Between Two Worlds
By Maisie Mosco
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Alison Plantaine was born to the theatre. As a child the life she knew was one of backstage dramas and highly-charged emotions. The desire to perform is in her Plantaine blood. But when Alison learns about her secret heritage it makes her question the path she has chosen.
Meanwhile, tastes are changing and the family passion for acting is losing touch with trends. A war is breaking out and Alison senses change in the air. Her mother is a gifted actress and wants her daughter to follow in her footsteps. Her father, shrewd and practical, understands that his daughter’s respect for family tradition must not stifle her talent and the promise of success. But the decision must be Alison’s and she becomes torn between duty and heritage, or the life she always dreamed of on the stage.
A vivid and emotional family saga from a much-loved author, perfect for fans of Rita Bradshaw and Margaret Dickinson.
Praise for the writing of Maisie Mosco
“Once in every generation or so a book comes along which lifts the curtain.” —The Guardian
“Full of freshness and fascination.” —Manchester Evening News
“The undisputed queen of her genre.” —The Jewish Chronicle
Maisie Mosco
Maisie Mosco was born in Oldham in 1924, the eldest of three children. Her parents were of Latvian Jewish and Viennese Jewish descent, and both sides emigrated to England around 1900. She wanted to study medicine, but had to leave school at the age of 14 to help in the family business. She joined the ATS aged 18, and ended the war helping illiterate soldiers to read. After the war, she edited The Jewish Gazette, and wrote radio plays for the BBC. The author of sixteen novels, she died in London in 2011, aged 86.
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Between Two Worlds - Maisie Mosco
Part One
Life’s but a walking shadow, a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage…
Macbeth
Chapter One
One of Alison’s earliest memories was of seeing her father transformed into an ass. Though a decade had passed since she wandered into his dressing room and saw, reflected in the mirror, a hairy creature who spoke with Papa’s voice, she could still recall the frightening confusion that had overwhelmed her.
Remembrance was evoked by the sight of her father once again playing Bottom in A Midsummer Night’s Dream. But to twelve-year-old Alison, perched on a stool in the wings of the Theatre Royal, Bolton, on a winter morning in 1912, it was inconceivable that there had been a time when Shakespeare’s characters had not seemed to her like old friends.
A command from her grandfather halted the dress rehearsal. For once, Gregory Plantaine was not acting in one of his own productions.
‘Kindly stop fidgeting with your mask, Horace,’ he rebuked Alison’s father.
‘I was adjusting it around my eyes.’
‘You appeared to be scratching its nose.’
Poor Papa, Alison thought. Grandpa was always finding fault with him. But appeared not to notice when Uncle Oliver fluffed his lines, after having had what the stagehands called ‘one over the eight’. Or when Mama deliberately upstaged one of her fellow actors. Was it because Oliver and Mama were Grandpa’s children and Papa only his son-in-law?
The rehearsal was resumed and Alison watched her mother flit, light as thistledown, to where the Faeries were gathered beneath a tree. How fragile and lovely Mama looked, clad in drifts of gossamer, a crown of petals upon her flowing hair. It was as if Shakespeare had had before him a painting of her when he created Titania, the Faerie Queen.
Alison had not inherited the patrician features and fair colouring of the Plantaines. Hers was a different kind of beauty, though she did not yet see it as such; dark and striking. Nevertheless, I am a Plantaine, she thought with a proud lift of her chin. Though her father had once been Horace Shrager before marrying her mother, he had taken her name.
Alison rested her pensive gaze on the glimmering footlights which separated her world from that of ordinary mortals. Oh, how fortunate she was to have been born into a theatrical family! To share in the preparations and excitement that heralded an opening night; travel the country with the company; watch from the wings while they performed their nightly offering; eat supper with her elders and hear all the backstage gossip.
The rehearsal was drawing to a close. This afternoon, a final run-through would smooth the remaining creases and tonight the curtain would rise on a new Plantaine Players production. Alison’s knees felt weak at the thought of it. How would she feel if she were one of the cast? Not if. When. Because, one day, she would be. In the family tradition begun when Great-great-grandfather Plantaine founded the company almost a century ago. Part of the tradition was for the Plantaine women to make their debut at the age of sixteen. Alison must wait four more years for that big moment in her life and impatience now mingled with her trepidation.
During the dinner-break, Alison joined her father in the Green Room, where his fellow actors were strengthening themselves with pork pies and strong tea. Horace was seated in a quiet corner, sipping milk.
‘Shall I fetch your bottle of physic from the dressing room, Papa?’ Alison asked him sympathetically. First-night nerves invariably affected his digestion.
Horace shook his head. A dose of medicine would not ease his troubled mind. He had hardly slept a wink since his father-in-law decided to mount this extravagant production, which had plunged the company heavily into debt. If the outlay was not recouped from box-office receipts— Horace could not bear to think of the consequences.
Gregory Plantaine had not deigned to do so and had waved away Horace’s cautionary words with an airy hand. Deigned was the right word, Horace thought, glancing at Gregory’s well-known profile, about which there was a touch of arrogance.
Gregory had just entered the room and was talking with some of the cast. The distinguished thespian dispensing bonhomie to his lessers! Horace reflected with a bitter smile. As though being a Plantaine placed Gregory on a superior plane.
But all the Plantaines had that demeanour. And lived for their art above all else, Horace had learned. Thirteen years as a member of the family had not produced in him the feeling that he was accepted as one of them. Probably, he conjectured, because he was of a very different breed.
‘There’s no necessity to look so worried, Papa,’ Alison said in her solemn, grown-up way. ‘Your portrayal of Bottom could not be bettered.’
Horace flicked a stray lock of her blue-black hair away from her face and regarded her affectionately. ‘Thank you, Alison,’ he replied, managing to smile. He could not tell her that his anxieties were of a more material nature, and on her behalf.
When had it begun to worry him that his daughter had no place to call home? That all Alison would have to look back upon was an endless succession of theatrical lodgings? The realisation had come when Horace finally faced up to another truth: Gregory Plantaine’s hope of one day establishing the company in its own theatre would never be more than that.
Horace, too, had nurtured a hope. Of a little house, in which Alison would grow up. With a school nearby, which she would attend as other children did, instead of being tutored haphazardly by her grandmother.
Horace had even allowed himself to imagine engaging a resident housekeeper, whose presence would end the necessity for Alison to spend her evenings at the theatre. As a small child, she had slept in the dressing room while her parents were onstage. But you couldn’t wrap a girl of her age in a blanket and tell her to go to bye-byes, he thought, noting the shadows beneath her eyes caused by lack of sleep. Nor was it suitable to leave her in a lodging-house bedroom alone.
So much for hopes, Horace said to himself resignedly. His own were dependent upon his father-in-law, who saw the future through a rosy mist. As Horace once had – why not admit it? He had not always had his feet on the ground.
He swallowed down the last of his milk and gazed through the window at the grey Northern sky visible between the chimney pots across the street. It was the kind of street from which he had fled in his youth, from the dreary prospect of a life penned behind his father’s shop counter.
For a moment, Horace was assailed by a sense of unreality. How had the raw, stage-struck lad who had joined the Plantaine Players as a menial become the polished man he now was?
A vision of his first encounter with his wife rose before him. Himself tongue-tied and clutching a broom. And Hermione in a frilly white frock, tapping her foot impatiently, while he swept up a pile of backstage litter that was blocking her path.
She had captured his heart the minute he set eyes on her, but he could not have envisaged that three years later they would be married. There had been about her then, as there still was, an air of the unattainable, he thought, watching her enter the Green Room with her brother.
Horace rarely allowed his mind to stray backward. Why was he doing so now? Were his anxieties for his daughter’s future linked to his own past? He had never regretted uprooting himself and would not wish upon Alison the claustrophobic ambience of his early years, nor the stringencies that had caused him to rebel. But there had been compensations, unappreciated by Horace at the time. One in particular. The stability in which he had been raised would succour him all his life.
‘Mama is sticking to Uncle Oliver like glue,’ Alison whispered.
It was tacitly understood that on days like today, the Plantaines tried not to let Oliver out of their sight. Opening-night tension was affecting all the cast. If Oliver’s nerves got the better of him, he would seek and find oblivion in the only way he knew how.
Hermione blew a kiss to her husband and daughter. She would have liked to go and sit with them, but remained at Oliver’s side. She noted the twitch in his cheek, which only a drink would soothe away. The trouble was, with Oliver, one drink always led to another. And the trouble with my husband, she thought, noticing Horace’s frown, is he doesn’t understand that Oliver is still my little brother who needs me.
A distant memory of herself and Oliver sharing a bed when they were children returned to her. Oliver had been afraid of the dark and of the nocturnal creaks and rustles in the seedy houses that were their transitory homes. Hermione, who was seven years older than him, had not let him know that she too was afraid, and had soothed him to sleep in her arms.
Though Oliver had wept bitterly on her wedding day, he had learned to accept Horace’s place in her life. But Horace had never accepted his. Or, she suspected, her loyalty to her parents. Family feeling, Hermione reflected, was something her husband had no respect for. Possibly his background, the people he came from, about whom she could only conjecture because she had not met them, accounted for it.
‘Uncle Oliver should get married, then he’d have his own wife to watch over him,’ Alison remarked precociously to Horace.
But it will never happen, Horace thought. Oliver would go on clinging to Hermione for the only kind of comfort he required from a woman.
Horace sometimes wondered if his wife knew of her brother’s preference for his own sex. That the interest Oliver took in some of the young actors who came and went, according to the casting requirements of this production or that, was more than professional patronage.
If Hermione suspected, she would not allow herself to believe it, Horace decided. Despite her thirty-two years, she had retained a childlike innocence. In some ways, Hermione had never grown up.
Horace shifted his gaze from his wife to his brother-in-law. The telltale lines that marred Oliver’s handsome face were presently hidden by stage make-up and the artificial smoothness this lent to his complexion accentuated the lack of masculinity discernible in him as a boy.
And Gregory Plantaine had sized up his son then, Horace thought with the benefit of hindsight. Why else would Gregory have stipulated that Horace change his name to Plantaine before marrying Hermione? Gregory had given no reason and Horace had not chanced his arm by demanding one. Horace had not thought about it from that day to this – or he would surely have realised that his father-in-law, who beneath his charming exterior was a crafty old fox, had been ensuring a future generation of Plantaines. Gregory had known in his bones that the continuance of his line could only be achieved through his daughter.
Oliver caught Horace’s eye and doffed the crown he was wearing for his role of Oberon, in the debonair manner which was his public image.
He has to play a part offstage, as well as on, Horace reflected with grudging compassion. Society would never allow Oliver to be himself. And Horace did not doubt that the private torment to which Nature had consigned him had driven him to drink.
‘The dinner-break is almost over and you haven’t eaten a thing, Papa,’ Alison said.
‘Nor have you, love.’
Alison glanced at the cheese sandwiches on the table. Their landlady was a kindly soul and had packed a picnic meal to sustain the Plantaines during this long day at the theatre. ‘The mood you are in has affected my appetite, Papa.’
Horace was warmed by her concern for him, which his wife appeared not to share. Hermione had just left the room with her parents and brother. Not for the first time, Horace was made to feel that the Plantaines were an elite little coterie of which he was only a nominal member.
A surge of loneliness welled up in him. Then he felt Alison’s hand on his and the ache was replaced by gratitude for his daughter. She was too young to share his troubles, or to be a companion to him, but she was his own flesh and blood and there had always been a special rapport between them. He surveyed the satiny sheen of her olive skin, her sensuous lower lip and high cheekbones. She reminded him of—
But enough of raking up the past! He picked up the ass’s head mask lying on the velvet banquette beside him, and went to join the company onstage.
Alison remained in the Green Room. Gregory Plantaine’s departure had been the signal for all the cast to leave, and the aftermath of their presence, the smell of greasepaint mingling with tobacco fumes, and the sudden silence, hung heavily on the air.
The excitement that had stirred in Alison before the dinner-break had fizzled out. It was as though a damp cloth had extinguished the glow inside her. But she could find no tangible reason for it.
In later years, she would pinpoint today as the time when she stopped being a carefree little girl and became prey to the unspoken emotional conflicts of the adults around her. For the moment, unable to comprehend why, she was beset by a feeling that all was not well with her world.
Chapter Two
Hermione strode into her dressing room and flung herself down on the shabby chaise-longue which was its sole pretension to grandeur. A tiff with the wardrobe mistress was responsible for her mood. How dare the woman neglect to press Hermione’s costume! And rub salt into her wounds, by pointing out that it was no longer possible to do so every day.
When the tour of A Midsummer Night’s Dream began, the wardrobe room had been staffed by three. The tour was now in its sixth week and Gregory had been called upon to lessen his overheads by reducing the number of backstage employees.
Christmas had come and gone, and with it Gregory’s hopes of recovering production costs. His confident expectation of long queues at the box office during the festive season had not materialised. Instead, the company had played to sparse houses and was still doing so.
Hermione tried to relax. It had always been her habit to rest in her dressing room before making up for the evening performance. She wriggled her toes and let her limbs go limp, but was unable to rid her mind of its unhappy thoughts, or to stem the tears that had begun coursing down her cheeks. Oh, how her heart bled for her poor father.
She looked up and saw Alison standing in the doorway.
‘What is it, Mama?’
Hermione stretched out a hand to her, but did not answer the question. ‘Come and sit by me, darling.’
‘Not until you tell me what’s wrong.’
The child looks a bit peaky this evening, Hermione registered absently. Or was it the gaslight?
‘Tell me, Mama,’ Alison persisted. ‘Or I shan’t come and comfort you.’
The irritation Alison was capable of arousing in Hermione flickered to life. Alison was not the daughter Hermione would have chosen. Giving birth to a child who looked foreign had come as a shock to Hermione and she had never quite recovered from it. And as that child grew older, she had revealed characteristics which compounded the injury.
As for Alison’s behaviour. There were times when one would think she was the mother and Hermione the child. Laying down conditions before she would come and sit by her mama! ‘I am not required to tell you anything. You are only a little girl,’ Hermione reminded her.
‘If you say so, Mama,’ Alison replied.
Hermione wanted to slap the sphinx-like expression, that was part of the foreignness, from her face. ‘And what is that supposed to mean?’
‘I shall be thirteen in August and I don’t feel like a little girl.’
Physically, Alison was a big girl, and the childish clothing she wore did not look right on her. The blue smocked frock under her frilly white pinafore had had to be specially made for her, as all her garments were; stores did not stock children’s garments in adult sizes.
Alison was destined to be a stately lady, Hermione reflected with a sigh. The very opposite of the Plantaine women. Hermione bore a strong resemblance to her dainty mother, who was not just a Plantaine by marriage. Hermione’s parents were cousins.
She eyed her daughter, who was still standing in the doorway. Alison looked nothing like Horace, whose indeterminate features and mousey colouring belied his strong character. But her looks emanated from his family. It was as if their blood alone flowed in Alison’s veins. Not a drop of Hermione’s own.
Alison was aware of her mother appraising her. ‘If you won’t tell me why you are upset, how can I comfort you, Mama?’
‘A kiss would comfort me.’
Alison went to her and gave her one, but it was not accompanied by the warm hug Horace would have received.
Hermione noted this with a pang that stemmed from the maternal love she had for her daughter, which their inability to communicate did not diminish.
Horace was at that moment engaged in a confrontation with his father-in-law. Though neither man had raised his voice in anger, it could not be termed otherwise.
‘With respect, Gregory, you seem to be incapable of using your head,’ Horace said.
‘Indeed?’ Gregory parried.
‘If you would only come down to earth, accept that our solely Shakespearean repertoire is simply not commercial, it might be possible to save the company from total disaster,’ Horace declared.
Gregory gave him a condescending smile. ‘You and I do not have the same interpretation of total disaster, my dear fellow.’
‘And what is yours?’ Horace inquired.
‘Artistic failure, what else? But then, I am an artist, not a businessman.’
‘That,’ Horace told him, ‘is the root of your trouble. You would rather see the company disband, than lower your personal standards.’
‘The Plantaine Players will never disband.’
‘I wish I shared your optimism.’
‘Some would call it spirit,’ Gregory rejoined. ‘And respect my high ideals. Regrettably, you are not among them.’
‘No,’ Horace said brusquely. ‘I am proof that it’s possible for an actor to be equipped with common sense. And to a practical chap like me, it seems like lunacy to continue touring our current production.’
‘The play will close this weekend,’ Gregory informed him loftily. ‘As I was unable to raise any more money to pay the cast their wages.’
Most men would be sitting biting their nails, if they were as deeply in debt as Gregory Plantaine now was. But he displayed not a trace of anxiety. Nor had he ever, Horace reflected wryly. Despite their differences, and the subtle humiliations he suffered from him, Horace had a reluctant affection for him. Without Gregory’s encouragement and teaching, Horace would not have been an actor.
And there was about Gregory an indefinable aura which disarmed all comers, Horace thought, studying his face, which was as unlined as that of a man half his fifty-seven years. His mane of tawny hair, devoid of even a hint of silver, completed the youthful picture.
How had Gregory stayed so young? Horace pondered. By clinging to his naive hope that tomorrow would be brighter than today – a philosophy possible only because he lived from day to day. Those whose lives were linked with his were required to follow suit, but Horace was prepared to do so no longer.
‘Why won’t you listen to reason, Gregory?’ he appealed. ‘It’s time you gave some serious thought to the company’s future.’
‘There is nothing for me to think about,’ Gregory answered affably.
‘I am beginning to wonder if you have anything to think with!’
Gregory chuckled, as though Horace had said something amusing.
Horace controlled the urge to give him a good shaking. He doubted that even that would provoke him. Gregory was a man with whom one could not have a row; his dignity prohibited it. And his ego was such that insults of the kind Horace had just delivered made no mark upon him.
‘The company’s immediate future is not in jeopardy, my dear fellow,’ Gregory said. ‘We shall do what we have always done when a small difficulty presents itself.’
Horace tried to simmer down, but it was not easy. Gregory’s equability was exacerbating his own frustration. A small difficulty? The Players had experienced financial problems many times, but never so dire as now. Wasn’t Gregory aware that he was facing bankruptcy?
‘I shall sell my shares,’ Gregory said placidly, and as if he had read Horace’s mind.
Horace was taken aback. He had not known his father-in-law had any shares.
‘They were willed to me by a great-aunt, when I was a lad,’ Gregory supplied. He laughed like an errant schoolboy. ‘And, would you believe it, I had forgotten about them.’
Horace did believe it.
‘A solicitor-chap in London knows all about them,’ Gregory went on vaguely. ‘He wrote to me once. A pageful of scrawl about investments and brokers,’ he added with a shudder. ‘I remember replying that I would prefer to leave the matter in his capable hands, that I did not wish to be personally involved. I must find his address and get in touch with him.’
‘I’m amazed that you’ve remembered about the shares now,’ Horace told him scathingly.
‘I didn’t, I’m afraid. Your mother-in-law did.’
Horace watched Gregory sit down before the mirror and drape a towel around his shoulders. They were in Oliver’s dressing room. Before leaving their lodgings for the theatre, they had found Oliver drunk in his room. Gregory would have to take over the role of Oberon tonight.
What were his feelings about his son’s tragic plight? Horace wondered. Outwardly, Gregory displayed none. Were sorrow and disappointment tugging at his heartstrings, beneath his urbane facade?
Gregory cut into Horace’s conjectures. ‘We shall keep our heads above water with readings from the sonnets and choice excerpts from the comedies,’ he cheerfully announced.
This was the Plantaines’ habitual way of remaining afloat when they could not afford to engage other actors for a full production.
Horace could not bear the thought of it. He revered Shakespeare no less than Gregory did, but was not prepared to continue living a hand-to-mouth existence in order to perpetuate the Bard’s work. A vision of the Plantaines, himself and Alison included, endlessly trekking from town to town, a drunken Oliver in their midst and sparse audiences awaiting them, added to his depression.
Sooner or later, his father-in-law would somehow manage to raise enough cash to stage another play. As with A Midsummer Night’s Dream, he would not recoup his outlay, let alone make a profit. And the whole ghastly fiasco would be repeated. Over and over again.
It’s like being on a roundabout, from which one can never get off, Horace thought. No. A bizarre dance, one step forward, then two backward, was a better description.
‘I can’t go on this way,’ he told Gregory. ‘Nor can I allow my wife and child to do so.’
Gregory had begun making up and paused with a stick of greasepaint halfway to his chin.
‘Unless you agree to put on plays like The Second Mrs Tanqueray, which are good box-office, I—’
Gregory allowed Horace to say no more. ‘In the thirteen years you have been my son-in-law, I have not staged The Merchant of Venice,’ he cut in pleasantly.
‘And I’m not suggesting you should do so now,’ Horace countered. ‘On the contrary!’
‘Kindly allow me to finish, Horace. I was about to add: lest it embarrass you.’
‘What are you implying?’
‘That money has never been my god.’ Gregory removed a speck of fluff from the sleeve of his mulberry velvet dressing gown. ‘But I am not of your background.’
The colour drained from Horace’s face.
‘I’m afraid you asked for it, old fellow,’ Gregory said in the same pleasant tone.
Horace left the room.
He walked numbly along the dank, gaslit passage on which the men’s dressing rooms were situated and mounted a flight of stone stairs to where he would find his wife. As was the case in most theatres, the male and female dressing rooms were segregated, in the name of propriety.
His coat sleeve brushed against the whitewashed brick wall as he climbed the stairs, and a musty smell, strongly laced with lysol, rose to his nostrils. An icy blast froze him when he reached the next floor, which was no less comfortless than the one he had just left, and his teeth began chattering.
How great was the contrast between the backstage ambience of a theatre and its public face, he reflected briefly. Audiences would find it hard to equate this warren of dingy passages and peeling doors with the glamorous myth of theatrical life.
But Gregory Plantaine had not found it difficult to equate Horace with Shylock, he thought, as the full significance of his father-in-law’s words flooded his mind and senses.
Long-forgotten emotions began churning within him. The defensiveness and aggressiveness which had once lived in him, side by side. The insecurity and uncertainty that he had believed gone forever. And the wariness of those who were not of his faith and held him in contempt.
Memories, too, assailed him. Of the fear of being ridiculed and the yearning for acceptance he had known in his childhood and youth. Of the ever-present necessity not to offend. And the feeling of being different. That was the strongest memory of all.
When had he stopped feeling different? No matter. His father-in-law had reminded him that he was. A man may forget he is a Jew, but the Gentiles acquainted with him never would.
Horace paused outside his wife’s dressing room, unable to bring himself to enter. Did Hermione, too, though he did not doubt that she loved him, measure everything he said and did with the yardstick he had just learned her father applied to him? Probably all the Plantaines did. And what was that yardstick, but the classic preconceptions that adhered to the word Jew. Which Shakespeare had immortalised when he created Shylock.
Horace had not practised his religion since he was a lad and was surprised at the partisan anger now gripping him. I’m not exactly eligible to champion my race, he thought with grim irony. Though he had not made a conscious decision to reject Judaism, he had turned his back upon it.
Under his parents’ roof, he had followed their example. When he left home, it was a relief no longer to be obliged to attend synagogue, or to have to conform to the everyday restrictions imposed by Judaic Law. But the manner of his leaving had been painful as an amputation. His father had told him never to return.
Time had helped to heal the wound and there had been no contact with his family to reopen it. And it was as though Horace’s Jewishness had, over the years, slipped away from him. Like a cloak one had habitually worn slipping from one’s shoulders, he thought metaphorically.
But it had not slipped away entirely. He had shed the outer trappings of his religion without a pang of conscience or regret, but the feeling imbibed with his mother’s milk was still there.
He cast it aside and returned his mind to the matter he must discuss with his wife.
‘You look as if you’ve seen a ghost, my darling,’ Hermione remarked when he entered her dressing room.
Of my former self, Horace thought with a tight-lipped smile. ‘I’ve been talking to your father,’ he said.
Hermione moved from the chaise-longue to the dressing table and began brushing his hair. ‘About his plans, I suppose?’ She had not expected Horace to approve of them.
‘What plans?’ he inquired derisively. ‘A return to his usual haphazard way of trying to make ends meet, is what I would call it!’
Hermione managed a light laugh.
‘I won’t be a party to it any longer,’ Horace declared.
‘You have no choice, my dear,’ Hermione answered, carefully avoiding his eye.
Horace addressed her back, which was now as stiff as the brush in her hand. ‘I have a very distinct choice, love. And I have already made it.’
Hermione glanced at Alison, who was listening intently. ‘I don’t care to talk about this in Alison’s presence.’
‘Why not?’ Alison asked and received the reply she had anticipated.
‘You are only a little girl.’
‘She will have to know, nevertheless,’ her father said to her mother. And added, ‘I’m afraid the time has come for a parting of the ways.’
Alison gripped the edge of the chaise-longue, to steady herself. Her inexplicable feeling that all was not well with her world had just frighteningly crystallised. The bottom was dropping out of it.
Horace took in his daughter’s apprehensive expression. Hermione was right; it wasn’t suitable to conduct this conversation in the child’s presence. The air was already bristling with his own and his wife’s unspoken animosity, and Alison was a sensitive girl.
He fished in his pocket and brought out a bag of sugar candy. ‘I got these for you,’ he said to her gently. ‘Go and sit in the Green Room and read one of your storybooks.’
‘I prefer to stay here,’ Alison answered.
‘Kindly do as you are told,’ her mother snapped.
‘Must I, Papa?’
Horace gave her a reassuring smile. ‘If you wouldn’t mind, love.’
‘That child will do anything to please you!’ Hermione exclaimed when Alison had left the room. The incident had emphasised her own lack of rapport with her daughter. ‘And perhaps we should postpone this ridiculous discussion, Horace. I must get ready for tonight’s performance and so must you.’
Horace consulted his pocket watch and recalled that his parents had given it to him when he was Bar Mitzvah. Would the past, once resurrected, give him no peace? He snapped the silver timepiece shut and returned his thoughts to the present – which was traumatic enough.
The actress playing Hippolyta called a friendly greeting as she passed along the corridor to her dressing room, swathed in a long red feather boa.
‘There’s still almost an hour left before curtain-up,’ Horace told his wife. ‘And there is nothing ridiculous about what I have to say to you. I ought to have said it long ago,’ he added with a weary smile.
Hermione rose from her stool and went to shut the door, which Alison had left ajar. ‘You’ve already inferred that you want us to leave the company. Nothing could be more ridiculous than that.’
‘There’s no future for us with the company, Hermione. Our life will never be any different from what we’re experiencing now. It isn’t a suitable life for a child.’
‘Really?’ Hermione flashed. ‘My parents considered it suitable for Oliver and me.’
Horace doubted that Gregory and Jessica Plantaine had given a thought to their children’s welfare. They had smothered them with love, and implanted in them their own impractical attitudes but, in essence, Hermione and Oliver’s childhood had been the very opposite of Horace’s own. A come-day, go-day game of chance.
‘I want something better for Alison,’ Horace declared.
‘Do you indeed? Materially better, I suppose?’
‘And what’s wrong with that?’
Hermione’s dainty nose wrinkled with distaste. ‘That’s dependent upon one’s personal values, Horace. Those you are expressing make me think it would have been best if you’d stayed where you once were.’
For the second time that evening, Horace felt as if he had been slapped.
‘My family and I have never shared your concerns,’ Hermione informed him unnecessarily.
She had not failed to note the whipped look on his face and her instinct was to move to his side and comfort him. But it was he, not she, who had sought this confrontation, she thought with