Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Govardhana Sila, that was given by Mahaprabhu to Ragunath dasa Goswami . That is and salagrama is considered with respect to varnashrama amongst the brahmins. So amongst the vaisnavites the Govardhana Sila, Salagarama is called "Gandaki Sila " naturally we are known by the relation. By that Gandaki Sila, the Sila that is found in the river Gandaki there natural existance of the Lord Narayana in different ways, it is revieled. And so who has got faith in that revelation, they accept path of worshiping Narayana in Gandaki Sila or Salagrama. And so also Krsna expressed Himself in Bhagavatam and other places we find that "I am in Govardhana." "Govardhana and Meself, inseparably we are connected. So anyone anyone who will worship Govardhana he will worship Me.
Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Govardhana Sila, that was given by Mahaprabhu to Ragunath dasa Goswami . That is and salagrama is considered with respect to varnashrama amongst the brahmins. So amongst the vaisnavites the Govardhana Sila, Salagarama is called "Gandaki Sila " naturally we are known by the relation. By that Gandaki Sila, the Sila that is found in the river Gandaki there natural existance of the Lord Narayana in different ways, it is revieled. And so who has got faith in that revelation, they accept path of worshiping Narayana in Gandaki Sila or Salagrama. And so also Krsna expressed Himself in Bhagavatam and other places we find that "I am in Govardhana." "Govardhana and Meself, inseparably we are connected. So anyone anyone who will worship Govardhana he will worship Me.
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Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Govardhana Sila, that was given by Mahaprabhu to Ragunath dasa Goswami . That is and salagrama is considered with respect to varnashrama amongst the brahmins. So amongst the vaisnavites the Govardhana Sila, Salagarama is called "Gandaki Sila " naturally we are known by the relation. By that Gandaki Sila, the Sila that is found in the river Gandaki there natural existance of the Lord Narayana in different ways, it is revieled. And so who has got faith in that revelation, they accept path of worshiping Narayana in Gandaki Sila or Salagrama. And so also Krsna expressed Himself in Bhagavatam and other places we find that "I am in Govardhana." "Govardhana and Meself, inseparably we are connected. So anyone anyone who will worship Govardhana he will worship Me.
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Mahaprabhu to Ragunath dasa Goswami . That is and salagrama is considered with respect to varnashrama amongst the brahmins. So amongst the vaisnavites the Govardhana Sila, Salagarama is called "Gandaki Sila " naturally we are known by the relation. By that Gandaki Sila, the Sila that is found in the river Gandaki there natural existance of the Lord Narayana in different ways, it is revieled. And so who has got faith in that revelation, they accept path of worshiping Narayana in Gandaki Sila or Salagrama. And so also Krsna expressed Himself in Bhagavatam and other places we find that "I am in Govardhana." "Govardhana and Meself, inseparably we are connected. So anyone anyone who will worship Govardhana he will worship Me." And with this idea Mahaprabhu He ( ) Himself, He gave it to Dasa Goswami prabhu. Then in Gaudiya Vaisnava school that worship of Govardhana Sila is continuing. And ( )gives entrance into the raga marga. Direct in the line of divine love towards Krsna. Worship of Narayana Sila that is Gandaki Sila or Salagarama that is viddhi marga. That is very hard and very strict and very strict methods of worshiping Narayana in viddhi marga. And in raga marga, raga marga is more liberal, it wants the heart and not formality. So for the Gaudiya Vaisnava, who wants to attain their position in the land of divinity, the Govardhana Sila worshiping that is very advantageous and guiding and fruitful for them. This is in nutshell I say about Govardhana Sila to you. It helps us to enter into the domain of divine love; avoiding the domain of legal devotion, lawful devotion. Rules and regulations according to the order of the sastras and if there is any flaw then we become damaged our ideal prospect is damaged. Very strictly we are to observe the rules and regulations of the worship, very strict. So Mahaprabhu wanted that we may avoid that path. Our faith is somewhere else that is above this land of viddhi upasana . So Govardhana Sila worshiping will be more safe and more fruitful for our purpose. Because we want to have service in the Vrndavana area the domain of love divine. That's the purpose and utility of having our diksa, initiation in the line of worshiping Govardhana Sila. Devotee: So Maharaja I am asking your blessings if I can begin worship... Srila Sridhara Maharaja: What? Devotee: I'm asking your blessings for me to worship Govardhana Sila. When I go to Vrndavana.... Srila Sridhara Maharaja: What? Devotee: (repeats in Bengali) Another devotee: He wants to worship Govardhana Sila. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Yes. You have got mantra from Swami Maharaja ? Devotee: Yes. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: First and second initiation? Devotee: Yes. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Of course you can begin worshiping Govardhana Sila. Devotee: Thank you very much. Another devotee: ( ) Another devotee: One of the devotees here has got two Silas. And before you gave me sanyasa I offered water and Tulasi to one of the Silas unathorizedly and I painted the eyes of the Sila, Govardhana Sila and then I was very astonished when you named me "Parvata" . I felt I got the blessings from these Govardhana Sila. Srila Sridhara Maharaja:Might be. Stealthily He is drawing you towards Him, unconsciously. Devotee: It is said that sanyasis should not worship the Silas ? Srila Sridhara Maharaja: They also may do. But sanyasa is not necessary for worshiping Govardhana or serving Govardhana. That is mainly taken for preaching. For preaching purpose the sanyasa ashrama is necessary. Devotee: Maharaja, could you perhaps give some specific or detailed instruction about worshiping Govardhana Sila? Srila Sridhara Maharaja: What? Another devotee: Some instruction of the details of worship. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Very simple, Mahaprabhu advised a that the minimum of little water and Tulasi . Generally whatever we take, not grandure, but in a simple way generally whatever we are to take for food we must put, if possible daily. Then offering puspa, the flower and Tulasi and then some food, bhoga. And anything may be done as we can do in the vigraha, Krsna. So also everything may be done. But the simple and the short way of honoring Him will be He is self satisfied with the minimum we have found with the water and Tulasi, is sufficent. But as you can accomadate in that affair very easily you can do. Devotee: Anything that I that I would institute extra, would I have to maintain that everyday? Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Anything? Devotee: Anything beyond Tulasi and water Srila Sridhara Maharaja: That also you can offer. Devotee: But would I have to maintain that everyday? Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Maintain? Devotees: Yes. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: No. As suiting with the circumstance you may do that. Devotee: This is Mahatma Prabhu over here. He has arrived from South Africa, where Yudhamanyu is. Yudhamanyu is working with him. Srila Sridhara Maharaja : Comming from Africa. Devotee: South Africa. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: South Africa. And he is American? Devotee: Yes, no he is a Canadian. American. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Canadian. Devotee: American. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: American. He will stay here after Devotee: For some time. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Some times means after Gaura Purnima ? No? Devotee: Yes. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Does he want to go there also, Mayapura or only here? Devotee: Yudhamanyu encouraged me to stay here. Another devotee: He says Yudhamanyu Prabhu encouraged him to stay here. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Alright, as you like. As you like you may do. Aranya Maharaja has left for Calcutta? Devotees: Yes. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: He alone? Devotee: Govinda Maharaja Srila Sridhara Maharaja: So many. He will meet with Sarvabhavana and do the necessary. Devotee: Lord Nrsimhadeva what role does He play in devtional service? he can help us to attain pure bhakti ? Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Who is he? Devotees: Bopadeva. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Bopadeva is comes from? Devotee: He also comes from South Africa but he is an American. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: What is his question? Devotee: About the function of Lord Nrsimhadeva in devotional service. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: His special function is to do away with the obsticles that come in the way of the devotees for their advancment toward the plane of divinity. Bhakit-vighna-vinasana. Vighna, the obsticles that may come on the way of our progress to the divine world. Generally He takes care of that and remove those obsticles from the way. So especially the devotees they have got some special relationship with Him. They revere that the undisireable things may be removed and the path may be clear by His grace. He did so in the case of Prahlada Maharaja. And it is very conspicuous how He helped the devotee, in what sort of dangerous and unfavorable position. It is very clear and so devotees they have got special liking and interest in the service of Nrsimhadeva. So the hinderances may be removed and the path may be cleared by His grace. Devotee: Maharaja, you said that Mahaprabhu prefered the Govardhana Sila worship over Salagrama worship. Why do we see in the Gauduiya temples the Gaudiya Vaisnava temples of Mahaprabhu that they also have Salagrama Narayana deities on their altars? Srila Sridhara Maharaja: What is the question? Another devotee: In the Gaudiya temples we find Salagrama Sila worship but Mahaprabhu prefered Govardhana. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Just as the sacred thread is also not necessary and the Salagrama Sila is also not necessary for the vaisnava, Gaudiya Vaisnava devotee to make progress in his path to the goal. But it was arranged only with some purpose. It was meant for two purposes, positive and negative. Positive side is this; that one should not think that Krsna worship is lower than that of Narayana worship. The Goloka is on the upper portion of Vaikuntha. So if we are to go there we have to pass through Vaikuntha. This process we have to pass through. The man otherwise he will become a sahajiya. He will give much respect to the blood brahmins, flesh brahmins. He will keep his position lower, and he will be afraid of approaching Narayana. And naturally they are making the assumption that Krsna, He comes from Narayana. Narayana is the original power, the source of all conceptions of Godhead. As the Ramanuja, Madhvacarya sampradya do. But Krsna syama bhagavan, He is above all. To promote such faith in the devotee it is necessary, it was found necessary he will think that we have to pass such condition and then above that the domain of love. And on the other hand the brahmins, so-called blood brahmins they think that the vaisnava they have no right to come to vaikuntha they are also worshiping the Krsna, the cowboy and their position is lower to that of us. So they commit offenses agianst thesevaisnava. To save them, to save the blood brahmins from offenses to the vaisnava . And to make the vaisnava also, the disciples of vaisnava ,the servants ofvaisnava be conscious that their land is crossing Brahmaloka and Vaikuntha , so he must be very careful in his campaign, valuable campaign. For these two purpose these have been introduced, the sacred thread as well as the worship of Narayana. Otherwise this is not necessary, neither the sacred thread nor the worship of Narayana. But the intermediate states were supplied. Finding that there is misconception about the vaisnava in the social stair, about the social status of them and others. The vaisnava is lower than brahmin they have no right to worship Salagrama. In this way their value is minimized and their position comes in lower conception. In order to remove that misconception in the servant of the vaisnava and the so-called society of the brahmins. This method has been introduced by our Guru Maharaja especially, Bhakti Siddhanta Sarasvati Thakura. And we are also following his footsteps. Am I clear? Devotee: Yes. Devotee: We've also heard that one becomes free from offenses by worshiping the Salagrama Sila. Srila Sridhara Maharaja:What? Another devotee: He said that we've heard that one becomes free from offenses by worshiping the Salagrama Sila. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Not that, free from offenses. Necessarily we will have to be more attentive to our flaws. More attentive that Salagrama is not so forgiving character. Is very strict my master whom I am going to serve is very strict.That will excite me and encourage me to be very accurate in my service. In that way it may be. But without love the only the tendancy that is excited or created by any fear or any other object that may be of less value. Love is most value, the inner love. Inate love that is the most valuable thing. Without that so strict following in the observance and ettiqute divne that will more or less tasteless, usless. (sanskrit verses) The bhava is the most important thing, the inner feeling sentiment, ruci. That is valuable than the formalities passion. An uneducated man may say visnav aya namah, gramatically incorrect. And the scholarly man will say visnave namah, it is gramatically correct. But the Lord will accept the meaning, the purpose of the heart not so much the outer orinamental figure or aspect. The end of side "A" Devotee: Is it rasabasa to worship Gaura-Nitai deities and Govardhana Sila together? Srila Sridhara Maharaja: What? Another devotee: Is it rasabasa to worship Govardhana Sila and Gaur-Nitai together? Srila Sridhara Maharaj: No. Gaura-Nitai and Govardhana Sila not rasabasa. But if Radharani's representation is there, then it will come to clash in rasa. But in seperation, screen may be given between Nitai. Nitai, Gaura-Nitai and if Govardhana Sila and there is Radharani then screen should be given between the two. Devotee: Yesterday you said that after Radhakunda, Govardhana is the most important place oflila. We don't know much about Krsna lila in Govardhana. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: That is generally told to be the favorite place of the Candravali section. Sakhya rasa lila is also in full swing in Govardhana . And there the Candravali section (sanskrit) that section, we are told, they have place of lila nearby. Radha kunda also near to Govardhana but (sanskrit) anyhow selected few then that we find in Vrndavan. In Vrndavan the general madhurya rasa and Govardhana selected. And Radha kunda is only the selected group of Radharani, not any other no entrance of any other. This has been mentioned by Rupa Goswami. But I saw in our Guru Maharaja's one article, Radha kunda tree and also water. There is also some differentiation. And the Radha kunda water that is the highest postion. To promote the most intensense of lila in the water. These are very high talks. This sideThis I think intense sun. Should we arrange that side? Devotee: As you wish. Devotee: Maharaja, you have said that Madhavacarya has some opinions about the gopis that we do not accept. My question is how ist that Madhavacarya, such a great acarya can make such mistakes? Srila Sridhara Maharaja: It is the supreme and independant will of the Lord. There is mohan in Brahma, have you heard of that? Devotee:Yes, Brahma vimohan lila. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Brahma vimohan lila. Can you accomodate that? Devotee: ahhhhh Srila Sridhara Maharaja:What is the ( ) of Madhavacarya also? Bramha sampradaya, and the Sri sampradaya, Laxmi devi . It is such, you can know I cannot know, His will. Sweet play, sweet will. Brahma mohan . Mahaprabhu says "Sanatana, something is passing through Me. I can feel that something higher, knowledge, a flow is going through Me to you, to bless you but I can't taste that." Such is also possible. His supreme will is such characteristic. Even ...( )He can send some information to another gentleman through you. You won't be able...do conceive this ? Devotee: Yes. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: So anything is possible. ( )It is possible for Him only, this is the idea of the fullest thing, it is His grace. It is His sweet will, it is His own and not the property of many. He is autocrat He is the highest and whom ever He selects for giving His own thing he will get it. No question can be raised, no taxation without representation that sort of slogan has got no meaning here. But you can know, as Bhaktivinoda Thakura told on our behalf (sanskrit verse) My position is that of a servant of Hari and I am devoid of Hari. What is the wrong? What am I? I am a slave to Krsna, to the Lord. And I am devoid of my Lord, and my master what a crime it is. You can will you can depend you can move, but all right is reserved. And when you will awaken to that state you will get that. But still He is above law, we have to consider the surrender. Otherwise the position of surrender is no where. Surrender, if we analize the very basis of surrender then in what stage surrender has got it's existance? Only where there is no right. Wherever any right is going to be established, surrender is not necssary. We must find out our innate right, it is not so. To such an extent it may go on, but in Krsna lila this has got no place. Even Laxmi devi, she can't enter, what to speak of others. She cannot secure any admission card there. Acintya bhedabheda . So Mahaprabhu has put this the acintya, it is not within any law or any ones fist. All right is out. His sweet will but He is absolute good, that is our solace. As a matter of right we can't enter. Even Laxmi devi cannot, even Brahma does not know,even Siva outside. Still if we take the way chalked out by Mahaprabhu (sanskrit verse) we can enter there. We can have place there. It is so dear and so rare and so valuable and desireable (sanskrit) The magnanimity, we are to look for the magnanimity of Mahaprabhu. Siva-virinci vancita which is aspired by Siva and Brahma . A drop, for a drop they are praying. But that He took here in a flood. Inundated with that nectar, a drop of which is vary rarely to be had and thought of here. We are to approach with such attitude and hankering and expectations. It is so great it so magnanomous. What is this? (sanskrit verses) These two slokas, one from the mouth of Krsna Himself and the next from the mouth of Uddhava, straightly can take us to that highest place. Eliminating so many things outside, fromBrahmaloka, from catusana from Brahma. Begining from Brahma the grand ( ) is passing up to Uddhava in Dvaraka and then from Uddhava coming directly to Vrndavana to show the position how high, how far eliminating many things on both sides of various higher prospects. All left, and we are marching and we have to march on. And the way that of surrender, of devotion, loving devotion not only formal devotion. (sanskrit verse) These subtle things we are to put in our faith. Only through the faith of the finer order can we relate to that quarter. The highest conception is in the heart of Krsna. The heart of Krsna we are to enter into not any other place, the heart of Krsna. It is there. This is the way chalked out but on the higher side there are many things also. Lila, madhurya that can stand alone, the sakhya lila, the vatsalya lila they have got their high necessity, their high value to support them. Madhuya that is the main thing, but still that is dependant on the paraphernailia. There must be vatsalya lila, there must be sakhya lila the different groups and the servitor group. All santa group. Even Radharani when She missed Krsna in Kuruksetra, Her mind is running to Vrndavana. Running to Vrndavana the Krsna is there, Meself is also here. We two. But Her mind is running toward Vrndavana. What for? Vrndavana has got it's valuable part to play in this lila, Vrndavana. And what is Vrndavana? Vrndavana is the signs of Yamuna the water, the jungle, the birds, the peacocks, the stag deer, the cows, the cowboys, the Govardhana, the cave of Govardhana, then the motherly relatives. Everything there and that is well designed for their purpose most suitable. So for the stage, She is hankering for the stage where to get His company. Vrndavana and the whole sakhya group, the vatsalya group the santa group, they have got their own peculiar valuation that cannot be eliminated. Radha- Govinda cannot be taken out from Vrndavana, as Mahaprabhu from Navadvipa and so many devotees all have got their own necessity and respective position in the harmony. The whole thing is a system, one part cannot be snatched away from the other parts. Then it is not living, it is dead, it is artificial. It is useless, it cannot be imagined even as such. All organic whole. (sanskrit verse) My mind is running straight toward Vrndavana I have got the main object of My union there. But it is useless, useless nothing favorable paraphernailia. So Radharani's pain of seperation is rising to it's highest point here. Getting the object of Her union very near, very close after long seperation. But still She cannot get the real advantage of Vrndavana. So Bhaktivinoda Thakura told, our Guru Maharaja's words were most revolutionary. I am a beginer, I have entered newly two years or so perhaps joining in Calcutta Gaudiya Math in the hired house. I was in charge of Kuruksetra Math. I came during Calcutta ceremony and agian I shall have to go back to Kuruksetra. Prabhupada had in mind that he will open an exhibition there inKuruksetra showing with dolls that Krsna with friends comming from Dvaraka and the gopis from Vrndavana have come. It is mentioned in Srimad Bhagavatam during eclipse ceremony to take bath in that Brahma kunda( ). They wanted to show that by doll. Then he ordered a letter should be printed in this way and that would be circulated. Twenty thousand may be circulated in the area. And in connection with that he said: you all know that the bogus people, something like that. Bhur, bhur in Bengali , bhur means hollow. And when a tree is hollow within it is hollow then it is said it is bhur in Bengali. In Vrndavana ( Bengali ) he told this that only the hollow people, men of shallow thinking they like Vrndavana. I was very much perplexed. What is this? Hereto I am told Vrndavana is the highest place, (sanskrit ) one who has not attained mastership over his senses he won't enter Vrndavana. (sanskrit) Only the mukta the liberated souls can enter Vrndavana and may have opportunity of discussing Krsna lila. Only the liberated, it is only for the liberated. Those who are not liberated from their senses they may take to Navadvipa .But the liberated souls may have entrance for their benefit in Vrndavana. And now Guru Maharaja says that those shallow thinkers they will enjoy , they will welcomeVrndavana . But the man of real bhajana, real divine aspiration, he must take to Kuruksetra. I fell as if from the top of the tree. So long so long we are listening highest things. Now that Vrndavana is the highest position that is fallen. What is that? I am very acute hearer listening, very much acute to catch the what should be the meaning. The next thought he gave Bhaktivinoda Thakura after his tour through different place of pilgrimage he when he came back he told "The last days of my life I shall pass in Kuruksetra." " I shall constuct a cottage near Brahma Kunda and I shall pass the rest of my life there. That is the real place of bhajana. " Why? These servitors, just as a general merchant they will seek a market in wartime. Why? There they expend money like water, without caring. No value of any money. During that dangerous position they can spare money like water. So the merchants say we shall be able to earn something if war period comes. So when the service is more valuable according to the intensity of it's nescessity. So when Krsna and Radharani there but union is impossible so seperation, the degree of the sentiment of seperation is risen to the highest zeinth. And at that time service is very valuable to the asraya, to Radharani. When it is necessary to the highest degree according to the necessity. She is in the highest necessity because She has got Her position in such place that She can't control. Nearer nearer. If the football is just from the goal and it comes away it will be a great loss. Comming to the goal and agian come back. The most valuable position, near the goal. To serve Krsna is there after long seperation the spirit, the hankering for union must come to the greatest point. But it is impossible, the circumstances not allowing so. So She is needs the highest service from Her circle, the sakis. Her group must come with their serving spirit in that case there is the most need of help from outside to maintain Her position. And Bhaktivionda Thakura says there a particle, a drop of help will fetch the greatest amount of prema. So I want vipralambha, (sanskrit) and vipralambha. Things are very near can't meet. So service in that place can fetch the most prema for the servitors. So I shall construct a hut there on the banks of Brahma kunda and I shall think of that position of the divine couple. And if I can raise myself to that standard then it may not come back to this mundane plane any time. No possibility. If so high I can put up my serving prospect. So (sanskrit verse) so wherever She isVrdavana is necessary for Them. And Vrndavana means the whole paraphernialia, favorable paraphernialia to that extent Vrndavana is unique, unique. (sanskrit) that is the main thing. In this way. And the gopis told (sanskrit verse) The gopis in general they presented a petition to Krsna. Publicly Krsna is a king and the leader of so many kings in India. And these they have come from unknown quarter, living in jungle in the society of the milkmen. What position they have got there? Externally no position. And Krsna holding the highest position in the political and royal society of the then India. So He is the figure like the eyeball in every eye. Krsna's position. And they are in helpless world and negelected condition what value they have got? But when Krsna Himself came, first to Nanda ,Yasoda's camp to give Mother parental respect to them. With in the midst of their disapointment for the time being They felt My boy has come at last to see us. At least for the time being They got Their life back agian in a dead body. Anyhow after some courtesy shown to them Krsna in the meantime made some arrangement to meet with the gopis. Gopis privately and also suddenly appeared in their camp. Rupa Goswami has collected many slokas poems from different devotees in Padyavali. Mentioned devotees, there are also poems about Krsna lila and Rupa Goswami has collected them and published them in Padyavali. Stavyavali of Dasa Goswami and Padyavali of Rupa Goswami. There is a sloka it should not be spoken at large, still I do. In Bhagavatam of course it is like this. Krsna came and they, in general they gave something as a petition. (sanskrit )the book of the gopi, they told (sanskrit verse) Oh You have lotus navel padaarvinda , Your holy feet, lotus feet (sanskrit ) we are told that the great master yogisa they try to meditate Your lotus feet. (sanskrit ) and with their unfathomed knowledge and mental resources they come to think Your lotus feet . They try, their endevor is for to have You in inmagination Your lotus feet we are told. And we believe also. (sanskrit verse) That yogis means lord those that have nothing to do with this mundane with the play. But higher realization in the conscious world ,spiritual world. They have said to be centered their highest attention toward Your lotus feet. And those that are busy in their elevating their life in this mundane world the material exploitation elevation of their life. ( sanskrit )These also are busy to worship Your lotus feet to get out of this entanglement of action and reaction in the mundane world. They use it. The karmis, the elevationists and the salvationists. The center of the interest both of these section is Your padarvinda, Your lotus feet. Elevationist or salvationist. And what are we? We live in the negelected part of the lower society, in the jungle. And the cows is our wealth. We are some animal traders. Live in jungle and we trade in cow buisness and we sell the curd and and the milk and these things on the outskirts of society. (sanskrit verse)We are neither karmi, the sceintific exploiter nor the higher exploiters in the world of consciousness or the researcher. (sanskrit ) We only know family life. Family life ( sanskrit ) we have no other qualification but only family life of the lower section of society. That capacity we have got. (sanskrit verse)but our audacity that we pray that You, very great, You kindly condescend to extend Your lotus feet to our negligent part of our society and our negligent hearts any time we'll think us blessed. (sanskrit verse) In our mind that we can maintain in our mind the memory of Your holy feet we are busy in our family life . We do not know sastric life or salvationist yoga,jnana, vedanta,or veda, nothing of the kind. Neither scripture nor moral standard we have got. Relative position we hold. And there in our family possibly we can think in our mind we can remember about Your holy lotus feet. You please grant this to us. We can't expect anything more from You. That is their petition. And Krsna also outwardly told; yes I know. (sanskrit verse) The people they want my devotion for their life in eternity. (sanskrit ) To cross the limit of mortality and to have eternal they worship, they come to Me. They take to My service(sanskrit verse) But fortunately for you, you have got some affection towards Me. Anyhow it has occured that you have some affection towards Me. So that will take you to the ultimate. That is the external meaning. The formal meaning, the superficial meaning of both the camp. But our acarya they have squeezed out another meaning from those form affairs. They say they are conscious of the real private relationship between the two. So they have drawn out of that another meaning based on sentimentalism. The clash of sentimentalism between both the parties. Beloved, lover and beloved. And it is in this way. When the gopis in general put a prayer the meaning is this: Oh we remember that You sent Uddhava to console us one day. To console us outwardly Uddhava by reciting many sastric sloka. Sastric representation that it is nothing the whole world is mortal, we shall all have to go away from this. So the affection has got no such any value. Attachement that must be cut off to anything You must try to liberate us from any attraction for the enviornment and make us free. All these apparently sweet things You wanted to distribute to us through Uddhava now Yourself also are showing us the same path. That You are so and so You are great and everyone should try for its own highest interest and to think Me and take benefit for their own. In this way. In Caitanya Caritamrta you will find the meaning explained in this way. The end of the tape Srila Sridhara Maharaja: ...Not yogis that we will be satisfied with abstract thinking about You. Are weyogis that we shall be satisfied with abstract thinking? Thinking or imagination concoction all these things. We are not a party to that. Neither are we karmi that we are incurring so much debt from the nature and to get relief of that we shall come to Your door Oh, please relieve me my God from my previous bad activities, please relieve me. We do not belong to any of these two sections. But what are we? (sanskrit verse) We want to live with You as a family man. Not that abstract thinking. Not to use You to clear off this nullify, the fault of the nullified activity. To use You for any other purpose, we want to have a direct family life with You. Don't You know that? And You come to by Uddhava and now by Yourself. Are You not ashamed of that? This is their inner meaning, inner meaning. (sanskrit verse) So mildly they are putting. That we will not be satisfied by anything else You know it personally, You know it better. But if You kindly come You as we had You wholesale in our midst, our prayers is that. We are not satisfied with anything less than that. Anything less cannot satisfy. We are talking, not abstract thinking. Nor do we want to utilize You to relieve us from the entanglement of this material nature. We have got no conception of our body. No body conception we have got. (sanskrit verse) We have no body consciousness so we do not want relief from the reactionary suffering of this material life. We don't care for that. We are unconscious of that. So what is our real need? We want to serve You direct in our loving self, try to do that. Then Krsna 's answer that has got also inner aspect. (sanskrit verse) All the people they want Me through devotion to attain to help them for the aqusistion of the highest position in the eternal world. The world of eternal benefit. Fortunately they get such connection with Me the consider themselves fortunate. But on the other hand I consider Myself to be fortunate because I got your affection. The whole world wants to show their affection to Me. And that I, Myself consider that I am fortunate because I have got your affection toward Me. (sanskrit verse) Fortunately for Me that I have come in touch with such valuable affection what I found in your heart. I consider Myself to be fortunate. The inner meaning the gopis read like that. (sanskrit verse) When Radharani could look into the meaning of Krsna's answer, reply, She became satisfied. Wherever He may be in the physical sense, but at heart He is mine alone. So He could compose His troubles within, but He came back to Vrndavana. But very soon He cannot but come to join our party agian. And what I was going to say little after, the sloka the meaning of the sloka collected by Rupa Goswami. When Krsna met in Kuruksetra(sanskrit verse) When Krsna came to the camp He found suddenly Radharani.Just then He stooped down as if to touch Her feet. (sanskrit) And Radharani is shrinking away She says "What You do?" (sanskrit ) I found You on My feet and comming to catch My feet, what's the matter? She shudders. (sanskrit ) You have no fault. You are as pure as anything. You have not done anything wrong. (sanskrit ) You are My master, You are My Lord. You are at liberty to do anything and everything. I am Your servitor we are Your servitors, our position under You. We shall try our every nerve to satisfy You. By nature our position is such. And You are master, You are our Lord. You can do anything and everything. Why do You come and stoop to low as to touch My feet? I can't tollerate. (sanskrit verse) For a little time You have got engagement in some other place, but what harm there? No Harm, (sanskrit) no crime for You for that. (sanskrit verse) I am criminal the crime I have commited, from the other hand. (sanskrit verse) Why, how? (sanskrit) I still dragged on My body and life. I could not die for Your separation. So great and holy affection I came in touch of and I could not die. I am showing My face to the public. I am not worth Your divine affection. I could not die for the separation of Myself and I had to show My face (sanskrit ) So I am criminal of the first court. (sanskrit verse) I maintained My life 'til now. (sanskrit ) It is in the scripture it has been arranged that the wife should be the wholesale subserviant to the master, to the husband. And not that husband shoud be very submissive to the wife. It is not the scriptural standard. So You are alright. The whole burden of breaking the law of love is on My head. In this way She told as Mahaprabhu also told (sanskrit verse) Sri Caitanyadeva also echoing the same thing. (sanskrit ) Not a bit of divine love in Me for Krsna. Even little a bit of scent of Krsna love is in Me (sanskrit ) Then why You are sheding tears profusely, uninteruptedly? Always day night You are sheding tears for Krsna, Krsna. "Oh you don't know it. To show to the public to canvass that I have got Krsna prema, I have got divine love for Krsna only to show to the people and thereby get some good name of a Krsna dasa . To deceive the people I have got all hypocrasy in Me. Why? Why do you say so (sanskrit verse) Positive proof is there. That is still I live, I could not die. If I had real love, by separtion I must have died. That is positive proof that I have not a scent of Krsna prema in Me. Krsna prema is so high, so attractive, once comming in contact with that none can maintain his life without connection with that thing. It is impossible, it is so high, so enchanting, so attracting, so beautiful and so heart swallowing it is impossible. It is such it is such higher degree, that love is (sanskrit verse)That divine love for Krsna is not to be traced in this mundane world. It is impossible that human can come in connection with that sort of divine higher love. (sanskrit verse) If anyone by chance comes in connection with that, then no separation is possible, he can't forget that. He cannot live separately without that connection. (sanskrit verse) If by chance any participation any separation, he will die instantly. It is so attractive so high he will have to die instantly without that sort of vital vital devotion, higher noble life. It is such,so great. So noble, so beautiful so magnanomus that is this. We are out to search for that thing in the world. For that thing in the world Mahaprabhu came to inform us that there is such vital thing, vital of the vital. Without that given us chance to come in contact with that it is impossible him to go on living without that connection with that. There is such prospect for us all and Mahaprabhu came to distribute that to the world for us. A little connection, I am told that a section in South Africa, they commited suicide in a creative way Devotee: South America. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: What? South America? Somewhere South Africa somewhere. Because they are faithful process of life is going to be destroyed by the present civilization they could not tolorate. Let us take the poison and take leave from this world. That we can live safely in the world of our faith. Faith divine, no charm for anything in this mundane world, let us go with peace. As members of the peaceful world and let us enjoy that peace which is indepedant of the material accusition. So there is no chance we may hesitate to withdraw us from this world. But we shall say that this life is valuable relatively why because higher aspiration we can aquire. We can have the chance of aquisition from this plane. The seeds from this human life is so valuable that we can take the path of the highest divine conception (sanskrit verse) Highly valuable but rarely found, this human body. Because there are so many forms of life (sanskrit) The water animals, the vegetable kingdom, the animals, the birds, so many ghosts and others also. But only in this human position that one reaches the key for the solution of whole path all the forms of life we have to travel in. If we can utilize this valuable life, the time of this valuable life in a valuable way, then we can aquire such as thing that we can avoid the whole chain of the life of this troublesome world. We can get rid of all sorts of troubles of phyiscal life or mental life the key is here. In the lower stages (sanskrit ) Jiva Goswami says vehicle is not sufficent understanding is awakened in the lower life. And in the higher life that gandharva (sanskrit verse) previously aquired enjoying energy is sufficently accumulated there on all sides. So it is difficult for them. So chief enjoying elements are surrounding it becomes difficult for them to get out there of the charm of those and to induce one to begin the prospect of a fresh life. So this is human life is the highest form of advantageous position to go out of this entanglement and to reach the highest object of our life divine. Any question? Devotee:Why did Caitanya Mahaprabhu choose to give the highest conception of love of Krsna to the lowest class of people, the people of Kali yuga ? Srila Sridhara Maharaja: What's the point? Another devotee: Why did Mahaprabhu like to give the highest love of Godhead to the lowest persons of this Kali yuga ? Srila Sridhara Maharaja: That is the very nature of Sri Caitanya avatara. Why the gopis they came to form the neglected social position, the gopa ? It looks it is the most befiting. The highest conception of magnanimaty means what? The highest point the conception of the highest magnanimaty how should be nature of that? To help the most needy. And because He comes from the high position He cannot give ordinary things. The valuable things He must give and His attention must be drawn to the most needy. Is it unnatural? What do you think? Devotee: No, that's correct. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: The highest magnanimaty must take notice of the lowest needy. And if He wants to help them by His own coin and that is His coin. Do you follow? Devotee: Yes. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: He cannot distribute them only the grass or the stone chips. What He thinks to be real wealth, He must extend that to the lowest, the poorest people. There is oppulence of jewels and gems and He will go to search some stone chips for the distribution to the lowest level. What should be the natural thing? So we all try to fall at the feet of that great messiah, Sri Gauranga deva . The devotees say we can't keep up our life to conceive that there may be a place where Gauranga won't be. We shudder to think that without such a magnanimous friend how one can live his life? This is impossible. (sanskrit verse) The world is not worth for living. Devotee: Maharaja, Swami Maharaja writes that we can become free from offenses to the holy name if we chant the names of Lord Caitanya and the Panca Tattva ..... Srila Sridhara Maharaja: What does she say? Another devotee: Swami Maharaja, Srila Prabhupada he writes if we chant Panca Tattva mantra then we can get free from the namaparadhas why is that, how is that? Srila Sridhara Maharaja: They are so magnanimous they are meant Panca Tattva is meant to raise up the souls from their fallen condition. Only the deserving person can have entrance in Vrnadavana lila. But Krsna has come down to cure the offenders from their offenses and then allow them entrance into Vrndavana. So Panca Tattva by taking their name and remembering their lila in our lowest position we can purified and we are prepared for participation in Vrndavana lila. And in Vrndavana lila there is the twofold lila going on. In Vrndavana Goloka, (sanskrit) within their own circle they are enjoying the tastings of divine love. And there is another quarter where Sri Radha-Govinda (sanskrit ) He Himself in the mood of Radharani is tasting His own qualification, His own sweetness with His paraphernailia. That is also there we are told. And we are to realize gradually by the recomended processes. Who is she? Devotee: Her name is Bhakta Priya. Srila Sridhara Maharaja:Bhakta Priya. Comes from? Devotee: She comes from San Jose with us, she is helping us there. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Comes with her husband or alone? Devotee: She's a widow. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: She's a widow. And she is disciple of Swami Maharaja ? Devotee: Yes. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Twofold initiations? She got? Devotee: Yes. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Alright. And have come with whom? Devotee: Myself and Brahma and Bhakta Jeff. We all came together. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Alright. The Japanese lady she has gone to Vrndavan or Japan? Devotee: Japan. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: And this ( )lady who came from Sedan? Devotee: She is here. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: I can't see so I have to inquire one thing so many times. I beg to be excused for that. It is difficulty for inquirering for identification of one, uncouteous,but can't help. So you be all gracious to me and excuse such defect and fault in me. Devotee: What you are seeing, we are all aspiring for that. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Of course by God's grace as I told before, Mahaprabhu told Sanatana, Krsna is sending grace to you through Me. It cannot be the aquired property of any one of us, it is free. And we mabye utilized like a channel. He is having His own lila, His lila, His pastimes in different way in a movement. As much as we can make ourselves empty it is easy for us to see His lila. Withdraw once our ego. Isvara sarva bhutanam/hrdesu arjuna tistathi/brahmayan sarva bhtani/yantra rudhani mayaya. He is acting though us. The inner plane everywhere is the plane of His own lila. And ours exsitance on the gross serface, gross coating. Tatastha, swarupa sakti, then tatastha sakti then this material coating. But the inner most substance all filled up with the flow of His ( ) sweet, sweetest most generous way, Krsna and Gauranga. Devotee: Maharaja, what is the meaning of the higher energy of the Lord the internal energy, the most intimate energy of the Lord? Srila Sridhara Maharaja: That is go to the similar direction. We may apply some approximate word for the same. Sometimes we say "higher" ( ) in this way we try to give some direction by using such words according to our mentality and capacity of the direction. But what we direct, what we want to mean by those words, that depends on the circumstances when we are dealing with a particular thing. We are tatastha position and higher, inner that means towards the, higher means inner, deeper sometimes higher, sometimes deeper sometimes inner. In this way only a directive meaning. (sanskrit ) the Vedas also are directing toward this side. Unknown and unknowable. Unestimable from this plane of life. Only ( ) so many other expressions to be used by us. Adhoksaja, aprakrta, supernatural , transcendental. Still we are trying to deal in our own way. Devotee: Maharaja, Krsna or Mahaprabhu descends to this world, what is happening in Goloka Vrndavana ? Srila Sridhara Maharaja: There also. Devotee: So there's two? Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Yes. He can extend Himself. He is such. The characteristic of the infinite is such. Infinite minus infinite is infinite. Infinite plus infinite is infinite. Infinite into infinite that is also infinite. Infinite divided by infinite is infinite. If we take the case of zero. Zero plus zero is zero. Zero minus zero is zero. Zero into zero is zero. Zero divided by zero is zero. Just the opposite. om purnam adah purnam idam/ purnat purnam udacyate/purnasya purnam adaya/ purnam evavasisyate. In Upanisad we find the basis of such exsitance. It is possible. But we can't conceive it is there, it is such. The nature of infinite is such. What's the time? Devotee: Five to ten. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: Five to ten. Devotee: Almost ten. Srila Sridhara Maharaja: So we should show some respect to Hari Carana's request. The end of this day