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⁀➷ ❝𝒎𝒚 𝒃𝒊𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 13,❞ 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒏𝒐𝒏 𝒔𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒆𝒅. ❝𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒊’𝒎 𝒌𝒆𝒆𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒈 13.❞

the title drop>>>>>
my heart goes boom🥺

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𝓼𝓹𝓸𝓲𝓵𝓮𝓻 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓮 𝓻𝓮𝓿𝓲𝓮𝔀

”i don’t want easy, i want you. just the way you are. every part and every piece.”
”even the broken parts?”
he winked. “especially the broken parts.”

i’ll be happily suffering from shannonjohnny brainrot for the rest of my life. these books have altered my brain chemistry in a way no other book has and i fear no other book ever will. the emotional depth this series already has within the first two books is incredible. there’s nothing i love more than having a deeply emotional experience while reading. it’s why i fell in love with reading and this series is delivering that experience with full force. my heart physically hurts thinking about what’s to come, but i couldn’t be more excited to continue simply because as heartbreaking as these books are, they’re very healing at the same time. binding and keeping 13 are absolute masterpieces. i’m so sad that i won’t be reading johnny and shannon’s pov anymore. it’s a very bittersweet moment, but i can’t wait to eat up all the breadcrumbs of them in the upcoming books🤭

°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

❥ 𝓅𝓁𝒶𝓎𝓁𝒾𝓈𝓉:
- 𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙗𝙮 𝙘𝙝𝙧𝙞𝙨 𝙗𝙧𝙤𝙬𝙣
- 𝙝𝙪𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧 𝙗𝙮 𝙧𝙤𝙨𝙨 𝙘𝙤𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙢𝙖𝙣
- 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙞 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙣𝙚𝙚𝙙 𝙗𝙮 𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙣 𝙢𝙖𝙝𝙤𝙣𝙚
- 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙞 𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙗𝙮 𝙢𝙞𝙡𝙚𝙮 𝙘𝙮𝙧𝙪𝙨
- 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙢𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙤 𝙗𝙮 𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙞𝙚 𝙜𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙𝙞𝙣𝙜
- 𝙤𝙘𝙚𝙖𝙣 𝙗𝙮 𝙢𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙞𝙣 𝙜𝙖𝙧𝙧𝙞𝙭 𝙛𝙩. 𝙠𝙝𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙙
- 𝙮𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙤𝙬 𝙗𝙮 𝙘𝙤𝙡𝙙𝙥𝙡𝙖𝙮

❥ 𝓂𝓎 𝓉𝒽𝑜𝓊𝑔𝒽𝓉𝓈:
this book is a RIDE. an emotional rollercoaster that i never wanted to get off of. it feels like my mind is empty because my emotions have completely taken over. i was in no way prepared for this book to be heavier than the first. the first three chapters ALONE were heavier than the entire first book😭i wish i was lying. i could barely get through it and to think i’m going to have to relive that in another character’s pov makes me so fucking sick. i can’t believe i went so long without reading these books. i can’t imagine myself not knowing these precious characters and their stories. i hope i find this series in every single life time.

❥ 𝓅𝓁𝑜𝓉:
i gave a plot summary in my review for binding 13. since this is the second book, i’m not going to say as much about it. there was a cliffhanger at the end of book 1 and book 2 just throws you straight into it. i really want to stress how heavy the topics are. my heart aches and i’ve never cried sm. also the ANXIETY? i’ve never had to set a book down and take breaks as much as i had to with this one, but that’s really just the power of a good book. i love it. i’m a masochist. painful books are my favorite. i need therapy😀

❥ 𝓌𝓇𝒾𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔/𝓅𝒶𝒸𝒾𝓃𝑔:
the way chloe wrote these heavy topics…so raw and so real, giving you a very painfully detailed picture of what these characters go through. it’s such a talent. a talent i wish i had. i love the writing style. these books are very long, but it truly doesn’t feel like it and i find myself wishing that the books were longer. if you know how to write a good book, i don’t care how long it is…GIMME😩

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”what do you need from me, shannon?” he croaked out, voice thick and husky. “i’ll give you anything you need, baby.” shaking his head, he groaned like he was in pain. “i just…i want to make you happy.”
”you,” i whispered. “all of you.”
”i’m already yours,” he groaned, before covering my lips with his.
╰┈➤their love could move mountains.

❥ 𝒿𝑜𝒽𝓃𝓃𝓎 𝓀𝒶𝓋𝒶𝓃𝒶𝑔𝒽

⁀➷ ❝i don’t know where that strength comes from, but it’s so humbling. i don’t even have the words to tell you how fucking incredible you are, shannon lynch.❞

i didn’t know that it was possible to fall even more in love with johnny kavanagh, but that’s exactly what happened. all men need to read about him and take notes, i’m so serious😭i absolutely love how johnny puts his very all into every single thing he does. he works so hard for his future as a rugby player, but at the same time he shows up for the people he cares about. he’s a man that doesn’t have a lot of time to spare, but makes time when he is needed. i can’t get over how good of a person he is🥺

❥ 𝓈𝒽𝒶𝓃𝓃𝑜𝓃 𝓁𝓎𝓃𝒸𝒽

⁀➷ ❝i’m here for johnny the boy. not johnny the rugby player. i’ll stay for both, but i’m only in love with one.❞

her character development omg, thinking about it makes me wanna cry for HOURS. she’s so special to me and seeing her come out of her shell was the most beautiful thing. she found her voice and i couldn’t be more proud of her🥹no matter what she’s going through, she still manages to be there for the people who need her. she’s so incredibly strong and i can’t stress that enough. i don’t know how i’d handle it if i were her. i’d completely shut down. but shannon? she keeps going. she pushes through everything. i love her so much😔

❥ 𝓇𝑜𝓂𝒶𝓃𝒸𝑒:

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𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈:
𝒔𝒂𝒚 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒐𝒏’𝒕 𝒍𝒆𝒕 𝒈𝒐 𝒃𝒚 𝒋𝒂𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒉𝒖𝒓
2:04 ──────|─── 3:32
↻ ◁ 𝕀𝕀 ▷ ↺
𝒗𝒐𝒍𝒖𝒎𝒆: ■■■■■□□□
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”you make me feel like i’m enough as i am.”
”you are enough,” i breathed, wrapping my hand around his neck. “just as you are right now.”
╰┈➤the song choice paired with this moment was too perfect😩

seeing their relationship blossom was everything. it’s so hard to believe that they’re just teenagers because of their maturity level. the way they communicate and make decisions together based on what they want their future to look like is just mwah mwah mwah, chef’s kiss! what johnny and shannon have is true love and i felt it so deeply while reading about them🥹i loved watching them navigate through life together. shannon was going through such a pivotal moment in her life, but was still pushing johnny to chase his dreams. she’s so selfless because as much as she needed him, she couldn’t take one of the biggest parts of his life away. they’re absolute perfection. the standard. this is the type of relationship you should want and the type of relationship that i’m proud to have in real life<3

❝𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒔𝒎𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒉𝒐𝒎𝒆.❞
❝𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒉𝒐𝒎𝒆.❞

❥ 𝓈𝒾𝒹𝑒 𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓇𝒶𝒸𝓉𝑒𝓇𝓈:
i’m eating the found family trope up. it’s TOO good.

➸ edel & john kavanagh:
JOHNNY’S PARENTS!?!? they stand on business. they’re literally my favorite people ever oh my god😭it’s no wonder why johnny kavanagh is so perfect…he’s literally the son of two saints. protect this family at all costs. it’s the way i want a book with their pov so bad😩

➸ tadgh, ollie, & sean lynch:
shannon and joey’s little brothers are the cutest i can’t. tadgh is so funny and his banter with gibsie had me on the floor. ollie is the sweetest boy. him calling edel, “dellie”, is the cutest fucking thing. AND SEAN????? oh my god. i’m pretty sure he’s 3 years old and the way he says that johnny is “my onny” had me screaming and crying into my pillow. i can’t. they’re so precious and every moment involving them had me like🥺🥹

➸ joey lynch:
his pov in his two books WILL kill me. i literally won’t survive.

➸ aoife molloy:
i can’t wait for her pov because i already love her so much. her beating the shit out of bella was my one of my favorite scenes LMAOO what a queen.

➸ gerard gibson:
remember when i said that him and his humor carried my happiness so that it didn’t get left behind? well that’s still true…except the things i learned about him in this book just tells me that his book will also ruin me because i guess this entire series is just going to be incredibly painful😃

➸ claire biggs:
she’s the sweetest ever and i’m itching to get to her book with gibsie because i need to know more about them as a pair and about her as an individual.

➸ hughie biggs:
i’m so curious about him. he has to have a book right? someone please confirm and tell me he does because there’s just something about him that has me like👀

➸ patrick feely:
he’s a SINGER and can play the guitar. that’s what i learned about him. i also sense something between him and lizzie? IDK? but he’s nice to her in moments where she doesn’t deserve it.

➸ lizzie young:
as of right now, i hate her. i know i’m going to eat my words later on if she happens to get a book because there’s something going on with her that i know nothing about and surely chloe walsh is going to write a book about her to explain…right!?

°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

❥ 𝓂𝑜𝓂𝑒𝓃𝓉𝓈 𝑒𝓂𝒷𝑒𝒹𝒹𝑒𝒹 𝒾𝓃𝓉𝑜 𝓂𝓎 𝓂𝒾𝓃𝒹:

”how are you feeling…about me?”
her eyes widened. “about you?”
”yeah.” i swallowed. “about me.”
shannon was silent for so long that i was afraid she wasn’t going to answer me but then she started to speak. “sometimes i feel like i’m stranded, like i’m stuck in the same place and i’m drowning.” clasping her hands together, she continued to speak, to gut me with her truth. “it’s like i’m watching the water rising, and it’s coming higher and higher. i can see it closing in on me, taking me under.” shivering, she bit down on her lip. “it’s terrifying.”
”i bet,” i replied gruffly, trailing my fingertips up and down her jean-clad knee, unsure of what else to say and terrified of saying the wrong thing.
”and then you walk in and it recedes.” tipping her chin up, she looked me dead in the eyes and exhaled a shaky breath. “you show up and all the bad just…goes away for a little while.”
i could feel her eyes on me, and it caused a slow burn to ignite inside of me. my skin was hot, my body coiled tight with frustration and excitement. i was so fucked.
”that’s how you make me feel,” she whispered, blue eye burning their way right down to my soul. “better. alive. free. safe. important. i feel like i can breathe for the first time in days, and that’s only because you’re here—because i’m with you.”
╰┈➤this fucked me up. took the air straight from my lungs in one fell swoop.

”i’m on your team,” he added huskily. “do you get that? i’m totally with you, shannon lynch. one call, that’s all you need to make, and i’ll come. i won’t let you down, and i won’t leave you alone in this. i promise.”
”it’s just weird for me because i’ve never had someone in my corner before.” shivering, i added, “not someone like you.”
”i’m not in your corner, shannon,” johnny replied in a gruff tone. “i’m standing right beside you.”
╰┈➤the amount of times my heart has skipped a beat because of this man cannot be healthy. AM I OKAY?😭

she was crying hard against my chest. she was bleeding through her tears. releasing pain and angst, devastation and fear, and i wanted to save her from it all. her tears rained down on me, drowning me right along with her, and that was the exact moment i felt the shift, the switch from this being something sweet and innocent to something deeply complicated with a hint of forever.
i was in so much fucking trouble.
╰┈➤A HINT OF FOREVER😭😭literally shut up, i was crying so hard omg.

”closer,” i begged, rolling onto my side. “i need you.”
his arm came around me, pulling my back flush against his bare chest before settling his hand against my lower belly. “i’m right here, baby.”
”i love you, johnny kavanagh,” i choked out, clenching my eyes shut as i grabbed his arm and held it to my chest. “most in the world.”
”i love you back, shannon lynch,” he said quietly in my ear and i felt the connection i had to him in the deepest part of my soul. “most on the world.”
”for keeps?” i breathed.
he kissed my shoulder. “for keeps.”
╰┈➤i felt their connection in the deepest part of my soul too🥺

for the final song of their set, the band started to play “hear you me”.
i listened to the lyrics, feeling that familiar surge of sadness swell up inside of me at the thought of my mother. a tear fell onto my cheek as i sang softly to myself. the feel of johnny’s hand squeezing my thigh drew my attention back to him. ”i love you,” he mouthed, craning his neck to look up at me.
sniffling, i mouthed, ”i love you, too.”
keeping his eyes on mine, he continued to mouth the words of the song, swaying us gently to the music. stroking his cheek, i leaned down and pressed my lips to his, not an easy feat given that i was sitting on his shoulders, but i had to kiss him. i just had to. the hand johnny had on my thigh moved to cup the back of my head as he kissed me back, right there in the middle of a field, surrounded by sixty thousand people and jimmy eat world singing to us.
╰┈➤this moment had me in shambles. it still does. jimmy eat world?!? HEAR YOU ME!? i can’t😭

❥ 𝒻𝒶𝓋𝑜𝓇𝒾𝓉𝑒 𝓆𝓊𝑜𝓉𝑒𝓈:
➛ ❝the very first day you walked into my life, you changed me. that very first time i saw you? you sparked to life something inside of me and i haven’t been the same since.❞
➛ ❝i already told you, i need you for keeps. there’s no expiration date between us.❞
➛ ❝you’re my everything.❞
➛ ❝my whole heart’s inside of ya.❞
➛ ❝there’s no one else on this planet who deserves a reprieve from pain more than you, baby.❞
➛ ❝i like you because you’re you, shannon. i’ve never met another girl as kind, and caring, and trustworthy, and loyal as you. and beautiful. jesus christ, you are so fucking beautiful that it’s painful to look at you. i’ve never seen anything like you in my life.❞
➛ ❝i like your trouble. i want your trouble and your complications and everything else that comes with you. i want you.❞
➛ i physically craved johnny kavanagh to the point where i wanted to crawl into him and stay there forever. she’s so real for this because same😩

°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

❥ 𝒷𝑜𝓃𝓊𝓈 𝒸𝑜𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓃𝓉:
spicy kavanagh is just one of the many versions i love about him…

"i promise i'll make you feel good."
"fuck, you're so wet, baby."
"shh, just ride it out."

"you look good on my bed." clamping his hands on my thighs, he dragged my body closer, groaning loudly when we connected. "on your back," he added, hovering above me, "with me between your legs," before sealing his lips to mine.

smirking, he said, “je veux lécher la chatte de ma copine.”
i frowned. ”what?”
johnny grinned deviously. “i said, je veux être à l’intérieur de toi.”
i scrunched my nose up. “you know i’m terrible at french.”
”i’m counting on it.” he laughed as he sauntered off. “see you tonight, baby.”

when he’s a golden retriever with a dirty mouth>>>>>>
i’m entirely unwell. i knew he’d be the type to talk her through it. him talking dirty to her in french…when i translated that on google omg. i’ll let y’all translate it yourselves and experience it that way😏he’s so hot.

°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

i love these books.

❝𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆, 𝒂 𝒄𝒓𝒂𝒛𝒚 𝒇𝒖𝒄𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒎𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒕.❞