Nightwatcher
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New York City, September 11, 2001. In the chaotic wake of America’s worst national nightmare, a serial killer plies his bloody trade following the terrorist attacks, operating unnoticed by everyone . . . except for one frightened woman who has seen his face.
And now Allison Taylor has become a target for a merciless predator stalking the denizens of a city on the edge . . .
Praise for Wendi Corsi Staub and the Nightwatcher novels
“Solid gold suspense . . . this one is a wild ride.” —#1 New York Times bestselling author Lee Child
“If you like Mary Higgins Clark, you’ll love Wendy Corsi Staub!” —#1 New York Times bestselling author Lisa Jackson
“Staub is boss when it comes to relaying fictionalized accounts of revulsion . . . Suspenseful, powerful, tense and—as usual—wonderfully written with an ending that will leave you guessing . . . A great read!” —Suspense Magazine
“The thrills are near constant and combined with the waking nightmare state of 9/11, result in a high-tension and deeply visceral tale that will leave readers in a crippling state of uncertainty. The fear, the paranoia, the desperation—it leaps right off the page and gets under your skin.” —Criminal Element
Nightwatcher
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Wendy Corsi Staub
USA Today and New York Times bestseller Wendy Corsi Staub is the award-winning author of more than seventy novels and has twice been nominated for the Mary Higgins Clark Award. She lives in the New York City suburbs with her husband and their two children.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5No American will ever forget the feeling of helplessness as we watched the twin towers crash to the ground in New York City. Wendy Staub has written this book in memory of those souls that were lost. She has done a fantastic job of not only portraying the events of that dreadful day but also delving into the thoughts and feelings of those that were left. In the midst of all the chaos the event incurred, the business of murder went on for the New York City Police department. Some took advantage of the situation to unleash chaos of their own agendas. A very good book and a heartfelt memorial.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I'd have given Nightwatcher a higher rating if it hadn't been written in a third-person style that I don't like. Initially, I didn't like any of the characters, either. That changed. The backdrop of 9/11 helps to explain why the murders could have taken place with less than the normal police response. There are plenty of red herrings. So many revelations left me re-evaluating what I thought would be the solution. The tension grew so that I didn't listen to the last CD for a couple of hours because I was too keyed up. I'm still not certain that Mac's wife died in the collapse of the Twin Towers. Was the suspicion about her background just another red herring? Will it be addressed in the sequel? Two things that that are quite certain by the end of book one is that the police have arrested the wrong person and Allison is still in mortal danger. I'm headed for my local library's online catalog to put book two on hold.
- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5The story itself isn't bad...the only problem is that this book is part one of a trilogy.
If the author would have written just one book (combining the three books) then I'm sure the book would have a been a really good read. I don't think that the author had to extend the story into three books, because the story itself seems to have benefited more from being contained in one book. Since "Nightwatcher" is book one of a trilogy, in this book the serial killer is not caught. The concept of a serial killer on the loose would have been better in just one book instead of extending the concept into two other books.
If you haven't read this book, then don't continue reading. If you have read this book, feel free to continue reading.
One detail on the character of Jamie that I didn't like was when the author made it seem that Jamie was a woman. I was so excited to read that maybe the serial killer was a woman because that would be an awesome twist to a story. But then it turned out that the real Jamie wasn't alive, and then later it was said that her father (Samuel) had killed her and it was actually Samuel who was pretending to be Jamie and he was the serial killer...What I'm trying to say is that it would have been better if the character of Jamie (the real Jamie) would have been introduced in a more simple manner, and not confusing the reader to think that the serial killer was a woman. The concept of Samuel pretending to be his daughter was interesting, but by then I wasn't interested in that character anymore. I would have preffered it the serial killer was a woman...and that was just because the author had made it seem that the serial killer could've been a woman.
I noticed a sort of flaw in the story...The story mentioned that Allison hit Jamie with a granite bookend. Now, when the detectives were questioning Jerry, they never thought to look for a wound in Jerry, since the story also mentioned that Jamie was in pain from getting hit by the bookend. So if Jerry was the actual killer, then the detectives should have noticed a wound on him. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Read for Fun!Overall Rating: 3.75Story Rating: 3.50Character Rating: 4.00First thought when finished: Nightwatcher is the first Wendy Corsi Staub book that I have read and it was a great mix of characters/story.What I thought of the story: Nightwatcher used one of the thriller tricks that isn't my favorite (I won't say because it will give something away) so that is why I rated the story lower. The writing was powerful and compelling. Most of the book I was trying to figure out the ins/outs and it was fun!What I thought of the characters: Nightwatcher excelled in characters. They were so well written and done that I really started counting down to the next installment already.Final thought: Wendy Corsi Staub is an excellent writer that brings a bit brilliant character writing to the thriller genre.
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Nightwatcher - Wendy Corsi Staub
PART I
I fear that all we have done
is awaken a sleeping giant
and fill him with a terrible resolve.
Admiral Yamamoto after the Pearl Harbor attack, December 7, 1941
Prologue
September 10, 2001
Quantico, Virginia
6:35 P.M.
Case closed.
Vic Shattuck clicks the mouse, and the Southside Strangler file—the one that forced him to spend the better part of August in the rainy Midwest, tracking a serial killer—disappears from the screen.
If only it were that easy to make it all go away in real life.
If you let it, this stuff will eat you up inside like cancer,
Vic’s FBI colleague Dave Gudlaug told him early in his career, and he was right.
Now Dave, who a few years ago reached the bureau’s mandatory retirement age, spends his time traveling with his wife. He claims he doesn’t miss the work.
Believe me, you’ll be ready to put it all behind you, too, when the time comes,
he promised Vic.
Maybe, but with his own retirement seven years away, Vic is in no hurry to move on. Sure, it might be nice to spend uninterrupted days and nights with Kitty, but somehow, he suspects that he’ll never be truly free of the cases he’s handled—not even those that are solved. For now, as a profiler with the Behavioral Science Unit, he can at least do his part to rid the world of violent offenders.
You’re still here, Shattuck?
He looks up to see Special Agent Annabelle Wyatt. With her long legs, almond-shaped dark eyes, and flawless ebony skin, she looks like a supermodel—and acts like one of the guys.
Not in a let’s-hang-out-and-have-a-few-laughs way; in a let’s-cut-the-bullshit-and-get-down-to-business way.
She briskly hands Vic a folder. Take a look at this and let me know what you think.
Now?
She clears her throat. It’s not urgent, but . . .
Yeah, right. With Annabelle, everything is urgent.
Unless you were leaving . . .
She pauses, obviously waiting for him to tell her that he’ll take care of it before he goes.
I was.
Without even glancing at the file, Vic puts it on top of his in-box. The day’s been long enough and he’s more than ready to head home.
Kitty is out at her book club tonight, but that’s okay with him. She called earlier to say she was leaving a macaroni and cheese casserole in the oven. The homemade kind, with melted cheddar and buttery breadcrumb topping.
Better yet, both his favorite hometown teams—the New York Yankees and the New York Giants—are playing tonight. Vic can hardly wait to hit the couch with a fork in one hand and the TV remote control in the other.
All right, then.
Annabelle turns to leave, then turns back. Oh, I heard about Chicago. Nice work. You got him.
"You mean her."
Annabelle shrugs. "How about it?"
"It. Yeah, that works."
Over the course of Vic’s career, he hasn’t seen many true cases of MPD—multiple personality disorder—but this was one of them.
The elusive Southside Strangler turned out to be a woman named Edie . . . who happened to live inside a suburban single dad named Calvin Granger.
Last June, Granger had helplessly watched his young daughter drown in a fierce Lake Michigan undertow. Unable to swim, he was incapable of saving her.
Weeks later, mired in frustration and anguish and the brunt of his grieving ex-wife’s fury, he picked up a hooker. That was not unusual behavior for him. What happened after that was.
The woman’s nude, mutilated body was found just after dawn in Washington Park, electrical cable wrapped around her neck. A few days later, another corpse turned up in the park. And then a third.
Streetwalking and violent crime go hand in hand; the Southside’s slain hookers were, sadly, business as usual for the jaded cops assigned to that particular case.
For urban reporters, as well. Chicago was in the midst of a series of flash floods this summer; the historic weather eclipsed the coverage of the Southside Strangler in the local press. That, in retrospect, was probably a very good thing. The media spotlight tends to feed a killer’s ego—and his bloodlust.
Only when the Strangler claimed a fourth victim—an upper-middle-class mother of three living a respectable lifestyle—did the case become front-page news. That was when the cops called in the FBI.
For Vic, every lost life carries equal weight. His heart went out to the distraught parents he met in Chicago, parents who lost their daughters twice: first to drugs and the streets, and ultimately to the monster who murdered them.
The monster, like most killers, had once been a victim himself.
It was a textbook case: Granger had been severely abused—essentially tortured—as a child. The MPD was, in essence, a coping mechanism. As an adult, he suffered occasional, inexplicable episodes of amnesia, particularly during times of overwhelming stress.
He genuinely seemed to have no memory of anything he
had said or done while Edie or one of the other, nonviolent alters—alternative personalities—were in control of him.
By the way,
Annabelle cuts into Vic’s thoughts, I hear birthday wishes are in order.
Surprised, he tells her, Actually, it was last month—while I was in Chicago.
Ah, so your party was belated, then.
His party. This past Saturday night, Kitty surprised him by assembling over two dozen guests—family, friends, colleagues—at his favorite restaurant near Dupont Circle.
Feeling a little guilty that Annabelle wasn’t invited, he informs her, "I wouldn’t call it a party. It was more like . . . it was just dinner, really. My wife planned it."
But then, even if Vic himself had been in charge of the guest list, Supervisory Special Agent Wyatt would not have been on it.
Some of his colleagues are also personal friends. She isn’t one of them.
It’s not that he has anything against no-nonsense women. Hell, he married one.
And he respects Annabelle just as much as—or maybe even more than—just about anyone else here. He just doesn’t necessarily like her much—and he suspects the feeling is mutual.
I hear that it was an enjoyable evening,
she tells him with a crisp nod, and he wonders if she’s wistful. She doesn’t sound it—or look it. But for the first time, it occurs to Vic that her apparent social isolation might not always be by choice.
He shifts his weight in his chair. It’s my wife’s thing, really. Kitty’s big on celebrations. She’ll go all out for any occasion. Years ago, she threw a party when she potty trained the twins.
As soon as the words are out of his mouth, he wants to take them back—and not just because mere seconds ago he was insisting that Saturday night was not a party. Annabelle isn’t the kind of person with whom you discuss children, much less potty training them. She doesn’t have a family, but if she did, Vic is certain she’d keep the details—particularly the bathroom details—to herself.
Well, too bad. I’m a family man.
After Annabelle bids him a stiff good night and disappears down the corridor, Vic shifts his gaze to the framed photos on his desk. One is of him and Kitty on their twenty-fifth wedding anniversary last year; the other, more recent, shows Vic with all four of the kids at the high school graduation last June of his twin daughters.
The girls left for college a few weeks ago. He and Kitty are empty-nesters now—well, Kitty pretty much rules the roost, as she likes to say, since Vic is gone so often.
So which is it—a nest or a roost?
he asked her the other day, to which she dryly replied, Neither. It’s a coop, and you’ve been trying to fly it for years, but you just keep right on finding your way back, don’t you.
She was teasing, of course. No one supports Vic’s career as wholeheartedly as Kitty does, no matter how many nights it’s taken him away from home over the years. It was her idea in the first place that he put aside his planned career as a psychiatrist in favor of the FBI.
All because of a series of murders that terrorized New York thirty years ago, and captivated a young local college psych major.
Back when I first met him, Vic was obsessed with unsolved murders,
Kitty announced on Saturday night when she stood up to toast him at his birthday dinner, and since then, he’s done an incredible job solving hundreds of them.
True—with one notable exception.
Years ago, the New York killings stopped abruptly. Vic would like to think it’s because the person who committed them is no longer on this earth.
If by chance he is, then he’s almost certainly been sidelined by illness or incarceration for some unrelated crime.
After all, while there are exceptions to every rule, most serial killers don’t just stop. Everything Vic has learned over the years about their habits indicates that once something triggers a person to cross the fine line that divides disturbed human beings from cunning predators, he’s compelled to keep feeding his dark fantasies until, God willing, something—or someone—stops him.
In a perfect world, Vic is that someone.
But then, a perfect world wouldn’t be full of disturbed people who are, at any given moment, teetering on the brink of reality.
Typically, all it takes is a single life stressor to push one over the edge. It can be any devastating event, really—a car accident, job loss, bankruptcy, a terminal diagnosis, a child’s drowning . . .
Stressors like those can create considerable challenges for a mentally healthy person. But when fate inflicts that kind of pressure on someone who’s already dangerously unbalanced . . . well, that’s how killers are born.
Though Vic has encountered more than one homicidal maniac whose spree began with a wife’s infidelity, the triggering crisis doesn’t necessarily have to hit close to home. Even a natural disaster can be prime breeding ground.
A few years ago in Los Angeles, a seemingly ordinary man—a fine, upstanding Boy Scout leader—went off the deep end after the Northridge earthquake leveled his apartment building. Voices in his head told him to kill three strangers in the aftermath, telling him they each, in turn, were responsible for the destruction of his home.
Seemingly ordinary. Ah, you just never know. That’s what makes murderers—particularly serial murderers—so hard to catch. They aren’t always troubled loners; sometimes they’re hiding in plain sight: regular people, married with children, holding steady jobs . . .
And sometimes, they’re suffering from a mental disorder that plenty of people—including some in the mental health profession—don’t believe actually exists.
Before Vic left Chicago, as he was conducting a jailhouse interview with Calvin Granger, Edie took over Calvin’s body.
The transition occurred without warning, right before Vic’s incredulous eyes. Everything about the man changed—not just his demeanor, but his physical appearance and his voice. A doctor was called in, and attested that even biological characteristics like heart rate and vision had been altered. Calvin could see twenty-twenty. Edie was terribly nearsighted. Stunning.
It wasn’t that Calvin believed he was an entirely different person, a woman named Edie—he was Edie. Calvin had disappeared into some netherworld, and when he returned, he had no inkling of what had just happened, or even that time had gone by.
The experience would have convinced even a die-hard skeptic, and it chilled Vic to the bone.
Case closed, yes—but this one is going to give him nightmares for a long time to come.
Vic tidies his desk and finds himself thinking fondly of the old days at the bureau—and a colleague who was Annabelle Wyatt’s polar opposite.
John O’Neill became an agent around the same time Vic did. Their career paths, however, took them in different directions: Vic settled in with the BSU, while O’Neill went from Quantico to Chicago and back, then on to New York, where he eventually became chief of the counterterrorism unit. Unfortunately, his career with the bureau ended abruptly a few weeks ago amid a cloud of controversy following the theft—on his watch—of a briefcase containing sensitive documents.
When it happened, Vic was away. Feeling the sudden urge to reconnect, he searches through his desk for his friend’s new phone number, finds it, dials it. A secretary and then an assistant field the call, and finally, John comes on the line.
Hey, O’Neill,
Vic says, I just got back from Chicago and I’ve been thinking about you.
Shattuck! How the hell are you? Happy birthday. Sorry I couldn’t make it Saturday night.
Yeah, well . . . I’m sure you have a good excuse.
Valerie dragged me to another wedding. You know how that goes.
Yeah, yeah . . . how’s the new job?
Cushy,
quips O’Neill, now chief of security at the World Trade Center in New York City. How’s the big 5–0?
Not cushy. You’ll find out soon enough, won’t you?
February. Don’t remind me.
Vic shakes his head, well aware that turning fifty, after everything O’Neill has dealt with in recent months, will be a mere blip.
They chat for a few minutes, catching up, before O’Neill says, Listen, I’ve got to get going. Someone’s waiting for me.
Business or pleasure?
My business is always a pleasure, Vic. Don’t you know that by now?
Where are you off to tonight?
I’m having drinks with Bob Tucker at Windows on the World to talk about security for this place, and it’s a Monday night, so . . .
Elaine’s.
Vic is well aware of his friend’s long-standing tradition.
Right. How about you?
It’s a Monday night, so—
Football.
Yeah. I’ve got a date with the couch and remote. Giants are opening their season—and the Yankees are playing the Red Sox, too. Clemens is pitching. Looks like I’ll be channel surfing.
I wouldn’t get too excited about that baseball game if I were you, Vic. It’s like a monsoon here.
A rained out Yankees-Red Sox game on one of Vic’s rare nights at home in front of the TV would be a damned shame. Especially since he made a friendly little wager with Rocky Manzillo, his lifelong friend, who had made the trip down from New York this weekend for Vic’s birthday dinner.
Always a guy who liked to rock the boat, Rocky is also a lifelong Red Sox fan, despite having grown up in Yankees territory. He still lives there, too—he’s a detective with the NYPD.
In the grand scheme of Vic Shattuck’s life, old pals and baseball rivalries and homemade macaroni casseroles probably matter more than they should. He’s rarely around to enjoy simple pleasures. When he is, they help him forget that somewhere out there, a looming stressor is going to catapult yet another predator from the shadows to wreak violent havoc on innocent lives.
September 10, 2001
New York City
6:40 P.M.
"Hey, watch where you’re going!"
Unfazed by the disgruntled young punk, Jamie continues shoving through the sea of pedestrians, baby carriages, and umbrellas, trying to make it to the corner before the light changes.
Around the slow-moving elderly couple, the dog on a leash, a couple of puddle-splashing kids in bright yellow slickers and rubber boots . . .
Failing to make the light, Jamie silently curses them all. Or maybe not silently, because a prim-looking woman flashes a disapproving look. Hand coiled into a fist, Jamie stands waiting in the rain, watching endless traffic zip past.
The subway would have been the best way to go, but there were track delays. And God knows you can’t get a stinking cab in Manhattan in weather like this.
Why does everything have to be such a struggle here?
Everything, every day.
A few feet away, a passing SUV blasts its deafening horn.
Noise . . .
Traffic . . .
People . . .
How much more can I take?
Jamie rakes a hand through drenched hair and fights the reckless urge to cross against the light.
That’s what it’s been about lately. Reckless urges. Day in, day out.
For so long, I’ve been restrained by others; now that I’m free, I have to constantly restrain myself? It’s so unfair.
Why can’t I just cross the damned street and go where I need to go?
Why can’t I just do whatever the hell I feel like doing? I’ve earned it, haven’t I?
Jamie steps off the curb and hears someone call, Hey, look out!
just before a monstrous double city bus blows past, within arm’s reach.
Geez, close call.
Jamie doesn’t acknowledge the bystander’s voice; doesn’t move, just stands staring into the streaming gutter.
It would be running red with blood if you got hit.
Or if someone else did.
It would be so easy to turn around, pick out some random stranger, and with a quick, hard shove, end that person’s life. Jamie could do that. It would happen so unexpectedly no one would be able to stop it.
Jamie can feel all those strangers standing there, close enough to touch.
Which of them would you choose?
The prune-faced, disapproving biddy?
One of the splashing kids?
The elderly woman, or her husband?
Just imagine the victim, the chosen one, crying out in surprise, helplessly falling, getting slammed by several tons of speeding steel and dying right there in the gutter.
Yes, blood in the gutter.
Eyes closed, Jamie can see it clearly—so much blood at first, thick and red right here where the accident will happen. But then the gutter water will sweep it along, thin it out as it merges with wide, deep puddles and with falling rain, spread it in rivulets that will reach like fingers down alleys and streets . . .
Imagine all the horror-struck onlookers, the traumatized driver of the death car, the useless medics who will rush to the scene and find that there’s nothing they can do . . .
Nothing anyone can do.
And somewhere, later, phones will ring as family members and friends get the dreaded call.
Just think of all the people who will be touched—tainted—by the blood in the street, by that one simple act.
I can do that.
I can choose someone to die.
I’ve done it before—twice.
Ah, but not really. Technically, Jamie didn’t do the choosing. Both victims—the first ten years ago, the second, maybe ten days ago—had done the choosing; they’d chosen to commit the heinous acts that had sealed their own fates. Jamie merely saw that they got what they deserved.
This time, though, it would have to be different. It would have to be a stranger.
Would it be as satisfying to snuff out a life that has no real meaning in your own?
Would it be even better?
Would it—
Someone jostles Jamie from behind.
The throng is pressing forward. The traffic has stopped moving past; the light has changed.
Jamie crosses the street, hand still clenched into an angry fist.
Chapter One
September 10, 2001
New York City
7:19 P.M.
Allison Taylor has lived in Manhattan for three years now.
That’s long enough to know that the odds are stacked against finding a taxi at the rainy tail end of rush hour—especially here, a stone’s throw from the Bryant Park tents in the midst of Fashion Week.
Yet she perches beneath a soggy umbrella on the curb at the corner of Forty-second and Fifth, searching the sea of oncoming yellow cabs, hoping to find an on-duty/unoccupied dome light.
Unlikely, yes.
But impossible? The word is overused, in her opinion. If she weren’t the kind of woman who stubbornly challenges anything others might deem impossible, then she wouldn’t be here in New York in the first place.
How many people back in her tiny Midwestern hometown told her it would be impossible for a girl like her to merely survive the big, cruel city, let alone succeed in the glamorous, cutthroat fashion publishing industry?
A girl like her . . .
Impoverished, from a broken home with a suicidal drug addict for a mother. A girl who never had a chance—but took one anyway.
And just look at me now.
After putting herself through the Art Institute of Pittsburgh and working her way from an unpaid postcollege internship at Condé Nast on up through the editorial ranks at 7th Avenue magazine, Allison finally loves her life—cab shortages, rainy days, and all.
Sometimes, she allows herself to fantasize about going back to Centerfield to show them all how wrong they were. The neighbors, the teachers, the pursed-lipped church ladies, the mean girls at school and their meaner mothers—everyone who ever looked at her with scorn or even pity; everyone who ever whispered behind her back.
They didn’t understand about Mom—about how much she loved Allison, how hard she tried, when she wasn’t high, to be a good mother. Only the one girl Allison considered a true friend, her next-door neighbor Tammy Connolly, seemed to understand. She, too, had a single mom for whom the townspeople had disdain. Tammy’s mother was a brassy blonde whose skirts were too short, whose perfume was too strong, whose voice was too loud.
Tammy had her own cross to bear, as the church ladies would say. Everyone did. Mom was Allison’s—hers alone—and she dealt with it pretty much single-handedly until the day it ceased to exist.
But going back to Centerfield—even to have the last laugh—would mean facing memories. And who needs those?
Memories are good for nothin’,
Mom used to say, after Allison’s father left them. It’s better to just forget about all the things you can’t change.
True—but Mom couldn’t seem to change what was happening to them in the present—or what the future might hold.
Weakness is my weakness,
Brenda once told a drug counselor. Allison overheard, and those pathetic words made her furious, even then.
Now Mom, too, is in the past.
Yes. Always better to forget.
Anyway, even if Allison wanted to revisit Centerfield, the town is truly the middle of nowhere: a good thirty miles from the nearest dive motel and at least three or four times as far from any semi-decent hotel.
Sometimes, though, she pictures herself doing it: flying to Omaha, renting a car, driving out across miles of nothing to . . .
More nothing.
Her one friend, Tammy, moved away long before Mom died seven years ago, and of course, Dad had left years before that, when she was nine.
Allison remembers the morning she woke up and went running to the kitchen to tell her mother that she’d dreamed she had a sister. She was certain it meant that her mom was going to have another baby.
But that couldn’t have been farther from the truth. In the kitchen, she found the note her father had left.
Can’t do this anymore. I’m sorry. Good-bye.
God only knows where he wound up. Allison’s only sibling, her half brother, Brett, wanted to find him for her sake after Mom died.
Well, if you do, I don’t want to hear about it. I never want to hear his name again,
she said when her brother brought it up at the funeral.
It was the same thing her mother had told her after her father left. Mom considered Allison’s deadbeat dad good for nothin’—just like memories. True as that might have been, Allison couldn’t stand the way the townspeople whispered about her father running off.
The best thing about living in New York is the live-and-let-live attitude. Everyone is free to do his or her own thing; no one judges or even pays much attention to anyone else. For Allison, after eighteen years of small-town living and a couple more in college housing, anonymity is a beautiful thing. Certainly well worth every moment of urban inconvenience.
She surveys the traffic-clogged avenue through a veil of drenching rain, thinking she should probably just take the subway down to the Marc Jacobs show at the Pier. It’s cheaper, arguably faster, and more reliable than finding a cab.
But she’s wearing a brand-new pair of Gallianos, and her feet—after four straight days of runway shows and parties—are killing her. No, she doesn’t feel up to walking to Grand Central and then through the tunnels at Union Square to transfer to the crosstown line, much less negotiating all those station stairs on both ends.
Not that she much likes standing here in the deluge, vainly waiting for a cab, but . . .
Lesser of the evils, right?
Maybe not. She jumps back as a passing panel truck sends a wave of gray-brown gutter water over the curb.
Dammit!
Allison looks down at her soaked shoes—and then up again, just in time to see a yellow cab pulling over for the trench-coated, briefcase-carrying man who just strode past her, taxi-hailing arm in the air.
Hey!
she calls, and he glances back over his shoulder. I’ve been standing here for twenty minutes!
More like five, but that’s beside the point. She was here first. That’s her cab.
Okay, in the grand scheme of Manhattan life, maybe that’s not quite how it works.
Maybe it’s more . . . if you snooze, you lose.
And I snoozed.
Still . . .
She’s in a fighting mood. The Jacobs show is huge. Everyone who’s anyone in the industry will be there. This is her first year as—well, maybe not a Somebody, but no longer a Nobody.
There’s a seat for her alongside the runway—well, maybe not right alongside it, but somewhere—and she has to get to the Pier. Now.
She fully expects the businessman to ignore her. But his eyes flick up and down, taking in her long, blond-streaked hair, long legs, and short pink skirt. Yeah—he’s totally checking her out.
She’s used to that reaction from men on the street.
Men anywhere, really. Even back home in Centerfield, when she was scarcely more than a kid—and still a brunette—Allison attracted her share of male attention, most of it unwanted.
But as a grown woman in the big city, she’s learned to use it to her advantage on certain occasions.
Oh hell . . . the truth is, she made the most of it even back in Nebraska. But she doesn’t let herself think about that.
Memories are good for nothin’, Allison. Don’t you ever forget it.
No, Mom. I won’t. I’ll never forget it.
Where are you headed?
The man reaches back to open the car door, his gaze still fixed on her.
Pier 54. It’s on the river at—
I know where it is. Go ahead. Get in.
She hesitates only a split second before hurrying over to the cab, quickly folding her umbrella, and slipping past the man—a total stranger, she reminds herself—into the backseat.
A stranger. So? The city is full of strangers. That’s why she moved here, leaving behind a town populated by know-it-all busybodies.
Anyway, it’s not the middle of the night, and the driver is here, and what’s going to happen?
You’re going to make it to the Marc Jacobs show, something you’ve been waiting for all summer.
After the show there’s an after-party to launch Jacobs’s new signature fragrance. It’s the hottest ticket in town tonight, and Allison Taylor is invited.
No way is she going to miss this—or arrive looking like a drowned rat.
She puts her dripping umbrella on the floor as the stranger climbs in after her and closes the door.
I’m going to Brooklyn—take the Williamsburg Bridge,
he tells the driver, but first she needs to get off at Thirteenth and West.
"Wait—that’s way out of your way," Allison protests.
It’s okay. You’re obviously in a hurry.
No, I know, but . . .
Jacobs is notorious for starting late. She can wait for another cab.
It’s fine.
Never mind,
she says, unsettled by this stranger’s willingness to accommodate her. What, she wonders uneasily, does he expect in return? Listen, I’ll just—
"No, I mean it. It’s fine." He motions at the cabbie, who shrugs, starts the meter, and inches them out into the downtown