Asylum
By Marcus Low
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Marcus Low
Marcus Low is a Cape Town-based writer and public health specialist. He completed a MA in creative writing at the University of Cape Town in 2009 – for which he wrote an early draft of ‘asylum’. He previously worked as Policy Director at the Treatment Action Campaign, an influencial South African civil society organisation that advocates for the rights and interests of people living with and affected by tuberculosis (TB) and HIV. He remains involved in public health policy both in South Africa and internationally. His novel ‘asylum’ was in part inspired by the incarceration of patients with drug-resistant forms of TB in South Africa circa 2008 – something he directly encountered in his work. He was born in Vryburg, South Africa in 1979.
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Asylum - Marcus Low
preface
TWO YEARS AFTER ARRIVING at the Pearson quarantine facility for pulmonary nodulosis in the Great Karoo of the Republic of South Africa, Barry Wilbert James started keeping a journal. He had been prompted to do so by psychologist Ms Leanne van Vuuren, who was appointed to counsel him after his attempt to take his own life. Though her prompting was motivated by a belief in the power of narrative psychology, James’ journalling would turn out to have both significant literary and historical consequences.
Though there have been other accounts, Mr James’ journals have arguably become the most compelling firstperson record of the South African manifestation of the most serious outbreak of an infectious disease since the peak of the HIV epidemic. Others, such as Nattrass and Arendse, have written thorough and compelling histories of the so-called new plague. But their histories are of a general and a more traditional nature. Mr James’ journals, by contrast, are intensely personal.
What makes Mr James’ writing of particular interest, though, is the obvious literary ambition reflected in the journals. He goes out of his way to present himself as a literary underdog and a reluctant writer, and yet, as various critics have noted, the descriptions of his unusual dreams hint at a literary or aesthetic intention, rather than a simple journalling of experience. As he himself wrote in one of the eight recovered notebooks, now exhibited in a display cabinet in the Museum of the Plague in Beaufort West, ‘What do you do when you have all the time in the world and yet no time at all? If you are going to sit staring out the window, you might as well write down what you see.’
However, as journalist Steve Gumede discovered, Mr James had, on at least two occasions prior to his admission to Pearson, submitted entries to short-story competitions. Discoveries like these contradict Mr James’ portrayal of himself as an uneducated outsider who unexpectedly flourishes in a makeshift library at a remote quarantine facility. As it turns out, Mr James had in fact completed high school at Bishops, the Diocesan College in Cape Town, and was by all accounts an A student, matriculating near the top of his class.
Although, from a certain point – most likely in December 2022 – Mr James wrote with the express hope of being read, there is no indication that the thought of publication ever crossed his mind. Some critics have argued that his misrepresentation of his past, together with the deliberate plotting of a narrative arc (such as it is), indicates that he is in fact writing to be read by a wider public and that he may have been hoping for the journals to be discovered and published at some point – or at least that he was thinking of them as works of fiction, rather than mere accounts of events in the real world.
Other critics have interpreted the misrepresentations to be indicative of Mr James’ complicated psychological state – which is to say that he felt the need to lie to himself rather than to an imagined reader, or at least pretend to himself that he was someone other than the person he actually was.
Of course, as is clear from the journals, Mr James does not hide the fact that he is at times an unreliable narrator. Indeed, in as far as the journals contain a narrative arc, this arc hinges on misrepresentation. The literary power of Mr James’ journals lies in the fact that he makes these misrepresentations seem an unavoidable outcome of his experience of the infection. Though far from the full picture, it is not entirely inaccurate to describe Mr James as suffering from a form of denial about the nature and cause of his condition – such denial being quite common in patients diagnosed with serious disease. If not an exact history then, the journals could be read as a meditation on the psychology of illness.
Prompted by Van Vuuren, and by his own admission, we have reason to believe that Mr James wrote about his experience as some form of relief or catharsis. Consider, for example, this passage from a barely legible section of the notebook titled First, ‘As much of a nightmare as all the coughing is, one gets used to it. It even becomes a companion of sorts. As if you can cough out the past, cough up everything you’ve done, all your memories, and get it out of you. Until, one day when it is all out, you have nothing left to do but turn into one of those serene corpses the staff are so determined to clear out as soon as possible.’
It seems likely that the water-damaged first notebook contained more of these relatively direct statements about his state of mind and his understanding of the writing process, although, given the extent of the damage, we can of course not be sure. Some hope remains that new technologies will allow these pages to be deciphered. Some critics have suggested a link between the water damage and the dream Mr James describes in which beer is spilled on some of the notebooks – but there is no evidence to support this.
The only other tantalising fragment from the first half of the first notebook that we still have is the following:
‘Coughing fit over, I turned the page and stared out at the parking lot with the hard, red Karoo earth beyond, the scattered assortment of throwaway plants being tugged at by a wind that I knew to be cold and sandy – even though I was indoors. A path wound down from the direction of the highway out of sight beyond a rocky ridge. Halfway toward where the ridge met the sky was the high chain-link fence that was supposed to keep us in. I simply sat and stared at the world beyond the fence and tried to imagine what it would be like to walk up that path, out across the ridge, and then to stand out next to the highway holding out my thumb for a ride.’
Making sense of this passage in isolation is difficult. It is, for example, impossible to know which ‘evening’ James is referring to and in which of the other journals he had been writing. At the very least, though, it gives a clear indication that he was in fact thinking about getting out, escaping from quarantine, despite his claims to the contrary in notebooks Two and Three.
As an introduction, however, this fragment serves as good as any. His writing style, his evocation of place, and above all his reluctant preoccupation with escape are all there. It contains in microcosm what would be fleshed out in the remaining pages of the first notebook and what remains of the other seven.
Compiling this volume has not been easy. Even though the notebooks are numbered, their lack of chronology is notable. Analysis of the sequence of events and of the writing style does, however, allow us to arrange the entries into at least a plausible chronology. It should be stressed that the entries were likely not written in the order presented here. While we can say with some certainty that the account of his first meeting with Van Vuuren was written many months after the fact (in notebook Six), other events appear to have been written about on the day they happened.
We have taken some artistic licence in opening this anthology with the only loose extract, pages most likely torn from a ninth notebook. As with the fragment quoted above, this one seems to capture something of the essence of Mr James’ unique perspective on life as a plague victim.
Only illegible and incomplete sections of Mr James’ notebooks have not been reproduced here. The account that follows thus comprises the totality of the legible text as found by Dr J von Hansmeyer.
Von Hansmeyer discovered the notebooks on his return to the Pearson facility in September 2023, three months after the facility was evacuated. He had been resident physician at the facility for the entire time period covered in the journals. After finding the notebooks, Dr Von Hansmeyer mailed them to Ms L Van Vuuren, who had emigrated to the United Kingdom following the closure of the Pearson facility. In March 2021 Van Vuuren graciously donated the notebooks to the Museum of the Plague in Beaufort West where they can still be viewed today.
Neither Dr Von Hansmeyer nor Ms Van Vuuren has given any interviews regarding the journals or their authenticity. Through the work of Gumede, however, we know that all persons named in the notebooks were indeed at the Pearson facility at the time in question. We also know from news reports in June 2023 that the body of a man believed to be that of Jonathan Fox was found in a shallow grave on the farm Donkerspruit near Pearson – a find that corresponds with Mr James’ account of Fox’s death.
In a few instances, for context and to ground the ethereal quality of what is in effect an internal monologue that straddles the precariousness of what are essentially two worlds – one real and one imaginary – we have, on occasion, included notes in the margins of the text. While some of this marginalia is our own, much of it is drawn from the work of Gumede, Nattrass and Arendse. We also drew heavily on the archives held at the Museum of the Plague. We remain deeply indebted to Mr Albertus Jordaan and colleagues at the museum for their assistance.
fragment
OUTSIDE MY WARD WINDOW the world has died. The dead dirt of the Karoo radiates sunlight. The shrill whine of beetles rises from the hard-baked ground. The insects are incessant. They draw out the long moment before the final eruption that is always delayed for another instant.
Hardly anything grows in the wasteland out there. The torn and scrawny shrubs have the look of litter, litter strapped down to a fuckhard earth. The wind, even the slightest breeze, can stay away for days. Then for long hot afternoons it snatches and tugs at the shrubs. I find myself staring out at these days for hours, hypnotised, seeing – despite my dulled and failing mind – into the heart of some long-dead god of human suffering.
I like to imagine that the wasteland beyond the fence stretches into eternity. That this dilapidated old colonial hospital is the only remaining island of life in all the world, that out there there are no towns or cities, no schools or office parks or shopping malls, no businessmen or politicians, no mothers or girls bursting with youth, just one endless silence.
I thank our dead and absent lord for that rocky ridge, I thank him or her or the Eastern Cape Department of Health or whatever for the fact that we cannot see the highway from our ward windows, for making our imprisonment so close to perfect. In this they have been kind to us, generous and thoughtful even. Nothing would hurt as much as to see families driving by in luxury sedans, farmers in their bakkies, or any other sign of a world that has resolved to go on without us. Our isolation is an act of mercy.
The only way forward is to forget about that world, put all such thoughts aside, to live as if the wasteland stretches all the way to the ocean’s deserted beaches, to believe that the apocalypse has come and gone and we alone remain here as if in some pretentious piece of theatre.
We are sick and therefore we are isolated, locked up. We must wait out our days here, and then die – so that the healthy ones, the ones we have forgotten about, may live.
SHE, THE REDHEAD WANTS me to keep a journal. She thinks it would help. She says nobody needs to read it, only me. It would help me placate the things gnawing away inside me. I don’t know. Write about how you came to be here, about where you’re going, your dreams, she says. Your dreams.
I didn’t ask her whether she meant the bad dreams I dream at night, or daydreams of being back in Cape Town, back in the real world. I don’t have those kind of dreams any more. We don’t kid ourselves here. Once you are infected, there’s no going back. I do have the other dreams, though, the ones that sneak up on you like thieves in the dark. They are the only way out of here – in those dreams anything is possible, any horror, any one, any thing, even snow. But you always wake up again. You always return. You always find yourself back here again. Here in this semi-desert, sun beating down, one long day after another.
I guess being here is in itself like a dream. One day you are back there, buying beer at the bottle store, taking the bus home, walking in the shade of tall trees, a free man. Then you open your eyes and you are here. Or maybe you close your eyes and you are here. There was a time when I believed that we may wake up from this nightmare. But, no. Dreams do not last for months. Dreams do not reveal all these grim and grimy details, are not this monotonous.
The real reason she wants me to write about all this is because of what I did. I tried to end the dream. After all, in dreams you never actually hit the ground; in the nanoseconds before impact you are wrenched back, back to where you should be. They don’t like that. They do all they can to make the dream last as long as possible. They think there is a point to it. They tell themselves that things will change, that a cure will be found for what ails us. Same old story. Hope, eternal hope.
Anyway, when I came round there were three masked faces hovering over me, a dull ‘what’s up with this one’ look in their eyes. I looked past them, hoping to see angels or gods cracking open the pale sky and swooping down to come pick me up for judgement. There was nothing. Just the faces.
Two of the masks helped me up and half carried me up to the ward, my arms slung over their shoulders, my feet dragging behind through the dust. There were questions about why I passed out, what had happened. I couldn’t answer them. It was all a blank. Besides, I was groggy and had no inclination to talk. What does it matter, anyway, what happened? What would it change?
Back in the ward I was given a thick, painful injection. I remember hoping it was morphine, but nothing after that until I woke up again, late-afternoon sunbeams drifting in through the window. Dr Von Hansmeyer standing next to the bed peering down at me.
‘What happened to you, Barry?’ he asked.
Unlike the others, Von Hansmeyer did not wear a mask. And nobody had ever summoned up the guts to ask him why. Still, his cheeks looked as rosy and healthy as ever, and except for his thinning hair, he could still have been a man of thirty. Maybe he knew something the rest of us didn’t.
‘I don’t know. I don’t know what happened,’ I said.
Then he examined me, spread-eagled like I was some exotic bird laid out in a museum. He shook his head. He looked me in the eyes and said, ‘Get yourself cleaned up and come see me in my office in ten minutes.’
As I swung my legs off the bed a shaft of pain shot through my temples. I felt shaky. I hobbled to the bathroom and considered taking a shower. But there wasn’t time. I looked into the mirror. There were streaks of blood on my cheek and on my shirt. I wasn’t sure where they had come from.
I washed off what I could in the metal basin. Apart from the throbbing in my head, there was no other pain. And no gaping wound either. Where did all the blood come from? Yet, I didn’t really care; whatever happened, happened. For all I know I could have coughed up the blood. I’ve seen others do it, doubling over and hacking up clumps of blood as thick as wads of phlegm.
When I got to Von Hansmeyer’s office he was behind his desk filling in a form, a pair of small, round spectacles perched on his nose. From behind him, the last orange rays of sunlight streamed into the room.
‘Close the door behind you,’ he said, and took off his glasses. The silence in the room was near perfect, the papers on his desk neatly stacked, the décor modern, not a speck of dust. It was hard to believe we were in a hospital in the Karoo. It could so easily have been a doctor’s office in Sandton.
‘Let’s get down to business then,’ he said and, again, looked me straight in the eyes. ‘Do you want to die, Barry?’
I shook my head, but to be honest, I might well have wanted to. ‘They found you unconscious next to