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The Lucky Ones by Linda Williams Jackson Chapter Sampler
The Lucky Ones by Linda Williams Jackson Chapter Sampler
LUCKY
ONES
THE
LUCKY
ONES
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Candlewick Press
99 Dover Street
Somerville, Massachusetts 02144
www.candlewick.com
This book is dedicated to all my siblings,
especially Willie Mae and Odell,
whom we lost to COVID-19 in 2020.
Wilsonville,
Mississippi
1967
FRIDAY, MARCH 17
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he knew that his mind would soon wander away
from the words if there were no pictures to guide
him along.
Besides the absence of Mr. Foster’s collection
of books, there would also be the absence of food—
sometimes not even a piece of bread—unless Ellis
Earl’s family went to visit their grandparents on
Sunday, which he dreaded.
This weekend, however, Ellis Earl was in luck.
Mr. Foster had given him the leftovers from a sur-
prise afternoon snack for his class. Ellis Earl wished
the food could hold them over until Monday. But
with eleven people in their house, a half loaf of
bread, a half-empty jar of peanut butter, two choc-
olate Moon Pies, and a package of Stage Planks
wouldn’t last until even the next day. The minute
Mr. Foster had given him the sack, Ellis Earl had
begun figuring out how many sandwiches he could
make with the bread and peanut butter. He shared
those figures with Carrie Ann.
“We got ten slices of bread,” he said. “We can
make five sandwiches and cut ’em in half, or we
can each have one slice with peanut butter on top.
That’s enough for all the children. We’ll divide
up the Moon Pies, too. Mama can have the Stage
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Planks. It’ll be nice if she has something sweet for
a change.”
Carrie Ann stopped skipping and turned to face
Ellis Earl. She glared at him. “Mr. Foster said to
make sho’ I got a Moon Pie,” she said. “That mean
a whole Moon Pie. So I ain’t splittin’ it up with
nobody.”
Ellis Earl waved her off. “Don’t be selfish. We
can split these Moon Pies six ways. Everybody
oughta get to taste something sweet.”
“I’m hungry enough to eat both of them Moon
Pies and all that bread and peanut butter right
now,” Carrie Ann said, licking her lips.
“Stop acting greedy. We can’t eat up everything
by ourselves. It ain’t right.”
Having eaten only one meal that day himself,
Ellis Earl would have gladly eaten all the food
right then and there had he been as oblivious to
their family’s plight as his younger sister was. But
he wasn’t as oblivious as Carrie Ann, so he would
never think of devouring a whole sack of food and
not sharing it with his siblings, especially ten-year-
old Oscar, who had become too ill to attend school.
Ellis Earl knew that all the family who were
home during the day had probably eaten little more
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than a couple of biscuits, at best. He was fortu-
nate that Mr. Foster always brought lunch for his
students. Mr. Foster’s food was delicious, so Ellis
Earl didn’t mind one bit that he couldn’t bring his
own lunch. Sometimes Mr. Foster even had fried
chicken, or smothered pork chops. And as if by
some trick of magic, he had enough for everyone,
even the students who brought their own lunches
at times.
“Why we gotta walk all the way home from the
road?” Carrie Ann complained as she did nearly
every day. She hugged her stack of textbooks to her
chest with one hand and with the other tugged her
coat collar tighter about her neck. “It’s cold out
here. And my hand is freezing.”
Ellis Earl clucked his tongue at Carrie Ann.
It was a pity how his little sister could so quickly
switch from skipping and singing to slouching
and complaining. He peered through the still-
bare branches of the trees and gazed at the sky.
It was overcast and gray. “It’s about to be spring-
time before long,” he said, even though he hardly
believed that himself. Regretfully, he didn’t have
a free hand with which to secure his coat collar
tighter about his neck. Neither could he alternate
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which hand held his textbooks in order to warm
the other in his coat pocket as Carrie Ann did. But
cold hands were a small price to pay to avoid the
humiliation he would feel if the other children in
the carpool ever saw his house.
“When?” Carrie Ann asked.
“When what?”
“When is spring gon’ be here?”
Ellis Earl shrugged. “Couple of weeks, I think.”
“What day?”
“How should I know? Do I look like a calendar?”
“You always lookin’ at it, so I thought you had it
re-memorized by now.”
“Well, I don’t have it memorized. I just know
spring’s coming soon. But I don’t know the exact
day.” Ellis Earl glanced back up at the sky, doubt-
ful. Spring was nowhere in sight, despite what
the calendar said. But oh, how he wished it were.
March shouldn’t feel the same as December.
Another cold night in their house.
Another night that his brother Oscar would be
coughing up a storm.
Ellis Earl hoped that Oscar would get better
soon. He had missed two months of school, but
Ellis Earl knew he could catch up if he was able to
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go back before the term was over. Oscar was a fast
learner. But in the meantime, Oscar would have
to settle for the bits of the outside world that Ellis
Earl could bring, like books and food, when Mr.
Foster sent it home with him.
Halfway to the house, Carrie Ann stopped and
stamped her foot.
Ellis Earl groaned. “Now what’s the matter?”
“Please let me have something outta that sack
’foe we get to the house,” Carrie Ann begged.
“Nope. This food is for everybody.”
Carrie Ann dropped her books on the road, fell
to her knees, and, with her hands clasped beneath
her chin, begged. “Please! Just gimme my Moon
Pie. I just wanna have a whole Moon Pie to myself
for once. Just. This. One. Time. Please!”
Ellis Earl’s shoulders drooped. Carrie Ann was
right. When they were lucky enough to have a
sweet treat, it was always “divided up” among the
little children: him, Oscar, Carrie Ann, Beatrice,
Deidra, and Vera. Regardless of how tiny the snack,
whether it was a Moon Pie, a Honey Bun, or even a
Poor Boy cake, it was divided up.
While Ellis Earl was deciding what to do, Carrie
Ann got to her feet and reminded him again, “Mr.
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Foster said to make sho’ I got a Moon Pie. That
mean a whole Moon Pie. Not no split-up Moon
Pie.”
“Mr. Foster said to make sure you got a Moon
Pie, not sho’.”
“Well, if that ain’t the pot callin’ the kettle
black,” said Carrie Ann. “Don’t try to tell me how
to talk, Ellis Earl Brown. You ain’t always so proper
yo’self.”
“Yourself,” said Ellis Earl, unfazed.
Carrie Ann stretched out her hand. “Just gimme
my Moon Pie.”
With much exaggeration, Ellis Earl placed
his books on the road, reached into the bag, and
pulled out a Moon Pie. “Here,” he said, extending
it toward Carrie Ann.
“Thank the good Lord!” cried Carrie Ann.
Before they reached the house, she had
devoured the whole Moon Pie. With a satisfied
grin, she raced toward the rickety steps of their
home, dashed up, and darted across the porch to
the front door.
Ellis Earl, however, hesitated at the edge of the
yard. With his stomach rumbling, he peeked into
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the sack and considered eating that entire second
Moon Pie.
But he thought of Oscar.
He thought of Beatrice.
He thought of Deidra.
He thought of Vera.
Split four ways, that Moon Pie would make a
satisfying treat for them.
He himself could do without.
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Four Extra Mouths
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Ellis Earl smiled. He was happy he hadn’t eaten
the extra Moon Pie after all. He wanted to be self-
less like his uncle Joseph.
Ellis Earl was barely inside the front door before
his three-year-old niece practically tackled him.
Vera always hugged him when he arrived home,
but today’s greeting was especially enthusiastic.
Ellis Earl knew that Vera was happy to see him.
But he also knew that Vera was equally happy to
see the brown paper sack. And more importantly,
Vera knew that, tucked between Ellis Earl’s text-
books, there was the storybook that he was allowed
to borrow from Mr. Foster’s collection.
Vera slipped the book from the stack and
beamed. “Curious George Rides a Bike!” She hugged
the book to her chest. She knew both the title and
most of the text by heart. Next Vera reached for the
sack, but Ellis Earl refused her. “You gotta wait like
everybody else. Besides, we got beans today. We
can save this for tomorrow.”
With a nod, Vera scampered back to the floor,
where she had been playing with dolls made from
cardboard. For a moment, Ellis Earl watched his
niece and two of his sisters, seven-year-old Beatrice
and six-year-old Deidra, play. He was glad they at
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least had something to do during the day, though
he wished they could go to school like Carrie Ann
and him. But there was not enough space in Mr.
Foster’s station wagon for all the Brown children.
Even Oscar, after having become ill in January,
had lost his spot to a third-grade boy named Larry.
Ellis Earl often wondered what would happen
when Oscar got better. Would Larry have to give
up his spot? Or would Oscar simply have to stay
home? He hoped that during the next school year,
the county would provide the bus that they had
been promising for two years. Then all the children
could go to school.
It was only four in the afternoon, but Oscar was
already in bed, or on his mattress rather, next to
the wood-burning heater in the front room. Ellis
Earl placed his books on a cinder block in the cor-
ner, then headed over to where Oscar lay. He knelt
beside the mattress and touched his brother’s fore-
head. It was warm.
He stroked his cheek and Oscar’s eyes fluttered
open. They looked as if all the life had been drained
from them.
“How you feelin’?” asked Ellis Earl.
“Tired,” Oscar answered. His voice was croaky,
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as if he hadn’t spoken in days. He mustered the
strength to raise his head and clear his throat.
“What you bring me today?” He had asked Ellis
Earl this same question every day since he began
missing school.
Ellis Earl smiled, opened the sack, and pulled
out the bread. “Mr. Foster gave us some food.”
At the sight of store-bought bread, Oscar’s tired
eyes attempted a dance. “Mr. Foster so nice,” he
said quietly. He lowered his head and allowed his
eyes to drift shut again.
Ellis Earl leaned over and hugged him. “Get
better soon,” he said. “Don’t want you sick on your
birthday. We gotta celebrate us both being eleven
at the same time.”
Even though their older brothers, seventeen-
year-old Aaron and Andre, were twins, it was Ellis
Earl and Oscar who were often mistaken for such,
because they were so close in age and were exactly
the same height. Born only eleven months apart—
Oscar in April and Ellis Earl in May—the boys were
always excited when, for one month, they were the
same age.
“I’m gonna get you something this year,” said
Ellis Earl.
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With a tired grin and his eyes still closed, Oscar
replied, “You say that every year.”
“But I’m gonna try real hard this year,” said
Ellis Earl. “I’m gonna get you something. Just you
watch.”
Oscar opened his eyes and smiled at Ellis Earl.
“Ah, you don’t have to get me nothin’,” he said.
“Besides, I can’t get you nothin’ for yo’ birthday. So
we even.”
“I’m still gonna try,” said Ellis Earl.
Oscar closed his eyes again. “I know you is,” he
whispered.
Are, thought Ellis Earl, but out loud he said,
“And I’m gonna make it real special, too, since
you’ve been sick so long.”
“Thanks, brother,” said Oscar.
Before Ellis Earl could carry his sack to the
kitchen, his ear was turned to the sound of a car
pulling into the yard. Without looking, he knew it
was his oldest brother, twenty-two-year-old Walter
Jr., for Junior’s car made a loud, clanking noise as
soon as it was shifted into park.
Ellis Earl rushed to the window, pulled back
the threadbare curtain, and pressed his face against
the dull pane in order to see out. His brother’s
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1950 Chevrolet Deluxe four-door sedan, a car with
ten times more dents than doors, was parked all
the way up to the porch steps. Inside sat the entire
family: Junior; his wife, Sylvia; and their children,
four-year-old Jewel, three-year-old Pearline, two-
year-old Lil’ Walt, and one-year-old Prince. The
Stair Steppers, as some folks called them, because,
born one year after the other, they were stacked up
like stairs.
All the same, Sylvia was having another baby.
And she was due to deliver soon. The four little
ones would be staying at Ellis Earl’s house. This
way, Junior would be prepared at a moment’s notice
to rush Sylvia (who was leery of having a midwife
deliver her baby) to the hospital two towns over.
And since no one can predict the exact day a
new baby will choose to arrive, no one could give
an exact amount of time the four little ones would
be staying. Ellis Earl’s shoulders drooped at the
thought.
His niece Vera lived with them, but that was
because her mother, Ellis Earl’s oldest sister,
Eloise, was deceased. But just as he had the past
three times his sister-in-law, Sylvia, had a baby,
Ellis Earl had hoped she would ask someone in her
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own family to “watch the babies” while she “had
the baby.” There were already way too many peo-
ple in their tiny house. They hardly had any place
to sleep. He and Oscar slept in the front room on
a mattress. Mama and the girls slept in the mid-
dle room, where six of them shared two beds. And
the three teenage boys, twins Andre and Aaron and
the third wheel, fifteen-year-old Raymond, slept on
pallets in the kitchen.
And there was definitely never enough food to
go around.
Now there would be four extra mouths to feed.
And eight extra hands expecting something
from the sack.
With that thought, Ellis Earl wished he’d eaten
that Moon Pie while he’d had the chance. There
would be no point in dividing such a small treat
among so many.
By the time his oldest brother and his family
bounded up the steps (Sylvia waddled, actually)
and onto the porch, fourteen-year-old Jeannette
had made her way to the front room from the
kitchen in the back of the house.
Jeannette was the official keeper of the house
and the official watcher of the younger children
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while Mama, Andre, Aaron, and Raymond went
out to find work each day. And though she was
fourteen, Jeannette was not an inch taller than
eleven-year-old Ellis Earl—if you didn’t count
the high Afro covering her head. But by her own
assessment, she was ten times wiser.
“Junior ’n ’em here?” she asked gruffly.
Ellis Earl nodded.
“Hope they brought they own food. We ain’t got
enough food to feed all them children.”
Ellis Earl held up his sack. “I got stuff to make
peanut butter sandwiches. That’ll help.”
Jeannette snatched the sack from Ellis Earl and
examined its contents. She grabbed the package
of Stage Planks and stuck it in the pocket of her
dress.
“Hey! I’m saving that for Mama,” said Ellis Earl.
“I’m gonna give it to her when she gets home from
work.”
Jeannette glared at him. “She ain’t gon’ miss
what she never had.” She shoved the sack back
toward Ellis Earl. “We still ain’t got enough food to
last till Junior come back for these children since
God only know when that’ll be.”
“At least we got beans,” said Ellis Earl.
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“And a house full of people,” said Jeannette.
“We be lucky to get five darn beans apiece.”
“They’re just little children, Jeannette,” said
Ellis Earl, feeling guilty for having only moments
before thought the same way himself.
“Some greedy lil’ children,” said Jeannette. “You
seen Jewel lately? How fast she growing? Looking
’bout six, and she ain’t but four. And Prince? He
ain’t but one, and near ’bout big as Vera already.
Them children gon’ eat us outta house and home
by the time Junior come pick ’em back up.”
Ellis Earl thought about the empty food safe
and icebox in the kitchen. Even with the food from
Uncle Joseph and the sack from Mr. Foster, there
wasn’t much house and home to be eaten out of.
But he didn’t dare point that out to Jeannette.
With a slight knock and before an official invi-
tation to enter, Sister-in-Law Sylvia—a petite
woman with a belly like a giant beach ball—tot-
tered into the house.
Jeannette gritted her teeth and headed back to
the kitchen.
Ellis Earl’s younger sisters and his niece Vera
dashed to the door to embrace Sylvia. Unlike Ellis
Earl and Jeannette, they were thrilled to see her,
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and even more thrilled to pat her poked-out belly
and inquire about the baby.
Seeing that neither his brother nor his sister-in-
law brought in a grocery sack, Ellis Earl quietly left
the front room and carried his sack to the kitchen.
Somehow, he would figure out how to spread what
little he had among so many.
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Times Is Hard
for Everybody
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Not being one to complain, Ellis Earl took his
place at the table after Jeannette ladled out just
enough beans to fill half his bowl. The cornbread,
too, was cut smaller than usual.
But Carrie Ann, being one to complain, gave
Jeannette an evil eye and asked, “How come you
can’t fill my bowl up all the way?”
Jeannette pointed at the nieces and nephews
sitting on the floor. “Don’t you see all these bellies
these beans have to fill?”
Carrie Ann shrugged. “Them lil’ children don’t
need that much.”
“Well, that’s all you gittin’,” said Jeannette.
“These beans gotta last till tomorrow. Now, go on
to the table and eat.”
“Humph,” said Carrie Ann, stomping away.
“Bet you gon’ fill yo’ bowl all the way up.”
While the youngest of the Browns sat on the
floor, the younger Browns—Ellis Earl, Carrie
Ann, Beatrice, and Deidra—stood at the table
because they had no chairs on which to sit. The
older Browns—Andre and Aaron, Raymond, and
Jeannette—ate their supper in the middle room,
where they sat on the two beds where Mama and
the girls slept. Besides two old rocking chairs in
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the front room, the beds were the only place in the
house to sit.
Mama ate her meal alone in the front room,
where she sometimes listened to her battery-pow-
ered radio given to her by Uncle Joseph. Usually her
children respected her privacy, as this was her only
respite from her daily duties of working, or trying
to find work, and worrying. But on this night, Ellis
Earl left his place at the table to join Mama in the
front room, hoping she wouldn’t mind his wanting
to have his own respite from the crowd (and Carrie
Ann’s constant complaining) in the kitchen.
Ellis Earl hesitated in the doorway between the
middle room and the front room. Mama had only
recently gotten home from work. He knew how
much she cherished this time to herself. Yet he
wanted badly to be with her.
Except for the creaking of the rocking chair
where Mama sat and the crackling of the fire in the
wood-burning heater, the front room was silent.
Mama’s tired face glowed in the amber light of
the kerosene lamp. She slowly raised a spoonful of
beans to her mouth, so lost in thought she didn’t
notice Ellis Earl watching her.
Mama startled when Andre, the older of the
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twins by a full twenty minutes, yelled from the
middle room, “Boy, why is you standing there star-
ing at Mama like you ain’t got good sense? Go on
in the front room if you goin’.”
Worry lines crinkled Mama’s forehead. “What’s
the matter, Earl?”
Embarrassed that his brother had yelled at him,
Ellis Earl dropped his head and asked, “Can I sit in
here with you?”
“’Course you can,” Mama answered.
Ellis Earl trudged into the room and sat in the
other rocking chair. It creaked loudly.
“Something wrong, baby?” Mama asked, whis-
pering so she wouldn’t wake Oscar, who was
curled up on the mattress. Even without whis-
pering, Mama’s voice was always soft. Soft and
tired-sounding.
Ellis Earl replied, “Ain’t nothing wrong. I just
wanna sit in here with you.”
Mama smiled. “I’d like that.”
Mama’s smile brought tiny lines around her
eyes. Ellis Earl wished he could erase them.
He wasn’t ready for wrinkles to show up when she
smiled. Not at thirty-nine. Maybe at fifty, when
she was old.
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“How come you ain’t listening to the radio?” he
asked her.
“My batteries low,” Mama said. “I’ma save ’em
up for Sunday morning.”
“So you can listen to your church songs?”
“Uh-huh,” answered Mama. She closed her
eyes and smiled.
Ellis Earl wondered whether she was thinking
about when she was much younger and sang in the
church choir, as she mentioned it often when she
listened to gospel music.
Mama picked up her glass of water from the
makeshift table, which was nothing more than an
overturned five-gallon lard bucket with a towel
draped over it. After taking a few sips of water, she
placed the glass back down, ate a few more spoon-
fuls of beans, then asked Ellis Earl, “Learn any-
thing good in school today?”
“Lots!” he replied.
“Like what?”
Ellis Earl tapped his chin. “Hmm. Let’s see.”
He cast his eyes toward the rain-stained ceiling and
thought about his lessons from the day. “Oh!” he
said, beaming. “Today Mr. Foster told us about a
colored lawyer named Thurgood Marshall. He said
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he might be the first colored man ever to serve on
the Supreme Court.”
“Is that right?” said Mama, her face glowing. “I
don’t know nothin’ about all that kind of stuff, but
a supreme court sho’ do sound real important.”
“It is! Mr. Foster said it’s one of the highest
jobs in the country. About as high as being the
president.”
“That so?” said Mama.
“Yep,” said Ellis Earl. “He said President
Johnson said it’s about time a colored man was on
that court.”
“Won’t that be nice,” said Mama.
“Sure will,” said Ellis Earl. “Mr. Foster said that
Mr. Thurgood Marshall could help make life better
for colored people if he gets a spot on that court.”
“We sho’ could use some help,” said Mama.
“Lord knows we needs some help finding jobs.”
“You find any work today?”
“A lil’ bit. I was able to help Miss Lucinda
Butler clean for Mrs. Chalmers this morning. You
know Miss Lucinda ’bout as old as black pepper, so
she be needing help sometimes.”
“I’m glad Mrs. Chalmers let you help out.”
“But at half the pay she give Miss Lucinda,”
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Mama reminded him. “I didn’t have nothin’ for
the afternoon though. And the boys didn’t fare too
good today neither,” she said, referring to Andre,
Aaron, and Raymond. “All three of ’em did some
bush-hogging on Mr. Denton’s place. He clearin’
that big plot of land by the highway to make ready
for rice farming. Wasn’t able to pay ’em much
though. It was so many of ’em out there. White
and colored.
“But we oughta have enough to get us some
food next week. What Joe brought ain’t gon’ last
long with the babies here.”
“When Mr. Thurgood Marshall finds a way to
help colored people get real jobs,” said Ellis Earl,
“you won’t have to keep asking white women if
their maids need help for the day.”
Mama placed her empty plate on the floor,
folded her hands in her lap, and rocked slowly in
her chair. “Right now I’d just be happy to work reg-
ular as anybody’s maid. But there just ain’t enough
white womens needing maids as there is colored
womens needing work.”
“I wish you didn’t have to work as a maid at all,”
Ellis Earl said quietly.
Mama sighed. “What else is I gon’ do?”
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Ellis Earl shrugged. “You cook real good.”
“Ain’t nobody hiring no cooks.”
“What about washing?”
“Who I’m gon’ wash for besides my own
children?”
“You could take in laundry.”
“Folks washin’ they own clothes, Earl. Times
is hard for everybody. For the lil’ bit I’m gon’ be
bringin’ in for the time being, I might as well just
stay here and help Jeannette with all these children.
Only God know when Sylvia gon’ have that baby.”
“I hope it’s soon,” said Ellis Earl. “Tonight
would be good. That way they can go home next
week.”
Mama nodded. “I love my grandbabies. But
this lil’ space we got ain’t big enough for the ones
already here. Sho’ ain’t big enough for fo’ mo’.”
A look of contemplation spread across Ellis
Earl’s face. “Maybe I can be a lawyer like Mr.
Thurgood Marshall when I grow up. I can make a
lot of money and buy you a big house.”
Mama smiled. “Thought you wanted to be a
teacher like Mr. Foster.”
“I do,” Ellis Earl said. “But I can be a lawyer
after that. Or I can be both at the same time.”
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Ellis Earl couldn’t help noticing the sadness in
Mama’s eyes. “You don’t think I can be both?” he
asked.
“I do,” Mama said wearily. “If you kin finish
school.”
“Of course I can finish school,” said Ellis Earl.
“I’m smart enough. I only have two more grades to
go before I go to the high school.”
“Oh, Earl. You know it ain’t ’cause I don’t think
you smart enough.”
“Then what is it?”
“You know we all have to pitch in ’round here
to make ends meet,” Mama said. “If I need you to
work, then you might not be able to even go to the
junior high, let alone the high school.”
“Mama, please don’t say that,” Ellis Earl said,
tears threatening to spring up. “You know how
much I love school.”
“I know you do, baby. I want you to finish school
and be a teacher or a lawyer, too. But if we git too
hungry ’round here, and there be some work that
you can do to help out, then school might have to
wait.”
None of Ellis Earl’s older siblings had gone
past sixth grade, which he’d always assumed was
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because they hadn’t cared much for school. But he
now understood that was not truly the reason why.
He looked down at his near-empty bowl and his
crumbs of cornbread. If this was all he had to eat
every night for the next six years, he would gladly
accept it if it meant finishing school.
But he knew the choice wasn’t his to make.
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The Brown Blues
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Although his brothers never said this, Ellis Earl
could feel it in his heart. Before Oscar started with
all the coughing fits, the fevers, and the weakness
of his limbs, he could outrun even fifteen-year-old
Raymond by a whole foot when they all lined up
to race. Ellis Earl could barely outrun Carrie Ann,
and she was a teeny-tiny girl!
Oscar never treated Ellis Earl as poorly as his
older brothers did. But Oscar was sick and not
much company. So it was just Ellis Earl and the
girls—like now—on the floor of the front room,
while his older brothers and Jeannette moaned the
blues in the middle room.
While Raymond made his old harmonica cry a
sad melody, Andre, Aaron, and Jeannette harmo-
nized with their voices:
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Carrie Ann, who sat beside him, eyed him
sternly and said, “Didn’t Mama tell you to stop all
that talking to yo’self ’foe you end up in the crazy
house?”
Making a dramatic gesture around the room,
Ellis Earl retorted, “I’m already in a crazy house.”
“Humph,” Carrie Ann said. “You ’bout the cra-
ziest one of all.”
Ellis Earl responded, “You mean the smartest
one of all.”
“I meant what I said. You ain’t so smart. You
just think you is.”
“You won’t be saying that when I’m a lawyer
one day and making a lot of money.”
“I don’t care how much money you make. If you
keep on mumbling to yo’self, people still gon’ think
you as crazy as a shot squirrel.”
“At least I’ll be a rich shot squirrel,” Ellis Earl
said. “And when I am, I won’t give you a dime
because you’re too mean.”
“I won’t need no money from you,” said Carrie
Ann. “I’ll have my own. If you kin be a lawyer, then
I kin be one, too.”
Ellis Earl scoffed. “Girls can’t be lawyers. You
can be a teacher or a nurse, but not a lawyer.”
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Carrie Ann crossed her arms and huffed. “And
just why not?”
“Because being a lawyer is tough. And girls just
ain’t tough enough.”
Carrie Ann punched him in the arm.
Ellis Earl stifled a howl.
Carrie Ann smirked. “I’m tougher than you or
any other boy, Ellis Earl Brown. And if you kin be
a lawyer, then I kin be one, too.”
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SATURDAY, MARCH 18
Not an Occasion
for Celebration
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“Things ain’t looking good right now.” Uncle
Joseph glanced over at the mattress where the boys
lay. “Them boys all ’sleep?”
“All of ’em but Earl,” replied Mama.
Uncle Joseph let out a deep breath. “He a big
boy. This ain’t too hard for him. Besides, all of ’em
gon’ know in the morning anyhow.”
“The baby a’right?” Mama asked, her voice
shaking.
“He a’right,” said Uncle Joseph.
“A boy, huh?”
“A big one,” Uncle Joseph said, frowning. “Too
big.”
Mama’s hand shot up to her mouth. “Lord.”
“The baby a’right,” Uncle Joseph said again.
“But Sylvia lost a lotta blood. Went into some kinda
shock. The doctor sedated her real heavy. Put her
in a coma, Junior say.”
“A coma?” said Mama, her eyes wide. “I ain’t
never heard of no such thing as a doctor puttin’
nobody in a coma.”
By this time, more of the family were emerg-
ing from their slumbers. They trickled into
the front room, one by one, their faces full of
questions.
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“Sylvia in a coma.” The word passed from per-
son to person.
Jeannette, often careless with her words, said,
“At least she ain’t dead like Eloise.”
The room grew still.
Chills crept along Ellis Earl’s arms. The Brown
children hardly ever mentioned their oldest sister,
Eloise.
Eloise—named after Mama—had been dead
for three years. Her death came swiftly when the
midwife neglected to stop the bleeding after Ellis
Earl’s niece Vera was born. This, everyone knew,
was the reason for Sylvia’s distrust of midwives.
“If they put her in a coma,” Andre asked, “when
is they plannin’ on takin’ her out of it?”
Uncle Joseph’s face seemed to crumple. “She
already woke up from it. On her own. Too soon,
the doctor say. Now that chile can’t see a thing.
Not one darn thing. That chile blind as a bat.”
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MONDAY, MARCH 20
Necessary News
for Negro Children
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giving poor Ellis Earl a heart attack from embar-
rassment. He wished Oscar were with them.
Perhaps the two of them together—a nudge (or a
slight pinch if necessary) from each side—could
have helped Carrie Ann remember Mama’s words:
What goes on at the house stays at the house.
Instead Carrie Ann brought the affairs of the
house straight to the carpool:
“Jeannette gave er’body a half-empty bowl of
beans . . . We didn’t have no cornbread left over for
breakfast on Saturday like we used to . . . Pearline
peed in the bed, and me and Jeannette and Deidra
was mad ’cause we all got wet, too . . . We didn’t
have nothing to eat on Sunday but the peanut but-
ter sammiches and rice . . . We couldn’t go to Big
Mama’s house and eat ’cause all us wouldn’t fit in
Uncle Joseph’s car . . . I’ll be so glad when Sylvia
and Junior come get they children . . . I’m hungry.
Anybody got some saltine crackers?”
When Mr. Foster’s station wagon rolled into
the schoolyard, Ellis Earl opened the door before
the car came to a complete stop. He couldn’t wait
to get away from his tell-all little sister. Equally,
he couldn’t wait to get home and tell Mama that
Carrie Ann had been running off at the mouth
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again, telling all their business. Or, in Mama’s
words, “airing their dirty laundry”!
Mama is right, Ellis Earl thought. Carrie Ann
is like a bucket with a hole in the bottom. She can’t
hold nothing! Maybe if Mama took that strap to her
like she’s been saying, Carrie Ann would learn to keep
her big . . . mouth . . . shut!
But Ellis Earl knew that would probably never
happen. Mama was not too quick to use a strap
on any of her children, no matter how much she
thought they deserved it.
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children,” and distributed the articles to various
students to prepare for a discussion on current
events.
Ellis Earl gazed at the article lying atop his
open social studies textbook. “Democrats to Bar
Discrimination at ’68 Convention,” the title read.
The article was a long one, in Ellis Earl’s opinion—
too long to read and report on in only five min-
utes. Admittedly, he had at least skimmed over the
article on Sunday. But with so many of the words
unfamiliar to him and without anyone at home to
ask for help, Ellis Earl had simply tucked the arti-
cle back into the front page of his textbook and had
forgotten about it until this morning.
Now, with his eyes darting back and forth and
his left hand moving his pencil swiftly across his
lined paper, the best he could do was jot down
the main points and hope to summarize them
to his classmates: subcommittee . . . Democratic
National Committee . . . Deep South . . . does not
have Negro members . . . should be barred from
the party’s 1968 national convention . . . President
Lyndon B. Johnson . . . sending to Congress new
civil rights legislation . . . On the wintry Sunday . . .
chief executive told a shivering audience . . . Lincoln
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began . . . troubled journey towards . . . establishment
of a multiracial community . . . President Johnson
announced . . . new civil rights program . . . fair hous-
ing . . . 1969 . . .
There, Ellis Earl stopped. Fair housing by
1969? That was only two years away. What exactly
was fair housing? he wondered. Is it possible that
he and his family could live in a real house by the
time he turned thirteen? Would he and Oscar have
a real bed? Would they have a bedroom? Could
the president of the United States make that hap-
pen? If the president could get a colored man on
the Supreme Court, then maybe that man, Mr.
Thurgood Marshall, could help colored people get
fair housing.
A smile formed at the thought.
Ellis Earl wasn’t sure what that other stuff in the
article meant. He had never heard of a Democratic
National Convention, nor was he certain of what
the word subcommittee meant. But he did under-
stand the words Deep South and most certainly
Negro, because that was what he was: a Negro
living in the Deep South.
After his oral presentation, the class applauded
him, but not Mr. Foster. “Mr. Brown,” he said,
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stopping Ellis Earl before he sat down. “There was
one sentence in that article that I hoped you would
take note of and share with the class.”
Ellis Earl scanned the article again. What had
he left out? He had mentioned how President
Johnson wanted to make sure Negroes were rep-
resented at this Democratic National Convention
next year. He had mentioned how President
Johnson wanted to carry on the work that Abraham
Lincoln had begun over a hundred years ago and
help the United States become a multiracial com-
munity. He had mentioned that President Johnson
wanted fair housing for Negroes. He had even
mentioned that the president had a whole package
of civil rights bills that he wanted to pass. What
had he missed?
After he had scanned the article twice, he
peered up at Mr. Foster and admitted, “I don’t
know what I’m missing, sir.”
Mr. Foster replied, “Sit down. Read over the
article and find two words that are of utmost impor-
tance to my mission here at this school.”
Two words that are of utmost importance to my
mission here at this school. Though annoyed, Ellis
Earl managed to control the huff that wanted to
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escape him. Mr. Foster should have said up front
that he wanted him to look for two words that were
important to him. Ellis Earl had homed in on the
two words, fair and housing, that were to his benefit
instead.
“Let’s have our next article while we wait,” said
Mr. Foster.
A girl named Cassandra Smith stood.
“ ‘WEALTHY WHITE FAMILY BEFRIENDS
NEGRO IN BIASED INDIANA CITY,’” she read
loudly from her prepared notes. Some of the chil-
dren covered their ears because Cassandra always
spoke louder than necessary. “This story is about
a Negro woman named Mrs. Nellie B. Kanno,”
Cassandra continued, nearly shouting. “Mrs.
Kanno moved to Michigan City, Indiana, last year
in 1966.”
Cassandra looked up from her paper. “Ain’t it
kinda strange that the city is called Michigan City,
but it ain’t in Michigan?”
When none of her peers responded, Cassandra
shrugged and began reading from her notes again.
“When Mrs. Kanno and her husband moved to
Michigan City, they was expecting bad things to
happen to them because Michigan City used to be
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where the Ku Klux Klan had a stronghold.” With
furrowed brows Cassandra added, “I don’t know
what that word mean, but it sound bad. And scary.”
The class laughed.
Satisfied that she had now gotten the kind of
attention she desired, Cassandra smiled and con-
tinued. “Mrs. Kanno’s husband’s name is Ayalew.
He is a African from Ethiopia. He went to Indiana
to complete his college degree and get a P-H-D.”
Laughter interrupted Cassandra’s presentation
again as everyone thought she was attempting to
rhyme when she said “degree” and “P-H-D.”
“Mrs. Kanno was looking for a job as a . . .”
Cassandra paused.
“Yes?” said Mr. Foster, his brows raised.
“I don’t know how to say this word:
c-o-u-n-s-e-l-o-r.”
“Counselor,” said Mr. Foster.
“Thank you,” said Cassandra. “Mrs. Kanno was
looking for a job as a counselor. And she was look-
ing for a place to stay. But everywhere she went,
they told her, ‘No colored.’ Or they lied to her and
said, ‘The place done already been rented.’”
Cassandra took a deep breath. “Mrs. Kanno was
getting real fed up and mad about all this. Then
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one day she met some rich white people. They was
named Frederick and Marion Pilliard. They said
that Mrs. Kanno and her husband could live with
them in they big fancy house.”
A few wows came from the class.
“Mrs. Kanno didn’t trust them at first. She said,
‘Why these white people want me to come stay with
them? Why they doing this? Ain’t they scared they
gon’ lose they white friends?’ But she found out
that Mr. Pilliard ’n ’em had been trying to help col-
ored people all the time. They had helped a lot of
colored people in Michigan City, and they helped
Mrs. Kanno get a good job.”
Cassandra looked up from her notes, smiled at
the class, and said, “That’s all.” Oddly, she said this
last part quietly.
The class applauded, and Cassandra took her
seat.
“What did we learn from Miss Smith’s presen-
tation?” asked Mr. Foster.
A girl named Deborah Walker raised her hand.
Mr. Foster nodded permission to speak.
“We learned that all white people don’t hate
colored people,” said Deborah. “Some of them
want to help.”
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“Correct,” said Mr. Foster.
Another hand went up.
“Mr. Greene,” said Mr. Foster.
Willie Greene, who had a deep baritone voice
even though he was only twelve years old, said, “We
learnt that Mississippi ain’t the only place where
white folks is mean. And we learnt that Michigan
City ain’t in Michigan.”
The class erupted in giggles.
With a stern look, Mr. Foster rapped on his
desk with his wooden paddle. The class promptly
calmed down.
“Thank you for your opinion, Mr. Greene,” he
said. “But that was not the point of the article. We
are all well aware that racism exists all over the
country. The point of the article, as Miss Walker
has stated, is that not all white people despise the
Negro race. There are some who want to see us
advance.”
With a sheepish glance toward Mr. Foster,
Willie Greene offered his apology to the class for
his attempt to be comedic.
Ellis Earl, in the meantime, had not taken long
to figure out what Mr. Foster wanted of him as
far as his article was concerned. For as soon as he
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had observed the page, the two words which he
knew would be of utmost importance to Mr. Foster
seemed to stare back at him:
Black. Power.
Ellis Earl hadn’t actually heard Mr. Foster use
the two words together, but he had heard him
speak often enough about a group called the Black
Panthers. He spoke about how some people were
afraid of how powerful the Panthers were. And
though Mr. Foster wasn’t a member of the group,
he told his students that his mission was to have
the same type of impact in his community as the
Black Panthers had in theirs.
Ellis Earl’s face lit up with a grin when Mr.
Foster asked him, “You ready, Mr. Brown?”
“Yes, sir, I’m ready.”
Although he wasn’t sure how to pronounce some
of the words, Ellis Earl stood and read the quote:
“ ‘Lincoln began his troubled journey towards a new
concept which would go beyond theories of black
power—beyond the ancient blunders of racism to
the establishment of a multiracial community—
in which a man’s pride in his racial origins would
be wholly consistent with his commitment to the
common endeavor.’”
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“Meaning?” asked Mr. Foster.
Again Ellis Earl floundered. He read the quote
again silently.
He wanted to say something—to get this thing
right. He knew the words black power were signifi-
cant to his teacher, but he didn’t know how to sum-
marize the words from the article. He didn’t even
know what some of the words, like theories and
endeavor, meant. He felt like a failure as a trickle of
sweat suddenly rolled from his armpits and down
his sides—something that often happened when he
was nervous.
Nearly in tears, he swallowed hard and said, “I
don’t know what it means.”
With a look of concern rather than disappoint-
ment, Mr. Foster relegated Ellis Earl to his seat.
He scanned the room. “Would anyone else like to
tell us what this quote means?”
The hand of Philip, Ellis Earl’s friend, shot up.
After getting Mr. Foster’s permission to speak,
Philip said, “What I think President Lyndon B.
Johnson means, sir, is that President Abraham
Lincoln didn’t just want the slave owners to free
the slaves, but he wanted everyone to get along
after the war. He wanted everyone to be treated
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the same. And he wanted Black people to be proud
of who they were even if they used to be slaves.”
“Does everyone agree?” Mr. Foster inquired of
the class.
A resounding “Yes, sir” came from the class.
Ellis Earl felt his face grow hot. How could
Philip call himself his friend, then embarrass him
like that? He wanted to defend himself. He wanted
to show Mr. Foster that he, too, was smart.
He raised his hand.
Mr. Foster acknowledged him. “Mr. Brown,
you have a question?”
“I have a comment, sir,” Ellis Earl answered.
“You may proceed,” replied Mr. Foster.
With a serious expression, Ellis Earl said,
“Philip said ‘Black people.’ The article said ‘Negro
people.’ He should have said what the article said.”
“Oh?” said Mr. Foster, his brows raised. “Does
the class agree?”
Before anyone could answer, Philip defended
himself. “My cousin Kareem said we shouldn’t call
ourselves Negroes and colored people anymore.
We’re Black people, like our brothers and sisters in
Africa. And we should be proud of that.”
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Angrily, Ellis Earl said, “You should’ve said
what was in the article.”
“We should call ourselves Black people,” Philip
said proudly. “Negro and colored are names other
people called us. Black is what we can call our-
selves. Black is our ancestors. Black is us. Black is
power.”
Ellis Earl let out a deep breath. “But the
article—”
“—did indeed use the word black, as you your-
self pointed out,” Mr. Foster interrupted him. “So
Mr. Harris is correct in his use of the word. There
is no sense in being controversial simply for the
sake of controversy, Mr. Brown.”
Ellis Earl sank down in his seat, defeated.
When he dared to glance over at his friend, Philip
frowned and looked the other way.
Carrie Ann isn’t the only one who should have
kept her mouth shut this morning, thought Ellis
Earl. Looks like my big mouth just cost me a friend.
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