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With the publication of the best-selling The Handmaid's Tale in 1986, Margaret Atwood's place in North American letters was reconfirmed. Poet, short story writer, and novelist, she was acclaimed "one of the most intelligent and talented writers to set herself the task of deciphering life in the late twentieth century."*
With Bluebeard's Egg, her second short story collection, Atwood covers a dramatic range of storytelling, her scope encompassing the many moods of her characters, from the desolate to the hilarious.
The stories are set in the 1940s, 1950s, and 1980s and concern themselves with relationships of various sorts. There is the bond between a political activist and his kidnapped cat, a woman and her dead psychiatrist, a potter and the group of poets who live with her and mythologize her, an artist and the strange men she picks up to use as models. There is a man who finds himself surrounded by women who are literally shrinking, and a woman whose life is dominated by a fear of nuclear warfare; there are telling relationships among parents and children.
By turns humorous and warm, stark and frightening, Bluebeard's Egg explores and illuminates both the outer world in which we all live and the inner world that each of us creates.
*Le Anne Schreiber, Vogue
Margaret Atwood
Margaret Atwood, whose work has been published in more than forty-five countries, is the author of over fifty books, including fiction, poetry, critical essays, and graphic novels. In addition to The Handmaid’s Tale, now an award-winning television series, her works include Cat’s Eye, short-listed for the 1989 Booker Prize; Alias Grace, which won the Giller Prize in Canada and the Premio Mondello in Italy; The Blind Assassin, winner of the 2000 Booker Prize; The MaddAddam Trilogy; The Heart Goes Last; Hag-Seed; The Testaments, which won the Booker Prize and was long-listed for the Giller Prize; and the poetry collection Dearly. She is the recipient of numerous awards, including the Peace Prize of the German Book Trade, the Franz Kafka International Literary Prize, the PEN Center USA Lifetime Achievement Award, and the Los Angeles Times Innovator’s Award. In 2019 she was made a member of the Order of the Companions of Honour in Great Britain for her services to literature. She lives in Toronto.
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- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I‘m not much of a fan of short stories in general anyway, but these stories were full of hapless women and mostly ambiguous endings. Yes that‘s probably trademark Atwood, but done better in novel form, I think. Warning: one story “Uglypuss” is especially disturbing, due to animal cruelty ?.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A collection of stories about the lives of women -- even the one or two that are from a male POV are really more about women -- and about relationships between men and women or between children and parents. They're mostly the kind of literary stories in which not much actually happens and in which there doesn't even necessarily seem to be a well-defined beginning, middle, and end. The one exception, perhaps, is "Uglypuss," about a woman's attempt to get at a cheating man by way of his cat. As a cat lover, I found that one highly disturbing, and part of me wishes one fewer thing had happened in it, honestly. It's definitely an effective story, though. And, like all of them, it's well written. Atwood's prose isn't showy, but it's smooth and beautiful, and full of subtlety.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5"The life she's led up to now seems to her entirely crazed. How did she end up in this madhouse? By putting one foot in front of the other ..." Quite a few stories of this collection present women stranded in their middle age, trying to understand what happened. These are the best of the collection, full of unforgettable lines and observations and presented with a type of humour all of the author's own: "Her only discoverable ambition as a child was to be able to fly, and much of her later life has been spent in various attempts to take off."
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5A collection of short stories/writings... they tend to involve emotionally fraught , unresolved issues. Not always an easy read (emotionally), but a worthwhile one. Thoughtful and thought-provoking.
- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5I read the Handmaid's tale years ago and found it astounding. So I was disappointed with these dull slice-of-life short stories, full of sad characters. Just finished it, and most of the tales are forgotten already.I presume Atwood's huge reputation wasn't based on these.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I normally love Margaret Atwood's novels so I was looking forward to this book but I found myself slightly disappointed. This is a collection of short stories by Atwood, some are autobiographical and I think these were the ones I enjoyed the most.The rest were well written but often ended abruptly and left me feeling clueless about what that particular story was about. I don't know whether I just don't like the short story format or whether these were too literary for me but I was left feeling like Atwood was trying to make some point that I just wasn't getting. I felt quite dim which is not a feeling I enjoy!
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Some of the themes in these stories make an appearance in Cat's Eye. The endings to several stories seem to come along suddenly, almost shut down. This makes me wonder if Cat's Eye was the one that Atwood just didn't want to finish too soon, or if some/all of the selections is Bluebeard's Egg was a warm up. All in all, well worth the time spent as I am still thinking over characters revealed in the beginning, middle and end of the book.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I'm still wading into the Atwood oeuvre, having only read Wilderness Tips and The Handmaid's Tale before this volume. This book, while full of well-crafted stories, didn't impress me as much as the stories in Wilderness Tips did. All the craft is there, but something was turned to 10 or 11 in her other stories which was only at 8 or 9 here. The stories are less daring, the frames (many of the stories in Wilderness Tips are framed by the protagonist recounting or remembering the events) when they occur less illuminating.This book is still good and intelligently written, but the comparison to her other work is irresistible, and where I shivered perhaps once from the beauty and horror in these pages, her other work made me lose count of the shivers.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A lot like a box of someone else's treasures that you wish were yours...
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Bluebeard's Egg - Margaret Atwood
First American edition 1986
Copyright © 1983, 1986 by O. W. Toad, Ltd.
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The Library of Congress has cataloged the print edition as follows:
Atwood, Margaret Eleanor, date.
Bluebeard’s egg and other stories.
I. Title.
PR9199.3.A8B58 1986 813'.54 86-10336
ISBN 0-395-40424-X
eISBN 978-0-544-14673-0
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The content and characters in this book are fictional. Any resemblance to actual persons or happenings is coincidental.
Material in this collection has been previously published as follows: Significant Moments in the Life of My Mother
in Queen’s Quarterly: Bluebeard’s Egg
in Chatelaine and North American Review, The Salt Garden
in Ms; Loulou; or, The Domestic Life of the Language
in Saturday Night; The Whirlpool Rapids
in the Toronto Globe & Mail Summer Fiction Issue and Redbook (in a slightly different version); Unearthing Suite
in a limited edition by Grand Union Press; Spring Song of the Frogs
in Company (England); Walking on Water
in Chatelaine; and In Search of the Rattle snake Plantain
in Harper’s.
For My Parents
Significant Moments in the Life of My Mother
When my mother was very small, someone gave her a basket of baby chicks for Easter. They all died.
I didn’t know you weren’t supposed to pick them up,
says my mother. Poor little things. I laid them out in a row on a board, with their little legs sticking out straight as pokers, and wept over them. I’d loved them to death.
Possibly this story is meant by my mother to illustrate her own stupidity, and also her sentimentality. We are to understand she wouldn’t do such a thing now.
Possibly it’s a commentary on the nature of love; though, knowing my mother, this is unlikely.
My mother’s father was a country doctor. In the days before cars he drove a team of horses and a buggy around his territory, and in the days before snow ploughs he drove a team and a sleigh, through blizzards and rainstorms and in the middle of the night, to arrive at houses lit with oil lamps where water would be boiling on the wood range and flannel sheets warming on the plate rack, to deliver babies who would subsequently be named after him. His office was in the house, and as a child my mother would witness people arriving at the office door, which was reached through the front porch, clutching parts of themselves—thumbs, fingers, toes, ears, noses—which had accidentally been cut off, pressing these severed parts to the raw stumps of their bodies as if they could be stuck there like dough, in the mostly vain hope that my grandfather would be able to sew them back on, heal the gashes made in them by axes, saws, knives, and fate.
My mother and her younger sister would loiter near the closed office door until shooed away. From behind it would come groans, muffled screams, cries for help. For my mother, hospitals have never been glamorous places, and illness offers no respite or holiday. Never get sick,
she says, and means it. She hardly ever does.
Once, though, she almost died. It was when her appendix burst. My grandfather had to do the operation. He said later that he shouldn’t have been the person to do it: his hands were shaking too much. This is one of the few admissions of weakness on his part that my mother has ever reported. Mostly he is portrayed as severe and in charge of things. We all respected him, though,
she says. He was widely respected.
(This is a word which has slipped a little in the scale since my mother’s youth. It used to outrank love.)
It was someone else who told me the story of my grandfather’s muskrat farm: how he and one of my mother’s uncles fenced in the swamp at the back of their property and invested my mother’s maiden aunt’s savings in muskrats. The idea was that these muskrats would multiply and eventually be made into muskrat coats, but an adjoining apple farmer washed his spraying equipment upstream, and the muskrats were all killed by the poison, as dead as doornails. This was during the Depression, and it was no joke.
When they were young—this can cover almost anything these days, but I put it at seven or eight—my mother and her sister had a tree house, where they spent some of their time playing dolls’ tea parties and so forth. One day they found a box of sweet little bottles outside my grandfather’s dispensary. The bottles were being thrown out, and my mother (who has always hated waste) appropriated them for use in their dolls’ house. The bottles were full of yellow liquid, which they left in because it looked so pretty. It turned out that these were urine samples.
We got Hail Columbia for that,
says my mother. But what did we know?
My mother’s family lived in a large white house near an apple orchard, in Nova Scotia. There was a barn and a carriage-house; in the kitchen there was a pantry. My mother can remember the days before commercial bakeries, when flour came in barrels and all the bread was made at home. She can remember the first radio broadcast she ever heard, which was a singing commercial about socks.
In this house there were many rooms. Although I have been there, although I have seen the house with my own eyes, I still don’t know how many. Parts of it were closed off, or so it seemed; there were back staircases. Passages led elsewhere. Five children lived in it, two parents, a hired man and a hired girl, whose names and faces kept changing. The structure of the house was hierarchical, with my grandfather at the top, but its secret life—the life of pie crusts, clean sheets, the box of rags in the linen closet, the loaves in the oven—was female. The house, and all the objects in it, crackled with static electricity; undertows washed through it, the air was heavy with things that were known but not spoken. Like a hollow log, a drum, a church, it amplified, so that conversations whispered in it sixty years ago can be half-heard even today.
In this house you had to stay at the table until you had eaten everything on your plate. ‘Think of the starving Armenians,’ mother used to say,
says my mother. I didn’t see how eating my bread crusts was going to help them out one jot.
It was in this house that I first saw a stalk of oats in a vase, each oat wrapped in the precious silver paper which had been carefully saved from a chocolate box. I thought it was the most wonderful thing I had ever seen, and began saving silver paper myself. But I never got around to wrapping the oats, and in any case I didn’t know how. Like many other art forms of vanished civilizations, the techniques for this one have been lost and cannot quite be duplicated.
We had oranges at Christmas,
says my mother. They came all the way from Florida; they were very expensive. That was the big treat: to find an orange in the toe of your stocking. It’s funny to remember how good they tasted, now.
When she was sixteen, my mother had hair so long she could sit on it. Women were bobbing their hair by then; it was getting to be the twenties. My mother’s hair was giving her headaches, she says, but my grandfather, who was very strict, forbade her to cut it. She waited until one Saturday when she knew he had an appointment with the dentist.
In those days there was no freezing,
says my mother. "The drill was worked with a foot pedal, and it went grind, grind, grind. The dentist himself had brown teeth: he chewed tobacco, and he would spit the tobacco juice into a spittoon while he was working on your teeth."
Here my mother, who is good mimic, imitates the sounds of the drill and the tobacco juice: "Rrrrr! Rrrrr! Rrrrr! Phtt! Rrrrr! Rrrrr! Rrrrr! Phtt! It was always sheer agony. It was a heaven-sent salvation when gas came in."
My mother went into the dentist’s office, where my grandfather was sitting in the chair, white with pain. She asked him if she could have her hair cut. He said she could do anything in tarnation as long as she would get out of there and stop pestering him.
So I went out straight away and had it all chopped off,
says my mother jauntily. He was furious afterwards, but what could he do? He’d given his word.
My own hair reposes in a cardboard box in a steamer trunk in my mother’s cellar, where I picture it becoming duller and more brittle with each passing year, and possibly moth-eaten; by now it will look like the faded wreaths of hair in Victorian funeral jewellery. Or it may have developed a dry mildew; inside its tissue-paper wrappings it glows faintly, in the darkness of the trunk. I suspect my mother has forgotten it’s in there. It was cut off, much to my relief, when I was twelve and my sister was born. Before that it was in long curls: Otherwise,
says my mother, it would have been just one big snarl.
My mother combed it by winding it around her index finger every morning, but when she was in the hospital my father couldn’t cope. He couldn’t get it around his stubby fingers,
says my mother. My father looks down at his fingers. They are indeed broad compared with my mother’s long elegant ones, which she calls boney. He smiles a pussy-cat smile.
So it was that my hair was sheared off. I sat in the chair in my first beauty parlour and watched it falling, like handfuls of cobwebs, down over my shoulders. From within it my head began to emerge, smaller, denser, my face more angular. I aged five years in fifteen minutes. I knew I could go home now and try out lipstick.
Your father was upset about it,
says my mother, with an air of collusion. She doesn’t say this when my father is present. We smile, over the odd reactions of men to hair.
I used to think that my mother, in her earlier days, led a life of sustained hilarity and hair-raising adventure. (That was before I realized that she never put in the long stretches of uneventful time that must have made up much of her life: the stories were just the punctuation.) Horses ran away with her, men offered to, she was continually falling out of trees or off the ridgepoles of barns, or nearly being swept out to sea in rip-tides; or, in a more minor vein, suffering acute embarrassment in trying circumstances.
Churches were especially dangerous. There was a guest preacher one Sunday,
she says. Of course we had to go to church every Sunday. There he was, in full career, preaching hellfire and damnation
—she pounds an invisible pulpit—and his full set of false teeth shot out of his mouth—phoop!—just like that. Well, he didn’t miss a stride. He stuck his hand up and caught them and popped them back into his mouth, and he kept right on, condemning us all to eternal torment. The pew was shaking! The tears were rolling down our faces, and the worst of it was, we were in the front pew, he was looking right at us. But of course we couldn’t laugh out loud: father would have given us Hail Columbia.
Other people’s parlours were booby-trapped for her; so were any and all formal social occasions. Zippers sprang apart on her clothes in strategic places, hats were unreliable. The shortage of real elastic during the war demanded constant alertness: underpants then had buttons, and were more taboo and therefore more significant than they are now. There you would be,
she says, right on the street, and before you knew it they’d be down around your galoshes. The way to do was to step out of them with one foot, then kick them up with your other foot and whip them into your purse. I got quite good at it.
This particular story is told only to a few, but other stories are for general consumption. When she tells them, my mother’s face turns to rubber. She takes all the parts, adds the sound effects, waves her hands around in the air. Her eyes gleam, sometimes a little wickedly, for although my mother is sweet and old and a lady, she avoids being a sweet old lady. When people are in danger of mistaking her for one, she flings in something from left field; she refuses to be taken for granted.
But my mother cannot be duped into telling stories when she doesn’t want to. If you prompt her, she becomes self-conscious and clams up. Or she will laugh and go out into the kitchen, and shortly after that you will hear the whir of the Mixmaster. Long ago I gave up attempting to make her do tricks at parties. In gatherings of unknown people, she merely listens intently, her head tilted a little, smiling a smile of glazed politeness. The secret is to wait and see what she will say afterwards.
At the age of seventeen my mother went to the Normal School in Truro. This name-Normal School
—once held a certain magic for me. I thought it had something to do with learning to be normal, which possibly it did, because really it was where you used to go to learn how to be a schoolteacher. Subsequently my mother taught in a one-room school house not far from her home. She rode her horse to and from the school house every day, and saved up the money she earned and sent herself to university with it. My grandfather wouldn’t send her: he said she was too frivolous-minded. She liked ice-skating and dancing too much for his taste.
At Normal School my mother boarded with a family that contained several sons in more or less the same age group as the girl boarders. They all ate around a huge dining-room table (which I pictured as being of dark wood, with heavy carved legs, but covered always with a white linen tablecloth), with the mother and father presiding, one at each end. I saw them both as large and pink and beaming.
The boys were great jokers,
says my mother. They were always up to something.
This was desirable in boys: to be great jokers, to be always up to something. My mother adds a key sentence: We had a lot of fun.
Having fun has always been high on my mother’s agenda. She has as much fun as possible, but what she means by this phrase cannot be understood without making an adjustment, an allowance for the great gulf across which this phrase must travel before it reaches us. It comes from another world, which, like the stars that originally sent out the light we see hesitating in the sky above us these nights, may be or is already gone. It is possible to reconstruct the facts of this world—the furniture, the clothing, the ornaments on the mantelpiece, the jugs and basins and even the chamber pots in the bedrooms, but not the emotions, not with the same exactness. So much that is now known and felt must be excluded.
This was a world in which guileless flirtation was possible, because there were many things that were simply not done by nice girls, and more girls, were nice then. To fall from niceness was to fall not only from grace: sexual acts, by girls at any rate, had financial consequences. Life was more joyful and innocent then, and at the same time permeated with guilt and terror, or at least the occasions for them, on the most daily level. It was like the Japanese haiku: a limited form, rigid in its perimeters, within which an astonishing freedom was possible.
There are photographs of my mother at this time, taken with three or four other girls, linked arm in arm or with their arms thrown jestingly around each other’s necks. Behind them, beyond the sea or the hills or whatever is in the background, is a world already hurtling towards ruin, unknown to them: the theory of relativity has been discovered, acid is accumulating at the roots of trees, the bull-frogs are doomed. But they smile with something that from this distance you could almost call gallantry, their right legs thrust forward in parody of a chorus line.
One of the great amusements for the girl boarders and the sons of the family was amateur theatre. Young people—they were called young people
—frequently performed in plays which were put on in the church basement. My mother was a regular actor. (I have a stack of the scripts somewhere about the house, yellowing little booklets with my mother’s parts checked in pencil. They are all comedies, and all impenetrable.) There was no television then,
says my mother. You made your own fun.
For one of these plays a cat was required, and my mother and one of the sons borrowed the family cat. They put it into a canvas bag and drove to the rehearsal (there were cars by then), with my mother holding the cat on her lap. The cat, which must have been frightened, wet itself copiously, through the canvas bag and all over my mother’s skirt. At the same time it made the most astonishingly bad smell.
I was ready to sink through the floorboards,
says my mother. But what could I do? All I could do was sit there. In those days things like that
—she means cat pee, or pee of any sort—were not mentioned.
She means in mixed company.
I think of my mother driven through the night, skirts dripping, overcome with shame, the young man beside her staring straight ahead, pretending not to notice anything. They both feel that this act of unmentionable urination has been done, not by the cat, but by my mother. And so they continue, in a straight line that takes them over the Atlantic and past the curvature of the earth, out through the moon’s orbit and into the dark reaches beyond.
Meanwhile, back on earth, my mother says: I had to throw the skirt out. It was a good skirt, too, but nothing could get rid of the smell.
I only heard your father swear once,
says my mother. My mother herself never swears. When she comes to a place in a story in which swearing is called for, she says dad-ratted
or blankety-blank.
It was when he mashed his thumb, when he was sinking the well, for the pump.
This story, I know, takes place before I was born, up north, where there is nothing underneath the trees and their sheddings but sand and bedrock. The well was for a hand pump, which in turn was for the first of the many cabins and houses my parents built together. But since I witnessed later wells being sunk and later hand pumps being installed, I know how it’s done. There’s a pipe with a point at one end. You pound it into the ground with a sledge hammer, and as it goes down you screw other lengths of pipe onto it, until you hit drinkable water. To keep from ruining the thread on the top end, you hold a block of wood between the sledge hammer and the pipe. Better, you get someone else to hold it for you. This is how my father mashed his thumb: he was doing both the holding and the hammering himself.
It swelled up like a radish,
says my mother. He had to make a hole in the nail, with his toad-sticker, to ease the pressure. The blood spurted out like pips from a lemon. Later on the whole nail turned purple and black and dropped off. Luckily he grew another one. They say you only get two chances. When he did it though, he turned the air blue for yards around. I didn’t even know he knew those words. I don’t know where he picked them up.
She speaks as if these words are a minor contagious disease, like chicken pox.
Here my father looks modestly down at his plate. For him, there are two worlds: one containing ladies, in which you do not use certain expressions, and another one—consisting of logging camps and other haunts of his youth, and of gatherings of acceptable sorts of men-in which you do. To let the men’s world slip over verbally into the ladies’ would reveal you as a mannerless boor, but to carry the ladies’ world over into the men’s brands you a prig and maybe even a pansy. This is the word for it. All of this is well understood between them.
This story illustrates several things: that my father is no pansy, for one; and that my mother behaved properly by being suitably shocked. But my mother’s eyes shine with delight while she tells this story. Secretly, she thinks it funny that my father got caught out, even if only once. The thumbnail that fell off is, in any significant way, long forgotten.
There are some stories which my mother does not tell when there are men present: never at dinner, never at parties. She tells them to women only, usually in the kitchen, when they or we are helping with the dishes or shelling peas, or taking the tops and tails off the string beans, or husking corn. She tells them in a lowered voice, without moving her hands around in the air, and they contain no sound effects. These are stories of romantic betrayals, unwanted pregnancies, illnesses of various horrible kinds, marital infidelities, mental breakdowns, tragic suicides, unpleasant lingering deaths. They are not rich in detail or embroidered with incident: they are stark and factual. The women, their own hands moving among the dirty dishes or the husks of vegetables, nod solemnly.
Some of these stories, it is understood, are not to be passed on to my father, because they would upset him. It is well known that women can deal with this sort of thing better than men can. Men are not to be told anything they might find too painful; the secret depths of human nature, the sordid physicalities, might overwhelm or damage them. For instance, men often faint at the sight of their own blood, to which they are not accustomed. For this reason you should never stand behind one in the line at the Red Cross donor clinic. Men, for some mysterious reason, find life more difficult than women do. (My mother believes this, despite the female bodies, trapped, diseased, disappearing, or abandoned, that litter her stories.) Men must be allowed to play in the sandbox of their choice, as happily as they can, without disturbance; otherwise they get cranky and won’t eat their dinners. There are all kinds of things that men are simply not equipped to understand, so why expect it of them? Not everyone shares this belief about men; nevertheless, it has its uses.
She dug up the shrubs from around the house,
says my mother. This story is about a shattered marriage: serious business. My mother’s eyes widen. The other women lean forward. All she left him were the shower curtains.
There is a collective sigh, an expelling of breath. My father enters the kitchen, wondering when the tea will be ready, and the women close ranks, turning to him their deceptive blankly smiling faces. Soon afterwards, my mother emerges from the kitchen, carrying the tea pot, and sets it down on the table in its ritual place.
I remember the time we almost died,
says my mother. Many of her stories begin this way. When she is in a certain mood, we are to understand that our lives have been preserved only by a series of amazing coincidences and strokes of luck; otherwise the entire family, individually or collectively, would be dead as doornails. These stories, in addition to producing adrenalin, serve to reinforce our sense of gratitude. There is the time we almost went over a waterfall, in a canoe, in a fog; the time we almost got caught in a forest fire; the time my father almost got squashed, before my mother’s very eyes, by a ridgepole he was lifting into place; the time my brother almost got struck by a bolt of lightning, which went by him so close it knocked him down. You could hear it sizzle,
says my mother.
This is the story of the hay wagon. Your father was driving,
says my mother, at the speed he usually goes.
We read between the lines: too fast. You kids were in the back.
I can remember this day, so I can remember how old I was, how old my brother was. We were old enough to think it was funny to annoy my father by singing popular songs of a type he disliked, such as Mockingbird Hill
; or perhaps we were imitating bagpipe music by holding our noses and humming, while hitting our Adam’s apples with the edges of our hands. When we became too irritating my father would say, Pipe down.
We weren’t old enough to know that his irritation could be real: we thought it was