The Art of Spies: Prodigal Son
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From altar boy to CIA assassin…
It's tough growing up in the shadow of a famous father who's both a former athletic All-American and a powerful businessman—especially when he's cold, heartless, and abusive.
But Okie has talents that will help him forge his own path and place him at some of the greatest turning points of the Cold War, from West Berlin to the Bay of Pigs. A razor-sharp talent for languages and a world-class sniper's eye. These talents draw the attention of men in the highest echelons of power, men who need weapons to keep the enemy at bay.
Soviet seductresses, Nazi war criminals, and Vatican intrigue make a heady stew, and Okie finds himself torn between his devout Catholic upbringing and the things he must do in the name of God and Country.
But to what lengths will he go? How far is too far? What price is he willing to pay as a soldier in the Cold War or when the halls of power call his name?
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The Art of Spies - Robert O’Connell
Part One
Mundus vult decipi, ergo decipiatur.
The world wants to be deceived, so let it be deceived.
Prologue - 1946
Okie sat on the parlor floor at the coffee table, sketching in his notebook, trying to tune out the drone of the Philco radio. His parents sat before the fireplace on this chilly autumn night. Cradling her needlepoint, his mother snickered at verbal sparring between the Bickersons, while his father remained oblivious behind a wall of Buffalo Courier-Express.
Okie didn’t like The Bickersons, but his mother listened to the show all the time. All that arguing—that’s all the program was, really—just annoyed him, so he tried to concentrate on his drawing, a line-by-line homage to the Captain America illustration from the cover of the comic book his mother had bought him this week. Something inspired him about the image of Captain America and his friend Bucky striding giant-sized over a crowd of panicked evildoers. Throughout the war years, almost half of Okie’s life, he’d loved the stories of Captain America punching Nazis and Japs and bouncing his shield off their heads and trying to bring down the Axis. With the end of the war a year behind the world now, the ration books and war bond drives all seemed like ancient history.
But then The Bickersons paused for the chime of a news broadcast.
This is NBC News for Tuesday, October first,
intoned the announcer’s voice. Judgment at Nuremberg!
His father’s newspaper pages crinkled and tipped downward.
But Okie tried to plug his ears and concentrate on getting the curve of the shield just right. The news was boring.
Twelve Nazi war criminals were found guilty today...
Okie tucked his tongue into the corner of his mouth, concentrating on the wings on Cap’s head.
...sentenced to hang in two weeks’ time...
He couldn’t quite get the eyes right. They either looked too kitten-eyed or too mean.
...Grand Admiral Karl Dönitz, sometimes called the Last Führer, was sentenced to ten years in Spandau Prison...
This caught Okie’s attention. Hey, Pops, why do they call him ‘the Last Führer’? I thought Hitler was the Führer.
His father lowered his newspaper enough to peer over it. Okie could see only his pale eyes, forehead, and slicked-back hair. The Third Reich didn’t end with Hitler, at least not immediately. Right before he killed himself, he anointed a successor, this Grand Admiral Dönitz. Dönitz carried on the war effort for three weeks until the Reich finally surrendered.
Okie snickered. Sounds like ‘donuts.’
Do you suppose he liked Bavarian creme?
Okie’s mother asked with a restrained smile.
Okie sensed a joke, but didn’t get it; then, Oh, because Bavaria is in Germany.
He laughed.
His father shook his head and rolled his eyes.
Mom poked his shin with her foot. Oh, come on. That was funny.
His father grunted and raised his paper again.
She asked, Why this Dönitz? Why not Goering or Himmler? Goebbels.
Goebbels was already dead, and Hitler had lost faith in Goering and Himmler.
"Well, it seems strange not to execute him, of all people. I mean, Goering was just sentenced to execution," Okie’s mother said.
Allied admirals vouched for him, Admiral Nimitz in particular. They convinced the tribunal Dönitz was just doing his job, sinking Allied shipping with his U-boats.
The flutter of a skirt and creak of the sofa behind Okie announced Ann’s arrival. Whatcha drawing?
He edged around his drawing. It’s not ready yet.
Mickey Mouse? Bugs Bunny?
Her voice took on a teasing tone. Flash Gordon!
Nope.
He leaned over the paper so she couldn’t see.
Oh, come on, show me?
she said, elbowing him. Big sisters were the most annoying creatures on God’s green earth. Betty Boop.
She leaned in.
No.
Batman!
No! Cripes!
Watch your language!
his father snapped.
Okie’s ears heated, and the unspoken threat in his father’s voice sent a chill down his spine. Then he sighed and scooted the picture so that Ann could see it.
Hey!
she said. I don’t know what you’re talking about, but that’s really good.
Okie blinked. You think so?
I think it’s really swell, Okie.
Thanks.
Who is it?
He gasped at her, and she laughed. Of course I know who Superman is.
As his mouth fell the rest of the way open, she laughed harder. Gotcha.
He elbowed her knee in feigned outrage. Dork.
She grabbed the paper and handed it to Mom.
Hey!
he protested. It’s not done!
Mom gave him a kindly smile, then, as she took a look, her eyes widened in surprise and pride. Your sister’s right, this is really good.
Okie’s face warmed and he couldn’t help grinning.
The corner of the newspaper tipped down as his father took a look, too. Mom tipped it toward him. His father hmphed. Comic books are not real art any more than Captain America is a real person. Captain America didn’t stop the Nazis, real people did. Real people saved the art that the Nazis looted, all across Europe.
The Moments Men, right?
Okie said. He’d heard these stories before. Apparently, his father knew some of them personally, but Okie couldn’t remember which one, guys who’d looked all over Europe, even during the war, for all the stuff the Nazis had stolen.
"The Monuments Men," his father said distractedly from behind his newspaper.
Mom nudged Pops’ leg with her foot. Well, tell him about it, Emmett. He wants to know.
His father cleared his throat. Well, they’re still looking for all sorts of things. Paintings, sculptures, rare books, all sorts of things are still missing. Art is the highest expression of the divine. God’s majesty shining through the inspired hands of Man.
Is that why we have all the pictures and stuff, Pops?
Okie asked. His father had decorated their new, bigger house with artworks. A miniature version of Michelangelo’s Pietà, about the size of a cinder block, rested on the mantelpiece beneath a table-sized print of da Vinci’s The Last Supper. The Pietà, which depicted Mary holding her dead son in her lap, made Okie sad. His heart went out to her whenever he paused to look at it. In the kitchen was a painting of Jesus, with His infinitely kind face. Except for the long hair, Okie thought He looked like one of his elder cousins on his mother’s side. His father often went on about art, as if Okie was supposed to remember all those big words. He still wasn’t sure what a renaissance
was. Nevertheless, in the study, his father had a print of a painting by somebody named Raphael called The Transfiguration, which showed Jesus ascending to heaven, surrounded by Moses and Elijah on either side and his disciples down below, who all looked like they were arguing or stricken with surprise. It was his father’s favorite painting. Okie occasionally found himself looking at all the faces, trying to emulate them with a pencil and paper. He thought it all made their house feel like church, which made him a little uncomfortable, afraid the Virgin Mary was watching him whenever he was naughty.
That is why,
his father said.
Ann turned to their mother. Hey, Mom. Can I make some cookies?
They’ll make you fat,
their father said.
Ann flinched as if she had just been slapped, and suddenly the air in the room thickened, becoming difficult to breathe. Okie saw the tears form in her eyes, and she wiped them quickly. Then she noticed Okie staring at her and forced a wan smile.
You know what?
their mother said. I believe there’s a church bake sale this weekend. I was planning to make some cookies for that.
It was as if the air in the room returned to its normal consistency.
Peanut butter?
Okie said. He liked the crisscrosses on them, and he was reasonably certain he could purloin one or two during the baking process.
Peanut butter and ginger snaps,
Mom said definitively.
The two females and Okie all traded smiles while Pops wasn’t looking.
***
The proper function of man is to live, not to exist. I shall not waste my days in trying to prolong them. I shall use my time.
-Jack London (1916)
I
Bless me, Father, for I have sinned. It’s been three days since my last confession. I’ve been having a lot of anger the last few days, and I can’t control it. It feels very much like the day my mother died, when I was fifteen. Or the first time I killed a man...just this raw explosion of cold rage.
Is there something that caused this anger, my son?
Trey is a nosy little fuck. I caught him snooping around in my office papers, after I told him not to a hundred times. He’s too clever for his own good.
The apple doesn’t fall far from the tree.
There he was, just about to find some things I couldn’t let him see, and I just... Well, he’ll be okay. He’s a tough kid. Or at least, he will be someday, if I have anything to say about it.
Spare the rod and spoil the child?
Oh, he got a whipping, all right. Then I made him write, ‘Honor thy father and mother’ ten thousand times, like my father did to me. Honey still isn’t speaking to me. She thought I was too hard on him. But that’s a joke. She was already half a bottle of chardonnay into the evening and wasn’t paying attention. I told her to mind her place. ‘Wives, be subject to your husbands, as to the Lord.’ Right, Father?
That is the Scripture.
So, my sin is wrath.
***
1951
It was a bright sunny day in Buffalo, New York, the day Okie’s previous life was delivered its death blow.
He was walking home from school with his friend John, tired from basketball tryouts, duffel bag over one shoulder, school bag over the other, pondering whether he’d make varsity this year. His Canisius High School blue and gold uniform blazer was perfect for keeping the fall chill at bay.
John was saying, There ain’t no question you’re gonna make varsity. You’re better than half the seniors—oh, hey, dollies at eleven o’clock.
He pulled out a comb and raked it through his thick black hair.
Okie followed John’s glance to three high school girls walking the opposite direction across the street. There wasn’t much combing to be done with Okie’s tow-headed flat-top, but John’s luxuriant Italian coiffure went heavy on the pomade.
As six pretty eyes fell upon him, Okie’s cheeks heated, and his feet lost their will to move. The breeze carried their scent on the wind, flowers and vanilla and Ivory soap. The middle one was a blonde almost as tall as he was, long and lithe with curves in all the right places, her honey-gold ponytail bouncing along behind her. Perfect cheekbones and alabaster skin, long legs under a turquoise-print skirt. She met Okie’s stare with a steady emerald gaze. In an unexpected revision of Romeo’s words from English class earlier that day, the thought came to him of how he would love to be a glove upon those hands that he might touch that body. His skin tingled from crown to crotch and settled there.
John whistled and hooted at them, but they hurried along. A delivery truck passed between them, breaking the spell. The stench of exhaust erased the girls’ intoxicating scents, and the growing stiffness in Okie’s tweed trousers relaxed. Then he chided himself. Lustful thoughts would have to go into his confession on Saturday.
Good grief, John, did you see that?
Okie’s mouth was dry, his voice raspy. He’d never seen them before, and the need to know who that girl was exploded in his mind and wouldn’t allow anything else.
Three of them, two of us, I’d call that a triple-decker sandwich with extra bacon and mayo,
John said. Can you imagine!
I don’t think I’ll be able to imagine anything else for a while.
Go home and rub one out, you’ll be fine,
John said with a snort.
You’re filthy,
Okie said, resuming his course toward home.
Don’t give me that shit, Mister Holier-Than-Father-McSweeney. That’s exactly what you’re gonna do.
Shut up, that’s a venial sin,
Okie said, walking faster. What annoyed him the most was that John was right.
John guffawed. I’m just jerking your chain, buddy.
He laid a hand on Okie’s shoulder, and his face went deadly serious.
What is it?
Okie asked.
You want I should go and catch her and tell her what your plans are?
Okie stared in mortified horror until John could no longer suppress another laugh. John slapped him on the back, hooting with fresh guffaws. All right, this is where I get off this train.
He thumbed down the street in a perpendicular direction. Farewell, brave Romeo!
Buzz off, Mercutio,
Okie said.
See you tomorrow, anon and shit,
John said, walking backwards.
Okie smiled, waved, and continued toward home. He passed Busby’s Soda Fountain and caught the strains of Nat King Cole’s Too Young
drifting out on a scent of orange, and he imagined himself sitting inside sharing a soda with that honey-blonde goddess.
He went inside and bought a few pieces of licorice taffy for his mother. It was her favorite, and she needed some cheering up, still recovering from heart surgery a few weeks ago. The last few days, her normally energetic self had been flagging. Even smiling seemed to exhaust her, and she was spending a lot of time in the bathroom. Oh, don’t worry about me, boyo, I’ll be right as rain soon,
she would say to his worried inquiries, carrying threads of the Irish lilt inherited from her working-class family in South Buffalo.
The sidewalks of North Buffalo were clean, the nearby houses resplendent and full of character, the yards and hedges well-manicured, so different from the area Okie and his family had lived in just a few years ago, when his dad had been just an assistant coach for Shel Hecker at Niagara University. His father’s success as a businessman had meant a bigger house across town and a spot for Okie in the most prestigious Catholic school in western New York. He sometimes missed his cousins who still lived in South Buffalo, though.
After a block or two, his mind returned to rehashing the basketball tryouts. If he didn’t make varsity, he would have some explaining to do to his father, who fully expected his sophomore son to take over the Canisius basketball team and lead it to another state championship. Would he ever be able to fill the shoes expected of him? His backside burned with the recollection of the whipping his father had given him for bombing his algebra mid-term. Okie didn’t much care for the math teacher.
Okie’s father, Emmett Hansen Sr., had been the most recruited high school athlete east of the Mississippi, an All-American at Holy Cross in basketball, football, and baseball. Emmett even turned down a full ride to Harvard. Okie had read the newspaper articles his grandmother had kept in a scrapbook, seen the newspaper and magazine photos of his father in action, even his brief stint as a pitcher for the Buffalo Bisons, out-dueling Warren Spahn. He hadn’t gone on to the major leagues for reasons Little Okie didn’t know, but Emmett’s athletic prowess had carried him on its shoulders into Buffalo’s newspapers and restaurants. Everyone knew Okie Sr. To the Buffalonians, he was their Emmett.
From the time Okie Jr. was a little boy, everybody called him Little Okie, after his father. He wasn’t even sure where the nickname came from, and his taciturn father would never tell him. Just work to be worthy of it,
Emmett Sr. said. It was never black and white but always shades of gray with his father.
He turned the corner onto his street, North Bailey Avenue, and a chill hit him like a dash of ice water. Half a block ahead, an ambulance and a police car were parked out front of his house. He burst into a run, his bags pounding heavily against his back. A policeman came out of the house, spotted Okie, and his expression went blank as a mask.
Okie’s breath wouldn’t cooperate. What happened?
he tried to say, but couldn’t be sure he managed it.
Sorry, kid,
the policeman said, passing down the steps.
Okie leaped up the steps three at a time and through the front door.
In the sitting room, his father rested on his favorite wingback chair, head in his hands, his face pale and stricken.
A strange woman stood next to him, hand on his shoulder. At the sight of Okie, the woman slowly withdrew her hand, and wouldn’t meet his gaze. She might have been pretty if her face hadn’t been made of hard, angular planes and flinty blue-gray eyes. A hair net contained her frizzy blonde hair and a dark-gray hat sat atop her hair like a limp, burnt pancake. Her lips were too red.
What’s going on?
he demanded.
His father’s mouth worked but no sound came out, his eyes haunted, shocked.
Where’s Mom?
Okie asked.
His father said, She...
He took a deep shuddering breath. I came home, and she was lying on the kitchen floor. It was too late. There was nothing...
The woman squeezed his shoulder, but it wasn’t a gesture of comfort; it was a gesture of controlled possession. In that moment, Okie hated her like he’d never hated another human being. Who was this woman?
His father stood and shoved his hands in his trouser pockets, stretching up to his full five foot eleven, a sturdy, athletic frame of broad shoulders and strong hands. Little Okie would be wearing a similar frame very soon, his mother often told him.
Where is she?
Okie said.
The engine of the ambulance outside started up and it began to move.
I want to see her!
Okie said.
That’s not a good idea,
his father replied.
The air inside the house was filled with a strange smell, sickly sweet and cloying, like finding a freshly dead animal along the riverbank.
You do not vant to remember your mutter zat vay,
the woman said in her thick, German accent.
Who the hell are you?
Okie asked.
At the utterance of foul language, his father stiffened and started forward, but the woman stopped him. You can call me Marge.
In a split second, Okie’s mind connected several disparate threads into a knot of incredulous pain. "You’re his secretary? His father had occasionally mentioned her by name, the new secretary at Watson Safety Equipment.
What are you doing here?"
I vas just passing by, I live near here, and saw ze ambulance...
His hands were shaking, clenching and unclenching as if with a will of their own. His ears pounded with heat at the speed of a racehorse’s hooves.
Calm down, son. You’re not helping the situation. Show some respect to your elders.
"Respect! Okie roared.
Her body’s not even cold and there’s another woman here!"
Storm clouds rolled over his father’s face, and Okie threw down his bags, squaring himself for a beating.
A female voice, gasping in desperation came from behind him. Dad? Okie?
Okie’s sister Ann came running through the front door. I came as soon as I could!
Her glance flicked once toward Marge, but then she threw her arms around Okie.
As he succumbed to his sister’s embrace, a whirlwind of emotions and words swirled around him. But none of it made any sense. It’s Mom,
he sobbed into his sister’s hair.
I know,
she said, sniffling. This must be so hard for you, kiddo.
Her body shuddered with restrained sobs.
His father’s mouth was working now. I tried to call the school to have them send you home, Okie, but you’d already left...
His sister’s closeness squelched Okie’s white-hot rage, but he knew it would only work temporarily. She cupped his face in her hands and looked desperately into his eyes and gave him words he couldn’t remember, because he was standing in the rubble of his life as if it were the ruins of a bombed-out Berlin.
All of it, every chunk of brick and mortar, was a lie.
His devoutly Catholic father, who professed to so love Okie’s mother; who beat Okie soundly for the slightest infraction; who sent Okie to his room to write the Fifth Commandment, Honor thy father and mother
ten thousand times; who had been the darling of the sports pages and was now a captain of industry; who walked the halls of power in Buffalo; was an adulterer. With his goddamn secretary.
When Okie was finally allowed to retreat to his room, he pulled his knees up to his chest and stared at the handful of licorice taffy.
II
Bless me, Father, for I have sinned. It’s been two days since my last confession...
Please, continue, my son.
I...I’ve been having hateful thoughts, Father, wrathful thoughts. The Fifth Commandment says to honor thy father and mother, but what if my father was committing adultery while my mom was still alive?
What kind of thoughts are you having?
I’m so angry sometimes I want to kill him. That’s some serious wrath, right? Would God forgive me for that?
You must first beg forgiveness and repent.
But is it wrong to kill a known adulterer, Father?
It is still murder, my son. Besides, you are too young for such thoughts. Take heed of your soul. Grief can twist our minds in terrible ways, allow the Devil inside our hearts. We mustn’t open the door for evil this way.
What kinds of killing are okay?
Our duty as children of Christ is to love our fellow men, even adulterers.
But what about all those Communist gooks in Korea?
The Lord makes allowances for those who fight on behalf of the leaders God has put above them. Romans 13, ‘Let every soul be subject unto the higher powers. For there is no power but of God: the powers that be are ordained of God. Whosoever therefore resisteth the power, resisteth the ordinance of God: and they that resist shall receive to themselves damnation. For rulers are not a terror to good works, but to the evil. Wilt thou then not be afraid of the power? Do that which is good, and thou shalt have praise of the same: For he is the minister of God to thee for good. But if thou do that which is evil, be afraid; for he beareth not the sword in vain: for he is the minister of God, a revenger to execute wrath upon him that doeth evil.’ Battle is not murder, my son. God will always give victory to the righteous, provided that the war is just, and the cause is noble.
The funeral is tomorrow. How am I supposed to grieve for her when my father is spitting on her grave?
Your father has his own cross to bear, Okie. Take an inventory with your own heart. What lies in your father’s heart is between him and the Lord.
***
The primary cause of death was listed as gangrene of the bowel and secondarily, hardening of the arteries. She was never going to recover from her heart surgery. She was only 39.
These facts felt like they should be happening to someone else. They were just simple words that didn’t convey the truth that Okie would never see his mother again.
As Okie stood beside the casket on a cold, drizzly autumn morning, Father Stehly’s intonements droned in Okie’s head. Beside him stood Ann, who was wearing a black ankle-length dress and proper black veil, and beyond her, his father, in a dark suit, surrounded by a large throng of other mourners. Across the casket stood Okie’s friend John, and his father, John Sr., and a great many aunts and uncles and cousins from South Buffalo on the McGillicuddy, Reedy, and Griffin side, plus a wider circle of friends from the community. The plethora of floral wreaths and casket sprays were apparently from his father’s customer, Stefano Magaddino, and his family.
Okie’s insides were an empty, sizzling cavern. He hadn’t slept in days. He’d locked himself in his room during the wake. The conflicting aromas of all the food people brought made him sick. The smells of liquor and beer heightened his queasiness, until he wondered if getting stone drunk might help. So he sneaked downstairs, stole a half-empty bottle of Irish whiskey when no one was looking, and then guzzled it in his room. That made him throw up and feel even worse.
So much for that idea.
At least he was able to shut his eyes without visions of Marge and his father there in the living room, pretending to grieve over his mother’s still-warm corpse. He liked most of his McGillicuddy, Reedy, and Griffin relatives, and it warmed him slightly to see them so broken up by his mother’s death. Everybody loved her. Okie took heart in that.
Except for the one person who should have the most, and that he could not let go.
Fortunately, the secretary slut was nowhere to be seen, or else Okie might have made a point to throw up on her.
Ann hung close to their father, giving Okie the opportunity to stay as far away as he could. He prayed when prayers were expected, mumbling through empty words and rote phrases that had no meaning in a world where his mother didn’t exist. What part of God’s plan could his mother’s death possibly serve?
His attention clicked back into the moment when he heard, Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.
He took a deep, shuddering breath as cold, autumn raindrops splatted onto the surface of the casket.
SPLOT...SPLOT-SPLOT. An arrhythmic tattoo from a sky that didn’t care.
Umbrellas opened and went up.
As mourners shuffled away from the gravesite in the Tonawanda Mount Olivet Cemetery, Okie walked alone. He saw John Montana Sr. approach his father, dressed in an Enzo Carlino tweed wool topcoat and a broad-brimmed Selco silver beaver fur fedora. He clasped Emmett’s hand in ring-encrusted fingers, leaned in, kissing him once on each cheek, and offered solemn words.
John Jr. spotted Okie and came over. Hey, buddy,
John said, I’m real sorry about your mom.
Okie made a noncommittal sound and thrust his hands deeper in his pockets. Thanks.
You coming back to school soon?
Monday.
Say, you want to come over and play some pool sometime?
Okie shrugged. That would be swell.
Then he added, half-joking, Got anything in the liquor cabinet?
Are you kidding? My father has the best liquor cabinet in the city. He’s got a bottle of scotch he says is worth more than my whole life.
John chuckled. So of course I drank a bunch of it and replaced it with cheap stuff.
Okie couldn’t help but crack a smile.
John glanced over his shoulder at his father, who was walking toward a long four-door, black-and-silver Bentley Mark IV Streamlined Sports Saloon. Gotta go. I’ll see you at school.
Both Johns sat in the back seat escorted by two very large Italian-looking drivers in dark pinstripe suits.
Okie nodded. ’Bye.
He resumed his trek to the car. Along the way, an arm slipped lightly over his shoulders, and Ann’s flowery perfume crept into his nostrils, the same perfume his mother had worn, and for the first time that day, tears blurred his vision.
How are you doing, kiddo?
she asked.
He just wrapped his arm around her waist and said nothing.
She said, I’m going to come back home and stay for a while, I think. How would that be?
That would be okay I guess.
Don’t sound so enthusiastic!
She squeezed him playfully. Don’t you miss me?
He nodded.
You need someone to take care of you for a while,
she said.
Who’s going to take care of you?
he asked.
Well, you, I suppose. Dad isn’t going to be much good for either of us for a while.
Okie scoffed.
No, he’s really broken up, even though he doesn’t show it.
So broken up he’s already got another girlfriend.
Saying the words made Okie want to either throw up again or punch something.
Shhh, not so loud!
she said.
Well, it’s true!
She’s just his secretary, and she lives nearby and—
There aren’t any secretaries can afford to live in our neighborhood. Open your eyes.
She sighed deeply and guided him around a patch of muddy sod. No more of that. We’re all hurting. Let’s just let it be. Can you do that?
No.
I’ll try,
he said.
Good boy.
***
Okie couldn’t wait to get back into school.
When he received word that he’d made the varsity basketball team, he wished he could have been more excited, but at least practice gave him something else to think about, someplace to go that wasn’t inside the scalding boil of his own head.
Ann moved back into her old room, taking a longer commute to secretarial school. Okie enjoyed having her around again. The female presence helped assuage the gaping wound in his heart, and she tried hard. Okie could see that, but she couldn’t cook like Mom, and there was still the specter of Marge lurking in the corners of the house. Okie hadn’t seen her since that day, but his father often went on long walks,
and given that she lived only a few minutes’ walk away, it could be no mystery where he was going.
His father took on a wan, haunted look, and Okie comforted himself with the knowledge that a poisoned soul would soon be manifest in the flesh. Emmett was an unknowable man with a great penchant for secrecy. Stoic, silent and damaged only began to explain why he would disappear for periods of time.
Maybe it was the sense of temporariness that Ann was waiting to get back to her own life, that made Okie feel like it wasn’t real. When she had left for secretarial school, he’d been happy for her. She wasn’t supposed to have to come home for him.
The Canisius Crusaders ended their football season undefeated, winning the Western New York Catholic League for the third time in four years. They outscored their opponents 240-22. The basketball season was proving to be almost as good. Their only loss so far was to Timon. Okie should have been happier about being part of powerhouse teams that mostly dominated their opponents. It made him more popular than he’d likely have been on his own. But every day was a slog. Basketball became his religion. The culture taught him how to be a man when his father was not available.
After a sullen, tense Christmas break, at the beginning of the spring semester, two new boys appeared at Canisius High School, fair, blue-eyed boys, brothers. The elder one, Gerhardt, showed up in Okie’s history class, speaking with a slight German accent, and constantly giving Okie measuring looks, until by the time class was over, Okie simmered with anger.
In the hallway between classes, Okie lay in wait for him. He grabbed the new kid by the jacket and spun him around. Gerhardt was a handsome boy in that chiseled Nordic ideal, with eyes like gray flint that went from surprise to amusement.
You got a problem?
Okie said.
Why would I have a problem?
Gerhardt said. Do you?
He smiled at Okie, but it was a smile of arrogant condescension. Okie instantly wanted to punch him in the teeth. Gerhardt turned and walked away into the tide of uniformed boys.
By the end of the day, Okie had learned the brothers’ identities. Their last name was Hall. The same last name as Marge the Slut. Could they be related? Were they her sons? She was about the same age as Okie’s mother. If they were her sons, that would explain why they seemed to know him. Maybe they knew Emmett. If he was spending so much time at Marge’s house, how could they not?
The question so burned in him that he couldn’t concentrate for the rest of the day. Both brothers even joined the basketball team; the younger one, a freshman named Kurt, practiced with the junior varsity, but Gerhardt practiced with the varsity. Okie was infuriated when Coach MacKinnon switched Gerhardt and Okie in and out of the same forward position.
But Gerhardt smiled handsomely, and everyone seemed to like him.
Walking home that afternoon with John, Okie felt ready to explode. The winter air chilled his wet hair and bit through his trousers.
So, what’s up with you?
John asked. You’ve had a jack up your ass all day.
Those new guys.
Okie shoved his hands deeper into his pockets so hard he strained the stitches.
They seem like they’re all right, for krauts.
They have the same last name as my dad’s secretary.
"So you’re saying... Wow, no shit. They’re her kids?"
I’m going to find out for sure.
More troubling was that Canisius High School was one of the top private schools in New York State. No secretary could afford tuition at Canisius. So that suggested she had other sources of money, such as Emmett. That possibility lodged in Okie’s chest like a toothpick under a fingernail.
You want me to help you make their life hell?
John asked.
Okie smiled at that. John Montana Jr. had a diabolic knack for hazing and retribution—and