The Queen Is Dead
By C.H. Folan
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The Queen Is Dead - C.H. Folan
I must tell you that most of what you know of me is a lie.
True, some of this fabrication is of my own doing, my blood and sweat bringing together the threads that were woven into the tapestry of my life. Nevertheless, I have allowed my deeds and choices to become narrative and evolve into lore.
It is the natural progression of any story.
However, I object to how my tale has been usurped by the men who appeared in it. I suppose it is a woman’s lot to be first a father’s daughter, then her husband’s wife, and finally, possibly, her son’s mother. In the world into which I had been born, a woman was most easily characterized by the men who owned her. I am sure that the kingdoms of Moray and Alba, those territories that would later be known as Scotland, were not alone in their predisposition to mistake being indentured for having an identity.
The world that created me was a broken one, composed of scarred territories and bitter men playing at kings. Moray, my home, had laid in dominion to Alba for generations, taxed heavily and used as the first line of defence against marauding Norsemen and other mysterious enemies that spilled forth from the northern sea. Mac Bethad tried, as did we all, to bring Moray the freedom and the peace it deserved. It has been said in the years since that the road to hell is paved with the best of intentions. The dead that haunt me still have assured me that my eventual passage toward the eternal shall be one bathed in the shadows of old blood.
It is a fate I have long since accepted, and though my death may not be restful, I can only hope that it will bring me once more to the sides of those I have loved and lost. For yes, even I, history’s most fiendish queen, have loved and been loved in return. And like many women before me, love was an insufficient shield against the full rage of a world thrown off its delicate balance.
Here am I sure that I have lost some of you. I hear your angry words, your bitter protest. You were a queen, I hear you say. You were first a lord’s wife and then a king’s. What could you possibly know of hardship? Of toil?
I have known the back of a husband’s hand, have been subject to his drunken whims, and have toiled to bring forth his heir. There is no woman, no matter how common or how highly born, who has not been in some way subject to the desires and ordinances of a man.
I will, however, grant one concession.
I was never a victim.
I was always exactly what I needed to be.
Those who knew me called me murderess, witch, hag, and crone. Others called me My Lady and Your Majesty.
One called me Mother.
One called me mo lasair—my fire.
I carry all of these names with me. I have collected them and made from them an armour that no arrow nor sword can pierce. This armour is made of the strongest metal and forged in the heat of my lust and anger. I know every chink in its mail and its every weakness.
Leave the tapestries to my sisters.
Bring me my sword.
Her first husband’s name was Gille Coemgáin mac Maíl Brigti, and their earliest meeting took place when Gruoch was fifteen years old. When the ravages of time had left her an old woman, and she found herself turning in her bed in the deep quiet of the night, unable to sleep, Gruoch would sometimes allow herself to think back upon that first meeting.
Gille had been tall and thin and walked with a particular hunch, leaning much like a tree will when subjected too long to harsh winds. Or like one that has learned to bend to save from snapping at the trunk or lifting at the root.
There had been a flurry of excitement when he had entered the fortress and into Gruoch’s life. He and a handful of his men had ridden past the gates and into the main yard, their black and bay horses slick with sweat, mouths foaming around their filthy bits. Gille had been at the head, calling out in a loud voice for the King’s son to show himself. Gruoch had been worried at first upon hearing the harshness of his tone but had felt considerably better as she heard her father’s hearty laugh respond to the stranger’s call.
Gille, have you lost your way on my mountain? Or have you finally taken me up on my offer of hospitality?
Bodhe’s head appeared, following shortly after the sound of his voice as it boomed through the hall’s main doors. The heavy wood creaked as he made his way through, his powerful hands pushing them open as though they weighed nothing. Gruoch knew that each door carried a considerable heft since they were a practical defence against both the cold winter winds and any marauding tribes or soldiers.
Though her father was shorter than Gille by at least two hands, his broad shoulders and ruddy face made for an imposing figure. If Gille was the bending birch tree, Bodhe was a stout pine, made to outlive and outlast its gentler, deciduous cousin. The sturdy logs of such pines had built their fortress and the walls that surrounded it, and Bodhe loved to recount how he and his men had felled those trees and built their homes themselves.
Crinan, the mysterious great-grandfather Gruoch had never met, had been blessed with an abundance of heirs. This blessing had meant an assurance of the line and guaranteed the younger children a liberty not afforded to their elder siblings. Some had been presented with an escape from the tediousness and constraints of court, and when Bodhe, a languishing middle son, had asked for this freedom, it had been gladly granted. Crinan had been pleased that his son would want to live so far north, further still than Inverness, the closest settlement of its size nearby. As Bodhe was fond of reminding his daughter, it was important that a leader lived out among his people and that he was seen often and everywhere. A man who could not live among his men was not a leader, and one who hid himself away in a castle could never hope to be the kind of man who inspired true love and confidence.
Her father had claimed these things, and as she did with most everything Bodhe told her, Gruoch held the advice close to her heart.
Gille’s smile was genial as he held out a waiting hand at Bodhe’s approach. Bodhe clasped it soundly and grinned, taking a step back as Gille slid down from his mount. He held out the reins without looking, and a young boy, who received a swift swat from his father as motivation, quickly grabbed for them.
Gruoch looked on at the travelling party and counted eight astride and twelve more on foot. Their stables were solid and well built and would probably house the additional horses along with Bodhe’s own, but it would be a tight fit should the twelve men a-ground be expecting to share the stable tonight.
Bodhe’s voice did not carry as he spoke to his friend. After a moment, the tall man clapped his host’s back and guided him toward the other riders, who were quickly dismounting. The men were dressed against the April chill, and Gruoch noticed that a few wore mantles of fur over their belted tunics, whose ornately trimmed sleeve cuffs and necklines denounced them as nobility. One of these, a man whose dark, coppery brown hair fell about his eyes, caught the girl’s stare as he pushed back the stray strands. He grinned openly at her and nudged a man to his right while he nodded in her direction. His companion, a black-haired man with an impressive beard, snorted in response and shoved his friend away from their horses and towards the main hall.
And what do you think you’ll spy, little eldr? A king?
Gruoch felt Hertha’s hand clamp onto her shoulder. The pinch of strong fingers and a rough whisper sent a fright through her body. A gasp flew from her mouth, and Gruoch clasped a hand to it as she was spun around, coming face to face with her guardian.
A king, Hertha?
Gruoch’s voice was muffled by the fingers that still hid her grin. Do you think so?
Hardly a king, little flame. A man pretending at kingship is more like.
Her tone was gruff, curt. Hertha looked past Gruoch and toward Gille, who was making his way into the hall, its heavy door held open by one of Bodhe’s men.
I knew he was not a king,
came Gruoch’s tart reply. He is not wearing a crown, and his tunic is made of too coarse a wool.
Hertha swatted at her charge’s head. Though she attempted to duck quickly, Gruoch’s movements were too slow to escape Hertha’s deft palms. While Gruoch felt a hand smack at the back of her head, the touch was gentle and failed to live up to the ferocious airs Hertha allowed her voice to adopt when she spoke to her charge.
It amused Gruoch that this voice was never so daring when it was addressed to her father.
The Norse woman had once travelled with the North Men who had sailed across the narrow seas from their pagan countries in swift longboats, armed with cruel axes and crueller intentions. Hertha sometimes told stories of her country, with its rocky shores and flat lands. She said it was a land that had existed before time and that her gods were even older than the Christian God and the Christ, his son, an idea that scandalized Gruoch while also filling her with a secret thrill. Hertha had been a healer in her home country as well as a warrior, and it was her skill with medicine that had kept her alive when Bodhe and his father had beaten the heathen northerners back to their ships and into the sea.
She claimed to have been shaped by the wind and toughened against the rocks. Whenever Gruoch took in Hertha’s pale blue eyes and ashen blonde hair, she found such a story easy to believe. There were deep-set lines at the corners of Hertha’s mouth and eyes, as though the years of scowling had etched them there permanently. She boasted that her knowledge of plants and ability to read the skies had come from the gods themselves, given over the centuries to humans who knew how to listen to them. Her knowledge of herb lore and healing was astounding, and her reputation had spread across her master’s territories.
She had been lady’s maid and protector to Gruoch since the death of Bodhe’s wife during his daughter’s sixth winter.
And Gruoch loved her.
"Aye, you’re a wise one yet, eldr," Hertha said, grabbing at a red braid and tugging it gently.
Gruoch pushed the hand away, smoothing the ginger plait back and away from her shoulder, letting it fall against her back. Such auburn locks were a trait in her family and in many of the families who lived across Moray. When she had still been a small child, enraptured with the wild woman’s magical potential, Gruoch had been told that she was eldr, which meant flame in the tongue of the Norsemen. Hertha had sworn that if the fire in Gruoch’s heart could but one day match the fire in her hair, she would be unstoppable.
Hertha had regaled Gruoch with stories of women in her native country who fought like demons alongside their men, riding their horses and carrying shields and blades. Gruoch didn’t much care for the idea of having to ride into battle and had told her guardian as much, reminding Hertha that Bodhe had been a more cunning warrior than she and her family of marauders. Under her father’s protection, the people of Moray could build their homes and raise their families, knowing that their lord would keep them safe whenever the heathen would-be conquerors chose to cross the bitter sea.
Leave at my hair, Hertha,
Gruoch said, trying to sound cross and authoritative. I’m not a child.
No, in this, you are right, little flame. I know this, you know this, and I suspect your father may have recently remembered it as well.
Gruoch narrowed her green eyes as she drew her shoulders back, trying and failing to appear imposing. What do you know, Hertha?
I know nothing, girl,
Hertha replied, turning away suddenly. But I know enough to know the things of which I know nothing about.
Then, she paused and looked back at Gruoch, smiling as the girl worked to decipher what she had heard.
The moment of levity was short-lived, and Hertha motioned impatiently to Gruoch that she should follow. Gruoch turned to cast one quick look back at the visitors. She caught a glimpse of the black-bearded man making his way into the hall, closely followed by the man with the rich brown hair, the one who had smiled at her. She felt a girlish flutter in her chest, though she resigned herself to tear her gaze away and follow Hertha away from the hall and towards the main house.
Does my father mean for me to marry?
Gruoch called her question ahead to Hertha, whose brisk pace kept her a few feet away. Oh please, God, Gruoch thought to herself as she felt her cheeks burn. Let it be the one with the hair in his eyes, the one who smiled at me. I think I should die to love so handsome a husband.
Hertha snorted derisively. The sound irritated Gruoch and shattered her hopeful mood. The girl bristled as she picked her way carefully through the yard. Hertha had never married, never borne children, and would ever be a slave in Bodhe’s house. Even though in her secret heart, Gruoch loved her foster mother dearly, Hertha’s response to her question had set Gruoch’s blood afire and quickened her temper. She forced herself to breathe, knowing that Hertha would take satisfaction from riling her.
Oh yes, marriage. What else in this world could you hope for or expect, girl? If you’re so anxious to wed, why not ask him directly? Do you have a suitor in mind? Could it be the rider I caught you staring at like a lovesick farmer’s daughter?
I am a farmer’s daughter,
Gruoch shot back.
You are a lord’s daughter, a prince’s daughter, and you ken it well.
Though the tone remained casual, Gruoch understood that Hertha had no intention of humouring any girlish fantasies. Your father might own these lands, might ride through them and may have the final say in what lives or dies here, but don’t make the mistake of thinking he is of the land and for the land in the way his tenants are.
Hertha walked up to the front door of their home and turned, waiting for Gruoch to catch up to her. "You aren’t one of them, eldr. You mustn’t ever forget that. They won’t."
And you mustn’t forget yourself, Hertha,
Gruoch told her as she walked past and through the open door. I am the lady of this house, and you will speak to me thus.
This time Hertha’s slap was true, and as Gruoch stepped through the threshold, she did so rubbing the back of her tousled head.
Hertha forced Gruoch to change her tunic and handed over one of delicate white linen whose cuffs had been carefully embroidered with decorative trim. She took out Gruoch’s windswept plait and combed thoroughly through the long, red hair, taking the time to smooth the locks and tame the tangles that inevitably found their way there. She smoothed the hair as best she could, using her spit-laden palm more than once in an effort to calm it. Once the waves had been somewhat smoothed, they left it hanging loose and flowing down Gruoch’s back.
The girl had been warned of the dangers of vanity and the virtues of modesty by the holy men who had travelled the road South, stopping to rest and preach in Bodhe’s hall. Still, she felt a secret thrill when the silk of her hair brushed against her neck or when she caught sight of it in a polished surface or still pool. She was sinfully proud of it and knew it was becoming, and Gruoch was pleased that Hertha had left it loose rather than braiding it back and away from the face in the crowned style of the Norse people.
When Hertha went to pin the folds of fabric at Gruoch’s shoulder, the girl was surprised to see her mother’s brooch in the older woman’s hand. Hertha handled it gently and pinned it to the mantle, securing two corners tightly. The thick fabric had been dyed a light purple, and Bodhe had purchased it from a travelling peddler a few seasons ago. It was another of Gruoch’s silly and secret pleasures, as she knew the purple favoured her colouring. Such fine things rarely saw the world outside their home, and her mother’s brooch never left the small hide bag that housed it. Gruoch watched breathlessly as Hertha passed the corners of the mantle through the circular ring, which she carefully pierced with the pin. The polished silver gleamed in the soft light.
Will we be dining in the hall with the men, the travellers?
Gruoch asked, trying and failing to keep an easy and casual tone.
Hertha looked at Gruoch sharply before busying herself with the folds of the mantle, making sure that they hung just right against the young girl’s back. Gruoch stood quietly and allowed Hertha to preen and tidy her charge as she saw fit. For all her grumblings and sharp words, Gruoch knew Hertha loved her almost as much as she herself loved the older woman. Though she was, in all reality, their prisoner, Hertha was a valued and trusted member of the household. Bodhe often listened to her stories of battle and went to her for healing. He had even built their hall, a long, low building made of wooden poles and mud, in the style of her countrymen. He had adorned it with tables for his tenants and any visiting dignitaries to use, and many meals had been served there during his tenure.
Remember that even an enemy is a source of knowledge and an opportunity to grow,
her father had often said while Gruoch sat adoringly at his knee, his rough hands petting her wild and burnished hair. He had claimed that the Romans had also adopted ideas and styles from the peoples they had conquered and that this habit had made them all the stronger. He valued the wisdom and opinions that Hertha brought to his home. He treated her accordingly: he had granted her stewardship over his only legitimate heir after the death of his wife, the only woman he would ever wed.
Am I beautiful, Hertha?
Gruoch’s voice was timid and low. The older woman paused in her work to look up, eyes harrowed by hard lines. Still, within them shone a light that was soft and sorrowful.
Eldr, you burn brighter than many, and many a man will you draw to your light.
Here she paused, reaching up to tuck a stray strand of red silk behind Gruoch’s ear. But remember that fire is a temporary thing: it can only burn while there is something to consume. So don’t let this concern with beauty be what consumes you. Instead, kindle your flame and nurture your spirit. Use your beauty if you will and remember that a woman must become adept at whatever weapons she has.
Why must everything be about fighting? Why can you not simply give me an answer? Speak plainly!
Hertha’s hands came to Gruoch’s face, and she held the head squarely and pulled the girl slightly closer. Her pale blue eyes looked deeply into the green ones that shone in the younger face.
Tread carefully tonight, Gruoch,
she said quietly. You are not your own. Protect your heart, and don’t be so quick to give it away.
The two women stood there for a moment with their gazes locked until Gruoch felt her neck begin to ache with the effort of leaning towards Hertha, and she gently pulled away. Hertha’s hands released their hold, and she stepped back quickly. Whatever softness had been in the troubled eyes was quickly smothered by the cool detachment that usually hung there.
Gruoch smoothed the front of her tunic and gently touched her mother’s brooch. She smiled at Hertha and nervously grabbed at a long lock of red hair, bringing it over her shoulder as she ran her fingers through the ends.
Your face holds every secret you hide in your heart, girl. You think you can mask your thoughts, but you are not as talented as you may think.
Hertha turned from her charge as she spoke and made her way toward the door. If you mean to survive, you will have to learn to lie.
The noise of the men in her father’s hall reached Gruoch before she and Hertha had stepped through the door. The raucous echoes of riotous laughter and booming voices carried through the longhouse, filling the space up into its rafters. The sound was only as strong as the smell of bodies, warm and unwashed after a long and muddy ride. Gruoch supposed that the riders had likely come from further North and were likely journeying South, as did most who passed through Bodhe’s lands and supped at his hall. These men were hungry and weary from their journey, and the hall, with its warm fires and crisp ales, offered a welcome respite from the hard road.
Hertha guided Gruoch towards the first table, where her father sat next to the tall man who had ridden at the company’s head. Bodhe’s balding head was bent near his guest’s, whose own light brown hair was speckled with slight hints of grey. The latter seemed to be regaling his host with some humorous tale not meant for a lady’s ear since he faltered in his words as he caught sight of their approach. Bodhe slapped his companion soundly on the back and urged him to continue, much to the apparent embarrassment of his guest. Gruoch turned her face away as she sat, as much to avoid whatever unsavoury topic was being chewed as to alleviate some of the speaker’s discomforts.
Hertha stood close behind as she often did when they had guests. She would sometimes dare to sit next to Gruoch at the table when the hall was quiet, but she kept her distance now, a mask of placid servitude sitting neatly over her usually fearsome features.
A serving girl brought over a plate of roasted rabbit, and Gruoch allowed another to fill her cup with ale, although she had never really developed a taste for the drink. Hertha would bring a cup of water when she could, but now with the eyes of her father’s guests upon her, Gruoch could hardly refuse to partake in what Bodhe had offered them as refreshment.
Her stomach was twisted into knots, such that the idea of eating any of the fragrant meal placed before her seemed unlikely and possibly treacherous. She concentrated on tearing tiny pieces of the meat and bringing small bites to her mouth, which she chewed nimbly and minutely. The rabbit had been young and prepared beautifully, and usually, Gruoch’s mouth would have watered at the smell of rosemary. Still, the many strange eyes that continuously caught her own when she looked up from her plate had killed whatever appetite the inviting odours had managed to conjure.
Daughter,
came Bodhe’s voice from her left. Gruoch.
She quickly dropped the small morsel she held in her fingers and wiped them on a small piece of linen on her lap. She turned to face Bodhe, making sure to garnish her face with a smile as radiant as she could muster through her nerves. As Gruoch looked, she met her father’s ruddy face and beaming expression and the quiet and equally nervous-looking face of his guest.
Yes, Father?
Again, Bodhe’s strong hand clapped soundly against the shoulders of the man to his right, sending the slighter man dangerously closer to his plate.
May I have the honour of introducing you to a friend of mine? Here sits Gille Coemgáin, nephew to the Mormaer.
Her father’s eyes danced in the light of the fires that burned nearby, and the twinkle that Gruoch found there could not have solely been blamed on an abundance of ale.
Gruoch understood then the cause for such feasting and merriment. The Mormaer acted as Steward for the King, keeping the territory safe and acting in the monarch’s stead. As the Mormaer’s kin, Gille was an important guest indeed.
My lord,
she said demurely, casting her eyes down and bowing her head respectfully. We have great respect for your uncle in this family. The Mormaer of Moray has kept our lands safe and free from Norse aggression for the better part of my life, and I am humbled to meet his kinsman.
Your words are kind, my lady,
Gille responded. His voice was low, much deeper than Gruoch would have credited to a man of his build. It was a smooth voice, temperate. It was the voice of someone used to speaking and having whatever he said obeyed. As he responded, their eyes met briefly, and Gruoch was shocked to see a hint of colour rise in his cheeks. She smiled gently and turned her attention quickly back to her meal. That a grown man who looked to be at least fifteen years her senior should blush at her words gave Gruoch a secret thrill. She could feel the burn of Hertha’s stare in the back of her head and ignored it. She decided to press the advantage.
There is kindness in what I say, but I hope foremost that you hear the truth in it. Our tenants have benefited from your uncle’s benevolence and leadership, and I am truly grateful to have had the chance to welcome you into my father’s hall.
Gruoch kept her voice sweet and light and tilted her head to look up at Gille through sweeping lashes. She dared a subtle look towards Bodhe, who, although possibly displeased at his daughter’s coquettish behaviour, still smiled warmly, his hand resting firmly between Gille’s shoulders. Gruoch knew it for a hand that held two meanings. The first was a touch for welcoming, an assurance that Gille was sacred and would be offered every protection as her father’s guest. The second meaning in that touch was that of a father who had warned another man of what awaited should he err in his step.
Gille appeared to have gleaned the double weight his host was conveying in the simple weight of his hand, and he turned in Bodhe’s direction, breaking his gaze away from Gruoch. She smiled to herself as he did so. Then, turning her attention back to her plate, Gruoch was pleased to find her appetite suddenly returned. She took a bite of the tender rabbit and drank from her cup, allowing the ale to wash away the smoky taste of animal flesh. She felt pleasantly drunk, her belly warmed by the knowledge that she had had such a noticeable effect on Gille. She knew that she had made a significant impression and succeeded in affecting him more strongly than she herself had been. She shifted slightly in her seat, darting her head discreetly to look back over one shoulder. Hertha stood but a few paces back, but her expression remained unreadable. Whatever Hertha may think of such behaviour, Gruoch was pleased with herself.
She allowed herself another smug taste of the bitter ale, but the glow of her self-satisfaction had her forgetting herself, and Gruoch drank greedily, causing a sharp cough to work its way from her throat. She hacked unpleasantly, sputtering into her drink and bringing a hand quickly to her lips in an effort to contain the cough. Gruoch was sure that her cheeks were now flaming as red as her hair. Any feeling of power and strength dissipated along with her pride. Had Gille seen?
She dared to look up from her plate in his direction, but the visiting lord was still turned away, heavy in some discussion with Bodhe about what Gruoch gathered to be unrest to the north in Orkney. Thank the heavens for small blessings, she thought, berating herself for such an unladylike act. Gruoch’s hands reached for her hair, smoothing it back and away from her face in a gesture made easy from habit. However, she felt her fingers freeze in their tracks as she happened to look out and catch the glance of a man who sat a few paces away at a nearby table.
The rider with the dark copper hair stared openly at Gruoch from his seat beside the man with the black beard, who was speaking in a fiercely animated fashion with the lord of Ross, who sat to his other side. Ross, a quiet yet intelligent man who had often worked closely with Bodhe, seemed more heated than usual and jabbed vigorously into the air with a hand as he explained some point to the black-haired visitor.
Blue eyes bored into hers, and Gruoch felt her cheeks warm suddenly with the heat of her returning blush. Her breath caught in her throat at the intensity of the man’s gaze, and she knew that she should turn away and cast her eyes somewhere else before someone noticed the immodest and blatant stare cast in her direction. Still, Gruoch found herself unable to look away. She could not tear her eyes from his for the sake of propriety nor for the fact that Hertha had surely noticed this man looking at Gruoch and would have harsh words for her later. Then, almost imperceptibly, the man nodded his head slightly in the direction of the door; his silent invitation made all the more evident by the rakish grin that suddenly adorned his face.
The brazen audacity of such a suggestion was enough to break the spell, and Gruoch tore her eyes away quickly, lowering her shoulders to square them sharply. She tilted back her face just enough to allow a regal look to return to her features. She turned her attention back to her father and Gille. As though feeling new eyes upon him, the latter turned back slightly in Gruoch’s direction and offered a small smile. She returned it shyly, letting her eyes drop down and away. Gruoch glanced towards the cup of ale and swiftly decided against risking another taste. She sat back into her chair, keeping her eyes cast down at the hands which lay clasped primly in her lap.
My lord mac Cináed, I wish to thank you for this gracious welcome and feast. My men and I are thankful for it.
The honour is mine in hosting the son of the Mormaer of this great territory. Please, Mac Bethad, tell me: how does your father, the lord Findlaech?
Startled at the sound of a new voice so close to her, Gruoch allowed her gaze to rise. She felt a sudden and swift heaviness in her heart as she looked upon the copper-haired man who stood suddenly within a few feet of her from his place before Bodhe.
He is well, your highness, and ever grateful for the continued peace with Alba and your just brother. I know Findlaech looks upon Duncan as a friend and ally to us brigands here in the North. Such grace makes it easy to pretend that the southern lords truly do view us as equals.
The man’s tone was light, and his face merry. He stood straight before his host with no sign of a dip to his head or shoulders. Although Bodhe considered himself a man of his people and more casual than most royals, he was still a prince and the brother of the reigning king of Alba to the south. Since Bodhe hailed from a kingdom to which the territory of Moray swore and paid fealty, it was bold of this stranger to speak so casually with her father.
Tread easy, cousin,
came Gille’s deep voice, whose assonance hinted at a slight warning. Remember in whose hall you have recently supped and whose ale you have been so generously partaking.
The man roared, throwing his head back and sending out a cacophonous sound of mirth. The laugh was loud but brief, and he smiled and nodded as its echoes quieted. He bowed his head slightly to Bodhe before winking openly in Gruoch’s direction as he caught her looking on. Shocked, she quickly busied herself by waving a serving girl over in search of a cup of fresh water.
My apologies to you and to your daughter, whom I seem to have most grievously offended.
Gruoch refused to look back in the stranger’s direction, choosing instead to keep a careful eye on the ministrations of the serving girl and the steadily rising level of water at her hand.
Bodhe laughed in response, a genuine sound of merriment and mischief.
Mac Bethad, only a warrior such as you could be so brave as to throw your weight around and flirt with my only child.
Her father’s voice was easy, and Gruoch heard no warning of menace or insult. But you seem to have turned Gruoch’s nose up higher than I have ever seen it go.
Gruoch ignored her father’s words and took a slow and careful drink from her cup. She took her time and allowed all three men to watch and wait for her response. Such a dance gave her precious time to think and allowed Gruoch to cast an illusion of grace back over her embarrassed features.
Not offended, Father,
she said finally. "I believe it is the