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We Are All So Good at Smiling by Amber McBride
We Are All So Good at Smiling by Amber McBride
THE WILTING
The ancient Bennu bird of Egypt, often
associated with the soul of Ra, resembled a heron
with a white crown. It sat atop the Benben Stone—the
Mound of Creation the only solid ground
in a universe not yet created.
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Call Me Magic: Call Me (Whimsy)
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& leather gloves on full moon days
to hide my glowing palms.
Last, always dirt & my Fairy Tale
notebook in tow.
This is something difficult:
I am here (again) in the hospital,
& my uniform changes—
no jewelry (they took my quartz necklace).
White shirt (they confiscated my black one).
White pants (my black ones had too many pockets).
White shoes (that show too much dirt).
Gloveless, bookless, dirt-less & moonless.
Feeling less, less, less.
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Fairy Tales are real,
magic is real, but, careful, Whimsy,
sometimes your own mind will unroot you.
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PROLOGUE:
HOSP ITA L
THE WHIMSY GIRL
Ashe Child:
A child loved by the supernatural
& glittering with magic. In Hoodoo,
ashe is the magic in all things.
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Outside My Hospital Window
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I look down, my palms glow amber-golden
on account of the full moon. It’s strange to still glow—
days after perhaps, maybe, wanting to die.
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Car (Silver) like a Broadsword
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The deep V-neck of his shirt reveals
the bloom of a flower tattoo
(creeping thistle)
I think.
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Shadow-Wings
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He removes his shades,
lets his green hair fall (like spring leaves)
into his face. His brows knit as he studies me.
He shoves his hands deep in his pockets
& tilts his head as if to say,
It’s not polite to stare.
He shrugs, agreeing?
The dark circles under his eyes remind me of bruises,
remind me of me 7 days ago.
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Things I Know About Fae
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Morning (Bathroom) Ritual
My hair is a wilderness
of black candy shoestrings
around my face.
Day 8 schedule:
(before breakfast)
Mom & Dad visit then
group therapy, art time,
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coping techniques,
individual therapy.
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