A Dance with Fire: Fae Elementals, #1
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Shula Azzarh is Fae…
…in a world where it's illegal to be.
Working at Piriguini's Circus keeps her hidden in plain sight, but when a vicious accident exposes the truth of what she is, her safe game of hiding comes to an end. Taken by the emperor's soldiers, Shula is forced into the hands of a mysterious Brotherhood, a group of humans hell-bent on eradicating her race completely.
The Fae Resistance needs her. Their healer of her hates her. And the Emperor of Illyk will stop at nothing to possess her. The secrets of the empire run deeper than she knows, and Shula will have to rely on the magic she's suppressed for years to save herself from the emperor's malicious plans.
Because Shula is an Elemental.
And her fire from her might be the only thing that can make or break their world.
Fans of Sarah J. Maas and Holly Black will love the first installment in this new, action packed, adult fantasy series! This is a High Fantasy Fae series intended for readers 18 and over as it contains adult M/F romance, sexually explicit scenes, cursing, and dark themes.
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A Dance with Fire - Aleera Anaya Ceres
Table of Contents
. Chapter
Fae Elementals Glossary and Pronunciation Guide
Map of Illyk
Trigger and Content Warnings
Piriguini's Circus
Illegal Fae
Davina's Fortune and Tarot Readings
Cowardly Fae
Twin Flames
Mana
Into the Madness
Chains of Iron
Robes of White and Red
Demon Eyes
Pathways of the Future
The Seer's Sacrifice
The Resistance
Safe House
The Fae's Captive
Plan of Escape
Orna
A Dream
Death, Lust, and Love
Julius
Fae Wine
Like Flames
Like Blood
Burn
A Light in the Dark
A Star in the Sky
Castle Aileach
The Taste of Victory is Bitter
King of the Fae
Freedom Comes with a Price
Torture in a Touch
The Truth in Prophecies
Little People of the Wood
Survival
The Faceless Emperor
Fire and Blood
Orknie
Wounds of the Mind
Mairin
Ley Line
The Seer
Iron Monsters
Hatred Tastes a lot like Chocolate Cake
WANTED: Alive and Intact
Declaration of War
An Unwanted Mate
Will-o'-the-wisps
A Wanted Mate
A Dance with Fire
To Teg
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Also by Aleera Anaya Ceres
A Dance with Fire
Aleera Anaya Ceres
This book is a work of fiction. Any reference to historical events, people or places are used fictitiously. Other names, characters, places and events are products of the author’s imagination, and any resemblance to actual events or places or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
Copyright © 2020 by Aleera Anaya Ceres
All rights reserved, including the right of reproduction in whole or in part in any form. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system, without written permission from the author.
Softcover Cover design and typography image by: Storywrappers
Hardcover design and typography image by: Moonpress.co
Edited by: Lisa Nieves
Map design done in: Wonderdraft
Formatting by: Aleera Anaya Ceres
Contents
. Chapter
Fae Elementals Glossary and Pronunciation Guide
Map of Illyk
Trigger and Content Warnings
Piriguini's Circus
Illegal Fae
Davina's Fortune and Tarot Readings
Cowardly Fae
Twin Flames
Mana
Into the Madness
Chains of Iron
Robes of White and Red
Demon Eyes
Pathways of the Future
The Seer's Sacrifice
The Resistance
Safe House
The Fae's Captive
Plan of Escape
Orna
A Dream
Death, Lust, and Love
Julius
Fae Wine
Like Flames
Like Blood
Burn
A Light in the Dark
A Star in the Sky
Castle Aileach
The Taste of Victory is Bitter
King of the Fae
Freedom Comes with a Price
Torture in a Touch
The Truth in Prophecies
Little People of the Wood
Survival
The Faceless Emperor
Fire and Blood
Orknie
Wounds of the Mind
Mairin
Ley Line
The Seer
Iron Monsters
Hatred Tastes a lot like Chocolate Cake
WANTED: Alive and Intact
Declaration of War
An Unwanted Mate
Will-o'-the-wisps
A Wanted Mate
A Dance with Fire
To Teg
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Also by Aleera Anaya Ceres
This book is for the oppressed.
For the silenced.
And for those who wish to be seen.
Fae Elementals Glossary and Pronunciation Guide
K
ingdoms, Cities, and Landmarks
Illyk: Eel-ick
Tuath: Two-ahh-th
Dana: Day-nuh
Vellm: Vey-mm
Ielwyn: Eel-win
Teg: Teh-gg
Orknie: Orc-knee
Lake Degara: Lake Dig-are-uh
The Arcana: Arc-ay-nuh
Lywyth River: Lee-with
Tir na Faie (also known as the Feylands): Tier Nuh Fey
Ley Line: Lay Line
Castle Aileach: Castle I-lick
Terrlyn: Tear-lynn
People
Shula Azzarh: Shoe-luh Uh-zarrh
Piriguini: Peer-ee-gween-ee
Ryker Valda: Rye-curr Vahl-duh
Clay Valentino: Clay Valen-tee-no
Julius Darah: Jewel-ee-us Dare-uhh
Valerio Ashera: Vahl-eer-rio Ah-sheer-uh
Weylyn Xanth: Way-lynn Zanth
Uric Adriel Nova: You-ric Ay-dree-el No-vuh
Orna: Or-nuh
King Amos Ashera: Ay-mose Ah-sheer-uh
Emperor Robert Laurel: Robert Lore-rel
Terms
Esses: (Pronounced like S. S.) A derogatory term for the Fae. Originally Seelie Scum, later shortened to S.S., then ‘Esses’.
Mana: (Pronounced Mah-nuh) The word to describe the Fae entity/deity/god. It is magic, nature, and the elements, as these are holy amongst their race.
image-placeholderTrigger and Content Warnings
A
Dance with Fire contains dark and graphic themes such as:
Sexual themes
Alcohol consumption
Descriptive violence
Gore
The death and loss of loved ones
Grief
Racism of Fae within a fantasy setting
The genocide of the Fae people in a fantasy setting
Post traumatic stress and trauma
Allusions of an attempted suicide in a character’s past
The abuse and torture of main and side characters
The attempted sexual assault of a side character in Chapter 43, WANTED: Alive and Intact.
If such material offends you, please do not pick up this book and/or proceed with caution. Your mental health and well-being always comes first.
image-placeholderA Dance with Fire is part of a six book series and does not end in a cliffhanger. It is in 3rd person point of view and while each book will follow the story of a different Elemental, there will be scenes with several POV’s throughout, including villains'.
Piriguini's Circus
T
he shadows clung to Shula’s small body, hugging her close to the brick wall and hiding her from the emperor’s soldiers. She knew they were out there looking for her, and it wouldn’t be too long until she was found. The blood splattered against her legs and the hem of her tattered night shift would be sniffed out by the hounds. Even if she’d run through puddles of water and mud in between dark alleyways to hide her scent, they would find her.
The emperor always found those like Shula Azzarh.
Her heart beat like a panicked baby bird in her chest, struggling to break free with every gasping breath. She thought if she had a heart attack now, it would spare her the pain of when they came and took her away in iron cuffs.
Her hands trembled from the icy bite of cold and fear. She couldn’t pry her fingers off the pearl and diamond necklaces she’d pilfered from the old woman. It’d been a good idea a few hours ago. The woman was dead, after all, and Shula needed the jewels more than the dead human did if she wanted any chance at survival in a world that hated her kind.
Freedom seemed so far away, though, and nearly impossible to picture beyond the blur of her tears. She tried to shake that notion off and tried to imagine what her Papa would say.
"Anyone who claims something is impossible doesn’t know how to get creative."
But he’d died right along with Mama just a few days ago. What did they know, anyway?
The wounds of her parents’ absence still rubbed her soul raw and made tears stain a sticky pathway down her dirty cheeks. Even her ears hurt every time her hair grazed their sensitive tips. She fought back the urge to touch the bloody wounds and took a breath.
She had to get out of there. Sitting still would only get her found that much faster, but where could she go?
Shula tilted her head to the side, listening to the sounds of the city. Street urchins ran between alleyways, their bare feet slamming against puddles and mud with distinctive squelching noises.
She could trail beside them. The emperor’s soldiers would never know, and her scent could get lost among them to confuse the hounds.
She’d be just another orphan running the streets. They wouldn’t look twice because she fit in so well with them. Her clothes were tattered, her body almost skeletal with malnourishment, making her appear younger than she really was.
The light of stars and the flickering flames of street lamps beckoned her from her hiding spot at a cautious pace. Every step of her shaking legs was harder than the last, and she almost bolted back to the protection of the shadows once again.
She forced herself to follow the sounds of other kids, stepping out of the alleyway in time to see them barrel past her, their laughter trailing behind them like will-o’-the-wisps. Shula followed, letting her arms pump at her sides, trying to mimic their enthusiasm. Every step was painfully jarring against her body and sent blood rushing through her ears.
She had no idea where they were going, but if they could lead her to freedom, she’d follow them to the edge of the world. They noticed her behind them and waved her over with quick gestures of their hands.
Come on! They’re here!
Hands tugged on her arms and pulled her forward when all she could manage was to gape, all fear momentarily forgotten.
She’d heard of the infamous Piriguini’s Circus before, whispered like legends through the reservation camps she’d grown up in. But nothing could ever prepare her for it.
It was colors and lights and an opulent world beyond anything she’d ever seen. It was women with beards that touched the ground and twins joined at the hip and head. It was acrobats and people taller than her fitting their entire bodies into boxes. It was magic openly celebrated.
That scared her most of all.
Magic burst from every corner of the place. It rose in tendrils of flickering flames and streaks of fireworks across the sky that reminded her of the extinct faerie lights from her dreams.
She wondered how a place like this could exist without the emperor’s soldiers bursting in and taking them all.
Because this was faux magic, and the humans didn’t fear that of their own making.
Her feet dragged her past wonder after wonder. Shula didn’t confine herself to the shadows, and despite her barefoot, haggard appearance and the blood on her hem, nobody stopped her.
Here, she was invisible. Here, she could fit in and claim the magic inside her to be as fake as their own.
Here, she would find freedom from hunger and fear.
Freedom from those who wanted her dead.
Illegal Fae
10 years later...
S
ometimes, Shula couldn’t stand the stench of smoke.
The way it wrapped around her lungs and threatened to suffocate them. It reminded her of another time, another life when she’d been someone, something else. Yet it was smoke she inhaled deep into her lungs, and a smile she plastered onto her face as she peered behind the thick velvet curtains that separated her from the crowd.
It’s a crush.
Shula let the curtain flitter closed, blocking the assault of smells and memories. Of course it is,
she responded to her friend, Fantasia, rather arrogantly. This was her sixth and final show of the night and the busiest so far. Everyone wants to catch a glimpse of the infamous fire dancer.
Shula had made sure of it; in the ten years since she’d joined Piriguini’s Traveling Circus, five of those years she’d juggled while dancing for coins or scraps of food. Then she moved up to doing simple parlor tricks while dancing, until she ascended rank and became one of the most popular attractions in their pilgrimage.
It was rarer not to sell out an entire show. At least, that had been the case. Lately, tensions were high across the empire of Illyk, but that was nothing new. It was normal to see the emperor’s soldiers about everywhere they turned, and the men in steel armor never failed to create problems for the circus when they passed through the kingdom of Tuath.
The sight of them no longer made her as nervous as they once had, no matter that they’d gotten more aggressive and determined throughout the years. She’d lived with the circus so long, Shula no longer knew what it was to fear for her life. It was dangerous to deem herself safe when she really wasn’t.
She never would be.
Because Shula Azzarh was Fae in a world where it was illegal to be.
Break a leg.
Fantasia squeezed Shula’s arm, bringing her back to her current reality. Her name had just been announced, which meant it was show time.
Break yours first.
Shula slipped past the curtain before she could hear Fantasia curse out her reply. And once she stepped out before the crowd, her entire world shifted. Silence blanketed over the entire crowd because it was what her presence commanded.
Shula was under no illusions; she knew what she looked like, knew how beautiful she was no matter how hard she tried to diminish it so others would never know what she truly was. It was hard to hide the beauty of a Fae, and her low riding harem pants, sparkling top that cut off midriff, sheer veil that obscured half her face, and golden circlets around her wrists and bare ankles, did nothing to hide her allure.
For a moment, the only sound that echoed through the large tent were the soft jangles of the circlets sliding up and down her arms. Then there was a silence so profound that no one even dared to breathe. It was part of the magic of her act. She entranced like a snake charmer, and everyone sat at the edges of their seats to watch what she’d do next.
And she didn’t disappoint.
Fire erupted from her fingertips and soared high through the tent. Sharp bursts of heat flowed all around her, and then she began to move. Body undulating like the waves as she danced across the ground, stomach and arms rolling. This moment was magical. It coursed through her veins, a current of power that was desperate to be unleashed. With every breath she took and every snap of her wrists, fire encircled her body. It slithered like a snake, long lines of golden and red streaks lighting up the darkness.
The gasps were lost to her and so was the applause. In that moment, there was nothing but her confidence in the dance, in the way her body became one with the fire. She was flame itself, flickering movements and passion. Blazing heat and brightness. She captivated hearts just as easily as she could destroy them beneath the inferno of her sensuality.
Fire fell from her fingertips, drawing figures wherever she traced them. She knew the brightness illuminated her. She knew it made the dark of her skin glow like burning embers. It lit up her eyes. They were so enthralled with her and she with them.
She moved in tune to the rhythm of the drums resonating around her. She swiveled her hips, rolled her entire body to look like the flickering of flames. She was the Fire Dancer, her black hair billowing down to her waist. The bangles decorating her wrists slid up and down the length of her arm. Her feet stepped quickly, carefully, and each step was a quick succession on the ground that burned, leaving the markings of her footprints onto it.
As the tempo picked up, so did Shula’s body. She moved around, throwing fire balls through the air to form floating and flying figures. The beat of the drum became a savage thing inside her, through her bloodstream. She lost herself in the music, felt it rush through her, whispering in her ear, caressing her bare and exposed skin. The warmth of the flames grounded her. It lit something in her. Perhaps it was the magic of her very own blood that demanded release.
And as the final notes rang, she threw her hands above her and all the wisps of fire that danced freely joined together above, reforming and reshaping into a massive image behind her.
The finale would surely capture them all.
Her hands shot up at the same time the wildfire imploded upwards. It fragmented in streaks until they formed the blazing image of a dragon. The bursting sound of applause echoed through the tent just as sparks rained around her body.
Chest heaving, she dipped into an elegant curtsy and, in a swirl of silky material, walked away.
I swear, they only come to see your big finish,
Fantasia greeted Shula on the other side of the curtain, her small button nose scrunched in amusement.
It is a pretty great finish.
Shula wrapped her arms around her friend’s shoulders. You know they come here to see you too, Fanny.
She knew she had to reassure her because Fanny was as delicate as she looked. As Shula’s exact opposite, she was small and rail thin and completely flexible. Her blonde hair was cropped near her scalp and her cutting, white cheek bones were covered in sticky glitter. Silk ribbons adorned her spandex clad body, red silk tied around her wrists that flowed down at her sides and looked like rivers of blood.
Shula hated how her mind thought of that. Of blood and fire and iron. There was little else that haunted her nightmares and she hated that the memories made an appearance while she was awake, too.
Shaking off her morbid past, she forced the smile to stay on her mouth. She hadn’t crumbled all those years ago, hadn’t given into what had happened then, and she wouldn’t do it now, either. She’d been a child then, alone and afraid, with nothing in her pockets but stolen pearls and the bloody night shift on her back. She was different now. The infamous Fire Dancer of Piriguini’s Circus. She’d made a name for herself and had been safely hidden from the emperor’s soldiers for years.
Wait for me and we can go get some sugared scones.
Fanny slipped from Shula’s hold and pushed aside the curtains. It was her turn to go on, and a small peek at the crowd showed that they’d diminished slightly compared to only a few moments before. Fanny threw a knowing look over her shoulder, lips pursed, just before she disappeared into a sea of velvet.
Shula peeked out to watch Fanny take her position. Her act was Shula’s favorite because the woman was flexible. She could fold her body into epic proportions, twist and mold herself and fly over the audience from rope to rope. It was wild. It was free.
Fantasia did her act with the same freedom she lived through life. With wild abandon. For a moment, Shula’s own heart lurched, and she wondered what it would be like to feel that. To not wander with a mask placed carefully over her entire self. To be genuinely happy with life and to not hide the most essential parts of herself from a world that wanted her dead.
She supposed she would never know what it felt like, to fly like a bird, to soar and freefall knowing that you could catch yourself on the way down.
And Shula would just have to live with that.
Davina's Fortune and Tarot Readings
F
anny looped her arm through Shula’s with an energy that buzzed between them like lightning. She bounced excitedly on the balls of her feet before tugging her away from the main white-and-red tent. Midnight had long left them and their final acts had been performed. The circus was still bright with activity and excited spectators ran across the field.
The smell of popped corn, sugared pastries, caramel and chocolate covered fruits, and fresh flavored waters hung in the air. Her stomach growled loudly and Fanny chuckled, changing directions so she was pulling her towards the section where the foodstuffs were sold.
Dessert first,
the small woman declared.
You know me so well.
They stopped before a stand that sold fried balls of salted dough covered in sparkling white sugar. The pastries glittered like diamonds and were as beautiful as they were delicious.
How many will it be?
the surly man named Wells asked with a bored voice.
Fanny unhooked her arm from Shula’s and placed her hands defiantly on her hips and stared at the much taller, bigger man. Now, don’t take that tone with me.
He scratched his scraggly hair and muttered, Sorry, Fanny. It’s been a rough day.
Traveling to Tuath was always stressful. It was where most of the emperor’s soldiers were stationed and it always took so long to get there. Shula understood his weariness. She felt it herself down to her bones.
Soldiers were everywhere, scattered all around the empire, but Tuath had them in abundance because this was where the Fae camps were.
Just thinking about the iron encampments made a shiver slice down the length of her spine. Iron was deeply embedded into every city across every kingdom and she could taste it in the air. It made her eyes water and her breathing shallow, but like always, she plastered on a smile if only to pretend nothing bothered her at all.
Not even here, where it all began. Where she’d found Piriguini’s Circus and had forged a new life for herself. She had to admit, there was a certain melancholy here. While there was excitement in the air and the people were happy that the circus served as a distraction against politics and everything else in the world, it still didn’t help stray her attention from the WANTED posters that crinkled beneath her feet as she walked. Balled up parchment with sketched images of faces that hurt to look at. Slashing lines of Fae and Fae sympathizers in bold, charcoaled strokes.
Discreetly, she pushed one aside with her foot that the wind carried towards her. She barely caught a glimpse of the face on it and forced herself to look away. She knew what would be portrayed there.
Pointed ears and elongated canines that were a complete exaggeration. Fae were beautiful, but this artist had all but announced the pure hatred and fear with each dark line across the parchment. Whoever had drawn it had made this particular Fae look like an abomination.
A monster.
Shula barely heard Fanny and Wells engage in conversation around her. Her heart was pounding, and her lungs were aching. The day was taking a toll on her. Not just the dancing, but the pretending. She was tired, so tired of the world and her circumstances. But if she didn’t keep up with the pretense, she would die. Or worse, her face would be etched onto posters just like the Fae beneath her sandaled foot.
A monster he may have looked like, but she could see the dark head of hair tied back in a knot. She wondered how much of a glimpse they’d gotten of him. How much of a likeness this portrait really was.
She wondered, if she was ever caught, would they make her look like a monster too?
Shules!
Fanny wrenched her out of her thoughts by waving a pastry beneath her nose.
Shula’s mouth watered instantly. Oh, thank goodness.
She yanked the confection from her friend’s hands and all but inhaled it down her throat. Flakes of sugar clung to the sides of her mouth, and she dusted them off with the back of her hand.
Your manners are despicable,
Fanny teased, eating her pastry much more slowly.
Shula smirked, but inside anxiety rose to choke tightly at her chest. If she ate too fast, it was because Shula knew what it was to go hungry. She knew what it was to be rail thin, with skin clinging to bones like nothing more than a wraith or a living ghost.
The truth was, she could alter her appearance all she wanted. She could diminish her beauty, suppress her magic, pretend to be human rather than Fae. But the phantom pain of stabbing hunger in her gut was something she would never forget.
Can I have a chocolate covered one next?
Shula was already reaching for the confection.
Chocolate was a weakness. She remembered the first time she’d tasted it. It had been two years after she’d joined the traveling circus. She’d seen it, smelled it, craved it like she hadn’t craved any other food before. She’d just never had the money to actually buy one for herself. And since she’d been a new hire, no one had wanted to give her anything. Not even the scraps. She’d been nothing more than a juggling orphan with stringy hair who danced and tossed rocks for meager coins. Eventually, she’d saved enough to buy herself a small piece of chocolate the size of her nail.
She hadn’t been able to relish it. The taste had exploded over her tongue, and she couldn’t stop her young mouth from devouring the whole thing as if it would disappear if she didn’t.
Wells slapped her fingers away. Get your ash covered fingers away from my pastries.
Shula smiled sweetly at him, and for a moment, he lost himself in her gaze.
Fuck.
She reeled back the dazzling smile, her heart pounding. For a second, he’d gotten lost in the haze of her glamor. Unfortunately, that seemed to be the one aspect of her magic she couldn’t very well help. Next time she vowed to wear an iron bracelet. Even if it burned her skin, she needed to diminish her Fae allure.
Let’s go get some roasted sweet meats,
Shula suggested, hoping her voice didn’t betray her nervousness.
No more dessert?
Fanny asked in a teasing tone.
Shula shook her head and tugged her friend away before tossing a coin to Wells. I satisfied my craving.
What she didn’t say was that she needed to get away from him before he fell deeper into her thrall.
She couldn’t say that to Fanny. Though they had been friends for years, being Fae was a secret Shula could entrust to no one. It wouldn’t just put her life in danger, but Fanny’s as well. Besides, she knew what everyone thought of her kind.
No one could know her secret.
No one.
Give it a few minutes and you’ll be craving sweets all over again. I swear, that sugar has something magical in it that keeps making us go back.
Shula just laughed, even though any talk of magic made her nervous. Right? I wonder what it is.
Fae drugs, probably.
Fanny dropped her voice to a whisper. Like even muttering the word ‘Fae’ was somehow forbidden, even when they’d been called much worse. Can you imagine if that were true? If he was putting Esses drugs in our food?
Shula tried not to grit her teeth.
Esses was a derogatory term. One she’d heard far too often. It was human slang derived from the words ‘Seelie Scum’. They’d shortened it to S.S. Eventually, Esses. But everyone knew what it meant, and it wasn’t kind.
Ugh, I would just die.
Shula pulled her hair in place over her ears.
Right? Gross!
They skipped their way over to the sweet meats and bought two kabobs. Shula devoured those just as easily as she had the pastries, and when she finished, they tossed them into an overflowing garbage bin.
Circus goers were already stumbling away, back to their little homes, back to the reality of their world where they were protected by what they were and what blood ran through their veins.
See you tomorrow, Fanny.
Bye, Shules.
Fanny, like always, wrapped her arms tightly around Shula’s waist in a hug that spoke of caring and friendship. Shula held her back with a smile. It was in these moments, when she was held with no reservations, that she could pretend like everything was normal. Like she wasn’t what the world despised and feared above all others. She could pretend that Fanny would never fear her, if she ever knew the truth.
Fanny extricated herself from Shula and skipped away. Their living tents were on opposite sides of the dry field, Shula’s near the very back on the western end. She walked through the pitch-black field. Lights had already begun shutting off, candles and torches that had illuminated even the darkest of shadows had now died. Her feet didn’t stumble against the uneven earth, because she could see well in the dark. She could make out the outline and details of every tent, every rock, and every hidden pebble.
So when a lone figure cloaked in shadows stepped from her tent, Shula did not cry out in surprise.
She probably should have, at least to keep up with the illusion that she was human, but there was no one around her that would witness this interaction. She hadn’t heard footfalls or the deep rise and fall of breathing. No, the mask was not necessary at all when she came face to face with Davina.
Shula Azzarh,
the woman greeted, her voice a low, ominous sound in the dark.
Shula fought back a shiver. She hated the way her name sounded on the woman’s mouth. The way she ended it on a low growl that could very well have been threatening.
Madame Davina.
Shula nodded and tried to sidestep the woman, but all she did was follow and block her path once again.
Shula frowned at the woman. Clad in purple drapery that hid the shape of her body and a turban that wrapped around the entirety of her head, covering her skin and the tips of her ears. There was an ethereal beauty about her. Pointed cheekbones and a sharp cutting chin. Her eyes were wide and knowing.
Knowing.
Because she knew. Davina knew exactly what Shula was, what flowed through her veins.
The same thing flowed through hers.
Davina was Fae, too.
Shula remembered the first time she’d ever laid eyes on Davina. The impact of seeing another Fae that made her stagger back. The shock that rippled through her. Electricity had cackled between their bodies. An awareness that sent her every nerve into haywire, made every hair on her body stand on end. It was like her blood had hummed, her heart beat faster in her chest. And when their eyes met, they knew deep down what the other was.
Shula had promptly fled afterwards. She ran and didn’t stop until her lungs burned and begged for rest. Fae were rare. With them being hunted for years, they’d all but gone extinct. The emperor’s soldiers still actively looked for any Fae they could find. So to see anther one of her kind at the circus had rocked Shula on her feet. Out of pure instinct, she’d avoided the other woman. It was better to separate herself from her. So she did. She stayed as far away from Davina as she possibly could.
And now they were face to face and something uncomfortable stirred in her stomach. The longer she stared at the woman, she could just make out the press of her pointed ears beneath the turban.
You’re nervous.
Davina smiled, revealing the elongated state of her teeth, a sharp smile that reminded Shula of razor blades.
Canines emerged at will, or when feral instincts aroused. Teeth elongated into sharp points at the scent of blood or fear, only to slide back into the gums afterward. It was an instinct Shula had always tried to keep firmly at bay, especially in anger. One that Davina obviously had no qualms about hiding, even in the dark.
I’m not.
Shula kept her voice firm, even while her heart pounded in her ears. She tried to keep her emotions steady, her body still.
Care for your fortune? A glimpse of your future?
Shula’s eyes flicked to the sign beside her small, purple tent.
Davina’s Fortune and Tarot Readings, it read.
You can’t lure me in with promises of love.
She started to walk away but Davina’s hand snapped out and restrained her. As strong and as cold as iron, her fingers dug into Shula’s wrist painfully.
You are not like the humans who come running to me at the first sign of a broken heart. No, you are different.
Her white teeth flashed. Just one reading. I sense your future. I know what looms around the corner.
She knew what one reading would mean. It would lead to a second, and a third, and another, and another. It was the price seers paid for the magic of the future. It would make Shula crave another glimpse, another hint at what was to come. It created madness and rotted the mind entirely.
You are afraid of being captured. You fear, but you cannot hide from your true nature, just like the moon cannot hide from the sky.
Davina was already smiling triumphantly, and Shula knew it was because she’d already seen the future, the seer already knew what her answer would be.
Fine. One reading.
One reading is all I need.
Tugging on her wrist, Davina pulled her behind the dark flaps of her tent. Come. Sit.
She pushed on Shula’s shoulders and Shula obeyed, letting herself be guided onto plush pillows.
The smallest of tables sat in front of her, covered in a silk cloth that depicted constellations, astrology, and other things that Shula couldn’t really make much sense of. She watched warily as Davina took a seat at the table across from her.
Bones or cards?
Her long fingers held up two little bags, presumably with the objects she said.
Shula shivered at the thought of bones. She wasn’t afraid of them, for the dead could not harm her, but it seemed morbid, and she figured it would be best if she pretended to be human, anxious to get a reading on a long-lost love. It would keep the madness at bay.
Cards.
Her sharp teeth flashed again, and Shula wondered why the woman even bothered asking her, if she had all the answers already. She drew open the drawstrings of the bag and pulled out a stack of cards. Shula watched as Davina methodically shuffled them with quick snaps of her wrists and fingers. When she finished, she slid the cards in front of Shula in a line.
Choose your cards.
Why? Aren’t you supposed to do that?
We all forge our own destiny, Fire Dancer.
Her voice was low and strict. The cards you choose is the path you pave.
Sighing and deciding it was better to get this over with, she swept her hand down the line of cards, stopping and picking those her instinct told her to claim.
Davina slid the other cards away. Shula had chosen six total.
Flip over the first one.
Shula did as she was told.
The Lovers.
I thought you said this wouldn’t be promises of love.
Davina ignored her. Flip the rest.
So, she did. One by one, she turned the cards over.
The Lovers. The Fool. The Devil. Ten of Swords. Five of Wands.
And Death.
Before she could ask, Davina was already speaking. You will accept your true self in the face of danger. Your future holds much darkness and difficult trials ahead. It holds...
She paused, cocking her head to the side.
What?
Shula almost felt disinterested. This was the same drivel she likely tossed at clients to keep them on the edges of these plush seats.
Davina smiled sharply again. I see love.
Shula couldn’t hold back her eye roll. Alright. You have my gratitude, Madame Davina, for such an interesting reading. I will be sure to consider all aspects of my future.
She stood up and started to leave, only to find the only exit blocked.
Davina had moved, and Shula hadn’t sensed it. In the blink of an eye, the Fae woman was in front of her, and the dark color of her eyes was gone. Pure white eyes glared at Shula, seeing but unseeing. She blindly reached for her, gripping Shula’s wrists tightly and keeping her tethered in place.
I see blood and fire.
Her voice was hoarse with strain and fear. It was different. It was frightening. Shula tried to pull her hands away, but the woman didn’t budge at all. It was like she wasn’t even present in that moment. I see robes of white and red and chains of iron. I see men cloaked in shadows and darkness. I hear the echoes of your screams, drowned out in the agony of burning water. I see twin flames carved in flesh... I see... I see pain and fire. A pattern of scars. I see...
She jerked back on a gasp and her whole body fell, crumpling to the ground.
Shula didn’t have time to catch her as she hit the floor with a sickening thud. Her body convulsed a moment later, limbs thrashing out. A high-pitched keel sounded from her throat that was loud enough to wake the dead. Words were thrown from her tongue, leaked through with madness.
It was the price of her magic taking effect.
All magic came with a price, some prices were just higher than others.
Fortunately, soon after she’d screamed, Davina stopped thrashing as well. Her body stilled and Shula bent down to press two fingers to her pulse. She was still breathing. Thank Mana, she thought. If she would have screamed any louder and any longer, anyone could have come running, bursting into her tent.
It was dangerous to be here, but Shula couldn’t bring herself to leave Davina on the ground. Digging into whatever well of strength she had, Shula hefted Davina up and all but dragged her over to her pillows where she gently laid her down.
She stared at the Fae woman a moment longer, at the beauty she tried to dim with makeup and drab clothing and costumes. Her turban had slipped in her fall, exposing the tops of her ears and the pointed aesthetic of them. Shula bent down, tugging at the edge of the turban to cover them up once more. When she stood up, it was almost instinct herself to pull her long, dark locks forward.
Davina’s words burned and echoed in Shula’s mind. Because she had the gift of prophecy, they rang strangely of a dark premonition, and Shula didn’t like that one bit. These were dark times and danger hid in the shadows of every corner. She wished she could push them away. Wished she could somehow turn back time and not have gone