Living Half Free
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When Zachariah, a naïve mulatto slave, is sold to a Kentucky slave trader, and separated from his ma and sister, he realizes the true meaning of not having rights. Singled out for abuse by his new master’s sadistic son, he dreams of only one thing: escape. He thinks he’s found it when he falls in love with a Cherokee woman from a powerful family, under whose direction he learns to pass as white. But it’s not long before he discovers that freedom that’s based on a lie will only get him so far. While struggling to find his place in the world, he also wrestles within his heart to realize his faith. This faith is tested when his slave past catches up with him, and threatens everyone he cares for. He must decide whether slavery is the price he’s willing to pay for his family’s freedom.
Haley Whitehall
Haley was telling stories before she could write. When she was four, she woke her parents up to write down her burning ideas. Growing up on John Wayne movies and the Little House on the Prairie books, she has always loved historical fiction. For ten years Haley developed her writing craft and voice by studying authors such as Avi, Ann Rinaldi, and Mark Twain to name a few. She received her B.A in history through Central Washington University. During all her research, her soul was pulled deeper in the 19th century U.S. Using her words to transport people back in time continues to give her a thrill. Sometimes she wishes she could escape the present and float down the Mississippi River on a raft. But then again, just writing another historical fiction novel is a much safer journey. You can visit her at HaleyWhitehall.com
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5I have just finished reading Living Half Free by Haley Whitehall. I was taken back in time to the the dreadful days of slavery. I felt mixed emotions reading this book. I felt anger, terror, and dread, as I read of the sadistic abuse. I cried, and rejoiced,along with Zachariah as he struggles along. Was extremely happy for him when he found love with the Cherokee woman, Lillian. Haley Whitehall has done an excellent job of bringing this story to life.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Living Half Free is a powerful book that puts you face-to-face with the Civil War era by experiencing slavery through the eyes of Zachariah. Just like any man he has hopes and dreams for a better future, but as a slave he never believed he would see them. When he meets a Cherokee woman fighting for her own freedom within her reservation he finally has hope of his dreams coming true, but will his past ever truly let him go?This book is historically accurate to the social relationships of the time and contains racial slurs and violence.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5One of my favourite books of all time is The Book of Negroes by Lawrence Hill, and when I received a free copy of Living Half Free, I anticipated being disappointed given that this is Haley Whitehall's first book, and I assumed that it would pale in comparison. I was sorely wrong. This book captivated me right from the start and I simply couldn't put it down. The story of Zachariah, a slave in the 1800's, is heart-wrenching and filled with rich details of the struggles and atrocities that slaves were subjected to. But it also demonstrates that among the brutal masters, there were some who showed kindness and fairness, which gave an interesting perspective to the story. All in all, this was an extremely well-written book with realistic dialogue and well-developed characters. My only complaint is that it was a bit short - I could have read on for another hundred pages or so, perhaps learning more about Ma and Rachel or about the other slaves in Zachariah's life. But that being said, I would highly recommend this book.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I received this book in exchange for a review. This was a difficult book to read. The honesty of how slaves were treated is shattering. To think that human beings were treated that way is horrific. Zachariah is a good character who does his best what is for the most part a bad situation. The book is well written and thought provoking. This should be assigned reading for high school American history students
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5An intriguing story, and a great read. I was really captivated by Zachariah's story, it really keeps you reading.One thing I really liked about the book is that it tells of slavery, but also tells of native Americans in the early reservations. I really didn't know much about the ideas of native Americans on slavery, so I found it very interesting to read about this. The novel is very descriptive, and really brings the characters and the era to life. Though I do wonder if the story could actually have occured, it is quite convincing.It really leaves you with something to think about. The situation of a slave who is white, but treated as black makes you wonder about what the colour of skin really means, and the fact that Zachary is respected as long as nobody knows his descent shows how strange it really is that people judge others purely based on race. Zacharies thoughts on slavery really show how important freedom is, even if your 'master' treats you well.A very enjoyable read, and I'm looking forward to reading more of Whitehall's work
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5I have just finished reading Living Half Free by Haley Whitehall. I was taken back in time to the the dreadful days of slavery. I felt mixed emotions reading this book. I felt anger, terror, and dread, as I read of the sadistic abuse. I cried, and rejoiced,along with Zachariah as he struggles along. Was extremely happy for him when he found love with the Cherokee woman, Lillian. Haley Whitehall has done an excellent job of bringing this story to life.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5If you’re offended by harsh racial epithets and violence, you might not want to read Living Half Free, a first novel by Haley Whitehall. Set in the South before, during, and after the Civil War, it tells the story of Zachariah, a very light skinned black who is held in slavery, and who is sold away from his family, and taken from Virginia into the deep South, where he faces harshness and bigotry worse than he’s ever encountered.Over time, he earns his freedom and meets a young Indian woman, Lillian, and the two fall in love. Able to pass himself off as white, he’s able to live with Lillian on the reservation, until the arrival of the sadistic son of his second master uncovers his identity. Zachariah then learns that prejudice runs just as deep among the Indians as the whites and is forced to accept being put back into slavery to save Lillian from the tribe’s harsh punishment. Lillian uses her wiles to free him once again, and the two of them flee to California where the prejudice is less.As you follow Zachariah through his life, beginning in Strasburg, Virginia in 1838, to San Francisco in 1867, you will be alternately moved and repulsed; moved at how his strong faith helps him survive the severest of conditions, and repulsed at the depths of depravity to which some people can sink in their treatment of others.This is a great story, only a bit in parts by what is difficult for even the most experienced writers – dialect that sometimes doesn’t ring quite true. Dialect, when written, depends on the reader’s pronunciation to be rendered, and having grown up in the South in the 50s and 60s, when some people still spoke much like they did during the 19th century, as well as being a writer and teacher of English, I found some of the words and sentences a bit difficult to comprehend, and not like I recall old people of my childhood talking. The author can be forgiven, though; this is one of the most difficult skills to master, and some of us never truly get it. Once you get past these few glitches, though, you’ll find this a good read, for a first timer who I predict will get better with time.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5This is a free book from Library Thing in exchange for reading and reviewing it. Today, not that many people really think about slavery, though it is a vital part of our history. In this book, the reader follows the life of Zachariah, a slave. He lives in both worlds: his own and that of the “free” man. He ultimately falls in love with a Cherokee woman as the reader watches how their lives evolve across the book. The book underscores just how tough their lives were, something I had never spent time mulling over. Though the author gives the book authenticity through episodes and dialogue, some of the descriptions of the locales left me hungering for more, though that would have added to the length of the story (I think it was about right). Zachariah is a character who is generous throughout the book, but he makes no effort to change his situation until forced to do so. Towards the end, I began t more fully understand what they were going through, as their stories played out, and I began to understand and appreciate them. I have not read very many books or seen many films on slavery, but this book left me with a fuller understanding and appreciation of just what a slave went through daily and I could better understand the institution and its pitfalls. I think the author definitely researched the book well and translated the results of the research well. I recommend people read it, if they are interested in reading an interesting story that provides both an education and enjoyment.
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Living Half Free - Haley Whitehall
Haley Whitehall
Copyright Haley Whitehall 2012
Published by Expanding Horizons Press at Smashwords
Cover Art Copyright Bill Pilgrim 2012
This is a work of fiction. The characters, incidents, and dialogue are products of the author’s imagination and are not to be construed as real. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, is entire coincidental.
Dedication
Dedicated to my parents:
Pete and Patti Whitehall
For their belief, support, and love
Author’s Note
Great care was taken to write a historically accurate novel set in the antebellum South. Language that was acceptable during that era was used to convey attitudes of that time. If you think you may be offended by these words, please do not read.
Table of Contents
Title Page
Author’s Note
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Epilogue
Acknowledgements
About the Author
Contact
Sneak Peek
Copyright
Chapter 1
Strasburg, Virginia
July 13, 1838
ZACHARIAH LAID IN the grass behind the restaurant, his flesh quivering. A copper-haired man stood over him, cowhide whip in hand.
Zachariah wished he could have been staked down or tied from a tree like a normal nigger. Master Norton got delight at watching his slaves jump every time the strap hit.
You know better than to spill a tray. And in a customer’s lap, no less,
Master Norton said, low and harsh.
Yes, Massa,
Zachariah choked out.
The whip dug sharply into his back. Do Massa,
he moaned over and over and over. His muscles spasmed in jerky motions.
Jump rope, nigger,
Norton said, plying the whip over Zachariah’s shoulders. With a steady hand, he raised the cowhide, generated strength and then the lash descended upon Zachariah’s shuddering flesh.
The whip raised large welts and cut the skin, forcing warm blood to trickle down Zachariah’s back, dyeing the grass with red dew. Salty tears blurred his vision, and burned his dry, flushed cheeks. His hands clawed the dirt, grasping for something to hold onto, something to hold back the pain.
Finally, Norton stopped. Get up and fetch firewood to keep the stove hot,
he said in a rugged rumble. I will have Rachel clean up your mess.
Yes, Massa.
Zachariah chewed the inside of his cheek to keep from voicing pain. He picked up his white shirt and black frock coat with frayed elbows but did not put them on. He didn’t dare stain his restaurant attire. He set them on a boulder.
The ax stuck in the stump in the middle of the lawn stared at him. Bending over, thrusting the ax into wood, brought agony. Pain shot from his shoulders all the way down to his waist. His fresh welts burned as if smoldering coals were pressed to his skin. He bit his tongue to keep from shouting with each swing. Self-respecting slaves endured pain silently. He had made enough noise already—more than a woman, Ma would say.
Zachariah examined his pale arms as he had done countless times before. His skin was called yellow, though it looked white to him. Most of his flesh wasn’t even tan; just his hands, neck and face, since they were exposed to the sun when he worked outside.
Damn my skin,
he muttered. Wish I’s all black, black as boot polish.
None of Master Norton’s slaves mentioned it, but he knew he was an oddity. How many slaves had yellow skin, golden hair and blue eyes? The fact his hair was waved meant nothing to him. To everyone else it was the only sign of his negro blood.
When he’d finished with the required armload, Ma walked out to him carrying a small jar, her jaw firmly set, fire in her normally kind gray eyes. Without a word, she cleaned and dressed his wounds.
Zachariah grimaced and pulled forward. Her hand followed him, tracing every cut on his back, sealing in the permanent shame and humiliation which would last till his death.
He wanted her touch, but hers was the touch of a nurse, not a caring mother.
Massa doan like me,
Zachariah said.
Massa doan care ’bout you none atall,
Ma said, clear, sharp. You’s a nigger. God made you to serve white people.
I is a white person,
he whispered, insistent.
No you ain’t. You’s imitation white. You got de curse of Ham in you.
Zachariah’s ears burned and the fiery sensation spread down his neck. There was no way to get rid of the curse of Ham. That’s what Preacher Simon said.
You should feel blessed you’s indoors most de time an working for a good Christian massa.
Just cause Massa lets you go to de colored church you think he’s powerful nice.
Ma boxed his right ear.
Dat’s right. In some ways you’s a man, Zachariah, but in so many others, you’s still a boy. You’s fifteen years old and dat’s de first severe whipping you’s ever got. We doan huv to be up at de crack of dawn to work in de fields wid an overseer standing over us. We get beans wid our meals. You know how lucky we is to get beans?
Zachariah nodded, to keep from getting his ears boxed. He didn’t feel lucky. He felt like the dregs in a cup of black coffee.
* * *
The next day, Zachariah returned to serving customers. Walking into the restaurant, he felt the prickle of self-consciousness. His backside, sore from his whipping, made his gait awkward stiff. He knew everyone would notice his ungainly tread and realize the reason for it. He walked to the first occupied table. A middle-aged man and a younger one with hostile eyes watched each step as he approached.
Took you long enough,
the younger man said. I am hungry.
Sorry, suh. We just open. What would you like to order?
A fried pork chop, two fried eggs and a biscuit with butter, not gravy,
the man said.
And you?
The older man smiled. The same.
Would you like coffee, suh?
Both men nodded.
Zachariah returned to the kitchen. He walked over to the corner and batted his little sister’s braids.
Rachel scowled, gripping her sewing sampler. Stop dat.
Zachariah allowed himself a gentle laugh. You huv it easy. All you huv to do is practice yo’ sewing and fetch water.
Rachel shrugged and heaved a loud sigh. She stared longingly out the small window. I’s rather be playing outside.
Ma stepped back from the stove and boxed Zachariah’s right ear. Keep focused on yo’ work. What did dey order?
Zachariah’s mouth parted. Both of dem wanted a pork chop, two eggs and a biscuit with butter, and coffee,
he said, trying to massage the ringing out of his ear.
Ma cracked two brown eggs into a frying pan and turned the pork chops, already cooking, in another.
Once the food was cooked, Zachariah carried out their plates and then waited on the elderly couple finding their seats.
Zachariah returned to the kitchen, told Ma the orders, and quickly downed a cup of coffee. He gulped it so fast he barely tasted it, though a lingering bitterness stayed in his mouth. Ma said they were lucky to be given coffee. Since it was a privilege, he had to accept it.
The yeasty biscuits, spicy white gravy and greasy pork tempted him to steal a bite. He didn’t. At eleven o’clock, Ma would have hot cornbread for all of Norton’s slaves. It wasn’t fair. Zachariah covered his mouth to hold in the complaints. Thinking like that caused trouble.
Later, Zachariah crowded into the kitchen with Rachel, Ma, Michael, the other waiter, and Ellen, Master Norton’s maid. Ma handed each of them an iron spoon and tin plate, with the usual brick of cornbread and beans. They stood and ate. The only place to sit in the kitchen was Rachel’s stool and out of respect for the others she never used it for meals.
Zachariah sighed. Some day they’d have a table and chairs, even if he had to make them himself. Even twenty minutes off his feet would be a blessing.
Michael and Ellen carried on a conversation in low voices. The walls always had ears, Ma often said, reminding Zachariah and Rachel to watch their tongues. Slaves rarely had privacy and a stray word overheard by a customer or a passerby could cause a heap of trouble.
Zachariah hated to eat in silence. He wanted to add to the conversation. Should he tell them the dream he had had the night before—the very strange dream? A giant eagle had picked him up by his arms and carried him to a strange land where most of the people were a reddish color.
The most beautiful woman he had ever seen, with piercing green eyes, welcomed him. She dressed like the rich ladies who came to the restaurant in a long gown with a sloping neckline that showed off her shoulders. With one finger, she beckoned him to come nearer. He took a step forward. Instant attraction pulled him closer. Soon he was in her arms kissing her lips and cheeks and neck.
Zachariah touched his tongue to his bottom lip. He’d better keep the pleasant thought to himself. They’d probably scoff at his secret desires.
Zachariah rested his cheek in the palm of his hand and watched Rachel. She looked younger than nine in her blue-and-white-checkered, Osnaburg dress, her dark brown pigtails slightly lopsided. Disregarding manners, she devoured her beans.
I’s sick of cornbread,
Rachel complained.
Ma reached down and took it off her plate. Den you doan huv to eat it,
she said.
Rachel’s bottom lip stuck out and quivered. Zachariah wanted to give her his cornbread, but if he did, she would not learn her lesson. Instead, he put a caring hand on his sister’s shoulder.
* * *
Zachariah,
Master Norton called loudly.
Zachariah set down his empty plate and headed into the restaurant. His master was talking to the middle-aged man he had waited on first that morning. Zachariah’s forehead wrinkled and he cocked his head to the left. Why would he be back so soon? He couldn’t be hungry.
Yes, Massa?
Zachariah asked, standing a step behind him.
Norton opened his mouth but no words came. I need money,
he said at last. I’ve sold you to Alexander Galloway.
Zachariah’s eyes shifted from Galloway to Norton. Sold me? Did you sell my ma and sistah too?
Norton shook his head. I would not do it if I didn’t need the money, Zachariah.
Zachariah lowered his gaze. I understand,
he mumbled. His new master, a slender man with a neatly trimmed beard and mustache, had a revolver bulging in the gun belt around his waist. Zachariah repeatedly licked his lips. Norton never carried a gun. He hoped Galloway never used it.
Do my ma know?
Zachariah asked.
Norton looked away sheepishly, his face flushed. No. I figured you could tell her.
Galloway waved at Zachariah. Go on and do it, boy. I don’t have all day.
Yessuh.
What did he want?
Ma asked, as soon as Zachariah entered the kitchen.
Zachariah didn’t say a word. Tears flooded his eyes, rolled down his cheeks, dripped off his chin.
Ma set down her spoon. She touched his shoulder lightly. What did he say?
He done sell me to one of the customers.
His announcement cracked in the air with the snap of an angry whip. Stunned, Ma gasped and blinked. Rachel started bawling, worrying the sleeve of her dress between her fingers. Ellen reached out and gripped Michael’s hand. They’d all been together as a makeshift family since Rachel was born.
Doan you cry now,
Ma said. You growed, Zachariah. Growed men doan cry. Self-pity ain’t goin’ to get you nowheres. De good Lawd say it’s time for us to be split up, we’s goin’ to be split up.
Yes’m.
Ma had faith in the Lord stronger than anyone he knew.
You do what you’s told and do it politely,
Ma continued.
I’s be a good boy,
Zachariah promised.
Ma boxed his right ear. You’s be a good man,
Ma corrected. You’s a man now, Zachariah. You remember dat. You might got to put in a man’s day’s work. You can do it now. You’s got muscles in dose arms.
I work hard,
he said, trying to massage the ringing out of his ear.
He always hated how cold his ma could be, though he had to admire her strength. She was always hard on him and Rachel. Often, a smile or a touch on the shoulder was all the affection that either of them received. After this terrible surprise, he needed love. He longed to hear that she cared for him.
I’s a good waiter. I—
Not no more you ain’t,
Ma interrupted. You goin’ to do what yo’ new massa tells you to. You might be planting tobacco or picking cotton.
Zachariah swallowed fighting a surge of nausea. Oh,
he whispered.
Rachel ran over and gave him a tight hug, squeezing his ribs.
Zachariah grimaced. He endured the loving pain and caressed her head. You’s not goin’ to forget yo’ bruddah, is you, Rach?
No, I ain’t goin’ to forget you,
she said, resting her head against his chest.
Some day, I’s goin’ to come lookin’ for you,
Zachariah promised.
He thought about the glass jar buried in the ground under Ma’s blanket in their cabin. Ma worked every Sunday washing clothes and moonlighted at night at times to earn money for the family. To earn money to get them all free. Despite its intended purpose, most of the time it went to an extra blanket or something. Easing their suffering seemed best. Freedom cost so much money it was impossible to figure.
Trying to forget the present, Zachariah gazed at the wall. He fingered her oily, dark brown hair.
His eyes flicked back to Ma. Grim lines on either side of her mouth exposed a woman for whom smiling was rare. I’s a man now and a man ought to know dis. Ma, will you finally tell me something?
The corners of Ma’s mouth stretched up ever so slightly, the effort making her shoulders hunch. Her gray eyes remained sad but sincere. If I can.
Who’s my pa?
Her cheeks turned fiery red.
Is it Massa Norton?
No,
Ma said. After a long moment of silence, she looked him in the eye. Yo’ pa is po’ white trash. Yo’ pa is de dirt under Massa Norton’s feet. You needn’t know a darn thing ’bout yo’ pa.
Zachariah hung his head, disappointed. He had always wanted to know his pa; to have a father, be part of his family.
Ma’s voice cracked as she spoke, When you gets lonesome, you just look at de night sky. De same stars dat’s above you is above Rachel and me. God’s watchin’ over us, just as he’s watchin’ over you.
I will not forget, Ma.
The door to the kitchen opened and Mr. Galloway stood there. He eyed all the slaves in the kitchen before settling on Zachariah. It is time to go.
Yes, Massa.
Zachariah took a deep breath. He had to be a man, a brave man.
Zachariah gave Rachel a peck on the cheek. Then he touched Ma’s shoulder. I love you,
he said to both of them.
I love you, too,
Rachel replied with youthful quickness.
Ma nodded to him. A single tear glistened as it fell from her eye. Even if she didn’t say it, he knew she loved him.
He lifted his head and walked out.
I love you, son,
Ma said soft, her voice unnaturally sweet.
Zachariah forced a tight smile, though his heart tore into a million pieces. He continued walking, his eyes straight ahead. He hoped Ma would somehow know how happy hearing those words made him.
Rachel’s sniffling grew louder. His throat constricted, causing hot tears to nearly choke him. He quickened his step, fearing he couldn’t hold in his emotions.
* * *
Zachariah’s fake smile vanished when he saw the coffle waiting for him outside the jail. The fourteen men and seven women were handcuffed two and two and fastened to a long chain running between the two ranks. They were being guarded by a young, white man on a black stallion. This man, who only appeared to be a few years older than Zachariah, watched them with menacing green eyes, fingering the handle of a whip.
An old negro man, wearing a gray suit, drove a wagon that was stopped behind the coffle. Galloway looked Zachariah over with discerning hazel eyes before leading his newly acquired chattel to his place. You complete the line,
he said, as if that was a privilege.
Zachariah hung his head, bit his lip, felt the cold iron clamped around his left wrist. Ma’s words echoed in his mind about being a man, and he was the lucky one shackled next to a woman; he didn’t want to cry in front of her. She was pretty, though nearly old enough to be his ma. Her black skin looked velvety and her pale pink dress showed off all the curves of her body.
Galloway mounted his bay horse. All right, let’s go.
He clicked his teeth, and his horse and the coffle started at once.
Zachariah raised his head, looked down the road then up at the sky. What would happen to him now?
Chapter 2
Strasburg, Virginia
July 14, 1838
DWELLING ON HIS uncertain future muddled Zachariah’s mind. His aching heart made him numb to the present. Numb to the chains. Numb to being sold away from his family.
He had heard stories of slaves, not yet fully grown, being torn from their mother’s breasts. He didn’t figure he’d be one of them. Master Norton liked him. But being liked didn’t pay the bills.
His skin and muscle did.
He didn’t know why, but walking beside this woman eased the misery of leaving behind his family and friends. He kept glancing at her. She seemed to be ignoring him, until finally she lowered her head, offered a shy smile, and blushed. Zachariah’s heart rate increased along with his breathing. He didn’t even know her name. He opened his mouth to speak, but instead pretended to yawn.
He examined his other companions. They reeked of sweat, piss and fear. Most had sorrowful expressions. Those who didn’t caught Zachariah’s eye.
He was relieved he wasn’t at the front of the column handcuffed to the stout, fleshy fellow who looked like he could break a man’s neck with one hand. The tall, thin man chained to the large fellow seemed listless, resigned to his life of servitude.
Zachariah was pleased he wasn’t the only yellow man in the coffle. The other yellow slave, in his late twenties, wore a fancy black suit and he held his head high, giving the air he felt superior to his fellow slaves. Zachariah wondered if he could read and write. Of course, if the man could, Zachariah doubted he’d admit to it since it was illegal.
He had difficulty judging the man chained to the fancily dressed slave. The youth wasn’t much older than himself, his head completely shaved. Zachariah searched for the right word to describe him. He examined the man’s sober face and slouched posture. He wasn’t indifferent or ill or melancholy. Finally, Zachariah realized the young man had a broken spirit.
There was a slender woman with long, straight black hair. Zachariah felt the hateful fire burning in her brown eyes. The dark girl next to her stared at the ground. Zachariah wondered if Master Galloway intended to put the dangerous, intelligent slaves next to those he didn’t think would pose a threat. Zachariah stole a glance at the beautiful woman next to him. Did Master Galloway consider her a threat? She didn’t look like she’d cause trouble.
The silence of the coffle magnified the bleakness of the afternoon. Amidst the tread of feet and clank of chains came the caw of crows. The noise sent a shiver through Zachariah like a bitter wind. He wondered if it was an omen that he was headed for disaster.
After hours and hours and hours of watching the silent coffle, Master Galloway grew agitated. Sing,
he commanded. Everyone remained mute. Sing,
he repeated in a gruff roar. Zachariah began singing Amazing Grace.
Amazing grace! How sweet de sound,
Dat save a wretch like me!
I once was lost but now I’s found
Was blind, but now I see.
Zachariah completed the first verse and none of the other slaves had joined him. He found comfort in the words of the familiar hymn. Beginning the second verse, he sang loudly. He wanted to spread his comfort.
Twas grace dat taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did dat grace appear
De hour I first believe!
The woman beside Zachariah joined him first. He admired her soprano voice, heavenly like from an angel. He admired more than her singing, he longed to feel her touch, see if it was as strong and tender as her voice. Her singing stirred such feeling, a longing he’d never felt before except in his dreams.
The entire coffle sang the last verse. The words uplifted Zachariah’s spirit. He thought they sounded lovelier than when the whole congregation sang at Preacher Simon’s church.
They finished, and again fell in to silence. Galloway rode his white horse to the back of the line. Thank you for the hymn, Zachariah. You’ve earned yourself a double helping at supper.
Zachariah felt his lips start to twitch into a cautious smile barely showing his teeth. Thank you, Massa.
I do like that song,
the young white man called back.
Galloway grunted. I wish the words meant something to you.
Zachariah’s feet ached, his ill-fitting shoes rubbing his heels raw. He grew tired of the seemingly endless walk. His stomach pained him. Would he ever get the double helping of supper he’d been promised?
Just when Zachariah thought his legs would give out, they halted on a road across from a plantation. In the distance stretched a beautiful sprawling lawn. What would rich people want with him? Zachariah wondered.
We’ll camp here,
Galloway said.
Yes, Pa,
the young white man said.
Do dat mean you’s take our chains off?
Zachariah asked.
The young, white man’s voice snapped. You are sleeping in those chains.
Those words stripped Zachariah’s face of vitality. I doan mind sleeping in chains, young Massa,
he replied.
My name’s Henry. You can call me that.
Yes, Massa Henry.
* * *
Galloway unchained three of the women. They set to work making camp in the clearing alongside the road.
The old man in the wagon, following the coffle, handed each of the women some corn, a grinder, tin plates and utensils.
Soon, Zachariah smelled coffee and grits and smoke. He felt like a caged cougar whose handlers were holding a juicy deer just out of reach. The taunting, the hunger, the misery were unbearable.
He watched every move the woman with the velvety black skin made. When she bent down to stir the grits, Zachariah’s flesh goose pimpled. His pulse sped by a fraction just enough for his gut to tighten with excitement. The woman scooped two ladles of grits onto a plate. She handed it to the gray-haired negro man with the lived-in face, named Joe, who drove the wagon. A frown creased Zachariah’s face and his stomach moaned. It felt like hours before the woman returned to her pot of grits. She scooped two more ladles of grits onto a plate, carried it over and handed it to Zachariah.
What’s yo’ name, miss?
Zachariah asked.
Miranda.
Zachariah’s urge to eat overcame his desire to talk with her. He shoveled the coarse hominy into his mouth. The two ladlefuls of grits disappeared too quickly. A regular helping would never satisfy his stomach. He doubted he could sing for extra food every night.
He sighed, wishing for his ration of beans. What Ma had been trying to teach him all these years was true. He had been lucky; he had been treated well by Master Norton.
Once all the slaves had food, Miranda began cooking ham for her masters. Smelling the salty ham warmed over the fire, further flavored by smoke, was torture. Of course Zachariah knew he wouldn’t be allowed a bite.
Grateful. He had to be grateful for what he had. After Zachariah ate, he got down on his knees and prayed. He opened his eyes and saw both of his masters looking at him. He swallowed to clear the knot of anxiety in his throat.
He’s been eyeing Miranda all day. They should not be chained together,
Master Henry said, his voice low, malicious.
Master Galloway ran his fingers through his shaggy, dusty-colored hair. It won’t be my worry if they have a pickaninny,
he said. He stood up and re-chained the women for the night. Miranda stared at Zachariah, horror-stricken.
I heared dem, but you worry none, miss,
Zachariah said. We huv to be married first.
If you want to marry her I can easily hunt you up a broomstick to jump over, Zach,
Henry said in a mocking tone. We’ll all be guests at the wedding.
Zachariah took a deep breath. He realized that Master Henry was going to make his life unpleasant. My name’s Zachariah, Massa, but if you wish to shorten it, I’s get use to it. De broomstick’s not necessary, but thank you for yo’ offer.
Master Galloway’s shoulders bounced with the force of his laughter. Son, that slave has more manners than you ever will!
Henry blew out air making wisps of his light brown hair jump. He turned scarlet, the veins on his neck pulsating. Scowling at Zachariah, he walked towards him with infuriated steps.
Knowing he could do nothing to protect himself, Zachariah hung his head respectfully and held his breath.
Henry grabbed him by the collar of his shirt, in a guttural whisper he spoke into his ear. No slave is better than me. I will make sure you know that.
Chapter 3
Murfreesboro, Tennessee
August 17, 1838
BUY ME, ZACHARIAH thought hard. Please buy me. With intense interest he watched Master Galloway talk to the owner of the Shady Pine Plantation, Mr. Mercer. He was a handsome man in his mid-thirties, his chestnut brown suit the same shade as his hair. Zachariah wondered how the tailor managed to match the colors.
The man pointed to him. Zachariah’s forehead beaded with sweat. Perhaps this was his lucky day. He leaned forward, straining his ears to listen.
The two men walked over to the coffle.
All the slaves got to their feet and tried to look pleasant strong, and healthy, eager to be bought before they reached the cotton and sugar cane plantations.
Being taken to the Deep South meant a quick death. If one didn’t die from the lash, disease, or snake bites, they were worked into the ground.
Mercer didn’t pay any of the bucks much mind, but leered longingly at the woman standing next to Miranda.
The mulatto woman, in her early twenties, smiled and curtsied. Name’s Laura, sir. I’s been a maid and a cook. I’s a real good cook, too.
Mercer turned to Galloway. How much for the wench?
Eight hundred.
Mercer walked behind her and felt her shoulders, ran his fingers down her back for signs of whip scars. Then he worked his hands around her waist to her front until he was fondling her breasts.
The woman closed her eyes, but didn’t shy away.
I will take her,
he said.
Galloway unchained Laura. He pushed the woman towards Mercer, and asked, Do you have any slaves you want to sell?
If you have the money, you can have several. They are working in the tobacco field now.
Master Galloway nodded. That is fine. Can I hire my slaves out to you for the day? I would think you could always use extra hands topping, suckering and taking off tobacco worms.
I can put them to work for sure, but I cannot pay you much.
Galloway rubbed his chin. Something is better than nothing.
* * *
Henry unlocked all of the coffle’s chains then mounted his black stallion. Three white men on horseback herded the slaves to the field.
As Zachariah jogged closer to the tobacco crop, he did not hear singing. In all the other fields he’d been to, the slaves sang to help them forget their misery. He heard the overseer threatening a man to work faster and whippoorwills chirping. That was all. The corners of his lips and his spirit sagged thinking of the labor. It would be a long day if a song couldn’t escape his mouth and gladden his heart.
Zachariah had spent numerous days on other plantations, cutting the long, slender pinkish-white flower tops of the chest-high tobacco plants. The flowers were prettier than wild roses and they had a sweet sugary scent. Too bad he couldn’t give a bouquet to Ma and Rachel.
Joe said the flowers should be cursed not complimented. Once they were removed, the plants produced rank suckers where each leaf was attached to the stalk.
The youth arched his back and twisted right and left to loosen up. He had already experienced the backbreaking work of pulling hundreds of suckers from the stalks. Turning the wrong way brought a dull ache. He had gotten to the point he wanted to cuss those flowers. Zachariah didn’t know if he preferred sucker detail or worm patrol.
His rough hands were red and raw from scrubbing off the tobacco tar. Why did he bother? A sticky film soon coated them again.
Zachariah stopped and checked to see if Nelly was lagging again. She was. The woman with silky black hair and dusky amber skin seldom complied with her master’s requests.
Master Galloway turned his horse around