A Daddy For Christmas - Victoria Sue
A Daddy For Christmas - Victoria Sue
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VICTORIA SUE
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Copyright © 2020 by Victoria Sue
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CONTENTS
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
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CHAPTER ONE
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CHAPTER THREE
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CHAPTER FOUR
JACOB HAD SEEMED quiet since the store that morning, and
Lucas now understood what had happened. Jacob had lost
his husband. He didn’t know how, but the man must have
died as the sorrow in Amy’s eyes hadn’t been faked, and it
explained so much. The house, the job, the relocation. All of
it. Lucas’s heart ached for Jacob. It was clear to see how
much he must have loved his husband, which made his
kindness to Lucas even more astounding. He still didn’t
understand why he had been willing to take in a complete
stranger, especially when he could pay someone to clear
the house. Unless that was it. Maybe he didn’t want people
he didn’t know touching his things, although Lucas was
hardly a friend, and he hadn’t seen so much as a
photograph about.
Lucas listened from the kitchen as Jacob backed his
Ford Explorer out of the driveway. He had said he needed
to run some errands, and he’d left Lucas making dinner. He
hadn’t really noticed last night, but it was a really nice car.
Obviously top-of-the-line, and he immediately thought
about his Toyota RAV4 with sadness. His mom had insisted
on a brand-new car when he had graduated high school as
a gift, and he’d loved that car right up to the point Terry
had taken it off him and totaled it. He wasn’t even sure
why. A nine-year-old Toyota hardly compared with the new
Chevrolet Suburban he swanned around in. He’d taken the
Toyota because he hadn’t been able to find his keys, and
he’d laughed when he’d arrived home in a cab saying
Lucas’s car wasn’t even worth towing for repair and it was
going for scrap.
How did I get here?
He didn’t even know. Sure, he’d come home when he’d
gotten the call from Terry. Of course he had, but his mom
didn’t seem much different than her normal scatty self at
first. It had taken a week until he got up one morning and
she had gone. Completely disappeared. In a panic, Lucas
had gotten in his car and driven around the town until he’d
found her still in her pajamas and freezing cold, wondering
why her favorite restaurant wasn’t open at 7:00 a.m. on a
Monday.
She didn’t understand why she couldn’t eat bella
mushrooms in the sauce she loved right then. And the
worse thing was she had cried because she thought Lucas
was conspiring to keep it closed. That it was his fault.
It had sometimes been worse than her being confused.
Her anger. That she had to blame everything on him
because her frustration didn’t have another target. Her
doctor had said it often happened, but it didn’t make the
bruises he now got from his previously loving mom hurt
any less.
Lucas looked around the kitchen. It looked better
already, and he could soon have it looking a Realtor’s
dream. There was one wall that needed filling and
repainting as it looked like something had hit it and
chipped a little paint, but he’d noticed some paint cans in
the garage when he’d found the cleaning supplies, so he
was sure he could manage. He’d become pretty self-
sufficient over the last few years as Terry wouldn’t pay for
repairs, so Lucas had just done them. He wasn’t normally
clumsy like he had been at the club. He just had a hard
time meeting so many new people when he’d been
essentially stuck in a house for years, and his money
worries were making him anxious.
And the hot Dom that had been kind to him in the
bathroom had meant his head was full of Jacob, and not on
the tray of glasses he was carrying. In his head he’d
already seen himself tucked up on Jacob’s knee with his
blanket and stuffie.
Lucas paused what he was doing as longing robbed him
of breath. It wasn’t ever going to happen, and he knew
daydreaming was ridiculous, but the man was a perfect
package practically wrapped up in a shiny bow. What a
Christmas gift. But then he started imagining Jacob
unwrapping him and forced his thoughts away.
He deliberately hadn’t mentioned the half-full boxes the
kitchen was littered with and just put them in an empty
closet off the hallway to deal with later. It looked like Jacob
had started to pack everything but hadn’t finished.
He hadn’t done much because his finger was making
things a little awkward, but at least the kitchen was clean
enough to cook in, and the gloves meant he could get his
hands wet. He’d noticed Jacob hauling two empty suitcases
out to the garage earlier, so he guessed it was likely he had
been doing some unpacking upstairs. Lucas cupped his
hands around his coffee. Jacob had even got him the half
and half he liked after seeing him eyeing it. Then he
flushed as he remembered what else he had seen. The
elephant. Could he be any more pathetic? In his defense it
had been so cute, and Lucas had always loved stuffed toys.
He’d even had a bathroom sponge shaped like an elephant
when he had been younger.
Which reminded him he still hadn’t had a shower
because of getting the bandage wet, but now he’d found
the gloves he could, and he felt sticky and a little gross
after going nearly two days without washing his hair. He
set off upstairs. He’d not had much time to notice his
surroundings since he’d arrived with it being late and then
going to the store, but he remembered Jacob saying there
was an office at the end of the corridor by his room, and he
would need to add that to his list. He didn’t feel
comfortable opening any doors until Jacob gave him the go-
ahead, so he walked straight into his room.
Well, not his exactly, but he did like the room. Cream
and brown walls should look plain, but with the dark
chocolate blind, the accent pillows on the easy chair, and
the fluffy cream rug he could curl his toes in, it looked
warm and inviting. He needed towels, and he went back
out to the linen cupboard he’d gotten the sheets from
yesterday, but there weren’t any. The bathroom just had the
small hand towel in, and he opened a couple of cupboards
under the sink, but apart from spare toothbrushes and
soap, they were empty. He glanced at the other door.
Maybe the towels were in there? He touched the handle,
expecting it to open inward, but it swung back away from
him. He realized it was another bedroom, not a cupboard,
and he went to close it quickly until he caught sight of the
floor.
And stopped completely stunned.
The same wooden floor was mostly covered in a rug, but
it was the type of rug that caught Lucas’s eye. It was like a
big snakes-and-ladders game, and his eyes widened as he
took in the rest of the room. There was a beanbag chair
that looked like the comfiest thing he’d ever seen, and a
massive train set that extended the whole width of the
room. In the corner he noticed a dresser and a huge
matching rocking chair. Shelves lined the whole of one wall
with more books than he had seen in a library, and there
were two massive chests that held everything from toy cars
to teddy bears.
He knew he shouldn’t be in here. He absolutely knew it,
but when he saw a pair of white rabbit ears sticking out
from under the dresser, he was helpless not to cross the
room and pick it up. It was cuddly and so soft, and Lucas
closed his eyes and pressed the rabbit to the side of his
face.
“What the fuck do you think you are doing?”
Lucas jumped and snapped his eyes open in horror at
the sound of Jacob’s voice. He took in the flashing deep
brown eyes, the stony set to his jaw, and the bunched fists.
“I’m sorry,” Lucas whispered. “I was looking for towels. I-
I’m sorry,” he stammered and took a step toward Jacob, but
he still held the rabbit and he didn’t know what to do with
it. Just dropping it on the floor seemed wrong.
“Get out,” Jacob demanded in the coldest voice Lucas
had ever heard, and Lucas opened his mouth to repeat his
apology until he saw the pain glinting in Jacob’s eyes and
threatening to spill over, and knew what he’d done was
unforgivable. He ducked his head and nearly ran past
Jacob, downstairs, shoved his feet in his sneakers, and
grabbed his jacket. He was outside and walking away from
the house before he even registered it was snowing.
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CHAPTER FIVE
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CHAPTER SIX
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CHAPTER SEVEN
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CHAPTER EIGHT
JACOB HADN’T SLEPT. His head was too full of what seemed
everything to get any rest, and he had no idea what to do
about any of it. He supposed it was natural to feel some
sort of…what? Proprietorship? He was pretty sure he might
just have made that word up, but it seemed to cover how he
felt for Lucas. He certainly felt some sort of responsibility
for him, and while Patrick was a good friend, he was going
to look out for Charlie first and foremost.
He didn’t know anything about this Gabriel guy, and it
would be easy for Lucas with zero experience to get in over
his head. He hadn’t intended on going back to the club
ever, but he was only going to be here for a few weeks;
maybe he could hang around and make sure Lucas was
going to be okay? Could he cope with that? Or would he be
mired in grief every time he saw the littles? Not that he’d
be allowed in the little room anyway.
Which was a good thing.
The smell of coffee and the faint sounds of the radio
wafted up to him, and before he’d had a chance to register
either properly, there was a knock on his door. “Come in.”
He sat up and returned the shy smile on Lucas’s face as he
walked in holding a mug. Jacob reached out eagerly,
needing something to jolt him awake.
“Good morning,” Lucas greeted him, and Jacob
responded in kind. “I wanted to ask you what room you
wanted me to tackle next?”
Jacob stared at his cup. He threw the covers off and
pulled on a robe. “I’m not sure I can do it on my own,” he
admitted.
“I didn’t mean that,” Lucas stressed. “I’m happy to do
the playroom when you go see your brother.”
“I haven’t seen my brother in years. We’re not close.”
Lucas’s face softened. “I have a suggestion. What if you
tell me what you want to keep and I empty everything else?
Unless you have a preference, I know an old neighbor of my
mom’s that runs a leukemia charity. They are having a
Christmas toy drive soon, and there will be an auction as
well.”
Jacob swallowed awkwardly, but he nodded. It had to be
done, and the thought of it going to help kids would have
made Ben happy. “Let’s go do it now.” Suddenly he didn’t
want to wait any longer, and he clasped his coffee tighter
and headed to the playroom.
Methodically and calmly Lucas went through everything,
and Jacob wasn’t sure whether he’d made it bigger in his
head because while it still hurt to see everything
dismantled, it didn’t hurt quite as much as he had been
expecting, or maybe he was just good at pretending it
wasn’t happening.
“I bet you weren’t expecting to have to do this when you
took on the job,” Jacob remarked when the pile of things he
actually wanted to keep could fit in a small bag.
Lucas looked around at the neatly stacked and marked
boxes. “At least you get to do this,” he said softly, and Jacob
narrowed in on Lucas’s haunted expression.
“What do you mean?” But he thought he knew.
“I wasn’t allowed to keep anything,” Lucas whispered.
“He packed all her things up and drove them to the waste
center. He dumped it all.”
Jacob inhaled sharply. Cruelty still managed to shock
him.
“You were right about the stuffed animals. I had dozens,
but at the end, Mom seemed to take comfort in them, so
they were all in her room.”
And he guessed they had been thrown out with his
mom’s things. “To be honest, Ben didn’t actually spend that
much time in here. I’d only just started it before he got
sick, and I think I treated it more like a shrine than
anything. It was a promise he was going to get better. That
he had to get better because he wanted this room so
fucking much, and I wanted him to live so fucking much.”
He was crying. He hadn’t realized it before Lucas
wrapped his arms around him, and sobs seemed to dredge
up from somewhere he’d kept them buried for so long.
Huge hacking sounds tore from his throat, and he buried
his head in all Lucas’s softness and bawled. And all Lucas
did was hold him tighter and let him cry.
It was just so fucking unfair.
Sometime later—Jacob wasn’t sure exactly how long—he
blinked his scratchy eyes open in his own bed. He didn’t
even remember getting here, but even as that thought
filtered into his mind, he registered the warm arms still
wrapped around him. Lucas had stayed with him, and the
immense feeling of gratitude that rushed through him
nearly brought fresh tears. “I’m sorry.”
“Don’t you dare apologize.” Unbelievably, Jacob smiled
because Lucas sounded so fierce. “Would you like a cup of
tea?” Jacob nodded because that sounded really nice. “Do
you want it up here or downstairs?”
Jacob thought for a minute. “Can you give me five
minutes for a shower?”
“Of course,” Lucas said and tried to move. Jacob caught
his arm.
“Thank you. I don’t deserve you being so nice.”
Lucas stilled. “Yeah, you really do.” But before Jacob
could respond to that cryptic comment, he was gone.
Jacob got a shower, noting he must have slept for nearly
two hours, which amazed him further that Lucas had
stayed with him. His mind was still a whirl of emotions, but
with a certain thankfulness that they’d tackled the
playroom. It was true what he’d admitted to Lucas. Ben had
barely spent any time in there, and he’d kept it because it
was more a symbol than anything else. He finally went
downstairs, after satisfying himself he didn’t look too awful,
to smell bacon frying. “I didn’t even know we had bacon,”
Jacob said.
“We bought it when we went to the store,” Lucas said.
“Oh.” And now he felt stupid.
“Would you like it in a sandwich or with the works?”
“The works?” Jacob repeated, suddenly hungry.
“Egg, toast. Potatoes. Hash browns, but they’re frozen.
There’s even some biscuits?”
Jacob nodded eagerly. “What can I do?” Lucas pointed to
the table, so Jacob got everything out.
“I was thinking of maybe vegging out and watching a
movie,” Jacob said cautiously as they ate. He couldn’t bear
any more house emptying. Not today. He was still raw.
Lucas nodded and swallowed.
“Can I ask something?”
Lucas looked nervous, and Jacob nodded. “Of course.”
“While I was getting the cleaning things, I noticed some
decorations in the garage and a tree I think. I just
wondered if you wanted them up?” He shrugged. “Dumb
question, I guess. You might not be here for Christmas.”
But Lucas would be, and just because he was a grinch,
didn’t mean he had to inflict that on Lucas. “You can put up
whatever you like. I’ll help you though. The tree’s way too
big to manage on your own.”
“Really?” Lucas’s face lit up, and Jacob couldn’t help the
indulgent smile.
“Something tells me you take the holiday season
seriously?”
Lucas flushed, but he nodded, and Jacob filed that
thought away for later. They watched a couple of movies
and generally didn’t do much of anything for the rest of the
day. Lucas had made a quick pasta for supper which Jacob
ate way too much of, and he found the nearer it got to
Lucas going out, the less Jacob wanted him to. He could
have quite easily watched another movie, but when Lucas
disappeared for a shower, after a moment, Jacob decided to
do the same.
He might just go in the club for a few minutes and check
out this Gabriel guy.
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CHAPTER NINE
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CHAPTER TEN
I AM in so much trouble.
Jacob had to remember that whatever hang-ups he had,
none of them were Lucas’s fault in any way, and it had
taken Lucas nearly safe wording to get him to realize that.
He was the Daddy in this relationship, however temporary,
and that meant he was responsible for every bit of Lucas.
He was amazed the boy hadn’t gone running to Gabriel,
Jacob had treated him so poorly. Lucas had even abandoned
putting his name after the word “Daddy,” and Jacob didn’t
have the heart to correct him. He’d never expected to hear
that word from another person’s lips, and he wasn’t sure
how he felt about it… No, if he was honest, he knew. He’d
enjoyed it. It hadn’t hurt as much as it probably should
have done, and that could easily have sent him spinning
down a guilt spiral, but it hadn’t. Because Lucas was the
important person here, not him. He needed to step up and
be the Daddy he knew he could be for four weeks to make
sure Lucas knew if he wanted a long-term relationship. It
might not be for him.
Jacob nearly laughed. Lucas was so obviously wanting
his own Daddy he might have a sticker blazoned across his
forehead. Maybe Patrick would know some other
candidates? Maybe Adrian would? He wasn’t sure about
Gabriel though. There was just something about him Jacob
didn’t like he couldn’t put his finger on. He’d sooner trust
Patrick to find him someone, but what if that hadn’t
happened before Jacob left?
A sliver of something snaked up Jacob’s spine. He didn’t
like the idea of just going and leaving Lucas without
anyone to watch out for him. He didn’t like that at all.
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CHAPTER ELEVEN
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CHAPTER THIRTEEN
IT DIDN’T TAKE Lucas any time to clean and tidy the office.
There was a small desktop that looked quite ancient, a
printer, a desk, and single office chair. He even gave the
baseboards a wipe with a damp cloth, then opened what he
assumed to be a closet door. It wasn’t huge, but it did mean
the Realtor could sell this as a bedroom which meant four.
A popular size for families. There was another box on the
floor, and Lucas pondered opening it. Maybe he should ask
in case it was private, but as he dragged it forward, a
bulletin board that had been propped up behind it fell
forward.
One of the standard type you would probably have over
a desk. Lucas reached over and picked it up, then stilled. It
was covered in photographs, and it wasn’t hard to guess
who the laughing blond-haired, blue-eyed man was,
especially when he noticed the one of Jacob cuddling him
and them both tipping their heads toward each other as if
they were just about to kiss.
“I forgot those were there.” Lucas jumped at Jacob’s
voice and nearly dropped the board. Jacob smiled and took
it from Lucas’s hand.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to snoop.” Would Jacob lose his
temper again?
Jacob shrugged. “Of course not. I hadn’t realized it was
still up here. I don’t know what to do with it,” he admitted,
and Lucas thought he understood. Jacob was clearly
wanting to move on, but doing that didn’t mean erasing all
memories of Ben. Lucas was no therapist, but he didn’t
think it sounded healthy.
“How about you choose some of your favorites and I can
make them up into one big frame for you to hang when you
get to your new home?”
Jacob gazed at Lucas in astonishment. “You don’t
mind?”
How could Lucas mind? Even if they were staying
together—which they weren’t—he would never try and
pretend Ben hadn’t existed. “It would be my pleasure.”
Jacob glanced from the photos back to Lucas and
reached out and cupped Lucas’s face. Lucas stilled, barely
breathing. “You are a kind man.” He grazed the side of
Lucas’s cheek with his thumb, and for a crazy intense
moment Lucas thought Jacob was going to kiss him on the
lips, but Jacob let his hand drop, and Lucas tried
desperately to keep the crushing disappointment hidden.
“That one’s my favorite.” Lucas looked in surprise as he
hadn’t picked the one of them about to kiss, but the one of
Ben looking up at something and laughing. “The others are
copies I can always access if I want to.” He bent and
opened the box, rummaging around. “All this can be
dumped as well. It’s years old.”
Lucas nodded.
“I’m clearing some of the boxes downstairs.” And he
hefted the box up and took it with him.
Lucas finished the office, hallway, and the staircase, and
by the time it was nearly five, he was tired, sticky, and
getting hungry. Jacob was already upstairs and had gone
into his own bedroom a few minutes ago, so taking one
more glance at the time on his phone, Lucas headed for
there, brightening as he heard the sound of the bath filling.
A bath sounded wonderful.
Jacob came out of the bathroom and smiled in that sexy
lazy way he had when the corners of his lips tipped up just
a little, so you just had to look at them. Lucas dragged his
eyes away before his imagination ran away from him.
“I know your two days as a little got screwed over by me
this morning, but I’d like to get back there starting now.”
He nodded to the bed. “Let’s check your shave first and
make sure you’re not sore.”
Lucas felt the heat climb his face even though he wasn’t
complaining, but Jacob was gentle and attentive and even
had warm hands. “I think you will only need to shave
maybe once a week, or even once every two. We’ll have to
see. I don’t want to make you sore.” Jacob looked up
innocently. “Maybe applying the balm regularly will help.”
Lucas’s face must have been scarlet by this time, but he
noted the teasing twinkle in Jacob’s eyes and his insides
warmed. “Come on, let’s get you in the bathroom.” He
turned and picked up a robe from the chair that Lucas
hadn’t noticed. “Blue is my favorite color on you.”
Lucas swallowed past the sudden lump in his throat and
let Jacob wrap him up. It even had a little teddy bear motif
on each pocket and a snuggly hood that would keep him
really warm. He definitely hadn’t bought it this morning at
the store.
“I had some packages delivered this afternoon,” Jacob
explained without being asked. Packages? Plural? Did that
mean some more things for Lucas when he’d spent so much
at the store? Lucas chewed his lip, and Jacob saw him.
He tapped Lucas on the end of his nose and shook his
head. “It’s my job to worry about what I’m spending my
money on, not yours.”
Lucas took a breath and nodded. There was nothing he
could do. Jacob steered him to the bathroom stool and sat
him down. He lifted Lucas’s chin with a finger and tilted it
slightly. “I have some new blades I can swap out for mine,
so we can use that for the moment.”
Lucas was in a daze as Jacob very gently, tenderly
almost, warmed his chin with soaked washcloths and took
as much care over shaving him as he had that morning. He
was almost ready for a nap by the time Jacob was finished,
and Jacob’s low chuckle made his belly do somersaulty
things.
“Let’s get you in the bath so you can relax.” Jacob
guided Lucas over to a bath full of bubbles…and toys.
Actual bath toys. Lucas gaped at the ducks and the little
boats but sat down, the bubbles coming up to his chest. He
didn’t even remember having toys like this when he was
little, and he wasn’t sure what to make of it now. It seemed
churlish to ignore them, but…
Jacob chuckled. “They’re not compulsory, and I
understand how you might find them strange.” He smiled
again. “Don’t forget the whole point of this is to find out
what you like and don’t so you can be more aware of your
needs when you’re looking for a long-term Daddy. Littles
come in all shapes and sizes.” He tapped Lucas on the nose
again, then picked up a sponge and lathered it. “There’s no
right or wrong here, so quit worrying.”
So Lucas did. He eyed the ducks. They were quite cute,
but he didn’t have the urge to lose himself playing with
them, so he didn’t bother. The bath and Jacob, however,
was something else entirely.
It took zero time once he’d quit fretting for Lucas to get
hard. He whimpered embarrassingly loudly when Jacob
scraped the sponge over one of his nipples and was treated
to a kiss on his head. “I—Daddy—loves to hear your
noises.”
Lucas held his breath for a stunning moment while he
gazed helplessly into Jacob’s brown eyes. It was the first
time. The first time he had called himself Daddy without
adding his name to it. Lucas had forgotten a few times, but
Jacob had never referred to himself like that. Lucas looked
down. If he wasn’t careful, he would cry.
Jacob—Daddy—continued to tease him for another few
minutes, then rinsed him and helped Lucas stand. Lucas
was so hard he was past being embarrassed and nearly
shot when Daddy dried him.
“Daddy,” Lucas moaned pleadingly as Jacob led him to
the bed, but instead of getting him dressed, he made him
sit down and as Lucas watched, started stripping.
“I don’t want to get shaving balm on my clothes,” he
offered as an explanation, but Lucas didn’t care. Every
fresh patch of skin or lean muscle Jacob revealed dried
Lucas’s mouth a little more. He was stunning. Some would
say too lean, and Lucas resolved to make sure he ate
properly while he could. Then he brushed off the thought.
Anything that had a time limit attached would spoil what he
hoped would happen. Jacob didn’t take his boxers off
though, and Lucas tried not to be disappointed. He shuffled
over and waited as Jacob climbed in and smoothed a hand
over his chest, arching as he hit his nipples.
“Have you ever worn nipple clamps?”
Lucas’s breath hitched, and his cock throbbed
alarmingly. It was one of his fantasies, and the easiest way
of getting himself off was pinching them. “No,” he gasped
as Jacob trailed a finger around his areola.
“You like that idea though,” Jacob mused. “You would
look stunning in them.” He flicked his nipple casually, and
Lucas shuddered.
“Daddy, I can’t.”
The gleam in Jacob’s eyes told Lucas he knew exactly
what Lucas was having trouble with. “Because you’ve been
a good boy for Daddy, I won’t make you wait…this time,” he
added, and then Jacob leaned over and kissed the edge of
Lucas’s shaft. Lucas closed his eyes in complete wonder.
He’d expected—hoped—for another hand job, but this? This
was beyond anything. Daddy hummed after that first soft
touch, then licked and nibbled gently around Lucas’s cock,
getting more confident when Lucas groaned even more
loudly.
“Hmm,” Daddy said consideringly and then licked a path
from the root all the way to the tip. Lucas squeezed his
eyes shut and fisted the sheets, praying he could last a little
longer. Daddy fondled Lucas’s balls, cupping and rolling
them gently, and then he lifted and closed his mouth
around the tip.
“Daddy,” Lucas pleaded and lifted his head a little,
meeting the brown eyes that were staring up at him with
such heat in them, but then Daddy bent down and
swallowed around Lucas’s cock and he was coming. He
might have even cried out a little too loudly. Dazed, replete,
and not sure what was even happening, Daddy cleaned
Lucas up, then curled him into his arms and kissed the top
of his head. Lucas sighed. His body felt all floaty, and he
was in no hurry for the warm, strong arms holding him to
let go.
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CHAPTER FOURTEEN
THE NEXT DAY Jacob had some errands to run and some
thinking to do. The previous evening had been the best he
could remember having in a long time, and much as he
didn’t want to get carried away—because England
obviously—he was feeling better. At least not like his life
was some never-ending black pit. Lucas had given him a
list of things to pick up. He needed to chase up his visas,
and while he could enter the UK legally on what he had
now, it would only get him six months. As he was staying in
the US for a little longer than he had originally planned, he
might as well start the process.
Which reminded him, he still hadn’t emailed a
confirmation about the job. He couldn’t do anything until
he’d done that, and he sighed in frustration as he entered
the store. He wasn’t going to shoot off a casual email on his
phone while he was doing other things. This needed proper
wording.
He’d left Lucas with his laptop. Lucas had shyly asked if
he could use the old computer from upstairs that had been
an old relic from Ben’s mom, and it needed to be thrown
away. Lucas had been nervous with his laptop, but Jacob
had spent a few minutes making sure he was comfortable
before he left. He knew Lucas needed to think about his
future. Somewhere to work, somewhere to live, and
couldn’t help wishing he had something already sorted.
Jacob would certainly feel better.
Jacob stilled just as he was getting out of the car. I
would feel better. Would I? Would I really? He didn’t know.
He honestly didn’t know how he felt. Lucas was making
him question so many decisions. Painful memories that he
battled with every day were suddenly easing. Was this how
grief worked? It hadn’t got steadily better as everyone told
him. He hadn’t slept easier a little every night over the
years and woken up a little less lonely. He’d been stuck in
the same place for the last two years, and in the space of
ten days, he’d woken up to his world becoming a brighter
place. Was it the distraction of Lucas? Maybe focusing on
something else other than work was finally working, and he
was immensely glad if that was the case.
It still didn’t ease his mind over Lucas though. It was the
party tonight, and there would be a few Doms in the main
club that Adrian might want to introduce to Lucas. What if
that happened. Would Lucas want to stop what they were
doing? But if he’d wanted that, he would be with Gabriel.
The only reason that still made sense was Lucas genuinely
wanting to try the lifestyle out with someone safe so he
knew what he was getting into.
“Are you okay?”
Jacob focused on the lady who was just getting into her
car and was staring at him. He smiled and assured her he
was. He’d probably been standing there five minutes
looking crazy, and he hurried into the store.
He had a brief list of Secret Santa toys for all the littles.
Each Dom bought one toy and a spare, so every little would
have two presents to open supposedly from Santa. It was a
charming idea he’d never heard of before, and he picked up
the coloring book and pencils, and then the matching sippy
cup and plate emblazoned with characters from the latest
children’s book. He suddenly thought about what would
happen if Lucas got them. Would he drink juice from a
sippy cup? He still hadn’t worked out what kind of little or
age group he should be in, and it was hard.
Ben had been easy. When they’d met, he already had his
own collection of toys. He even slept with a pacifier.
Hidden, but it was there, and it had taken Ben a while to
trust Jacob with that knowledge. Lucas was different. He
didn’t have “a while,” and Lucas was nowhere closer to
working out what his needs were now than he had been
when they met.
Or was he? He knew he liked soft things, cuddles,
caring, but he didn’t know much else. Jacob turned
direction a little and went to the children’s department. He
could browse for ideas for something to get him for
Christmas.
Jacob was home in under two hours with the things on
Lucas’s list plus his own. He’d spent a frustrating thirty
minutes looking at toys, but he had no idea if Lucas would
like any of them, so he left. He needed to pay attention
tonight and gauge Lucas’s reactions.
Lucas met him at the door with a big smile and hurried
to help him with the food he had bought. “Was it really
busy?”
“Not too bad.” And before Jacob thought about it, he
bent and dropped a kiss on Lucas’s head. Lucas stilled.
They had been very intimate during sex, and Jacob had
kissed him like that a few times over the last few days, but
never as a greeting before.
“What did you find out?” Jacob nodded to the laptop as
Lucas put a mug of coffee in front of him a few minutes
later as he sat at the kitchen table.
Lucas followed his gaze to the computer. “I don’t want to
go back to school.”
“You don’t?” Jacob was surprised, but then, Lucas was
thirty soon, so maybe he shouldn’t be.
Lucas shook his head. “The problem is my zero work
experience. Even if I can get good character references, I
haven’t exactly been a full-time employee of the club to
warrant that either, and while I’m pretty sure I could get a
job, getting one that will pay me enough to find a place to
live with zero savings for a down payment is hard. Most
want first and last month.”
Jacob took a sip of his coffee, his mind whirling with
possibilities. “What else did you like to do at school? If you
hadn’t gone into nursing, I mean, did you have a second
favorite?”
Lucas fiddled with his coffee cup, and Jacob waited
patiently. “I liked to write stories,” he admitted. “I don’t
know if I was any good, and at eighteen I couldn’t suddenly
declare myself an author and quit school.”
“Really?” Of everything, he hadn’t expected that. “What
sort of stories?” Lucas reddened. “Romances?” He
hazarded. “Fantasy?” Lucas had said he liked to read it.
Lucas reddened further, then dramatically buried his
head in his hand. “You’re never going to believe me.”
Without even thinking, simply reacting, Jacob leaned over
and picked Lucas up, settling him on his lap and tucking
him close.
“Try me.”
He wasn’t sure which one of them was more shocked,
but his automatic reaction seeing Lucas needed a
confidence boost felt right. Lucas turned a little and buried
his head in Jacob’s neck. Jacob tightened his arms and
kissed his hair. “You can tell me.” His mind whirred with a
million possibilities,
“Children’s stories,” Lucas mumbled, and Jacob grinned.
It was perfect.
“Do you have any?”
“That I wrote?” Lucas asked in surprise and lifted his
head. Jacob nodded. Lucas chewed his lip, and Jacob very
deliberately used his finger to free it.
“You’re going to make it sore,” he admonished.
“I have some on my old emails that I sent Mom. I used to
make them up when I was away at college and send her
them.”
“And did you ever show anyone else?”
He shook his head.
Jacob thought hard. Who did he know that could take a
look and tell him if they were any good? “Why don’t you dig
out your favorite and go through it? You might find your
writing is different now and you want to make changes.”
“And then what?” Lucas asked, a puzzled look on his
face.
Jacob tapped him on the end of his nose. “Then we see if
we can get some advice on what to do with them. I don’t
doubt they’re good.”
Lucas snorted. “They could be terrible.”
“No,” Jacob said with confidence. “I don’t think they will
be, and what’s the worst that could happen if you show
them to someone?”
Lucas swallowed, nervously his eyes going wide.
“Or, what’s the worse that could happen if I show them
to someone and leave your name out of it?”
Lucas’s panicked look eased. “Are you sure?”
“Absolutely.” Jacob glanced at the kitchen clock. “Now,
I’m starving. Let’s eat.”
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CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
LUCAS PUT the phone down and tried really hard not to cry.
It was Christmas Eve. Jacob had just left to go run some
errands. Although Lucas thought he was crazy going out
anywhere today, Jacob had admitted he had his second
therapist appointment, so Lucas had let him go with a
proper goodbye. Lucas had pressed really close to kiss him,
and Jacob had groaned and kissed him breathless,
promising he would be back soon.
It had been a perfect week. Jacob had been wonderful
and attentive. Lucas had worked two nights this week at
the club, and Jacob had insisted on giving him a ride both
times and waiting while he worked.
Lucas groaned and buried his head in his hands. He’d
hoped. He’d been so certain Jacob was going to change his
mind. Nothing had been mentioned about England, and
stupidly he’d started hoping he was staying until he’d
gotten the phone call that had told him he was wasting his
time.
It had been the Realtors. A phone call from Mr. Lawson’s
assistant confirming the appointment Jacob had made for
Monday morning to appraise the house. Lucas wiped his
eyes because he couldn’t seem to make them stop leaking
and called himself every kind of fool, but it hurt so damn
much.
He’d gone and got himself into a mess with Jacob. A big
mess. A giant humongous rip-your-heart-out one. He was in
love with his big stubborn, gorgeous Daddy, and in another
few days, two weeks at the absolute maximum if he was
lucky, Jacob would be gone and Lucas would never see him
again.
He didn’t know how he was going to survive. Jacob knew
all his secrets, hadn’t laughed or made fun of him, but
helped him work things out. There were even three
packages on the kitchen floor unopened, and Lucas was
pretty sure they were for him. The deliveries had all been
badly delayed with the holiday rush, but they were here,
and Lucas was so tempted to peek.
He eyed the three boxes of trimmings he’d pulled in out
of the garage as well. Daddy had said he couldn’t reach
anything without a stool, and he might get hurt, so he had
to wait until Daddy could help. But he hadn’t suggested
decorating all week, and today was Lucas’s last chance.
Lucas was screwed all round and had no idea what to
do. Part of him wanted to say to hell with it and do what he
liked, and part of him wanted to run away. Not that he had
anywhere to go. He’d found out from their old neighbor
when the toys from Ben’s playroom had been collected that
Terry had the house up for sale. Apparently, he was in
trouble financially and would be lucky if the house covered
all his debts. He didn’t know how Mrs. Jamison knew
everything, including the house was being sold fully
furnished, but she had been delighted to see Lucas and
eagerly told him all the news.
And he’d been selfishly glad. It might be the season of
goodwill, but Terry was finally getting what was coming to
him, and Lucas couldn’t wish it on a more deserving
person. Jacob had chuckled when he told him and said he
hoped he never upset Lucas.
He’s going to though.
Lucas looked again at the boxes of holiday decorations.
In his head he dreamed of Jacob and Lucas doing it
together. Then they would have the yummy dinner he had
in the Crock-Pot, and then they would finish off with spiked
hot chocolate and movies.
Or even better, Lucas could try on what he was sure was
in one of the boxes. But what was the point? Jacob wouldn’t
have called the Realtor unless his decision had been made,
but then the message didn’t say how long ago the
appointment had been arranged. It was usual for people to
confirm nearer the time. It could easily mean Jacob had
made the appointment a few weeks ago but had delayed it
so they could get the house ready.
Lucas chewed the inside of his cheek and stopped
crying. Maybe he had another chance? Maybe this was in
fact his last chance? Maybe he should say to hell with
everything and have the best Christmas Eve of his life?
Lucas pulled on his lip in indecision, then decided he
would make the house sparkle before Daddy came home.
He could drag in one of the kitchen chairs. Vertically
challenged, he’d been managing a very long time, and if
Daddy wasn’t here, then it was Daddy’s own fault.
Determined, he carried all the boxes into the living room
and unpacked everything.
The tree was beautiful itself. It was green with white-
tipped frosting on the ends of the branches made to look
like snow and had lights already attached which worked
perfectly. Lucas went up and down the kitchen chair like a
little monkey and worked furiously to get everything ready.
He found a small lantern set with tea lights that he
arranged above the fireplace, and when he’d finished, he
checked the time and saw it was already past two o’clock
and he was surprised Daddy had been gone that long. He
wasn’t complaining though because it had given him the
time he needed. The third box looked like it had been
dropped at some point because there were some broken
ornaments in there, so he’d taken it back to the garage. He
stood looking at the tree, wishing he had something for the
top, a star, or…a fairy. Immediately knowing exactly what
he could put up there, Lucas raced upstairs and grabbed it
from where it was buried in with his socks. Then he
stopped and walked into the bathroom. He was dusty and
could really do with a shower.
Grinning, Lucas took a very fast shower, being very
thorough in certain special places to make sure he was
clean for when Jacob got home, then opened the drawer
with some of his new clothes in and fingered the pair of
purple panties. Lucas smiled as he pulled them on.
Presents went under the Christmas tree, and Jacob wasn’t
going to need to unwrap this one.
Lucas glanced at the time on his phone and smiled at
the text from Jacob saying he would be home by three at
the latest. Lucas sent him a reply and added a little heart
emoji.
He walked downstairs, imagining the look on Jacob’s
face when he saw Lucas dressed in nothing but purple silk,
and climbed on the kitchen chair one last time so he could
reach out to fasten the fairy on top of the tree.
“What the hell are you doing?”
Lucas jumped at Jacob’s bellow, and his foot slipped. For
a breathless second, Lucas seemed to hang from the back
of the chair, but then it tipped and Lucas slid, knowing he
was going to fall, and knowing there was absolutely
nothing he could do to stop it happening.
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ABOUT VICTORIA SUE
Victoria Sue fell in love with love stories as a child when she would hide away
with her mom’s library books and dream of the dashing hero coming to rescue
her from math homework. She never mastered math but never stopped loving
her heroes and decided to give them the happy ever afters they fight so hard
for.
She loves reading and writing about gorgeous boys loving each other the
best—and creating a family for them to adore. Thrilled to hear from her
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The Hunter's Creek novels will draw you in with action and keep you hooked
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