackerland more closely. She had been beautiful once, but time and circumstances had changed that. Dark bags bulged beneath her washed-out blue eyes. Her lips were thin and colorless. Deep lines ran across her forehead and shallow ones webbed at the corners of her eyes. The lines of someone who did more frowning than smiling.
She was frowning now, two parallel lines etched between her eyebrows. Desperation was weighing heavily on her, crushing her soul. She fixed her tired gaze on me.
I understand you're a private investigator,
she said.
Among other things, I thought. That's right.
And you used to be a policeman. A police detective.
You're well informed.
She said nothing, but the question was clear in her eyes. Why aren't you a policeman any longer?
I hated this part. I did not relish sharing my history. Or explaining my present. But clients needed to be reassured that you could do the job.
I was a detective with the Hungarian police before the war in Europe. After the war, I came here.
And in between? Well, I couldn't see how that was any of Henrietta Ackerland's business. Nor was it relevant to my abilities as an investigator. Neither was my decision not to become a policeman in Israel.
Thankfully, Greta chose that moment to come over with the coffee, sparing me more of my potential client's questions regarding my past or present. Leaving, she gave me a look that said, Be careful with this one, she's fragile. Greta had a good eye for people. And a good heart for them, too.
Henrietta took a careful sip from her cup, closed her eyes, and nodded appreciatively.
See?
I said. I told you it was good.
She gave me a smile that died within one breath of being born. Those smile lines would not be getting deeper any time soon.
I drank from my own cup. Where did you get my name?
From a policeman. Reuben Tzanani. He told me I should see you.
Good old Reuben.
And you want to hire me?
I said.
Yes. My son. I want you to find my son.
He's missing? How long?
Ten years.
I raised both eyebrows. How's that?
The last time I saw my son, Willie, was on February 27, 1939. Ten years ago.
Ten years and four months, actually. It was now July 6, 1949.
And the police couldn't help you?
The first officer I spoke with told me it was pointless, that too much time has passed. The second one told me that since the last time I saw Willie was outside the borders of Israel, he couldn't help me. I could see in his eyes that he thought I was a bad mother.
There was a sharp edge to her tone, as if this were the greatest insult she had ever suffered. The third policeman I saw was Reuben Tzanani. He told me you might be able to help.
She was running ahead of me. It was a common phenomenon with clients. They spoke as if you already knew what troubled them, that the formality of hiring you was all that was needed for you to get started on their case.
Why don't you tell me the whole story from the beginning?
Instead of speaking, she unclasped her handbag and brought out a small brown book. From its middle, she withdrew a small photograph and handed it to me. The photograph was three inches wide and four inches long. A small piece near the top-left corner had been torn off. The photo was yellowing with age, but the image it showed was clear enough.
A sunny day. A lake in the background. Trees looming on the far bank. Patches of white where sailboats cut across the placid lake surface. A much younger, better-fed Henrietta Ackerland at the front. I could tell it had been a cold day, because she was coated and gloved. A small hat perched on her head. She was cradling a baby. Her son, Willie?
Henrietta was staring directly at the camera, a broad smile across her face. I was right. She had been beautiful once. And happy. The woman who sat across the table from me did not seem capable of such happiness.
Where was this taken?
I asked, lowering the picture.
Krumme Lanke. In Berlin. Do you know the city?
No.
It's very beautiful. Or it was, before the war.
You lived there?
Yes. I was born there, went to school there, and got married there. My husband, Jacob, took that picture.
And this is your son?
Yes. Willie is his name. But I said that already, didn't I? He was six weeks old that day.
Big boy,
I said. I would have guessed his age at ten weeks. Neither of my two daughters had looked as big as the baby in the picture at six weeks. This was how long ago?
November 2, 1938,
Henrietta said without hesitation.
I turned the picture over. No date on the back.
You know the date by heart.
She nodded. It was the last time I was happy, the last time all three of us were happy together. Jacob, Willie and me. Things were turning dark for Jews in Germany, but I had my little bubble of sunshine around me.
Her tone was one of resigned sadness, a sadness that had had time to settle like silt in every vein and artery, never to be dislodged by the passage of blood or time. Her eyes remained dry. I got the sense she had cried so many tears over the past ten years that she had very few left.
It struck me that whatever her story was, I did not want to hear it. I had enough such misery of my own. Goddamn it, Reuben, why did you have to send this woman my way?
Henrietta said, One week later, November 9, was Kristallnacht. Jacob was working at the shop. When he did not come back, I thought of going to look for him, but I was too frightened. The noise, the smoke from the fires, the screams. And there was no one to watch over Willie if I went out. The next day, I learned that men had broken into the shop where Jacob worked, dragged him out into the street, and beat him. Then he was arrested. I was sure they would release him soon, but…
But they never let Jacob go,
I finished her sentence for her when it became apparent she was unable to.
She shook her head. I tried to find where they took him and kept hoping they'd let him go. After two weeks, I was starting to lose hope. Earlier that year, a cousin of mine decided to leave Germany. She told me I should take my family and leave too, that Germany was no longer safe for Jews. I told her she was exaggerating, that the Germans would soon come to their senses, that the hate couldn't last much longer. By the time I realized she was right, it was too late. Jacob was arrested. I did not want to leave Germany without him. But I could get my son away.
You gave away your son?
I asked, in a tone of shocked incredulity.
Henrietta flinched as if I had raised a hand to her. I could think of nothing else to do. I was scared. So scared. I felt that I had to get him out of Germany.
She paused, as if waiting for my approval that she had done the right thing.
Go on,
I said, ashamed of myself. Who was I to judge other people for the decisions they had made in trying to protect their children, considering my failure to protect my own.
A schoolmate of mine, Esther Grunewald, had decided to immigrate to Palestine. I asked her to take Willie along with her, told her I would follow in a few weeks, three months at most. At first she refused, but I begged and pleaded, offering her nearly all the money I had. Finally, she relented. She and Willie took the train from Berlin to Zagreb on February 27, 1939, and that was the last time I saw my son.
Why didn't you follow them?
I spent the next six weeks making inquiries after Jacob. Then I got a warning that I was to be arrested. Apparently, all my poking about had made someone angry. I used the little money I had left to buy false papers, but couldn't get a passport. I left Berlin, settled in Frankfurt with my new identity, and stayed there throughout the war, hiding in plain sight. With my blond hair and blue eyes, no one suspected me of being Jewish. I looked like the perfect Aryan woman from Nazi posters.
When did you get here?
Two months ago. After the war, I spent some time looking for Jacob, but found no trace of him. I no longer have hope that he's alive. Then I boarded a ship to Israel, but the British stopped the ship and sent us to a prison camp in Cyprus. It was there that I learned Hebrew.
And once you got here?
"I started looking for Willie and Esther. I asked the immigration official which newspaper had the biggest circulation in Israel. Davar, he said. I posted an ad there six weeks ago. No one has contacted me. I went to the police, like I told you. Only Reuben Tzanani did anything to try to find Willie. Yesterday he told me he had done all he could and suggested I see you."
What actions did he take, do you know?
She nodded. He told me he checked the civil register, but found no Esther Grunewald or Willie Ackerland listed there. He checked criminal records. Also nothing. Then he searched death certificates from 1939 to today. Nothing.
She paused, lowering her eyes for a moment before raising them back to mine. He told me there was nothing more he could do. I told him I wasn't ready to give up, so he said I might talk to you.
Rubbing the back of my neck, I made a mental note to thank Reuben for leaving me with the unpleasant task of telling Henrietta Ackerland the truth. Which was that her son was dead. It could have happened a number of different ways, but Willie Ackerland was dead, of that I had no doubt. Maybe he and Esther Grunewald had died en route to Palestine. Or maybe Esther Grunewald simply took the money Henrietta Ackerland had given her and dumped the baby somewhere. Maybe she never intended to take him along with her. 1939 was a bad year for kindness. It was a desperate time. In such times even good people do evil things. Maybe Esther Grunewald was such a person.
But whatever had happened, it was clear that no one by the name of Esther Grunewald or Willie Ackerland was living in Israel now or had died here in the past ten years.
I knew I had to tell it to her straight, but that didn't mean I relished the prospect. I delayed by slowly draining my coffee cup. Her eyes didn't leave my face the whole time.
I wish I could help,
I said when I felt I could delay no longer. But Reuben is right. He checked everything there was to check and found nothing. Finding someone after ten years is almost impossible in the best of circumstances. In this case, there is no hope. With the work Reuben did and the newspaper ad you placed going unanswered, there is only one conclusion to be drawn: Your son is dead.
I didn't tell her I was sorry for her loss. From experience, I knew such a sentiment would provide her with zero comfort. I simply told it to her like it was. The unvarnished, awful, gut-wrenching truth. She would have to deal with it in her own way.
And what she chose was denial. My son is not dead,
she said forcefully, and there was suddenly some color in her cheeks.
Listen, I—
She cut me off. I said he's not dead. If he was dead, I would have known it, I would have felt it. Here.
She pointed to her heart. Do you understand? Do you?
Her face had taken on a resolute cast, her skin stretching taut across her facial bones. It made her look even thinner, as if she might suddenly tear apart from within and whatever was inside of her would come spilling out. My son is not dead. He is out there, somewhere, and I need to find him. He needs me to find him. I have no one else to turn to. Will you help me?
I didn't answer. I couldn't. My throat had constricted and my tongue felt too heavy to move. With my heart racing and the blood pounding in my ears, all I could do was stare at her, at this woman who had harbored an irrational hope for ten years, that at some point she'd be reunited with her son. It was this hope, I was sure, that had kept her going during the long years of the war, even as Germany was reduced to rubble around her. It was this hope that drove her to get up each morning, to put food and water in her mouth, to live.
It took me a long moment to realize I was not breathing. I made myself draw a breath and let it out. Once I was breathing normally again, I knew two things. The first was that she would never give up on finding her son. If I refused to take her case, she would find someone who would. Some in my profession were not the most scrupulous of men. She might stumble upon someone who would not think twice about squeezing her for every penny she had, feeding her tidbits of false hope to keep the money flowing. I would not do that.
The second thing I knew was that I had to take her case. For my sake, not hers. When she told me how she would have felt it had her son died, it was like the butt of a rifle had slammed into the pit of my stomach. I could still feel my insides churning.
I swallowed hard, but the taste of ashes lingered in my mouth.
All right,
I said, my voice nearly cracking. I'll give it a try.
2
After ordering each of us another cup of coffee, I asked, You said Esther Grunewald and your son boarded a train from Berlin to Zagreb. How were they supposed to get from there to Israel?
Esther said they would take another train to Greece,
Henrietta said. A ship was to take them the rest of the way.
What's the name of the ship? What was the departure date?
Henrietta didn't know. Nor did she know which port the ship sailed from. Only that it was somewhere in Greece.
Esther didn't know herself,
she told me. All she knew was that she and other Jews from all over Europe were to gather in Athens on March 1.
She did not have the names of any of the other passengers, nor those of the people who had arranged for the ship.
If all had gone according to plan and you had followed Esther and Willie here, how were you supposed to contact them?
Esther was supposed to send me a letter as soon as they arrived and got settled. No letter ever came.
I did not voice my thought that this was another indication that Esther Grunewald and Willie Ackerland had never made it to Israel. Instead, I asked Henrietta to tell me about Esther.
She was the most beautiful girl in our school. I remember being quite jealous of her. Her hair was black and shiny, her face exquisite, her skin like marble. Boys would follow her with their eyes wherever she went.
She never married?
No. I'm sure there were suitors, but no.
How tall was she? What was her build like?
She was tall. Five foot ten or so. And she was slim, but not like—
Henrietta paused to look down at herself, and a shadow crossed her face —she was slim in a feminine way.
And what was she like?
With an abashed look, Henrietta admitted that she and Esther Grunewald had never been close friends. More acquaintances than anything else. I realized that she was embarrassed to admit she had given her son to a woman whose heart and character were unknown to her.
She did tell me that Esther Grunewald had no siblings and that both her parents had died in a car accident in 1937. Esther Grunewald left no one behind when she emigrated from Germany.
By the time I ran out of questions, I had filled little more than three-quarters of one page in my notebook. I flipped it closed so I wouldn't have to look at the dearth of information I had to go on. What did it matter? This was a hopeless case anyhow.
Henrietta told me she shared an apartment in the south of Tel Aviv with two other women and that she worked as a cleaning lady. She did not have a telephone in her apartment, but one of her clients did. I wrote down the number and the day of the week she cleaned there and told her I'd call her with a report in two weeks, or sooner if I found anything. Then I told her what I normally charged as a retainer.
I can't pay twenty liras right now,
she said. I can give you ten now and the rest next month.
I said that would be fine. I had no doubt she would come up with the money. To do otherwise would be to disgrace her son, not just herself.
After she left, I took the empty coffee cups to the bar. Greta was there, looking at the doorway through which Henrietta Ackerland had just exited.
I feel guilty for not bringing that girl something to eat. She's skin and bones,
she said.
"That girl is thirty years old."
When you get to be my age, Adam, you'll understand that thirty is still very much a girl.
You going to finally tell me your age, Greta?
There was a running bet among the regulars as to Greta's age. I estimated it to be fifty-eight, but it could have been anywhere between fifty and sixty-five.
Greta smiled. Not today.
She had on a flower-pattern dress and was leaning against the bar, her heavy breasts resting on the bar top between her meaty forearms. Everything about Greta was big—her calves, arms, hips, bust. Even her head was big and crowned with a nest of salt-and-pepper curls. She's a new client?
Uh-huh.
You don't sound too happy about it. Can't you use the money?
Of course I can use the money. How else could I afford to come here every day?
Yes. I have no idea how you get by. It was nice of you to order coffee for her. Very generous.
We both smiled. Four months earlier, soon after I had returned to prime condition following my time at the hospital, I helped Greta handle a problem. A brawny man was pushing her for protection money. I took the man aside and explained to him with my fists that Greta was off-limits. After he hobbled off never to be seen again, Greta offered to pay me for my help, but I said I didn't want her money. She didn't like the notion of not paying, and she found that having me around made her feel safe, so she said I could eat and drink her debt to me.
Since then, I'd probably eaten and drunk three times what she would have owed me, if not more. But neither of us mentioned it. I kept eating on the house, never abusing the privilege too much, and she kept liking having me around.
I just don't think I can do what she hired me to,
I said.
Then why take the case?
Because it's better for her to feel hopeful.
Is she in trouble?
No. But she is troubled.
Poor girl,
Greta said.
At least she has a photograph,
I answered.
Back at my table, I discovered I was wrong. On the tabletop lay Henrietta's picture. I picked it up, rushed outside into the heat of Allenby Street, and looked in all directions. Henrietta was nowhere to be seen. Back inside, I sat at my table and examined the picture once again. It told me nothing I didn't already know. Why would it?
I carefully placed the picture between the pages of my notebook and slipped it into my pocket. Then I surveyed the chessboard I'd been playing with when Henrietta arrived.
I played chess almost every day. Greta kept the board and pieces behind the bar for me. I always played both sides and always a lightning game, with no time to think over moves. A lightning game is the only way to keep things interesting when you play with yourself as an opponent. I found that it also took my mind off things, which was usually a blessing.
This particular game, white was in a hopeless position, behind by one rook and a bishop. But in a lightning game anything can happen. I kept on playing, making rapid moves, hoping that white would somehow rally to a victory. Maybe I was looking for a sign that a hopeless situation, like the new case I had taken on, could still end well.
White lost in four moves.
3
A little after seven I folded the chessboard and went over to the bar so Greta could stow it away for me.
When are you seeing Rachel Weiss?
she asked me as she took the board from my hand.
Seeing her? That's not exactly how I would put it. You trying to avoid thinking unpleasant thoughts?
Wipe that smirk off your face and answer my question.
Tonight,
I said. I'm going over to her place tonight.
Greta gave a thoughtful nod and eyed me long and hard, as if trying to memorize every inch of my face, or perhaps say a prayer over me.
You watch yourself, you hear?
It'll be all right,
I said, discomforted by her concern. Don't worry.
I'll worry all I want. And you should worry, too. If you're not worried, you're being arrogant, and arrogance can get you in trouble.
I have done this sort of thing before, you recall.
I know, but tonight may be different. So watch yourself. I'll see you tomorrow.
Tomorrow,
I said in a somber voice, as if making her a promise. But in truth, I was not worried and couldn't see why she should be.
Outside, it was still hot, but not as oppressive as earlier. The broad, tree-lined sidewalks of Allenby Street were teeming with pedestrians, and on the road a bus laden with passengers was maneuvering around a truck that had parked with its tail end blocking part of the way. A handful of cars waited patiently for the road to clear. There was a sense of optimism in the air. And why shouldn't there be? Israel's War of Independence was, to all intents and purposes, over. We Jews had won. It was a costly victory, with six thousand dead and many thousands injured, but we had our state. A two-thousand-year-old dream had come true. Armistice agreements had been signed with Egypt, Lebanon, and the Kingdom of Transjordan. Rumor was that an agreement would soon be signed with Syria, Israel's sole remaining belligerent neighbor. Maybe now we would have peace. Maybe.
Not that everything was rosy. Far from it. The economy was in tatters. Thousands of impoverished Jews were pouring into the country on a monthly basis. There was nowhere to house them all, so tent towns had sprouted in various places across the land. Conditions there were miserable. There were also widespread shortages of basic products, including food. A few months ago the government had announced a rationing policy, which included meat, cheese, butter, eggs, and a variety of other items. A number of substitutes such as powdered eggs and chicory coffee were introduced, none of which tasted very good. The rationing gave birth to a thriving black market, with nearly every citizen participating in it, as either seller or buyer. I was one of the latter.