Diving in - Helen Sanderson PDF
Diving in - Helen Sanderson PDF
CHAPTER 5 Memoirs
Diving In
Engaging title that
forecasts the subject
of swimming and Helen Sanderson
also hints at the
memoir’s theme. Take your mark. Anticipation builds as I crouch and grip the edge of the
rough plastic, ready to strike at any second. I finally hear the sound of the elec-
tronic starter just a few nanoseconds earlier than my competition. I hit a block of
Introduction starts ice before I dive just below the surface. A few strong kicks and I’m taking my first
fast with a lead that
sets the scene, and it stroke, and then another as fast as I can. Breathe as little as possible. By the time
ends in a surprising I’m on the second lap, I’m going nowhere. I am dying to take in gulps of air and
way. rest for only a moment, but I know I can’t. Surely this is almost over. My lungs and
muscles burn for oxygen as I dig in for the final stretch; the end of the pool could
not come soon enough. I look up to find that I have shaved a second off of my
time and have achieved last place in my heat, as usual.
I have never been an athlete. My motions are awkward, uncoordinated,
The complication is
and uncertain. At fourteen, I had only just learned to swim the butterfly with a
introduced, an inner
struggle the narrator dozen eight year olds as my classmates. Deciding to try out for my high school
faces. swim team was the biggest challenge I had ever undertaken. I will never forget
the day of my first tryouts. The coach had posted tryout times that were way
beyond my reach: thirty-five seconds for fifty yards. I had never even come
within twenty seconds of that time. All that time I had spent the summer before
my freshman year swimming lap after lap, practicing for this day, seemed
like wasted effort. I knew I could swim those fifty yards ahead of me, but only
if I was given a full minute, not just thirty-five seconds. Holding back tears, I
watched my classmates, fearless, dive into the water. Should I dive in behind
them knowing I will fail?
It’s not as though I’ve never failed before: a Latin test, a piano audition, or
Background moves
even as a friend. But I had personal experience behind me to reassure myself
the plot forward.
that I would get better. I started swimming with a stone cold slate and only a few
months of summer training with a private instructor. No summer leagues or com-
petitive teams. I just swam back and forth. Up to this point, I had never physically
pushed myself so hard. All I wanted was to make the team.
Practices were much worse. Though no one was cut, I knew I was the slow-
Rich and vivid details
est. My teammates passed me, and I always finished each set last. I can hear the
give the story texture
and intensify the coach yelling out the next set of drills: “Ten 100’s! Ready … go!” Meanwhile I am
complication. still struggling to get to the end of the previous set, deprived of energy, oxygen,
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and morale. I cried countless times out of frustration and self-pity, wanting to
quit. I had made the team, but I was failing my teammates. I cramped my team’s
efforts and embarrassed myself, but I swam every lap. I may have been the
slowest, but I was going to work the hardest.
I improved tremendously after just a few weeks of rigorous practice.
Narrator’s personal
Although I was still the slowest, I was slower by a smaller margin. Fifty yards in
tone is maintained
thirty-nine seconds. No one else could say they had improved by seventeen sec- throughout.
onds, a tremendous accomplishment. I persevered through every meet, practice,
lap, and stroke. I had attained my goal: I was a swimmer.
Swimming is the hardest challenge I have ever undertaken. I have always
been very driven academically and socially, but I was very afraid to push
myself to be an athlete because balance, endurance, and coordination were so
unfamiliar to me. However, I did not allow myself to accept failure. Just dive in
and keep swimming. There is only me and the pool, a full immersion of body
and mind.
Take your mark. My muscles and mind lock into place, attentive and poised.
I hear the starter sound and take a leap, already stretching toward the end of the
pool. My strokes are fluid, deliberate, and quick. Breathe as little as possible. I
do a flip turn, tight and well executed, as I push myself harder and faster. I don’t
think about the air I need to fill my lungs or the other girls in my race; I only
concentrate on what I feel. This time as I reach the end of the pool, I look up to
Conclusion resolves
find that I have reached a new personal record of thirty-six seconds and have the conflict as
achieved next-to-last place in my heat. I have won. narrator describes a
newly gained clarity.