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ONE

Wystan

is jacket is winter-green tweed with a herringbone

stitch, and rather too large. The lining has come loose and
a button is hanging by a thread, destined to drop before the train
reaches Birmingham. Beneath the jacket: a grey shirt and a spotted
tie. The shirt has a greasy stain down the front. His arms are huge,
the arms of an ape, and hes lighting a cigarette as he gets settled
for the journey from Oxford to Glasgow. Oiled or greasy, its hard
to tell, his hair is close shaved at the back and sides, with a fringe
hanging louchely over his forehead. His left ear sticks out, the remains
of the schoolboy. The impression made is one of pale, large fragility.
It isnt until he looks up that his attractiveness becomes apparent.
His blue eyes flicker with a lively intelligence that animates all his
features. Its as if one can see the thoughts playing in his mind. But
this is an illusion; his friends will find they never really know him.
Wystan is that terrible, isolating thing: unreadable. His hands are
enormous, dwarfing the matchbox. He holds it gently, a giant lifting
a farmhouse.
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Every few minutes, he has to get up and walk around. He is recovering from an operation for an anal fissure, and it is still, after many
weeks, unbearably painful. Though its refusal to heal is depressing
him, he has started to consider the intimate, searing pain as a physical
expression of the torment he feels all the time, which is sutured into
his very biology. The wound that will not heal, that cannot be spoken
of in polite company, is becoming a separate entity. He composes,
idly in his head, as the train clatters along, a letter to the Wound.
He wants to make peace with it. He wants to be forgiven.
There are two others in his carriage: a suited man whose bowler
hat is neatly on the rack above, and a man with a florid face, sour
with drink, who has fallen asleep against the window. The purple
of his mouth is visible as he snores. Wystan studies them in between
glancing at the pages of the Criteron. The two destinies of Man. Suited
looks well fed and contented. He is reading the financial information
at the back of the paper, and his face has an ageing softness that
denotes a life free of depravity. Florid radiates ill health from every
broken capillary. No wife, no children, no love. In time, Wystan is
surely to become one of these men. Once we are all grown up, there
is nothing else.
Wystan is going to be a Great Poet. He has decided it firmly, told
all his friends. His philosophy of life is inspired by Emile Cou: you
will become what you believe you will become. Eighteen months ago,
he graduated from Oxford after a sensational three years, but with
a very poor degree, and T. S. Eliot has, this very week, accepted
his manuscript for publication with Faber and Faber. His cigarette
glows in his fingers as the train hauls itself out of Coventry station
and continues the drag and choke to Scotland.
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His work is not where his doubts lie; that is not what draws his
gaze nervously to Florid, snuffling before him. It is love. He shuffles
in his seat to relieve the pressure on the Wound. It pulsates with its
own torn language, telling him that he will never really know love.
Wystan rubs his white brow, pushes his fringe out of his eyes
and rummages in his satchel, swapping the Criterion for a book.
Hes reading a lot of Freud at this time; it offers him little comfort.
Sheilagh snaps into his mind, her pretty frown causing him a
pang. When he proposed to her, he was confident that, even if he
was not in love, then he would be soon. She had accepted in the
bemusing way women have of being excited about invisible things,
and he found her endearing. Sheilagh was a nurse, and she brought
that feminine practicality to their relationship. She knew about bodies,
so he did not feel the need to be the oracle in this area, and she also
knew about the way things were meant to be. Best of all, Sheilagh
was nothing like his mother, which was certainly progress, for he
deemed much of his problem to be his excessive attachment to his
domineering mother. He was twenty-two at the time, surely old
enough to know his own mind.
But then she started crying, quite soon into it all. She was disappointed in him, without saying why. Before this, Wystan had never
been a disappointment, and it had not played well with him.
Hills swell beyond the window and a few drops of rain spatter the
glass. The whistle blares at Carlisle station, doors slam, and Florid
jolts awake, glaring round at his companions before reaching into his
bag for a packet of sandwiches. They have been neatly wrapped in
paper and tied with string. Who has done this for Florid? A wife? A
mother? Has he perhaps done it himself? The smell of egg fills the
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carriage. Sniffing, the man reaches into his bag again and pulls out a
bottle of beer. He flicks off the cap with a penny and sets it between
his knees. Suited looks sideways with a sneer. The conductor, a halfpint man in a scarlet livery, appears in the doorway.
Which way is the bar? asks Wystan. He forgot about lunch, and
didnt really appreciate how long the journey is.
The conductor points backwards. Two coaches down, sir. He
looks at his watch. Still a few ham sandwiches, I believe.
Wystan nods. In a while, hell wander along and see what there
is. He sighs and observes through the window the almost imperceptible change from the greens and browns of Cumbria to those
of Dumfriesshire.
The London establishment, which waits both to claim and judge
him in a few years, shrinks to a speck. He is coming, for as long as
theyll have him, to the briny shores, the promenade of hardware
shops and grimy cafs, to the land of shallow valleys and low hills,
of violet summers. His home will be the land of naval ships, with
its seething hatred of outsiders, with its petty religious tyrannies.
Soon, he will drop submarines casually into his poems; the sea will
creep into his soul.
Its not his choice exactly. His trust money is about to run out,
and he needs a job. His friend, Cecil Day-Lewis, has nominated him
for this post of schoolmaster at Larchfield, though he has no experience of teaching and a severe distrust of the school environment.
Florid coughs over his beer, drains it and fishes another out of his
bag. Suited shakes his newspaper, expertly rolls it up and slips it
under his arm before leaving the carriage, presumably to go to the
bar. Wystan says, Shall I open the window? and Florid grunts his
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assent. Cool Scottish air rushes in. Florids hands are trembling. The
sole of one boot is coming adrift and his laces are undone. Wystan
knows he would rather end up as Florid than Suited, and indeed
that is his trajectory. Theres an honesty about Florid. Hes given
up trying to be what he is not.
When Sheilagh told Wystan his poems disgusted her, he knew that
wasnt it, or wasnt it exactly. Her intuition that his poems were not
about her, or anything shed recognise, was certainly correct, but,
as she sat sobbing into her hands, he wondered if he should press
her to tell him what it was. At that moment, he hated her enough to
humiliate them both. He might say, So lets talk about disgust, then,
and see if it led to a conversation with any honesty in it. In truth, she
bored rather than disgusted him; her body bored him, her deference
bored him. Most of all, her safety bored him, even while he craved
it. Should he tell her all this?
And yet, she loved him. On his side, there had certainly been
tremendous hope. And is hope not the sibling of love? She wanted
him to apologise for the poems in some way, to deny that what she
thought was in them was in them. He couldnt do that, but he could
apologise for himself.
Which he did. He cried while he did it, and he held her hand until
he had finished. Not cut out for marriage. You deserve someone better.
A proper man. She didnt look up when he left. When he reached
home, he went to bed, where relief crashed over him and he cried
until he was empty.
Wound is communicating its discomfort. Wystan gets up to walk
to the bar. Why should this journey put him so in mind of Sheilagh?
Perhaps he knows that, after her, there will be no love of the kind he
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wants. He has chosen the Wound over healing. The train sways, as
if nodding its assent. Wystan feels suddenly tearful and digs his nails
into his palm. Anyway, now is a new beginning. He could barely be
further from Sheilagh and the hopes he had of change.
And the future? What of it? He cannot imagine a future where
he fits. Wystan is travelling not into the future, but into the heartland of as he will soon describe it the enemy. He does not know
that he will be more alone than he has ever been, that he will love
more deeply than he ever thought possible and he will long for
the consolations that poetry cannot give, at least not to the writer.
It has all been decided. He will live quietly, teaching English and
French to the sons of Scotchmen, and he will get on with his work.
He will be able to establish his routine for writing, he will be able to
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TWO

Dora

h! The poetess!
Silver heads lifted. The voice materialised into Lois, a
neighbour from along the road, who advanced through the guests
on the lawn, her eyes full of amusement and intrigue. She planted a
dry kiss on Doras cheek and stepped back to take in the full measure
of her pregnant belly.
In recent months, Kit had taken several unaccompanied trips up
to Helensburgh, to finalise details of the purchase of Paradise, the
mansion on whose lawn they were now standing, and to lay some
groundwork in his new job. News had swiftly got out that a rather
charming architect was moving into this part of town, and Kit had
found himself with lots of new acquaintances, who accosted him
for advice about their building projects. Lois had bagged him to
help with designing some new windows for her listed coach house.
The owners of Paradise Lower, Matthew and Felicity, were the
party hosts. They would be leaving the very next day, and Dora
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effective barbecue out of an old mangle, and the smell of sausages

drifted over the grass. Dora felt the oddness of her position as the
not-yet owner, meeting guests on her not-yet lawn.
There was a little circle around them now. You know, Lois
said to Dora, I have been dying to meet you for ages. Kits been
hiding you! I thought he was making you up! Forever coming up and
staying at that flat all alone and talking about his wife. Poor sad
soul, I thought. Chuckles overcame her for a moment. Kit nodded,
enjoying the game. And then, Lois continued, I was behind Kit in
the queue for the checkout at the Co-Op and I saw, in his basket, he
had two lamb chops and a bottle of wine! And I thought to myself,
Aha! Somethings up! Perhaps he does have a wife... or a girlfriend!
At this, Lois collapsed into wheezy giggles.
Kit put his arm round Dora. No girlfriend. Just a wife.
Yes, a poetess. How wonderful. Tell me, Dora, should I have
heard of you?
Dora opened her mouth to attempt an answer, but the way the
circle was staring gave her the uneasy sense that their attention had
moved on and her poetry was not the main subject of interest. There
was no other way to describe it: the guests were gawping at her
stomach with perverted abandon. Never having had any contact with
babies in her previous existence, she wondered if she was witnessing
for the first time how women behave around infants or the prospect
of them. Dora had become magnetic: the womens fingers began to
uncurl as if irresistibly drawn to touch her. She was the centre of
attention, certainly, even if no one was interested in what she said.
The information that she was a poet had never produced this level
of interest at parties.
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Lois had Kits hand now and was leading him towards the table
where bottles and plastic cups were laid out. Plainly not invited to
follow, Dora stared after them. What was going on? Her husband
was stooping good-naturedly over another woman now, who was
describing her conservatory, how perhaps he might take a look one
evening.
She felt a hand on her arm and Felicity was standing with a hot
dog for her. How are you doing?
Phew! Im not invisible, then.Terrific, thanks. Dora indicated
the adoring circle around her husband.
Handy, being married to an architect, Felicity said.
Dora grunted. She considered being married to an architect no
handier than being married to a poet. But there seemed no way to say
that and not appear bad tempered. She liked Felicity, who was about
Doras age and had a gentle, lilting Scottish accent. Liking Felicity
had brought Dora round to the idea of living in a divided building
in a faraway seaside town; if Felicity could thrive here, couldnt she?
Not only had Felicity thrived, according to her own account,
but the house was perfect for a newly married couple with a baby
on the way. When Dora and Kit were looking for somewhere to
live, Dora had struggled to grasp that the kinds of houses she was
used to terraces, semi-detached houses: buildings that involved
living side by side barely existed here. Wealthy shipbuilders in the
nineteenth century had built their country homes in Helensburgh,
and now many were converted because of the cost of heating and
maintaining such huge properties.
Paradise was a striking example of such a conversion. Blue, with
a generous frontage that reminded Dora of buildings in Oxford
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somehow, there was no way of knowing from the front that it was
divided into two; the grand faade with its ornate main door gave
nothing away. Kit and Dora had bought the lower apartment with
the main front door, and Paradise Upper had a staircase entrance at
the back. Despite the houses beauty, it took Dora quite a few visits
to agree with Felicity that it did suit them. She had scoured the estate
agents for a home for her new family that she recognised as one:
a terrace with a courtyard garden; some small country cottage; a
townhouse, even, tall and thin and looking out over the railway line
at Helensburgh Central. But her choice emerged, simple and hard:
a breathtaking mansion, which they could never have afforded, or
part of one. Understanding this had taken her so long that several
had been and gone from the market. They had committed to this
one in some desperation.
Paradises long front lawn stretched almost to the sea, separated
only by a hedge and the narrow coast road . Dora had not got over
the strangeness of having the sea so close, the incredible open emptiness of it, and the constantly changing colours of the sky and the
water. This afternoon, the sea was a clear turquoise, hushing them
gently from the shingle. There was so much outside space here. Dora
had never seen such a huge garden in a domestic home. Alongside
the massive lawn with its borders of shrubs and trees swept a wide
drive, which became a forecourt in front of the house.
Felicity grinned. Yes, its really yours! Your baby will be so happy
here. Now, let me introduce you to a few people. She took Doras
hand and led her back into the throng.
As the introductions started, Dora tried to retain the powdered
faces with their attendant names. There were wives of the church
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elders; the lady who played the organ; the lady who ran the music
society; the wife of the new minister; the new minister. A lady in a
purple dress with a plunging neckline told Dora about her jewellery,
which she made and sold. Perhaps Dora would like to come and see
her workshop? Pointed questions and comments washed over her,
hands brushed against her belly and Dora began to feel dizzy. How
did anyone stay private anonymous, even here? Faces, accents,
the landscape all demanded your attention, the luminous northern
light searched you out, and look the music-society lady was peering
at her through thick glasses. Her eyes were huge behind them. She
asked Dora a question when is it due, probably and now a man
with a dew drop on his nose was bending over her and telling her
about the sewage system that lay under the road outside.
Our best friends are your upstairs neighbours, Mo and Terrence,
said the jewellery maker. Such good people. Wonderful people.
Oh, yes; I havent met them yet.
The woman said, They do such good work with the church.
They belong here.
Doras husband was laughing again, relaxed and happy. His
Edinburgh accent, which had always seemed so wonderfully exotic,
blended in here, and did not seem like an accent at all. Kit had
come home, in some fundamental way. It was the way Dora spoke
that stood out. Kit caught Doras eye and smiled. He looked like a
complete stranger.
They belong here. The words wedged in Doras mind, started a
slow spin. They carried a clear implication, as yet unarticulated.
What was it? That Felicity and Matthew had not belonged? Or...
she and Kit? There was something accusing in the tone, or perhaps
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in the very words themselves. She braced herself to meet her upstairs
neighbours... what would belonging here look like?
Dora suspected she had probably never belonged anywhere, but
in the case of the city she knew best, Oxford, not belonging gave one
a kind of exotic value. And because it was a university town, most
people arrived there not really belonging. The daughter of northern
teachers, Dora had never expected to go to Oxford, and indeed her
mother had told her not to apply there, as she would feel out of place.
Nevertheless, she had applied, had been successful, to her mothers
grudging alarm, and for three years had immersed herself in the
world that was most real to her: that of books and reading. A PhD
on Wilfred Owen and the poetry of World War One had sealed her
into its warm sandstone interior for another four years, and her own
poetry had begun to emerge in that time.
Oxford had been a revelation. Poetry was a real thing in her
gowned area of the town. Being clever was a good thing at Oxford,
displaying your cleverness even better. After finally completing her
PhD, Dora was offered a job at the universitys publishing house
as a lexicographer, which suited her interest in words and her temperament perfectly. And while many thought her shy and brainy
to the point of passionlessness, they were wrong. There had been
love affairs, mostly with young, intense and scruffy postdocs at the
university. These had always fallen apart at the point where she
was expected somehow to change, to accommodate them in some
profound way. She never wanted to, enough, and they certainly
seemed to have no notion of accommodating her, and her need to
scribble and read.
It was a story their story that she and Kit liked to tell: how
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the unlikely couple met. A former tutor took pity on Doras seemingly one-dimensional life and invited her to a dinner party at her
former college, and Kit, a friend of a friend and newly widowed,
was invited too, and there was an immediate connection between
the brainy lexicographer and the gentle architect that no one could
have foreseen.
Now that Dora was so heavily pregnant, she needed to go to the
toilet all the time. The only advantage was that it was an opportunity
to be alone, to escape when she needed to think. She excused herself
from the jewellery lady and slipped away across the lawn towards the
wisteria draping the front doors pergola, like the entrance to a cave.
But as she crossed the forecourt and reached the step, with its
promise of cool relief from the sun, she felt a hand on her arm.
Felicity said, Ah, here they are, Mo and Terrence Divine your
upstairs neighbours.
Oh, but I ... Perhaps the introduction would not take long.
Dora shuffled from foot to foot and turned to greet them.
Doras most intimate neighbours were holding hands. They wore
matching cardigans with a crest on the breast. Terrences shirt was
open at the neck, revealing a cross on a chain. His hair was combed
back, creating an effect of rippled pewter, and he was wearing a pair
of glasses with darkened lenses clipped on to them, but not pressed
down, so they stuck out like two small visors. A faint scent of aftershave hung around him. He was unexpectedly handsome.
Mo and Terrence, this is Dora. Shes a poet! With each word,
Felicity eased herself further away, though her demeanour was impeccably friendly. She was now right on the invisible edge of what
constituted their group.
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So. Dora. An arm unfolded. Mos little hand clasped Doras.

Dora felt the cool fingers around hers. Her neighbours hair was
tightly permed and tinted a rather startling gold. On her forehead
was an eye-catching mole that reminded Dora of a tiny nameless
nation lifted out of a school map.
One more step back and Felicity would be free. She seemed anxious to be gone. Dora was puzzled. These people had lived together
in Paradise for how long was it? Five years? Felicity took that last
step and vanished into the party, and Dora was alone with the new
neighbours.
Mo watched Felicity disappear and then asked, Do you know
the Lord, Dora?
Doras gaze desperately roamed and fell on the boat parked on
the forecourt in front of the house. She was sure it hadnt been there
when they came round to view. It was on a trailer and the tarpaulin
had been rolled back to reveal, in curly gold writing, the name Lady
Maureen.
Um... Dora didnt say the only thought to rise into the vacancy
of her mind, which was, Christ, that boat is enormous.
Jesus and the Lady Maureen, said Terrence, squeezing Mo to
him before releasing her like a spring. The twin pillars of my life.
Mo said proudly, Terrence is an elder in the church. Weve been
here for how long now, dear?
Oh ... it must be fifteen years. Terrence smiled down at his
wife. It was a warm, attractive smile that left Dora feeling oddly
envious. Terrence continued, It is Paradise indeed, here. Mo runs
the Sunday school.
Mos attention turned to Doras belly.
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When are you due?

November.
Our son, Theodore, is having his first child in the new year. Our
first grandchild! She studied Doras swollen form, taking in every
detail, until Dora blushed.
Boy or girl?
Dont know.
Youve a low bump, there. I think its a boy. Terrence, dont you
think its a boy?
Terrence looked startled. Oh, I dont know anything about all
that. Im more about the spirit than the flesh.
Mos voice was so breathy and sing-song that one word rustled
into the next, making it necessary for Dora to concentrate hard, as if
it was a complicated Beowulf lecture. The old lady went on: Well be
helping Theodore a lot with the wee one. My poor daughter-in-law
knows nothing about anything, and my son, hes so busy with the
double-glazing business. Hes done so well. I dont understand the
ins and outs, of course, but hes a real high-up now. So youll be
seeing a lot of us! Who is your birth partner?
My husband, Kit. Over there. How she longed for him to come
over. He knew how to talk to people. His easy social manner charmed
everyone. He belonged. Dora was so tired and her bladder felt as if
it might burst. As if to emphasise the point, the baby aimed a kick
right on it.
Mo was talking again: Its wonderful to hear the voices of children, isnt it? Our friends love to visit us with their children. They
so enjoy playing on the lawn. Her eyes flicked up to her husband.
Dora reeled her attention back in, alerted by Mos last whispered
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words. The long lawn at the front of the house, with the drive alongside it, belonged to Paradise Lower. The upper flat owned the rear
garden, a magnificent terrace with a summer house. In grappling
with Paradises divisions, Dora had seized on this ownership of the
lawn as something that made her feel better about living at such
close, isolated quarters with complete strangers.
She observed again the Lady Maureen dwarfing the Divines
parking space. She noticed the many cars parked in the drive for the
party, and then she looked back at Mo, wondering how to formulate
a reply. Had she, in fact, misheard?
Was she expected to say something like, But you must let your
friends run about on our lawn! Is that what people did out here? Use
each others gardens?
Mo powered on: Felicity and Matthew ... they loved to see
children happy, laughing ... enjoying themselves. Such generous
people. Her fingers crept to her neck, then her earlobes, then back
to Terrences hand.
Dora was getting a crick in her neck from leaning in. Finally,
she could stand no more. Please excuse me. Im so sorry... You
know what its like! And she waddled towards the open doorway.
The gloom embraced her. She rested her head against the cool
of the wall and took breaths until her pounding heart began to slow.
She looked around the beautifully corniced hall, with the wide
decorative staircase at the end. Tomorrow, it would be hers. She and
Kit loved the way that the lower apartment was largely untouched
by the conversion. The staircase simply turned into a cupboard at
a certain point. Doras new home was fairytale grand with panelled
walls and huge fireplaces and tall windows looking out over the lawn.
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The original cloakroom in the hall was tiny, with an authentic

Edwardian lavatory and high cistern. Dora had liked the space from
the first time they had viewed the house. She thought she could see
out the remainder of the party just sitting here quietly.
Dora was respectably married at last, to a man she could say,
without hesitation, that she loved. They had bought the main apartment with a huge garden in the grandest house she had ever been in,
and that, she had been sure, gave her a place. She could be like the
ladies out there now; she could be a hostess; she could give her own
parties on the lawn. Her child could grow up secure of his or her
place in the world. Her child would be a Fielding, with a childhood
home to love and remember.
This was the plan, and she loved it. She was a lucky woman. How
many women really get what they want? All of it?
But unease crept and crawled all over Dora now. Alone in the
Edwardian cloakroom, she pulled off her cardigan and scratched the
skin of her arms until the red weals began to bead with blood. This
steadied her mind a little, as did focusing on the sea and thinking up
new ways to describe it. Waves strutting... a turquoise dress, off
the shoulder ... a submarine like a whale, with light breaking off
its back... Waves strutting... or tutting? Perhaps at the shore...
Perhaps the little waves tut at the shoreline... Dora smiled to herself,
noticing, now, the fierce sting of the scratches on her arm. She ran
the tap and dampened toilet paper and pressed it to the skin.
A knock at the door. You in there, Dora?
Kit had come to find her. Exhausted, Dora pleaded to go home.
They bid hasty goodbyes and, as Kit helped her into the car, anxiety
sucked her words away. How she wanted to be a success, like her
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husband was. He seemed to have had a wonderful afternoon dispensing advice to the areas ladies. He had even chatted to the new
neighbours and come out unscathed.
How Dora wanted to be the sort of woman a man is glad he married. Instead, all she could do was stammer, Kit, do you think...
Do you think weve made a mistake? With the house?
Kits hand snapped out and covered hers. No... no, dont say
that. Youre just exhausted.
There was a tap on the glass. Lois was signalling for Dora to
open the window.
I meant to tell you, Dora, dear, she said breathlessly. There was
another poet you may have heard of, here in Helensburgh. A long
time ago, now. W. H. Auden! Do you know of him?
Really? In Helensburgh?
Yes, he taught at the boys prep school, Larchfield, way back; I
think it must have been 1930 or something like that. Anyway, I thought
youd like to know. Two poets! What do we call that? A brace? A couplet? She giggled again. Well, I must be off. Lovely to see you both!
W. H. Auden? Dora asked Kit in amazement.
I remember something about that now.
Auden ... Dora repeated. Thats so unlikely ... She trailed
off, seeing the unlikeliness of Auden in this landscape suddenly very
like her own. Kit kept his hand over hers as he drove them the short
distance home.
Later, after they had eaten and Kit had fallen asleep in the bedroom of the bare flat they had rented for the move, Dora came into
the moonlit sitting room, among all their boxes, and took out her
notebook.
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She rested her pen on the page.

(Ah, the poetess!)
Writing a few lines, beginning a poem, taking her fear out and
studying it to make it into something this was what she had always
done to make sense of her life.
She wondered how it must have been for Auden, arriving into
this strange place.
Did he, as she now did, lay down his pen?
Did he, too, find that suddenly, inexplicably, there was nothing
to say?

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