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"O Thou, My Austria!" - Ossip Schubin
Ossip Schubin
O Thou, My Austria!
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Table of Contents
O THOU, MY AUSTRIA!
CHAPTER I.
A MANUSCRIPT MISAPPROPRIATED.
CHAPTER II.
THE CONTENTS OF THE MANUSCRIPT.
CHAPTER III.
AN ARRIVAL.
CHAPTER IV.
A QUARREL.
CHAPTER V.
BARONESS PAULA.
CHAPTER VI.
ENTRAPPED.
CHAPTER VII.
AN INVITATION.
CHAPTER VIII.
THE SECRET.
CHAPTER IX.
AN ENCOUNTER.
CHAPTER X.
A GARRISON TOWN.
CHAPTER XI.
AN OLD FRIEND.
CHAPTER XII.
A GRAVEYARD IN PARIS.
CHAPTER XIII.
AT DOBROTSCHAU.
CHAPTER XIV.
OLGA.
CHAPTER XV.
COMRADES AND FRIENDS.
CHAPTER XVI.
LATO TREURENBERG.
CHAPTER XVII.
MISMATED.
CHAPTER XVIII.
A FRIEND'S ADVICE.
CHAPTER XIX.
FRAU ROSA'S BIRTHDAY.
CHAPTER XX.
KOMARITZ AGAIN.
CHAPTER XXI.
POOR LATO!
CHAPTER XXII.
HARRY'S MUSINGS.
CHAPTER XXIII.
ZDENA TO THE RESCUE.
CHAPTER XXIV.
A SLEEPLESS NIGHT.
CHAPTER XXV.
THE CONFESSION.
CHAPTER XXVI.
THE BARON'S AID.
CHAPTER XXVII.
BARON FRANZ.
CHAPTER XXVIII.
A SHORT VISIT.
CHAPTER XXIX.
SUBMISSION.
CHAPTER XXX.
PERSECUTION.
CHAPTER XXXI.
CONSOLATION.
CHAPTER XXXII.
INTERRUPTED HARMONY.
CHAPTER XXXIII.
EARLY SUNRISE.
CHAPTER XXXIV.
STRUGGLES.
CHAPTER XXXV.
A SLANDERER.
CHAPTER XXXVI.
FAILURE.
CHAPTER XXXVII.
A VISIT.
CHAPTER XXXVIII.
AT LAST.
CHAPTER XXXIX.
THE DINNER.
CHAPTER XL.
A FAREWELL.
CHAPTER XLI.
RESOLVE.
CHAPTER XLII.
FOUND.
CHAPTER XLIII.
COUNT HANS.
CHAPTER XLIV.
SPRING.
CHAPTER XLV.
OLD BARON FRANZ.
THE END.
O THOU, MY AUSTRIA!
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CHAPTER I.
Table of Contents
A MANUSCRIPT MISAPPROPRIATED.
Table of Contents
Krupitschka, is it going to rain?
Major von Leskjewitsch asked his servant, who had formerly been his corporal. The major was leaning out of a window of his pretty vine-wreathed country-seat, smoking a chibouque; Krupitschka, in the garden below, protected by a white apron, and provided with a dark-green champagne-bottle, was picking the Spanish flies from off the hawthorn-bushes. At his master's question, he looked up, gazed at a few clouds on the horizon, replied, Don't know--maybe, and then again maybe not,
and deftly entrapped three victims at once in the long neck of his bottle. A few days previous he had made a very satisfactory bargain with the apothecary of the neighbouring little town for Spanish flies.
Ass! Have you just got back from the Delphic oracle?
the major exclaimed, angrily, turning away from the window.
At the words Delphic oracle,
Krupitschka pricked up his ears. It annoyed him to have his master and the other gentlemen make use of words that he did not understand, and he determined to buy a foreign dictionary with the proceeds of the sale of his cantharides. Meanwhile, he noted down, in a dilapidated memorandum-book, delphin wrackle,
muttering the while, What sort of team is that, I wonder?
Unable to extort any prognosis of the weather from Krupitschka, the major turned to the barometer; but that stood, as it had done uninterruptedly for the past fortnight, at 'Changeable.'
Blockhead!
growled the major, shaking the barometer a little to rouse it from its lethargy; and then, seating himself at the grand piano, he thundered away at a piece of music familiar to all the country round as The Major's Triumphal March.
All the country round was likewise familiar with the date of the origin of this effective work,--the spring of 1866.
At that time the major had composed this march with the patriotic intention of dedicating it to the victorious General Benedek, but the melancholy events of the brief summer campaign left him no desire to do so, and the march was never published; nevertheless, the major played it himself now and then, to his own immense satisfaction and to the horror of his really musical wife.
This wife, a Northern German by birth, fair and dignified in appearance, sat rocking comfortably in an American chair, reading the latest number of the German Illustrated News, while her husband amused himself at the piano.
The major banged away at the keys in a fury of enthusiasm, until a black poodle, which had crept under the piano in despair, howled piteously.
Ah, Paul,
sighed Frau von Leskjewitsch, letting her paper drop in her lap, are you determined to make my piano atone for the loss of the battle of Königgratz?
Why do you have a foreign piano, then?
was the patriotic reply; and the major went on strumming.
You make Mori wretched,
his wife remarked; that dog is really musical.
A nervous mongrel--a genuine lapdog,
the major muttered, contemptuously, without ceasing his performance.
Your march is absolutely intolerable,
Frau von Leskjewitsch said at last.
But if it were only by Richard Wagner--
the major remarked, significantly: of course you Wagnerites do not admit even the existence of any composer except your idol.
With this he left the piano, and, with his thumbs stuck into the armholes of his vest, began to pace the apartment to and fro.
There was quite space enough for him to do so, for the room was large and its furniture scanty. Nowhere was he in any danger of stumbling over a plush table loaded with bric-à-brac, or a dwarf arm-chair, or any other of the ornaments of a modern drawing-room.
The stock of curios in the house--and it was by no means inconsiderable, consisting of exquisite figures and groups of Louisburg, Meissen, and old Viennese porcelain, of seventeenth-century fans, and of thoroughly useless articles of ivory and silver--was all arranged in two antique glass cabinets, standing in such extremely dark corners that their contents could not be seen even at mid-day without a candle.
Baroness Leskjewitsch hated everything, as she was wont to express herself, that was useless, that gathered dust, and that was in the way.
In accordance with the severe style of the furniture, perfect order reigned everywhere, except that in an arm-chair lay an object in striking contrast to the rest of the apartment,--a brown work-basket about as large as a common-sized portmanteau. It lay quite forlornly upon one side, like a sailing-vessel capsized by the wind.
The major paused, looked at the basket with an odd smile, and then could not resist the temptation to rummage in it a little.
His wife always maintained that he was something of a Paul Pry; and perhaps she was right.
Ah!
he exclaimed, dragging to light a piece of embroidery upon Japanese canvas. The first design for a cushion--the 17th is my birthday. What little red book is this?--'Maximes de La Rochefoucauld'--don't know him. And here--why, only look!
He pulled out a package tied with blue ribbon. "A manuscript! It seems that Zdena has leanings to authorship! H'm--h'm! When a girl like our Zdena takes to such ways, it is usually a sign that she feels impelled to confide in a roundabout way, to paper, something which nothing could induce her to confess frankly to any living being. H'm! I really am curious to know what goes on in that whimsical, childish brain.
'My Memoirs!'
The major pulled aside the blue ribbon that held the package together. "A motto! Two mottoes!--a perfect luxe of mottoes!" he murmured, and then read out aloud,--
'Whether you marry or not, you will always repent it.'
Plato.
Then comes,--
'Should you marry, then be sure
Life's sorest ills you must endure.'
Lermontow.
'L'amour, c'est le grand moteur de toutes les bêtises humaines.'
G. Sand.
I really should not have supposed that our Zdena had already pondered the marriage problem so deeply, he said, gleefully; then, contemplating with a smile the mass of wisdom scribbled in a bold, dashing handwriting, he added,
there seems to be more going on in that small brain than we had suspected. What do you think, Rosel? may not Zdena possibly have a weakness for Harry?
Nonsense!
replied the Baroness. She was evidently somewhat annoyed,--first, because her husband had roused her from a pleasant nap, or, rather, disturbed her in the perusal of an article upon Grecian excavations, and secondly, because he had called her Rosel. Her real name was Rosamunda, a name of which she was very proud; she really could not, even after almost twenty years of married life, reconcile herself to her husband's thus robbing it of all its poetry. Nonsense!
she exclaimed, with some temper. I have a very different match in view for her.
I did not ask you what you had in view for Zdena,
the major observed, contemptuously. I know that without asking. I only wish to know whether during your stay in Vienna you did not notice that Zdena had taken a liking to----
Oh, Zdena is far too sensible, and, if I am not greatly mistaken, also too ambitious, to dream of marrying Harry. She knows that Harry would ruin his prospects by a marriage with her,
Frau von Leskjewitsch continued. There's no living upon love and air alone.
Nevertheless there are always some people who insist upon trying it, although the impossibility has long been demonstrated, both theoretically and practically,
growled the major.
And, aside from all that, Harry is not at all the husband for your niece,
Frau Rosamunda went on, didactically. She is wonderfully well developed intellectually, for her age. And he--well, he is a very good fellow, I have nothing to say against him, but----
'A very good fellow'! I should like to know where you could find me a better,
cried the major. In the first place, he is as handsome as a man can be----
As if beauty in a man were of any importance!
Frau von Leskjewitsch remarked, loftily.
Paying no attention to this interruption, the major went on reckoning up his favourite's advantages, in an angry crescendo. He rides like a centaur!
he declared, loudly, and the comparison pleased him so much that he repeated it twice,--yes, like a centaur; he passed his military examinations as if they had been mere play, and he is considered one of the most brilliant and talented officers in the army. He is a little quick-tempered, but he has the best heart in the world, and he has been in love with Zdena since he was a small boy; while she----
Let me advise you to lower your voice a little,
said Frau Rosamunda, going to the window, which she partly closed.
Stuff!
muttered her husband.
As you please. If you like to make Zdena a subject for gossip, you are quite free to do so, only I would counsel you in that case to consult your crony Krupitschka. He has apparently not lost a single word of your harangue. I saw him from the window just now, staring up here, his mouth wide open, and the Spanish flies crawling out of his bottle and up his sleeves.
With which words and a glance of dignified displeasure, Frau Rosamunda left the room.
H'm! perhaps I was wrong,
thought the major: women are keener in such matters than we men. 'Tis desirable I should be mistaken, but--I'd wager my gelding's forefoot,--no--
He shook his head, and contemplated the manuscript tied up with blue ribbon. Let's see,
he murmured, as he picked it up and carried it off to his smoking-room.
CHAPTER II.
Table of Contents
THE CONTENTS OF THE MANUSCRIPT.
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Major Paul Von Leskjewitsch, proprietor of the estates of Lauschitz and Zirkow in southwestern Bohemia, had been for twenty years on the retired list, and was a prosperous agriculturist. He had formerly been a very well-to-do officer, the most steady and trustworthy in the whole regiment, always in funds, and very seldom in scrapes.
In his youth he had often been a target for Cupid's arrows, a fact of which he himself was hardly aware.
What an ass I was!
he was wont to exclaim to his cousin, Captain Jack Leskjewitsch, when on occasion the pair became confidential at midnight over a glass of good Bordeaux. The thought of his lost opportunities as a lover rather weighed upon the worthy dragoon.
In his regiment he had been very popular and had made many friends, but with none of them had he been so intimate as with his corporal Krupitschka. There was a rumour that before the major's wooing of his present wife, a Fräulein von Bösedow, from Pomerania, he had asked this famulus of his, Eh, Krupitschka, what do you think? Shall we marry or not?
Fortunately, this rumour had never reached the ears of the young lady, else she might have felt it her duty to reject the major, which would have been a pity.
In blissful ignorance, therefore, she accepted his proposal, after eight days of prudent reflection, and three months later Baron Leskjewitsch led her to the altar.
Of course he was utterly wretched during the prolonged wedding festivities, and at least very uncomfortable during the honey-moon, which, in accordance with the fashion of the day, he spent with his bride in railway-carriages, inns, churches, picture-galleries, and so forth. In truth, he was terribly bored, tided himself over the pauses which frequently occurred in his conversations with his bride by reading aloud from the guide-book, took cold in the Colosseum, and--breathed a sigh of relief when, after all the instructive experiences of their wedding-tour, he found himself comfortably established in his charming country-seat at Zirkow.
At present the Paul Leskjewitsches had long been known for a model couple in all the country round. Countess Zelenitz stoutly maintained that they were the least unhappy couple of her acquaintance,--that they were past-masters of their art; she meant the most difficult of all arts,--that of getting along with each other.
As every piece of music runs on in its own peculiar measure, one to a joyous three crotchets to the bar, another to a lyrically languishing and anon archly provocative six-quaver time, and so on, the married life of the Leskjewitsches was certainly set to a slow four crotchets to the bar,--or common time,
as it is called.
The husband, besides agriculture, and his deplorable piano performances, cultivated a certain hypochondriac habit of mind, scrutinized the colour of his tongue very frequently, and, although in spite of his utmost efforts he was quite unable to discover a flaw in his health, tried a new patent tonic every year.
The wife cultivated belles-lettres, devoted some time and attention to music, and regulated her domestic affairs with punctilious order and neatness.
The only fault Leskjewitsch had to find with her was that she was an ardent admirer of Wagner, and hence quite unable to appreciate his own talent as a composer; while she, for her part, objected to his intimacy with Krupitschka and with the stag-hounds. These, however, were mere bagatelles. The only real sore spot in this marriage was the luck of children.
The manner in which fate indemnified these two people by bestowing upon them a delightful companion in the person of a niece of the major's can best be learned from the young lady herself, in whose memoirs, with an utter disregard of the baseness of such conduct, the major has meanwhile become absorbed.
MY MEMOIRS.
I.
It rains--ah, how it rains! great drops following one another, and drenching the garden paths, plash--plash in all the puddles! Never a sunbeam to call forth a rainbow against the dark sky, never a gleam of light in the dull slaty gray. It seems as if the skies could never have done weeping over the monotony of existence--still the same--still the same!
I have tried everything by way of amusement. I curled Morl's hair with the curling-tongs. I played Chopin's mazurkas until my brain reeled. I even went up to the garret, where I knew no one could hear me, and, in the presence of an old wardrobe, where uncle's last uniform as a lieutenant was hanging, and of two rusty stove-pipes, I declaimed the famous monologue from the Maid of Orleans.
Oh, I could tear my hair with vexation!
as Valentine says. I read Faust a while ago,--since last spring I have been allowed to read all our classics,--and Faust interested me extremely, especially the prologue in heaven, and the first monologue, and then the walk. Ah, what a wonderful thing that walk is! But the love-scenes did not please me. Gretchen is far too meek and humble to Faust. Dear God! How ever is it such a man can think and know so much?
My voice is very strong and full, and I think I have a remarkable talent for the stage. I have often thought of becoming an actress, for a change; to--yes, it must out--to have an opportunity at last to show myself to the world,--to be admired. Miss O'Donnel is always telling me I was made to be admired, and I believe she is right. But what good does that do me? I think out all kinds of things, but no one will listen to them, especially now that Miss O'Donnel has gone. She seemed to listen, at all events, and every now and then would declare, Child, you are a wonder!
That pleased me. But she departed last Saturday, to pay a visit to her relatives in Italy. Her niece is being educated there for an opera-singer. Since she went there is no one in whom I can confide. To be sure, I love Uncle Paul and Aunt Rosamunda dearly,--much more dearly than Miss O'Donnel; but I cannot tell them whatever happens to come into my head. They would not understand, any more than they understand how a girl of my age can demand more of life than if she were fifty--but indeed----
Rain--rain still! Since I've nothing else to do, I'll begin to-day to write my memoirs!
That sounds presumptuous--the memoirs of a girl whose existence flows on between Zirkow and Komaritz. But, after all,--
"Where'er you grasp this human life of ours
In its full force, be sure 'twill interest;"
which means, so far as I can understand, that, if one has the courage to write down one's personal observations and recollections simply and truthfully, it is sure to be worth the trouble.
I will be perfectly frank; and why not?--since I write for myself alone.
But that's false reasoning; for how many men there are who feign to themselves for their own satisfaction, bribing their consciences with sophistry! My conscience, however, sleeps soundly without morphine; I really believe there is nothing for it to do at present. I can be frank because I have nothing to confess.
Every Easter, before confession, I rack my brains to scrape together a few sins of some consequence, and I can find nothing but unpunctuality at prayers, pertness, and too much desire for worldly frivolities.
Well! Now, to begin without further circumlocution. Most people begin their memoirs with the history of their grandparents, some with that of their great-grandparents, seeming to suppose that the higher they can climb in their genealogical tree the more it adds to their importance. I begin simply with the history of my parents.
My father and mother married for love; they never repented their marriage, and yet it was the ruin of both of them.
My father was well born; not so my mother. Born in Paris, the daughter of a needy petty official, she was glad to accept a position as saleswoman in one of the fashionable Paris shops. Poor, dear mamma! It makes me wretched to think of her, condemned to make up parcels and tie up bundles, to mount on stepladders, exposed to the impertinence of capricious customers, who always want just what is not to be had,--all in the stifling atmosphere of a shop, and for a mere daily pittance.
Nothing in the world vexes me so much as to have people begin to whisper before me, glancing at me compassionately as they nod their heads. My ears are very acute, and I know perfectly well that they are talking of my poor mother and pitying me because my father married a shop-girl. I feel actually boiling with rage. Young as I was when I lost her, she still lives in my memory as the loveliest creature I have ever met in my life.
Tall and very slender, but always graceful, perfectly natural in manner, with tiny hands and feet, and large, melancholy, startled eyes, in a delicate, old-world face, she looked like an elf who could not quite comprehend why she was condemned to carry in her breast so large a human heart, well-nigh breaking with tenderness and melancholy. I know I look like her, and I am proud of it. Whenever I am presented to one of my couple of hundred aunts whose acquaintance I am condemned to make, she is sure to exclaim, How very like Fritz she is!--all Fritz!
And I never fail to rejoin, Oh, no, I am like my mother; every one who knew her says I am like mamma.
And then my aunts' faces grow long, and they think me pert.
Although I was scarcely six years old when Uncle Paul took us away from Paris, I can remember distinctly my home there. It was in a steep street in Montmartre, very high up on the fourth or fifth floor of a huge lodging-house. The sunlight shone in long broad streaks into our rooms through the high windows, outside of which extended an iron balcony. Our rooms were very pretty, very neat,--but very plain. Papa did not seem to belong to them; I don't know how I discovered this, but I found it out, little as I was. The ceilings looked low, when he rose from the rocking-chair, where he loved to sit, and stood at his full height. He always held his head gaily, high in the air, never bowing it humbly to suit his modest lodgings.
His circumstances, cramped for the time, as I learned later, by his imprudent marriage, contracted in spite of his father's disapproval, apparently struck him as a good joke, or, at the worst, as a passing annoyance. He always maintained the gay humour of a man of rank who, finding himself overtaken by a storm upon some party of pleasure, is obliged to take refuge in a wretched village inn.
Now and then he would stretch out his arms as if to measure the smallness of his house, and laugh. But mamma would cast down her large eyes sadly; then he would clasp her to his breast, kiss her, and call her the delight of his life; and I would creep out of the corner where I had been playing with my dolls, and pluck him by the sleeve, jealously desirous of my share of caresses.
In my recollection of my earliest childhood--a recollection without distinct outlines, and like some sweet, vague dream lingering in the most secret, cherished corner of my heart--everything is warm and bright; it is all light and love!
Papa is almost always with us in our sunny little nest. I see him still,--ah, how plainly!--leaning back in his rocking-chair, fair, with a rather haughty but yet kindly smile, his eyes sparkling with good-humoured raillery. He is smoking a cigarette, and reading the paper, apparently with nothing in the world to do but to enjoy life; all the light in the little room seems to come from him.
The first four years of my life blend together in my memory like one long summer day, without the smallest cloud in the blue skies above it.
I perfectly remember the moment in which my childish happiness was interrupted by the first disagreeable sensation. It was an emotion of dread. Until then I must have slept through all the hours of darkness, for, when once I suddenly wakened and found the light all gone, I was terrified at the blackness above and around me, and I screamed aloud. Then I noticed that mamma was kneeling, sobbing, beside my bed. Her sobs must have wakened me. She lighted a candle to soothe me, and told me a story. In the midst of my eager listening, I asked her, Where is papa?
She turned her head away, and said, Out in the world!
Out in the world----
Whether or not it was the tone in which she pronounced the word world,
I cannot tell, but it has ever since had a strange sound for me,--a sound betokening something grand yet terrible.
Thus I made the discovery that there were nights, and that grown-up people could cry.
Soon afterwards it was winter; the nights grew longer, the days shorter, and it was never really bright in our home again,--the sunshine had vanished.
It was cold, and the trees in the gardens high up in Montmartre, where they took me to walk, grew bare and ugly.
Once, I remember, I asked my mother, Mamma, will the trees never be green again?
Oh, yes, when the spring comes,
she made answer.
And then will it be bright here again?
I asked, anxiously.
To this she made no reply, but her eyes suddenly grew so sad that I climbed into her lap and kissed her upon both eyelids.
Papa was rarely with us now, and I was convinced that he had taken the sunshine away from our home.
When at long intervals he came to dine with us, there was as much preparation as if a stranger had been expected. Mamma busied herself in the kitchen, helping the cook, who was also my nurse-maid, to prepare the dinner. She laid the cloth herself, and decorated the table with flowers. To me everything looked magnificent: I was quite awe-stricken by the unwonted splendour.
One day a very beautiful lady paid us a visit, dressed in a velvet cloak trimmed with ermine--I did not know until some time afterwards the name of the fur--and a gray hat. I remember the hat distinctly, I was so delighted with the bird sitting on it. She expressed herself as charmed with everything in our home, stared about her through her eye-glass, overturned a small table and two footstools with her train, kissed me repeatedly, and begged mamma to come soon to see her. She was a cousin of papa's, a Countess Gatinsky,--the very one for whom, when she was a young girl and papa an elegant young attaché, he had been doing the honours of Paris on that eventful afternoon when, while she and her mother were busy and absorbed, shopping in the Bon Marché, he had fallen desperately in love with my pale, beautiful mother.
When the Countess left us, mamma cried bitterly. I do not know whether she ever returned the visit, but it was never repeated, and I never saw the Countess again, save once in the Bois de Boulogne, where I was walking with my mother. She was sitting in an open barouche, and my father was beside her. Opposite them an old man sat crouched up, looking very discontented, and very cold, although the day was quite mild and he was wrapped up in furs.
They saw us in the distance; the Countess smiled and waved her hand; papa grew very red, and lifted his hat in a stiff, embarrassed way.
I remember wondering at his manner: what made him bow to us as if we were two strangers?
Mamma hurried me on, and we got into the first omnibus she could find. I stroked her hand or smoothed the folds of her gown all the way home, for I felt that she had been hurt, although I could not tell how.
The days grow sadder and darker, and yet the spring has come. Was there really no sunshine in that April and May, or is it so only in my memory?
Meanwhile, the trees have burst into leaf, and the first early cherries have decked our modest table. We have not seen papa for a long time. He is staying at a castle in the neighbourhood of Paris, but only for a few days.
It is a sultry afternoon in the beginning of June,--I learned the date of that wretched day later. The flowers in the balcony before our windows, scarlet carnations and fragrant mignonette, are drooping, because mamma has forgotten to water them, and mamma herself looks as weary as the flowers. Pale and miserable, she moves about the room with the air of one whom the first approach of some severe illness half paralyzes. Her pretty gown, a dark-blue silk with white spots, seems to hang upon her slender figure. She arranges the articles in the room here and there restlessly, and, noticing a soft silken scarf which papa sometimes wore knotted carelessly about his throat in the mornings, and which has been left hanging on the knob of a curtain, she picks it up, passes it slowly between her hands, and holds it against her cheek.
There!--is not that a carriage stopping before our door? I run out upon the balcony, but can see nothing of what is going on in the street below; our rooms are too high up. I can see, however, that the people who live opposite are hurrying to their windows, and that the passers-by stop in the street, and stand and talk together, gathering in a little knot. A strange bustling noise ascends the staircase; it comes up to our landing,--the heavy tread of men supporting some weighty burden.
Mamma stands spellbound for a moment, and then flings the door open and cries out. It is papa whom they are bringing up, deadly pale, covered with blankets, helpless as a child.
There had been an accident in an avenue not far from Bellefontaine, the castle which the Countess Gatinsky had hired for the summer. Papa had been riding with her,--riding a skittish, vicious horse, against which he had been warned. He had only laughed, however, declaring that he knew how to manage the brute. But he could not manage him. As I learned afterwards, the horse, after vainly trying to throw his rider, had reared, and rolled over backwards upon him. He was taken up senseless. When he recovered consciousness in Bellefontaine, whither they carried him, and the physician told him frankly that he was mortally hurt, he desired to be taken home,--to those whom he loved best in the world.
At first they would not accede to his wishes; Countess Gatinsky wanted to send for mamma and me,--to bring us to Bellefontaine. But he would not hear of it. He was told that to take him to Paris would be an injury to him in his present condition. Injury!--he laughed at the word. He wanted to die in the dear little nest in Paris, and it was a dying man's right to have his way.
I have never talked of this to any one, but I have thought very often of our sorrow, of the shadow that suddenly fell upon my childhood and extinguished all its sunshine.
And I have often heard people whispering together about it when they thought I was not listening. But I listened, listened involuntarily, as one does to words which one would afterwards give one's life not to have heard. And when the evil words stabbed me like a knife, it was a comfort to be able to say to