The Long Road Home: On Blackness and Belonging
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From a leading scholar on the politics of race comes a work of family history, memoir, and insight gained from a unique journey across the continent, on what it is to be Black in North America.
When Debra Thompson moved to the United States in 2010, she felt like she was returning to the land of her ancestors, those who had escaped to Canada via the Underground Railroad. But her decade-long journey across Canada and the US transformed her relationship to both countries, and to the very idea of home.
In The Long Road Home, Thompson follows the roots of Black identities in North America and the routes taken by those who have crisscrossed the world’s longest undefended border in search of freedom and belonging. She begins in Shrewsbury, Ontario, one of the termini of the Underground Railroad and the place where members of her own family found freedom. More than a century later, Thompson still feels the echoes and intergenerational trauma of North American slavery. She was often the Only One—the only Black person in so many white spaces—in a country that perpetuates the national mythology of multiculturalism.
Then she revisits her four American homes, each of which reveals something peculiar about the relationship between American racism and democracy: Boston, Massachusetts, the birthplace of the American Revolution; Athens, Ohio, where the white working class and the white liberal meet; Chicago, Illinois, the great Black metropolis; and Eugene, Oregon, the western frontier. She then moves across the border and settles in Montreal, a unique city with a long history of transnational Black activism, but one that does not easily accept the unfamiliar and the foreign into the fold.
The Long Road Home is a moving personal story and a vital examination of the nuances of racism in the United States and Canada. Above all, it is about the power of freedom and the dreams that link and inspire Black people across borders from the perspective of one who has deep ties to, critiques of, and hope for both countries.
Debra Thompson
Debra Thompson is an associate professor of political science at McGill University in Montreal, Canada. She is an internationally recognized, award-winning scholar of the politics of race and holds a Canada Research Chair in Racial Inequality in Democratic Societies. She completed her PhD at the University of Toronto, held a postdoctoral fellowship at Harvard University, and taught in the Department of African American Studies at Northwestern University before moving to the University of Oregon to help build its Black Studies program. She is the author of The Schematic State: Race, Transnationalism, and the Politics of the Census, which received three major awards from the American Political Science Association. She has published numerous articles in scholarly journals and is a regular commentator in print and on television on the state of race and racism in Canada and the United States. Connect with her on Twitter @DebThompsonPhD.
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5The comparison between Canada and America’s history was great perspective to hear about and the personal experiences that shows how alike those two countries are while also informing about the history of both nations and unfortunately it’s inherently racism systems.
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The Long Road Home - Debra Thompson
The Long Road Home
"Essential reading for those who seek to understand the lives of Black people in both Canada and the United States.
Lawrence Hill, bestselling author of The Book of Nagroes and The Illegal
On Blackness and Belonging
Debra Thompson
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The Long Road Home, by Debra Thompson, S&S Canada AdultThis book is dedicated to:
First, my ancestors in the space between worlds.
Second, organizers, activists, and resistance fighters, with gratitude.
Third, my students, who teach me in turn.
Fourth, my loves, still/always/forevermore.
Fifth, all those who believe we can remake the world.
[Y]ou don’t write about racism, you write about life. It is life you must write about. It is life you must insist on.
—Dionne Brand, A Map to the Door of No Return
BEGINNINGS
We Came Back Too Soon
In the early days of 2020, months before George Floyd’s murder in Minneapolis sparked the kinetic uprisings across North America, my father said, You know, Debra, your daughter was the first Thompson born in America since Cornelius Thompson escaped slavery. It’s been over a hundred and fifty years, and some days I think we came back too soon.
My father was born in 1944 and spent the first years of his childhood in Shrewsbury, Ontario. It’s a tiny town about fifty miles east of Detroit on the shores of Lake Erie. It, and other neighboring towns such as Buxton and Dresden, were among the last stops on the Underground Railroad. In 1850, the United States Congress passed the Fugitive Slave Act as part of a larger series of political compromises made between the southern enslaving states and the free northern states. It required law enforcement officials to arrest people suspected of being runaway slaves based on little or no evidence and penalized any official who dared not comply. Any person found aiding a runaway slave by providing food or shelter was liable to six months imprisonment and a $1,000 fine. Monetary awards were offered to anyone who captured a fugitive slave. Those suspected of being runaway slaves were not eligible for a trial and could neither testify on their own behalf nor defend themselves against the accusations. The result was the legalization of a national program of mass kidnapping and enslavement of free Blacks across the United States. But the Fugitive Slave Act did not extend to Canada, and to Canada thousands fled, including my grandfather’s grandfather, Cornelius Thompson.
Many of the people who escaped to Canada went back to the United States after the Civil War to find the loved ones left behind, stolen from them, or lost along the way. But generations of those descended from Black American refugees from slavery still live in southwestern Ontario, including my father’s family. Because the communities were rural and segregated, my kin have the most wonderful way of speaking, their southern intonations inflected with unambiguously Canadian accents. My father says thee-ater
and pronounces the w-h
in white. He talks in the same rhythmic riddles that characterize barbershop talk in African American communities and cultures. He says things like, You know, Debra, those politicians got nothing more than a nodding acquaintance with the truth.
But he is also staunchly, proudly, fiercely Canadian, and his accent appears plainly in words like about and sorry.
Dad doesn’t know where Cornelius or the others in the overgrown Shrewsbury graveyard escaped from. He thought he heard someone talking about West Virginia or Alabama once, but Debra,
he said, you’re looking for ghosts. You’re looking for evidence left behind by people who were trying to hide, and whose lives depended on how well and for how long they could do it.
So many of our stories are ghost stories. How could they not be? African-descended people in the Americas are connected by the horrors of the Middle Passage—the point during the triangular route of the transatlantic slave trade when Africans were violently kidnapped from their traditional territories, commodified as objects, forcibly transported to the New World,
and sold as property. So, too, the deep of the Atlantic, the goddess Yemaya’s domain, holds a place in our collective memory. There is blood in the water; it is the fathoms of the dead.
When I decided to move to the United States more than a decade ago, I thought the ghosts of my ancestors would welcome me home. I felt like I was returning to the land of my ancestors’ birth, the country they built, where they prayed, and sweated, and toiled, and were tortured, and resisted, and fought, and wept as their children were stolen and sold, and were traumatized as they were raped for profit and murdered for sport, the country where they died, the places they still haunt. They escaped and I returned to lay claim to the opportunities and the humanity they were refused. I thought I was going home.
I was wrong. But not in the way you might think.
In the opening pages of The Souls of Black Folk, published in 1903, the prolific African American sociologist W. E. B. Du Bois identified the so-called Negro problem
as the unasked question of white America. They approach me in a half-hesitant sort of way,
he writes, eye me curiously or compassionately, and then, instead of saying directly, How does it feel to be a problem? they say, I know an excellent colored man in my town; or, I fought at Mechanicsville; or, Do not these Southern outrages make your blood boil? At these I smile, or am interested, or reduce the boiling to a simmer, as the occasion may require. To the real question, How does it feel to be a problem? I answer seldom a word.
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I grew up in Oshawa, Ontario, and spent most of my life in Canada not exactly as a problem per se, but rather as the Only One—the only Black person in any space, anywhere, anytime, every time. There were so few Black people in my life growing up that if I was not literally the Only One, then I was figuratively the Only One—being one of the few in these majority white spaces. It was only after I moved to the United States in 2010 that I often found myself thinking about Du Bois’s infamous question. Between 2010 and 2020 I lived in four very different places, each with a complicated history of racism. My initiation to American life was in Cambridge, Massachusetts, on the outskirts of Boston, the birthplace of American freedom. Next I lived for four long, challenging years in Athens, Ohio, a very small, very white college town in the poorest county in the state, nestled in the foothills of the Appalachian Mountains. In 2015 I moved to Chicago, Illinois, the great Black Metropolis, and bore witness to the colliding legacies of Emmett Till, Fred Hampton, and Michelle Obama. My last years in the United States were spent in Oregon, founded as a white ethno-state, where the clash between the rugged frontier and the untamed coast mimicked the disparate ideological forces at play in state politics.
How does it feel to be a problem? Riding the Red Line to Harvard Station, I watched young Black men get on the subway, laughing and joking as teenagers do. I watched as the white people in the vicinity surreptitiously moved away and avoided eye contact with them.
I thought of this question when I began my first teaching position at Ohio University. I was running along the Hocking River path when a pickup truck zoomed by and a man’s voice screamed, HEY NIGGER!
It wasn’t the first or the last time something like this happened. But the worst was yet to come, and it would come from my white liberal colleagues, so desperate to be seen as progressive and tolerant to my face, but resentful and vindictive behind my back.
Deb Thompson? She’s just so full of herself. Like a bull in a china shop. Not very collegial,
they told the other faculty throughout the university.
How does it feel to be a problem? Du Bois coined the phrase double consciousness
to describe the twoness
of being African American and American at the same time; a conflict not of loyalty or allegiance, but one characterized by hard truth that the core ideas of American national identity—life, liberty, the pursuit of happiness—were only made possible to white Americans because of the torturous and deadly subjugation of Black people. Double consciousness is also a description of the psychic weight of constantly viewing one’s own Black identity, experiences, behaviors, and potential through the eyes of the white people who probably hate and fear you. It is an utterly exhausting tactic of Black survival, defined by the necessity of being neither here nor there and yet nowhere and everywhere at the same time.
Americans often think of their country as exceptional—one of the world’s oldest democracies, the birthplace of revolutionary freedom, the only remaining superpower, the last line of defense against a world constantly threatened by dictators and demagogues. But from the vantage point of African Americans who reside in what Du Bois called the Black lifeworld, the United States isn’t exceptionally free or equal. American racism is all the more tragic, cunning, and ruinous precisely because it exists alongside but in direct contradiction with the idealism of the American Creed, the pervasiveness of the American Dream, and the homogenizing power of American national identity.
And to those that observe American history in the making from abroad, the United States is exceptional only in terms of how utterly, unforgivably, uncompromisingly racist it is.
The idea of American racial exceptionalism is particularly powerful in Canada. American racism is understood as real and morally repulsive, and in comparative terms Canadian racism either does not exist, or if it does, it is less harmful, less depraved, less entrenched, and less traumatic than the racism in the United States. Comparison is routinely, frequently, faithfully used in the service of Canadian deniability. It is a national pastime, an obsession that works to simultaneously hide and entrench the persistent racial inequalities that define nearly every socioeconomic indicator in Canadian society. The cognitive dissonance required to be righteously indignant about anti-Black racism in America, but defensive when the perpetrators are the us
and not the them,
is itself a peculiarly Canadian form of racism.
A central idea in this book is that there is an innate value in the exploration of Blackness, belonging, and the broader politics of race in Canada and the United States, not in contrast, but rather in relation to each other. Ideas and inspirations, people and profits, goods and grievances have crossed the border for centuries. Black freedom dreams, as well, have never been limited by the geographical boundaries of the nation. And while others have compared racism in the United States to more obvious circumstances of legalized racial apartheid like in South Africa or Nazi Germany, the insistence in Canada that racism happens somewhere else or happened long ago requires a kind of national ignorance that is worthy of careful examination. Extreme cases have much to tell us, but so, too, do unsuspecting ones, and Canadian peculiarities make for interesting politics.
Black communities in Canada are both very old, predating Confederation by more than a century, and very new, growing exponentially in the mid to late 1990s. The population is quite small, at just 3.5 percent of the national population, but significant in cities such as Toronto, Montreal, Halifax, and Ottawa. We are the diaspora of the diaspora, so to speak: both old and new Black communities are products of the global collusions and imperial collisions of colonialism and the transatlantic slave trade, but we have neither the level of political or cultural recognition of African Americans nor the sheer magnitude of the millions who comprise the African-descended populations of the Caribbean and South America.
We also have a unique kind of racial consciousness, the result of multiple formulations of Blackness in Canada that are crisscrossed with nationality, ethnicity, generational status, language, class, religion, and more, but which are also shaped by convergences, amalgamations, frictions, translations, and intersections with shifting contours of Canadian culture, politics, and society. Organizing and creating a sense of solidarity among Black people in Canada is difficult but is also full of the potential that comes with the recognition of multiple, overlapping, authentically contradictory Black experiences.²
Blackness in Canada also exists within the crucible of Canadian exceptionalism. That is, Canada the exceptional, Canada the clearly not-racist, Canada the good, Canada the white savior, Canada the successful multicultural experiment. The dismissiveness is part of the appeal, because if we are the global exception to the multitude of polities that rule by, through, and according to race, then we have no need to examine our exceptionally Canadian racial rules. It’s a red herring, of course, because Canadian racism is shaped not just by a global history that gives it a familiar force and feeling, but also by those peculiarities that make it Canadian born and bred, just like me.
It’s an open question, then, about how Canadian racism is shaped by Canadian democracy, Canadian political structures, Canadian liberalism, Canadian whiteness, Canadian politeness, Canadian public policy, Canadian political parties, Canadian political culture, Canadian popular culture, Canadian urban centers, Canadian regionalism, Canadian ruralism, Canadian media, Canadian peacekeeping, Canadian war-making, Canadian bilingualism, Canadian settler colonialism, and the Canadian national inferiority complex. There’s a lot we don’t yet know about the nuances of Canadian anti-Blackness. It’s hard to research what is so consistently jettisoned to the realm of the unthinkable.
This is part of the reason why a sense of real belonging was, at least for me, always elusive in Canada. The kind of belonging I always wanted in the country of my birth, I instead sought in the country that enslaved my ancestors.
In early 2020 I was teaching a class called Black Lives Matter and American Democracy
at the University of Oregon. The classroom was packed; when the sixty spaces of the course filled within the first five hours of the registration period, I pulled some strings and added an additional thirty seats. At a predominantly white university with only five hundred Black students, and somewhere around a dozen Black faculty, it was heartening that so many young people of all backgrounds wanted to learn about Black Lives Matter. It’s not exactly pleasant to spend ten weeks reading about racism and police brutality. They came to my classroom nevertheless, every Tuesday and Thursday morning, without fail. There were no participation grades and I didn’t take attendance, and they all showed up anyway.
But in those early days of 2020, I had begun to wonder if I should be teaching about Black Lives Matter in the past tense. More than five years after Ferguson, Missouri, police officer Darren Wilson shot and killed Michael Brown in August 2014, what was different, really? In spite of a murder that made the tiny city of Ferguson, with a population of just over 21,000, known throughout the world, a scathing U.S. Department of Justice investigation into the Ferguson Police Department, and a consent decree that required significant changes in Ferguson’s approach to policing, little had changed.
Black Lives Matter activists throughout the United States were still doing the on-the-ground work, but the public’s attention had waned. It wasn’t because the police had suddenly stopped killing Black people. In September 2018, for example, twenty-six-year-old Botham Jean was shot in his own apartment by an off-duty police officer. She claimed she mistook his apartment for her own, a floor below. But shootings like these, as racist and preventable as they were, were still just one more injustice in an avalanche of bad news. The Trump administration made a daily habit of political assaults on the impoverished, the undocumented, the disenfranchised, and the vulnerable. The president was impeached in December 2019 and it didn’t matter. It was hard on the soul to be outraged all the time. The anger was so overwhelming, so all-consuming, we couldn’t help but become desensitized to the ongoing tragedies. I knew it, my father knew it, my students knew it. Despair breeds indifference.
Then, during the final week of the semester, COVID-19 hit home.
In an instant, the campus became a ghost town. Oregon governor Kate Brown declared that all K–12 schools would be closed from March 16 to March 31, 2020; they never reopened. Working parents scrambled to figure out how to work full-time and care for their children. Businesses shut down. The economy fell off a cliff. The governor issued a shelter-in-place order. Congress scrambled to put emergency funding in place for the 30 million new unemployment claims filed between March and April. If you listened hard enough, you could hear the hum of the phrase flatten the curve
everywhere you went. Horror stories started to emerge from New York City, the early epicenter of the pandemic. March was the longest month in human history. April wasn’t much better.
And then. On May 25, 2020, George Floyd was murdered by the Minneapolis police. The last moments of his life, spent being slowly tortured to death as a police officer kneeled on his neck for eight minutes and forty-five seconds, were recorded by bystanders. The video went viral.³
Did you know that George Floyd started to cry when he saw the police approaching him? Did you know that one of the police officers, Thomas Lane, pulled his gun within fifteen seconds of encountering Floyd, who was sitting, minding his business, in a parked car? Did you know that George Floyd begged officers not to kill him? That he repeatedly called them sir
and Mr. Officer
and told them he could not breathe at least twenty-five times? Did you hear the spectral echoes of Eric Garner’s last words in George Floyd’s last moments?
Floyd’s murder followed on the heels of two other high-profile, shocking, unjustifiable killings. Ahmaud Arbery was jogging in Glynn County, Georgia, when three white vigilantes chased him in their truck before shooting him with a shotgun. Breonna Taylor was sleeping in her home when three plainclothes officers from the Louisville Metro Police Department broke down the door. Taylor’s boyfriend, Kenneth Walker, assumed they were intruders and shot at the officers once; in response, they fired thirty-two rounds into the home, hitting Taylor five or six times.
Then in New York’s Central Park, Amy Cooper—a white woman from Canada, it turned out—called the police when bird-watcher Christian Cooper asked her to restrain her dog; her fake, manipulative hysterics went viral and added a sense of liberal, middle-class indignation to the emerging unrest. Pundits connected the dots between Christian Cooper and George Floyd—how easily one could have become the other. It added to a growing understanding about how exhausting, how unfair, how disproportionate, how arbitrary these dangers are for Black people—how a chance encounter with a white woman who is unafraid to weaponize her privilege to get her way could so easily end a life.
Minneapolis exploded. The embers spread to major American cities and then around the world. On June 6, 2020, the peak of the protests, half a million people turned out in more than five hundred cities across the United States. The protests were bigger, more diverse, occurred in more places, and lasted for longer than any form of collective action we’ve ever seen.⁴
The demands made by protestors were not new, but they were gaining more traction than they ever had before. Many echoed the call to defund the police. Concessions were won in key battlegrounds, including Minneapolis, where the city council pledged to dismantle the police department. Confederate monuments were toppled. Seattle removed the police presence from its schools. Cops, the worst show on television, was temporarily cancelled. Police reform bills were introduced in the House of Representatives and more than twenty state legislatures. The struggle was resurrected; change seemed, for the most fleeting of moments, possible.
And, I left.
After spending a quarter of my life in the United States, at exactly the same moment as the COVID-19 pandemic exposed our collective vulnerability and mass uprisings against racial injustice rocked cities around the world, I fled, as did my ancestors before me, to Canada.
The timing was curious, but coincidental. A plan of return, two years in the making, was already in motion. With my American partner, our two children under five, and the Artful Dodger, our anxious rescue mutt, in tow, I began a cross-continent, international move from Eugene, Oregon, to Montreal, Quebec. I didn’t feel a sense of relief when I stepped off the plane and into the usually packed Pierre Trudeau International Airport, now eerily silent because of the restrictions the Canadian government had placed on all nonessential travel from abroad.
I was instead, and once again, unsettled.
This is a book about the peculiar nuances of racism in Canada and the United States and the power of freedom dreams that link and inspire Black people across national borders. I offer insights from the perspective of someone who has deep ties and loyalties to, critiques of, and hope for both countries. I am not so unlike those who came before me. For my ancestors, Canada was the Promised Land. It was a refuge from American slavery; a chance to access the rights of citizenship, make lives for themselves and their children, and start anew as recognized members of a political community. For me, the United States was the birthplace of the struggle against racism, the geographic core of Black cultural identity, and the originator of a blood debt owed to my kinfolk for generations of bondage.
But some truths only reveal themselves while we’re in transit from one place to the next, and, one hundred and fifty years apart, my ancestors and I found ourselves as inside-outsiders in both countries. Though we could, in some ways, make parallel claims about how much we belonged in and to our adopted homes, our membership in these nations was always troubled and incomplete. Always a problem.
America could never quite be all that I wanted it to be. The land and the people are still haunted by what leading African American Studies scholar Saidiya Hartman calls the afterlives of slavery.
More than four hundred years after the beginnings of chattel slavery in British North America, more than one hundred and fifty years after the Thirteenth, Fourteenth, and Fifteenth Amendments to the American Constitution ended racial bondage and granted Black people the rights of citizenship, Black lives continue to be put in peril by a centuries-old racial calculus.⁵
The formerly enslaved were promised forty acres and a mule at the end of the American