10.4324 9781315538891-12 Chapterpdf
10.4324 9781315538891-12 Chapterpdf
INTRODUCTION
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different claims and to offer different rewards. These differences are high
lighted with respect to the issue of care, and especially, the care of young
children. In the private world, ideally, relationships are “nurturing, en
during . . . noncontingent [and] governed by feelings of morality.”5Thus,
according to the “domestic code,” the cultural ideal of mothering assumes
intense, exclusive bonds between the mother and her child, and it assumes
a mother’s willingness to respond to her child’s emotional and physical
needs, even when to do so is at the cost of her own well-being.6 Yet, in
this very privatized vision of caregiving, where children are often per
ceived as a parent’s property, a mother’s obligations are balanced by her
prerogatives; mothers have leeway in defining the morality and discipline
appropriate to their children’s care. In the public world, relationships
may remain “impersonal, competitive, contractual, and temporary.”7Al
though in institutional settings, paid caregivers may engage in many of
the same activities as mothers, they do so with different prerogatives,
and they must accomplish their tasks without becoming overly attached
to, or identified with, their clients.8
The norms defining private and public life are also gendered. As the
feminist scholarship on caregiving argues, if care is the work a woman
is compelled to do, it is also an essential component of her identity.9
Since the emergence of industrial capitalism, when men and “work”
moved into the public world, women were left in and given complete
responsibility for the activities of the domestic domain. They were also
identified with those tasks that, because they were now defined as “not
work,” were assumed to flow from innate nurturance. Women were thus
assumed to have no independent rights or interests, but to subordinate
their needs willingly to those dependent on them.10In contrast, men have
been free to pursue (and, indeed, compelled to seek) a life in the public
sphere that assumes they are acting as autonomous individuals, as in
dividuals with rights.11
The ambiguous location between private and public spheres, and their
accompanying sets of expectations, is not unique to family day care.
Women who do carework in public settings (for instance, teachers,
nurses), women who do carework in other people’s homes (for instance,
domestic workers, home health aides), and women who do home-based
work (for instance, industrial homework, telecommuting) all straddle
public-private boundaries. But family day-care providers are positioned
in a very particular way. While those who work in public settings fre
quently have to negotiate around institutional structures that impede the
formation of bonds of attachment and the provision of personalized care,
they often are “protected” by these very same institutional structures and
by the norm of professional detachment.12 Those who provide care in
other people’s homes might have fewer protections, but like those who
work in public settings, they can achieve a physical (if not emotional)
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separation between their private lives and their paid employment. This
separation is not possible for family day-care providers. And while those
who incorporate productive relations into the private domain have to
balance the simultaneous demands of paid and unpaid work, they do not
engage in the same tasks in both sets of activities. This differentiation
between family day-care providers and these other workers is not meant
to imply that the latter straddle the fence without conflict; but it is to
point to the fact that family day-care providers may face a distinctive set
of dilemmas.
These dilemmas stand at the heart of this analysis. In what follows, I
first describe the methods for this study. I then demonstrate that family
day-care providers construct their work in a manner that draws from the
nineteenth-century, middle-class ideal of mothering. I suggest that this
style emerges from both the structural constraints of family day care and
from experiential learning, and I demonstrate how, in drawing on their
experiences of caregiving, family day-care providers acquire a distinctive
body of practical knowledge that they seek to protect. I then explore more
fully the dilemmas of actual practice.
First, as we will see, family day-care providers in this study choose to
provide family day care in order to enact a “traditional,” at-home, moth
ering ideal. In doing so, they inevitably offer a service in which they do
not believe. That is, to the extent that they have chosen not to seek
employment outside the home because they feel strongly that a mother
should be available to, and fully engaged with, her own children, the
family day-care provider offers to other people’s children a service that
she could not accept for her own. And, although she is acting from the
position of a “traditional” mother—and seeking to preserve that ideal—
she enables other women to alter and enlarge the meaning of “mother
hood” to include both paid work outside the home and substitute child
care for at least part of the day. By bringing other people’s children into
her domestic sphere, the family day-care provider transforms the meaning
and enactment of motherhood in yet another way. Not only does she
redefine the “traditional” mother as someone who can combine both
productive and reproductive work in the home, but in doing so she inev
itably compromises her ideal of good mothering.
A second kind of dilemma has to do with the family day-care provider’s
relationship to the work of caring for other people’s children. Whereas
members of some communities embrace a more collective responsibility
for children, and incorporate a variety of kinds of relationships to young
children,13 within the world of white, working- and middle-class women
in the U.S. from which most of the family day-care providers and their
clients in this study are drawn, mothering is constructed not only as a
private activity but as an exclusive one as well. In this context the for
mation of intense, emotional bonds with other people’s children becomes
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Methods
In the summer of 1986 I mailed a questionnaire to each of the 463
registered day-care providers in the state of Vermont; responses were
received from 225 providers (a response rate of forty-nine percent). The
following summer I distributed questionnaires to 105 unregistered family
day-care providers located through snowball sampling techniques.14 The
questionnaires covered a range of issues, including the number of years
the women had been providing child care, reasons for opening a day
care home, attitudes towards child care, problems, and background in
formation. During the summer of 1988 I also conducted a telephone
survey of sixty-three registered and twelve unregistered providers no
longer involved in family day care. Questions in this survey asked prov
iders about their reasons for leaving family day care.
Over a two-year period, I conducted lengthy, semistructured interviews
with thirty registered day-care providers (twenty-one of whom had also
completed questionnaires) and forty unregistered day-care providers (ten
of whom has also completed questionnaires). Questions in the interview
dealt with a wide range of issues, including relationships with children
and parents, the impact of the work on members of the provider’s family,
and sources of stress and satisfaction. I also conducted interviews in 1989
with sixteen women who had ceased providing family day care.
Sample Characteristics
The family day-care providers in this study were almost uniformly mar
ried women (eighty-six percent) with children of their own (ninety-six
percent). Over half (fifty-six percent) of the women had at least one child
of preschool age and therefore cared full-time for both their own and
nonresident children. The women in the study ranged in age from twenty-
one to seventy-one with a mean of 34.5. The number of years of involve
ment in the occupation ranged from recent initiates, who had been work
ing for less than a year, to one woman who had been offering care for
twenty-three years; the median number of years as a family day-care
provider was three. Most (ninety-four percent) of the women had com
pleted a high school education, and half of the women had some edu
cation beyond high school. The median household income for providers
fell between twenty thousand dollars and twenty-five thousand dollars at
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a time when the median family income in the state for a married couple
with a wife in the labor force and a child under the age of six was $21,137.15
With one exception, all of the women who were interviewed were white.
I don’t schedule the day. They do their thing and I do mine around whatever
they are doing.. . . If the ironing’s got to be done, the ironing gets done. If
the laundry’s got to be done—I don’t do all of these things after they leave
at night. I don’t do a thing any different than I did what I was home with
my own two. What’s got to be done gets done.
day-care providers know well that the children in their care come to them
from very different backgrounds, from families with widely varying ma
terial resources and caregiving styles. In asserting a shared notion of
homelike care, they deny that these differences are significant. They em
brace instead some common core that they believe defines mothering,
whether it is for their own or someone else’s child.
Structural Factors
By definition, family day-care providers remain at home, and merge paid
and unpaid care in a single setting. This makes it difficult for the provider
to distinguish between what she is doing for her own children and what
she is doing for the children who come to her on a daily basis. There is,
as well, a material underpinning to the emphasis on homelike care. A
preschool pedagogy is expensive.18 Although the providers spend week
ends scouring garage sales for toys and equipment, they cannot afford to
spend too much on these items. As one woman said, “I’m a home day
care. I can only do so much with what I can afford. I can’t buy luxurious
things.”
There is also a pragmatic underpinning to this kind of care. Most day
care centers and preschools divide children into single age groups (in
order to lessen the variations in the kinds of demands to which they are
called to respond), and tie parents to specified schedules (in order to
reduce the frequency with which they are interrupted). Thus they are
equipped to plan activities appropriate for a narrow range of children
and to follow a schedule. Family day-care providers don’t have these
luxuries: “It’s hard with the little ones [around] to sit down and work
on our alphabet. I leave that up to the mother to do at home.”
The isolation in which they work makes it difficult to go on field trips
(“We go to the playground—but that is hard unless you have someone
with you”) or to maintain an energetic level of activity (“In a center,
workers have a break and therefore children have a person with more
gusto. I can’t keep up that level”). The work surrounding meal prepa
ration and cleaning takes time that might otherwise be devoted to inter-
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action with the children. Because their work space is also their living
space, they have obligations to make the day care “invisible” at the end
of the day. They cannot totally rearrange the house to meet children’s
needs or leave unfinished activities in place.
As providers acknowledge these constraints, they often distinguish be
tween their offerings and those in other forms of group care. Occasionally,
as some of their comments suggest, they also differentiate between their
care and that of mothers in a manner that curiously reverses the more
usual division of labor between mothers and other caregivers. When they
identify their homes as being the site in which children receive casual
care and love, mothers, as well as teachers, are assigned responsibility
for formal instruction.
Experiential Factors
If structure constrains and shapes the family day-care provider’s style, a
construction of the work as mothering also emerges from experience.
Most family day-care providers draw on a distinctive set of experiences
through which they believe they have acquired the skills necessary to
perform competently the role they have defined.
Many providers, when asked how they learned to care for children,
begin with a discussion of their own mothers’ care for them. Providers
also draw on their own early experiences of caring for young children.
While conforming to the expectations of young girls, they had innumer
able opportunities to develop caregiving skills. In answer to the question,
“What kind of training have you had?” one woman said,
Training? I was the oldest of eleven children—does that count? I have broth
ers and sisters at home right now that are like my own. I potty-trained
them, I broke them of their bottle, I nurtured them, I gave them all the
things that they needed.. . . I felt I was ready [to start caring for children].
I come from a big family—there was lots of us around.
Another woman, when asked whether she had ever cared for children
before answered, “Just my whole life. My mother was sick when my
younger sister was born and I baby-sat. . . from the time I was eight.”
Most significantly, family day-care providers talk about learning from
the experience of caring for their own children. As one woman said, “I’ve
been told—and I feel—that [my own children] are great kids.. . . The way
I raised them is what I do with the kids I baby-sit for. . . and [my children]
are doing fine so far.” Indeed, because they see the work as an extension
of mothering, they believe they are prepared to handle the job without
receiving formal training.19 One woman laughed at a question about her
qualifications:
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A woman came the other day and she was asking, “What special training
do you have in dealing with children?” And I said, “I’m the mother of six
children, that’s all the special training that I feel like I need.” As far as
taking a book that tells me how to deal with children . . . I don’t want that.
I don’t believe in book-raising children.
Claiming Autonomy
Yet, no matter how casually they begin, or how adamantly they claim
that they rely on “common sense” alone, as women persevere in the
occupation they also acknowledge that they have acquired a distinct body
of knowledge and a set of skills Sara Ruddick defines as “maternal think
ing.”23 They mention learning to deal with crises and injuries; learning
about developmental stages; and learning how to manage the complexities
of relating to a wide range of ages. Some mention specific skills which
ease the burden of their work: “I have gotten better at putting them to
bed—I know that sounds funny but it could be difficult. I am also better
at learning how long their attention span is.” Some women say that they
have become more flexible over time in response to their newfound ability
to accurately assess children’s moods: “I used to go with a routine and
stick to that. Now I am looser than I used to be because I have learned
how to be and to get the same thing accomplished while being looser.”
Many women speak about having become more patient. The definition
of patience that one respondent (a provider for twenty-three years) gave
me suggests that this aspect of the caregiver’s experience is particularly
complex:
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Two kinds of dilemmas face family day-care providers: the first concerns
their inadvertent (indeed, reluctant) redefinition of mothering; the second
revolves around the tensions of mothering other people’s children.
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Redefining Mothering
Offering a Service in Which They Do Not Believe
While the family day-care provider’s style has its roots in both structure
and experience, the motivation to do this work is based in a desire to
care for her own children while earning a living. The women in this study
defined themselves as mothers who are committed to mothering as their
primary role.24 Even those women who had worked previously as paid
caregivers in an institutional setting did not offer these experiences (or
an interest in building on the knowledge they had gained there) as an
explanation for why they began to provide care at home. They said simply
that they wanted to be home while their children were growing up.
At a time when increasing numbers of women work outside the home
and leave their children in the care of others, the ferocity of this com
mitment is somewhat surprising. Several factors can help explain why
these women are so insistent about this traditional model of child care.
First, a high proportion of the providers experienced extensive family
breakdown as children. These women explicitly linked their dreams for
their children with the goal of avoiding the pain that characterized their
own lives. Second, a precarious economic situation creates its own un
certainty. The poorer women in this study spoke about the significance
of a parent’s vigilance as a means to protect children from the “troubles”
which afflicted them or their peers. Among some of these women a dis
trust of public institutions and the norms embedded there gave an ad
ditional reason for keeping their children “close to home and in the care
of people who share parental values.”25
Third, some of the family day care providers had formerly worked
outside the home, and although they offered a variety of reasons for
leaving wage labor, they said first that they could not bear the thought
of having someone else rear the children:
I took three months off after I had [my daughter], I never really thought
that I would ever not work.. . . It was just about a year to the date after I
went back to work that I decided, well, I really don’t want to work any
more, because I felt that I really needed to stay home—because of Alice. I
wanted her to have a nice family life and I wanted her to have a mom and
dad that knew her___ [I had] a real good person taking care of her . . . so
I never had a second thought about leaving her as far as the sitter was
concerned. But when I left her I felt kind of empty almost, and I couldn’t
wait to get done with work.
outside the home, and then later in the interview she insisted she had
never had anyone else care for her child.
Finally, and perhaps most significantly, an involvement in family day
care feeds back on and reinforces one’s original commitment. A provider
finds confirmation of the importance of staying home with her own chil
dren in her observations of children who are separated from their parents
all day, and in her assessment of what these children are missing. One
of their major criticisms of women who leave their children with them
is that these women are inconsistent and inadequate disciplinarians. They
also believe that the children who are with them lack the sense of at
tachment to their parents and the daily experience of receiving love. This
also is a reason for staying home with their own, and another pole around
which good mothering revolves. “What is good care?” I asked one
woman. She answered, “Most of the time it is just making sure that they
are taken care of and showing the love they should be getting at home
(emphasis added).”
Paradoxically, then, not only are family day-care providers attempting
to offer the kind of care they do not think it is possible for anybody except
a “real” mother to offer (and which they do not trust anybody but them
selves to give to their own children), but they facilitate the movement
of other women into the labor force even though they fervently believe
these women should remain at home. On a daily basis, family day-care
providers experience the unresolved dilemma of working hard to do well
at something they do not value themselves:
The bottom line is, I feel every mother at every expense should stay home
with their child.. . . I always felt in the back of my mind, why don’t they
stay home with their children.. . . I can’t understand why it was more
important for them to shuffle papers.. . . And I still haven’t figured it out.
I was offering a service that I didn’t really believe was in the child’s best
interest. I think young children should be home with their parents. It was
hard for me too to be providing that service when I don’t think that’s what’s
best for the kids.
I found that my children have to share everything. They have to share their
toys, they have to share their mother, they have to share their rooms—even
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their beds at times. I kind of feel . . . guilty about that at times. So that is
my problem. That is me thinking that way.
And they acknowledge that, as a result, a child may even be less generous
than s/he would be otherwise: “I think Emily is more giving than Jonah
because he’s always had to share his toys and whatever with everyone
[whereas she had five years alone.] I think Emily’s less selfish than Jonah
is.”
Finally, they admit that although they are home, they have little time
to spend in focused interaction with their own children and little time
to attend to their children’s particular needs. These needs—and the way
they are jeopardized—vary with the age of the child. Women with pre
school children speak about “shortchanging” them, about children “los
ing out” or being “lost in the shuffle” because they are raised among so
many others:
I felt guilty because Peter was part of so many kids. I don’t ever think I
necessarily put him first. I remember feeling guilty that I was shortchanging
Peter. He was just part of the gang.
It feels like [my daughter’s] losing out [from my doing day care]. But I
wanted to be home. It’s a hard decision to make. I mean, if you have to
work—I mean most people have to work. I wanted to be home but I wanted
to be with my kids.
[M]y children get lost in the shuffle. That’s what bothered me sometimes.
You try to be fair to all of them. You don’t give your child special priority.
Women with older children, who remain home at this stage in their lives
in part because they want to be there at the end of the school day, ac
knowledge that they are unable to give the special attention they believe
their children want and deserve.28
We had a problem in the beginning when my kids got home and they wanted
to tell me about their day and [the other children] wanted to tell me too
because I was the first person they saw when they got off the bus. And it
was like she’s my mother, not yours, and it was real hard in that respect.
Moreover, they know that a home geared to activities for small children
can be a source of irritation to an older child who resents having her or
his room used for naps, and finding favorite toys broken. If the providers
invent practical solutions to these problems (a bedroom off-limits; toys
kept on high shelves) they cannot entirely erase the pain they feel in
having to redefine good mothering in more limited terms than those
motivating their involvement in the occupation.
Providers have even more difficulty talking about a set of issues that
touch on the distinctive nature of the relationship between a mother and
her own child. As will be discussed below, most providers are unwilling
to say they treat their own children any differently from the way they
treat other people’s children. In fact they take considerable pride in being
fair—in giving equal treats, equal hugs, equal praise, and equal punish
ment—and they contrast themselves with other providers who do not act
this way. But the presence of other children highlights the fact that they
believe that there is a different relationship between themselves and their
own children; the presence of other children may also exacerbate this
relationship.
Only reluctantly, and with probing, do providers admit that not only
do they feel differently about their own children (“Of course, I would be
lying if I said I didn’t love mine more”) but that they find themselves
locked into different patterns of interaction. The first acknowledgment
comes in the form of suggesting that other children act better for them
than they do for their own parents, and that their own children are the
most difficult to handle.
Other people’s children are not as demanding. When you tell your children
“no” they always ask fifty times more. When I tell other people’s children
“no” they don’t ask again.. . . They are more obedient than your own.
You know, your own kids don’t seem to mind you as well as someone
else’s kids. . . . No child pushes me as much as my own.
When asked how they respond to these different behavior patterns, prov
iders admit to a kind of reaction that threatens both their ideal of con
sistent discipline and their ideal of equal treatment.
Sometimes I’m easier on [my middle child] and sometimes I’m harder on
her and I know it and I get mad at myself. When I’m easier I don’t feel so
bad until she starts getting bratty. And then I say, “Dam it, it’s your own
fault.” All these toys here are my kids’ toys and Emma has to share.. . . I
don’t handle [sharing of toys] the same way every time and that’s a problem.
Sometimes I’ll let Emma have her own way around it and . . . that’s when
I feel like I’m giving in to Emma. And then the times when I’m hard on
her she might do something wrong and so will the other kids and she’ll get
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in more trouble than they would. My attitude is sometimes, well you know
better, you live with m e . . . . So I hate myself for being that way.
and the other children in your care?” the answer I almost uniformly
received was, “I treat them all the same.” Tellingly, in emphasizing ex
ternal behavior (the way the children are treated) the providers avoided
answering the question about the way they felt about the children. It is
a form of denial that their feelings for their own children differed from
their feelings for their clients.31 Having dismissed professional caregiving,
the provider embraces mothering. Having done so, she cannot easily
speak about the manner in which she deviates from this ideal.
But a contradiction is present. Mothering is the most desirable style
for a family day-care provider, but it is a style she must adopt incom
pletely.32 Among white, working- and middle-class women, motherhood
confers the exclusive privileges of claiming, molding, and keeping; neither
these women nor their clients believe that other people’s children can be
claimed, molded, and kept. To think that one can do so with other peo
ple’s children creates a situation where one can only be disappointed.
And this style of motherhood denies a financial calculus and limits, yet
a day-care provider who refuses reimbursement or fails to establish limits
to the care she gives invites exploitation. The family day-care provider
cannot answer a question about feeling directly, because there is no direct
way to describe how one maintains an ideal by deviating from it. We
can hear this confusion when providers use a “but” to describe their
feelings: “I love these children but they’re not my own”; “I enjoy caring
for children but it is a job for me.”
Limited Authority
Competent and successful caring for children relies on certain skills.
While providers may denigrate their abilities, they can also recognize that
they have acquired knowledge about children in general, as well as in
timate knowledge about the individual children who come to them. More
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over, because the family day-care provider is dealing with many children
at once, discipline and the imposition of routines are not just matters of
individual style, but practical necessities. All children have to nap at the
same time, eat the same food, and follow the same rules.
The women find satisfaction in exercising their skills, but they are often
thwarted in their attempts to do so. Feminist analysis has uncovered the
many ways in which a mother’s confidence is challenged by the authority
of male experts.33 Family day-care providers, perhaps, experience even
more “interruptions.” Parental supervision, state requirements, public
oversight, and occasionally, the scrutiny of a husband all influence child
care style.
Parents give explicit instructions pertaining to the care of their own
children. These instructions can undermine a provider’s confidence; they
can also serve to remind the provider that her authority is limited: “[I
don’t like it when] they’re saying, well, I’m still in charge even though
I’m not here, therefore I’m going to tell her like I would tell a teenage
baby-sitter the rules.” In addition, state regulations constrain their ability
to freely define appropriate care, and public oversight creates a climate
of distrust about possible mistreatment of children.34As one woman said,
“You don’t yell out the back door to the children because someone might
hear you.” The provision of day care overlaps with family life in time
as well as space. A day-care provider’s husband might indicate resentment
about the wear and tear accompanying home-based child care; he might
also try to control it in certain ways, such as suggesting that the provider
discipline children in prescribed ways, that the provider not continue to
care for particular children, or, in extreme cases, that she cease doing the
work altogether.
These intrusions undermine the provider’s authority. When providers
speak about wanting to ensure the safety of the children, there is an edge
of anxiety about whether they can afford to allow the child to take the
kind of risks a mother might: “I worry more about somebody else’s child.”
Providers also say they try to put off questions about sex and religion,
recognizing these as “private” matters best handled in the family: “I
suggest they talk to their mother about that.”
The most concrete manifestation of this difference shows up with re
spect to the issue of punishment.35 Most providers believe that it is
wrong—and even cruel—to spank someone else’s child, even though many
of them find it an appropriate disciplinary technique for their own chil
dren. The concern also shows up at the other end of the spectrum. Some
providers worry about showing too much physical affection:36
Now it’s really child abuse this and child abuse that. I’m afraid to get too
close. I can still hug them and stuff. But still, in the back of my mind I
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don’t want anyone accusing me . . . . You think about it, what do you classify
as child abuse or sexual abuse or verbal abuse?
Thus, although providers say that they do with others what they do
with their own children and treat them like their own, probing suggests
that this “common sense” response is modulated by the consciousness
that the child is not her own.
Loss
The most painful difference between mothering one’s own child and
mothering another’s child is the inevitability of loss. These relationships
are contingent: a parent can withdraw a child at any moment the parent
decides that a different situation is preferable. Even when the situation
is working well, these relationships are temporary. They are bounded
daily by the return of the mother, and bounded ultimately by the child’s
maturation.
In some ways the most painful losses are those that are initiated by a
parent out of dissatisfaction. These losses threaten the provider’s self-
confidence as well as her relationship to a child. Providers speak about
these losses with a special anguish:
One day [the mother] called me up and said she wasn’t going to bring him
back because she didn’t think he was happy here. And that really bothered
me and I asked, “Why don’t you think he’s happy here? What do you want
me to do?” And she said, “It’s nothing to do with you. I just don’t think
he is happy here. He doesn’t want to go.” . . . I was upset because I thought
I did something wrong. I thought I had let his crying bother me too
much___ I started to wonder whether I should be taking care of other
people’s kids.
But the more expected losses are anguishing as well, and tears come to
a provider’s eyes when describing how loss interrupts relationships of
love: “I lost one to kindergarten and some going closer to home. It’s very
hard. You feel like you’re losing a part of you.” When these losses are
anticipated, a provider can do some of the work of grieving in advance.
This might help them deal with the actual moment of parting; it cannot
alleviate the pain altogether.
The link between loss and affection is demonstrated in the frequency
with which providers, when asked about their feelings about children,
spontaneously speak about losing them: “I love these children. I feel
terrible when I lose one.” This constant awareness of loss makes becoming
too attached to the children a risky proposition.
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Financial Constraints
There is another reality as well. Family day-care providers do this work,
in part, because they need the money. If they become too attache^ to the
children in their care, that is, if they identify too strongly with the model
of mothering, they can neither ask for money at the end of the week nor
impose restrictions on the hours of care they provide. Almost every prov
ider could remember a time when she let concern for a child draw her
into making a decision which was not in her interest:
I had one parent that owed me money when she left.. . . It was as much
my fault as it was hers because I just let it go on and on for six months.
But she was in the process of a divorce. It was really affecting the child that
I had. I just could not put that child through one more trauma of having
to go to a new sitter on top of everything else he was going through. He
was three years old and I could just see what this divorce was doing to this
little boy___ It was really my fault. I could have given him up. I just
couldn’t because I wouldn’t put him through not knowing where he was
going to go.
Detached Attachment
Providers do not explicitly acknowledge that the care they offer is different
from mothering. Yet the emotional component of that care, what I call
the feeling rule of “detached attachment,” is characterized by some limits
drawn around the caregivers’ emotional engagement with the children.37
Providers frequently referred to this detachment they have created and
the emotional labor in maintaining it: “I reserve something, knowing that
they’re not mine”; I hold back a little”; “I don’t want to get too attached.”
Almost every provider could talk about one child to whom she had be
come overly attached. Almost every provider spoke about not letting this
happen again:
I won’t take one on from six months and watch it grow up like that again
if I’ve got any feeling that they’re going to be taken away from me---- I
felt that I was doing a good job and I enjoyed [the child] just as much as
[the parents] did, watching it grow up and being a part of its life. Maybe I
did get too attached.”
I know Sarah really likes me. I know she does. I can tell. And I like Sarah.
She’s a nice little girl. But her mother has to be there for her.. . . I can’t
give what Sarah needs. I can give her the attention. I can care for her. I
can make her feel good about herself. But I’m not her mother. You want
to give the child what he [sic] needs without giving so much that you are
interfering with the way he or she feels about his own parents.
At the same time the provider is also clearly protecting herself. The
provider needs this image of the mother as much, if not more than the
child, as a reminder of her own limited role. The failure to keep this
image alive can have devastating emotional consequences, as one woman
suggests:39
With my nieces I’d have to stop and say to myself, “you’re not their
mother.” For an example, the older one . . . had long hair and she wanted
her hair cut. She wanted me to cut her hair. And I said, “Are you sure you
want your hair cut?” And she said, “Oh, I’m sure I want it cut.” And I
said, “All right, after your bath tonight I’ll cut your hair.” And I did it and
I never thought about it. And I put the kid to bed and I was upset all night.
I said, I don’t believe I cut her hair without asking her mother.. . . All night
I just tossed and turned.. . . I just agonized all night long about how I could
do that without even thinking o f the mother. Those girls were becoming
more and more my own.
I think that’s part of what was making me burned out. I really felt that was
where some of it was, from letting myself become too attached to the chil-
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dren. You have to keep a little bit of distance. Because, I think the fact that
I had them here all the time they became . . . so much a part of my family
that made it kind of crazy.. . . I haven’t distanced myself from any of the
children [at the center] but I don’t have the hours with them. I think that
makes a difference. .. In a three hour span you can’t get as close. And you
always know that there’s somebody else that can take over there whereas
[at home] there wasn’t. I was their sole person for support, authority, love,
or whatever. I think [at the center] I always know there’s somebody else
who can step in and take over and do the same job that I’m doing, and
that makes a difference. You don’t have to pull on yourself as much because
you’re not the be-all and end-all.. . . I think in ways it makes me feel freer
to be able to communicate with [the children] and be with them.. . . I don’t
have to feel I’m the only person who’s going to get through to them.
CONCLUSION
social outlook, some of whom do not. They have to learn to find a new
basis for understanding, to be open to views and attitudes which challenge
their own.
From the base of their own experience, providers move towards a
recognition of the need for autonomy in their own lives, and an under
standing of this need that is closer to a feminist vision of adult roles for
women than it is to the belief in individualism touted by the Right. As
Susan Cohen and Mary Fainsod Katzenstein argue,43
Individualism, for the Right, is encouraged by the family even as it must
be, in another sense, sacrificed to the family. The Right maintains that the
family is uniquely qualified to instill norms of independence and freedom
in its young. Yet the exercise of this individualism is to happen outside,
not within, the family. Within the family, community supersedes individ
uality. The choices men and women make inside the family are to be cur
tailed by the parameters of biology and tradition. Outside the family, how
ever, individualism may flourish—but an individualism (feminist critics
charge) that embraces only men.
But providers learn they cannot sacrifice their own individualism and
autonomy, and still be effective social actors who meet their own and
their families’ needs, at the same time as they meet the needs of the
women and children who are their clients. Over time they have to de
velop—and learn to trust and value—their own caregiving styles, even as
these emerge from a complex mix of experience, practical necessity and
compromise. In the process of negotiation with parents, husbands, and
state officials, they often find themselves developing new communication
skills, and acquiring the self-esteem to surmount their own socialization;
they fight for and defend their own interests as they seek solutions to
dilemmas they face.
In their daily lives, then, at a narrow level, providers seek to balance
the norms of the public world and those of the private domain. At a
deeper level, they are struggling to find a balance between autonomy and
community. Because our society charges women with the burden of com
munity, while granting men the privileges of autonomy; and because the
necessary structural support for achieving this balance for members of
both sexes is sorely lacking, family day-care providers often “fail.” But
their stories are clear demonstrations of the truism that, if caregivers are
going to meet their own needs as well as those of care recipients, they
must find that balance. Ensuring this basis for caregiving is, perhaps, one
of the biggest challenges facing our society today.
Notes
1. For historical analyses o f the emergence o f the ideology o f domesticity and wom
anhood see Barbara Welter, “The Cult of True Womanhood: 1820-1860,” American Quar
Family Day Care Providers: Dilemmas of Daily Practice 205
terly (Summer, 1966), pp. 151-171; Gerda Lerner, “The Lady and the Mill Girl: Changes
in the Status o f Women in the Age o f Jackson,” American Midcontinent Studies Journal
(10, 1969), pp. 5-15; Carl Degler, At Odds: Women and the American Family from the
Revolution to the Present (New York: Oxford University Press, 1980). For a good review
o f how motherhood has been constructed—and how it has been critiqued by feminists—see
Evelyn Nakano Glenn, “Gender and the Family,” pp. 348-381 in Beth B. Hess and Myra
Marx Ferree, eds., Analyzing Gender: Handbook o f Social Science Research (Newbury Park,
CA: Sage Publications, 1987).
2. Steven Fosburg, Family Day Care in the United States: Summary o f Findings, vol.
I (Washington, D.C.: U.S. Government Printing Office, U.S. Department of Health and
Human Services, 1981), p. 1. For a recent accounting o f the frequency with which different
kinds o f child care arrangement are used, see Sandra L. Hofferth et al., National Child Care
Survey, 1990 (Washington, D.C.: The Urban Institute Press, 1991). This study separates
“family day care” and care by relatives in a home other than the child’s. It is difficult,
therefore, to know the extent to which the latter category (of relative care) involves women
such as the ones I am describing in this study. In 1990, 18.6 percent of children lender age
five with employed mothers were in family day care; and an additional 11.3 percent of
these children were being cared for by relatives in a home other than their own. In contrast,
26.5 percent o f these children were cared for in a child care center.
3. In this chapter I assume that all family day-care providers are women. Although there
are a handful of men engaged in this activity in Vermont, none were included in this study.
In fact, family day care is so dominated by women that the summary report o f the national
day-care home study does not discuss gender at all. See, Fosburg, Family D ay Care in the
United States.
4. For useful discussions o f this issue, see Rayna Rapp, “Family and Class in Contem
porary America: Notes Toward an Understanding o f Ideology,” in Barrie Thome and Mar
ilyn Yalom, eds., Rethinking the Family: Some Feminist Questions (New York: Longman,
1982), pp. 168-187; Barrie Thorne, “Feminist Rethinking of the Family: An Overview,”
in Thorne and Yalom, Rethinking the Family, pp. 1-24.
5. Thorne, “Feminist Rethinking o f the Family,” p. 18.
6. In spite of much recent talk about “parenting,” the burden for a child’s well-being
still rests on mothers. See Susan Rae Peterson, “Against ‘Parenting,’ ” in Joyce Trebilcot,
ed., Mothering: Essays in Feminist Theory (Totowa, N.J.: Rowman & Allanheld, 1984),
pp. 62-69; and Janet Farrell Smith, “Parenting and Property,” in Trebilcot, Mothering, pp.
199-212.
7. Thorne, “Feminist Rethinking o f the Family,” p. 18.
8. Sara Freedman, “To Love and to Work: The Ghettoization o f Women’s Labor in
the Home and the School,” Unpublished paper, 1987; Jeff Hearn, “Patriarchy, Profession-
alisation, and the Semi-Professions,” in Clare Ungerson, ed., Women and Social Policy: A
Reader (London: MacMillan, 1985); Carole E. Joffe, Friendly Intruders: Childcare Profes
sionals and Family Life (Berkeley: University o f California Press, 1977); Sara Lawrence
Lightfoot, “Family-School Interactions: The Cultural Image o f Mothers and Teachers,”
Signs 3 (2)( 1977); Sara Lawrence Lightfoot, Worlds Apart: Relationships Between Families
and Schools (New York: Basic Books, 1978); Sandra Schiff, Mother Care/Other Care (New
York: Basic Books, 1984).
9. See, for example, the essays in Emily K. Abel and Margaret K. Nelson, eds., Circles
o f Care: Work and Identity in Women’s Lives (Albany: State University of New York Press,
1990); and the essays in Janet Finch and Dulcie Groves, eds., A Labour o f Love: Women,
Work and Caring (London: Routledge and Kegan Paul, 1983).
10. Even when women followed the domestic tasks into the public world (as nurses,
teachers, social workers), they were caught in a dilemma: “forced to act as if altruism
(assumed to be the basis for caring) and autonomy (assumed to be the basis for rights) are
separate ways of being, even human characteristics distributed along gender lines.” Susan
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M. Reverby, “The Duty or Right to Care: Nursing in Historical Perspective,” in Abel and
Nelson, Circles o f Care, pp. 132-149). Their activities there are frequently judged by stan
dards, such as warmth, intimacy, and friendliness, that were formerly applied only to ser
vices in the private domain; see Arlie Russell Hochschild, The Managed Heart: The Com
mercialization o f Human Feeling (Berkeley: The University o f California Press, 1983).
11. Autonomy is the linchpin o f a (male) professional model o f caregiving in the public
domain; professional caregivers adopt a norm o f detachment that systematically precludes
an identification with clients, and, arguably, the possibility o f intense caring about them.
12. Emily K. Abel and Margaret K. Nelson, “Circles o f Care: An Introductory Essay,”
pp. 4-34, in Abel and Nelson, Circles o f Care.
13. Patricia Hill Collins argues that within African-American communities, the rela
tionships between women and their (biological) children are often less exclusive, and that
many different women may have an active role in ensuring the well-being o f children:
19. Even those who had undergone extensive training to become nurses or teachers,
when asked what skills they drew on, mentioned motherhood before their occupation.
20. When parents choose a family day-care provider because “she is a mother” or
because “she grew up in a large family,” they rely on just this kind o f learning; this learning
is also assumed by a public policy structured around the willingness o f women to provide
this kind o f informal care. (Ironically, this policy simultaneously assumes that these lessons
have taken root and attempts to regulate providers—just in case.)
21. While these patterns o f continuity describe some women, there is a “deviant” group
who operate family day-care homes in an explicit way as part o f a career. Again, the career
is child care. But they are formally trained workers who choose family day care because it
offers desired working conditions.
22. For a very similar discussion of experiential learning and how it is “naturalized,”
see Marjorie DeVault, Feeding the Family: The Social Organization o f Caring as Gendered
Work (Chicago: University o f Chicago Press, 1991), especially p. 119.
23. Sara Ruddick, “Maternal Thinking,” in Trebilcot, Mothering, pp. 213-230.
24. A good characterization of this kind o f woman can be found in Kristin Luker,
Abortion and the Politics o f Motherhood (Berkeley: University o f California Press, 1984).
Family day care as an extension o f mothering is presented differently, though equally con
cretely, for a substantial minority of the women who see in the provision o f child care a
way to further satisfy a thwarted maternal impulse. Women who could not afford a larger
family, women who could not (physically) bear more children, women who longed for a
daughter and had only sons (or vice versa), and women whose grown children have left
them pining over an empty nest, all located their motivation in an as-yet-unfulfilled need
to mother.
25. Lillian B. Rubin, Worlds o f Pain: Life in the Working-Class Family (New York:
Basic Books, 1976), p. 87.
26. Interestingly, although no provider acknowledged this, it is possible that offering
family day care gives the provider a mechanisms for discounting and remaining uncon
cerned about even serious behavioral problems. To the extent that the provider can claim
that these problems are the result o f the presence o f day care, she has to acknowledge that
day care has had a cost. On the other hand, she does not have to acknowledge that there
are ways in which her own children have deep-seated or serious developmental problems
o f their own.
27. Curiously, although these conditions characterized the lives of many of the family
day-care providers (and, they suggest, prepared them for their current role), they do not
want their children to have these same kinds o f experiences: their reproduction of the social
relations o f class is reluctant and inadvertent.
28. Several husbands added comments indicating that they too believed that their own
children were being neglected at these times:
I wish my kids could explain some of their feelings because sometimes I think some
o f their days are just difficult. It’s like when Jimmy went to kindergarten last year
and he’d come just at the time when Erica was serving lunch and he’d come in with
all these neat things and Erica just did not have the time to sit down [with him]. I
think that’s one thing my children are missing out sometimes.
I think it’s tough on our boys when they come home from school and there’s a
house full and they don’t get the attention they were used to before.
The disappointment they felt must have been expressed to their wives.
29. On the turnover survey, providers were significantly less likely to express agreement
with the statement, “My children have adjusted easily to sharing me with others,” than
they had two years earlier when they responded to the original questionnaire.
30. For research on mother’s attitudes toward their role, see Mary Georgina Boulton,
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On Being a Mother: A Study o f Women with Pre-School Children (London: Tavistock, 1983);
see, also, the essays in Jean F. O’Barr, Deborah Pope and Mary Wyer, eds., Ties That Bind:
Essays on Mothering and Patriarchy (Chicago and London: The University of Chicago
Press, 1990).
31. Alternatively, this answer might be taken as an indication o f the difficulty o f sep
arating treatment and feeling. Caregiving involves instrumental tasks and emotions. We
care for someone because we care about them; when we care about someone we take care
o f their needs. Yet if it were just this difficulty, we might find that mothers could not
separate the tasks and the emotions. However, most mothers can separate the two easily
(e.g., I love my child but I hate changing diapers, getting up in the middle o f the night, and
losing contact with the adult world).
32. As noted above, in communities where mothering has a more collective aspect, this
contradiction might not occur. See Collins, Black Feminist Thought.
33. Barbara Ehrenrich and Deidre English, For Her Own Good: 150 Years o f the Experts’
Advice to Women (New York: Doubleday, 1979); Alison Jagger, Feminist Politics and Hu
man Nature (Totowa, N.J.: Rowman and Allanheld, 1983).
34. The rules for registration o f Vermont’s Department of Social and Rehabilitation
Services determine the number o f children that can be cared for within the home by a
family day-care provider, and the kind o f discipline that can be used. The registration
process opens the provider to public scrutiny, and limits her ability to take in and care for
children as she sees fit. See Vermont, Department o f Social and Rehabilitation Services.
35. I distinguish here between the broad kind o f discipline which is central to the
provider’s notion o f what she is offering to children, and the specific methods o f punishment
for misbehavior that are employed. For public debates about the use o f corporal punishment
in day-care settings in Vermont, see Burlington Free Press, “Parents Still Have Control of
Day-Care Discipline,” Editorial (May 20, 1983), p. 12a; “Spanking in Day-Care Centers:
Parents Should Make Decision,” Opinions Page (February 15, 1984) p. 8a; “Snelling Puts
Pen to Spanking Ban,” (April 16, 1984) p. 6b; David Karvelas, “Day Care Spanking Op
posed,” Burlington Free Press (May 12, 1983) p. lb.
36. Vermont, Department o f Social and Rehabilitation Services. For interesting dis
cussions o f the issue o f child abuse and how it can divide caregivers, see Susan Contratto,
“Child Abuse and the Politics o f Care,” Journal o f Education 168 (3)(1986), pp. 70-79;
Linda Gordon, “Child Abuse, Gender and the Myth o f Family Independence: A Historical
Critique,” Child Welfare 64 (3)(May June 1985), pp. 213-224. For recent reports o f sexual
abuse in day-care settings, see David Finkelhor and Linda Meyer Williams with Nanci
Burns, Nursery Crimes: Sexual Abuse in D ay Care (Newbury Park: Sage Publications, 1988).
37. For discussions of the concept o f “feeling rules,” see Arlie Russell Hochschild, “The
Sociology o f Feelings and Emotion: Selected Possibilities,” in Marcia Millman and Rosabeth
Moss Kanter, eds., Another Voice: Feminist Perspectives on Social Life and Social Science
(Garden City, N.Y.: Anchor/Doubleday, 1975); and A. Hochschild, The Managed Heart.
38. These reminders are not just to offer necessary reassurance to the child during a
potentially traumatic separation; they serve the provider’s interest in not allowing the child
to become too attached.
39. By inserting the mother into the relationship, and thus implicitly drawing a dis
tinction between what she provides and what a mother offers, the day-care provider is also
recreating a notion of mothering as something that exists only between a mother and her
child. This kind o f relationship she reserves for her own children. Thus mothering is not
cheapened (which paradoxically it would be if it involved a monetary fee) by being confused
with something different.
40. Susan M. Reverby, “The Duty or the Right to Care: Nursing and Womanhood in
Historical Perspective,” in Emily K. Abel and Margaret K. Nelson, eds., Circles o f Love:
Work and Identity in Women’s Lives (Albany: State University o f New York Press, 1990),
132-150.
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41. Chiara Saraceno, “Shifts in Public and Private Boundaries: Women as Mothers and
Service Workers in Italian Daycare,” Feminist Studies 10 (1)(1984), p. 27.
42. As I wrote this chapter, the Republicans were trying to reassert their claim to rep
resent “traditional family values.”
43. Susan Cohen and Mary Fainsod Katzenstein, “The War Over the Family Is Not
Over the Family,” in Stanford M. Dornbusch and Myra H. Strober, eds., Feminism, Chil
dren, and the New Families (New York: The Guilford Press, 1988), p. 44.