Unforgetting: A Memoir of Family, Migration, Gangs, and Revolution in the Americas
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"Gripping and beautiful. With the artistry of a poet and the intensity of a revolutionary, Lovato untangles the tightly knit skein of love and terror that connects El Salvador and the United States." —Barbara Ehrenreich, author of Natural Causes and Nickel and Dimed
An urgent, no-holds-barred tale of gang life, guerrilla warfare, intergenerational trauma, and interconnected violence between the United States and El Salvador, Roberto Lovato’s memoir excavates family history and reveals the intimate stories beneath headlines about gang violence and mass Central American migration, one of the most important, yet least-understood humanitarian crises of our time—and one in which the perspectives of Central Americans in the United States have been silenced and forgotten.
The child of Salvadoran immigrants, Roberto Lovato grew up in 1970s and 80s San Francisco as MS-13 and other notorious Salvadoran gangs were forming in California. In his teens, he lost friends to the escalating violence, and survived acts of brutality himself. He eventually traded the violence of the streets for human rights advocacy in wartime El Salvador where he joined the guerilla movement against the U.S.-backed, fascist military government responsible for some of the most barbaric massacres and crimes against humanity in recent history.
Roberto returned from war-torn El Salvador to find the United States on the verge of unprecedented crises of its own. There, he channeled his own pain into activism and journalism, focusing his attention on how trauma affects individual lives and societies, and began the difficult journey of confronting the roots of his own trauma. As a child, Roberto endured a tumultuous relationship with his father Ramón. Raised in extreme poverty in the countryside of El Salvador during one of the most violent periods of its history, Ramón learned to survive by straddling intersecting underworlds of family secrets, traumatic silences, and dealing in black-market goods and guns. The repression of the violence in his life took its toll, however. Ramón was plagued with silences and fits of anger that had a profound impact on his youngest son, and which Roberto attributes as a source of constant reckoning with the violence and rebellion in his own life.
In Unforgetting, Roberto interweaves his father’s complicated history and his own with first-hand reportage on gang life, state violence, and the heart of the immigration crisis in both El Salvador and the United States. In doing so he makes the political personal, revealing the cyclical ways violence operates in our homes and our societies, as well as the ways hope and tenderness can rise up out of the darkness if we are courageous enough to unforget.
Roberto Lovato
Roberto Lovato is a journalist and a member of The Writers Grotto. He is one of the country’s leading writers and thinkers on Central American gangs, refugees, violence and other issues. Lovato is also a co-founder of #DignidadLiteraria, the national movement formed to combat the invisibility and silencing of Latinx stories and books in the U.S. publishing industry. He is also recipient of a reporting grant from the Pulitzer Center and a former fellow at U.C. Berkeley’s Latinx Research Center. His essays and reporting have appeared in numerous publications including Guernica, Boston Globe, Foreign Policy, Guardian, Los Angeles Times, Der Spiegel, La Opinion, and other national and international publications. He lives in San Francisco.
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Unforgetting - Roberto Lovato
Dedication
Para mi madre, Maria Elena Alvarenga Lovato, mi verdadero corazón de melón
y mi padre, Ramón Alfredo Lovato, Sr., el que supo vivir, a pesar de la oscuridad. With love and gratitude for teaching me to dive downward into darkness, on extended wings.
Epigraph
Forgetting, I would even say historical error, is an essential factor in the creation of a nation. . . . Historical inquiry, in effect, throws light on the violent acts that have taken place at the origin of every political formation, even those that have been the most benevolent in their consequences. Unity is always brutally established.
—Ernest Renan, What Is A Nation?
Now everyone is a gang member, or a terrorist, or a narcotrafficker. . . . Maybe next they will go back to just being Communists.
—Aída Luz Santos de Escobar, former Judge of the First Court of Execution of Measures of Minor Infraction of San Salvador
los guanacos hijos de la gran puta,
los que apenitas pudieron regresar,
los que tuvieron un poco más de suerte,
los eternos indocumentados,
los hacelotodo, los vendelotodo, los comelotodo,
los primeros en sacar el cuchillo,
los tristes más tristes del mundo,
mis compatriotas,
mis hermanos.
— Roque Dalton, from Poema de Amor
los guanacos hijos de la gran puta*,
the ones who could just barely go back,
the ones who had a little bit more luck,
the eternally undocumented ones,
the I-can-do-it-all, the I-can-sell-it-all, the I-can-eat-it-all,
the first ones to take out the knife,
the saddest most saddest of the world,
my compatriots,
my brethren.
—Translated by Roberto Lovato and Javier Zamora
Contents
Cover
Title Page
Dedication
Epigraph
Contents
Dramatis Personae
Introduction
Prologue
Part I
1
Maras
: The Short, Tragic, and Completely Made-Up Tale of the Marabunta
2
3
Part II
4
5
6
Part III
7
8
9
Part IV
10
11
12
Part V
13
14
15
16
Part VI
17
A Náhuat Story of the Underworld
18
19
Part VII
20
21
22
Part VIII
23
24
25
Part IX
26
27
28
29
Epilogue
Todos
Acknowledgments
Notes
About the Author
Copyright
About the Publisher
Dramatis Personae
2015
Pop—Ramón Alfredo Lovato Sr., Roberto’s father
Úrsula and Felipe—Roberto’s friends who invite him to visit Karnes prison
Elena and David—Salvadoran mom and her son whose plight sparks Roberto’s journey
Giovanni Miranda—mechanic whom Roberto befriends in San Salvador
Alex Sánchez—former MS-13 gang member who helps guide Roberto’s journey into LA and El Salvador’s gang underworld
Raúl Mijango—former guerrilla commander who organized the controversial gang truce of 2012
Santiago—top gang leader whom Roberto searches for and eventually meets with
Isaias—Roberto’s driver in El Salvador
Saul Quijada—forensic scientist at the Instituto de Medicina Legal, El Salvador’s body counters
María Elena Rodríguez—Roberto’s cousin and main family contact in El Salvador
Reynaldo Patriz—indigenous leader and guide to the history of the western coffee region
José Raymundo Calderón Morán—scholar specializing in the history of Ahuachapán, the homeland of Roberto’s father
1970–2000
Clotilde Alavarenga (Mamá Cloti)—Roberto's maternal grandmother
Pop—Ramón Alfredo Lovato Sr., Roberto’s father
Mom—María Elena Alvarenga Lovato, Roberto’s mother
Mamá Tey—Roberto’s paternal grandmother
Omar (Om
) Alvarenga, Ramón Alfredo Lovato Jr. (Mem
), Ana Irma Herrera (Mima
)—Roberto’s siblings
1930s Ahuachapán
Pop—Ramón Alfredo Lovato Sr., Roberto’s father
Mamá Tey (Maria Esther Arauz Lovato)—Ramón’s mother, Roberto’s grandmother
Mamá Fina (Delfina Lovato)—Ramón’s maternal grandmother, Roberto’s great-grandmother
Don Miguel Rodríguez—Ramón’s father, Roberto’s grandfather
Mamá Juanita (Juana Rodriguez Arreola)—Ramón’s paternal grandmother
Alfonso Luna—older friend of Ramón and radical university student
Maximiliano Hernández Martínez—El General, dictator of El Salvador
Farabundo Martí—revolutionary leader
Introduction
The machete of memory can cut swiftly or slowly.
It’s August 4, 2019. Pop and I are watching news of the latest shooting rampage. A white supremacist slaughtered twenty people in El Paso yesterday. Most of the victims were people who looked like us, people whose last names end in z. This shooting and the one in Dayton days before have the country aghast. The El Paso shooter’s declared motive—preventing the Hispanic invasion of Texas
—has friends talking or posting on social media about the possibility we may have to take up arms to defend ourselves. No stranger to guns, Pop has other concerns.
Those fucking gangs are ruining El Salvador,
he says suddenly, as if out of sync with the more urgent news in the Spanish-speaking United States. A few minutes earlier, the newscast that reported on the El Paso massacre also reported on the relentless killing in the tiny country of titanic sorrows that bore him.
Pop has never met a member of MS-13, the most notorious of these gangs. Over the course of several decades, I’ve met dozens, and even befriended members of a gang that the president of the United States compares to Al-Qaeda and calls animals
who, he says, have literally taken over towns and cities of the United States.
¹ I watch the news and the snake in my stomach twists and tightens my gut before the eternal return of two figures whose outsize contributions to the cataclysmic cycles of Salvadoran violence go back to the early nineties but remain largely forgotten: former New York mayor Rudy Giuliani and two-time US attorney general William Barr.²
I nod, as if silently agreeing with Pop’s gangs-as-cause-of-every-problem thesis. The snake in my gut lets me know there’s no room to deal with the shooting and Giuliani and Barr and Pop all at once.
Yeah. You’re right, Pop.
The news from El Paso and my friends’ terrified social media responses tighten my shoulders and neck, my body reminding me of those times someone has tried to hurt or kill me. It brings back a memory of sitting at Pop’s dining room table last April. I was helping him pay some overdue bills, while he watched Animal Planet. During a commercial break, Pop stood suddenly and hobbled back to his bedroom. The soft steady skss-skss-skss of his fluffy gray orthopedic slipper rubbing against the faded linoleum sounded faster than his usual pace.
A minute later, another, faster-paced skss-skss-skss signaled he was navigating his way through the kitchen toward the living room. As he neared the table, he stopped and stood next to me.
I looked up and smiled at him. He had a strangely familiar look on his tense, unshaven face. His eyes like daggers, looking at me with a wrath I hadn’t seen since my adolescent years, when our anger was at its mutual worst.
I raised my eyes in disbelief when I saw his hand wrapped tight around the dusty, varnished black handle of a machete. Without warning Pop swung his machete toward me, screaming, You drogadicto son of a bitch! Stop trying to steal my money!
I glanced at the ninety-six-year-old hands clutching the machete’s handle. The flags of Nicaragua, Guatemala, Honduras, Costa Rica, and El Salvador on the old souvenir were about to come down on my head. I jumped to Pop’s side and grabbed the machete before he could finish the act.
Pop stood dazed, and frustrated, and alone. I rushed out of the dining room to hide the machete downstairs in a safe corner of the garage. He rarely went into the garage, since he stopped driving two years ago at age ninety-four. From down below, I heard my cousin Ana’s hurried footsteps rushing from her room through the kitchen and into the dining room. I remained downstairs a few minutes to let my cousin chill Pop out.
In the cool silence of the garage, a couple of five-by-three-foot cardboard boxes sit side by side in the shadows beneath the stairs. The boxes bear musty old clothes, cheap new blouses, radios, calculators, TVs and other ancient electronics, and outdated toys, remnants of my family’s contraband empire, once a source of income—and serious family conflict and inner conflict of my own.
Minutes later, the mellifluous guitars and layered three-part harmonies of Golondrina Viajera,
a bittersweet bolero by Trio Los Condes followed by the soulful, dreamy sounds of Jose Feliciano singing La Barca,
another nostalgic Pop favorite, signaled Pop’s latest storm had subsided. It was safe to come back upstairs.
Music, we were told some years ago, would help calm Pop’s dementia. Doctors predict his process of mental fragmentation will only accelerate over time.
The machete cuts slowly.
Now we’re watching Alex Trebek start Jeopardy! Months after Pop’s outburst, we no longer have machetes in the house, a decision that runs contrary to the traditions of Salvadorans in the US. Many of the two to three million Salvadorans living here³ since the bloody civil war of the eighties and early nineties have souvenir machetes in their homes. Machetes adorned the waists of countless men back when most Salvadorans lived in the countryside. Revolvers replaced them in the age of the urban majority.
The image of skinny, droopy immigrant kids strutting into Liborio Market in LA’s Pico Union–Westlake district to buy the machetes in the nineties lingers. They were among the first mareros I saw. Only later did I realize that the machetes those gang members bought gave local media, Hollywood, and the LAPD—and eventually the Pentagon and US presidents—the exotic ethos they needed to turn the skinny kids into a tattoo-faced scourge, the most violent gang in the world.
Those of us in the Pico Union area knew why those early mareros carried rocks and baseball bats and bought machetes: the poor immigrant youth needed to defend themselves from larger gangs but couldn’t afford the AK-47s and other weapons used by the older, richer, more sophisticated Crips, Bloods, or Mexican Mafia. Those gangs possessed another, more powerful weapon the mareros also lacked: US citizenship.
The story of the maras and their real violence remains hidden, buried in half-truths and myth in a labyrinth of intersecting underworlds—criminal and political, revolutionary and reactionary, psychological and cultural. Many Salvadorans are mired in simplistic explanations. Even before his dementia set in, Pop, for example, agreed with the one of every three Salvadorans⁴ who told pollsters they support a Kurtzian solution to the gang problem: Exterminate all the brutes!
⁵
The machete makes us hack at ourselves.
No matter how much I try, Pop won’t ever understand the subterranean connections I’ve spent my adult life excavating and documenting in the hopes of finding fragments of our heart lost in the darkness. So I resist his ancient provocations around things we simply won’t agree on. The framed photo of Mom on the mantel—the one in which she’s wearing her favorite polka dot blue dress and the pearl necklace he gave her—beckons us to overcome the great paradox of Salvadoran life: to speak of the darkness is impossible, but to not speak of the darkness is also impossible. Mom’s spirit offers a simpler, more effective solution to the paradox: recordar—literally to pass through the heart again.
The two-by-one-foot color photo rests on the mantel, inciting us daily to remember, despite the fear of the dark.
Death is and always will be a part of life, mijito.
Mom said this often. Mom, our great lover of life, was the same woman who wore a wax Halloween bracelet with skulls on it in order, she said, to remind myself we’re all mortal.
Mom’s love resembled that of many a working Salvadoran mother: rebellious with a ferocious passion couched in a preternatural ability to curse; the strength to take on the role of sole disciplinarian during my father’s emotional absence; and a warm, bubbly disrespect for personal and other boundaries. Prior to Mom’s death in 2013, the spot on the mantel where her portrait rests was reserved for the old souvenir steel machete. Beneath the portrait is the brown mahogany box containing half of her remains. Mom left instructions for us to place her ashes at locations marking the two cardinal points on her spiritual map of the American continent: her hometown of San Vicente and her home in San Francisco’s foggy outer Mission neighborhood. For all that he loved his partner of sixty years, Pop made me fight to get him to respect Mom’s wish to be cremated, arguing in his great grief that cremation violates our traditions.
Several heated discussions later, my siblings and I eventually won him over.
Mom never let borders—physical, linguistic, cultural, political borders—dismember her family. For most of his life, Pop did.
No mementos, no letters, no pictures of Pop’s family and life in Ahuachapán ever graced my parents’ home, except for a painting an artist in the Mission District made from a photo of his mother, Mamá Tey. Throughout my life, our family has been divided by the border between memory and forgetting.
The machete chops up our families.
Similar borders exist within the country we live in, the United States, including borders put up by the media Pop and I watched, the media I belong to. The journalist in me watches news of the Central American child refugee crisis
with deep skepticism, a skepticism that often morphs into utter disbelief. The half-truths and absolute lies in stories about the crisis that even liberal media engages in disturbed me. In the summer of 2018, I decided to take action and convinced the Columbia Journalism Review (CJR) to let a couple of volunteers and me analyze the quality of the media coverage of the refugee child separation crisis of earlier that year. That year the refugee crisis, MS-13, and caravans generated hundreds of stories and dominated the US news cycle for several weeks.⁶ Most media outlets reported the child separation issue as if it was separate from both the caravan and gang stories.
The machete simplifies with the speed of the silicon revolution erasing the memory of us from the Mission, the historic neighborhood where we were once the majority.
Our CJR research⁷ identified some of the roots of the distortion, including one that surprised even me: all the stories in all the main media outlets of the United States erased Central American experts from the refugee crisis story. All of them. There were no US-born or -based Central American lawyers, no Central American scholars, no Central American NGO leaders, no Central American journalists in any of the coverage on any channel.
The Central American voices that were included in the news stories about the refugee crisis looked more like the stereotypes we’ve come to expect: two-dimensional images of refugee mothers’ pain and sound bites of refugee child suffering. One major magazine literally cut and pasted a picture of a crying child⁸ who was not separated from her mother and placed it next to a picture of the president, beneath a headline of a cover story about child separation.
Video of Carlos Gregorio Hernández Vásquez, a teenage Guatemalan migrant who died in a South Texas immigrant prison, confirms the journalistic and moral crises—and real-life consequences—of erasure. Surveillance footage shows Carlos’s last moments. He was diagnosed with a flu that caused his temperature to reach 103 degrees. His weakness caused him to slip from the toilet in his last minutes of life. He fell to the ground, his head surrounded by a pool of blood. After a news organization released the footage without their permission, Carlos’s parents released the following statement: It’s been really painful for our family to lose Carlos . . . but having all these people watching him die on the internet is something we couldn’t have imagined in a movie or a nightmare.
⁹
The machete dismembers our humanity from our stories.
Left out of the English-language versions of the refugee crisis and gang stories are the Salvadoran culture, politics, and history that underlie them—described by the great poet Claribel Alegría and others in sublime and even mystical terms. Also left out is any notion of a Salvadoran political culture in which one out of every three Salvadorans adopted radicalized
politics against the fascist military dictatorship during the civil war.¹⁰ Though it might prove useful in the post-COVID-19 world, our ability to organize and fight under dire political circumstances doesn’t fit the victim narratives that non-Salvadorans ascribe to us. Locking Salvadorans into the violent-or-violated binary is the storytelling tradition that turned an oft-quoted phrase from Joan Didion into the definitive English-language statement about us. In the almost forty years since Didion wrote her book Salvador, most English-language writing about Salvadorans and El Salvador remains a variation on her theme: Terror is the given of the place.
Where most see the refugee crisis as new,
I see the longue durée of history and memory. Where many see the story beginning at the border, I see the time-space continuum of violence, migration, and forgetting that extends far beyond and below the US-Mexico border. Where others see mine as a Central American story, I see it as a story about the United States.
Just six years after the Vietnam War ended, my family and all other Salvadorans started living with the profound consequences of the Reagan administration’s decision to draw a line in the sand, as it spent billions to bolster the universally condemned Salvadoran government and military in their war against the guerrilleros of the Farabundo Martí National Liberation Front (FMLN). The FMLN was the Salvadoran embodiment of what Reagan referred to as the evil empire
of communism. By the end of the war, seventy-five to eighty thousand people had been killed in a country of just over five million that’s the size of Massachusetts. Most of the innocents were slaughtered by their own government, according to the United Nations and international human rights groups. I’m the son of Salvadorans, so the ongoing humanitarian crisis of violence, perpetual war, and mass migration is, before anything else, personal.
The machete severs any understanding that epic history is a stitching together of intimate histories.
This is why I decided, in 2015, to embark on my own life adventure: a journey along the 2,500-mile chain of mass graves, forgotten dead, and devalued life that begins in wartime El Salvador and travels deep into the remote tropical forests, where gangs and governments have killed, dismembered, and buried their victims for decades. I’ve interviewed countless refugees who’ve braved the migrant trail where cartels and security forces have been digging mass graves for their victims since the wars in Central America ended in the 1990s. And I’ve traversed the southwestern border states to watch as the pox came to my house, the United States, where I visited mass graves dug by local Texas officials to bury migrant children and mothers and fathers whose remains were put in burlap bags and milk crates after they died during the migration wave of 2014. Leaked Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE) memos show that the US government builds child and mom refugee prisons in remote South Texas for silent reasons of state¹¹: in order to make it difficult for media and immigration advocates to report on and advocate for those fleeing failed policies in the Southern Hemisphere, many of which the United States had a direct hand in creating. The institutional denial of the destruction of Central American child refugee innocence puts up borders to protect and sustain the myth of American innocence shared by conservatives and liberals alike.
Different circumstances in each country yield the same result: the remains of Salvadoran children and adults buried without investigation into their deaths, unstoried, and without remembrance, regardless of who is president in Mexico, the United States, or El Salvador, the country where the first history department at a public university was established just eighteen years ago, in 2001. The migrant journey is nothing if not a testament to the true constitution of countries.
We’re all dismembered from above by that ultimate machete of memory: borders.
My own childhood American
innocence was protected by my family. Pop cordoned off key parts of his own story, leaving me to sort through and try to make sense of the half-truths and outright myths of my family’s history. My lack of access to these lost fragments of memory, my ignorance of this history, almost got me killed.
I myself have been a party to silent dismemberment from above, remaining quiet about painful—and inspiring—secrets I held in the shadows for decades. Separated from my self, my experience, my history, I was dismembered, to the point of wanting to do myself in. I remembered this during visits to children caged in immigrant prisons where their soft voices uttered that hardest of realities, Quiero morirme.
Psychologists treating them told me that one of the primary ways they treat these children involves creating conditions for them to reconstitute the fragments of themselves into stories they can share, to stir the memory and imagination of that part of themselves that’s still resilient and powerful, something we will all need to survive and move forward in this fragmented world of perpetual crisis.
What I am about to share is my best effort at reconstituting the layered and discontinuous fragments of my forgotten, macheted self.
Mine is the story of the re-membering that saved my life. Mine is the story of unforgetting.
Prologue
Los Angeles, California
May 1992
Staccato pops of rotor blades on the helicopters above us twisted and tangled my innards. LAPD’s helicopters didn’t seem to bother Leland the way they did me. His surroundings had him too busy to notice either the copters or my gritted teeth. Leland stood silently mesmerized by the panorama of ruin surrounding his lime green Buick LeSabre: blackened cars, burned-out swap meets, fast-food restaurants, and crowded apartment buildings, hollowed out as if Molotoved by revolucionario students back in wartime El Salvador.
We were on the northeast corner of MacArthur Park, the spiritual and criminal center of the Pico Union–Westlake neighborhood of LA, a densely populated immigrant community that, during the week of April 29 to May 4, 1992—just days before—had become one of the sites of the most destructive riots in US history.¹ After a court acquitted four LAPD officers who had been videotaped beating Rodney King, years of rage over racial inequality and police brutality bubbling below the surface burst onto the streets of LA.
Wherever he turned, Leland Chen, representative of a big corporation visiting our nonprofit, the Central American Refugee Center (CARECEN), to consider giving us a major donation, stood transfixed, his eyes darting back and forth across the blackened landscape. The slick, impenetrable wall created by his round designer glasses, pinstripe suit, and expensive feathered haircut had been breached by the scale of the destruction all around us, giving way to a vulnerability that tethered him to me. He stayed physically close to me and asked a lot of questions about our surroundings, as if on a deadly safari. I worried that the shock would distract him from considering giving CARECEN seed funding to start a youth program.
Leland looked westward, toward the tall buildings on Wilshire Boulevard, where the moguls, movie stars, and mighty politicians who had once called the Art Deco neighborhood home had vanished long ago. One block east of us were the CARECEN offices, located on the same palm-lined street where Raymond Chandler turned his Lost Generation disillusionment into noir, hard-boiled detective novels and films about LA’s shadow world. Highest among the towers of faded fame and fortune is the historic twelve-story Wilshire Royale apartment building with a gigantic US flag on top, billowing above the mile-and-a-half radius of destruction wrought by the red-orange flames of the riots.
Jesus Christ!
he exclaimed. The smell of burned wood and plastic filled my nostrils as we walked toward the southeast corner of the park. I didn’t even know there was rioting here. It looks like a war zone.
No. It doesn’t, Tito, my adolescent, rebellious, crazy side fired back silently, my stomach hardening and teeth clenching as if I was preparing to get punched or kicked. War looks like war. Nothing else.
Leland’s reaction to the riots felt predictable. His response was similar to those I’d heard during post-riot bus tours guided by CARECEN staff—urban safaris to view the damage that included all manner of visitors, from heads of major philanthropic foundations to Fortune 500 executives, international scholars, national religious leaders, and members of Congress. All parroted the war analogy. CARECEN staff had met many dignitaries, including the young Arkansas governor challenging George H. W. Bush for the presidency, Bill Clinton.
I was jaded. Cansadisimo. I’d had enough of all this Virgil-leading-Dante-through-hell shit. Leland had it within his power to help us create jobs and education programs for at-risk kids in our crowded corner in the City of Angels, some of whom had taken a torch to it. So I dug deep for some patience.
Who put up those barriers?
he asked, looking back at one of the many thick, brown steel poles stretching across entire streets throughout parts of the neighborhood with big signs that said narcotics enforcement zone, residents only.
They’re the borders LAPD put up to try and isolate the gangs,
I said. LAPD’s CRASH anti-gang units use the barriers to play members of one gang off against those of another. They also use false arrests, falsifying evidence, and other stuff.
Which gangs?
Salvadoran gangs,
I responded tersely.
Do the barriers work?
They do nothing to reduce crime but are quite successful in helping escalate violence by reinforcing mental barriers between members of rival gangs.
No!
Yes. It’s like they made young homies forget they were friends and, in some cases, family, before the riots.
Leland said nothing, but his eyes were wide. We walked half a block farther south, down to the corner of Seventh and Alvarado. Standing on the north side of the corner were the evangelicos. Today the Gloria-a-Dioses of the Bible-thumping brothers with the bullhorn drowned out the Spanish-speaking tongues of the miqueros, thickset guys wearing dress shirts, jeans, and dress shoes, spewing out promises of the legal identity contained in the shiny, laminated micas. Other, gruffer, tattooed men, wearing thick chains, tank tops, and jeans, waited for passersby before saying in raspier tones, Roca, roca. Roca-roca-roca.
What are they selling?
Leland asked.
Crack cocaine.
I didn’t tell him Pico Union was the main hub of the crack trade north of South Central LA. Nor did I let him know that the park’s southeastern corner was one of the deadliest in the country.
OK, let’s keep walking, Leland.
In front of us was the fountain at the center of the