A Hero's Passage
By J D Little
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Frank had spent his life daydreaming of being the hero but had always settled for the ordinary. Now in failing health, he believed his chances were all behind him. Then came the crushing pain and a blinding white light but instead of Heaven, he awoke to find himself sprawled on a steel deck deep in the
J D Little
J.D. Little has lived an interesting life, engaging in a wide variety of occupations ranging from a Naval officer during which he flew in a helicopter in the middle of a war zone and chased a submarine with a destroyer in the North Pacific, to running a family-owned business in the Deep South, and working in finance with a multi-national corporation in the Oil Patch. He holds a master's degree in accounting and successfully raised four young men, mostly on his own. A fan of old movies, especially John Wayne's cowboys and Bogart's tough guys, you can usually find him hiking through the woods on a mountain trail or sitting under a tree reading a good book with a glass of sweet tea beside him, when he isn't working on something around the house.A native-born Buckeye, he has lived in every region of the country from New England to California and presently resides in the great state of Texas. He is now fulfilling a life-long dream of writing down those stories that have always filled his head and brightened his days.
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A Hero's Passage - J D Little
A Hero’s Passage
J. D. Little
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ISBN: 979-8-218-08147-8 (paperback)
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This is a work of fiction. All of the characters, organizations,
and events portrayed in this novel are either products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously.
For Sherri: You always believed I could.
CONTENTS
PROLOGUE
PART ONE: A NEW LIFE
CHAPTER ONE: DENIAL
CHAPTER TWO: ANGER
CHAPTER THREE: BARGAINING
CHAPTER FOUR: DEPRESSION
CHAPTER FIVE: ACCEPTANCE
CHAPTER SIX: ARRIVAL
CHAPTER SEVEN: ON THE TOWN
CHAPTER EIGHT: SPECIAL PASSENGER
PART TWO: CONVOY
CHAPTER NINE: LOST IN THE FOG
CHAPTER TEN: CLEARING
CHAPTER ELEVEN: HARD-A-STARBOARD
CHAPTER TWELVE: STORM WARNING
CHAPTER THIRTEEN: FORCE EIGHT
CHAPTER FOURTEEN: CALL OF PASSION
PART THREE: ADRIFT
CHAPTER FIFTEEN: THE HOURS TICK AWAY
CHAPTER SIXTEEN: THE SERPENT STRIKES
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN: FIGHTING BACK
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN: COMMAND DECISION
CHAPTER NINETEEN: A PRICE TOO HIGH?
EPILOGUE
AFTERWORD
GLOSSARY OF TERMS
All the Darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.
-- St. Francis of Assisi
PROLOGUE
The pain was in his chest. He had been aware of it for some time as it grew, forcing its way into his dreams. He knew it would get worse. It always did. He fought to ignore it, to hang on and hide as far away as possible. But then he knew he couldn’t escape it, as the pain found its way into his dream, turning it dark. His fears grew harder to dispel until they finally overwhelmed him.
He opened his eyes to the darkness and found himself back in his bedroom. It was pitch black. Must still be the middle of the night. He laid still, his eyes opened wide, staring up at the slightly lighter patch that marked the featureless ceiling above him. His mind was racing like his heart.
This wasn’t the first time this had happened. A few months ago, he had awoken several times in the night, gripped with the fear that his heart might explode at any moment. He had gone to the doctor. They had run all the tests, put him on a treadmill, given him an ultrasound—he had even worn a heart monitor for twenty-four hours—but they had found nothing. His heart was fine.
Go home. Relax and stop worrying,
the doctor had told him. It was just stress. His fears were driving him over the edge.
After that the attacks had stopped until now.
His heart skipped a beat. He jerked upright in the bed. It had never done that before. His mind reeled as the pain grew sharper. He propped up a pillow, leaned back against it, and closed his eyes, trying to force his heart to slow down. It couldn’t be good that it was racing like this! How many beats is a heart good for in a lifetime? And then it skipped again.
Shit!
He hopped out of bed. The fear was so intense, it was like a wall surrounding him, pressing in on all sides, crushing him. He couldn’t just lie there any longer.
The dog moved, and he patted her head. It’s okay, girl,
he lied.
He opened the bedroom door and moved out into the living room, where a small lamp was shining in the far corner. The welcoming patch of light seemed to call, come to me! Instead, he picked up a blanket and pulled it tightly around himself. He was freezing, so cold that his teeth were chattering.
He glanced down at his chair, but though his legs were shaking and weak, he couldn’t simply sit. He had to keep moving. He started to pace; he always paced anytime he needed to think or was a tad nervous. He plodded on through the living room, past the couch, and into the kitchen, all the way to the far wall. Then he turned and reversed the path back to the starting point. His mind absorbed in thought, oblivious to his surroundings. Were the doctors wrong?
The pain grew stronger, almost overwhelming. It was centered in his chest like a sharp knife cutting deep into his vitals. His hands started to shake. He was still cold, even with the blanket pulled around him. His whole body was shaking now.
This must be it—the End.
Should I call someone? Could they even get here in time? And if I’m wrong? If it’s just another panic attack, I would be so embarrassed, the little boy yelling wolf.
But what if I’m not wrong? Maybe it’s too late already? Am I about to die? Pass through that final veil and learn the answer, to what lies beyond! Will I meet God?
Was He even real?
Or were the others, right? The atheists and all the rest. Was this life really all there was? No God, no heaven, no hell. Nothing but this mortal coil? Was everything you witnessed, everything you did, everything you ever thought or dreamed of, gone in a puff, like a wisp of smoke in the wind? Was it as if you never existed, the moment your brain stopped functioning?
What was the point of life then?
You were born, you lived, you learned, you loved. All gone in a flash! You might as well not be. And, what of all those tales about changing the hero by showing him what life would have been without him? It didn’t matter; nothing did in the end! Good or bad, happy or sad. Nothing we did would ever mean anything if it just vanished. Are our lives more than mere words on a page? Are we no different from a squirrel crushed under the wheels of a passing vehicle?
But if that was true, why struggle? If, in the end, none of it matters, then why fight? Just give in and accept whatever fate has in store for you.
But they weren’t right! They just couldn’t be.
He had always believed in God, and now he clung to that belief. He felt deep down he had a soul, and it would live on after death.
Besides, he had proof of a sort—if you could call it that. He had seen it, the wispy image of Tina standing beside the bed in California, days after they had laid her to rest in Arkansas. He had known instantly who she was, standing there in the dark, and why she was there. They had been very close growing up, and her murder had hit him hard. But when he saw her beside the bed, he knew she was there to show him it was all right. It was as if she was saying, You can relax, let it go. I’m in a better place now, and no one will ever hurt me again.
So, if Tina’s spirit had been there that night in the darkness, there had to be life after death. It was the only explanation that made any sense. And if Tina still existed after death, he would too. He believed that with all his being. He had to, for it was all he had left.
The pain flared, his knees grew weak, and he collapsed into the easy chair. He pulled the blanket tighter. Cold—he was so cold.
God, help me, please!
he whispered.
I know you have no reason to; I’ve never given you one, not in all my life. I’ve always meant to put you first, but there was always something else—the kids, the game, the job that somehow got there before you. I felt you in the pit of my stomach each time I looked at a beggar on the street corner, but then, the light would change, and I would go on with my life, the beggar’s plight forgotten.
No, I don’t deserve your help, your grace, but still, please be kind when I stand before you. See that I am but an imperfect man, made in your image, a pale copy of the original full of fears and doubts, with a thousand questions and no patience to wait for the answers. I know you understand that I only see a hint of your vision. I’ve struggled with my desires and refused to submit to your will or to accept your plans for me, though I know they are far beyond anything I have ever dreamed of for myself.
But all that was useless now, as he sat waiting for death to claim him. It was all such a waste—his life, his dreams, all the things he could have done, if only.
The light in the corner seemed to grow brighter, or was it that the world around the lamp grew darker? All the darkness in the world, focused in one point. His eyes locked on the lamp. He felt the dog jump up into his lap, drawing closer as if to comfort him. He heard her whining in fear. He wanted to comfort her but didn’t have the strength.
A door opened somewhere. A hand touched his, and warmth flowed into him for a moment before the cold reclaimed him.
Oh, my God! What’s wrong?
a familiar voice called out from the dark. A set of eyes, dark brown and full of tears, came into focus before him. He could see the fear in them.
Surely the Lord is my salvation. I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord Himself is my strength and my defense. He has become my salvation.
Yes, something is wrong with my father,
another deeper voice said from beyond the light, the fear plain as it faltered.
I am the resurrection and the life. Whoever believes in me, though he dies, yet shall he live.
The trembling faded away. The light grew brighter still, the world dying around it. Maybe the brightness was the reason tears flowed across his cheeks, but maybe not. Suddenly, the cold was gone as the light flowed into him. The pain disappeared. He felt warm and at peace as the light claimed him and all that he was.
My Lord, I am ready.
PART ONE: A NEW LIFE
CHAPTER ONE: DENIAL
The light was hard in his face, shining straight down from above, but the world remained black all around him. His head felt like it was splitting in two, the pain radiating out from the back, but that didn’t seem right. He seemed to remember the tightness and the pain being in his chest.
He tried to move, and though it seemed impossible, the pain swelled even higher, and he collapsed back into his cocoon of darkness.
He remained still, hoping for the pain to fade and his vision to return. Slowly, his eyes began to adjust to the sharp contrast between the light above and the darkness below. As they did, the world finally came back into focus, but it wasn’t the world he had expected. Instead of his comfortable living room, he found himself sprawled on a cold floor surrounded by huge wooden crates stacked high above him.
He craned his neck and tried to make sense of what he was seeing, but he quickly grew drained and surrendered again to the pain. His head thumped against the deck. The strange world around him exploded into a million pieces, forcing him to close his eyes to shut out the pain.
Where was he? How had he gotten here? He tried to remember what had happened and struggled to concentrate on his last memories, but nothing came. His mind was empty; his memories gone.
Fighting panic, he jerked open his eyes, and the world around him spun out of control. Then gradually, one of the nearby crates wavered into focus. He blinked hard several times, and a series of shapes stenciled in black finally stopped moving. He tried focusing his attention on them and slowly realized they were letters or numbers and decided they must mean something. Still, it was impossible to dredge anything up from his pain-wracked brain.
I should know this, he thought. He was sure they were words, simple ones even, yet he couldn’t decipher them. It was as though a fog had rolled in, blanketing everything that had once been crystal clear.
Then, as if someone flipped a switch, his mind snapped into gear, and he easily read the label.
American Red Cross, Medical Instruments
Destination: Liverpool, England
Gross weight: 1,252 pounds
Why in God’s name was he in a warehouse? He had been lying in bed when the pain started. He recalled the light flaring in the living room. It had seemed to be reaching out for him as if to claim him. Now, somehow, he was here. Wherever here was.
He tried sitting up. The pain flared again, almost forcing him back down into the darkness. He slowly slogged his way up through the pain, and finally, it receded to a tolerable level. He then tried to examine his surroundings, but his head began throbbing. It felt like it was about to burst, and he clamped his hands around his head, trying to hold the pending explosion at bay.
The pain gradually receded.
Finally, he recovered enough to start looking around again. He immediately noticed the floor was metal, as were the walls. And while he knew most warehouses had metal walls, he’d never heard of metal floors.
Blinking into the light above, he saw it wasn’t a light at all. Instead, it was a large square opening in the ceiling with the clear blue sky beyond.
What kind of warehouse has a hole cut in the roof?
But maybe this isn’t a warehouse after all?
he mumbled aloud.
His eyes picked out a few cumulus clouds drifting leisurely across the sky. It was a beautiful day. The opening was at least thirty feet above his head. That’s awfully high. Then he noticed a second deck about two-thirds the way up. A deck? Why do I keep thinking of it as a deck instead of a floor? Decks are on ships.
More importantly, why was he lying in the middle of the deck in pain? What could explain that? None of this made any sense. The last thing he remembered was sitting with his daughter-in-law—doing what? Damn, he couldn’t remember!
What the hell is going on? Did I have a stroke? he wondered. It could be a stroke.
But in a warehouse? Why am I in a warehouse? And how did I get here? He recalled looking for something. That can’t be. I don’t even belong here. How could I be looking for something? Maybe it’s just a bad dream?
That’s it. He was dreaming. He was now talking aloud to keep himself calm. Pinch yourself and wake up.
He tried it. Ouch.
He shook his head, and another wave of pain engulfed him. Crap! Don’t move your damn head,
he scolded himself.
This was no dream. That pain was too real.
He suddenly remembered seeing fear in a pair of brown eyes. That was real, too. Nothing was making any sense. Start with the basics, he told himself. If this is real, how did I get here? But more importantly, how do I get out of here? He suddenly realized he couldn’t see any windows or doors.
With a growing sense of fear, he reached out for the nearest object, the crate marked Red Cross, and using it as a crutch, he levered his way to his feet. His head once more felt like a toy top, spinning around, and all he could do was hold on. He knew if he let go, he would splat against the steel walls.
Bit by bit, the spinning slowed, and the world steadied. He once again felt the bedrock beneath his feet, or maybe that was the wrong term. He could feel the ground moving and realized with a start that he might be on a ship!
Looking around, he noticed a pattern in the walls. They were flat panels, not corrugated, like most warehouses, and they overlapped with lines of rivets holding them together. It looked exactly like the Titanic in those old movies.
They don’t build them like that anymore, he thought. I’ve got to get out of here,
he whispered.
He finally spotted a ladder over on the far side of the compartment. If there were no windows or doors on this level, he would just have to try another. He started moving toward the ladder—or at least that was the idea—though he only managed to get a few steps past the Red Cross crate before he had to stop. He leaned hard against another pallet his eyes refusing to focus, the world once more spinning out of control.
Just breathe. Slowly now, one, two, three,
he counted, forcing himself to relax. His vision eventually cleared, and a pool of bright red came into focus on the floor at his feet. That couldn’t be blood! Could it?
Oh, my God,
he croaked, and his right hand flew to the back of his head. Ouch!
He pulled his hand away, and it was covered with the same red color. Damn.
No wonder he felt like shit. It was a miracle losing that much blood hadn’t killed him. He chuckled softly. It sounded different from how he remembered his laugh, lower-pitched. It had to be the acoustics.
Now for that ladder.
Even his voice sounded a little odd, now that he thought about it.
Pushing himself off the pallet, he staggered toward the base of the ladder. He came up hard against it, bumping his head as he did so. He was starting to get a little better at this moving around—well at least he didn’t almost pass out this time.
Leaning back, he looked up the twenty feet or so to the deck above. Could he climb that far without losing his balance? Doing that would put him right back down here, maybe with a broken neck, this time.
Was that it? Yes, it had to be. It explained his headache, the blood, the back of his head. He had fallen from up there. Damn! That’s a long way down.
He tried to remember falling, but it was still a complete blank. It felt as though it had happened to someone else. Everything from sitting in his living room until he woke up here had vanished. How long ago was that? An hour or a year? He had no idea. Why was he here on a ship and not in a hospital? The only thing he could remember was those big brown eyes filled with fear. Who was she? It seemed he should know her, but he couldn’t even remember her name—much less his own, for that matter!
He panicked as he realized he didn’t know who he was.
He searched his memories. It felt like he was a child running wild in a library, but the shelves were all empty. All the books were gone. His entire life wiped clean like the blackboard in a classroom at the end of the day.
All he could remember was that woman’s eyes and the pain. Oh, God, that pain, shooting out from his heart. It felt like an elephant was standing on his chest, but that was wrong. The pain was in his head, not his chest. He suddenly felt the impact, the lance of white-hot pain exploding through the back of his head.
He moaned, a long low sound filling the compartment around him and reaching to the open air above. Is anyone up there?
he cried. I need some help. Please, help me.
God, please let there be somebody up there!
Someone, help me, please,
he shouted as loud as he could. But no one answered. No one was about. Where in the hell was he? Where could all the people be?
I guess I’ll just have to do it myself.
He was having a full-blown conversation with himself. He’d heard that was a sign you were losing it. Well, who wouldn’t be?
Yup, he was losing it.
He grabbed the rung of the ladder just above his head and took his first step up. One step at a time, he thought to himself. He started coaching himself. Take it easy. All you have to do is just take one step at a time.
He climbed a second rung and glanced down at the deck below. It was working. He took another step and then another.
Too fast! A wave of vertigo hit him. His left hand slipped off the ladder, his arm beginning to windmill as he fought to keep his balance. Then, just as quickly, the dizziness vanished, his strength returned, and he grabbed hold of the rung again, steadying himself. He pulled himself tight against the ladder, hugging it to his chest, his heart racing.
Closing his eyes, he thanked God for small favors.
He reminded himself to go slowly.
Keeping his eyes level, he climbed one more step, giving himself a break afterward. Yes, that was what he needed, a pause between each step, time to recover from the effort, and for the spinning to slow down a little before he attempted the next rung.
Even with those precautions, he began to grow worried, for, after each step, it took him a little longer to recover. Longer for the spinning to slow and for his strength to return. How many more steps are there? He didn’t dare look to see, afraid of losing his grip again and ending up back down on the floor.
Then his eyes cleared the edge, and he peered out over the upper deck. Thank God! He wrestled himself up and over that edge and onto the deck, where he laid still for a moment to catch his breath.
Standing, he turned to face the compartment and slowly studied it from this new angle. It was vast and nearly empty, unlike the deck below. He guessed it was at least fifty feet in each direction with steel walls on all four sides. He realized this was the ‘tween deck," called that because it was between the deep hold below and the main deck above. From here, he could see that the lower level was almost full of wooden crates arranged in neat stacks rising to just short of the underside of the deck on which he stood. A few narrow passages had been left to allow for some movement between the rows of cargo. He was in a hold, the crates were cargo, but don’t they ship freight in steel containers? So why all the wooden boxes?
He noted that the level he was on was only half as tall as the lower one, but it had the same large hatch overhead. Only a few crates had been stacked and braced on this level, and he somehow knew that was why the hatches were still open. There was more cargo coming.
Then twenty feet away to his left, he saw what he was searching for—a hatchway. It was the standard naval type, metal with latches (or dogs, in Navy parlance) in all four corners and a knee-knocker below. Knee-knocker, now that was a naval term. Where had he learned that one? Not too many would know what it was, but of course, anyone who ever caught their shin on one would never forget it. He had to be on a ship. But how had he gotten here? And how had he ended up at the bottom of a cargo hold? Hell, it had been years since—since what? Since he— Damn it! He almost had it! Shit! It was gone again. Everything was blank once more. The fog thick as pea soup.
But still, for some reason, this place and everything around him seemed familiar. As if he had been here before, and yet, he was also sure he didn’t belong here. How could that be? Familiar and not? As though he was two people.
He took a deep breath, tried to steady his nerves, and pushed off the rail, swerving his way across the deck in the general direction of the watertight door. After a couple of course corrections along the way, he grabbed one of the dogs and pulled himself up against the cold metal door. He then knocked each of the four dogs off, one