House of Mercy
By Erin Healy
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When Beth’s world falls apart, can she ever be whole again?
Beth has a gift of healing—which is why she wants to become a vet and help her family run their fifth-generation cattle ranch. Her father’s dream of helping men in trouble and giving them a second chance is her dream too. But it only takes one foolish decision for Beth to destroy it all.
Beth scrambles to redeem her mistake, pleading with God for help, even as a mystery complicates her life. The repercussions grow more unbearable—a lawsuit, a death, a divided family, and the looming loss of everything she cares about. Beth’s only hope is to find the grandfather she never knew and beg for his help. Confused, grieving, and determined to make amends, she embarks on a horseback journey across the mountains, guided by a wild, unpredictable wolf who may or may not be real.
Set in the stunningly rugged terrain of Southern Colorado, House of Mercy follows Beth through the valley of the shadow of death into the unfathomable miracles of God’s goodness and mercy.
“Healy has proven she has what it takes to write a fast paced supernatural thriller guaranteed to keep you hooked right until the last page, and beyond.” —TitleTrakk.com
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Author: Erin HealyPublished By: Thomas NelsonAge Recommended: YA - AdultReviewed By: Arlena DeanBook Blog For: GMTARating: 4Review:"House of Mercy" by Erin Healy not only mysterious, suspenseful, adventurous, supernatural, inspirational, but also a wonderful intriguing christian fiction. This setting was from the southern Colorado area with this author giving us a beautiful full descriptions of life on a ranch. The main character in this novel, Bethesda Borzios (Beth) who had wanted to be a Vet since she was a little girl, but one night she had gotten herself in a situation that changed her life forever..."because of her decision Beth's family is about to lose their home and ranch." You will soon find out find out that Beth's family also had issues of their own (that brother, Levi ... wow)! I loved how this author was able to 'show us God's mercy and grace,' that even in bad many times because of the choices we make ..God is their and does bring us through it all. As Beth goes on a journey to the mountains to find someone she didn't know had existed, her grandfather. While maturing...she learns to put her faith and trust in God. The "House of Mercy" will also offer to the reader some 'mystical wolf' that is entered into this story offering some 'supernatural element.' Now what is that about? The main question that will be answered: "Does Beth have enough faith to follow where God is leading her?" and "Can she trust a wolf?" Get ready because it really get interesting. Now, to really get the true fill for this novel I can only say you will have to pick up this novel to see how this author brings it all together. It is truly a excellent read."House of Mercy" was a strong, well written read with characters that seemed to come to life as you read. Would I recommend this read? YES!
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5A book I never wanted to end...I felt like I was walking with my hand in Gods. Erin Healy has written a powerful book, and we experience good and evil.Bethesda Borzios has wanted to be a Vet since she was a little girl, but one night a wrong decision [or was it the right one] changes her life forever. Because of her decision her family is about to loose their home and ranch. Beth is determined to remedy what she has broke, but how.Does she have enough faith to follow where God is leading her? Can she trust a wolf? She does finally name the persistent wolf Mercy. When her brother Levi tells her he has sold her truck, she goes looking for it on the ranch. This leads to a series of events that eventually brings her to her Grandfather...maybe just in time. Here we meet evil head on, and will have to wonder who will be the winner.I see there is a sequel to the book coming next year...can't wait!!I received this book Publisher Thomas Nelson, and was not required to give a positive review.
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House of Mercy - Erin Healy
ACCLAIM FOR ERIN HEALY’S PREVIOUS WORKS
THE BAKER’S WIFE
A combination of suspense, mystery, religion, and even romance weaves this tale into a cohesive, compelling read.
—NEW YORK JOURNAL OF BOOKS
Healy’s fascinating plot is fast-paced and difficult to put down once started.
—ROMANTIC TIMES 4 ½ STAR TOP PICK! REVIEW
A tightly woven, character-driven suspense story . . . should appeal to Dekker fans as well.
—LIBRARY JOURNAL
NEVER LET YOU GO
. . . Will appeal to readers who like to be on the edge of their seats.
—LIBRARY JOURNAL
Heart-pounding suspense and unrelenting hope that will steal your breath.
—TED DEKKER, NEW YORK TIMES BEST-SELLING AUTHOR
Fans of Ted Dekker will appreciate Healy’s chilling story of the dangers on the road back to hope and faith.
—BOOKLIST
Keeps you glued to the pages until the very last.
—TOSCA LEE, AUTHOR OF HAVAH: THE STORY OF EVE
THE PROMISES SHE KEEPS
" . . . A smartly written story . . . The Promises She Keeps will undoubtedly be enjoyed by established fans of Healy’s writing, and those unfamiliar with her work, or even the genre, should give this captivating novel a read."
—5MINUTESFORBOOKS.COM
Complex characters, a plot steeped in imagery and eloquence . . . a beautiful tale of eternal love . . . Healy thrives when telling tales of spirituality and mystery.
—LIFEISSTORY.COM
"An intricate book . . . Healy is highly skilled . . . The Promises She Keeps is beautifully written."
—THE GAZETTE (COLORADO SPRINGS, CO)
OTHER NOVELS BY ERIN HEALY
The Baker’s Wife
The Promises She Keeps
Never Let You Go
NOVELS COAUTHORED WITH TED DEKKER
Kiss
Burn
HOUSE OF
MERCY
ERIN HEALY
9781401685515_INT_0003_001© 2012 by Erin Healy
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Publisher’s Note: This novel is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either products of the author’s imagination or used fictitiously. All characters are fictional, and any similarity to people living or dead is purely coincidental.
Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Healy, Erin M.
House of mercy / Erin Healy.
p. cm.
ISBN 978-1-4016-8551-5 (pbk.)
1. Young women--Fiction. 2. Ranches--Colorado--Fiction. 3. Domestic fiction. I. Title.
PS3608.E245H68 2012
813'.6--dc23
2012014076
Printed in the United States of America
12 13 14 15 16 17 QG 6 5 4 3 2 1
For my son.
May you know the love of the Lord your God your whole life.
To work miracles in our own lives, we must follow this plan: have only love in our hearts, and proceed with first faith, then works. In order for the door to heaven to open to us, we must trust that God is love, that love is what He intends for us, and love is what He wants from us. Then, through loving-kindness, we will make our way toward Him.
DR. ISSAM NEMEH
INMIRACLES EVERY DAY BY
MAURA POSTON ZAGRANS
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Author Note
An Encounter with Mercy’s Kin
About the Author
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It wasn’t every day that an old saddle could improve a horse’s life.
That was what Beth Borzoi was thinking as she stood in the dusty tack room that smelled like her favorite pair of leather boots. In the back corner where the splintering-wood walls met, she tugged the faded leather saddle off the bottommost rung of the heavy-duty rack, where it had sat, unused and forgotten, for years.
Her little brother, Danny, would have said she was stealing the saddle. He might have called her a kleptomaniac. That was too strong a word, but Danny was fifteen and liked to throw bold words around, cocky-like, show-off rodeo ropes aimed at snagging people. She loved that about him. It was a cute phase. Even so, she had formed a mental argument against the characterization of herself as a thief, in case she needed to use it, because Danny was too young to understand the true meaning of even stronger words like sacrifice or situational ethics.
After all, she was working in secret, in the hidden folds of a summer night, so that both she and the saddle could leave the Blazing B unnoticed. In the wrong light, it might look like a theft.
The truth was, it was not her saddle to give away. It was Jacob’s saddle, though in the fifteen years Jacob had lived at the ranch, she had never seen him use it. The bigger truth was that this saddle abandoned to tarnish and sawdust could be put to better use. The fenders were plated with silver, pure metal that could be melted down and converted into money to save a horse from suffering. Decorative silver bordered the round skirt and framed the rear housing. The precious metal had been hammered to conform to the gentle rise of the cantle in the back and the swell in the front. The lovely round conchos were studded with turquoise. Hand-tooled impressions of wild mountain flowers covered the leather everywhere that silver didn’t.
In its day, it must have been a fine show saddle. And if Jacob valued that at all, he wouldn’t have stored it like this.
Under the naked-bulb beams of the tack room, Beth’s body cast a shadow over the pretty piece as she hefted it. She blew the dirt and dander off the horn, swiped off the cracked seat with the flat of her hand, then turned away her head and sneezed. Colorado’s dry climate had not been kind to the leather.
She wasn’t stealing. She was saving an animal’s life.
The latch on the barn door released Beth to the midnight air with a click like a stolen kiss. The saddle weighed about thirty-five pounds, which was easy to manage when snatching it off a rack and tossing it onto a horse’s back. But it would feel much heavier by the time she reached her destination. She’d parked her truck a ways off where the rumbling old clunker wouldn’t raise questions or family members sleeping in the nearby ranch house. She’d left her dog at the foot of Danny’s bed with clear orders to stay. She hoped the animal would mind.
Energized, she crossed the horses’ yard. A few of them nickered greetings at her, including Hastings, who nuzzled her empty pockets for treats. The horses never slept in the barn’s stalls unless they were sick. Even in winter they stayed in the pasture, preferring the outdoor lean-to shelters.
The Blazing B, a 6,500-acre working cattle ranch, lay to the northwest of Colorado’s San Luis Valley. The region was called a valley because this portion of the state was a Rocky Mountain hammock that swung between the San Juans to the west and the Sangre de Cristos to the east. But at more than seven thousand feet, it was no low-lying flatland. It was, in fact, the highest alpine valley in the world. And it was the only place in the world that Beth ever wanted to live. Having graduated from the local community college with honors and saved enough additional money for her continuing education, she planned to leave in the fall to begin her first year of veterinary school. She would be gone as long as it took to earn her license, but her long-term plan was to return as a more valuable person. Her skills would save the family thousands of dollars every year, freeing up funds for their most important task—providing a home and a hard day’s work to discarded men who needed the peace the Blazing B had to offer.
On this late May night, a light breeze stirred the alfalfa growing in the pasturelands while the cattle grazed miles away. The herds always spent their summers on public lands in the mountains while their winter feed grew in the valley. They were watched over by a pool rider, a hired man who was a bit like a cow’s version of a shepherd. He stayed with them through the summer and would bring them home in the fall.
With the winter calving and spring branding a distant memory, the streams and irrigation wells amply supplied by good mountain runoff, and the healthy alfalfa fields thickening with a June cutting in mind, the mood at the Blazing B was peaceful.
When Beth was a quarter mile beyond the barn, a bobbing light drew her attention to the west side of the pasture, where ancient cottonwood trees formed a barrier against seasonal winds and snows. She paused, her eyes searching the darkness beyond this path that she could walk blindfolded. The light rippled over cottonwood trunks, casting shadows that were indistinguishable from the real thing.
A man was muttering in a low voice, jabbing his light around as if it were a stick. She couldn’t make out his words. Then the yellow beam stilled low to the ground, and she heard a metallic thrust, the scraping ring of a shovel’s blade being jammed into the dirt.
Beth worried. It had to be Wally, but what was he doing out at this hour, and at this place? The bunkhouse was two miles away, and the men had curfews, not to mention strict rules about their access to horses and vehicles.
She left the path and approached the trees without a misstep. The moonlight was enough to guide her over the uneven terrain.
Wally?
The cutting of the shovel ceased. Who wants to know?
It’s Beth.
Beth who?
Beth Borzoi. Abel’s daughter. I’m the one who rides Hastings.
Well, sure! Right, right. Beth. I’m sorry you have to keep telling me. You’re awfully nice about it.
The light that Wally had set on the ground rose and pointed itself at her, as if to confirm her claims, then dropped to the saddle resting against her thighs. Wally had been at the ranch for three years, since a stroke left his body unaffected but struck his brain with a short-term memory disorder. It was called anterograde amnesia, a forgetfulness of experiences but not skills. He could work hard but couldn’t hold a job because he was always forgetting where and when he was supposed to show up. Here at the ranch he didn’t have to worry about those details. He had psychologists and strategies to guide him through his days, a community of brothers who reminded him of everything he really needed to know. Well, most things. He had been on more than one occasion the butt of hurtful pranks orchestrated by the men who shared the bunkhouse with him. It was both a curse and a blessing that he was able to forget such incidents so easily.
Beth was the only Beth at the Blazing B, and the only female resident besides her mother, but these facts regularly eluded Wally. He never forgot her father, though, and he knew the names of all the horses, so this was how Beth had learned to keep putting herself back into the context of his life.
You’re working hard,
she said. You know it’s after eleven.
Looking for my lockbox. I saw him take it. I followed him here just an hour ago, but now it’s gone.
Sometimes it was money that had gone missing. Sometimes it was a glove or a photograph, or a piece of cake from her mother’s dinner table that was already in his belly. All the schedules and organizational systems in the world were not enough to help Wally with this bizarre side effect of his disorder: whenever a piece of his mind went missing, he would search for it by digging. Dr. Roy Davis, Wally’s psychiatrist, had curtailed much of Wally’s compulsive need to overturn the earth by having him perform many of the Blazing B’s endless irrigation tasks. Even so, the ten square miles of ranch were riddled with the chinks of Wally’s efforts to find what he had lost.
That must be really frustrating,
she said. I hate it when I lose my stuff.
I didn’t lose it. A gray wolf ran off with it. I had it safe in a secret spot, and he dug it up and carried off the box in his teeth. Hauled it all the way up here and reburied it. Now tell me, what’s a wolf gonna do with my legal tender? Buy himself a turkey leg down at the supermarket?
Wally must have kept a little cash in his box. She could understand his frustration. But this claim stirred up disquiet at the back of her mind. Dr. Roy would need to know if Wally was seeing things. First off, gray wolves were hardly ever spotted in Colorado. They’d been run out of the state before World War II by poachers and hostile ranchers, and their return in recent years was little more than a rumor. Wally might have seen a coyote. But for another thing, no wild animal dug up a man’s buried treasure and relocated it. Except maybe a raccoon.
A raccoon trying to run off with a heavy lockbox might actually be entertaining.
Tell you what, Wally. If he’s buried it here we’ll have a better chance of finding it in the morning. When the sun comes up, I’ll help you. But they’ll be missing you at the bunkhouse about now. Let me take you back so no one gets upset when they see you’re gone.
Jacob or Dr. Roy would do bunk checks at midnight.
Upset? No one can be as upset as I am right now.
He thrust the shovel into the soft dirt at his feet. I saw the dog do it. I tracked him all the way here, like he thought I wouldn’t see him under this full moon. Fool dog—but who’d believe me? It’s like a freaky fairy tale, isn’t it? Well, I’d have put that box in a local vault if I didn’t have to keep so many stinkin’ Web addresses and passwords and account numbers and security questions at my fingertips.
He withdrew a small notebook from his hip pocket and waved the pages around. It was one of the things he used to keep track of details. Maybe I’ll have to rethink that.
Beth’s hands had become sweaty and a little cramped under the saddle’s weight. She used her right knee to balance the saddle and fix her grip. The soft leather suddenly felt like heavy gold bricks out of someone else’s bank vault.
Well, let’s go,
she said. I’ve got my truck right on down the lane.
What do you have there?
Wally returned the notebook to his pocket, hefted the shovel, and picked his way out of the underbrush, finding his way by flashlight.
An old saddle. It’s been in the tack room for years.
She expected Wally to forget the saddle just as quickly as he would forget this night’s adventure and her promise to help him dig in the morning.
He lifted one of the fenders and stroked the silver with his thumb. Pretty thing. Probably worth something. Not as much as that box is worth to me, though.
We’ll find it,
Beth said.
You bet we will.
Wally fell into step beside her. Thanks for the ride back, Beth. You’re a good girl. You got your daddy in you.
With Jacob’s old saddle resting on a blanket in the bed of her rusty white pickup, Beth followed an access road from the horse pasture by her own home down into the heart of the Blazing B.
The property’s second ranch house was located more strategically to the cattle operation, and so it was known to all as the Hub. The Hub was a practical bachelor pad. Outside, the branding pens and calving sheds and squeeze chutes and cattle trucks filled up a dusty clearing around the house. Inside, the carpets and old leather furniture, even when clean, smelled like men who believed that a hard day’s work followed by a dead sleep—in any location—was far more gratifying than a hot shower. The house was steeped in the scent stains of sweat and hay, horses and manure, tanned leather and barbecue smoke. The men who slept here lived like the bachelors they were. If their daily labors weren’t enough to impress a woman, the cowboys couldn’t be bothered with her.
Dr. Roy Davis, known affectionately by all as Dr. Roy, was a lifelong friend of Beth’s father. Years ago, after the death of Roy’s wife, Abel and Roy merged their professional passions of ranching and psychiatry and expanded the Blazing B’s purpose. It became an outreach to functional but wounded men like Wally who needed a home and a job. Dr. Roy brought his teenage son, Jacob, along. Now thirty-one, Jacob had never found reason to leave, except for the years he’d spent away at college earning multiple degrees in agriculture and animal management. Jacob had been the Blazing B’s general operations manager for more than five years.
Jacob and his father shared the Hub with Pastor Eric, who was a divorced minister, and Emory, a therapist who was once a gang leader. These men were the Borzois’ four full-time employees.
The other men who lived at the Blazing B were called associates.
They occupied the bunkhouse, some for a few weeks and some for years. At present there were six, including Wally.
When Beth stopped her truck in front of the Hub’s porch, Wally slipped off the seat of her cab, closed the rusty door, and went directly around back to the bunkhouse. She pulled away and had reached the end of the drive when a rut jarred the truck and rattled the shovel he’d left in the truck bed.
In spite of her hurry to take Jacob’s saddle to the people who needed it, she put the truck in park, jumped out, and jogged the tool up to the house. The porch light lit the squeaky wood steps, and she took them two at a time. Jacob would see the tool in the morning when he came out to start up his own truck and head out to whatever project was on the schedule. She’d phone him to make sure.
She was tipping the handle into the corner where the porch rail met the siding when the Hub’s front door opened and Jacob leaned out.
Past your bedtime, isn’t it?
he said, but he was smiling at her. Over the years they had settled into a comfortable big-brother-little-sister relationship, though Beth had never fully outgrown her adolescent crush on him.
Found Wally digging up by the barn,
she said.
Surprise pulled his dark brows together. Now? Where is he?
Back in bed, I guess. He said he followed a wolf up to our place. You might want Dr. Roy to look into that. Your dad should know if Wally’s . . . seeing things.
Jacob nodded as he stepped out the door and leaned against the house. He crossed his arms. Coyote maybe?
Try suggesting that to him. And when was the last time we had a coyote down here? It’s been ages—not since Danny gave up his chicken coop.
I’ll mention that to Dad. It’s probably nothing. What had you out at the barn at this hour? Horses okay?
Fine.
Beth’s eyes swiveled down to her truck, to Jacob’s saddle, both well beyond reach of the porch light. She tried to recall all her justifications for taking the saddle, but in that moment all she could think was that she should get his permission to do it. She’d known this man more than half her life. He was kind. He was wise. He’d say yes. He’d want her to take it.
But she said, I’m headed out to the Kandinskys’ place. They’ve got a horse who injured his eye, and it’s pretty bad. They let it go too long, you know, hoping it would correct itself, maybe wouldn’t need a big vet bill.
The Kandinskys have their own vet on the premises. Who called you out?
It’s not one of their horses, actually. It’s Phil’s. Remember him?
Your friend from high school?
He’s been working there a year or so. They let him keep the horse on the property. One of the perks.
But he can’t use their vet?
Beth looked at her feet. "Phil’s family can’t afford their vet. You know how that goes. We couldn’t afford him. His family doesn’t even have pets, you know. They run a grocery store. The horse is his little sister’s project. A 4H thing."
Well, tell Phil I said he called the right gal for the job.
I don’t know, Jacob. It sounds really bad. These eye things—the horse might need surgery.
She found it unusually difficult to look at him, though she was sure he was studying her with a suspicious stare by now. But she couldn’t look at the truck either. Her eyes couldn’t find an object to rest on.
All you can do is all you can do, Beth. That’ll be as true after you’re licensed as it is now.
But I want to do miracles,
she said.
He chuckled at that, though she hadn’t been joking. Don’t we all.
He uncrossed his arms and put his hand on the doorknob, preparing to go back inside. I heard some big-shot Thoroughbred breeder is boarding some of his studs there,
Jacob said. Some friend of theirs passing through.
I heard that too.
Maybe that’ll be Phil’s miracle this time—an unexpected guest, someone with the right know-how or the right resources who will come to his horse’s rescue.
Angels unaware,
Beth said.
Something like that. Night, Beth.
Beth didn’t want him to go just yet. Night.
She lingered at the door while it closed, hoping he might intuit what she didn’t have the courage to say.
When he didn’t, she committed to her original plan. She descended the steps in a quiet rush, wanting to whisk the saddle away before he could object to what he didn’t know. She wanted to be the one who did the good works, who made the incredible rescue. She couldn’t help herself. It was her father’s blood running through her heart.
On the driveway, her smooth-soled boots skimmed the dirt, whispering back to her truck.
It’s not your right to do it,
Jacob said. Beth gasped and whirled at the sound of his voice, unexpected and loud and straight into her ear, as if he’d been standing on her shoulder. It’s not your gift to give.
But the ranch house door was shut tight under the cone of the porch light, and the bright window revealed nothing inside but heavy furniture and cluttered tabletops. At the back of the house, a different door closed heavily. Jacob was headed out to the bunkhouse to check on Wally already.
Beth let her captured breath leave her lungs. She looked around for an explanation, because she didn’t want to accept that the words might have been uttered by a guilty conscience.
At the base of the porch steps, crouching in such darkness that its black center sank into its surroundings, was the form of an unusually large dog. Erect ears, broad head, slender body. A wolf. She had passed that spot so closely seconds ago that she could have reached out and stroked its neck.
She took one step backward. Of course, her mind was dreaming this up because Wally had suggested a wolf to her. If he hadn’t, she might have said the silhouette had the outline of a snowman. An inverted snowman guarding the house from her lies. In May.
Beth stared at it for several seconds, oddly unable to recall the landscape where she’d spent her entire life. She was distressed not to be able to say from this distance and angle whether that was a shrub planted there, or a fence post, or an old piece of equipment that hadn’t made it back into the supply shed. When the shape of its edges seemed to shift and shudder without actually moving at all, she decided that her eyes were being tricked by the darkness.
Convincing herself of this was almost as easy as justifying her saddle theft.
She turned away from the house and hurried onward, looking back only once.
2
The Kandinskys’ horse ranch lay a half hour’s drive from the Blazing B. It seemed to belong in the rolling hills of Kentucky or New York, not to these simple plains. The white fences and ornamental gates were out of place in this land of wood posts and steel rails. The Rolls Royces parked in house-sized garages were entirely impractical, too good to drive down the two-lane highways. But the family members, though a bit standoffish, were nationally respected breeders of Fox Trotters and Morgans. They made good money in this valley acquiring reliable working stock for the ranchers. It seemed reasonable that Mr. Kandinsky’s brother-in-law, a Thoroughbred breeder transferring some of his livelihood to a new ranch in California, would pick this place for a rest stop along the way.
Phil had given Beth directions to the horse breeder’s secondary stables, a barn reserved for the workhorses rather than the studs. She parked near the sliding door that opened onto the stable alley.
Beth kept a first-aid kit for animals behind the driver’s seat. She withdrew it, not sure if the ointments and disinfectants and dressings and poultices would be at all relevant. But the weight of the bag felt good in her hands, like confidence.
She entered the barn. Hay scattered across the ground silenced her footsteps. The entire facility, which boasted twelve stalls, was lined with fresh wheat straw and thick rubber mats and shining pine tongue-and-groove siding. If these quarters were for the lowly workers, the studs must have been housed in a crystal palace. Several of the stalls were occupied, but Phil leaned out of the box at the far end and motioned her to come.
She hoped that the horse’s condition was not as bad as he had made it out to be over the phone.
Beth kept her voice low so as not to startle the animals. Hey, Phil. Fiona,
she said to his teenage sister who, judging by her sleeping bag, intended to spend the night with poor Marigold. Both Phil and Fiona had willowy statures and fine brown hair that fell into their eyes. Fiona sat on the ground, hugging her knees. Beth looked at the horse. How’s she doing?
Fiona shook her head and bit her lip. She rocked herself gently.
You tell us,
Phil said. It’s her left eye.
His tone was hopeful. For Fiona’s sake, Beth thought.
Marigold lay on her side on a bank of straw, her eyes closed, and Beth took heart in the mare’s peaceful appearance. There was no indication that the eyelid had been damaged. Her eyelashes were horizontal, as they ought to be. The contour of Marigold’s head was smooth and free of swelling. Quite possibly, Phil and Fiona’s inexperience had overstated the trouble.
Beth made a gentle clucking noise to alert Marigold to her presence before kneeling and stroking the mare’s shoulder. The horse allowed it, approving with a deep sigh as Beth’s fingers moved upward on the neck, caressing the jaw in the comforting way that Hastings liked so much.
When her hands approached the mare’s eye, intending to lift the lid for a closer look, Marigold tossed her head away from Beth’s probing. She nickered a warning and shot an open-eyed glare that caused Beth’s hope to drop. The protective tissue over Marigold’s eye, which should have been water clear, was a white cloud so dense that the pupil and iris were nearly invisible. And toward the rear corner of the eye, the surface was uneven and waxy, like the dribbles of a melting candle.
Her cornea has an ulcer,
Beth began.
Is that bad?
Phil asked.
Not normally.
Corneal ulcers were one of the more common injuries a horse might receive in its lifetime. Hastings had suffered his share. I’m sorry, girl,
she said to the mare. How long has she been like this?
The cloudiness—two weeks?
Phil said.
Sixteen days,
Fiona said. Beth groaned inwardly.
But that oozing, it just started yesterday.
Day before,
Fiona corrected.
Beth shook her head at Phil’s optimism. Sixteen days ago we could have turned this around with topical antibiotics. She might have improved in a few days. But this—this is called a melting ulcer. They’re wicked. Somewhere along the line that plain vanilla ulcer picked up some bacteria or a fungus. The infection is only going to get worse.
Her first-aid kit sat in the straw beside her, worthless.
Phil glanced at Fiona. What do we do?
You get a vet on this right now. A licensed vet. Tonight. I can call someone for you.
What’s he going to tell us?
That you waited too long to call him. That Marigold might need surgery to reverse this, depending on how deep it’s gone. Two weeks is a long time, you guys.
She just didn’t give any sign that it really bothered her,
Fiona said.
Beth was sure the horse had. It was more likely that Phil and Fiona didn’t recognize what they were seeing. I don’t mean to be cruel, but you need to understand how serious this is. She could lose her eye if you don’t treat it aggressively.
Fiona dropped her head onto her knees. Phil paled. He didn’t have to say what Beth knew was running through his mind. The cost of an equine surgery on a grocer’s salary would hurt. Even if surgery wasn’t part of the equation, the antibiotics, the anti-inflammatories, the medications to control the enzymes that were destroying the eye tissues would all add up.
Beth placed a hand on Phil’s arm. Come with me for a second. I brought something that might help.
Over the next several minutes, Beth focused on restoring hope to the siblings. She took them out to her truck and showed them the saddle’s silver.
You can remove it from the leather,
she explained. Sell it for cash. I’m sure there’s enough here to cover whatever Marigold needs.
It took some effort, but she eventually coaxed them into accepting the gift for Marigold’s sake. Then Beth called the Blazing B’s own vet and asked his phone service to rouse him from his sleep. While the threesome waited for Dr. O’Connor’s return call, she sang his praises. By the time he agreed to come out in spite of the hour, Phil and Fiona had regained some of their optimism.
We thought of the perfect way to thank you,
Fiona said as Beth closed her cell phone. There was excitement in the light touch she placed on Beth’s arm. Wait here. It’ll just take a few minutes.
You don’t need to do anything. Really.
We do, we do. Give us five.
Five minutes was nothing to ask. The vet wouldn’t arrive for forty-five at least.
Beth opened the tailgate and sat under the bright moon while she waited. Phil had carried the silver-clad saddle back through the stables to his own truck on the other side, and already she was having second thoughts about whether offering that up had been the right thing to do. She was disappointed in herself for not bringing it up to Jacob. And she could think of a dozen things that silver might have paid for at her very own ranch. Why hadn’t she considered any of them in the hour between Phil’s concerned phone call and her brilliant idea to foot Marigold’s bill?
Because her idea had been inspired. Two hours ago she had no doubt that it was exactly what she ought to do. Beth sent her memory in search of that certainty so that she could hold on to it more firmly this time.
It’s not your right to do it,
Jacob said, loud and close, and Beth jerked out of her reverie, expecting to see him standing beside the truck. Instead she found Fiona. The girl seized Beth’s wrist and yanked her right off the tailgate, then tugged her back into the bright stables.
Phil was grinning at her,