By Haruki Murakami: The Boy Named Crow
By Haruki Murakami: The Boy Named Crow
"So you're all set for money, then?" the boy named Crow asks in his typical sluggish voice. The
kind of voice like when you've just woken up and your mouth still feels heavy and dull. But he's
just pretending. He's totally awake. As always.
I nod.
"How much?"
I review the numbers in my head. "Close to thirty-five hundred in cash, plus some money I can
get from an ATM. I know it's not a lot, but it should be enough. For the time being."
"Not bad," the boy named Crow says. "For the time being."
I give him another nod.
"I'm guessing this isn't Christmas money from Santa Claus."
"Yeah, you're right," I reply.
Crow smirks and looks around. "I imagine you've started by rifling drawers, am I right?"
I don't say anything. He knows whose money we're talking about, so there's no need for any
long-winded interrogations. He's just giving me a hard time.
"No matter," Crow says. "You really need this money and you're going to get it—beg, borrow, or
steal. It's your father's money, so who cares, right? Get your hands on that much and you should
be able to make it. For the time being. But what's the plan after it's all gone? Money isn't like
mushrooms in a forest—it doesn't just pop up on its own, you know. You'll need to eat, a place to
sleep. One day you're going to run out."
"I'll think about that when the time comes," I say.
"When the time comes," Crow repeats, as if weighing these words in his hand.
I nod.
"Like by getting a job or something?"
"Maybe," I say.
Crow shakes his head. "You know, you've got a lot to learn about the world. Listen—what kind
of job could a fifteen-year-old kid get in some far-off place he's never been to before? You
haven't even finished junior high. Who do you think's going to hire you?"
I blush a little. It doesn't take much to make me blush.
"Forget it," he says. "You're just getting started and I shouldn't lay all this depressing stuff on
you. You've already decided what you're going to do, and all that's left is to set the wheels in
motion. I mean, it's your life. Basically you gotta go with what you think is right."
That's right. When all is said and done, it is my life.
"I'll tell you one thing, though. You're going to have to get a lot tougher if you want to make it."
"I'm trying my best," I say.
"I'm sure you are," Crow says. "These last few years you've gotten a whole lot stronger. I've got
to hand it to you."
I nod again.
"But let's face it—you're only fifteen," Crow goes on. "Your life's just begun and there's a ton of
things out in the world you've never laid eyes on. Things you never could imagine."
As always, we're sitting beside each other on the old sofa in my father's study.
Crow loves the study and all the little objects scattered around there. Now he's toying with a bee-
shaped glass paperweight. If my father was at home, you can bet Crow would never go anywhere
near it.
"But I have to get out of here," I tell him. "No two ways around it."
"Yeah, I guess you're right." He places the paperweight back on the table and links his hands
behind his head. "Not that running away's going to solve everything. I don't want to rain on your
parade or anything, but I wouldn't count on escaping this place if I were you. No matter how far
you run. Distance might not solve anything."
The boy named Crow lets out a sigh, then rests a fingertip on each of his closed eyelids and
speaks to me from the darkness within.
"How about we play our game?" he says.
"All right," I say. I close my eyes and quietly take a deep breath.
"Okay, picture a terrible sandstorm," he says. "Get everything else out of your head."
I do what he says, get everything else out of my head. I forget who I am, even.
I'm a total blank. Then things start to surface. Things that—as we sit here on the old leather sofa
in my father's study—both of us can see.
"Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions," Crow says.
Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction
but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts.
Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with death just before dawn.
Why? Because this storm isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing
to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step
right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn't get in, and
walk through it, step by step. There's no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time. Just
fine white sand swirling up into the sky like pulverized bones. That's the kind of sandstorm you
need to imagine.
And that's exactly what I do. I imagine a white funnel stretching up vertically like a thick rope.
My eyes are closed tight, hands cupped over my ears, so those fine grains of sand can't blow
inside me. The sandstorm draws steadily closer. I can feel the air pressing on my skin. It really is
going to swallow me up.
The boy called Crow softly rests a hand on my shoulder, and with that the storm vanishes.
"From now on—no matter what—you've got to be the world's toughest fifteen-year-old. That's
the only way you're going to survive. And in order to do that, you've got to figure out what it
means to be tough. You following me?"
I keep my eyes closed and don't reply. I just want to sink off into sleep like this, his hand on my
shoulder. I hear the faint flutter of wings.
"You're going to be the world's toughest fifteen-year-old," Crow whispers as I try to fall asleep.
Like he was carving the words in a deep blue tattoo on my heart.
And you really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic storm. No
matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no mistake about it: it will cut through
flesh like a thousand razor blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red
blood. You'll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of others.
And once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to
survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is
certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in. That's
what this storm's all about.
On my fifteenth birthday I'll run away from home, journey to a far-off town, and live in a corner
of a small library. It'd take a week to go into the whole thing, all the details. So I'll just give the
main point. On my fifteenth birthday I'll run away from home, journey to a far-off town, and live
in a corner of a small library.
It sounds a little like a fairy tale. But it's no fairy tale, believe me. No matter what sort of spin
you put on it.
Guide Questions:
1. What does the boy feel toward Crow? Give textual evidence to prove your point.
2. How would you describe the boy named Crow?
3. Why does it seem like he can read the narrator’s mind? Why can they both see the mental
picture of the sandstorm? Who, or what, is Crow?
4. What does the sandstorm represent? Give textual evidence to prove this.
5. Do you agree with the narrator’s view about fate? Why or why not?
6. How would you describe the boy’s relationship with his father? Could this be considered a
relationship that many people have with their fathers? Why or why not?
7. Why does the boy want to run away?
8. Have you ever felt the way he does in the story? Why or why not?
9. Why does he have to be the toughest 15-year old in the world?
10. Why does the narrator say that it sounds like a fairy tale, but it isn’t one?