Breakheart Hill
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Ben Wade is a middle-aged doctor in Choctaw County, Alabama, and back in 1962 he dreamed of spending the rest of his life with Kelli Troy. But he never had the chance to confess his love for Kelli before her body was found on Breakheart Hill. Decades later, the small town is still haunted by that violent death—especially Ben. He’s never been able to move on, because he’s the only one who knows what really happened that summer afternoon . . .
“A haunting evocation that gains power and resonance with each twist of its spiral-like narration.” —Publishers Weekly
“A climax that is so unexpected the reader may think [Cook] has cheated. But there is no cheating here, only excellent storytelling.” —Booklist
“Cook has long been one of my favorite writers.” —Harlan Coben, New York Times–bestselling author of Hold Tight
“[A] masterful crime novelist.” —Toronto Star
Thomas H. Cook
THOMAS H. COOK was born in Fort Payne, Alabama. He has been nominated for Edgar Awards seven times in five different categories. He received the Best Novel Edgar, the Barry for Best Novel, and has been nominated for numerous other awards.
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5An excellent suspense novel where love is central theme and Cook has been able to add believable characters around it, how their lives spiral out of control when a stray remark born out of hate changes everything in poetic,literary,atmospheric prose. A small town and high school life told through memories of various characters with needle of suspicion shifting from character to character.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Town doctor Ben Wade narrates the sad history of Kelly Troy, a bright, intelligent girl who moves into a small Southern community, both shocking it with her outspoken views on segregation and charming it with her natural vivacity before she is tragically attacked on top of Breakheart Hill. Ben falls deeply in love with her, and author Thomas H. Cook is very good at depicting the black mood he falls into when his love is not returned. The narrative moves back and forth in time, skillfully manipulating our expectations. I thought I knew what had happened, became increasingly sure of it as the novel progressed, then had to revise my beliefs when I came to the final devastating pages. This is a excellent suspense novel.
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Breakheart Hill - Thomas H. Cook
PART ONE
CHAPTER 1
This is the darkest story that I ever heard. And all my life I have labored not to tell it.
It goes with gray clouds and heavy rain, and when I remember it, I see her feet running over sodden ground. But actually the sun was full and bright the day it happened, and the kudzu vines they found tangled around her legs were thick and green at the end of a long spring growth. In fact, the vegetation had become so thick on the mountainside by then that even from a short distance it would have been hard to hear all that went on that afternoon, all that was said and done.
And yet there are times when I do hear certain things very distinctly: her body plunging through the undergrowth, birds fluttering from their nests, a frantic scurrying through the leaves and shrubs as small landbound creatures rush away, panicked by the same alarm that has disturbed the birds.
From time to time, though rarely, I actually hear her voice. It is faint, but persistent. Sometimes it comes in the form of a question: Why are you doing this to me?
Since then there have been many summers as beautiful as that one more than thirty years ago, and yet there is none I can recall as vividly. I remember the way the azaleas had flowered in a fiery brilliance, their red and white blooms like small explosions just above the ground, how delicate pink fluffs had hung from the mimosas, how even the great magnolias appeared to strain beneath their burden of unscented blooms. More than anything, I remember how the violets had overflowed every garden wall and window box, flooding the town with a torrent of purple flowers and filling the air with their powdery, sweet smell.
Many times during the years that have passed since then, my friend Luke Duchamp has commented on how exquisite the world seemed that afternoon. He means the flowers, of course, but there has always been an edgy tension, a sense of unanswered questions, couched within his description of that resplendent summer day.
He last mentioned it only a few days ago, and as he did so, I once again felt the truth approach me like a dark figure, grim, threatening, determined to do me harm. We’d just come from one of the many funerals that punctuate small-town life, though this one had been more significant than most, since it was Kelli’s mother who had died. We had attended it together, then returned to my house to have a glass of tea, the two of us sitting on my front porch as the sun slowly lowered over the distant range of mountains.
Luke took a quick sip from the glass, then let it drift down toward his lap. He looked thoughtful, but agitated as well, his mind no doubt recalling what he’d seen so long ago. It’s still hard to believe that someone could do something like that,
he said.
He meant to Kelli Troy, of course, and so I answered with my stock reply. Yes, it is.
His eyes were fixed on the high wall of the mountain, as if clinging to it for support, and his face took on that odd stillness that always comes over it when he begins to think about it all again. Hard to believe,
he repeated after a moment.
I nodded silendy, unable to add anything further, unable, despite all these many years, to relieve the burden of his doubt, offer him that truth which is said to set us free.
An awful thing for a teenage boy to see,
he added quietly.
In my mind I saw Kelli’s body as Luke had seen it, lying facedown on the forest floor, her long, curly hair splayed out around her head, a single arm reaching up toward the crest of the slope. I could hear Mr. Bailey’s voice ring out as he’d displayed the last photograph to the jury. This is what was done to her.
And as I recalled it all, I felt that Luke was right, that it was hard to believe that such a thing could have happened, that she could have ended up in such disarray, with her white dress soiled and her hair littered with debris, her right arm stretched out, palm down, fingers curled, as if she were still crawling desperately up the slope.
I still can’t imagine why,
Luke said softly, though not exactly to himself. His eyes shot over to me. Can you, Ben?
His eyes were motionless as they stared at me, and I knew that I had to answer quickly in order to deflect all those other questions that have taunted him through the years, colored his view of life, darkening its atmosphere.
Hate,
I said.
It was the same answer Mr. Bailey had given so many years before, and I could easily remember the way he’d held the photograph up before the jury, his words washing over them, high and passionate, filled with his righteous anger. This is what was done to her. Only hate can do a thing like this.
Luke continued to watch me steadily. Maybe so,
he said. But you know, Ben, I’ve never quite believed that explanation.
Why not?
Because there wasn’t all that much hate,
Luke said. Even here. Even then.
Here. Then. Choctaw, Alabama. May 1962.
At those times when I feel night come toward me like something closing in for the kill, I recall that vanished time and place. In memory, it seems kinder than the one that followed it, but I know that it was not. It was closed and narrow, a smalltown world where nothing towered above us but the mountains and the churchhouse spires, nor loomed in distances more vast than those that separated us from the next village streets. Most of the seven thousand people who lived in Choctaw had either been born at the local hospital or in one of the hundreds of farmhouses that spread out along the valley on either side of the town. It was a Protestant world, entirely without Catholics or Jews, a white world despite the small black population that lived, as if in a vague netherworld, on the far side of town. More than anything, it was a world in which we trusted only people exactly like ourselves. And so, when I imagine Kelli plunging through the green, I sometimes see her not as she was that day, a young girl running desperately from the sudden violence of a single person, but as a stranger, wrongly accused and set upon by a huge, howling mob.
Or perhaps that is only how I wish to see it, a single victim, but a world of blame.
Luke placed the glass on the small wooden table beside his chair, pulled his old briar pipe from his shirt pocket and began to fill it with tobacco. You remember the first time we saw her, Ben?
he asked.
Yes,
I said. I knew he meant the time in the park, the time he’d seen Kelli for the first time. But I had seen her long before that, as a little girl, when she’d come into my father’s grocery with her mother.
I’m Miss Troy
were the first words Kelli’s mother said to my father. She was a tall, slender woman with pale skin, light brown hair and an air of nervous distraction about her, as if she were continually trying to recall where she’d mislaid her keys. She flopped her shiny black purse onto the counter as she spoke, and it lay there like a dead bird between herself and my father. Overhead an old ceiling fan whirled slowly in the summer heat, and I remember that its breeze gently rustled through her hair.
I’m Miss Troy,
she said, emphasizing the Miss,
though without explanation, even after she’d added, And this is my daughter, Kelli.
It was the summer of 1952, long before much had really changed in the South, and a woman with a young daughter and no husband was not a common sight in a town like ours, where the Confederate battle flag still waved above the courthouse lawn, and the older ways of life it represented, a strict moral and social code, personal reticence, a world order that was essentially Victorian, still held sway. Miss Troy had clearly broken with that world, not only in having borne a child without a husband, but in declaring it so bluntly.
Nice to meet you, ma’am
was all my father said. Then he smiled that quiet, knowing smile of his, the one that seemed to accept life on its own terms rather than as something that had somehow broken its promise to him. And what can I do for you, Miss Troy?
he added.
I’d like to buy a few things,
Miss Troy answered. I’d like to put the bill on my mother’s account.
She said it almost sharply, her eyes still fixed on my father’s face, as if expecting him to turn her down. My mother’s not well and I’m down here to see after her for a while.
My father nodded, then glanced down at Kelli. Mighty pretty little girl you got there,
he said gently. How old is she?
Six,
Miss Troy answered matter-of-factly.
My father pointed to me. This is my son. Name’s Ben. He’s the same age as your little girl.
Thelma Troy, that’s my mother,
Miss Troy said briskly. She says you know her.
Yes, ma’am, I do.
Do you need to see some identification for me to put things on her account?
The question seemed to surprise my father. Identification? What for?
So you’ll know I’m really her daughter.
My father looked at her curiously, in wonder at such cold formality. No, ma’am, I don’t need to see any identification.
Miss Troy gave him a doubtful glance. So I can go ahead and do my shopping now? You don’t need to check anything?
My father shook his head. I’m sure you’re who you say you are, Miss Troy.
Well, thank you, then,
Miss Troy said, still a little coolly, but with some part of my father’s trust already warming her.
She went directly to her shopping after that, tugging Kelli along with her as she made her way down one of the aisles.
From the front of the store, I watched as the two of them moved among the canned goods and stacks of paper products. From time to time, Kelli would glance back at me, her face half hidden in the black curls of her hair. She was darker than her mother, with nearly black eyes, and she wore a white dress that had small green lines scattered across it so that, at first, I thought she must have been rolling in new-mown grass. But more than anything, I noticed how directly she stared at me, as if she were expecting me to challenge her in some way, demand something she had already determined to refuse.
Hi,
I said as she passed by.
She did not answer but only continued to watch me closely, her eyes evaluating me with what even then I sensed to be a fierce intelligence.
They left a few minutes later, Miss Troy holding her groceries in one hand and tugging Kelli along with the other, both of them passing quickly through the store’s old screen door, letting it fly back with a loud pop.
With a little boy’s purposeless curiosity, I followed after them, and stood on the wooden porch, my small hands sunk deep into the pockets of my faded blue overalls, watching them go.
They’d come in a dusty red pickup truck with black-wall tires and a rusty grille, an old model, scarcely seen anymore, with the headlights mounted on the front fenders, like frog’s eyes. Kelli sat on the passenger side, of course, the window rolled down so that I could see her slender arm as it dangled outside the door. When it pulled away, she glanced back at me, her face still locked in an odd concentration, earnest and unsmiling.
It is the absence of that smile that most haunts me now, and each time I recall it, I remember how serious she appeared even at that early age, how guarded and mistrustful, and how, years later, at the instant of her destruction, all the trust and belonging she had come to feel during the previous year must have seemed to explode before her eyes.
Within an instant, she was gone.
I remained on the porch, my hands still in my pockets, toying with one of the assortment of dime-store clickers I’d collected over the years. I was always clicking them, using them, as I realize now, to click away boredom, loneliness, fear. At night I clicked away the darkness. Alone in my backyard I clicked up imaginary friends. I suppose that as I stood on the store’s front porch that afternoon, I half believed that with a single innocent and fantastic click I could bring Kelli Troy back to me.
Such a wonder does not exist, of course. Only memory does, the standing miracle of life. And so, despite the passage of over thirty years, the slightest thing can still return her to me. Sometimes, for example, I will glance out my office window, fix my eyes upon the gray upper slope of Breakheart Hill, and recall the many times I’d wanted to take her up that same hill and lie down with her. I had dreamed of it quite often during the time I knew her, and it was always the same dream, delicate enough, and tender, but unmistakably sensual as well. I would take her to the crest of Breakheart Hill, lower her upon a dark red blanket, and as the music swelled to a thrilling height, we would come together in that passionate embrace I’d seen in countless movies, a touch I had never felt, though many times imagined.
But nothing like that ever happened on Breakheart Hill. Something else did. Something that continually weaves through my consciousness, slithering into my mind from this corner or that, but always returning me to the past with a terrible immediacy, as if it had all happened yesterday and I was still reeling from the shock.
At times it begins with Sheriff Stone standing before me, his eyes slowly scanning the bare concrete walls of the little office where I worked on the high school newspaper. At other occasions it has begun with the sound of my father calling to me from the mountain road, his tall figure veiled in thick gray lines of rain. It has begun with my being ushered into a musty, cluttered room, an old woman’s voice coming from behind, ancient, gravelly, and unspeakably ironic in what she says to me. Thank you, Ben, for doing this.
At still other times it comes to me in a dream of that last day. It is midafternoon, and a breeze is rustling through the grass of my front yard. Across the way, my neighbor’s son blows a dandelion into the shimmering air, and suddenly in my mind I see Luke’s old truck come to a stop on the mountainside. He takes off his blue baseball cap and wipes his brow. He says, You sure?
She says, Don’t worry, Luke.
Then she smiles at him and gets out of the truck. He lingers a moment, reluctant to leave her. Go on, Luke,
she tells him. He nods, jerks into gear, then pulls away, the old truck lumbering down the hill toward town, a puff of blue smoke streaming from its dusty tailpipe. She watches him from her place at the edge of the mountain road, her hand lifted in a final wave, her bare arm weaving like a brown reed against the green wall of the mountain. She smiles slightly, as if to reassure him that she is safe from harm. Then she turns away and heads down the slope toward Breakheart Hill, disappearing finally into a web of trees.
Sometimes the dream ends there, too, with a faint smile still lingering on her lips. At other times, however, it goes on irrevocably, step by step, all the way to the instant when I see her body as it crashes through the dense forest growth, her legs torn by briar and shrubs, her face slapped mercilessly by low-slung branches. She runs desperately, dazed and terrified, her body bent forward as she rushes back up the steep grade of Breakheart Hill. At times she stumbles, her fingers clawing madly at the rocky ground until she pulls herself to her feet again and struggles forward, staggering up the slope, toward the point where the high ridge levels off at the mountain road, where she hopes Luke, by some miracle, may have returned for her. She is almost there when she falls, exhausted, unable to move. In the last moments, I see her face pressed hard against the ground, her snarled hair littered with bits of leaves. I see the shadow fall over her, watch her face twist around surreally, rotating slowly into an impossible angle. It is then that her eyes lift toward me. They are filled with a dark amazement, staring at me questioningly until the lights within them suddenly blink out.
And I wake up. I recognize my house, the wife who sleeps trustfully beside me, the adoring daughter whose picture hangs on the wall a few feet from my bed. In the darkness, I glance about silently, my eyes taking in the surrounding room. Everything appears steady, ordered, predictable, the night table in its proper place, the mirror where it has always been. Beyond the window, the street remains well lighted, the road straight and sure. All that lies outside of me, the whole external world, seems clean and clear compared to the boiling muck within. My house, my family and friends, the little valley town I have lived in all my life, I can maneuver my way among all these things as smoothly as a fish skirts along the bottom of a crystal stream. It is only within me that the water turns murky, thickens and grows more airless each time I relive that long-ago summer day.
But I relive it anyway, my mood darkening with each return, a descent that confuses those who have lived with me these many years, particularly my wife, who senses that on those occasions when I grow distant and walled in, it is because something inexpressible has tightened its grip on me. Oddly enough, it is also at those moments when she seems to renew her attraction for me, as if, at its heart, gravity were romantic, that perhaps even more than youth or beauty, it has the power to rekindle love. And it is at that instant, perhaps more than any other, as my wife lies naked at my side, that Kelli Troy returns to me. Not as a body lying in a rippling pool of vines, but as she was while she was still herself, young and vibrant, filled with the high expectations that ennobled and inflamed her. And I see her on the mountainside, her body sheathed in green, balanced like a delicate white vase on the crest of Breakheart Hill.
I think that it is in this pose that Luke most often sees her, too, a vision that inevitably prompts one of the many questions that have lingered in his mind through the years, and which from time to time, when we are alone together, he will voice suddenly, his eyes drifting toward me as he speaks. What was Kelli doing on Breakheart Hill that day? What was she looking for in those deep woods alone?
CHAPTER 2
But that afternoon, as we sat on the porch together, Luke had a different question, one that, in its own peculiar way, I found far more threatening.
Have you ever told Amy about what happened on Breakheart Hill?
he asked.
He meant my daughter, who is now the same age Kelli was in May of 1962. She was sitting only a few yards away, curled up in a lawn chair, reading silently beneath the shade of the large oak tree that towers above the yard.
I shook my head. No, I haven’t,
I said.
Luke seemed surprised. Why not?
I couldn’t answer him with the truth, that whatever story I might tell my daughter would have to be a lie, and that it was really Luke himself who most deserved to hear the truth, since it was his incessant probing that had never let me rest, that had continually plucked at the slender thread that bound our lives together, year by year, unraveling it a little, and with it, the fabric of a long deception.
It’s never come up,
I said, then moved quickly to a different story, briefer and with that philosophical edge that I knew Luke enjoyed. You know Louise Baxter, don’t you?
Luke nodded.
She brought her little boy in to see me last week,
I told him. He’d just come back from a trip to Venezuela.
Then I went on to describe how the boy’s right thigh had been hideously swollen, the skin stretched tight over a large boil that had taken on a sickly yellow color.
It looked dangerously infected, and I knew it had to be cleaned out,
I continued. So I gave him a local anesthetic, then made a cut over the head of the boil and pried it apart.
Luke nodded, waiting for my point.
The inside of the boil was red, of course, very inflamed, but right in the middle of it there was a small fleck of pale green, and when I touched it with the tip of my scalpel, it flipped away from the blade.
Luke suddenly looked more engaged.
So I took a pair of tweezers and pulled it out.
I looked at Luke wonderingly. It was a worm.
A worm?
Luke asked.
Yes,
I said. I looked it up in a book I have. It turns out that this particular worm is a common parasite in South America.
It had wriggled savagely between the metal tongs, and as I’d watched its green body twisting maliciously, it had taken on a terrible sense of menace, as if, in this small worm, I had glimpsed some malevolence at the core of life.
And I just said to myself, ‘There it is, there is evil.’
Luke thought a moment, then dismissed any such windy notion. No, that was just a worm, doing what worms do,
he said. He let his eyes drift up toward the mountain. I knew that I had not succeeded in drawing him back from that summer day so long ago. I should never have let her go into those woods by herself,
he said.
She wanted to,
I told him. You had to let her.
Something was bothering her. I could tell that.
She was high-strung.
No, I mean she had something on her mind. I guess that’s why I didn't want to leave her there. The way she looked, I mean. Troubled.
I drew in a deep breath, but said nothing. It was the same description Luke had offered many times before, each time relating every detail in the same unvaried order, like a detective incessantly returning to the scene of the crime, as if by one more pass he might find the key to what happened there.
I guess that’s why I wanted to wait for her. But she said no. So I asked her if she wanted me to come back for her a little later. She said no to that, too.
I nodded silently.
She was sure about that, Ben. She said, ‘No, you go on home, Luke. You don’t have to come back for me.’
But he’d gone back anyway, though several hours later, and only after calling Miss Troy to find out if Kelli had returned home. And so it was Luke who’d found her lying in the vines, Luke who’d bent down to check for any sign of life, Luke whose faded jeans had soaked up a small portion of her blood.
He watched me intently. The look on her face, Ben. When I found her, I mean.
He shook her head. It was like her soul had been scooped right out of her.
I glanced away from him, but not toward the mountain. There was a fire over at Lutton last night,
I told him, once again changing the subject. An old, abandoned church. I thought I might drive over and take a look.
Luke smiled quietly. That’s the sort of thing your father used to do, isn’t it? Go to where something had burned down or been blown away by a tornado.
You want to come along?
Luke loosened the knot of his tie. No,
he said. I better stop by the nursery on the way home. I have some seedlings to put in. Probably be working there till late into the night.
He got to his feet, moaning slightly as he rose. My back’s been bothering me a little.
He offered a thin smile. Old age creeping up.
I nodded, then watched as he headed down the short walkway to his car. Once he’d reached it, he turned back toward me,