The Wisdom of Anxiety: How Worry and Intrusive Thoughts Are Gifts to Help You Heal
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A counselor in the depth psychology tradition shows readers there's nothing to fear from anxiety
“The Wisdom of Anxiety serves as a well-lit pathway to the truth of who we are and to how to navigate life when paralyzed by anxiety, depression, overwhelm, and a sense of hopelessness.” —Alanis Morissette, singer-songwriter
Work anxiety. Relationship anxiety. Social anxiety. World anxiety. Money anxiety. Health anxiety.
How does reading those words make you feel?
All too often, when we experience the things that give us anxiety, our first instinct is to try to run away or numb out from feeling them. But what if the unpleasant feelings you want to turn away from are actually vital sources of information about your well-being?
In The Wisdom of Anxiety, counselor Sheryl Paul examines the deeper meaning of the racing thoughts, sweaty palms, and insomnia that accompany the uncertain moments of our lives. No one likes to feel anxiety—and yet, Paul asserts it can be a remarkably direct messenger of our subconscious. Here you will learn how you can pause and listen to your anxieties to discover inner truths that you’ve been avoiding.
This lyrically written book not only considers the many forms anxieties can take, but also provides deep-dive practices for addressing them at their roots.
Here you will learn:
The nature of intrusive thoughts and how to manage them.How to explore states of loneliness, apathy, regret, and shame without being caught up in them.Feeling anxiety around feeling good? Discover why and what to do about it.How to cultivate your own loving inner parent.Why anxiety can arise from boredom and longing.How to create healthy and meaningful personal rituals to relieve anxiety.Navigating the many sources of anxiety in relationships.
Whether it’s worry around raising children, nervousness about world events, or any other way anxiety manifests, The Wisdom of Anxiety can help you uncover the true source of your discomfort and find the rich self-knowledge within.
Sheryl Paul, MA
Sheryl Paul, MA, has guided thousands of people worldwide through her private practice, bestselling books, online courses, and website. She lives in Colorado with her husband and two sons. For more, see conscious-transitions.com.
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The Wisdom of Anxiety - Sheryl Paul, MA
INTRODUCTION
ANXIETY IS A DOORWAY
Carl Jung said that if you find the psychic wound in an individual or a people, there you also find their path to consciousness. For it is in the healing of our psychic wounds that we come to know ourselves. . . . In the evolution of consciousness, our greatest problem is always our richest opportunity.
ROBERT JOHNSON
We: Understanding the Psychology of Romantic Love
Anxiety is the wound of our times. According to the World Health Organization, 260 million people are diagnosed with anxiety worldwide — and millions more are without a diagnosis. These numbers clearly indicate that we are living in an age of anxiety. This profound psychic wound crosses all boundaries by which we typically classify ourselves, for anxiety, like loss, is one of the great equalizers: it doesn’t matter how old you are, where you live, what you look like, how much money you make, your sexual orientation, or your gender — eventually everyone will meet anxiety in the dark of night.
While the nature of the wound is clear, what is less clear from a mainstream perspective is how to address it. Guided by a Western mindset that seeks to erase pain in all forms (physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual), most people see anxiety and its cohort of symptoms as something to hide, deny, distract from, or eradicate. What we don’t realize is that when we regard anxiety only as a problem and seek to eliminate the symptoms, it is pushed underground, where it’s forced to rise back up with greater intensity, and we also miss the rich opportunity to evolve both individual and cultural consciousness that anxiety invites.
For anxiety is both the wound and the messenger, and at the core of the message is an invitation to wake up. In order to decipher the specifics of its messages, we have to shift from a mindset of shame, which sees anxiety as evidence of brokenness, to a mindset of curiosity, which recognizes that anxiety is evidence of our sensitive heart, our imaginative mind, and our soul’s desire to grow toward wholeness. Anxiety, when approached from the mindset of learning, directs you to something deep inside that needs to be seen, a call from soul to pay attention, an invitation from the wellsprings of being to turn inward and heal at the next layer of growth.
One element that reduces the shame around anxiety is knowing that you’re not alone; normalization causes shame to shrink. From the cross section of my worldwide audience, I hear the same symptoms and thoughts: What if I married the wrong person?
What if I have a terminal illness?
What if I run out of money?
What if something horrible happens to someone I love?
What if I hurt my baby?
These are all clues that anxiety is the wound of our times and that we’re in the territory of the collective unconscious. Carl Jung coined the term collective unconscious
to describe the part of the mind that is common to all humans; and these thoughts, emerging from a shared psyche, point to the archetypal themes and stories where anxiety constellates: relationships, health, money, parenthood, the need for safety and security. Over the years, clients have shared these thoughts in hushed tones, but because I write about them weekly on my blog, they know that they’re not alone. One of the blessings of the internet is that the contents of the collective unconscious, formerly only accessible via dreams and myths, are now more widely accessible. You are far from alone with your anxiety, no matter how it manifests.
Anxiety’s emissaries arrive in many forms: worry, intrusive thoughts, obsessions, compulsions, insomnia, somatic symptoms. If we greet these emissaries with shame and try to sequester them into the far down, hidden recesses of psyche, they will gather in numbers and strength until we are forced to listen. As they scream for attention, the culturally induced, shaming voices take over and say, You’re broken. You’re fundamentally wrong. These thoughts and symptoms are evidence that there’s something deeply, pathologically wrong with you. Don’t talk about. Don’t admit it. Try to get rid of it as quickly and cleanly as possible.
Seeing anxiety and intrusive thoughts as wise manifestations of the unconscious is a vastly different view — and a much more hopeful and life-enhancing view — of anxiety than the one our culture holds. For what I’ve witnessed over the last twenty years of working closely in the underworld of psyche is that when we turn toward our symptoms instead of medicalizing and pathologizing them, we begin to gather our gold. Anxiety is a doorway into a self that longs for wholeness. Our symptoms, when honored, lead the way. When you meet your darkest, most uncomfortable places with a mindset of curiosity and compassion, you transform, and your life expands in untold ways. I’ve seen it countless times with my clients, my course members, my friends, my children, and in my own life. The same can be true for you.
Brazil: My Initiation into Anxiety
There were several pivotal events in my life that invited me to realign with my soul, times when my inner self grabbed me by the ankles and dragged me into the underworld. The first, and most powerful, was a panic attack that broke me open when I was twenty-one, a few months before I graduated from college. It was that panic attack and the subsequent years of drowning in daily anxiety that shattered my illusion of my perfect life.
It destroyed my glass castle of superiority, the belief that I was beyond suffering, created and confirmed by years of immersion in an education system that rewarded me for being school-smart. It destroyed my conviction that I had the right answers, or any answers. In short, it brought me to my knees in all ways — from heart palpitations to a phobia of driving that ensued after that first panic attack to night terrors and nightmares that punctuated my sleep for years. And yet, from the ashes, the pain, and the total destruction of life as I had known it, a new life — and a life’s work — was born. This is how our unconscious, working through anxiety and its sisterhood of symptoms, invites us toward wholeness: we’re broken open, brought to our knees, dragged into the underworld not to be tortured or because there’s something wrong or disordered with us, but because there’s something right and beautiful inside that is longing to be seen and known.
The seeds of my panic attack had been planted a year before and were intimately connected to a trip to Brazil my junior year of college. I never planned to go to Brazil. Having spoken Spanish throughout high school and into college, I had always planned to travel to Spain. But then the Brazil bug bit me: I had taken a Brazilian dance class the summer after my first year of college, and I was hooked by the dance and the culture. I danced all summer. I danced through the next year and immersed myself in Brazilian music. Quite impulsively, I changed my plans and set into motion an experience that would alter the course of my life.
In January 1990, instead of getting on a plane to Spain, I headed for Salvador, Brazil, where I was immediately pummeled when the fantasy I had built up in my mind clashed hard with the reality I encountered. In a single moment, I was yanked from my safe, clean, upper-middle-class life and hammered down into the middle of a life I had never known on any level. I lived in favelas where cockroaches the size of snails lined the floors and ceilings in such numbers that white paint seemed black; I witnessed a man get shot during Carnival; I daily walked past pools of fresh blood on the streets; I nearly drowned in a sudden riptide; I had trouble finding anything healthier than Guaraná to drink (basically sugar water). For months, I ate what I thought were crushed peanut cakes from vendors on the side of the road only to learn at the end of the trip that they were actually crushed shrimp cakes that had been sitting in the hot sun all day. All my systems, from the physical to the spiritual, were on high-alert overload.
Those four months terrified me, yet they were also what initiated me into an essential breakdown that would lead to following the bread crumbs of anxiety and panic into my true self. Some people are initiated through ancient rites in the middle of a forest. Some people are initiated through a crisis of health, relationship, or faith. I was initiated in Brazil. And when I look back now, I can clearly see that I was pulled to Brazil by invisible forces: the dance, the music — something unnamable led me there. It was out of character for me to be so impulsive, but nothing was going to stop me; I had to go. I had to be broken open. The story of my life as I had known it — that I was somehow above suffering — had to shatter so that the underworld of hidden pain that lived inside the polished persona could emerge and be healed.
We’re all offered experiences that break us open to our core. One of the fatal flaws of our culture is that we take everything at face value and fail to see the metaphor, which, itself, contains the keys to healing. When a client comes to me convinced that he has cancer, regardless of the fact that he received a clean bill of health the week before, it takes time to quiet the ego’s convincing story enough to explore the deeper underpinnings that are longing to be known. If we remain attached to addressing the anxiety at the level of the story — which usually looks like seeking endless reassurance — we’ll remain stuck in anxiety. But if we can crack open the story and see that the fear of cancer, for example, is pointing to a need to develop tolerance for uncertainty and explore the metaphor that something is eating away
at one’s heart or soul, shifts begin to occur.
In my story, Brazil wasn’t the problem. In fact, it took me years to understand that Brazil was the screen onto which my own unworked shadow — the pain, fear, and trauma that had to be shoved down in my first twenty years in order to keep going — was projected. Because Brazil carried my shadow, I couldn’t see its beauty; I only saw the terror and despair that lived inside of me reflected in my surroundings. And it took having a panic attack while driving down the 405 freeway in Los Angeles for the shadow to rise to the surface where I could finally see it, work with it, and heal.
The ensuing years, which were the decade of my twenties, were both painful and transformative. In my early twenties, I entered a graduate program in depth psychology, which helped me begin to make sense of my anxiety through the lens of Jungian theory, which understands that symptoms are messengers from the unconscious, inviting us to grow toward wholeness. In my midtwenties, after working with a series of mediocre therapists, I landed on the couch of a brilliant man who guided me through the terrain of anxiety and helped me navigate my inner landscape. I read voraciously about transitions and wrote my first book, The Conscious Bride, which explores the underbelly of the wedding rite of passage. I began to work with clients struggling through their own transitions, especially around relationships, and helped them understand the invitations and metaphors embedded in their presenting stories.
None of this would have happened without Brazil. For years I regretted that experience, until eventually I realized that Brazil was my soul’s way of forcing me to grow. It wasn’t an accident; and your life isn’t an accident either — not your anxiety, your wounds, your failures, or your traumas. In fact, the great sages teach that the seed for healing lives at the center of each trauma, meaning that your greatest challenge will also be your greatest strength. When I look back on Brazil, I know that it was through that experience that my inner world demanded to be known. Anxiety and panic were the doorways that led me to peel away the layers of pain and adapted persona that needed to be shed so that I could live closer to my true self. Anxiety is your doorway, too.
A Road Map Through Anxiety
This book will guide you step-by-step through the necessary mindsets and tools that will help you transform your relationship to anxiety so that you can release yourself from its grip and learn to decode its messages.
In part 1, I will clearly define anxiety and its symptoms as well as articulate the origins and causes of anxiety. I discuss the three pillars that allow the sensitive soul — and what I’ve come to see over the years of working with thousands of people is that we are all, to varying degrees, sensitive souls — to navigate successfully through life: understanding who you are and how you’re wired, understanding how transitions are crucial breaking and renewal points that can either calcify or heal layers of anxiety, and offering the foundational keys of curiosity, compassion, stillness, and personal responsibility, which allow you to transform anxiety from a burden to a gift. I will also discuss the most challenging roadblock that appears anytime we set out in the direction of healing: resistance.
In part 2, I will guide you through the four realms of self — body, thoughts, emotions, and soul — so that you can learn to decipher the messages embedded in each realm. My work is holistically based, which means that, while most approaches address anxiety from a physical (somatic healing), emotional/psychological (some talk therapy), or cognitive (behavioral therapy and most talk therapies) perspective, my work encompasses all three of these areas plus a fourth: our soul. As I view anxiety not as something to get rid of but as a call for healing, part 2 will help you understand that anxiety is a messenger that is pointing to unmet needs and unhealed places in all four realms.
In part 3, I will explore how anxiety shows up in your intimate relationships with friends, partners, and children. Because our culture sends the erroneous message that fear and love are mutually exclusive and doesn’t understand the paradoxical nature of love in all forms, when anxiety appears in our relationships, it’s easy to believe that there’s something wrong. This section explodes that belief and replaces it with a model that supports healthy love and mindful parenting so that we don’t allow shame and anxiety to tear at the fabric of our most sacred and meaningful relationships.
In each section, I’ll share stories both from my clients’ experiences and moments of my own life that highlight how to sink below the surface of anxiety and tap into the wellsprings of wisdom that it offers. These stories will teach in a spiral as opposed to a linear fashion, meaning I’ll write about tending to grief in the chapter on transitions and reference back to transitions when talking about grief. Despite what the culture teaches, learning isn’t linear, but follows the circular, spiral rhythm of the soul. This book, while organized into chapters, follows the soul rhythm as well.
Throughout the book, I’ll be offering both on-the-spot practices and deep-dive practices for healing from anxiety. On-the-spot practices are actions you can take in the moment, anywhere, at any time: in a meeting, on the elevator, in the airplane, at a party, in bed at night. They won’t heal the anxiety from the root, but they’ll help you move through a high-anxiety moment and will also help you take anxiety a few notches down in general so that you can engage in the deeper practices.
The deep-dive practices are those that will heal anxiety from the ground up and help you decipher its messages. These are practices that I’ll be encouraging you to engage with every day, preferably when you first wake up in the morning (before you grab your phone) and at night before you go to sleep. As you read through the pages of this book, you will glean a lot of information about the roots of your anxiety, and this information will likely translate into personal insight. Write down these aha moments as they arise, either in the margins of this book or in a journal. Then use these insights as springboards from which to engage regularly with the deep-dive practices. Insight is essential, but it’s action that metabolizes the insight into your body and heart and result in change. It’s a simple formula: insight + action = change. If you want to break free from anxiety, practice is key.
While all the tools are designed to be practiced on your own, inner work is infinitely more effective when we’re witnessed and guided by a skilled professional. As such, if you’re not currently in therapy, I recommend finding a therapist who can work alongside you on this journey. Throughout history, humans have sought counsel from mentors and shamans, religious figures and teachers, and for many modern people, therapists fill those roles. We are not meant to figure life out on our own. Also, don’t hesitate to share this book with your therapist. While they will have their own model and mindset from which they work, good therapists will always be open to learning new philosophies and tools that might help their clients, and possibly even themselves, grow and