The Raven's Tale
By Cat Winters
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Seventeen-year-old Edgar Poe counts down the days until he can escape his foster family—the wealthy Allans of Richmond, Virginia. He hungers for his upcoming life as a student at the prestigious new university, almost as much as he longs to marry his beloved Elmira Royster.
However, on the brink of his departure, all of Edgar’s plans go awry when a macabre Muse named Lenore appears to him. Muses are frightful creatures that lead Artists down a path of ruin and disgrace, and no respectable person could possibly understand or accept them. But Lenore steps out of the shadows with one request: “Let them see me!”
Cat Winters
Cat Winters's debut novel, In the Shadow of Blackbirds, was released to widespread critical acclaim. The novel has been named a finalist for the 2014 Morris Award, a School Library Journal Best Book of 2013, and a Booklist 2013 Top 10 Horror Fiction for Youth. Winters lives in Portland, Oregon, with her husband and two children.
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- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5This was a free summer audio sync book from 2021 and is a fantasy/historical novelization of Edgar Allan Poe. The fantasy part is the "muse" that helps creative people be creative. This book explores the questions that exist around Poe's life and death. Is was okay, not hard to read in anyway and I learned a bit about Poe.Narrators: Michael Crouch, Nicole Wood. The various voices of Poe, his muse, and others. I appreciated the research that the author put into the work.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I just started reading this without having any idea what it was really about and I was clueless of what was going on for awhile. The story follows Edgar Allen Poe's real life around his late adolescence and early adulthood. The author added the real characters, places and events from his life. So this story is somewhat biographical but a fantasy at the same time. Poe's muse is gothic creature trying to help him find his true self as a poet while is adopted father is trying to do anything to keep him from it. Some poetry is woven in the story. The author does a great job of giving that Poe feeling. I enjoyed this.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I've had Winters on my radar for a while because I've heard such great things about her books. I went into The Raven's Tale expecting atmospheric writing and was not disappointed. I love Edgar Allen Poe and thought this was a nice nod/tribute to him, but I wasn't quite sucked into the novel as much as I hoped I'd be. Still, a good book for fans of YA historical fiction and Gothic romances.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Seventeen-year-old Edgar Poe counts down the days until he can escape his foster family, the wealthy Allans of Richmond, Virginia. He hungers for his upcoming life as a student at the prestigious new university, almost as much as he longs to marry his beloved Elmira Royster. However, on the brink of his departure, all his plans go awry when a macabre Muse named Lenore appears to him. Muses are frightful creatures that lead Artists down a path of ruin and disgrace, and no respectable person could possibly understand or accept them. But Lenore steps out of the shadows with one request: "Let them see me!"
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I have loved most of Cat Winters books and was incredibly excited to see what she would do with a book about Edgar Allan Poe. This ended up being a bit disappointing to me. While it was a neat idea, it was honestly kind of boring. There is a lot of flowery language but not much of a story here.Edgar Poe is constantly pulled between the demands of his art and the demands of his foster father. He desperately wants to attend University and his foster father has agreed to send him..for now. When Poe’s muse takes on human form she ends up causing a number of issues for him that lead him down a dark path.I did enjoy the idea of an artist’s muse being a living/tangible thing; basically the human embodiment of their artistic talent. Lenore is all of Poe’s dark tendencies and urges wrapped into one disturbing girl. Eventually another muse shows up who fights with Lenore over Poe and this muse is the embodiment of Poe’s ability for satire. Unfortunately this story was both too much and not enough for me. Having the second muse enter the scene was distracting and this second muse was just not very well developed (I can’t even remember his name). It was just too much and really defocused the story. I also felt like Lenore was not enough. She just wasn’t dark enough, committed enough, and didn’t feel passionate and developed enough. The whole thing ended up being a bit of a muddle.If you look back at what actually happened in this book it’s really not all that much. It was fairly boring to read, the only bright spots being the poetry excerpts throughout. I also enjoyed the afterward that talked about Edgar Poe’s actual history.Overall this was a disappointing read for me; it’s okay but feel very short of my expectations. The story is just too slow, boring, and a bit muddled. You don’t get a lot of story and the muses weren’t quite as intense as they should have been. This is one of the weaker Cat Winters books I have read. I started reading it with a huge amount of enthusiasm and by the end just wanted it to be over.
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The Raven's Tale - Cat Winters
PART I
WAITING TO ESCAPE RICHMOND, VIRGINIA
— FEBRUARY 5, 1826 —
And so, being young and dipt in folly
I fell in love with melancholy . . .
—EDGAR ALLAN POE, Introduction,
1831
CHAPTER ONE
Edgar
Good morning, ladies and gentlemen! I imagine myself saying from the pulpit in the pink sanctuary of our church. My name is Edgar Poe, and today, for reasons I don’t fully comprehend, I’m obsessed with the seventy-two bodies buried beneath us.
Don’t ever forget, my dear friends, I continue with this grim fancy, that a grisly collection of bones, and teeth, and soot sits below your very feet, even as you try not to think of such horrors. Even when your heart is giddy with evangelical glee this fine February morning, the victims of our infamous Richmond Theater fire still dwell among us down there—or at least what’s left of the poor souls—piled together in a moldering mass grave.
And then I envision myself tipping my silk hat with the coyest of grins and saying, A happy Sunday to you all!
Down below the floorboards creaking beneath my knees, deep in the belly of Monumental Church, stands a crypt built of bricks that, indeed, holds the remains of all seventy-two victims of the great Richmond Theater fire of 1811. I kneel beside my foster mother in the Allan family pew, my lips moving in prayer, my hands clasped beneath my chin, but my mind slips down between the cracks of the floor and steals into the depths of that underground tomb that still smells faintly of ashes.
The doomed Richmond Theater stood on this very site. The victims of the fire once breathed the same air I’m inhaling right now. I might have burned along with them if my mother, an actress, hadn’t died of illness eighteen days before the blaze—if, as a child not yet three, two strangers, the Allans, hadn’t taken me into their home and carried me off to the countryside for Christmas.
The back of my neck tingles with a prickling of dread. My eyes remain shut, but I feel someone watching from the shadows of the church’s salmon pink walls. Yes, she’s watching me—a raven-haired maiden in a gown spun from threads made of cinders and soot—a girl my own age, a mere seventeen—one of the dozens of young women whom the fire trapped in the narrow passageways, whom men crushed beneath their feet in the mad exodus from the box seats. The smell of smoke stings my nostrils, and accompanying it, the stench of the maiden’s hair burning.
There! There it is again! Singed hair . . . and smoke! Dear God! Black, blistering smoke that chokes, and strangles, and suffocates—
Edgar!
snaps Ma in a whispered shout.
I give a start and discover that Ma and the rest of the congregation have returned to their seats. I’m panting, I realize. Every muscle in my body has clenched.
Ma pats the hard slab of the bench and whispers, The prayer is over. Remove yourself from the floor, please.
I push myself off my knees, the soles of my shoes squeaking with such a fuss that Judge Brockenbrough in front of me turns and frowns like an angry old trout. I slide back onto the bench just as the Right Reverend Bishop Moore embarks upon his sermon, preached from high in a pulpit shaped like a wineglass—a shape, I might add, that likely explains the bountiful quaffing of wine among his parishioners after church every Sunday.
Renounce ‘the pomps and vanities of the wicked world,’
the bishop calls down to us, and his snowy white hair swings against his shoulders. Silence your muses who linger in firelight and shadows, whispering words of secular inspiration, muddling minds with lewd and idle aspirations that detract from lives of charity, piety, and modesty.
Ma gulps, and one of my former classmates, Nat Howard, a rival poet, turns his face my way from across the aisle with a lift of his eyebrows that seems to ask, Is he really giving this same damn sermon again?
I squeeze my hands together in my lap and gnash my teeth, bracing for yet another tirade against the arts.
In the dawns of our childhoods
—the bishop’s voice softens; the broad expanse of his bald pate sparkles with sweat—in the midst of nursery games and fairy stories, the sweet voices of muses coaxed every single one of us into joining them on fantastic flights of fancy. As naïve babes, we knew not to ignore them. Yet the strongest among us swiftly learned that to walk the path of righteousness, we must turn away from foolish temptations and imaginary realms before our passions grow unruly and wild—before the world views our extravagance. Silence your muses!
I flinch, as does Ma.
To live without sin,
continues the bishop, we must reject the theater and other vulgar forms of entertainment—card playing, waltzing, bawdy music, lascivious literature penned by hell-dwelling hedonists such as the late Lord Byron . . .
Dear God, this is too much! Not only do I consider insulting the memory of Byron a despicable sacrilege, but Pa yelled at me about stifling my poetic muse just last night. His fists, as a matter of fact, shook like they longed to beat the poetry out of me before I leave for college next week, and he pummeled me with insults.
Pursuing the life of an artist,
says the bishop, inevitably leads to promiscuous intercourse between the sexes, drunkenness, and other forms of debauchery. Fourteen years ago this past December, God witnessed the debauchery among us. He saw the gambling, the prostitution, the theatrical exhibitions, and the blasphemy among the theater players whom this city welcomed with open arms. Upon this very plot of land, in front of a house packed with adults and children of every stratum of Richmond society—rich and poor, black and white, Christian and Jew—the Placide & Green Company performed a pantomime entitled . . .
The bishop pats his brow with a handkerchief and winces before uttering the name of the show the actors performed when flames engulfed the theater: "The Bleeding Nun."
Ma shakes her head in shame over that unfortunate title, as though she were the playwright who concocted it. Judge Brockenbrough’s large frame shudders in front of me. Bishop Moore casts a frown in my direction, and I fight against squirming, for I’m the grown, orphaned son of two Placide & Green theater players—as everyone here knows.
The Lord punished this town’s depravity with fire and suffering,
he says, tears shining in his eyes. He called for us to rise from the ashes and build this house of worship on the very site of the inferno, lest we forget the errors of our ways that wrought that terrible night of tragedy. If we stray from holiness once more, he will smite us down again. He. Will. Smite. Us. Down. Again.
The bishop rises to his full height and clutches the sides of his pulpit, as though steering a schooner across the Atlantic. He even looks a mite seasick, his lips pale and puckered, yet he musters the strength to bellow once more, Silence your muses!
Ma grabs my left hand, and a horrifying hush trembles across the congregation. Sniffles circulate among the parishioners, who dab liquid eyes with handkerchiefs fetched from coats and purses—the usual aftermath of a Bishop Moore sermon, even when he’s not preaching about the fire that killed so many loved ones in Richmond.
And yet, despite the window-rattling force of the bishop’s warnings, despite genuine fear for my own soul, despite Pa’s commands for me to cease writing my poetry, my mind drifts back down into that basement crypt, to the soot and the bones, and I ponder how many words I can rhyme with gore.
After the service, when the fine Episcopalians of Richmond gather their hats and coats, Ma steps away to speak with friends about a charity project, and I wander out to the aisle on my own.
Eddy,
calls a familiar female voice to my left.
The weight of the sermon lifts from my lungs when I see, weaving toward me through the other churchgoers, my darling Sarah Elmira Royster—normally a Presbyterian—dressed in a blue satin dress that matches her eyes. She wears her hair pulled back from the sides of her face in smooth sheets of brown tresses, finer than silk, without the clusters of ringlets that tend to dangle in front of the other girls’ ears.
I push my own curls back from my face and smile. What are you doing here, Elmira?
I came with Margaret Wilson and her family. I wanted to see you.
I can’t speak, I’m so overcome with gratitude that she’s here for me. I take her left hand and pull her close, losing my wits to the heady lilac of her perfume.
Not too close, Eddy.
She peeks over her right shoulder. My father told Mrs. Wilson to watch over me. Will you meet with me in private sometime before . . .
She fusses with the gold chain of her necklace, and her eyes brim with tears. Before you leave for Charlottesville next week?
Of course.
I caress the back of her gloved hand with my thumb. I already intended to call on you later today. I have a gift for you.
My parents will be home today. I want to spend some time alone with you.
We can arrange a later meeting in the garden, but may I visit today as well? Pa and I had a fight last night that robbed me of all sleep and sanity. The bishop’s sermon only added to my wretchedness . . .
Please don’t silence your muse,
she says. I don’t believe there’s anything sinful about writing poems of love.
I’m desperate to leave Richmond and end this suffocation, but it tortures me to know I’m leaving you, too.
Elmira lowers her face. I’ll going to miss you terribly.
My heart will bleed the moment we part.
She smiles a wan smile and brushes tears from her cheeks. I do believe your romantic muse is speaking through you this very moment.
Shh.
I peer around. Don’t let anyone hear that I’m poeticizing in church.
We both snicker.
Do you see Mrs. Wilson?
she asks. Is everyone watching us?
I scan the crowd of my fellow parishioners—the established old families of Richmond, Virginia—fair-skinned, bejeweled, and gossipy aristocrats with blood as exquisite as a fine Bordeaux wine—blood far superior to the rot running through my body, or so I’ve come to believe.
No, I don’t see her,
I say, and our eyes meet.
She gazes at me as though she doesn’t see the low-born filth and the ugliness that writhes inside me.
I’m going to miss seeing those beautiful eyes of yours that can’t decide if they want to be gray, or blue, or violet,
she says, her voice husky with emotion. And your smile. You have the loveliest smile when you’re not lost in sadness.
I gulp down a lump clogging up my throat and lean my lips next to her right ear. I want to marry you, Elmira. Will you marry me?
She stiffens, so I stay in that tipped-forward position, frozen mid-proposal, terrified of witnessing the expression on her face. I close my eyes, brush my cheek against hers, and lose myself in reveries of a future world for us—a cottage by the sea, every room stocked with books, the air rich with the scents of ink and watercolor paints; balmy evenings spent tinkling out tunes on a piano; the soft warmth of Elmira’s hand cradling mine as we drift off to sleep, side-by-side.
My father would never allow an engagement,
she says at length.
I know he doesn’t think I’m good enough . . .
It’s not that. We’re both so young. I’m not yet sixteen, Eddy. You’re barely seventeen.
I clench my jaw and lift my face. Your father will change his mind when he sees all that I accomplish.
I should go before Mrs. Wilson spies me over here.
Elmira slips her fingers out of mine. I’m sorry . . .
May I still call on you this afternoon?
Yes, before our Sunday dinner, but please, don’t mention marriage. I’ll never be permitted to write to you at the university if you do.
She scurries away to the Wilsons. I’m still tipped slightly forward, fighting to catch my breath, my fingers sweating against the silk of my vest. Her father may as well have just struck a blow to the pit of my stomach.
A clutch of my friends—Rob Mayo, Robert Cabell, Jack Mackenzie—catch my eye from across the nave and wave me over, but I mouth to them, I can’t. Not feeling well.
Ebenezer Burling, who doesn’t quite fit in with the rest of the fellows either, lingers toward the back of the pews with his widowed mother. He offers a small wave, and I give one in return.
I then sidle past a couple of gray-haired old lawyers who glower at me with buzzard eyes, undoubtedly questioning my familiarity with Miss Sarah Elmira Royster. Richmond crawls with dozens of pompous asses just like them. Lawyers. Judges. Congressmen. Senators. Constitutional delegates. Rich immigrant merchants like Mr. John Allan, my Scot-blooded bastard of a foster father.
Yet poets, actors, painters, and other dreamers are growing endangered, it seems.
I fuss with the knot of my cravat—the damn thing’s strangling me—and join Ma at the rear of the church. The bishop’s sermon gnaws at my gut, and Elmira’s warnings about her father’s disapproval slices an ax blade of a headache through my brain.
Ma fits her gray bonnet over her auburn hair. Are you all right, dear?
I squint from the sunlight boring through the windows in the cupola of the domed ceiling and nod with my lips pressed together.
Are you certain?
she asks.
Yes,
I say with a rasp, but the ugliness inside me writhes with more vigor, squeezing down on my stomach, knotting around my lungs like a thick cord of rope before rising to the surface of my flesh, where my wretchedness burns and yearns to shed from my body like a rattlesnake’s skin.
CHAPTER TWO
The Muse
I awaken in the shadows, ravenous for words, hungering for delicacies dripping with dread.
My poet in the black frock coat kneels in prayer beneath the windows in the ceiling that bathe his head in a weak winter light, bronzing his brown curls and the back of his neck. He bends his face toward the floorboards, toward the crypt down below him, and I will the spirits of the dead beneath him to whisper a song:
Once upon a dark December, in a year we must remember,
Morbid mounds of ash and ember told a gruesome tale of gore—
Ah, there now—he lifts his face, sensing my presence. I smell the incense of his imagination kindling. A small shudder quivers through him.
In his mind, I’m a girl with ashen skin and raven hair who watches him from the walls with raptor eyes. He smells the smoke that still clings to me from the flames that sparked me to life all those years ago, when his mother drew her last breath in a cold and silent room. He envisions me as a young woman draped in one of the high-waisted dresses all the fashionable ladies once wore—gossamer, Grecian-inspired gowns that fluttered in the breezes of his childhood.
Oh, Lord—how my hunger worsens! How I crave a tale of horror that will appease my groaning soul. Dream again, poet, of your other lost lady—the one you call Helen,
who lies in a grave up on Shockoe Hill.
I slither through the shadows, my skirts swishing, sliding, scented with cinders. I don’t quite know for certain whether I truly am a girl, but that’s how my poet tends to think of me, and so I lengthen, and stretch, and wiggle curves into my hips. I thrust out my torso and plump up my breasts, reshaping myself into the silhouette of a young woman who hides in the warmth of the wood, and the nails, and the pale pink plaster. I creak and crawl in the wall on hands and knees, unseen, unheard by most, and set Edgar Poe’s imagination ablaze by conjuring images that astound and horrify him. I inspire him, and in turn, he offers me stories that strike sparks in the flint of my fluttery fragment of a heart.
The Right Reverend Bishop Moore opens his eyes mid-prayer and gapes in my direction.
He senses me, too—ha! ha!
Perhaps my strengthening heartbeat has loudened.
Perhaps my cravings rumble with thunderous wails through the church and shake the floor beneath the bishop’s leather soles.
Perhaps everyone hears the songs I’ve summoned from the dead in the crypt down below.
Edgar cracks a small smile at that last supposition.
Silence your muses!
the bishop shouts to the congregation minutes later, and I crouch down in the dust of the floorboards and breathe the tang of anguish and terror trapped inside this haunted temple.
The strongest among us,
says the bishop, swiftly learned that to walk the path of righteousness, we must turn away from foolish temptations and imaginary realms before our passions grow unruly and wild—before the world views our extravagance.
Unruly.
Wild.
Before the world views our extravagance.
My soul—so cramped, so sore and weary of entrapment in shadows—longs for unruliness, wildness.
I want the world to notice my poet. To notice me.
Wait until they see what’s coming. Oh, just wait and see . . .
The service ceases, and the congregation rises. With some tantalizing little nudges from me, my poet woos his beautiful, beloved Elmira, and then he tugs at the cream-colored cravat strangling him and plods toward the back of the church, his footfalls hammering out a steady cadence—a bold and beauteous trochaic octameter that empowers me to stretch even taller. His violet-gray eyes flit in my direction for the briefest of moments—long enough for me to join him.
CHAPTER THREE
Edgar
Ma and I ride back home in a carriage that rocks us through ruts in a road ravaged by years of trade merchants rolling into Richmond in four- and six-horse wagons. Several inches of snow on the ground worsen the lurching and swaying, and despite our driver Dabney’s skilled guidance of the mares, Ma and I cling to the brass straps near our heads to avoid flying off the seat.
As of this morning,
I say through my teeth amid the tumult, I’ve learned that my artistic aspirations might not simply stop Pa from sending me to the university next week, but they might also impede me from both marriage and heaven.
You already knew the bishop’s opinion about secular entertainment, Edgar.
Ma withdraws an embroidered handkerchief from her purse. He’s been preaching such sermons since the earliest years of Monumental Church. I’m sorry if his mentioning the Placide & Green Company upset you. We both know your late mother was a sweet, lovely soul.
I see beauty and godliness in poetry.
I tighten my grip on the arm-strap. God gave me this brain that longs to create art.
I know, my dear.
Ma unfolds the handkerchief in her lap. I don’t believe Bishop Moore specifically spoke of your aspirations. You write of the stars in the heavens and the purity of love. Isn’t there a holy friar in the first line of your poem ‘Tamerlane’?
I gaze out the carriage window at a drunkard staggering out of the Swan Tavern.
Yes,
I say, there’s a friar, but I don’t believe Bishop Moore would like ‘Tamerlane.’
Ma emits a sudden cough that makes me jump. I watch her face redden as she draws a horrifying gasp that sounds like she’s inhaling all the oxygen in the carriage, and then she bends forward at the waist and hacks into her handkerchief, her shoulders lurching, shuddering.
Ma?
I place a hand on her back and endure the convulsions of her spine beneath my palm. Do you want a doctor?
She gasps again and forces herself upright by pushing one hand against the seat and using the other to grab the brass strap. No, darling.
Her eyes water and spill over. I’m fine.
She wipes her cheeks with the cloth. A troubling purple hue darkens her lips.
I dare a glance at her handkerchief, fearing the sight of blood—the telltale sign of tuberculosis—the disease that killed my mother.
The cloth looks clean. Thank God!
I hook an arm through hers and sicken with fear that she’ll die while I’m away at the university. She pats my hand and bellows a low wheeze that fills my eyes with tears.
Ma and I enter the front doorway of our brick beast of a house.
Our mansion, to be precise.
Pa purchased this hilltop Camelot—named Moldavia
by the original owners—just the summer before, after inheriting an obscene amount of money from his uncle William, who seized up and died one morning in the middle of tea and pancakes. We moved here from a smaller Richmond residence shortly after the purchase.
Go wish a good morning to Pa,
says Ma in the grand hall that amplifies the post-coughing croaks of her voice.
My throat tightens at her suggestion, and again I fuss with my cravat. My Adam’s apple lodges above the knot, and for a moment I’m caught in a mad struggle to breathe.
What are you doing, Edgar?
She pushes my hands away and reties the bow as though I’m still a child. Years of illness—as well as over two decades of marriage to an ass—have darkened the skin beneath her brown eyes and deepened the furrows of her forehead, and yet she’s remained a handsome woman, despite all. Her mouth and nose are so petite, they make her husband’s face look like an ogre’s in comparison whenever his head hovers beside hers.
I heard you two fighting again last night,
she says.
I peer straight ahead without blinking. My arms hang by my sides, my shoulders stiff, the blades aching. I smell Pa’s tobacco in every particle of air inside the house.
Go wish him a good morning, Eddy.
She fluffs the bow at my throat. Set things right.
I swallow. He accused me again of ‘eating the bread of idleness.’
He’s just urging you to fulfill your potential.
That doesn’t explain all the countless times he threatens to stop me from attending the university. I’m so close to leaving. So damn—
Edgar! The Sabbath.
"So maddeningly close."
Ma wraps her hands around my shoulders and leans toward me. It’s difficult for him to imagine you receiving the type of education his parents were never able to afford for him. He’s giving you opportunities he only dreamed of for himself.
Then why is he threatening to take it all away? Just look at this place he’s put us in.
I jerk my head toward the oil portraits glowering from the walls, the bronze statues, the monstrous furniture imported from Europe, the mahogany staircase that winds up to the second floor, where a mirrored, octagonal ballroom awaits. From inside the dining room down the grand hall, I hear the house servants—two of Pa’s three slaves, the other being our aforementioned driver. They clank silverware against dishes and speak in low tones as they prepare the room for our Sunday dinner.
How can he say he may not be able to afford my education,
I ask, when he’s rolling around in piles of money? He’s one of the richest men in Virginia right now.
All he wants is for you to show him gratitude for what he’s done for you. Please, go upstairs and wish him a good morning. Start the day together on a peaceful note.
Ma smooths out the lapel of my coat. For me.
He keeps calling himself a ‘self-made man.’ What a laugh!
Go! We have family visiting later today. And Aunt Nancy will return from her visit to the countryside soon. I don’t want tension in the house.
She backs away two steps and folds her hands in front of the skirt of her gray dress, watching to see whether I’ll obey.
I do, for her sake, not because I want to show any gratitude to Pa.
"The gay wall of this gaudy tower, I say in my head during my climb up the winding staircase, my soles sinking against plush velvet runners,
Grows dim around me—death is near."
I linger in the doorway, my fists clenched at my sides, feeling small and insignificant in this cold, garish tomb of a house. Near my right elbow, a bust of Pallas surveys the room from her post upon a marble pillar. A pair of medieval swords hang in a crossed position on the bricks of the fireplace, and above Pa’s head, a Revolutionary War musket awaits further action in its wooden mounting on the wall, next to an anxious clock that ticks away the seconds.
Good morning, Pa,
I say, my voice shattering the near silence.
Only his eyes move, shifting in my direction. How was church?
I shrug. Bishop Moore preached once more about God punishing Richmond through the fire.
How is Ma’s cough?
It worsened when we rode in the carriage through the snow. She sounds better now, though.
Pa nods with a grunt and returns his attention to his book. The echoes of our shouting match from the night before thrum across the walls, which, just like downstairs, house shadowy oil paintings from centuries past, as well as faded yellow tapestries that smell of dust and mildew. Pa is a ferocious consumer of art—a wolf that feasts on the carcasses of long-dead geniuses. And yet he calls me a disappointment whenever I insist of late that I aspire to make my living as an artist.
I turn to leave.
Where are you going?
he asks, that Scottish brogue of his making it hard to tell whether his tone is stern or light.
To my room.