My Winning Method of Horse Race
My Winning Method of Horse Race
MY RACING LIFE
A.P. McCoy
with Charlie Connelly
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see it in the eyes of the journalists and fans: how much longer
can they go on? Are their best days behind them? Shouldn’t they
be thinking of calling it a day? As a professional sportsperson,
whatever sport it might be, it can be very easy to keep going
until you’ve passed your peak because it’s hard to admit to your-
self that decline has set in and you’ll never be as good as you
once were.
I experienced none of that, thank goodness. It would have
been my worst nightmare: the whispers, the doubts, the pity –
especially the pity – and it was something I was determined to
avoid. Fortunately I was able to go out at the very top, and being
able to say that makes me a very, very lucky man indeed.
Although it had come as a surprise to everyone, even those
closest to me, I’d actually laid the foundations of my retirement
several years before that emotional afternoon at Sandown.
There were times in between when it had passed clean out of
my head, there were times when I told myself I must be mad
to even consider it, but I’ve always had a strong stubborn streak
running through me. Sometimes it’s a good thing, other times
it’s definitely not such a good thing, but that stubbornness was
the reason I was able to retire when I did and in the manner I did:
on my own terms.
The roots of that unforgettable Saturday afternoon reached
back to 2010. I’d just become champion jockey for the fifteenth
time and won the Grand National for the first time on Don’t
Push It. I was thirty-five years old and having an amazing year,
one that would be crowned by receiving an OBE and being
voted BBC Sports Personality of the Year. It may seem strange
that such a successful year should have triggered thoughts of
retirement, but it occurred to me that if I kept going the way
I was for another five years I’d have reached twenty jockeys’
championships in 2015. It felt like a realistic goal: I was feeling
good, riding as well as ever, twenty was a good, round number
and I like good, round numbers. I would also be forty that year,
another good, round number. I’d still be performing at the high-
est level and would be retiring on a considerable career high.
It felt like the perfect scenario and was practical, sensible and
attainable. I filed it away in the back of my mind and set about
the business of riding as many winners as I could.
Time passed. I won more jockeys’ championships to bring
that landmark figure of twenty ever closer. I was still working
hard, riding plenty of winners and still enjoying racing as much
as I ever had, yet always there, lurking at the back of my mind,
was this thought of retiring at twenty titles. The very factors I’d
identified as governing the decision also succeeded in making
the decision more difficult: how could I possibly walk away from
the job I love when everything was going so well? Surely I was
mad to even think about retiring? Surely I’d just be cutting off
my nose to spite my face (which is, incidentally, one of the few
injuries I’ve never suffered)?
All I could do was keep reminding myself that it wouldn’t
last. What I dreaded more than anything was reaching a point
where I’d begin to hear people saying I wasn’t as good as I once
was, that I wasn’t the jockey I used to be. I couldn’t bear that,
it would have left me absolutely distraught. That’s why it was
definitely the best thing for me to retire at the very top, on my
own terms, while still being the best jockey I could be. I don’t
mind telling you there were times in my final season where
it was absolutely tearing me up inside having to stick to that
decision, but my innate stubbornness was always there, like
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Rest, he said, get plenty of deep breaths and get yourself feeling
good again before you get back on a horse. I shouldn’t think
about racing again until the middle of the following week at the
earliest.
I spent a brooding, anxious and restless weekend thinking
about the winners I was missing. Sitting at home while there
was racing going on around the country just made no sense to
me. On the Monday morning I was still sore and breathing heav-
ily when Dave rang and asked how I was feeling.
‘Not good, Dave,’ I wheezed. ‘But I want to ride tomorrow.’
‘I’m glad to hear it,’ he said, ‘because I’ve got three or four
really good rides at Huntingdon for you if you’re up to it.’
Straightaway I rang Doc Pritchard and told him I really needed
to ride the next day. There was a weary sigh from the other end
of the line.
‘OK, I’ll tell you what,’ he said. ‘If you have an x-ray now and
it shows things have healed enough, then you can think about
riding. But only if things have improved enough.’
He’d barely finished speaking when I was out of the door and
on my way to meet him at the Ridgeway Hospital in Swindon.
I had the x-ray, the doc placed it on the light box and pursed his
lips.
‘You’re not far away,’ he conceded, ‘but as things stand, look-
ing at this you really can’t ride at Huntingdon tomorrow.’
‘Not far away’ sounded good to me. Good enough to ride at
Huntingdon, in fact.
‘When you say not far away . . .’ I raised an eyebrow. He
sighed again.
‘Look,’ he said, ‘there’s a chance you might be OK in the
morning but right now it’s just not there.’
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a better ride than I gave Arzal but on another day I’d have won.
Clearly I was in big trouble with my injury and even I, in the
midst of my self-destructive obsession, had to concede that I
couldn’t just ride through the pain barrier this time.
I went home via Julian Widdowson’s clinic and explained how
my already troublesome collarbone had borne the brunt of a
heavy fall the previous day and was giving me a lot of pain. He
took an x-ray, put the print on his light box and when I saw him
practically do a double take at what he saw I knew it must be
bad.
‘I don’t know how you’ve managed it, AP,’ he said, ‘but you’ve
broken your dislocated collarbone.’
He kept staring at the x-ray.
‘That is almost impossible to do,’ he added.
When you dislocate your collarbone, the impact on your
shoulder pushes the collarbone out through the joint. The
reason it dislocates in those circumstances is because it’s almost
too strong to break. Either way, you break it or dislocate it, one
or the other. Definitely not both.
‘I have absolutely no idea how you’ve managed to break a dis-
located collarbone,’ he said, shaking his head. ‘It should have just
dislocated further, pushed further out, not broken altogether.’
Uncommon injury or not, I knew this latest development
meant a potentially lengthy lay-off from racing, a realisation that
hit me ten times harder than the ground at Exeter. This meant
the possibility of weeks away from the saddle. Weeks. Maybe
I could have coped with a few days out over the course of the
season and still made it to 300, but a long injury lay-off gave me
no chance. I travelled home from Bath in a daze, came through
the door, barely acknowledged Chanelle, went straight up to the
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bedroom and cried my eyes out. I felt like the whole world was
collapsing around me. That might sound faintly ridiculous in
the great scheme of things, but remember that nobody has ever
ridden 300 winners in a season. I’d have been the first, and good-
ness knows how long it might have been before somebody else
got there too, years, decades even. That was half my retirement
goal, people seeing how good I still was, what I could still achieve
and what an achievement that would have been. It wasn’t an ego
thing, far from it, but riding a triple century of winners at forty
years of age would have qualified me to say there you go, I can
still do it, thanks for everything, goodbye.
I still had it. Not only that, I was getting better. That’s why the
injury hit me so hard, that’s why the self-imposed target of 300
winners had been so important to me, that’s why obsession had
driven me to the extremes of what I could bear in terms of phys-
ical pain. I wouldn’t have minded quite so much if I’d missed out
simply by not winning enough races, but to be scuppered by an
injury, and a freak injury at that, just wasn’t fair, it wasn’t fair at
all. I buried my face in the bedclothes and bawled my eyes out at
the sheer injustice of it all. It was over. There was no consoling
me.
Looking back now I see that night as a watershed moment.
I knew I couldn’t reach the target I’d set myself and I knew I
now faced an enforced absence from the saddle. I needed to get
my head straight and the best way to do that was to put some
distance between me and the entire situation. So I took a holiday.
I went to Barbados for eight days and got a bit of heat in my
bones which was great and helped my recovery immensely. It
also gave me a psychological break from racing which, consider-
ing the state of my head over the previous couple of weeks, was
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