Ajahn Pasanno - The Four Parameters of Clinging
Ajahn Pasanno - The Four Parameters of Clinging
Ajahn Pasanno
Even with the simple practice of attending to one in-breath and one outbreath, we
can see how quickly the mind rushes in and starts to fill up the space with different
kinds of thoughts, perceptions, images, memories and fantasies. The mind is looking
for something to do. This is totally ordinary and normal. But where does it come
from?
It's interesting to investigate what the Buddha described as the four parameters of
upadana, or attachment and clinging. The root of the word "upadana" is "fuel" or, as
Ajahn Thanissaro often translates it, "sustenance." The image is of a fire that sustains
our existence -- whether it is our actual physical existence or the mental existence of
who we think we are, who we think we aren't, or who we think we should be.
How is that all sustained? How is it maintained? What are we feeding our minds and
hearts? The Buddha points to the four types of clinging as that which holds on to the
modes of existence that create our ways of being. The first is attachment to sensuality,
or kamupadana. It's pretty ordinary, straightforward and easy to recognize -- the
fundamental desire for gratification, pleasure and stimulation. The sensual hit that
seems to make life worth living. It may also keep us locked up pretty tight, but the
belief at the time is that seeking gratification is better than doing nothing. Of course,
we don't really know what "doing nothing" is because we keep filling up our time.We
get bored pretty quickly if there is nothing stimulating, so we look for something to
keep us excited and interested.
The Buddha was once asked, "What is it that prevents us from being enlightened,
being liberated in this very life?" He replied that it's attachment to sensual pleasures --
sensual delight through the eye, ears, nose, tongue, body. "One with craving and
clinging is unable to experience nibbana in this very life; one without clinging is able
to experience nibbana in this very life."
During our meditation, when we watch the mind go back again and again to clinging,
we recognize how deep a tendency it is. The mind is looking for an object. That's its
habit. In the Buddha's teachings, this is not a moral or ethical statement.We
Westerners may add the belief: It's a bad thing, I'm a bad person for doing that. But
the Buddha is just pointing for us to look at the result. If happiness and freedom is
what one is looking for, does clinging to sensuality bring about the desired result?
This doesn't mean we shouldn't do certain practices or devotional rituals. But just
doing these practices is not what is going to bring about purification. True
accomplishment comes when we really give ourselves to the practice, putting in effort
in a way that is not self-oriented or self-fixated. Are we able to drop what "I want to
get out of it," or the obsession with getting everything right, even in terms of the
precepts? One has to recognize that the training is for the attenuation of clinging and
attachment. What really wears us out is when we don't notice our attachments,
clinging and seeking. The idea of "I'm doing the practice" gets in the way of being
attentive to what's happening in the heart and mind.When we are attentive, we can
actually do the practice and enjoy it, delight in it and benefit from the results.
The last form of attachment is clinging to the belief in self, attavadupadana. "Atta"
means "self," and "vada" means "teaching" or "belief." The self has a function, but we
get caught up believing in the story or even the doctrine of it, which then creates
havoc. It's important to recognize how the sense of "me" and "mine" insinuates itself
all the time -- craving and clinging around the feelings of "'I' need to have this, it has
to be this way for 'me'." These thoughts are the seeds for the different strands of a
proliferating mind. As we are sitting and practicing, watching the breath go in and
out, the sense of "me" and "mine" comes looking for a place to land, a story to spin.
Can we just be with the breath and observe that? We don't have to resolve it, to fight
with it, to change it into anything else. That would also be attachment to the belief in
self. Just be with the sensation of the breath, coming back to the elemental nature of
experience. Feel the solidity, hardness, tangibility, fluidity, movement. This is life;
this is what it all boils down to in the end, the sensation of the elements. They are not
me or mine, not even consciousness or the feeling of being alive. Investigate the
simplicity of experience.What pulls us out of that: what form of clinging is operating,
how does it work, where does it take us?