Kesha reveals she mistook anxiety for a 'psychotic break' but was saved by a 'supernatural' power
Kesha got candid about dealing with anxiety and admitted that she mistook it for a 'psychotic break' while discussing new album, Gag Order, with Apple Music's Zane Lowe on Wednesday.
The Timber hitmaker, 36, who celebrated the release of the fifth studio album last week on May 19, revealed that 'leaning' into her 'spiritual' side had helped her during that time.
'I went through this crazy psychedelic spiritual experience in the midst of the anxiety,' the singer expressed to the host, adding that, 'it was pure anxiety.'
'My brain felt like... I thought maybe it was the process of having a psychotic break or something. But then once I just started leaning into it, I was like, "Well, it's happening, so what am I going to do about it?"' she continued.
The star stated that she had 'this full psychedelic trip sober' which was the inspiration behind one of the 13 tracks on the LP titled, Eat The Acid.
![Opening up: Kesha, 36, got candid about dealing with anxiety and admitted that she mistook it for a 'psychotic break' while discussing new album, Gag Order, with Apple Music's Zane Lowe.](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2023/05/25/05/71386159-12122571-image-a-81_1684987381315.jpg)
Opening up: Kesha, 36, got candid about dealing with anxiety and admitted that she mistook it for a 'psychotic break' while discussing new album, Gag Order, with Apple Music's Zane Lowe.
!['Anxiety': 'I went through this crazy psychedelic spiritual experience in the midst of the anxiety,' the singer expressed to the host, adding that, 'it was pure anxiety'; seen earlier this month in LA](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2023/05/25/05/71385147-12122571-image-a-82_1684987408411.jpg)
'Anxiety': 'I went through this crazy psychedelic spiritual experience in the midst of the anxiety,' the singer expressed to the host, adding that, 'it was pure anxiety'; seen earlier this month in LA
'But after that I just really started leaning into it,' and revealed, 'I'm a triple Pisces, I love weird, unexplainable, spiritual, supernatural stuff.'
The Tik Tok hitmaker notably has her own podcast called, Kesha And The Creepies, and also starred in her Discovery+ series, Conjuring Kesha.
'So after this happened to me, I went down, like, a total...it's my rabbit hole I'm currently in, is just the paranormal and also different spirituality, like, different things people believe in. I'm just trying to read about it because I feel like we're all talking about a similar thing.'
While talking to Zack, Kesha opened up about obtaining 'true joy' and stated, 'Before Gag Order, I really wanted to reclaim my joy. And there were definitely surface elements of doing that.'
'But unfortunately, I find that I had to really go into the head, go into all the places, the deep dark corners and deal with the s**t before I could have any semblance of true joy and true happiness.'
She also referenced to the last track on the album called, Happy, while talking about 'working on herself.'
'It's about just that I want to be happy, I want to let go. I want to be free. I want to trust the process, trust the universe, all of those things,' she movingly explained to Zack.
'And I do feel like I cannot just remain in my childlike self. So there’s an element of having to grow up,' the songstress continued.
![Embracing: 'My brain felt like... I thought maybe it was the process of having a psychotic break or something. But then once I just started leaning into it, I was like, "Well, it's happening, so what am I going to do about it?"'](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2023/05/25/06/71386121-12122571-Embracing_My_brain_felt_like_I_thought_maybe_it_was_the_process_-a-2_1684993374583.jpg)
Embracing: 'My brain felt like... I thought maybe it was the process of having a psychotic break or something. But then once I just started leaning into it, I was like, "Well, it's happening, so what am I going to do about it?"'
![Finding 'joy': While talking to Zack, Kesha opened up about obtaining 'true joy' and stated, 'Before Gag Order, I really wanted to reclaim my joy...'](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2023/05/25/05/71386189-12122571-image-a-84_1684987467982.jpg)
Finding 'joy': While talking to Zack, Kesha opened up about obtaining 'true joy' and stated, 'Before Gag Order, I really wanted to reclaim my joy...'
![Strength: 'But unfortunately, I find that I had to really go into the head, go into all the places, the deep dark corners and deal with the s**t before I could have any semblance of true joy and true happiness'](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2023/05/25/05/71386187-12122571-image-a-85_1684987497975.jpg)
Strength: 'But unfortunately, I find that I had to really go into the head, go into all the places, the deep dark corners and deal with the s**t before I could have any semblance of true joy and true happiness'
![New album: Kesha officially dropped her fifth studio album titled, Gag Order, last week on May 19](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2023/05/25/06/71385167-12122571-New_album_Kesha_officially_dropped_her_fifth_studio_album_titled-a-1_1684993374384.jpg)
New album: Kesha officially dropped her fifth studio album titled, Gag Order, last week on May 19
'And I feel like this album completely documents the time where I was like, 'Okay, I have to deal with some s**t and I just need to walk through it, and it’s going to be really uncomfortable.'
The Grammy nominee added, 'I feel like it’s really helped me grow into a woman, and you know, you hear it all on the album.'
Kesha collaborated with creative director, Brian Roettinger, for the album cover and visualizers for several songs on the LP. She also worked alongside producer, Rick Rubin, to create the 13 tracks for Gag Order.
During the Apple Music interview, the beauty reflected on her time working closely with Rubin and revealed that the experience, 'has now made me fall in love with music again because I remembered why we all love it and why I loved it.'
'The whole process with Rick that blew my mind was being present in how I feel and making it come out into the song in a way that felt like it’s reflective of the feeling, a sound that reflects a feeling,' she gushed.
'And I just had never made art for that purpose before, like subconsciously. I didn’t really know.'
'But in making these songs with Rick, we never once talked about singles, radio, any of it. It was just, "We’re making a song about how you feel." And that still kind of blows my mind because the entirety of my life, there was this illusion of what it was for.'
During an interview with Rolling Stone earlier this month, Kesha opened up about the LP and stated, 'I feel like I’m giving birth to the most intimate thing I’ve ever created.'
![Collaboration: During the Apple Music interview, the beauty reflected on her time working closely with producer, Rick Rubin](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2023/05/25/05/71386181-12122571-image-a-87_1684987565944.jpg)
Collaboration: During the Apple Music interview, the beauty reflected on her time working closely with producer, Rick Rubin
![New experience: 'But in making these songs with Rick, we never once talked about singles, radio, any of it. It was just, "We¿re making a song about how you feel"'](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2023/05/25/05/71386175-12122571-image-a-89_1684987621046.jpg)
New experience: 'But in making these songs with Rick, we never once talked about singles, radio, any of it. It was just, "We’re making a song about how you feel"'
![Bringing the album to life: Kesha collaborated with creative director, Brian Roettinger, for the album cover and visualizers for several songs on the LP; seen earlier this month in NYC](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2023/05/25/06/71385163-12122571-Bringing_the_album_to_life_Kesha_collaborated_with_creative_dire-a-3_1684993374584.jpg)
Bringing the album to life: Kesha collaborated with creative director, Brian Roettinger, for the album cover and visualizers for several songs on the LP; seen earlier this month in NYC
'I really dug into some of my uglier emotions and sides of myself that are less fun. It’s scary being vulnerable.'
She further expressed to the outlet, 'The fact that I have compiled an entire record of these emotions, of anger, of insecurity, of anxiety, of grief, of pain, of regret, all of that is so nerve-racking — but it’s also so healing.'
Kesha has been involved in an ongoing court battle with record producer, Dr. Luke, due to allegations that he both sexually and emotionally abusing her.
Following the claims, the producer, whose real name is, Lukasz Sebastian Gottwald, sued the songstress for defamation. A new court date has been set for later this year in July.
Before her fifth studio album became available to anticipated fans, Kesha released three singles from the LP, including Eat The Acid, Fine Line, and Only Love Can Save Us Now, which she called a 'desperate and angry prayer.'
!['A prayer': Before her fifth studio album became available to anticipated fans, Kesha released three singles from the LP, including Eat The Acid, Fine Line, and Only Love Can Save Us Now, which she called a 'desperate and angry prayer'](https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2023/05/25/05/71385151-12122571-image-a-94_1684987872680.jpg)
'A prayer': Before her fifth studio album became available to anticipated fans, Kesha released three singles from the LP, including Eat The Acid, Fine Line, and Only Love Can Save Us Now, which she called a 'desperate and angry prayer'
In celebration of dropping Gag Order, Kesha, along with creative director, Brian Roettinger, curated an art exhibition at Sized Studio in LA last week to pay homage to the newly released album.
The singer has recently been romantically linked to film producer, Riccardo Maddalosso, and the two were seen sharing a kiss during an outing earlier this month.
During the Apple Music interview, Kesha briefly touched on her difficulty of fully trusting romantic partners. 'I have people that I trust implicitly so much in my life, so I'm very lucky for that.'
But I have a harder time in romantic relationships fully trusting. I'm going to be honest with you. And yeah, it's something I work on.'
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