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LADY Gaga broke down in tears as she revealed she got pregnant after being raped by a music producer.
The award-winning singer, 35, opened up about the horrifying ordeal on Oprah Winfrey and Prince Harry's show The Me You Can't See.
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She explained: “I was 19 years old, and I was working in the business, and a producer said to me, ‘Take your clothes off. And I said no. And I left, and they told me they were going to burn all of my music. And they didn’t stop. They didn’t stop asking me, and I just froze and I—I don’t even remember."
The star, real name Stefani Germanotta, has spoken of the abuse before and said it left her suffering from post traumatic stress disorder.
She has never mentioned the producer's name in a bid to avoid seeing him again.
Recalling how traumatic memories were triggered during a hospital visit when she was seen by a psychiatrist, she said: “First I felt full-on pain, then I went numb. And then I was sick for weeks and weeks and weeks and weeks after, and I realised that it was the same pain that I felt when the person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on a corner.
"At my parents’ house because I was vomiting and sick. Because I’d been being abused. I was locked away in a studio for months.”
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While her career reached an all time high with her Oscar win in 2019 for A Star is Born, behind the scenes she was going through a “psychotic break”.
She said: “I had a total psychotic break, and for a couple years, I was not the same girl. The way that I feel when I feel pain was how I felt after I was raped. I’ve had so many MRIs and scans where they don’t find nothing. But your body remembers.”
The Apple TV+ docuseries features celebrities, and Prince Harry himself, discussing their battles with mental health.
Gaga previously said she kept the attack to herself for seven years.
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She said: "I didn't know how to even think about it, I didn't know how to accept it, I didn't know how to not blame myself or think it was my fault. It was something that really changed my life. It changed who I was completely.
"It changed my body, it changed thoughts."
She explained how she thought the sexual assault was her fault and why she hid it: "After it happened, I'm like 'But what did I do in my life to bring
this upon myself?' There was some sort of maybe religious guilt attached to
it that I had somehow inspired the violence.
"Because of the way that I dress, and the way that I'm provocative as a
person, I thought that I had brought it on myself in some way - that it was
my fault."
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