Situationship: A Gay Romance
By Ian O. Lewis
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On paper, Tanner Beckwith has had a stellar existence. A musician in demand, he’s traveled the globe with famous pop stars and has performed for hundreds of thousands of people. But underneath his success lies a well of loneliness so deep he can’t imagine ever escaping the darkness he hides. When he is fired from a famous diva’s tour because of her handsy husband, he decides to head home, ending almost six years of non-stop performing. His beloved aunt takes him in, giving him a roof over his head and work to distract him from his inner turmoil. Then, he encounters the one man he’s ever loved, his former best friend who rejected him years ago. Griffin is the only man who has ever made him crazy, and now he is living next door, with a muscle-bound boyfriend by his side. Can Tanner get past his deeper feelings and resume the friendship he and Griffin once shared, or will his heart get broken again?
Griffin Cartwright has fought for his emotional life from day one. Being brought up in an ultra-conservative religious family, he has had no choices other than the ones being laid out for him by a strict father who demands perfection from his only child. When his best friend in the world bares his soul about his feelings, he rejects him, afraid of the love he feels for Tanner, and of being rejected by his family. Years later, after coming to grips with his sexuality, he is confronted with his teenage crush, who once was his only friend in the world.
Currently involved with another man, the most Griffin can hope for is Tanner’s forgiveness for ending their friendship years ago. But, seeing Tanner every single day is igniting emotions he’s long suppressed, and no longer wants to fight.
At the corner of Robinson Street and Monument Avenue in Richmond, Virginia is an old apartment building filled with broken hearts and wistful dreams. Situationship is the first book in The Balcony Boys series, and features a wise landlady and a cast of wonderful characters all aching to find their happily ever afters. There are no cliffhangers or cheating, and each book can be read as a stand-alone novel.
Ian O. Lewis
Ian O. Lewis is the bestselling author of The Boys of Oregon Hill series and other LGBT novels.
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Situationship - Ian O. Lewis
Prologue
Tanner
Crystal wants you off the tour, effective immediately.
Arguments and excuses flickered on the tip of my tongue, but as soon as I opened my mouth to speak, they vanished. I knew I was in the right, but also realized that nothing I’d say would change a damned thing. My cheeks burned and I couldn’t meet Vickie’s eyes. She was Crystal’s manager, and aside from handing me my walking papers, she was usually a decent woman. Well, as decent as a famous diva’s manager could actually be.
We were in my hotel room, the rising sun peeking through the violet and orange clouds outside my balcony door. I was perched on the edge of the bed, a blanket wrapped around me, while Vickie paced in front of the floor to ceiling windows. Her anger radiated outward, forming a virtual forcefield of resentment and hate. Vickie’s face was naked, bare of the usual mask of makeup she normally painted on, and her dark circles stretched halfway down her cheeks. Her green crew cut somehow made the purple under her eyes even more pronounced, and I felt a tiny flicker of pity. She’d probably been up all night doing damage control. I ran my fingers through my hair and winced when I hit a snarl. Vickie had woken me up out of a dead sleep and I hadn’t expected to see anyone at all, since it was supposed to be a day off for everyone on the tour. I’d met her at the door wrapped in a blanket, and her index finger had poked me back to the bed.
Vickie stopped pacing and pulled an envelope out of her purse. She tapped it against her chin a couple of times, then tossed it at me. I fumbled, one hand keeping the blanket around my body, and just caught it before it hit the floor.
It was an airline ticket. Goodbye Spain, hello... who knew?
What the hell were you…
Vickie’s voice deepened, and she finally met my gaze, shaking her head slowly back and forth. Tanner, you don’t know how lucky you are that Craig isn’t pressing charges. If I’d had anything to say about it, your ass would be in jail. Like, he’s her fucking husband, and you just had to…
The bastard grabbed my—
I started, but she cut me off with a chop of her hand.
Doesn’t matter, nothing you say matters anymore. Oh, and you’d better remember to keep your big mouth shut. You signed an NDA and are still expected to follow it. We are depositing fifty percent of your salary in your bank account, which satisfies the termination clause in your contract. I would suggest making yourself scarce, fast, unless you want to risk Craig changing his mind and prosecuting you for assault.
Her words were like fists, pounding into my head. Like, what the fuck?
You know why I hit him, and it still doesn’t count for anything, right?
I wondered if she even gave a damn about the man’s touchy-feely ways toward me and the other male members of the band and crew. Last night I’d had just enough to drink after the show to lose my cool and let my fists do the talking.
Vickie shrugged her shoulders and sighed, the anger in her eyes morphing into a flat stare. I don’t have any fucks left to give. All that matters is Crystal doesn’t want her keyboard player beating the love of her life to a pulp while surrounded by her fans. Instagram is having a field day with this, and thank your lucky stars the paparazzi weren’t there. As far as I’m concerned, when I walk out this door...
Vickie crossed the room as she spoke, ...you and your face will no longer exist in Crystal’s world.
Vickie yanked the door open, her contemptuous sneer coupled with a roll of her eyes, and then she slammed it behind her.
What the hell were you thinking?
I fell back onto the bed and groaned. I was the little guy, the hired help. It apparently didn’t matter that I was the one having his career ambushed by a closet case star fucker.
After the show last night we’d all gone to a nightclub as usual, a velvet rope in the VIP section keeping us safe from the fans. When Craig grabbed my ass I let it go, not wanting to antagonize him. The second time he tweaked my nipple, I laughed, and then whispered in his ear to stop touching me. After that, he grabbed my crotch, and without thinking, my fist connected to his jaw. Crystal’s bodyguards flew to his side, and one of them punched me in the stomach. I opened the blanket and looked down, noticing a hint of a bruise. He didn’t hit me hard, and I thought he was just putting on a show for Crystal and Craig’s benefit. The bodyguards knew the score, but they had jobs they wanted to keep.
Unlike me.
So, what are you going to do now, dumbass?
Six years ago I got my first great, paying gig, lucked into it actually, when the programmer for Particle Play had to have an emergency appendectomy. They remembered my name from a remix I’d done for them and asked if I could learn their set list in forty-eight hours. I did it, and then joined them in South America, staying on tour with them for the next year.
Leaving home had been a no-brainer. I’d never wanted to be like other people, with a mortgage and a minivan gathering dust in a garage. I wanted to see the world, not be trapped with a nine-to-five soul-robbing job that chewed you up and spat you back out once your usefulness to the corporation was gone. That world seemed gray to me, lifeless with no color or joy.
But, after six years of constant touring around the globe with a variety of bands, I’d come to resent the hotel rooms and snotty pop stars I worked for. As a teenager I’d always fantasized about seeing the world and becoming a famous musician, but the only times I saw any of the globe I crisscrossed, was on the odd day off, or the few weeks I’d hole up in an Airbnb while figuring out what my next gig would be.
Nothing in life was permanent. Not love, money or belongings, and until recently I was content with the transient life, but now I wanted something more enduring, like my own home and a regular schedule. I doubted if I’d ever want a Monday through Friday corporate gig, but I craved something I could count on.
I felt lost, and I didn’t have a place to return to.
I typed my request in English on my phone for it to translate, then held it up so the elderly bartender could read it.
May I have a beer please?
¿Puedo tomar una cerveza por favor?
He placed a bottle in front of me and shuffled off to the other side of the hotel bar. It was tempting to stay in Madrid—a beautiful city where I knew not a soul—but I’d hate to rely on my phone to communicate with everyone one sentence at a time. I was on my fifth beer, trying to muster up the courage to call my aunt back in Richmond. She’d always believed in me, and was the only relative I kept in touch with regularly. My parents had moved to a tiny town in South Georgia that I hated on first sight, so staying with them until I figured out what to do next was not an option.
Though I knew my aunt would be kind and understanding, I still hesitated. I grew up in Richmond, Virginia, and though I Ioved it there, I’d spent my teenage years bragging about how I would get away from it. It had felt oppressive and small back then, and in retrospect I was lucky as hell to have grown up in that strange historical city filled with an eclectic assortment of artists and eccentrics.
Aunt Dottie was one of those eccentrics. She had encouraged me to study music and forge a career in the arts. What she never thought to mention was moments like these, where you doubted your ability to create or perform. Those scary days, weeks, or months where you didn’t know what your next gig was going to be. The musical grind exhausted me, and I needed a vacation from my life. Hopefully she would give me the breathing space I craved, so I could figure out what to do next. I picked up the phone with a sigh and made the call. Three rings in and she answered.
What’s wrong, honeybee?
The sound of her smooth contralto voice with its slight southern drawl made my heart ache.
Why do you think…
Because you never call. All I get are those lovely postcards once or twice a year from Timbuktu or some other bizarre place. So, what do you need?
I want to come home.
Chapter One
Tanner
Damn, these cars move slower than molasses.
Aunt Dottie drawled as we inched up 95 toward Richmond. She’d picked me up an hour and a half ago from Dulles airport, and unfortunately we’d gotten caught up in DC traffic.
When I first laid eyes on her again after years of being on the road, my heart soared. Her bright red hair was piled on top of her head like a proper southern lady, but that was pretty much where the comparisons between her and a southern belle came to a halt. She wore black, cat-eye sunglasses surrounded by rhinestones and her lips were painted a neon orange. As far as I could see, she was ageless. Her body was fit and firm underneath a skin-hugging tailored green suit while strutting through the airport in black stiletto heels. When she wrapped her arms around me they trembled for a brief second, then she stepped back and looked me up and down. Still cute as a button.
We’d sat in comfortable silence through the endless traffic listening to NPR. When another school shooting was announced she tapped the power button off with a long red nail.
Hope you brought a bulletproof vest back with you from Europe.
She muttered, then sighed and shook her head. We were sitting in traffic underneath a bypass near the Franconia exit, the car inching up slowly at what seemed a foot per hour. She laid a hand on my knee and smiled. So, since we are stuck in shitty traffic together, let’s get the hard part over with. What the hell brought you back to Richmond?
Well…
I muttered, then sank back in my seat and searched for the right words. A few beats passed, then Aunt Dottie spoke.
No worries, honeybee. Take your time. Hell, if you don’t want to talk right now that’s fine.
She opened her purse and pulled out her lipstick, reapplying it using the rear-view mirror. She wiped a little of it off her teeth then realized traffic was moving. Aunt Dottie dropped the tube and her purse in my lap and inched forward.
Have you spoken to your folks?
She asked, though she knew the answer to that. This was her way of drawing me into a conversation. I opened her purse and dropped the tube of lipstick inside before replying.
No, you know we don’t talk much.
Well, aside from the annual Christmas card, I don’t hear from them either.
She raised her eyebrows, then smiled. You should at least call them, though.
I’d grown up in Windsor Farms, an affluent neighborhood in the West End. My parents were ultra-conservative, and the last time I’d seen them I’d suffered through the whole ‘Love the sinner, not the sin’ bullshit conversation for the millionth time. Aunt Dottie was Dad’s sister, and they considered her the free spirit of the family. The first ten years of my life she lived in Aspen, Colorado performing with their ballet company. When she returned home, she bought a beautiful old apartment building on Monument Avenue and started a ballet school in the basement while renting out the apartments.
She had been like my Aunt Mame, filled with stories and wisdom that living a full, artistic life had given her. She’d traveled around the globe during her dance career and had sensed that we were kindred spirits. While my parents insisted I go to boring cotillion and play on the soccer team, she’d done everything she could to fill my world with art and culture. Aunt Dottie paid for my piano lessons and had bought me my first synthesizer. The only reason my parents allowed all this was because they didn’t know how to relate to their only child, a quiet kid who only wanted to make music. She’d take me off their hands most weekends, allowing them the freedom to travel, while telling themselves I was getting cultural enrichment. When I came out as gay, they blamed her, and our visits came to a screeching halt. Three months later I graduated from high school and turned eighteen in the same week. Aunt Dottie collected me from my parents’ house and installed me in the tiny second bedroom of her apartment on the first floor of her building. I ended up staying until I got my first gig in South America.
I can’t take this traffic anymore, honeybee.
She yanked the wheel of her ancient Mercedes to the right and got off at the next exit, then pulled into a fast food place on Route One. I need to go to the little girls room. Would you mind getting me a soda?
The line going up to the counter was long, and there was only one cashier working. Customers grumbled, wondering why they only had one employee taking orders. The cashier was a small man who looked to be in his early twenties. His eyebrows were exquisitely arched with a small gold hoop in one of them. A woman who appeared to be his manager stood next to him, pointing a long sculptured nail in his face while whispering in his ear.
I hate Northern Virginia.
Aunt Dottie mumbled as she got in line next to me. Always a line to…
Fuck you.
The cashier shouted, then spun on his heel and snapped his fingers over his head. It’s time for me to sashay away.
He winked at the crowd of people in line, snatched the paper hat off his head and threw it at his manager. Seconds later he was out the door. Half of the people around us clapped, while the other half grumbled and walked out, not wanting to wait in line any longer.
Please tell me that’s how it went down with you and your boss.
Aunt Dottie said, a smirk playing on her lips. I laughed for the first time in days, then I wrapped my arms around her neck and pulled her in for a hug. God, I missed you so damn much.
I can’t really talk about it because I signed an NDA.
I said, then chewed on a French fry. We’d ended up leaving after the cashier walked out and going to a McDonald’s next door. Now we were driving down Route One, my Aunt avoiding the heavy traffic on 95, while I avoided questions about my shitty career.
I swear those stupid agreements are just so people can act like assholes and get away with it.
Aunt Dottie shook her head back and forth, then she noticed a lock of her red hair had come loose from her bun. She stuck it behind her ear with a practiced hand. So, your old bedroom is now my painting studio. There is a tiny apartment on the third floor you can have for now.
Just so you know, I have savings so I can…
I started, then she interrupted me.
You hold on to that money, sugar. I have a feeling you will be spending an awful lot of time figuring out your next adventure. Honeybee, you will be helping me in another way.
I glanced up at the rear-view mirror and noticed her lips were pursed, and if I wasn’t mistaken were suppressing a laugh.
So, how am I helping…
When we get there, you will need to move a few boxes down to a closet in the basement. I’ve been using the apartment for storage, since I’ve had a bitch of a time renting it out.
She interrupted. Nothing is wrong with it, just compared to the other apartments it’s tiny, and not many people enjoy climbing the stairs all the way to the top floor. Oh, and I have some furniture already in there. Nothing much, a bedroom suite and a few things for the living room. I wanted it to look lived in for when I showed potential renters.
Aunt Dottie continued on about the apartment and the other tenants, whom she was apparently quite fond of. Each floor overlooking Monument Avenue had a shared balcony used by all the tenants, and from the hints she dropped there must have been some rowdy parties. The rest of the drive flew by while she distracted me with family gossip and tales of her ballet school. When