How to Have a Kid and a Life: A Survival Guide
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Continue to have and grow your life, Mom—for your sake and your kids’.
When did being a good mom come to mean giving up everything that used to make you … you? That’s the question millions of 21st-century mothers grapple with every single day as they parent in our madly kid-centric culture. Contrary to the incessant messaging from everywhere, committing to yourself and your own needs is what makes for a good mother and happy kids.
With How to Have a Kid and a Life, popular journalist and Good Morning America parenting expert Ericka Sóuter shares her tips for being a happy, whole person while still being a great, and sometimes just good enough (which is plenty fine), parent. Sóuter blends her own stories of surviving the seismic challenges of parenthood with testimonials from stay-at-home and working moms; interviews with therapists and researchers; and findings from the latest studies on happiness, self-care, and parenthood. What she delivers is a wonderfully irreverent survival guide to motherhood, featuring:
• Advice on keeping your career on track while parenting
• Tips for handling clueless and unhelpful partners
• Taking back ownership of your body
• Creating a reliable village of support (even with moms you didn’t think you’d like)
• Staying connected with child-free friends
• What to do if you feel like you’re missing the “mom gene”
Ericka Sóuter
Ericka Sóuter is a parenting expert on Good Morning America and other national network shows. With 20 years of journalism experience, she is a respected voice in parenting news and parenting advice. It’s her job to speak to parents across the country and to stay on top of the issues, controversies, and trends most affecting families today. Her work appears on CafeMom, mom.com, and additional sites that reach millions of parents monthly. She is a former staff writer for People magazine and Us Weekly, and her work has also been featured in Essence, Cosmopolitan, Self, HuffPost, and WebMD. Ericka received her bachelor’s degree from Georgetown University and a master’s degree from the Columbia University Graduate School of Journalism. A native of Ann Arbor, Michigan, she currently lives in New York City with her husband, Caleb, and her sons, Lex and Aidan. For more, visit erickasouter.com.
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How to Have a Kid and a Life - Ericka Sóuter
Introduction
A Reintroduction to Motherhood: The Baby Isn’t the Only Newborn in Your House
Idon’t think I have the mom gene," I used to tell friends with a laugh after a particularly tough day of being chauffeur, chef, hairstylist, laundress, maid, boo-boo healer, referee, mediator, homework helper, birthday organizer, and everything else motherhood entails. While I passed it off as a joke, I really did wonder if I was cut out for this. Was it this hard for everyone? Other women seemed so much more together. I couldn’t figure out how to manage it all — work, marriage, kids, breathing room. I felt lost. So when I came across research suggesting that there was an actual mom gene, I became obsessed with the idea. Then an editor at CafeMom, I wrote an essay asking if the discovery of a mom gene could be the reason some of us find motherhood so hard. Could it be that some of us are better at it because of biology? It really resonated with readers. So many had been struggling. Many more than I realized. It sparked conversations, not just about being maternal but also about all the other unspoken challenges of motherhood. That is when I knew I wanted to write this book.
Like so many first-time moms, I was under the naïve impression that living with a newborn would be the hardest adjustment to parenthood. After all, as soon as you announce that you are expecting, everyone who has ever been within five feet of a baby bombards you with warnings about sleep schedules, colic, and my personal fave, never being able to pee in peace again. It’s all well-meaning, of course, but it’s far from the complete truth. In those first several months, you will learn that the turbulence of life with a baby is not actually the toughest part of your newly minted mommy status.
I have had the great fortune to spend hundreds of hours talking to mothers across the country from different racial, ethnic, religious, and socioeconomic backgrounds. Some longed to be moms their entire lives. Others debated whether it was something they wanted up until the day they found themselves staring at those two lines on a pregnancy test. No matter their path to parenthood, they all shared one universal truth: what they desperately wanted and could not find were real, meaningful discussions about the confidence-shaking, anxiety-causing, what-the-hell-happened-to-me, and why-doesn’t-anyonesee-me-anymore reality of becoming a mother.
Before our blessed bundles arrive, our lives are filled with complications from work, romance, friendships, self-image, and much more. These issues become even more complex once kids are in the picture. New moms deal with everything from a sudden friction in their marriages to grown-up mean girls to navigating full-time careers alongside more-than-full-time motherhood. Perhaps Adrienne Rich captured it best in Of Woman Born:
No one mentions that psychic crisis of bearing a first child, the excitation of long-buried feelings about one’s own mother, the sense of confused power and powerlessness, or being taken over on the one hand and of touching new physical and psychic potentialities on the other, a heightened sensibility which can be exhilarating, bewildering and exhausting.¹
It’s enough to push you to the brink, but I’m here to tell you it doesn’t have to. We just need to change the way we think and talk about motherhood. You see, when you become a mom, you are not just giving birth to a baby. A new you emerges as well. And it can feel like a seismic change. In fact, back in 1973 medical anthropologist Dana Raphael (who coined the term doula) named this life shift matrescence. Sounds like adolescence, and that’s not by accident. According to Raphael, matrescence is like experiencing puberty all over again.
I turned to Dr. Aurélie Athan, a reproductive psychologist and Columbia University professor who has dedicated her life’s work to this subject, for a deeper understanding. She was looking at the psychology of women over a life span, which meant taking a look at how life-welcoming events like having a child affect us. Women were telling me about the good, the bad, the ugly, and the beautiful,
she effused. And they were telling me a lot about growth experiences, in the way they were stretched and deepened. They were telling me this was the most crippling and rewarding experience, both at the same time.
It was apparent that motherhood was two sides of the same coin. One superb, one savage.
We have been conditioned to think a woman becomes a mother as soon as she gives birth. Of course, that’s biologically true, but it’s nowhere near as simple as that. Shifting from autonomous human to mom is more akin to a journey rather than one signifying event. And like puberty, it can be awkward, ugly, and uncomfortable. Your body changes, you get pimples and stretch marks. You are moody, emotional, and easily irritated. It even mimics the relationships of adolescence in the sense that social dynamics change, people drop out of your life, and loyalties realign. Sounds fun, right? Don’t worry, you will survive. In fact, you will love it if you know what to expect.
This transition to motherhood is different for every woman, according to Dr. Athan. In that sense, there is no exact beginning and no exact end point. The start for each of us is what she calls the oh shit moment.
It’s the point when motherhood becomes real for you. For some, it could be the moment that all ten of those pregnancy tests you’ve peed on say positive or the first time you feel those quickening flutters in your pregnant belly. For Connecticut mom of two Natalie, it happened the second after her first baby was born. I felt for the first time in my life I was in the right place,
gushed the writer, who blogs about motherhood and mental health at NatsNextAdventure.com. It felt so peaceful. I was her mom.
That feeling doesn’t always happen right away. It didn’t hit Tomika, a single mom from Virginia, until weeks after her son was placed in her arms. Her parents had been with her in the beginning, and this helped smooth the start of motherhood, but when they left, it dawned on her that this was real. Her life would never be the same. She and only she was responsible for this baby’s survival.
What follows for each of us is a roller coaster in the truest sense. There are times you will be fraught but then rebound only to find yourself completely crazed again. This is the reason we can feel so much disorientation in those early days. And this process gets reawakened with every child and at every developmental stage because mothering a newborn requires a different set of skills than dealing with a preteen or a young adult. We are constantly evolving, learning, and getting little shell shocks along the way. When I explain the concept of matrescence to moms, the first question is usually, How do I avoid it?
Sorry. No escaping this one, but being aware of what’s ahead will make you feel a lot less crazy. Trust me.
One of the most common ways we respond to the ups and downs of motherhood is by giving more of ourselves — more time, more attention, more involvement, more, more, and more. Many of us forego our own passions and interests, our own friends, our own lives. And this, we are told, is the way it’s supposed to be. Even for those of us who return to work outside the home.
When we do appear to be coming apart at the seams, those around us love to encourage me time,
as if a thirty-minute mani-pedi or SoulCycle class is the cure for what ails us. The truth is, the requirements of modern motherhood can leave us feeling swallowed up whole, wondering, Where did I go? It’s fair to say that we are all well aware that motherhood will be hard. We just didn’t realize it would be this hard. The important question to ask is, What are we going to do about it? How do we move past talking or complaining and make meaningful change in our own lives?
I do think it’s possible to ease the transition to motherhood by truly understanding the changes that can and will occur in every aspect of our lives. And I don’t mean remedying that yucky cradle cap peeling off your baby’s scalp or the horrors of potty-training a three-year-old (the nightmare I am enduring as I write this). So much about our world becomes gnarled, from our sex lives to career paths and even our relationships with other women.
Why aren’t we talking about that?
If we start looking at motherhood as a time of change and development for us too, perhaps moms can start getting the care and attention they need as well. Think of it this way: when there is a speed bump ahead in the road, you adjust your speed so you can maneuver it more smoothly. Why can’t we prep for the pitfalls of parent life the same way? My greatest hope is that this short tome helps make that possible. I hope it teaches you three things:
1.It’s high time we all got authentic about what mothers go through beyond the day-to-day rigors of childcare.
2.Not loving every minute of family time does not make you a terrible person. Yes, this may be something you dreamed of and planned for, but real life brims with as many moments of joy as frustration. You have the right to feel however you feel about it, and you don’t need to apologize for that.
3.Though going forward you will forever be known as so-and-so’s mom, your existence is not defined only by the fact you have children. There will inevitably be a tug-of-war between our family’s needs and our own. It’s okay to win some of those rounds. Our happiness matters too.
One
The Myth of Modern Motherhood
WHAT TO REALLY EXPECT:
When you sacrifice everything for your children, you may be sacrificing your own happiness in the process.
When I first met Amanda, she was one week into motherhood, sitting in the middle of her living room floor surrounded by three huge foam tires, a bonnet that looked more like a swatch of designer Teflon, an indestructible steel frame, and what the instruction booklet called a brushed aluminum chassis, Whatever the hell that is,
she said, rolling her eyes. These were all parts of the overpriced, all-terrain stroller that, as so many web posts promised, would make outdoor walks with her baby a breeze. Though up to that very moment, it had only managed to leave her on the verge of tears.
As she stared at components that looked more like car parts than the makings of a must-have baby accessory, she couldn’t help but think about all those other smiling moms she’d seen tooling about Manhattan with babies in Bugaboos. By comparison, she didn’t know how she was going to even make it out the door, much less through the next eighteen years. She read all the books and blogs, bought all the right stuff, but she felt like a disaster.
I’m a hot mess,
she confessed, hair sweat-soaked and heart pounding as her daughter wailed in the nursery a few feet away.
But even after she managed to assemble the stroller, an overwhelming unease lingered for weeks, then months, and then years. Going into all this, I wasn’t delusional about motherhood, I knew it would be hard,
she conceded. Amanda understood that having it all
was a load of bull, unless you could somehow defy the space-time continuum. The one thing she didn’t expect was to sacrifice so much of what she loved about the life she had spent the previous three decades building. One day I’m a career woman moving up the ladder, and the next I feel like I’m drowning taking care of a baby, keeping the house from looking like a total wreck, cooking dinner, and somehow figuring how to still kick ass at work,
she thoughtfully lamented. It’s like I’m constantly treading water with land nowhere in sight.
The Happiness Gap
It’s a frightfully common refrain among women the world over. A study of twenty-two countries reported that parents in the United States tend to be unhappier than nonparents.¹ The researchers call this the parenting happiness gap, and American parents proved to be the most miserable. The reasons are manifold. Yes, kids bring an undeniable amount of joy to our lives — and the respondents said as much. But they are also exhausting and expensive, and US parents have the added pressure of dealing with poor maternity/paternity, vacation, and sick leave policies; unsubsidized childcare; and very little work flexibility. Among the hundreds of mothers I interviewed, most admit the problem is in the chasm between what they thought parenthood would be like and what it is like in reality. It’s a basic issue of expectation versus stark reality.
No matter how much you read about parenthood or how often you watch your friends juggling life, work, and kids, you can’t possibly prepare for what it’s going to feel like to you.
On top of that, there is the unrelenting social pressure that makes motherhood so punishing. The Pew Research Center released findings showing that women face more pressure than men to be involved parents and more than one-third fear they don’t give their kids enough attention.² You are expected to take care of the kids, pick up your career without missing a beat, take care of the house, and have sex with your husband,
explained professor Elizabeth Velez, a lecturer in the Women’s and Gender Studies program at Georgetown University. Meeting all those expectations is impossible.
An Epidemic of Mommy Malaise
By her own estimation, Amanda wasn’t doing anything well — not mothering, not marriage, and certainly not work. Somehow taking care of her children and carving out time to focus on herself were incompatible goals. When she did do something selfish,
like take a work-related seminar on the weekend, she felt guilty, and that guilt plagued her. Though perhaps more dismaying is the fact that she had resigned herself to believing that this is how motherhood is supposed to be. How it has to be.
It’s not about us, right?
she asked rhetorically.
It’s a comment I’ve heard countless times. That is the way we’ve been taught to think about parenthood. Children come into this world vulnerable and needy, so naturally they should be our top priority. At the same time that women have been pressing for social and economic parity with men, the fundamental parenting duties still fall on us. And somewhere along the line, being an attentive, good parent became synonymous with giving up all the other things that were important in our lives. It meant sacrificing everything that made you, you.
As time ticked on, Amanda focused less and less on the goals and hopes for herself she had long held. She felt as though each year she lost more of what made her special and unique. This feeling of losing her core identity made her unhappy, and the guilt about feeling unhappy made her even more depressed. She wasn’t alone. This mommy malaise has become the rule rather than the exception. A 2015 German study found that being a parent actually creates more unhappiness than divorce, unemployment, or even the death of a spouse.³ This cannot be the way mothers are meant to exist in this