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A raiding Norse pirate rapes a young girl in 9th century Connacht, Ireland, and leaves her for dead. Shamed by her pregnancy and wanting a life without the label of Norse for her child, Ceara makes her way south to Ceann Coradh. On her journey, she has a dream about Scathach, a mythical warrior woman. Ceara dies giving life to her son, Scolai, a
John Breen Wren
John Breen Wren is the author of thrillers, mysteries, and historical fiction. John began writing fiction in 2009. To Probe a Beating Heart, his first novel, was published in 2011, with subsequent releases of Killing His Fear and Darryl's Reunion. Wren's first three releases look beyond murder and mystery into how the world and personal experience influence human nature and behavior. Darryl's Reunion has been adapted as a screenplay and is currently being considered by a number of production companies. Wren has also written several short stories. Two have been included in Anthologies. John currently lives in Northern Virginia with his wife, Lois. He continues to write in several genres. For updates on his future projects, be sure to follow John on social media.
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John Breen Wren
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an Trodai
Copyright © 2023 John Breen Wren
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This book is a work of fiction, the characters and events cited herein are a blend of fictional characters interacting with people who did exist in the late ninth and tenth centuries in Ireland. The actions and words of all characters are intended to parallel history, not define it. Any error or misrepresentation of fact is unintentional and my fault alone.
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ISBN-13- 978-0-9889371-7-8
DEDICATION
To my father . . .
the quiet giant in my life who showed me how to stand tall, honor the past and feel pride in my heritage.
He will live in our hearts forever.
ACKNOWLEDGMENT
I acknowledge the counsel of editor and proofer; the patience of family, the access to friends; both new and old. I thank them for their help, their input, their criticism, and their praise. Without them all, this book would not be.
A NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR
From a time before recorded history, Éirinn, Ireland was an island nation of many tribes, kingdoms and sub-kingdoms. Disputes between these groups pitted countrymen against countrymen in battle after battle and the alliances between tribes, clanns and kingdoms were forged and broken with regularity. Early settlements in Éirinn by people from the Iberian Peninsula, and later the Celts from central Europe, developed a race of people who quarreled and fought amongst themselves for centuries.
The invasions by raiders from northern countries dating from 795AD to the end of the first millennium aided in maintaining a near-constant state of warfare somewhere on the island. The battles fought, the men involved in those battles and their deeds are recorded in history and myth. Some of the characters cross the lines between the two, and today it is not entirely clear who and what is fact or myth.
My heritage on both sides goes back to Éirinn, sometime in the last 150 years. Members of my family have researched our ancestry and after a few generations, the lines often blur, and certain relationships are harder to define and confirm. The blood in my veins could be ancient Irish, Celtic, Viking, or a blend of all. There may also have been a traveler from some faraway exotic land who managed to leave his stamp on my family’s history. One never knows.
The Irish are a proud people and the stories of ancient Éirinn have always intrigued me. Now that I have found time and incentive to write, I decided to take on this story about a family; a clann of warriors beginning near the turn of the first millennium. I begin the first part in the year 893AD, about a man with little definable heritage; a loner, nearly an outcast and build to a family united through several generations. A family, a clann that stands together through times both good and bad even in the face of extreme difficulty and warfare.
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Part One
SCOLAI
1
893 AD Connaught, Ireland
Gudrik
A
cold October wind carried a constant wash of wet, salty air over the sides of the longship as it made its way across the northern end of Connacht and south toward the inlet north of Munster. Olgar looked at the stars one final time as the sun began to hide them from view. Gudrik, take the fore deck and keep an eye to the shore. A fire— movement of any kind, and we begin our day’s work.
Gudrik moved to his post at the bow. He raised an arm high and pointed to the shore as he muttered, I’ll have a young one this day, and maybe more.
Thorkel, turn to the shore,
commanded Olgar as he looked to Gudrik for another signal. The helmsman complied and the longship slowly turned east, into the sun. Lower the sail,
commanded Olgar, and man the oars.
The sail was secured, and each man took an oar, watching Olgar for his next order. In unison, the forty men responded to Olgar’s raised arm and the oars dipped into the waves, moving the longship slowly and silently nearer the shore.
Gudrik signaled again from the bow and Olgar told Thorkel to ease the ship left and signaled the oarsmen to pull on their oars. They navigated into a small bay and the men on board peered over their shoulders at the shoreline, looking for signs of settlements close to the water’s edge. As the sun finally broke full over the treetops, Gudrik signaled a sighting. The longship was steered slightly north of the settlement and moved steadily to the shore. Another hand signal from Gudrik told the helmsman which way to turn and then a signal indicated the water was getting shallow. Olgar commanded the oarsmen to slow their pull and allow the ship to glide into the shallows. As the hull gently touched the sandy bottom, Gudrik leapt overboard with sword and shield in hand. Twenty-nine other men followed and waded ashore in the early morning stillness. They were several hundred feet north of the settlement and as they assembled on dry land, each man checked his weapons, tightened his belt and prepared to begin their attack.
I’ve a hunger for a young woman,
Gudrik said quietly.
We’ve come for gold and silver this time, fool. Not slaves,
said Olgar.
I don’t want a slave, just a little time with a young woman,
said Gudrik with a wicked laugh. Just a little time.
Gold and silver,
returned Olgar, and nothing else.
Gudrik was taller than any of his shipmates, his shoulders broad, his arms thick and powerful and he cared little for more than his immediate desires. He had joined this crew, three weeks earlier because he had exhausted his money and needed more. Having sailed with various Viking bands over the last several years, he was well known as a fierce pirate who helped himself to whatever he could carry and satisfied his lust with any female he could catch. Those few men who stood in his way paid the ultimate price.
Not accustomed to obeying orders, he muttered under his breath, I’ll take what I want and do as I please.
The raiders found the small settlement and prepared to surround the grouping of roundhouses. They’ve no rath, no moat and I’ll wager no men to defend this little village,
said Olgar with a laugh. He addressed his men, Stay quiet until we’re close and don’t burn anything until we’ve searched inside each of their houses.
They nodded in agreement and began to move quietly in groups of four or five around each side of the village. Olgar waited several minutes then whispered to his immediate comrades, Now, we move in.
Each small group crept closer to the outer edges of the village until one was seen by an old man. The man stared at first, then shouted an alarm. The raiders sprang to their feet and charged. Looking initially for the men of the village, Kill them first,
Olgar had commanded, and the rest will be easy.
There were few men in the village, only eight that presented any significant challenge. Olgar walked to an open area in the center of the village, looked down at three remaining village men and in his clumsy Irish he demanded, Your men, where are they?
The three remained silent and Olgar ordered them killed before again demanding of the assembled crowd, Your men, where are they?
Gudrik had a better grip of the Irish tongue and repeated Olgar’s charge to a slight, young woman as he grabbed and twisted her arm.
I’ll tell you nothing,
said Ceara with more grit in her voice than strength in her arms.
Gudrik pushed her to the ground and kicked her, You’ll tell me where your men are or I’ll kill you.
You’ll kill me either way,
snapped Ceara, glaring up at the hulking mass in front of her. She stared at Gudrik, expecting him to draw his sword and bring it down on her head. Trembling inside, she awaited the inevitable.
Gudrik, now angered by her defiance of his commands, grabbed her arm again, forced her to a stand and roared the same question in her face.
Ceara, repulsed by the stench of his breath, tried to pull away. Gudrik held fast, twisting Ceara’s arm in his huge hand and hearing a bone crack, spat the question again.
Ceara felt the pain in her arm but remained defiant. She clenched her jaw and screamed through her teeth, No!
as tears welled in her eyes.
Gudrik’s free hand flew into her face, casting her to the ground, unconscious. He looked at her then turned to an older woman, Where did they go?
The older woman hesitated, looked at Ceara and turned toward Gudrik. She stared at him, not answering.
Gudrik grabbed Ceara’s broken arm, drew his sword and poised as if to cut it off, I asked you, where did they go?
The older woman knew these men would kill everyone if they didn’t get an answer, Please don’t hurt my daughter, she’s very young.
Gudrik held his sword against Ceara’s skin, grinned, and glared at the woman.
They’ve gone with our chieftain, they battle the Dal gCais south of here,
she said.
Gudrik grumbled, dropped Ceara’s arm, turned and relayed the information to Olgar and scanned the crowd again.
Olgar, satisfied with the answer, turned to the crowd, Bring me your gold and silver and I may spare your village. Deny my request and we will start killing you.
Gudrik, translated Olgar’s words and continued to search the crowd.
The villagers understood the Viking’s demands but were unsure if he would keep his word. They disappeared into their houses and brought out whatever they thought might satisfy the raiders. Olgar ordered a horse and cart to be brought to him and smiled as he saw the plunder build up in the cart. Very little gold or silver was found, mostly copper coins, weapons, tools and some leather belts.
The people had hoped that this Viking raider would not kill them, and they might see the sun rise again. The cart was loaded with all the raiders collected and Olgar assembled his men in the open yard. He counted faces, Where is Gudrik?
he demanded.
I don’t know,
returned Herlu, last I saw, he hit the girl they called Ceara and knocked her to the ground.
Olgar looked to the place where Ceara had fallen. She wasn’t there and Gudrik was nowhere to be seen. He looked angry, scanned the scene and said, We leave, now. Gudrik may follow if he wishes, but we don’t wait.
He signaled the cart to leave, then turned to his men, Kill everyone and burn the houses.
The villagers sensed the raider’s intention and began to run toward the woods away from the beach. The Vikings hacked at the people as they ran, killing some and wounding more. Houses were set afire and as the loaded cart reached a turn in the path to the beach, the raiders stopped pursuing villagers and followed it to their longship.
As they ran through the wood to the beach, Olgar looked at Herlu, Are they all dead?
I only know the ones I saw, I killed,
returned Herlu.
And Gudrik, is he with us?
demanded Olgar.
I don’t know, I haven’t seen him,
said Herlu and he continued to run toward the beach.
Olgar paused, turned and looked back toward the burning village once more. He drew a deep breath, smelling the burning thatch, he took in the aftermath one last time then hurried toward the beach and their longship. On the beach, he looked about, Gudrik was not among the band of pirates and when the boat was loaded, he ordered the men to push off to deeper water. The oars were manned but remained still as Olgar gave one last look to the shore, Gudrik, I wish you luck,
and he raised an arm, signaling the oarsmen.
The men pulled on the oars and as the longship eased out of the little bay, the sail was raised and secured, and a breath of sea wind pushed the longship gently north. Olgar sent Herlu to the fore station, An eye to the shore and another settlement. The sun hasn’t yet crossed half the sky and we’ve room for more plunder.
* * *
Gudrik spent an hour satisfying his hunger for a woman. Each time Ceara could, she resisted, scratching and clawing at his face and each time he laughed and backhanded her again. When he finished with Ceara, he threw her tiny, limp frame into a clump of bushes and picked up his scattered clothes.
Fully dressed and his sword in hand, Gudrik made his way back to the beach. He arrived well after the boat had set sail. Damn,
he growled. I’m alone in this place.
He knew the plan was to raid several settlements along the Connaught shore as they sailed north and homeward. He looked back toward the village and stared at the glow of fires still burning. He looked back at the shore, then up the coast, wondering how long it would take him to reach the next settlement. He sheathed his sword, slung his shield across his back and began to move north along the shore in hopes of catching up with his comrades.
Two hours of trudging over rocky shoreline and through heavy brush had Gudrik north several miles. He saw a large plume of smoke ahead, he paused and looked to the water, but didn’t see the longship.
They would’ve come ashore a little north of here, perhaps beyond those trees,
he grumbled as he pushed aside more brush. He came to a clearing and slowly stepped out of the thick woods. The clearing stretched three hundred feet to a small roundhouse and a rath wall fifty feet farther. The house was burning, and several men carried buckets of water in attempting to douse the flames.
Gudrik stood still and watched from a distance. He didn’t recognize any of the men and as he was about to melt back into the wood, one of the men throwing water on the fire saw him.
Another,
shouted the man. I see another of them.
Several men dropped their buckets, lifted swords from the ground and ran in Gudrik’s direction, yelling and screaming as they crossed the open area.
Gudrik turned into the wood and tried to run but was slowed by the heavy brush. He was tired, having spent the hour raping the girl and the next several hours plodding through woods to find his comrades. He was a large strong man and a great fighter, but the eight villagers who caught him had just repelled his fellow raiders and Gudrik was soon beaten to the ground and severely wounded.
You should have run with the others,
said one of the villagers.
Now you’ll die like your friends,
said another.
Gudrik was dragged out of the bush, across the open field and stood at a tall thick oak tree. His back to the tree, his arms stretched behind him and tied, Gudrik was now able to see three other men tied to trees nearby. He strained his eyes and wasn’t sure if he recognized the man tied to another tree only twenty feet away. It looked like Olgar, but beaten, bloodied, and probably dead.
As he looked about, trying to figure out how they might kill him, a boy approached with a length of rope in hand. He stared at Gudrik as he tied a knot in the rope, then he placed a loop around Gudrik’s neck and walked slowly around the tree. The rope was again looped around Gudrik’s neck, pulled snug and tied. The boy stood in front of him, with no expression.
An older man approached, Do you understand our language?
Gudrik knew enough of the Irish tongue to understand what was being said, but he didn’t reply.
Your people killed Lasair’s father. Now it is his choice to kill you or let you rot standing at this tree,
said the old man.
Gudrik looked at the boy and spit on the ground. Lasair walked behind the tree and tugged on the rope tied to Gudrik’s neck. Gudrik gagged and coughed. Lasair pulled the rope away from the tree and put a stick between the tree and the rope, then walked around to look at Gudrik again.
The pair of nooses were pulled tighter around Gudrik’s neck, and his breathing became more labored. Lasair looked at him for a moment, then spit on the ground in front of Gudrik and turned to walk away. The older man looked down at the boy, Shall we kill him now?
No,
said Lasair. Tomorrow we will put another stick behind the rope and see if he chokes.
This could take days,
said the old man.
Yes,
said the boy, it may.
Gudrik lived another two days with no food or water and finally the ever-tightening rope around his neck choked his last breath. The following day Lasair came to the open field with his bow and a handful of arrows. He stood thirty paces from Gudrik and loosed an arrow, striking Gudrik in his groin. The boy continued loosing arrows until they were all sunk deep into Gudrik’s flesh.
2
894 AD Connaught, Ireland
Ceara
W
hen Gudrik left the clearing where he had raped Ceara, she stirred, her body abused, a bone in her left arm broken and her eyes nearly swollen shut. She crawled out of the bush, saw some of her clothes and covered herself as best she could against the cold air. She stood in the shadows of the oak trees, feeling the pain of Gudrik’s beating and abuse, gathering her thoughts and wondering if any others had survived. She staggered forward, holding onto branches with her right hand and allowing her left arm to hang at her side.
Slowly, she found her way back to her village. The fires had reduced most of the roundhouses to ash and there remained about twenty people tending to another twenty wounded and collecting what was not stolen or burned. A few carts were being dragged to the open yard for the bodies of the slain to be taken to a field where they would be buried.
The air was heavy with the smell of burnt thatch and death was everywhere. Ceara stumbled into the open yard and was seen by a friend. Ceara, we thought you were dead,
cried Soarla. She ran to her friend and helped her into one of the remaining houses.
My mother,
asked Ceara, is she here?
No,
replied Soarla, she did not survive.
Ceara bowed her head, and more tears filled her eyes.
As Gudrik was being tied to the tree, Ceara was being helped by her friends. As a noose was placed about his neck, she was washed and bandaged. As the boy tightened the pair of nooses, her left arm was placed in a splint.
By the time Gudrik had been pierced with ten arrows, Ceara was rested, fed, and dressed, able to breathe easy and talk about her ordeal. He was the large one who spoke our language,
she told Soarla. I was sure he would kill me, perhaps he thought he did,
she speculated. I wish I had a knife; I would have cut his eyes out and slit his throat,
she said as she placed her right hand on the broken arm. She was still in pain, but she would heal.
Soarla’s eyes went wide. She knew her friend was a fighter, but she was also small, and her attacker was huge. He might have been a warrior, but Ceara was the product of a long line of warriors and would have used any weapon she could lay her hands on in her defense.
As Ceara regained her strength she helped prepare the dead for burial. Her mother was one of the first to be buried and Ceara visited her grave every day. She cried at first, but the blood in her veins made her stand as tall as she could and consider her revenge, I want to find that filthy bastard, cut off his head and kick it in the dirt.
As the days passed, she helped with the clean-up of the village in any way she could. Her arm was in a sling, and she spent most of her time probing the ashes of burned homes, looking for anything of value. Tools and weapons were most important. The raiders had taken most of the gold and silver, though some smaller pieces were missed, and her slow methodical search found a coin here and a bracelet there.
Searching the ashes of her own home, she found a dagger. It had been her father's. A warrior’s dagger that had proven useful in close fighting situations. Ceara dwelled on the thought of this dagger in her hands. It was long and sharp. The handle charred and the leather wrapping nearly gone, but it was now hers. Her dagger, her weapon and thoughts of revenge welled up in her mind again. She thought about that brute as he abused her and could see his eyes, smell his sweat and filth and she saw herself pushing her new dagger into his throat. She slipped it into her crois beneath her deerskin vest. That evening Ceara cleaned the dagger, removed the remaining leather wrapping and found a scrap of cow hide to rewrap the grip. Finished and a new edge honed, she held it up in the light of the fire and breathed deep, My dagger, may you find his blood and help it out of his eyes and his throat.
* * *
Six weeks passed and the new year began with the men of Ceara’s village returning from their service to their chieftain. They had seen battle four times and lost two of their number. Their battles had met with success and now, they came home to a burned village and murdered families.
We go to fight the Dal gCais to the south and we’re attacked by foreigners from the north. Our village is destroyed, and there aren’t enough of us to stand against another raid of this sort,
said one of the men. We should gather what we can and join our friends four miles north.
The dead had been buried, the wounded treated, and the remaining people herded their cattle in from the pasture, gathered their remaining belongings and trekked north to join another village. It was the same village where Gudrik and Olgar had met their ends. By the time Ceara and her friends arrived, fifteen weeks after their village had been raided, all that remained of Gudrik were bones— critters and crows had taken the rest. She listened to the stories of the raid and the pirates captured during and after the attack. She heard about the boy and the giant he killed with his nooses and arrows. She walked out to the tree where the last of the raiders had been tied and looked at the bits of clothing and bone on the ground.
Lasair, the boy who had tied the ropes around Gudrik’s neck approached and said, He was a big man, but not a giant. He died like any other man would.
He looked at Ceara, Did you know him?
Ceara touched the dagger in her belt, Not really, I think he’s the one who broke my arm.
She looked at the boy, Did you see him tied to the tree?
she asked.
Yes,
returned the boy.
Did he speak—, say anything at all?
No,
said the boy. He spit at my feet, and I tied the rope around his neck.
He looked at Ceara with eyes that had looked into Gudrik’s eyes, I made the rope a little tighter each day until he couldn’t breathe. Then I killed him again with my arrows.
She stepped closer to the boy and hugged him, What is your name?
I am Lasair,
he returned.
That man beat me and left me for dead. I wanted to kill him myself if I ever saw him again. So, I thank you.
She put her hand on Lasair’s shoulder, Now he’s dead, he won’t hurt anyone else ever again.
The two walked back to the rath together.
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Ceara had recovered from the beating, but other problems were presenting. Her arm had mended but was still weak, her cuts and bruises all but gone save for a few small scars and her belly had begun to swell. The splint on her left arm had been removed and she should be ready to work in the fields in her new home when the planting began.
She was concerned that her child, fathered by one of the pirates, would not be accepted by the people of this new village or those from her old village and she wanted a better life for her baby. Her baby, this child would be her baby, not his and she knew that even though her friends were kind to her, her unborn child may not be so favored. She wrestled with her dilemma. Stay with her tribe and possibly suffer the child’s hard life or leave, find a new village, a new tribe and begin anew. She decided to leave while she could still manage a trek south by herself.
Soarla, have you traveled down to the river and the bigger town on the little island?
asked Ceara.
Limerick, it’s called Limerick. At least that’s the closest town. There’s another town if you go north on the river and that’s called Ceann Coradh,
said Soarla.
I want to be where my baby might find a better life than I’ve had,
said Ceara.
You might find Ceann Coradh more friendly. It’s the home of the king of the Dal gCais,
Soarla advised her little friend.
We had battle with them, I don’t think they’d welcome a girl from Connaught,
said Ceara.
No more or less than a welcome in Limerick, and there are more Norse in Limerick.
Ceann Coradh it is then, that’s where I’ll go and make a new, better life for me and my baby.
You’re a brave girl, how will you get there?
asked Soarla.
I can walk, it should only take a few days, but I can walk,
returned Ceara.
Are you sure? Setting out on your own like this. Are you sure this is what you should do?
Soarla asked.
I am,
Ceara insisted, content with her decision.
You’ve no need to feel shame,
replied Soarla, you are not to blame for what happened.
I know, but my child will never be accepted here. Everybody will know the father was one of the raiders who murdered our people and burned our homes. If it is to be a girl, she will deserve a fair chance at life without the burden of that Viking father.
Soarla smiled and said, And if it is to be a boy, what then?
Ceara rolled her eyes, If a boy, I pray he will not be like his father. But either way, this will be my child and I will raise him or her as free Irish with no mention of the father being a Northman who went Viking and took me as a prize.
Soarla hugged her good friend and said, When you travel to Ceann Coradh, you shouldn’t be alone, there are bandits, wild animals, and maybe even more pirates.
There may be,
said Ceara, But I have nothing for them to steal and my belly says I’ve already been taken.
Ceara, it’s a long way, too long for you to be alone on the road.
It should take no more than two days and I can’t stay here any longer. People know whose baby grows in my belly.
That evening she made a small bundle of clothing wrapped around a loaf of bread, she had her dagger, a bow, and a handful of arrows and at first light, she quietly left the village, walking south toward the River Shannon. The road was longer than she imagined, and she paused often to rest. There was another settlement south of her old village; she had visited years earlier with her father. Perhaps no one would know her today, but she only intended to stay one night and be on her way south again. Her plan was working, and she found shelter in a stable, under a roof in the small village. Then again at the break of dawn, she continued on her way south. The road was quiet, she saw several other travelers, but managed to blend into the bushes and trees as they passed. She moved off the road four times the first day and several more the second, each time building more confidence in her decision to travel alone.
On the third day, as the sun reached high in the sky, the blisters on her feet began to break and bleed. Her swelling belly was more uncomfortable than she thought it would be and her newfound confidence began to fade. A small stream paralleling the road offered a cooling relief to her feet and as she pondered her situation, sitting at the water’s edge with her feet gently splashing in the coolness, she muttered, I’m alone, hungry, cold and very tired, I’d give everything I ever had if I could only make it to Ceann Coradh.
She stumbled up the bank to a group of bushes and lay down out of sight of the road and the stream and quietly cried herself to sleep.
Sleep came easily in the shade of the trees, but her dreams were no comfort. She saw herself staggering toward Ceann Coradh in the dark of night, tired, hungry, and bleeding. She heard the sounds of wolves in the cover of the underbrush, stalking her. Suddenly a tall, slender woman in a dark cloak stood in her path, Ceara, your child will be as his father,
spoke the woman.
Ceara could see her eyes, bright as if on fire and the sword on her hip; brilliant steel, reflecting light that was not there, Who are you?
He can be a great warrior, if I lead him through life. He will live long and be victorious in many battles, he will be a hero like few others.
Ceara saw herself fall to her knees and utter through her tears, My son? A warrior?
She leaned forward and her head touched the ground, sobs racked her body.
The dark figure spoke again, Give me your son and I will help you to Ceann Coradh.
My baby,
cried Ceara, I want my baby to live and be free.
Your son, Ceara, I will teach him,
said the woman, as only I can.
The pains in her back were overwhelming, her feet were cut, bruised, and bleeding. She was terrified as she defiantly addressed the woman, My baby, I will die before I give him or her to you.
The woman seemed to float on a cloud of smoke as she approached Ceara without taking a step, her dark red hair streaming behind, Give him freely or I will take him and leave you to die. I will have him and all his sons and theirs as well.
A noise on the road made the woman turn and look, the sound of a horse-drawn cart distracted her for only a moment, and she turned back toward Ceara, When he is born, I will come back.
The sound broke the dream and Ceara strained to see what made the noise, who was on the road. She tried to stand and fell to the ground. She lay crying — then another noise.
She brought herself to her knees, fully awake now, the pains in her back gone, the cuts on her feet less painful than in her dream, and the tall dark woman had vanished. She heard another sound and crawled to the bushes, peering through the branches and leaves. A man was leading a horse to the water’s edge and while the horse drank, Ceara watched, afraid to come out of hiding. She was awake, still afraid, remembering her dream of the woman in the dark cloak, The devil,
she thought aloud. What did I promise?
She peered through the bushes at the intruder.
The man heard a muffled voice, then noticed movement in the bush and finally saw a young woman trying to hide. He turned his attention to his horse, away from the girl and faced the water. Then he said loud enough for her to hear, You’ve no need to fear me, girl. I’m just watering my horse and I’ll be on my way.
Ceara continued to look through the branches and leaves, trying to get a better look at the man. He slowly turned as his horse finished drinking and led him back toward the road.
You can come out, girl, I’ll be leaving now.
Ceara waited a moment, thinking about her dream, Is that the devil, himself,
she wondered. Or could he be an angel sent to help me,
she whispered. Then shyly, she stepped out from behind the bush and faced the man.
My name is Bardan, and I’m traveling toward Limerick.
He looked at Ceara, noticed her small frame and swollen belly and said, Should you be out here alone, girl?
He paused; she was obviously not in any condition to walk. He held the reins and said, My cart is empty, I’ve sold my vegetables and I’d be happy to take you toward Limerick or anywhere between here and there.
Ceara was tired, the trip thus far had been without incident until this morning, but she was still more than a day’s walk from the river. I’m on my way to the river and the town nearby. I think the name of it is Ceann Coradh.
Well now, if you’re referring to the River Shannon, then the town to the west is Limerick, where I’m going and the town to the east will be Ceann Coradh. Now there’s no sense in you walking that distance, so come with me, the horse won’t mind an extra passenger or two.
His paternal manner brought her comfort and she agreed, If it’s no trouble, I’d thank you for the help.
Bardan helped her up onto the cart and noticed her feet. Girl, how far have you traveled on those tiny feet?
I don’t know, I’ve been walking for two days, but my baby makes me walk slowly and rest often.
Well, now, you can rest as we ride and no more walking,
said Bardan.
As they rode south, Bardan told Ceara about his farm and the kinds of vegetables he grew. They talked about trees and flowers and little animals. Then, when only a mile from the road between Limerick and Ceann Coradh, a wolf came out of the wood, stood on the road in front of them and bared its teeth. Bardan reined in his horse, reached for his bow and stood tall in the cart. The wolf stood less than fifty feet away and looked at them. Bardan notched an arrow and as he drew back, the wolf turned and disappeared into the brush.
’Tis not a safe place to be for a young woman by herself,
said Bardan. without a weapon.
He looked at Ceara, We’ll be moving on now, but be aware, where there is one wolf, there are usually more, and to them we are food.
As Bardan turned to put his bow down, Ceara said, I’ll hold the bow and have an arrow or two at the ready.
She smiled, My Da taught me to hunt and I’ve taken down a wolf before.
Have you now,
said Bardan, with a look of wonder.
Ceara sat up straight and continued, Yes, I had just killed a deer and the wolf thought he might take it for himself. I didn’t kill the deer for the wolf and another deer may not be easy to find that day, so I killed the wolf too, then pulled the deer onto my cart and brought it home.
Their conversation was lively, and the time passed quickly. As the air cooled and a hint of rain filled the sky, Bardan took an old cloak from the back of the cart and wrapped it about Ceara. Soon they neared the road that went to Limerick or Ceann Coradh, Bardan said, Now where in Ceann Coradh would you like to go?
I don’t know, I’ve not been there since I was a little girl, with my Da. He took me to buy things for the farm.
Is he there in Ceann Coradh?
No, he died a few years ago, and my Mam just this last year.
Why are you going there, then?
returned Bardan.
It’s the only place I could think of to go. After the raiders burned our village and our warriors came back from serving our chieftain, everybody moved to another village, and I didn’t feel like I fit in.
Your husband?
quizzed Bardan again noticing her obvious pregnancy, What about him?
Ceara thought for a moment, I’ve no husband. The baby growing inside me is from one of the raiders. He was a large, brutal man. He hit me and I was unconscious. He dragged me into the wood, had his way with me, beat me and left me out there to die.
So the baby is his?
No, no more. He went away, now the baby is mine alone and I’ll see to him or her growing up right.
She hung her head, Not like the father.
What is your tribe?
asked Bardan
Aidhne,
she replied.
You know you are in the territory of the Dal gCais.
I don’t understand the difference, we’re all Irish. What difference does the tribe we come from make?
Ceara asked.
It depends on the year and who is making raids into whose territory.
Well, then, I’m Ceara, just Ceara and I’m Irish.
What about your baby? Won’t he be a Northman?
No, Irish. He’ll be as Irish as I and nobody need know the father was a brute gone Viking.
She bowed her head and bit her lower lip, I had a dream, back there where we met.
She hesitated, I hope it was just a dream.
Bardan saw she was uneasy with her dream, and he waited for her to continue. Several minutes passed and he said, You’re safe now, no need to worry about wolves or bandits.
I don’t know who she was, but she frightened me,
said Ceara.
Who frightened you?
asked Bardan.
Ceara sat up straight and blurted out, She was tall and thin, wearing a dark cloak. She said my son would be a great warrior if she could lead him. He, his sons, and his grandsons would all be great warriors. Then you came and she disappeared.
Had you ever seen this woman before?
asked Bardan.
No, never. I thought she was a banshee, but she never wailed. She just spoke, then she was gone.
Ceara hung her head, Am I cursed?
A tear rolled down her cheek, Is my baby cursed?
Bardan thought for a minute, You’ve heard the stories about people who live in the shadows?
Ceara thought for a moment, I have, but they’re just stories. Aren’t they?
They are, to be sure,
said Bardan. Just stories, but sometimes when we sleep and dream, they can seem very real.
He noticed the wonder on Ceara’s face and continued, Scathach is a warrior woman from the Land of The Shadows. She is supposed to have taught the arts of war to great warriors, like Cu Chulainn.
I’ve heard of him also, Bardan. Is he just a story?
Some of the stories we hear are just myths. Some others are all truth and then there are those that are a little of each. As stories go from one person to another, from year to year, a little embellishment by a teller now and again, can lead to a truth becoming a myth.
"So, how much truth is there in Scathach? asked Ceara.
There may have been a woman warrior who could teach young warriors years ago, but did she make them invincible? Did she give them magical weapons?
He looked at Ceara, I don’t think so.
But my dream? That woman who threatened to take my son, what of her?
You mean, was that Scathach?
He thought for a moment, then said, If she ever was, it would have been 200 years ago or more. No, girl, anyone alive then would be long dead now.
Even a god? If she was a god, she could still be here,
said Ceara.
If and if,
laughed Bardan. Are you a Christian?
he asked looking at her.
I think so,
she replied. My mother was teaching me things she thought I should know, and she said I should be baptized soon so I could go to heaven.
She bowed her head and thought, I don’t understand all the Christian things she talked about and when she took me to hear a priest talk a few times, I didn’t understand most of what he said.
She looked at Bardan, Should I be a Christian, so I can go to heaven?
That’s something you should decide for yourself, Ceara.
Well, are you a Christian?
she queried.
I was, when my mother was living, but now, I don’t go to the churches much and I haven’t been to a mass in a few years.
He continued gently rolling the reins, steering the horse on the road and said, Christians believe there is only one god, there is no room for Scathach as a god and if she ever was a real person, she wouldn’t be one today.
Ceara sat quietly, thinking. What about Cu Chulainn?
Again, if he ever was, I don’t think he could have been as great as the stories tell,
replied Bardan. He could have killed a dog when he was known as Setanta, but there’s no way he could have defeated an army by himself at any age.
What else should I know about Cu Chulainn?
He was a great warrior, he had a harsh temper, he killed his own son not knowing it was his son and he died at an early age.
Ceara looked at Bardan. He was trained by Scathach?
she said questioningly.
That is what the legend tells us,
he replied.
She’s a tall, beautiful woman with fiery eyes and wears a dark cloak?
Some have said she is.
She wears a sword that shines even in the dark?
I’ve also heard about her sword.
Ceara stared ahead, thinking, Scathach, it was her.
She looked at Bardan, She said she would take my son and leave me to die on the day he is born.
* * *
Bardan steered his cart toward Ceann Coradh and took Ceara to an inn. He led her inside and spoke to the owner, Niall, I have a favor to ask of you, cousin.
They sat and talked for an hour, Bardan telling Niall everything he had learned from Ceara. She needs help, the kind of help you and Cairbre can give, and I cannot.
Niall looked across the room at Ceara talking with Cairbre. Look at them,
he said, talking like two old friends who haven’t seen each other in years.
Their conversation was animated, from very serious to laughter, often reaching across to touch the other’s hands and Niall knew Cairbre would happily accept this young woman into their home. There’s your answer Bardan, I think it may already be decided.
Bardan fingered his small bag of coins and took out a few pieces of copper, Take this, I wish I had more to give, but it will help
. He stood and looked outside. The sun was setting and the clouds in the sky threatened rain. He looked at Niall, Cousin, you have a guest for the night.
Cairbre led Ceara into the kitchen and said, You help me with the dinner and let those two talk.
The morning came with sunshine and a warm breeze. Tis time for me to leave,
said Bardan. He looked at Ceara, "My cousin can help you and you can help him. I’ll be back in the spring and see you then.
Ceara threw her arms around Bardan and with a tear in her eye, thanked him for all he had done for her. Your cloak—don’t forget your cloak,
she said as he moved toward his cart.
Keep it about you, girl,
said Bardan. Tis old and worn, but it’ll keep you warm and the wind off your back.
He motioned Niall to join him away from Ceara and Cairbre and told him of his meeting with this young girl and her frightening dream. She’s terrified of the Shadowy One and I tried to calm her by telling her that Scathach would have been dead long ago. She might never bring it up again, then again, she may tell everyone she meets.
He went back to his cart and before he could climb up, Ceara came up from behind, wrapped her arms around him, squeezed hard, and said, I thank you for all you’ve done for me, and I’ll repay this debt someday.
Bardan smiled, The smile on your face is more than payment. Tis not a debt, girl. It was a pleasure traveling with you.
He climbed onto the cart and pointed his horse toward Limerick.
* * *
Niall, the innkeeper was a pleasant fellow who walked with a slight limp and often favored his left arm in lifting and carrying. Cairbre was a round woman with red cheeks and brilliant blue eyes. They welcomed Ceara into their inn, their home and took to her immediately. Cairbre suggested to her husband, Ceara could help me in the kitchen, feeding our guests and when her baby arrives, it would be like our own grandchild.
Niall saw the hint of loss in his wife’s eyes and remembered their son was near to taking a wife just two years previous, before he was killed in a battle, fighting against the Dubliners. Yes,
he replied, She could be a great help.
Ceara was delighted with the opportunity to work and be useful. I’ve never cooked for a large group of people before, but I’ve hunted game and brought home deer and rabbits.
We can leave the hunting to our nephew, Brocc,
said Niall. You help in the kitchen and after the birth, perhaps you will go on the hunt with him.
Ceara worked every day, helping as she could and learning more about cooking and baking. She talked often about her wishes for her baby, I want her to learn to read and write.
Or him,
reminded Cairbre.
Ceara would smile, Yes, or him.
She hoped for a daughter and feared a son may be like his father. My baby’s father was a very violent man, a great warrior, I suppose, but with a temper that would strike fear in the devil himself.
She never told anyone other than Bardan she had been raped by a Viking raider. She allowed that her child’s father was a warrior and nothing more.
The days passed and Ceara grew ever larger, until she had difficulty standing and walking. The pain of carrying a large baby in such a small body became overwhelming. The last few weeks of her pregnancy were very difficult and Ceara could not stand or walk about. Cairbre and Niall took care of her and when the baby was ready to be born, he was almost too big for a normal delivery. The damage to Ceara’s body was more than she could tolerate, and she