Did Policing BREAK Me or Make Me BETTER?
During my 27 years of policing, I never once shed a tear. Regardless of the situation—whether it was comforting victims, or witnessing the harsh realities of life—I maintained a stoic demeanor. This was true for both my personal and professional life.
My job demanded strength and resilience, and I delivered every single day.
However, since retiring almost eight years ago, I've noticed a profound change in myself. My emotions are now always close to the surface, and I find myself crying at the simplest things—movies, heartfelt conversations, even a touching story on the news. This shift has been both surprising and enlightening.
In my years of service, I believed that suppressing my emotions was a necessity, a shield to protect myself and others. But now, in my retirement, I've realized that allowing myself to feel deeply is not a sign of weakness but a testament to my humanity.
I am proud of this transformation. It took immense strength to hold back tears for nearly three decades, but it takes even more strength to embrace my emotions now. This journey has taught me that vulnerability and strength are not opposites; they coexist and enrich our lives.
As I reflect on my career and the person I've become, I see that policing didn't break me—it made me better. It honed my resilience, but it also prepared me for this new chapter where I can finally embrace my full range of emotions. And for that, I am grateful.
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2wAbsolutely amazing Adam. Congratulations to all. He’s perfect. Trust big sister is loving the new role. Enjoy these moments.