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512 pages, Kindle Edition
First published July 2, 2024
“Hate me enough to make me want you.”
“Let me dance for the both of us.”
“Let me swim for the both of us.”
"she's a phantom in human form. like trying to catch the wind in your fist, unable to see it even while feeling it slip between your fingers."
“do i haunt your dreams, plague your thoughts, like you do mine?”
“and then she smiles, bright and big like the night sky hanging above us. i fear she could rival the stars.”
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🗡️ 🏹 . 𖦹˙— "for the reckless souls who dare to love and be loved"
' Do I haunt your dreams, plague your thoughts, like you do mine?'
She’s alluring in the way most deadly things are. It’s captivating. No. No, it’s terrifying. It’s supposed to be terrifying, still thinking of her as something I’m trying to deserve. Still deeming her worthy of my desire. But she’s not. No matter what has already happened between us. She’s my prisoner and my mission. She is nothing to me.
“One landmark closer to my death.”
I look away to the street below us, not wanting to think about the possible truth in her words. I hate that I don’t know what Kitt plans for her. Or worse, what he plans for me to do to her.
My life is not my own. And, for that reason, she can never be mine.
𓏲 ₊♡𓂃There is such beauty in resilience, in the ability to laugh despite it all.⋆𓂃ִֶָ ⊹˚
⚔️𝓛𝓸𝓷𝓰 𝓡𝓮𝓿𝓲𝓮𝔀 & 𝓢𝓹𝓸𝓲𝓵𝓮𝓻𝓼 𝓐𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓭⚔️
❥𝓜𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱𝓽𝓼💭 ˖⁺. ༶ ⋆˙⊹
❥𝓚𝓪𝓲🖤˖⁺. ༶ ⋆˙⊹
🌹Her laugh alone could cure the most corrupted parts of me, and that is exactly what it's done since the day I met her.🌹
❥ 𝓟𝓪𝓮💙 ˖⁺. ༶ ⋆˙⊹
🍃He is my anchor, and I am willing to sink, so long as it is with him.🍃
❥𝓚𝓲𝓽𝓽💛˖⁺. ༶ ⋆˙⊹
❥𝓛𝓮𝓷𝓷𝔂❤️˖⁺. ༶ ⋆˙⊹
If she is Shadow, then I am Flame.
This girl is the very thing I can't seem to escape- can't seem to go anywhere without the remnants of her following. Where I am, she is. Whether it's in the flesh or in the fragments of my mind.
And where there is a flame, there is always a shadow.
She is my inevitable.
“I'm sick of running. And I won't spend the rest of my life doing it unless it's you I'm running back to.”
“Then I'll spend the rest of my life tracking you down,” he says quietly. “Glimpsing you in the shadows. Fighting you in the streets. Dancing with you in my dreams. Because living without you is only bearable when I know you are out there still living too.”
I used to welcome the idea of drowning in those blue eyes of hers. But now, seeing the disdain she stares me down with, I realize that drowning alone wasn't what I craved, but sinking together.
“Out here I am Kai and nothing more.” His throat bobs. “Out here I am powerless. A monster without an ability to hide behind. An Enforcer free from his masks. A man shouting his love for a woman.”
He continues to kiss my thumb, helping me wipe away every tear decorating my face. My eyes are puffy, face splotchy, but he looks at me with a reverence reserved for religion.
But I'm tired of breaking. Tired of having to lug around pieces of myself that I'm too tired to fit back together.
“Dammit, the minute you threw a dagger at my head, I knew I was done for. There was no longer a before you, only what I wanted with you.”
He's hurt. And I hate it.
That realization might just anger me more.
Because it is then that I understand just how terribly I will hurt anyone who dares hurt him.
Because, despite it all, I've come to realize that there is little I wouldn't sacrifice for him.
“Prove it to me, Gray,” I murmur against her ear. “Hate me enough to use me.”
“Touch her again,” he snarls, voice low, “and I'll slit your throat. She's mine.”
“Do I haunt your dreams, plague your thoughts, like you do mine?”
“Go on, my Silver Savior,” he muses bitterly. “Be my undoing.”
Seeing her enjoy life makes surviving mine suddenly worth it.
She tastes like a piece of the heaven I won't be going to.
We were inevitably imperfect for each other.
Kissing her is relief.
It's a delicate sort of demand.
She was supposed to be my forever.
Now I'll watch her become someone else's.
Because the beast doesn't get the beauty.
𓏲 ₊♡𓂃This is not how I will remember us. Not as enemies or traitors or monsters, but as two people dancing in the dark, swaying beneath the stars. Her feet atop mine, her head on the heart that beats only for her.
Just Pae and Kai.⋆𓂃ִֶָ ⊹˚
⊹ ⏜ ۫ . “you cannot be nothing when you
are everything to someone else.” 𓈒⠀ ໑ ׄ
જ⁀➴ 6 stars!! ☆
°˖➴ if the six stars wasnt enough, i loved this. i think that it was better than powerless tbh, and powerless is my favorite book of all time. the writing in this had improved, less tropey, less grammatical errors. i also thought that this was js sm better book as a whole. a lot of things were explained and make more sense now. also, the ending absolutely crushed me. i dm'd lauren roberts on instagram asking her why she would torture us with an ending like that.