The Silver Lining
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They say the ones we love hurt us the most.
The day Zoe loses her mother, she discovers a letter that shakes her entire reality. Someone she should be able to trust is not who she thinks. As Zoe investigates these claims, she begins to question whether she ever really knew her family and if some secrets should stay hidden.
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The Silver Lining - Hollie Furniss
Prologue
Zoe
Autumn came, and my heart broke.
Sucking in the last mouthful of brisk air, I stepped through the automated doors and along the glossy, long corridors that felt like my second home. Unlike a hospital, the place attempted to masquerade as something else. Bright, lime green splashes of colour dotted around the space, trying to make things less depressing. It didn’t work. The smell of antiseptic permeated every room, silently and invisibly revealing its true purpose.
I was making my daily visit to the hospice where my mother was slowly deteriorating from cancer. Ten years prior, she’d managed to beat the damn thing, now it had come back more ferocious than ever.
Desensitised, I sailed through the maze of doors on autopilot, my doc-martin boots squeaking embarrassingly with each stride, but my focus remained firm.
As I approached my mother’s ward, I could tell something was different. The nurses didn’t greet me with a smile and courteous Hello,
as usual. Their faces were solemn with hooded eyes and knitted brows - picture postcard concern.
I rushed over to my mother’s bed to see the trigger. My mother, my beautiful, radiant, and lovely mother was a shell of herself. All the glowing life was gone. Left was this tiny, sunken, grey person with closed eyes and rasping breaths.
The nurses confirmed my darkest fear. It was time. All I could do was sit by her side, and hold what was left of her fragile hand as a nurse called my father.
It was no good. She passed before he arrived. I was glad really. It felt right, just us two. I was birthed into this world by this great woman, and she left this world by my side.
When my father arrived, grief seized his former face and frame into a pained stranger; the cancer had somehow shrunken him too. His skin seemed ashen, and his eyes were as lifeless as hers. His hair bounced loosely with flecks of silver, no longer bound in place with pomade, as he sobbed against her hardened chest.
When he eventually peeled himself off her limp body and silenced his heaving cries, we embraced one another as grieving family members do. At that time, I didn’t know what my father was, but I was about to find out.
1
Zoe
St. Leonard’s Hospice was a twenty-minute drive from Haxby. I travelled along the A64 in a haze towards the house I grew up in. Beyond my beaten-up Vauxhall Astra spanned stretches of sprawling road. The engine revved as I pushed on the acceleration and snaked through cars. In the background, the radio crackled indistinct lyrics. The volume was too low to make out which song was playing.
Halted at a set of traffic lights, I caught sight of my reflection in the rear-view mirror. Blotches of crimson peppered my skin, and mascara smeared around my swollen eyes. Horns beeped, signalling the green light. I just had time to wipe some of the blackness away with the end of my woollen jumper before I reached my destination.
As I approached the drive, I could see my father’s inky Ford. He’d made it back before me; lights illuminated the downstairs signifying life.
Stepping inside felt like an imposition, even though it had once been my home too. Without my mum’s presence, the rooms felt colder, smaller - all too quiet. Her laughter could no longer be heard echoing through the hallways. Her silhouette no longer hastily flurrying around cleaning and tidying. Isn’t it strange how you only recall the good times when thinking back on a deceased loved one?
My eyes caught a glimpse of her favourite mug on the kitchen side. I’d bought it for her as a birthday present one year. It was adorned with metallic, gold feathers against a soft pink background, although some of the metallics had worn off. On the front were the words, ‘Mothers don’t sleep, they just worry with their eyes closed.’ I remember after she had opened it she said, You know me so well, Zoe!
I had. She was always a worrier. Ever since I was born, my mother, Grace, would be fretting over my every move. Learning how to swim, she was petrified that I’d drown. She never let me swim without her eyes burning into the back of my neck. All the other mothers would be nattering away to friends or buried deep into a book. Not my mum. She convinced herself that if she couldn’t see me, something bad would happen. Learning how to ride a bike was a nightmare.
What if you fall off?
she’d say.
Then I will just get back on,
I’d respond.
Once I had conquered the wheels and proven myself capable, she still wasn’t satisfied. Don’t go too fast or too far. Stay where I can see you.
My innate clumsiness hadn’t helped. I still have scars scattered across my kneecaps. Even as a teenager, I had to be in eyesight.
It isn’t you I don’t trust,
she’d say.
Her oppression wore on our relationship for a period because I let it, and the guilt of that swept through me – drowned me. Her precious, motherly concern was gone, and I longed for it – ached for it.
All those memories flooded my mind as I crept through her house, like an intruder. It was so strange seeing photographs hung on the walls of her smiling. I’d seen those photographs a million times, and I’d never looked at them the way I did then, frozen in time, alive, happy, healthy.
With the biggest smile, always adorned in red lipstick, surrounded by curled, blonde locks. I turned myself away and began sorting through her things.
One of the jobs I knew I’d have to do sooner or later was sorting through her clothes. There were items I wanted to keep for myself: an oversized jacket she’d loved in the ’80s and said she would give me one day, and of course her wedding dress – a puffy, lace meringue that was truly horrendous but somehow looked sensational in her wedding pictures.
Up to this point, my father, James, and I had floated about in our separate grieving bubbles. We’d never been tactile. All my life, my father had been on the fringes of my existence, tight-lipped but present, involved just enough to know me as a daughter but not enough to know me as a person. Death only magnified our awkwardness.
As I made my way up the stairs, my father intercepted me.
Where are you going?
Despite having lived in Haxby for decades, an Irish accent still lingered on his tongue. The same accent that seduced my mother all those years ago.
I stopped my ascent, not looking him in the eye. I want some of mum’s things.
I could practically feel his forehead crinkling. What things?
he questioned abruptly.
Just some clothes, if that’s okay?
When he didn’t badger me further, I pressed on, taking it as a sign of agreeance.
I continued up